#it wasn’t entirely definitive so

[happyugly]

crush was asked “do u like anyone in this group more than a friend” in truth or dare and said no SIGHHH don’t worry i’ll finesse this

#it wasn’t entirely definitive so

[leciraofthewilderness]

So, despite some faults, I really enjoyed totk, and on its anniversary I want to say something about it. Other people have said similar things before but it’s really important to me and actually a big part of why the story of totk was meaningful to me, so I want to also say it:

Zelda needed to come back from draconification. The story needed that. It wasn’t lazy and just ignoring “consequences” because (imo) that was the *point*

The point is to feel like there are going to be terrible consequences and then say actually, no. You can come back from this, with the help of other people.

To me at least, that was the theme of the whole story.

If botw was about how the world goes on past loss and grief and starts to heal (how flowers grow in the ruins and the world can be beautiful again, be worth saving, even if it has changed)…then totk was about a more personal kind of healing.

The weight of the world should not be on your shoulders alone…you, alone, should not have to fix everything…you should not have to sacrifice yourself, but when you do, someone will be there to save you from it.

This turned into a really long ramble so:

You (Link) gained so much and now it’s gone. It feels like you’re back to where you started and yet you know you have to do it all again…you were weak and you failed and you’re weaker now…but

You go down to the surface. Monsters swarm across it once again. Other people are fighting them too though. You help, but it’s not just you…

You go to the Rito, the Gorons, the Zora, the Gerudo…just like with the divine beasts, there are friends who help you save each region. But this time, part of them comes along with you when you leave. It’s nice, you realize, the first time one of them protects you from a monster you weren’t prepared for. You’re still weaker than you were before, but someone has your back…

When you go up to the sky you see a strange new dragon there. There’s something about them that feels familiar. You try not to think about it.

You go down to the depths too. It’s terrifying at first. You hate it. You only want to get what you came for and get out of the dark….but slowly, the light grows. You get stronger. The dark feels like a challenge you can face (and someone has your back).

There are spirits down there. You don’t know when they’re from, but some part of you wonders…are these all the people you let die in the Calamity? (You help them find rest from their wandering. The weight on your shoulders feels a little less heavy).

There’s so much gloom. The first few times the sky turns red and hands chase you (a reminder of what you’ve lost, how you failed) you just run. Eventually though, you have to fight. It feels like the (second) worst day of your life again. But you manage to get free of the grasping gloom and stand and fight, as wild and desperate as it is. Beneath the manifestation of your worst fears, there’s another thing to fight, but this time it has a face (a voice in the back of your head says…you know this isn’t all on you and your failure…it’s really Ganon’s fault right?). You get through it.

At every turn in your travels, it seems like something reminds you of Zelda. Her passion, her curiosity, her kindness. You miss her.

At first, the tears you find reassure you. She may be in the past, but she’s safe. She’ll come back somehow…but then you hear the word draconification for the first time. You want to believe she wouldn’t do it but you know her and the fear sits cold inside you. (Zelda is a lot of things. She’s been allowed to be more of them, since she was freed from her hundred year battle, without her father holding her back. But deep down inside her, there’s a vein of self-sacrifice that still runs strong. It’s what saved the world before, after all).

She did it. She really did it. She’s gone from you (from Hyrule) forever, and it’s all your fault. If only you hadn’t failed so utterly in the battle (you can hardly even call it that) under the castle. If only you’d caught her. If only you hadn’t let the sword break. You should have protected her you should have been better it’s all your fault and now she has to live with the consequences, forever. Everything really is on you, you should have been better.

(Zelda POV: you couldn’t call upon Hylia’s power in time, you were too content to let it wither and fade away from you, ready to be free of it. You shouldn’t have. He got hurt, the sword got hurt, it’s your fault…Sonia and Rauru help you channel it again, Sonia helps you learn how to turn back time…but you don’t save her. She dies because you couldn’t save her. Rauru dies not long after. There is no one left to guide you, once again. You could spend years trying to figure it out on your own. But you did that last time. It didn’t work. Self-sacrifice, stepping in front of someone you love, that worked. (You do what you can, to call upon the sages, to help Link in the future, first). And then you swallow the stone. You’ve come a long way, in the past five years, allowing yourself to exist. But in the end, self-sacrifice worked last time. It’ll work this time too.)

