#it wasnt even me who did any of that

[soggypotatoes]

back from the ER... bit scary, they had to stitch the wound up, there was fat in it.. Ive never cut that deep before, never thought I would.. like this is bad, I can't be doing this, I didn't think it'd get this far.. maybe I should start taking self harm seriously...? 😅

#self harm ///// #didnt need to see my own fat thank you very much #ed mumbles #also #i came home and my room is covereddd in blood it's everywhere #theres like a big cap of blood #and blood stains all over the place #i wasnt even aware of any of that #except the cap lol #who got murdered in here??? #im sorry if you read this #it wasnt even me who did any of that #i came to in the waiting room at some point #i dont even remember any of it much #i dont know how whoever it was cut that deep and wtf they were doing spraying blood all over the place

[sonknuxadow]

Sonics real name is 'none of your business'

#StopTryingToDeadNameTheHedgehog

REAL

#my main issue with people spreading the ''omg did you know sonics REAL NAME is OLGILVIE MAURICE?'' stuff is that it was never canon #it wasnt even a situation of it only being canon in archie sonic but not anywhere else. it wasnt canon in archie either #but also. it WAS canon in archie that sonic is a chosen name and sonic hates his birth name and doesnt identify with it at all #to the point where he had his name legally changed to sonic #how can you see all that and go ''yeah sonic isnt his Real Name .'' #idk its just weird!!!! sonic IS his name and insisting that it isnt just feels weird #of course a lot of people dont have that full context they just believed whatever lies random people on the internet told them #without doing any further research themself. but its still weird to me. as someone who does know all that stuff #asks

[firstofficerkittycat]

when the doctor asked emma grayling who clara is and she was like "she's a perfectly ordinary girl shes very clever and she's more scared than she lets on is that not enough" literally me to moffat

#clara oswald #doctor who #the fucking loss i experienced in bells of st john #couldnt even allow her to be good at hacking on her own da spoon men had to boost her iq<3 #that was the beginning of the end #she was such an interesting and derranged character she deserved more and by more i mean less #so so much less #she was interesting in her own right she did not need that other shit #like she literally had her own time lord victorious moment she saw the universe from birth to death in hide and it changed her #she kept doing increasingly more reckless shit because she went to space to fill a hole she was not trying or expecting to live that long #and she hates it when the doctor tries to be responsible for her #shes always like i never asked you to protect me!!! which is a wild take she refuses to recognise him as the one who can keep her alive in #environments she has never experienced before #she went with him to have some wacky fun and then she saw horrors beyond comprehension and went oh. ok. i can be god too #she looked at the doctor and went oh it's not that you're special it's that your circumstances give you power. and now i have power too #and i have power over you i can make you do things for me #that shit was so good #and like to be clear im not saying she cant have her whole orphan black thing going on #but like what did it actually do for her as a character? it couldve done a lot but she wasnt the focus of any of it #also p much everyone on this show has sacrificed themselves for the doctor it is not a defining trait #what defines her as a character is not that she was Born To Save The Doctor its that she thinks like this #nobodys ever safe!!!!! ive never asked you for that ever!!!

[spacedlexi]

sooo glad we live in the universe where twdgs4 was rewritten to be about saving the school instead of the original lis2-esque on the road each-episode-is-a-new-location plot. really dodged a bullet there

dont know if it was due to the cuts and collapsing work environment (no budget for all the assets needed) or what but the school plot is just like the perfect setting for her to end her story. and we really almost got a plot about her.... just trying to make it back to her original house? oof

