#i wasnt even aware of any of that

[soggypotatoes]

back from the ER... bit scary, they had to stitch the wound up, there was fat in it.. Ive never cut that deep before, never thought I would.. like this is bad, I can't be doing this, I didn't think it'd get this far.. maybe I should start taking self harm seriously...? 😅

#self harm ///// #didnt need to see my own fat thank you very much #ed mumbles #also #i came home and my room is covereddd in blood it's everywhere #theres like a big cap of blood #and blood stains all over the place #i wasnt even aware of any of that #except the cap lol #who got murdered in here??? #im sorry if you read this #it wasnt even me who did any of that #i came to in the waiting room at some point #i dont even remember any of it much #i dont know how whoever it was cut that deep and wtf they were doing spraying blood all over the place

[junkdyke]

For clarification, no I am NOT a TERF, I am not and was not involved with @tigermotif-deactivated20231010 Graham's sideblog, i'm aware my URL is in the screenshots because I guess she accidentally reblogged a selfie from me to her sideblog instead of her main, but no. I did not know and I do not support that shit!

#i wasnt even aware my name was in any screenshots until i just now saw it #mine

[cabinetduo]

that post abt "no that Korean speaker is not saying the nword post" pissed me tf off. I wasn't gnna say anything but yall will truly use any excuse to be all "I'm not touching you racist" to black people. it's old ass discourse that maybe yall don't know bcs yall aren't black but not once has anyone been like "oh that person speaking an entire different language with an entirely different alphabet is clearly saying a racial slur". maybe nonblack people who wanna speak for us but it's like. a whole thing. It's making up fictional black people to get mad at. calling "Americans" self-centered in the notes is crazy when we know exactly what Americans you are talking about!!

#everybody always wants to be in our fucking buisness #making up niggas to get mad at #i wasnt even gonna make this post really i wasnt but the amount of ppl going 'wow americans are so egotism and self centered' about tjis #THATS RACISM #YOUR BEING RACIST #NO BLACK PEOPLE GET UPSET ABT TJIS ITS CLEAR WHEN YALL THINK WE ARE TOO STUPID TO HAVE ANY SELF AWARENESS #the amount of times yall will say 'Americans' and really mean black people as a means to avoid being called racist like fuck off #do you know how fucked up it feels when everyone is toting around a racial slur that they truly are unable to understand the depth of #i dunno!! everybody is always inour buisness so whatever!!!! #im frustrated as fuck #no hate to op but fuck man #🌱

[hiveswap]

Im going to fucking throw up

#i hate posting about how im insecure abt my drawings because that just makes people rb them out of pity thats annoying as shit dont do that #but then i try for hours to draw something and its honestly not important to me but by the end im pretty pround #so i post it knowing no ones gonna give a shit #and yeah pretty much thats what happens #and i feel like shit bc no one owes me attention ffs #and i know it isnt anything special and i should have drawn something actually interesting instead of another portrait #and i complain to my mother and shes like #'well this is something a child would have drawn it isnt good' #and im like oooh i should kms got it #like obviously im the one who craves validation without putting any effort into making it actually cool #so this is like no one's fault and im self aware of it and it drives me INSANE #and i need to vent this but it will make someone go pity rb all of my stuff and it's gonna feel like shit bc i hate begging for notes #like you know if someone wasnt going to reblog why beg them to. thats not them actually liking the art thats bullshit guilt tripping #i dont even need exposure i dont sell any drawings exposure is useless to me i dont even know what i want #i just want to make something that people like what the fuck

[theygender]

I just found out that the majority of the music I used to listen to back in my "emo phase" was actually nu-metal. I don't know what to do with this information