You (Link) go down beneath the castle. You were supposed to bring the sages but you didn’t. It’s nice, for someone to have your back. But no one else should get hurt to fix your mistakes.

They follow you anyway. They fight with you, against the hordes, against the greatest enemies you defeated together, along the way. They’ll have your back, even if you don’t think you deserve it.

You fight Ganondorf, and then the demon king, in the hardest battle of your life. You think it’s over and then the demon king decides it’s better to lose himself completely than let you win. You’re exhausted and afraid of yet another battle, but up there in the sky, when you’re falling, the Light Dragon catches you (you wonder why she changed her path to catch you, you wonder if there’s still something of Zelda left in there to save). With her help, you win.

And then you’re in some other realm. The spirits of Sonia and Rauru are there. You remember how the two of them and Zelda channeled such incredible power together. You think about Recall. Turning something back to the memory of what it was before, like Sonia said. You stand with them and you allow yourself to hope. Maybe the Light Dragon can remember the form she took so long ago, the person that she was.

And then you’re falling, and Zelda is falling, but this time you catch her. You catch her. She’s back home with you, finally, finally.

And maybe, one mistake doesn’t have to be the end of the world. You don’t have to be perfect. Sometimes, someone else can stand with you, and it’ll all turn out alright. (You can put the weight of the world on your shoulders, you can sacrifice yourself, but someone will be there to catch you, someone will be there to pull you back to yourself, when all is said and done).

#loz #tears of the kingdom #Link #Zelda #I will say also that I think part of the reason totk is special to me is very personal #like when it came out I was still struggling with the worst burnout of my life #I had had a few months of exhaustion between January and March and in May that exhaustion was still sticking to me #it was hard to get out of bed hard to do anything I felt so tired that I almost felt sick but I wasn’t sick #and the thing is Zelda games are my biggest special interest #and having a new one to play like genuinely I’m not joking it gave me bsck so much energy #I was doing really badly but when totk came out I played it for an entire weekend straight basically #and like my mom came to visit me and help me out with basic life stuff #and like sit with me while I played just like enjoying being together #and that was really nice #over that summer and the fall after I started getting to know someone I work with better #largely over conversations about totk at first #and they’ve become a good friend #(and become someone that I feel safe to be fully myself around) #and so I just have this really strong personal connection to totk #like I will not claim to be impartial about it #there are definitely criticisms that I can acknowledge #in particular I don’t like that they un-amputeed Link let Link be disabled #and also ganondorf’s characterization was shallow and one dimensional #and I’m sure there’s other things I could think of #but the overall narrative #including Zelda becoming the light dragon and then turning back in the end #I really like that #it felt like a narrative of healing to me #and playing it at the time that I did felt really healing to me too

[falconfate]

Hello ranger’s apprentice fandom can we talk real quick about the stupidest thing Flanagan ever wrote

It’s about the bows. Yanno, the rangers’ Iconique™️ main weapon. That one. You know the one.

Flanagan. Flanagan why are your rangers using longbows.

“uh well recurve arrows drop faster” BUT DO THEY. FLANAGAN. DO THEY.

the answer is no they don’t. Compared to a MODERN, COMPOUND (aka cheating) bow, yes, but compared to a longbow? Y’know, what the rangers use in canon? Yeah no a recurve actually has a FLATTER trajectory. It drops LATER.

This from an article comparing the two:

“Both a longbow and a recurve bow, when equipped with the right arrow and broadhead combination, are capable of taking down big game animals. Afterall, hunters have been doing it for centuries with both types of bows.

However, generally speaking and all things equal, a recurve bow will offer more arrow speed, creating a flatter flight trajectory and retain more kinetic energy at impact.

The archers draw length, along with the weight of the arrow also affect speed and kinetic energy. However, the curved design of the limbs on a recurve adds to its output of force.”

It doesn’t actually mention ANY distance in range! And this is from a resource for bow hunting, which, presumably, WOULD CARE ABOUT THAT SORT OF THING!

Okay so that’s just. That’s just the first thing.

The MAIN thing is that even accounting for “hur dur recurves drop faster” LONGBOWS ARE STILL THE STUPID OPTION.