#my biggest problem with lis2 is that being on the road made a lot of your choices essentially meaningless #like wheres the threat of consequence when you know youll be gone by the next episode anyway? #the kids were originally gonna kick them out permanently.......Nightmare Scenario #the plot of her trying to get back 'home' is so silly honestly like its Just nostalgia/fan bait. convince me otherwise you cant #it makes no sense....she lived right outside a major city... that place is Not safe anymore #it wasnt even safe when she left it 8 years ago girl why would you go back #her finding a place to MAKE a new home and having to fight for it? with a community of her peers who love and respect her? so much better #shes a community leader now :) of a bunch of kids living secretly in the woods just trying to make a safe home for themselves #in a hostile world that wants them dead #love that for her #shes been managing adults since she was 11 and even before that tried to be a voice of reason. at 8 years old. community leader makes sense #s4 is just so narratively sound to me for clems character that i cant believe there was ever any other direction they wanted to go in #every time im thinking about how good s4 is i remember what it almost was......... and i am so grateful we got what we did #not only do we live in the universe where s4 is about the school but we Also live in the universe where s4 was un-cancelled :) yay #shit makes me so happy man. i remember clem is living happily at ericsons and my day is Immediately improved #these little fictional bitches in my head giving me free serotonin on command #it speaks #twdg

[aro-bird]

Continuing on for whatever the fuck happened with that poll™ yesterday, OP claiming that it was made as a "joke poll" doesn't matter because they were still being arophobic and not at all curbing any aphobia in their replies. It's also apparent that the joke here is the absurdity of the existence of aro men who are also cishet which shows how little OP and other aphobes really know about the aro and ace spectrums and the nuance within them.

Besides, the fact that so many people aren't really taking to it as a "joke" as OP claims, and is just spewing out such rancid hatred for ace and aro people, even wishing for our deaths, is still something to be called out. It still shows how uncaring OP and those other people are.

They really don't give a shit about us.

#mayaposts #the disk horse #death threat tw #also op is obv trying to claim it's a joke while arguing with people who were talking abt how aphobic op was #but wasnt at all claiming that towards any of the actual aphobes #it's obv op was just using that as some sort of cover for their aphobia #keep in mind that the poll came from a screenshot of a convo between two people who were talking abt their fwb sitch #and one of them was disrespecting boundaries #not ONCE did the actual screenshot even allude to the guy being cishet aro #unless we're missing context #and like either way one shitty dude should not be the basis of you shitting on an entire identity #i was hurt by a mspec guy and you dont see me shitting on mspecs #i was also hurt by an aitistic girl and im not shitting on autistic people bc of one bad person #like holy shit

[commander-gloryforge]

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#damn . if i like. ever did something wrong i wonder why they dont just talk to me about it #like idk i thought when they like. vagued about *someone* i had to convince myself that it wasnt me #like i literally went through our messages to make sure i didnt say anything wrong #but apparently it was me after all? i just wish they wouldve. idk. talked to me about it #it feels so hypocritical? why are you allowed to say what you think and im not #unless i actually did what you claimed but i cant remember this happening nor can i find messages where it happens #and even then instead of vaguing about me when you know im not doing well you can just approach me #or is there a whole different reason? do you avoid me because of something else? am i just not on your level after all? #if it was any other person i wouldnt have cared so much but they were one of the first friends i made there #we worked out so well in the beginning and now you realised im not who you thought i was and instantly replaced me #why does this shit ALWAYS happen to me? is there something wrong with me or is it everyone around me? #this is why i dont approach people. this is why im so intimidated by others. it doesnt work. ill always end up being less. #everyone always ends up being better and more and i am the replacable one. idk. just sucks

[videogamelover99]

I Had a Realization About Ch.101 and No One's Talking About It

I had assumed that Dazai has the option to stop the flooding procedure in the Control Room but now that I think about it that is most likely not the case.

Dazai presents to Sigma a sequence of events that differs from what might actually be happening, timeline-wise. Dazai reveals information to Sigma in a way that makes us think every new step in Ch.101 that he reveals is a re-concieved way to defeat the new two-vs-two teamup of Dostoyevsky and Chuuya. But if you look at the events as they are happening in real time, that does not make any sense.

What's actually happening, in sequence:

Sometime before Sigma sees the Control Room, Dazai's cat lady stops time so Dazai can kill all the guards and set up his trap to kill Dostoyevsky.

We don't know exactly when this happens. It could have been before Gogol even showed up. It could have been when Gogol was explaning the rules. All we know is, it had to have been before Fyodor falls for the trap. So lets set it aside for now.