#like i mean. i always knew it wasnt 'real' emo music #i had friends who listened to 'real' emo music and tried to get me into their bands and i just didnt like them as much #i definitely was emo in like outlook and stuff but i was just into harder stuff music-wise #i always thought of the music i listened to as alternative rock or hard rock tho. which like. it still IS #but apparently more specifically its nu-metal. like. pretty much every formative band that i listened to at the time #im having an identity crisis now smh. was i actually... a baby metalhead? #i didnt even get into any emo music until AFTER my 'emo phase' ended 😔 im a fraud #rambling #disclaimer: i am aware that the subcultures are more than just their music lol #im the one that has that nearly 100k subculture praxis alignment chart going around rn with the funny ska addition on it #ive just been learning more about which bands are technically what (sub)genre recently and this discovery was funny to me #(apologies to any Actual metalheads i may have offended #by jokingly referring to myself as a metalhead for accidentally listening to nu-metal bands during my emo phase) #(...and to any Actual emos i may have offended by accidentally listening to nu-metal bands during my 'emo' phase) #(go ahead and laugh me out of the mall/skate park 😔 i deserve it)

[deus-and-the-machina]

ffxiv garlemald discourse is so funny because people will go "ugh people just cant stand it when things aren't black and white" and then you look at how the empire are portrayed in stormblood and shadowbringers and its like hm. that seems like a pretty intense and accurate display of violent imperialism to me! Wow I wonder why people in this day and age may find it hard to feel sympathy for them or even hate them on principal. god its such a mystery.

the games like 50/50 to me on how it tackles these themes because I actually like the garlemald arc in EW, I think it has a lot of horrific and powerful scenes depicting how self destructive fascist propaganda and beliefs are, but I also think it doesn't go far enough on some fronts. the garleans' xenophobia is most notably and obstacle to getting them to accept the contingent's help, which is what they're there to do,

but there's never an admission of harm from any garleans on the uuuuuuuuh massive amount of war crimes the nations around them are still suffering from they're just kind of like "we misjudged you...but you actually wanted to help us all along" like yeah thats great now can we get you all some deprogramming because you keep talking about returning to your prime and glory days and I think we need to unpack some stuff you really SHOULDNT return to. im not even really talking about EW proper but the patches where things are a bit more chilled out and people are recovering.

It feels like they wanted to have their critique of imperialism and also have things end with the beauty of human connection and reaching out and these things just don't mesh well because hey a lot of your modern day audience is not gonna like having to treat people yelling xenophobic things at the cast and your character with kid gloves after you showed them hours and hours of the awful things these people's beliefs have done. especially in the present day hoo boy.

#im kind of torn between 'no characters dont need to be 'punished' to be redeemed but also the characters just being so lenient with the #colonizers after we see far too many people being lenient if not supportive of the colonizers irl. well. it really blows afslkjfalkf and #yeah you can argue if they'd gone through with the garlemald expansion they would've had more time to go into this but the fact is that its #absent from what they did do and I especially think the patches when we go to garlemald and the EW role quests going 'hey maybe the #provinces can help us rebuild' as if they'd have any goddamn right to ask that just make me feel like they didnt stick the landing #seeing all the characters who have suffering time and time again bc of the garleans or seen the results of their actions having to clamp #their mouths shut every time someone said something xenophobic in EW isnt satisfying and it leaves so much unsaid! #also some people feel like the narrative didnt blame emet enough but ngl I think thats reductive even with his micromanaging scheming littl #ass and the intention of garlemald turning out a shitshow that doesnt make anyone else less complicit. most governments like this exaggerat #and lie and spread propaganda but I dont think most people here excuse the actions of a bigot because 'they were raised that way' #this is also my issue with gaius' writing. hes primarily upset that ascians were behind what he thought was his good old fashioned natural #conquering ideology :( and doesnt it suck so much he killed people for it. like yeah he seems pretty aware what he did was wrong but his #ideology remains bizarrely intact and unchallenged by the characters around him. no dude it wasnt just the ascians the system is a lot more #complex than that by this point aaaaaugh #final fantasy xiv #ffxiv #siren says #I hope people are nice to me about this I dont think I said anything particularly controversial to the Tumblr crowd (twt maybe but fuck em) #ig my main point with this post is that the game isnt perfect at writing this and also that look. I actually liked the main arc in EW and I #like quite a few garlean characters but I completely understand why others didnt like it or any garleans esp if they have their own persona #experiences with colonialism and I dont get to tell them they're invalid for that. too many people get judgmental about this understandably #upsetting topic and you just gotta accept that this is a big line for many people