Longbows, particularly and especially ENGLISH longbows, are—as their name suggests—very long. English longbows in particular are often as tall or taller than their wielder even while strung, but especially when unstrung. An unstrung longbow is a very long and expensive stick, one that will GLADLY entangle itself in nearby trees, other people’s clothes, and any doorway you’re passing through.

And yes, there are shorter longbows, but at that point if you’re shortening your longbow, just get a goddamn recurve. And Flanagan makes a point to compare his rangers’ bows to the Very Long English Longbow.

Oh, do you know how the Very Long English Longbow was mostly historically militarily used? BY ON-FOOT ARCHER UNITS. Do you know what they’re TERRIBLE for? MOUNTED ARCHERY.

Trust me. Go look up right now “mounted archery longbow.” You’ll find MAYBE one or two pictures of some guy on a horse struggling with a big stick; mostly you will actually see either mounted archers with RECURVES, or comparisons of Roman longbow archers to Mongolian horse archers (which are neat, can’t lie, I love comparing archery styles like that).

Anyway. Why are longbows terrible for mounted archery? Because they’re so damn long. Think about it: imagine you’re on a horse. You’re straddling a beast that can think for itself and moves at your command, but ultimately independently of you; if you’re both well-trained enough, you’re barely paying attention to your horse except to give it commands. And you have a bow in your hands. If your target is close enough to you that you know, from years of shooting experience, you will need to actually angle your bow down to hit it because of your equine height advantage, guess what? If you have a longbow, YOU CAN’T! YOUR HORSE IS IN THE WAY BECAUSE YOUR BOW IS TOO LONG! Worse, it’s probably going to get in the general area of your horse’s shoulder or legs, aka moving parts, which WILL injure your horse AND your bow and leave you fresh out of both a getaway vehicle and a ranged weapon. It’s stupid. Don’t do it.

A recurve, on the other hand, is short. It was literally made for horse archers. You have SO much range of motion with a recurve on horseback; and if you’re REALLY good, you know how to give yourself even more, with techniques like Jamarkee, a Turkish technique where you LITERALLY CAN AIM BACKWARDS.

For your viewing enjoyment, Serena Lynn of Texas demonstrating Jamarkee:

Yes, that’s real! This type of draw style is INCREDIBLY versatile: you can shoot backwards on horseback, straight down from a parapet or sally port without exposing yourself as a target, or from low to the ground to keep stealthy without banging your bow against the ground. And, while I’m sure you could attempt it with a longbow, I wouldn’t recommend it: a recurve’s smaller size makes it far more maneuverable up and over your head to actually get it into position for a Jamarkee shot.

A recurve just makes so much more SENSE. It’s not a baby bow! It’s not the longbow’s lesser cousin! It’s a COMPLETELY different instrument made to be used in a completely different context! For the rangers of Araluen, who put soooo much stock in being stealthy and their strong bonds with their horses, a recurve is the perfect fit! It’s small and easily transportable, it’s more maneuverable in combat and especially on horseback, it offers more power than a longbow of the same draw weight—really, truly, the only advantage in this case that a longbow has over the recurve is that longbows are quicker and easier to make. But we KNOW the rangers don’t care about that, their KNIVES use a forging technique (folding) that takes several times as long as standard Araluen forging practices at the time!

Okay.

Okay I think I’m done. For now.

#to be VERY clear. I Am Not An Actual Expert. #i AM however drawing from my own experience and research #and literally i can find Zero literature about recurve arrow flights dropping faster than longbows #all i could find was that recurve range is worse compared to compound bows #which. OBVIOUSLY. compound bows CHEAT. #(said lovingly. ish. if you use a compound more power to you but also It’s Doing All The Work For You.) #this article was literally all i could find from a couple hours’ search comparing recurves and longbows #anyway recurves are cool. flanagan why did you do recurves so dirty. #for that matter why are all your women blonde. #(i’m not including brotherband here sorry) #(but also why did it take a spinoff series for him to create a named female character that wasn’t a blonde) #(flanagan explain) #god these books have so many problems. truly this is my ‘i could fix him’ #thank you flanagan for getting me into this special interest. now Tell Me Why You Did It Wrong. #rangers apprentice #anyway if you REALLY want to read about some bangin historical horse archers #look up the parthians :) #specifically how they fucking Decimated an entire roman contingent :) #crassus getting absolutely demolished by mounted archer parthians is definitely my favorite bit of roman trivia