Other than that, what happens?

CH.98, after Dazai picks Sigma. Dazai dances around with Sigma some, seemingly wasting time.

Then this happens?

And Dazai abruptly switches to heading directly toward the Control Room. Which is interesting, because Sigma doesn't notice anything. This is most likely when the cat lady stopped time and Dazai was able to set up his trap. Because now that everything's in play, he can see it laid out for him with Sigma.

It's right after that we get the first signs of an intruder.

Dazai most likely knew Fyodor was going to pick a pawn to help him escape. What he didn't know, I'm sure, was that it was Chuuya.

Not only cause Dazai's entire demeanor changes when he realizes this, but because Dazai only says "I see" when a genuine realization comes to him, often times too late.

After this, Dazai sets up the "two vs. two" battle strategy for Sigma. Except here's the thing. That doesn't make sense if the trap is already in play. There is no battle! It's already decided!

This panel happens after the locking mechanism on Fyodor's side breaks, meaning that Dazai is stating this when his plan is already in motion. Dazai is explaining how they're going to beat Chuuya and Dostoyevsky as if he hadn't already set up the trap, so that Sigma thinks all of this is happening in real time.

Here's the important part Dazai mentions: Once closed, the walls will never open again and there's no way to stop the flooding. The walls will never open again implies that it's impossible for anyone to open them, including the people at the control terminal. "No way to stop the flooding" is also very specific. Dazai doesn't say that it's impossible for Dostoyevsky to stop the flooding, but impossible in general. (Interesting also how Fyodor says that Dazai got the circuit already as if he predicted the locking mechanism would blow up, just not this soon).

After his little explanation to Sigma, Dazai doesn't seem to do much except turn on the mic to the flooded room.

Dazai presents the facts to Sigma as if every action he took in the past he is taking due to the circumstances of the two-vs-two, but that's not the case, because Dazai has set up the trap in advance, most likely before he even knew Chuuya was the pawn. And it is a trap he himself cannot stop once it's triggered. Meaning that, unless a new factor comes into play, Dazai literally cannot do anything at this point except watch Chuuya drown. Dazai created the perfect plan, one that he himself cannot reverse. It's not about Dazai letting Chuuya die, it's about if he can stop his own plan in the first place.

#tldr: dazai fucked up by being too smart for his own good? #also he says time stops 'in the morning' and i dont think we get a time for when gogol shows up right? #cause if we do and its the afternoon we know dazai planned this out WAY earlier #oops #i realize this is not reassuring for people who want fyodor and chuuya to live BUT #it at least points out that dazai wasnt just gonna make chuuya a casualty bc he needed to kill fyodor he most likely didnt have any CHOICE #bsd theory #bsd meta #bsd manga #bsd chapter 101 #bungou stray dogs #dazai osamu #nakahara chuuya #sigma #fyodor dostoevsky #nah but if we get the reveal that dazai did infact play himself it would make so much sense character-wise too #cause we all know dazai would not kill chuuya willingly #and even pretending to kill chuuya to get a one-up on fyodor seems too convoluted to me #i dont think its accidental that dazai pretends like he's GOING to beat dostoyevsky while we already see fyodor drowning like the rat he is #soukoku #idk how dazai's gonna unfuck this one BUT #i see dazai making a deal with Gogol possibly? very enticing #bsd analysis

[cleromancy]

i absolutely do not vibe at all with any red hood steph concept ive ever seen because fucking nobody engages with it in any depth its just 🤔🤔 steph is basically the same as jason right? people who dont like jason online say so so it must be true~

like i need you first of all to walk back several steps and understand two major things about utrh and stephanie brown here. the first is that steph got into crime fighting in the first place bc she wanted to ~spoil~ the crimes of her c-list supervillain father. the second is that the core of the tragedy of the red hood is that batman is supposed to be his fucking dad.

