#it kept trying for like 20 minutes

[daemon-404]

i am once again thinking about the time at a hotel when my mother wouldn't let me take the elevator downstairs (the stairs were emergency-only) to put a dying bug in the grass because the rest of my family wouldn't have lights (the key card was necessary for both) for a maximum of like 7 minutes so i just cried in the hallway

#the bug was trying to climb up the window our whole train ride #it used our food bag to reach up higher but obviously there was glass #it kept trying for like 20 minutes #until it eventually fell into the bag #and we took the bag around the little airport metro and whatnot and it got a little squished but i did my best to keep it ok #when we got to the hotel room we took out the food for dinner and the bug fell out with it #it was alive so i was happy at first because this was really worrying me (probably bc of period hormones tbh) #but its legs were crushed #and it was very clear it was dying #and i got all emotional because the whole train ride it just wanted to get back outside #so i wanted to put it in the grass. just so it could be outside again #feel the earth and smell the air all that romantic shit idek if bugs could do that or if it was even conscious #but i didn't want it to die in a stuffy hallway is all #so i took it to the elevator but you need the key card to use it #i asked my mom to borrow it for a minute #she said no ofc but i still can't get her reason?? it was night and everyone was going to bed anyway #so what do the lights matter??? we were on the second floor it would've taken like 2 minutes to go downstairs and outside #there was a patch of grass right next to the hotel entrance #but she wouldn't let me so i just. put it down on the carpet. on the side of the hallway so it wouldn't be stepped on #and (again probably because of period hormones) i just sat there and cried about it #and she still wouldn't fuckin let me #in the morning it was dead #i took it outside and put it in the grass. #it haunts me. i still feel so bad about it #my mom's great but like... c'mon. it would've taken 5 minutes.

[yuriyuruandyuraart]

Have you really done the right thing?

#my art #utmv #dusttale #dust sans #dust #i kept staring at this for like 20 minutes trying to figure out a good caption GUJHGJHJ #not much to say here except i had fun with the shading!! there's a lot of empty space i wanted to fill up but didn't know how #:'D small nitpicks here and there but eh it's supposed to be a rushed lil thing anyways and it's nice enough for me #hope you guys like it<333

[pa-pa-plasma]

okay i just marathoned the entirety of ATLA live action & i might do an actual review of it explaining my thoughts more in depth, but the TLDR version basically boils down to this:

if you want to watch Avatar: The Last Airbender, just go watch the 2005 cartoon

#i was trying to keep an open mind & all that cuz of OPLA (my beloved) but. holy shit it was actually worse than i expected :/ #like what were they thinking. did they use AI to write this or are the writers just like. really shitty #notes: they linger too much on random bullshit & refuse to move character development along #they tell when they should be showing & when they DO show it's for stuff that benefited from brief environmental storytelling in the OG #the plot drags so hard it was basically stagnant #there were some fun things but like. those things could've been funner if they'd been given the time other useless stuff was taking up #they changed so many minor details that really don't matter in order to make them more important #but this failed spectacularly because now there's just. stupid bullshit clogging up the plot?? #instead of having 10 minute monologues 3 times an episode about plot irrelevant things #they should have taken a page out of the original's book & kept minor details to a minimum & focused on ACTUAL PLOT #SO MUCH CGI. LIKE I KNOW THEY NEED IT BUT COME ON. EVEN THE CHARACTERS?????? WHO ARE JUST STANDING THERE???????? #they were given 8 hours & almost all of it was Aang angsting (lol) over being the avatar & not practicing actual bending #& then they ended the plot too early so they had to fill in the last like 20 minutes with something else #so they made up random lore that literally makes no sense. & overexplained all of it to the point i was blanking out from boredom #i think this is why i didn't enjoy Korra. they over explain the spirit world stuff & avatar powers & bending #that plus i just don't vibe with the aesthetic #being a writer is a curse because when i dislike something it's because i know exactly what went wrong & why #it's always with the analyzing & the judging & the internal note taking #even when i really try i can't just enjoy shit for fun

[puppyeared]