[radioves]

brugmansia [angel’s trumpet]

#i cant say i hate the entire genus of solanaceae genus since i couldn’t give a damn about whatever tomatoes got goin on #but i can say FUCK datura and FUCK brugmansia. they’re both virtually the same but brugmansia has these stupid ass center petals #that datura doesn’t and i was This close to settling for datura if it wasn’t for brugmansia’s nickname ‘angels trumpet’ being cuter compare #to datura’s ‘devils trumpet’. anyways where was i- oh right the actual design #yeah his flower is brugmansia if that wasn’t obvious enough. as for his bird i chose white wedding doves #the outfit isn’t inspired by any one thing i just searched up ‘angelcore outfits’ chose a cute dress and went from there #if it were my choice i actually *wouldnt* have given him clothes since he was originally inspired by cupid hence the heart arrow bow #but! alas. i felt that would be weird to literally anyone else so i didn’t do that #definitely would’ve given him a gun if given the choice. we’ll see #digital art #artists on tumblr #illustration #mcyt #hermitcraft #grian #[.art]

[youngyoo-apologist]

OG Choi Han they could never make me hate you cause if some random rich boy was yelling at me and telling me my family deserved to die like a day after it happened and all I wanted was to know how I could get help I’d beat him up too

This plus the added fact that the Harris Village people were the first people to take Choi Han in and take care of him after years and years in the dark forest. Like he’s obviously not going to be mentally stable after all that, and he was so young when everything happened to him like I cannot blame him at all. I don’t think I can ever hate OG Choi Han like ever, he’s flawed, he has problems, but I love him dearly. He deserves the world. This kid who had to fight for his life, was taken away from his family, and in the process had to give up parts of his own humanity to survive, and like went to war two years later, they could never make me hate u OG Choi Han…

Like yeah violence is bad I guess but OG Cale had it coming(saying this as an OG Cale fan, I love him, but he was mean as hell when he was younger!)

If I’m honest, I think they were both in the wrong to an extent. Like OG Cale shouldn’t have said all that no matter the circumstances, and OG Choi Han shouldn’t have beaten him up so much. But u say mean shit and you get hit, that is how it will work when you’re talking to the guy who just saw his entire village get murdered like idkkkk man

I understand where OG Cale was coming from, but he had many issues and while he wasn’t an awful person, he was capable of doing bad things because of his own internalized pain and emotions that he never got to properly process because of his emotionally distant childhood and relationship with his father who should have been there for him more when he was younger.

Okay speaking of his childhood, Deruth isn’t the WORST father in the world but there are a lot of things he could have done better. I think a lot of Deruth’s flaws come from his fear of failure and messing up. He’s scared of doing the wrong thing, and so he sticks to doing what he knows and using what he knows best. That’s why he uses his money, that’s why gift giving is his way of showing affection, he knows that it is one thing he cannot mess up.

The problem is that money and gifts is NOT what OG Cale needed. I think what that guy needed the most was a parent who wasn’t afraid to talk to him, to ask him questions. Not to say that Deruth gave up on OG Cale, but I think in a way he gave up on OG Cale by giving up on himself. Deruth didn’t trust himself to have the capabilities to talk to OG Cale, which is why he never did. It’s because that Deruth was scared, and didn’t trust himself, that he could never face OG Cale

If Deruth was able to trust himself a little more, and pull himself together, I don’t think OG Cale would have turned out the way he did. As a kid, he probably thought the only way he could help his family without relying on anyone(no doubt this whole ‘I have to do it myself’ thing came from the fact that he couldn’t rely on his father when his mom died, and instead was acting as a pillar of support for his father when it should have been the other way around) was to sabotage himself, the only heir. If he was shown to be unfit to be heir, then everyone else would have no choice but to direct their hatred towards him instead of his family.