so if you do want to do a red hood stephie concept here which. to be clear is not something i am INHERENTLY opposed to. you have a couple options to make it potentially coherent but you need to actually be deliberate and clear about what youre trying to do with that concept. you need to step away from jasons tragedy and look at hers and figure out where exactly her anger and hurt are coming from and who exactly theyre directed at, as well as what specifically in your au concept it would be so different than the canon one where when she comes back she wants to do pretty much the opposite of what jason wanted when *he* came back.

and. crucially. if the difference is the relationship she has to bruce being different you actually do need to show not tell that dude. im sorry but if you just *tell* me that in your universe that steph has a more deep and meaningful relationship to bruce i 100% always am like "ill believe it when i fucking see it". like, she has parents of her own and while that doesnt preclude having a more signficant relationship with bruce (see: timmy)... you really do have to do the legwork or it looks like youre just writing them out and asking us to take your word for it that Of Course steph wants bruce to adopt her, hes batman! gag, retch, spew. do notdo this.

FRANKLY in a reverse robins concept i vibe way more with steph as red robin than anything specifically her getting the dumpster costume from whoever you do put in the red hood role. (frankly x2 i still think if they really truly had to do the storyline they did in canon where shes still trying to do bruces dirty work for him and hires assassins to kill tim to ~make him better~ lmao she should have been the one who wore the Bad Robin uniform before tim got it instead of fuckin ulysses i just think it would have been more coherent and also funner for me personally)

anyway if you link me a red hood steph concept here and it sucks or does any of the things i Just finished critiquing i will be very irritated and i will not be polite to you about it. just as a fair warning.

#still kind of mad about this one time the topic came up and someone linked me a rh steph bc 'shes so sexy in it' #i was like bestie does the term gay man mean anything to you. and they were like #'oh sorry im asexual so i forgot that when some people say sexy it means they want to Fuck them' #... #like can you walk me through any of your logic here. why sexy was the adjective you used in the first place instead of like #'interesting'. 'compelling.' 'charismatic' even #why are you acting like im the weird one for assuming you meant attractive or swoonworthy being the main draw of the character. #why am i supposdly the one who made it about whether or not *either of us* wants to fuckthe fictional character. i wasnt even thinking that! #i truly madly deeply did not assume anything more than that you meant attractive when you said attractive #lmfao. #this wasnt even the only time that shit has happened to me. please do not do this. #i would love to say with confidence 'you wouldnt say shit like that to a lesbian about sexy men' but frankly i do have a sinking feeling+ #that they would #whatever. none of that was the fucking point #the point is jasons evil era doesnt work if u just copypaste it on steph shes a totally different character the context is totally different #text #dc

[sonknuxadow]

jesus christttt im not surprised at all to hear that the knuckles series focuses on wade and other human characters a lot i saw this coming a mile away with how almost all the news we were getting before the trailer came out was about the human characters/actors and not about knuckles (or sonic or tails or any other animated characters) but the fact that somebody calculated how many minutes of screentime knuckles has and it came out as LESS THAN HALF OF THE ENTIRE SERIES' RUNTIME when the series is NAMED after him is ridiculous. after this show comes out wade will likely have more screentime and overall plot relevance in the entire scu than tails does. did they actually think wade is a popular enough character for people to be down with this. what the fuck

#was gonna pirate the series but at this rate i might not watch it at all LMAO or at the very least only watch the parts with team sonic #because my interest in this series is dropping every second and i already wasnt very interested in it. #and i love knuckles so you know theyre doing something wrong if knuckles getting his own series isnt interesting me #the thing about wade is i dont even hate the idea of human characters. i dont think its bad for human characters to be present #and i dont think its bad for them to be involved in the plot and have relationships with the existing sonic characters #i personally didnt mind the wedding subplot in the second movie and i know a lot of people hated it #but. it becomes a problem when the random humans are overshadowing the characters people are actually here to see #like the show is literally called knuckles and all the marketing focuses on knuckles but its mostly about wade. allegedly. #and . i wouldnt have minded knuckles having a human costar. but again. they should be getting equal or less focus not more. #and also. its fucking wade who cares about wade enough to want this. would have been more forgiving if it was maddie or jojo or something #because i actually care about those characters. and also theyre not cops #for a moment i was willing to believe that the complaints about wade having way more screentime than knuckles #were a little exaggerated since a lot of people just get mad when the human characters have any screentime at all #but then i saw the article showing that knuckles really did show up for less than half the show and i was like Ummm. What #sorry for being so negative lately #its just that every new piece of info we get about upcoming scu projects has me like that reaction image of the guy holding a cigarette #like WHAT ARE THEY DOINGGGGGGG