[slocumjoe]

hey uhhh i went thru ur oc post history and u said gus set himself on fire?? pls context

I love this character because whenever someone asks about him I always have to take a deep breath and get comfortable and suck a breath in through my teeth. I treat him so poorly

More Gus lore, because that specific event is actually tied to the very first event that would fuck him up forever, so I can't really talk about it without going in depth.

This is explaining the core tenent of Augustijn's story, which is guilt and its dangers. Basically, where that constant guilt came from, and how it...turned out for him...

It turns out okay. Just...takes 200+ years, an apocalypse, a divorce, and his son dying! 🥳Yay🥳

Tw; Religious trauma, child abuse, suicide, drug use, cannibalism, mental illnesses, and yet another suicide attempt.

So, some background, Gus's mom, Emma, was a fanatic catholic and generally Bat Shit about religion. As you might imagine, this is the Direct Source of both Gus' questionable worldviews, traumas, and his biological inclination to uuuhhh bad Head Times.

Emma was raised mildly religious, but she...took to it too hard? Her family was not the cause of her obsession, Gus's grandparents and uncles/aunts over there actually cut her off at one point, because she was starting to worry them but reaching out led to her lashing out. So, they just...backed off. Emma herself was a simple, homebody woman, who wanted to be at home raising her kids, and tending her garden. She would have been this way even without the religious thing.

But Emma and her side of the family were prone to addiction, see? And religion became her point of fixation and obsession. This could have still been okay, if not for the church she went into. A catholic church in the Hague that was known by all for being kind of fucking out there, even by other hardcore Catholics. This was one she went into, and even her grandchild 240+ years later would feel the ripple of this decision.

Emma goes into church and gets gnarly ideas about how life works. Its a woman's duty to have kids and raise them, to be good to her husband and her house, to listen and obey her men. Sin is inevitable and everyone does it, only those that admit and accept punishment can get another chance at Paradise. God knows every action you take and he does not care for the context, he only cares about the action. There is no "well, but" under the Lord.

Emma has mental illness, some kind of depression and anxiety, so this Big Brother Watching And Judging fucked her up. Especially since her church, in particular, was physically abusive if you did not confess to anything during confession. They thought if you had nothing to confess, you were lying.

At this point, she's met and engaged to Theodore Reinier, a rich heir to a European manufacturing company. He's pretty, a gentleman, and best of all, rich, so she can have as big and luxurious a garden as she wants. She likes him. She does not love him. She's in her twenties and unmarried with no kids, and her poor family needs to be taken care of. So she marries him. Theodore is smart enough to see this for what it is, and kind enough to allow it. He lets his wife do her own thing and treats her as a friend, rather than a lover. She hates this, she wants to be a wife (she doesnt). She wants kids, he gives her one. Augustijn. This birth goes rough, and she's told no more children.

Theodore makes one rule; August goes to a different church, or he does not go at all. Theo really didn't like Emma's church and he certainly wasn't exposing his kid to that shit.

Emma pretends to agree and takes Gus to That Church. Theo doesn't attend, so he doesn't know this is happening until much later. Gus gets all the same nasty shit Emma does. Theo learns of this when he sees Gus covered in bruises from confession beatings. This puts a huge rift between him and Emma, and he pulls all the strings he can to have her church shut down.

Emma grows to resent and hate Theo and Augustijn for not being the perfect husband and child she deserves as a good, God fearing house wife. Augustijn is left to his nannies, Emma hides away in her private garden, fuming. Theodore tries to bond with his son, but Emma's poisoned that well.

Emma tells Augustijn about demons, to fear them. She specifically tells him about church grims, demons that hunt around churches in the form of a dog to drag sinners to hell. She says this as she's admiring her new obsidian dog statues for her garden.