If Deruth had talked to his son at least ONCE when he was a kid, asking him why he was upset or why he did the things he did, I think OG Cale would have told him. Why? Because he’s a kid!! A kid will obviously want to rely on his father, if he just had one sign telling him that he didn’t have to do it alone I’m 90% sure OG Cale would have said something.

Basically, while Deruth isn’t the worst father, he’s not really a great father either. I think he does do his best, but he has issues with communication lol

OG Cale and OG Choi Han are both complex characters and had their own reasons to behave the way they did. The thing is with people is that they’re complicated and have layers, so the situation with them would have layers behind it as well with multiple co-existing truths and stuff

#guys I’m a big fan of Choi Han #and I get sad when people bring up this scene and all the blame is on him #like okay he was wrong but if YOU saw your entire family dead and some random rich boy started yelling abt how their lives were worthless #you’d be mad too no? #like his feelinsg were totally justified cause OG Cale was REALLY mean in that scene #‘their lives are worth less than the bottle in my hand’ OHHHHH OKAY OG CALE THATS ENOUGH THATS ENOUGHHHH #I love OG Cale but u have to admit he wasn’t very nice when he was younger #like the statements ‘he had his reasons’ ‘being trash was an act’ ‘he wasn’t a bad person’ ‘but he did say bad things’ can co exist #yes being trash was an act but he is ALSO capable of saying mean things and things that are wrong #LIKE TELLING THE GUY WHO JUST GOT HIS FAMILY MURDERED THAT THEIR LIVES WERE WORTHLESS #HE WAS NOT INNOCENT FOR THAT #Younger OG Cale is not a black and white character #and neither is older OG Cale but this post isn’t abt him #okay I’m gonna bring up someone who isn’t from TCF #but take Eunyung Baek from no home as an example okay #eunyung did bad things and was a bad person because of his childhood right #the reasons to being a bad person do not take away the bad things he did #but just cause he did bad things and was capable of them did not mean he could not change #I love OG Cale a LOT and I just think that his character has a lot behind it #Older OG Cale is obviously very different from his younger self #years and years of war and tragedy have matured him and like he’s not the same person he was anymore #okay back to Choi Han I love that guy I will defend him with my life #beating up people is wrong yeah but with the circumstances I’d say OG Cale had it coming #like okay it would be different if it was unprovoked but it was very much provoked #I swear I love OG Cale I just think he was very wrong for that #not to say he can’t change or isn’t capable of change he definitely is #idk I guess my point is that OG Cale was wrong but he changed as a person #and OG Choi Han was wrong for beating him up so much but it wasn’t unjustifiable #tcf #lcf

[rainymoodlet]

Kiss Me in Komorebi+ 🌸

Episode Ten’s Outtakes!

While I build for and play through the next couple of dates today, I thought I’d get my act together and reorganize the posts I’d meant to go along with each of the latest episodes 😤

Fabian just looks so gorgeous and vulnerable here, touchin’ up on Dan’s arm like that 🥺 @rebouks

[ 🌹 ]

#ts4 #ts4 screenshots #ts4 gameplay #ts4 challenge #ts4 bachelor challenge #;kmik #sim: daniel #fabian hawkins by rebouks #|| #bwuhh these shots are so utterly beautiful!! #my tags have been all over the place wowzerz #but yes omg!!! outtakes galore!! #this date was fascinating bc fabian and dan definitely play off if each other’s energy very well #they have great compatibility and they seem to get more and more comfortable with each other #the more they do together! #dan went to join him in a swim right away! it wasn’t even a Swim Together or Splash-induced occurrence #he was just like !!! HAHA THATS BRILLIANT #and river mattodore you are entirely correct in saying that the camera crew was just sitting in their truck like #(bc they just posted cameras to give them privacy they’re not standing in front of crews rn) #are we allowed to let them do that #are there brain-eating amoebas in that water there’s literally a fucking sewer grate fhdhdhhd #i’m building ezra and rune’s dates right now!! 🥰 i hope you all are doing well!