[lycanthian]

one thing about me js that i be in love

#working on things. having a nice night compared to yesterday. #came to a realization that maybe complaining about my problems So Much #without being able to give any form to get help or help myself with them is detrimental to my mental health #i still want to talk about them but i want to start making an effort to talk With Someone about them #versus just talking and letting myself spiral #boyfriend helped me realize this although i dont know exactly how much he knows he did. #it was like a side epiphany that wasnt the focus of our conversation. regardless he helped me a lot even in such a simple way and #i dont want to lose that again. keep hanging on. dont go down the spiral if i can avoid it yknow #anyways. shrug. that is all to say i love him and im glad he found me at such a weird time in my life #also if u are the boyfriend who is reading this. hi. i love you. :] 💖 #gamey rambles #💜

[quietwingsinthesky]

Changing the mark of Cain so he received it from Lucifer, not God, was a choice!!! They did not have to do that, it changes nothing really about the actual Mark of Cain storyline!!! AND THEN HE JUST NEVER TALKS WITH LUCIFER ON SCREEN???? EVER????

#THEY DIDNT HAVE TO FUCKING DO THAT. #they literally could have gone ‘yeah Cain got it *after* lucifer since Lucifer was locked up in the cage’ #literally zero reason that they had to shift this to an exchange WITH lucifer but they did!!! and they made Lucifer the one who chose that #Abel had to die!!! and now it’s not about jealousy it’s about trying to save someone you love from becoming a monster by being an even worse #one!!! WHY DID THEY DO THIS. WHO DECIDED THIS. AND THEN LUCIFER AND CAIN NEVER FUCKING INTERACT. #they literally remixed the mark of Cain. you know. (shadow the hedgehog devil voice) from the bible. #and they did not need to do any of that. so I can only conclude they did it specifically to drive me insane. #forget the ‘they didn’t even cast Abel’ bit BRO WHYD THEY MAKE IT SO THAT CAIN WAS TRYING TO SAVE HIM. WHY DID THEY MAKE THIS THOUSAND YEAR #OLD STORY INTO A DIFFERENT STORY ABOUT HOW THE ONLY WAY TO LOVE SOMEONE ENOUGH TO SAVE THEM IS TO BE WILLING TO KILL THEM. #GOD ISNT EVEN THERE BRO. GOD WASNT EVEN THERE. #spn #cain spn #lucifer spn

[the-trans-dragon]

Y'know it was REALLY goddamn evil and nefarious that the oil fields gave my mom (a single mom working 3 jobs to raise 2 kids) a single $5,000 check in exchange for her signing a nondisclosure to never complain about them.

Of course we fucking took the money. Even with her working 1 full-time job and 2 part-time jobs, she barely made over $1,000 a month. Of course she took the money. We though about moving but we still couldn't afford it. She was so frugal with it, though. It did give us a sliver of financial security for years.

But goddamn. $5,000 is table scraps to them, and they bought her silence with it because she couldn't refuse the chance to slightly lessen the weight of poverty on her family.