Eventually, Emma goes yellow wallpaper and loses her mind, and is sent to therapy and put on medications. Augustijn loathes his father for his mother's state. Theodore just wants his friend and son okay. But Emma, as she's out in town, coming back from therapy, she stops at a friend's house while the friend isn't there, and hooks up with the woman's husband. Friend's husband was stern, strict with his wife, God fearing, and generally an obnoxious 50s ideal shithead husband. Everything Emma wanted. This wasn't out of nowhere, it was brewing in the background. She knew both of them from her old church.

Emma goes home, and finally having a reason for the guilt that's always plagued her, elects to acknowledge her sin. She drowns herself in the pond of her garden, stared down by three dark, ruby-eyed dogs, overseeing her passage into the afterlife. Her young son comes into the garden to meet his mother, after she's been gone all day, only to find her in a red pool. He looks up into the eyes of the dogs. He remembers nothing of this incident, blocking it out and having been too young to understand.

Years pass, and Augustijn turns to drugs as well, though his come from the darkest parts of the Hague, rather than a doctor. He turns to sex, to crime, to anything he thinks will either corrupt him so much he doesn't care, or will finally make his guilt feel justified. He wears his mother's cross necklace through it all, and sees her beloved dog with every sin.

Augustijn goes to America for college, to Harvard, studying to become a pastor himself. (This is maybe the most terrifying part of him, the fact that he almost got it). But he doesn't feel satisfied with it, has a moment of clarity and realizes he isn't fit to preach anything. The grim certainly doesn't think so. He instead follows his only friend, Isadora, into the military. The US government allowing their soldiers to do chems means his failed drug tests don't matter.

Augustijn becomes a sniper. He has always hurt people, excelled in it, but taking life frightens him, because he knows he has no right to decide who lives or dies, not like this. But he's in China, and he's told to kill. He does, and he's very good at it. His teammates marvel at just how scrappy and determined he is, like a weed, a mold.

The Biandukou Pass Incident occurs. He eats his entire team, trapped in a Chinese mountain range during a blizzard.

Delirious from almost two months of surviving on nothing but psycho and human flesh, Augustijn is let loose back into Boston, honorably discharged. His lingering hallucinations from his Daytripper addiction, mixed with psycho withdrawal, trauma, guilt, shame, the fear of God—everything culminates. He looks up and sees the figure that has haunted him since that one, awful day; the church grim, staring expectantly.

His mother drowned herself, so he thought it fitting if he set himself ablaze.

#ss; alter #I hate to put a word to his specific illness because you always get people like 'this isnt what i think this is like so pls die' #but i imagine he'd be diagnosed with hppd #hallucinogen persisting perception disorder. basically lingering effects of hallucinogenics after use #the point of emma is that she did not ever see past the shit #Augustijn gradually learns how to reject his guilt and view himself objectively #and comes to see how he was hurt and how he hurt others. and accepts that he has a right to feel hurt but an obligation to be better #emma doesnt. she never would have even if she survived her attempt #its like. you only feel guilt because its a concept put into you #and emma taught him guilt. always feel dirty and shameful. #but. she didnt feel guilty. not really. she was confident in all of her actions and never once hesistated #she thought it was guilt just because she knew how it would look to other people. thats not guilt thats awareness. #she wasnt guilty she feared repercussions. #meanwhile her son grew up always ashamed and horrified at himself and was desperate for any kind of comeuppance #not to make it okay because he knew it wouldn't. but because he deserved it #accountability and justice are also big concepts in gus' character. the idea that someone becoming better and earnestly doing it #is better and more worthwhile than them suffering for their actions. this comes up with the Institute and Isadora #anyway if any of you come at me bitching about portaying a woman as abusive im biting #'joe no one does fhat' they literally do. its happened to me before. yall say you support womens wrongs until theyre abusive moms #anyway. fun fact; being beaten during confessions is why gus cant admit when hes done wrong for like 30 years. its a trauma/trigger #gus really is just. 'how do i process what happened to me without losing my mind' #and he lost his mind. but he does everything he can to find it again. because he doesnt want to feel this way anymore