[mdemn]

yes, i love mde. yes, its my favorite of the mafia trilogy. yes, i can say with 100% conviction that objectively… tommy is not an interesting character. for him to be the protagonist, he sure does have no depth to his character written in the game

#like even HE wasn’t free of mde giving everyone hints at a personality #yes he has siblings and a parents and came over from italy.. but then what? where are they? do they speak still? #if he was born in italy and stayed until he was nearly 5… how did he not retain any of it? his family would’ve HAD to have spoken italian #at home… it’s not like they would’ve KNOWN english already… and if then they then WHY? #and if they did then why?** #yes he’s caring and levelheaded and soft spoken #but why? who knows! #yes he’s friendly and naive #he trusts and he has fun and loves so so deeply… and yet ? #tommy mentions time and time again them just being unserious and messing around… why didn’t we get to see some of that? #why did we never get to see tommy on his nights out with paulie and/or sam ? #when it was SUCH a big part of tommy and paulie and sam being brothers…. #it would’ve made TDOA so much more gut wrenching… it would’ve made the story SO much better… #or even like… seeing #him at home with sarah? his daughter he talked so fondly of? #I SHOULD NOT HAVE TO MAKE UP THE WHOLE ENTIRE PERSONALITY OF THE GAME’S PROTAGONIST ❗️ #ugh . hangar 13 when i get my hands on you (threat) #mafia definitive edition #mafia the city of lost heaven #mde #tommy angelo #post: personal

[jestierabbit]

I am going feral at the notion that I am… so… many in game hours away from unlocking Oswald in disney dreamlight valley. I’m literally to the point I want to lose it on all the other characters because they’re not Oswald and their inability to FIND GEMS OR IRON IS KEEPING MY FROM HIM

#I’m so normal #I definitely wasn’t playing my entire shift #Disneyland was quiet today knowing the mood I was in #also screw jafar dude he’s keeping me from my man

[clamsjams]

Wait how did q!max get into a ptsd spiral D:?

bad was describing his vision of a little egg council with all the eggs sitting around a table in little suits etc etc, same thing he’s described to a few other ppl and then max started freaking out and talking about how he saw trump and then trump was leaving and he was yelling for him to stay. and foolish was also there and started describing seeing the room fill with smoke bc there were bombs in the room which obviously made max freak out more :(

#i wasn’t entirely paying attention so i may have missed a few details #but that’s the basic overview #he is definitely still not over trump #qsmp #asks #qsmp maxo #qsmp maximus #q!maximus #qsmp trump #qsmp trumpet #qsmp bbh #badboyhalo #foolish gamers #qsmp foolish #posts from the ocean

[oh2e]

I’m beginning to realise that Louis de Pointe du Lac is a bit of a pyromaniac

#we are on building number 3 that’s burning down #and admittedly number 2 wasn’t entirely his fault but it definitely was partially his fault #my own post #I’ve never seen the film before so this is coming as a little bit of a shock #not much because louis is genuinely unwell anyway but stil #interview with the vampire #applauding myself for correctly identifying armand’s accent as spanish

[dontmindme2600]

(TANGLE TOWER SPOILERS) Just finished Tangle Tower and it was fucking great and amazing and beautiful, but it also taught me something. I was right about the worst thing that could happen to your favorite character NOT being death. The worst thing that can happen to your favorite character is when you find out they never actually existed and was just a false persona created by another completely different character to cover up their crimes. Bro every interaction I had with Hawkshaw- and Hawkshaw in general- was FAKE AS FUCK I’m so sad

#also why was I told it’s like 4 hours long #maybe it’s because I made sure to get. ALL OF the dialogue but #it definitely wasn’t 4 hours the way I played it lmaooo #took me like 3 nights to finish #tangle tower spoilers #tangle tower #detective hawkshaw #idk if the warning at the beginning of this post #was really necessary but like it is a pretty big spoiler #and tt IS a mystery story so I’m keeping it #I’m not actually mad about the ending btw #I thought the entire game was great