#sorenhoots #i remember i was like 11 or something. she didnt know if she should sign it. and its not like we had or knew any lawyers. she had ME read it #over and even i was like “this is a nondisclosure and it means you cant ever talk about anything they do even if they do something terrible” #i recall being very proud of myself for knowing what a NDA was. lord knows where my middle-school self learned that from. she did eventually #have a lawyer of some sort look over it and they said the same thing but.... $5000 #it wasnt an option for her. that was more money than wed ever had or saved. she had two kids who would need cars bc we lived so far in the #country. she knew i wanted to go to college. i dont think i ever saw her buy herself clothes before then either. it was money for emergencys #and necessities and birthday presents and road trips and... i often wondered about the person who offered us that. i wondered where they #lived and wondered how much their clothes costed and wondered if their kids got to have art or piano lessons. i wondered if their home was #over 80 degrees in the summer and under 60 in the winter and if they lived in a house that wasnt filled with dangerous spiders (we had nice #spiders too but we did also have Very Dangerous Spiders) and id picture him in his office in a button up and slacks and it would break my #heart that my mom couldnt have all of that. we just had a $5000 check and a vow to not complain. #she still feels earthquakes from it. less nowdays but still. and sometimee it still smells like a jar of hot petroleum jelly. and the attic #smell is worse than ever and the tap water smells like sulfur and wet mold #goddamn what the fuck? jesus christ. she should move.

[hell-heron]

Sometimes the fact that GRRM has, amid all his efforts to have nuance and a wide spectrum in his female characters and to deconstruct certain tropes, played the daddy's girl tomboy in contrast to the hostility or complete elimination of the female figures in her life trope completely straight over and over again, with basically every female warrior he wrote, from his female lead to two whole secondary POVs to one note extras (with the exception of the Mormont ladies yeah at least, maybe when we get more Alysane content I will be less grumpy about this), leaves me kind of bitterly shocked tbh

#have seen a very rightful post that people are vocal about ned favoring arya but not so about cat favoring sansa and while part of it is #yea some people can't read etc on the other its also true that the first is a living onpage subtle dynamic and plot relevance and #the second is. stock recollection of generic my mom told me to brush my hair :( episodes between characters who never interact #and that kinda contrasts with other things we know of cat: like she clearly did not overvalue primness in her childhood memories. she takes #to other willful ladies so quickly and this with arya already having plenty of negative female figures with sansa jeyne and septa mordane #idk i get why the fandom isnt too focused on this. not ideal for when what is being done is objective analysis of the text ofc. but i feel #ignoring lazy male writing is kind of a fandom tradition even if here the well is poisoned for any deviation from canon sadly #with the distortion at play from that side #i have not tagged the canon nor any character's full name so huh if you see this in any tag i apologize and that wasnt the intention #i also strive heavily in my writing to subvert this with asha as far as canon supports but one my mother raised me to be bold doesnt really #change the fact that is def a case of complete elimination of the female authority figure in practice #op

[lovebvffys]

something that bothers me so much about euphoria season 2 vs season 1, is that season one while it strayed from the plot quite a bit, it had a clear plot and a clear idea and it all seemed like it had been written before two days ago. and then you go into season 2 and it's like,,, what the fuck????

because they completely ignored kat, and ik it's because of off screen stuff, but still. lexi's whole plot line changed, cassie and nate ??? ? ?? ? ? ? ? ?? ?and the whole jules and nate plot just vanished and was replaced by jules/rue/elliot love triangle when jules just was coming to terms with the fact that shes a lesbian.

it's just so obvious that s*m got wayy too caught up in the glam and 'aesthetic' of euphoria that he forgot what his own damn show was about and it drives me a little crazy. the stuff in season one that was good was SOO good, and then almost all of that was dropped in s2 in favor of two boring ass love triangles and an unplanned poorly written season plot.

#euphoria #anti euphoria s2 #i strongly dislike euphoria season 2 #if that wasnt clear #this show man #its #ik this is controversal cus like no one who watched the show wants to say that the whole season was bad but like #trash it!! THROW IT AWAY! START OVER #the only good thing was how good my girls jules and maddy looked all season #but even that!! is just more proof that s2 was shitty #because in s1 there was so much more to talk about than just the #i thought despite the season itself #alexa still did fucking amazing #and dont even get me started on zendaya man shes like #she sjust so good at what she does #this stupid ass show doesnt deserve any of the good actors it had so far pulled