[wethecelestial]

8 minutes into mandatory safety training and i am already about to break into [redacted hospital] and chew apart all their electrical wiring :)

#literally FIRST scenario was like 'u have a patient in the room with u who has brought weapons to the hospital in the past' #'the first thing u need to do is call the cops so they can search them and all their belongings' #WITHOUT. i might add. having literally any indication that they have a weapon on them rn lol #like girl literally if my doctor did that even if i wasnt planning on doing anything before i sure as hell am gonna pull my knife out now!!! #im gonna be honest yes i think doctors need de-escalation training but tbh i think what 95% of doctors actually need is just to like #have even just the tiniest spoonful of social awareness. learn to have empathy for one single person in the world.

[disabled-queer-culture-is]

Disabled culture is going to see a doctor about a new medical scare and being able to predict exactly what they’re going to suggest, because it’s the exact same thing every doctor tells you for everything

#disabled culture is #ableism tw #medical ableism #like. ma’am. i just had a terrifying experience and am seeking medical help to make sure it doesnt become a regular occurrence #you do not need to treat me like a toddler #‘just eat more and get your bmi to a better range and you’ll be fine :)’ MA’AM #i am aware i weigh about as much as a sopping wet kitten but i am not here about the autoimmune disease causing that #i am here because i fainted hit my head and felt like i was experiencing violet involuntary movement even though i wasn’t #anyway congrats to this doctor for taking two hours to tell me something i learned from talking with potsies like 6 years ago #anyway my shock thoughts are really funny. she pressed on my nails to check for dehydration and my single thought was #‘thats not how they did it on mythbusters >:(‘ #fr tho uhhh fainting is super scary and i salute everyone who deals with it regularly #also is it normal to like. #i felt like my head was jerking around and I couldn’t stop it and that lasted for like a full minute after i was aware again #couldn’t talk or move like my arms or anything while it was happening #doctor literally just waved me off when i asked. if anyone has any insight on why i felt like that when my head wasnt moving pls lemme know #also tbh i dont even know if it technically counts as fainting. my eyes were open the whole time apparently #but everything before and after the fall for about a minute is blank #anyway uh! we think im fine! no blood and probably no concussion the only thing with major damage is the wall lol

[acanthemp3]

its not easy being the least qualified most incompetent employee who is always fucking up but someone has to do it 🫡

#and whenever i talk abt it with other ppl theyre like oh your job shouldnt affect ur self worth #but the difference is i work in childcare its kind of a big deal that im not good at it :/ #when they hired me for the after school program but decided to put me with toddlers right after. they told me theyd train me #bc i only had experience with grade schoolers. AND THEN THEY DIDNT #ive been here 3.5 months and im finding brand new ways to fuck up things i wasnt even aware of #i need to quit but i cant have any more gaps in my resume #also we're already short staffed but also i feel like having no one is better than having me #but ALSO im going to miss these kids 😭 #whatever. i guess all i can do rn is just keep trying to do better even tho it feels like im hopeless #angel.txt

[zeawesomebirdie]

Nine days and about a million words of superbat fic later, I think we're finally back to our regularly scheduled program here on the ZeAwesomeBirdie blog! :)