[akkivee]

rivals

#vee queued to fill the void #lol sometimes i wonder if i miss the division beef #like nothing can really hit that 1st drb experience but kr also didn’t try lol #and while i can definitely breathe easier since they aren’t so intense anymore is that really a good thing i’ve been wondering lol 🤔 #like i see lots of people of the opinion that the conflicts between the leaders got solved waaaaaaaaaaay too quickly and i don’t disagree #i like pointing out how long it took jakurai to forgive ramuda vs how long it took kuukou to forgive ramuda #like from the standpoint of two individuals who have buddha/god imagery attached to them #and for that reason it’s really cool that kuukou forgave ramuda instantly without needing to know ramuda’s baggage like jakurai did #but should that have cooked some more is what i wonder lol #it could have also set up some fun differences between sasara and kuukou who are both very bonds dependent #but kuukou could have been significantly more angry about being split from ichiro vs sasara numbly accepting the loss #and it gets across in a way in the 6 colours track because kuukou does let ramuda know lmao #and sasara only chimes in after kuukou lets ramuda off the hook lol like it’s there!!!!! should it have cooked tho #ramuda being forgiven by everyone is good because plenty wasn’t his fault but him choosing ichiro and samatoki WAS #so something like that probably could have stewed longer lol #this is a whole entire thing actually lol i wanna keep rambling about the surface level squabbles we got with like gentaro and juto #and beefs that could have exposed more like hifumi and gentaro’s #or just the fact since posse is at the center of all conflict with their strongest chuuoku ties and idk if that’s a good thing rly #but these are a lot of tags lmao

[polysyndetonaddictsupportgroup]

I don’t know if you already said this elsewhere, but did the Zenin ever hurt Megumi in a way it simply wasn’t possible for them to explain? Like being poisoned or bitten by one of the dozens curses? Did Gojo catch them red handed (the red is literally megumi’s blood💀)?

The first time that they hurt him in a way that they couldn’t explain away was the last time they hurt him, because Gojo immediately cut them off and refused to ever let them ever get near Megumi again. The Zenin didn't fully realize this at the time they had custody, but legitimately the only reason why it got as far as it did was because Gojo didn't know.

They weren’t exactly advertising “yeah we beat him when we have him” to him, but it wasn’t exactly because they thought gojo would put a stop to it, per se. They didn’t tell Gojo anything they did to Megumi because they felt absolutely entitled to him. They didn’t want Gojo’s input or interference, and they didn’t like feeling like they had to ask for permission around this with Megumi. But they didn’t think he actually would cut them off from him.

In the Zenin’s mind, Gojo doesn’t love Megumi. He’s never loved Megumi. Megumi’s just a political pawn to him, a way to insult the Zenin and steal their most valuable technique for his own. And he got way more value from letting them see him. He got to have his influence on someone who was very likely to be clan head one day—if Megumi’s cut off from them entirely, he’s not moving towards being clan head. He got a bargaining chip with the Zenin—he could further his own goals by offering them more time with him. Megumi’s a powerful piece of leverage but only if Gojo actually uses him. Him intervening to protect Megumi by severing all contact doesn’t further his own goals, so when it all came to a head, they pretty blindly assumed that he wouldn’t give a shit about what they had just done to Megumi, because at the end of the day, they thought he was going to keep using Megumi for his own ends, which meant giving them access.

Instead, Gojo immediately pulled the plug on the entire situation. They never touched or saw him again. The first time that Megumi saw them after the incident that made them go no contact was when Naoya came to pick him up at his school.

#sea glass gardens #in my mind jujutsu sorcerer kids are sturdier #like Sukuna punted Megumi through multiple buildings in their fight #so it must be /hard/ to do something that causes a bruise #a lot of the Zenin’s abuse was hidden because while it still hurt it wasn’t leaving marks #or it was abuse that wouldn’t leave marks anyway like how they’d work him to the point of collapse or control his every action #but if they hit him hard enough to leave marks then they had the built in excuse that megumi was fighting with other kids #or had just had one of those normal little kid bumps. like I have a baby nieces and nephews and those kids will just hurl their bodies #around. kids collect bruises. they’re figuring out what their limits are and even if you watch them carefully a few bumps is normal. #they hurt him badly but they always had a way to hide it until they went too far and didn’t anymore. and the second gojo realized that #the adults on the compound had been beating megumi he never let them so much as look at him again. he legitimately put his foot down and #refused to budge an inch no matter how much hell he caught for it #I’ve definitively decided that the incident that made them go no contact is not going to be revealed in sea glass gardens #it just isn’t something that would come out through yuutas pov #if I wrote other works in the series it would probably come out through one of them but it’s a big big if #I make no promises as to other works in the universe (though I have started writing some of them. completion is another thing entirely). #if you guys want to know the incident that made them go no contact I wouldn’t be opposed to revealing it over ask but it’s y’all’s #preference. usually the stuff I talk about in ask is stuff I’ll know isn’t going to be revealed in sea glass gardens itself. this is kind of #in purgatory because I know it’s coming out in sea glass gardens but there’s a smaller chance of it being revealed in a different work #so it’s up to y’all. if you want to know I’ll answer it behind a cut or something but if you want to gamble on it actually being written out #one day that’s fine too