#vent post #not actually a vent lmao but thats the tag #(wow i havent used those tags in a *while* i had to go back and check what they were) #but im at that stage of quote unquote recovery where while i *do* still feel like ive been hit by a truck #(several trucks. actually.) #i am very well aware i do *not* have the capability to do much else *besides* read #even though im getting antsy #im waiting for one of my parents to get the various b@tman movies ive requested from the library for me #because i am low key still testing positive (and im not actually 100% on this but i think i might have/end up with long covid) #so im still under quarantine for the foreseeable future #but this is fine cause like #i promised myself id finish my current season of gunsmoke before i got too invested in any new TV/movies #since its so rare for me to do TV/movies in the first place #so thats what we'll be doing today! #at least until my fixation grabs me in a chokehold and forces me back to fic (affectionate) #id actually really like to be writing because heaven knows my writer's brain *never* shuts up #but actually this is the first time ive been too sick to write in.... literal years #i wasnt even too sick to write when i was bleeding to death yknow? #but im too antsy for fic. so. #finishing Gunsmoke it is #lucky for me Chester is such a pretty guy 👀 #anyway yeah we're back to our regularly scheduled programming here now :) #ill make a pinned post if (when) i do another liveblog once i get the movies #love yall hope yall are having a good timezone! #also fuck my brainfog for making a typo in my own url ??????? #like bro #(this is a huge part of why i cant currently write lmao)

[beauceronn]

Every time I talk to Dogo people they try to convince me I don't want a Dogo and every time I'm more convinced I DO want a Dogo lol. The entry today was insane (3 whole Dogos. Unbelievable).

Also I did get to meet the Central Asian Ovcharka! Sort of, anyway. He's a working guard dog so not a dog I was able to interact with, but he was gorgeous and his owner is just the sweetest. It was amazing to see one in person. They're really way bigger than you can even envision, I think. He was only a puppy.

Showing went okay for my first time I think! For someone who was just thrown in the ring with a dog I did not know even a little and who messed up a bit on showing the bite and who didn't know to run with the specials, she got Select which isn't Awesome but it's better than nothing for a first try. She was super forgiving and such a good girl.

Seeing all the Mudis was awesome (of course).

The Clumbers I posted are actually the same Clumbers I met as puppies back in February! Clumbers are a pretty rare breed around here so that's not especially surprising, but they're just the cutest. Far and away my favourite spaniels and have been since I was a kid 😆

Met up with the Terv and Smooth Collie people but didn't get a chance to watch the Roughs. I don't think I knew any of them anyway, but it's usually worth a look. Fingers crossed that the schedule for the next show doesn't have Beaucerons and Roughs overlapping so I can spend time with both.

Anyway, that's the rundown. Tons of fun, there were dogs, it was hot, I was eaten alive by mosquitoes at 7 am.

#i just cant do dogo drama 💀 #really i think beaucerons can be bad but i look at dogos and i realise we have it so good #we only have one byb that i know of #dogos? i swear 90% of them are byb #and a lot have really really poor temperaments. which is something ive mentioned before #and i know beaucerons even have a bad rap but geez dogos have it worse. #the difference i suppose is ive seen a dogo try to go after someone and ive not seen a beauceron do so #which is entirely anecdotal. but. yk #dogos and corsos both have this issue. which is messed because i love both breeds. #swissies also have a poor reputation i wasnt aware of until i saw a swissy go after another dog at a show and someone mentioned it to me #which is crazy. #in any case! even from the outside looking in the dogo community is very toxic and very cutthroat #which is such a shame.

[farahblack]

i do not want a stranger things x dghda crossover bc ive seen some of the shit the st fandom puts out and its frankly garbage (sorry), but i WOULD like to see dirk and murray try to attack each other. gay on gay violence. mlm hostility. two karate amateurs trying to kick each other while joyce and todd simultaneously try to stop them and exchange tired looks over their heads