[designernishiki]

I never finished the telephone club stuff in 0 until today (currently replaying 0, trying to 100% the game) and like. actually. what the fuck was up with the bad-end telephone club dates. like. not even exaggerating, completely unironically, it is fully implied that kiryu got fucking raped. multiple times. as a joke. that’s absolutely fucking wild

#it’s so fucking jarring #I mean kiryu is sexually assaulted all the damn time (mostly by women #because he’s a man so it’s okay :) ) but this is like. full-on implied rape. #unclear what kind in particular but that’s really unimportant #it literally gets to the point where after one of them- a woman old enough to be his mom (mind you he is hardly even legal and definitely #not at the maturity of most 20 year olds in this area) forcibly takes him to a hotel and the next thing we see is him outside that hotel #with his health bar completely depleted keeled over like he’s exhausted and in physical pain/discomfort #muttering to himself ‘that didn’t happen. that didn’t happen.’ #like #this was?? played off like any other end-of-substory comedic moment #bitch that wasn’t funny at all that was actually the most disturbing non-storyline scene ive seen in this entire game #he is straight up traumatized from being physically and sexually assaulted by someone twice his age and just has to shove it in the back of #his head and hope he forgets about it somehow because. well. he’s a man. #like wow we’re really just. gonna glide over that one huh #fucking christ dude #I seriously wonder how much that shit has haunted him and damaged his perception of physical affection/etc #anyway this is gonna linger in my head for a while #kiryu #rambling #yakuza 0 #y0 #kazuma kiryu #cw sa mention #cw sa

[cherrysnax]

hello hi howdy what do u do when feel ur like brain deteriorating asking for a friend

#if it weren’t for autocorrect the only word I woulda spellled right including tags is howdy #its bad #but yeah can barely hold a pencil can barely talk #having a hard time reading #do I have any reason not to blow my brains out like. is this going to pass? #perhaps I need to like look deep into myself at my internalized ableism but holy shit I feel so gone #my brain doesn’t usually feel like this after being gone a day #sentences don’t make sense #my brain feels like goo. mush. applesauce #I can’t draw I can’t hear I can’t see #the fuck is wrong with me. bars #I recognize this incoherence. and it scares me not like literally I just wasn’t my brain to be mine #I don’t want my thoughts to be scrambled and for people to not understand me #I don’t understand me #I definitely need to unpack my internalized ableism #is it bad to not want to have symptoms that will ruin my life?? #they’re entirely neutral I just don’t want this I already struggle with my brain #fuck

[mer-se]

I loveeeee having pets but the trauma that comes with having them that is inevitable . fuckin blows

#like leaving the vet er at midnight #I never want my niece to call me hysterical at work ever again #this is the second time now #I got legit flashbacks….was so similar to crybabes and felt like the same bad dream repeating #me and my niece sitting on the floor in trauma man #this time was obviously different though and scarier #I also maybe am weirdly protected sometimes because I was in the process of speeding home #and this extremely slow ass car immediately got in front of me and stopped me from driving fast #like legit stayed the entire drive and it annoyed the FUCK out of me but looking back like #shouldn't have been driving fast definitely not stressed out #he’s not in the clear yet and I definitely won’t sleep well tonight but he’s stable #thankfully. #wasn’t sure there for a while #when we got to the vet the woman looked in at him and started running #and gave me a DNR form and was relaying my answer over the phone to the back #fucking traumatic actually #also my beta fish died this morning too #I don’t like februaries . cursed ass month I swear #I wrote this all half asleep last night #but he went to the vet today and it’s still not great so #poor chubbies #sweetest boy ever too #I wish I didn’t have to go to work today #just wanna go sit with him all day