#what i am picturing is dirk and murray in a cartoony cloud of fists and limbs on the floor while joyce and todd are standing over them #halfheartedly going guys no. stop. stop it dirk. murray you are an adult man please. guys this is embarrassing. come on we have to go #better yet hopper and farah are also present. theyre not doing anything theyre just standing to the side ignoring the fight and most of all #each other. i have a vision ok #would a dg/st crossover ever work conceivably? no and i dont want it to let me make that extremely clear. dghda and st should NOT be #combined. at any costs. they are separate they cannot be mixed. okay? okay #i have seen some truly mmm interesting takes on a potential crossover and let me tell u they were Not it #im aware i have very specific tastes regarding the content i consume so u could take what im saying with a grain of salt but trust me bro #trust me! it wasnt good! it didnt work! i bitched with my friend about it! anywayz moving on #while dg and st should NOT be mixed. i WOULD like to see the token gay detectives/'detectives' of the show duking it out. i think it would #be funny. they would hate each other with such a rabid passion on sight. theyre like the antithesis of each other. on completely opposite #ends of the gay weirdo detective scale #it feels weird to call murray a detective even though TECHNICALLY by canon he IS a p.i. or at least had a stint as a p.i. in accordance to #the canon timeline #but im lumping in to the gay detective pile. hes a gay weirdo detective by vibe if not by occupation #ANYWAY apologies for the incoherent ramble in the tags on this fine evening. except im not sorry this is my blog and i get to go crazy <3 #DO U GET ME. DO U GET THIS SPECIFIC THING IM ENVISIONING. DIRK AND MURRAY FISTICUFFS VISION TY AND GOODNIGHT #misc

[orcelito]

Great to know my mind can still break by someone standing a Little too close to me for a Little too long

#speculation nation #im fine but i had to flee lab bc lmao #feeling like a small prey animal bc ppl kept getting too close to me and that is. bad. #what i need is to hole up in a small solitary place with music blasting. i dont really have that here. #gonna go do some stuff at work tho and i may have to take a like 15 min solitude sit in storage to set my mind right #i wasnt making any progress in lab anyways. this isnt due for another few weeks so it's fine. #ykno id like to blame covid for my neurotic prey animal reaction to ppl getting close to me but nah #ive been like this since Long before that. but it certainly didnt help anything :) #in fact the public commitment (for the most part) to social distancing helped this anxiety quite a bit #but now no one is scared of covid anymore which means they get too close to me and i end up like a neurotic prey animal. woo. #too many voices talking too many people in a small area even my music wasnt helping bc i was still Aware of them #hell. hell world. hellllll world. #i hate small lab spaces oh my god. #anyways off to work with me 🙂👍

[ellsellmesoull]

Hi sweetie! I hope you’re doing pretty well! just wanted to ask a favor for some help if you could possibly help me spread the word for my cat please? Pls help by boosting it or by reblogging, im really sorry cause I know this is kinda strange, pls send me a msg to reply :(( or answer the ask privately if its okay, I hope you’d consider, I’m sorry for being so desperate. 😭🙏

HEYY im sorry to hear abt ur cat hope things are getting better i dont usually use my pc for tumblr

totally didnt see ur ask untill now

i dont get many asks and this tumblr eating asks but not on desktop have happened before

omg i really hope its better now but idont really know what happened

#asks #would rly help if you could tag me in a post abt the awareness #but what happened?? #and i dk when u even sent me this ask #im so sorry i didnt see the ask #usually theres a notification on app and nothing in the askbox and i go to desktop and its usually a bot #but there wasnt any notification #omg i hope ur cats ok

[prettyyinpunk]

My take on the situation

#okay like #I went to riot fest last year and had a great time #the crowds were great the pit was great everyone helped everyone out #even during the headliner shows at the end of the day #and theres definitely some blame to be put on managment #they oversold tickets and didn't give enough food options and didn't schedule the night very well #but people are talking about the water line being hours long and... it wasnt #I went through the water line multiple times a day all three days #and it always moved super fast #I went in the pit for bad religion and everyone there was great and when I was tired of being in the pit I crowdsurfed out #because that's usually the easiest and SAFEST way to leave a crowd #there were a few time through the weekend when I ran into some drunk guys throwin elbows #and me and everyone else always jumped on that shit right away and separated them from the rest of the crowd #you gotta be aware of those around you and have any amount of consideration for them #and if this isn't the kind of concert experience you want #just go to a normal concert don't go to fucking riot fest #we used to be a proper fucking country smh #I really hope no one sees this post cause the mcr kids are gonna have my fkn head