#AHH. AHHHHHHHH #i waited at the bus stop for 15 minutes and i saw my bus but like it was going really fast #and i was like why is it going so fast so i stepped outside the shed thinking it would stop. IT KEPT GOING IT SKIPPED ME #there was another bus right after so i took that one to try and catch up to it at an intersection. when i got there i was waiting for #the light to turn so i could cross to the other stop and i saw THE SAME 50 THAT SKIPPED ME. AND I GOT ON #MADE IT TO SCHOOL ON TIME ONLY TO FINDOUT IT WAS A WORK PERIOD AND WE WERENT COVERING NEW MATERIAL #THAT COULD HJAVE BEEN AN EMAILLLLLLL #walked back. waited for the bus for another 15 sopping minutes #normally i take a shortcut but that takes a lot of walking and im tired so i just decide to go to the next terminal #boarded another bus so i could go home cause the route passes by my house. BUT i forgot it goes in two directions #so i was stuck on a route going the opposite for another 20 minutes and then another 20 minutes in the terminal bc the bus driver took a #a break and by the time i got home its been 4 HOURS SINCE I LEF.T I COULD HAVE LITEERALL;Y STAYED HOME AHHH #yapping #im tired

[schmabbald]

i have literally never made a comic before so. if this is odd looking you know what happened. rip to the three JPGs of Obama i put in here originally

#i am TOO autistic about these guys like. ive never actually had consistent enough motivation to finish A Whole Comic for anything #if this were timelapsed youd be able to see me adding the jpgs of obama and removing them an hour later #they kept making me laugh and i couldnt focus properly #anyway theyve been slightly redesigned. johns collar has been fixed and they both have new crests on their uniforms #i struggled for like 20 minutes trying to give john the right amount of red. his face flushes when hes crying/trying not to. like me fr #i dont like this that much BUT the joke is pretty funny so. up it goes. also first comic so. up it goes again #rtgame miitopia #oh no ive left the sarky comments about the table on there. oh well theyre staying now

[livvyofthelake]

i’m sorry. this is the most boring movie i’ve ever seen in my life i cannot finish it tonight…

#it’s not even bad i’m just so bored. can you guys play football or something #it’s like a boring dark academia freak’s wet dream i mean jesus #can there at least be a murder. or a ghost. can anyone do anything #i apologize i’m being mean to the movie now i don’t mean to be coming off as a hater #i’m trying to be peace and love but for the first 20 minutes i just kept thinking ‘this is like if kill your darlings was bad’ #and for the next 20 minutes i kept thinking ‘this is like if an ai generated a movie based on fluff fanfiction for the secret history’ #again. i’m not trying to be a hater. that hater ass sentence just came naturally from my mind i apologize #i don’t even mean it as an insult it’s still the beginning of the movie it’s too early to be hating i’m still in the giving it a chance era

[munamania]

caught the roommate's weather segment on the college radio this morning :3

#wish i could be there to be like slow down babygirl.. jk.. sure will try to tune in later for local weather babes #and is this bc i skipped class. yes <3 and now im having quality time w my cat shes watching her bird and squirrel tv im having my coffee #need to eat but uggghhhhhhhh i dont wanna get up. so anyway. good morning <3 #kept snoozing my alarm and after a point i was like yeah it's been like eh 20 minutes. wrong! an hour <3 #abby talks #shout out to lydia for giving me a fresh excuse to call off work and class even tho we're actually negative and fine

[kreide-was-taken]

drawing modern au John as a way to comfort myself

#i wanted to add more but i've been trying to do so for 20 minutes and i kept messing up. i'm never doing it again #was also gonna add patterns on his sweater but i eh............ #fades away #Red's doodles #John Ward #faith game #faith the unholy trinity #modern au faith game #extremely self indulgent doodle #this is messy i'm tired but i like messy #inconsistency my behated

[munch-mumbles]

ive been a little upset about it all night so i need to write out all the things that happened at work today and are bugging me so i can TRY to get it out of my head and actually RELAX bc i just keep pacing in circles around it instead of just accepting it and moving on

#for context i was working frying chicken today. ok so i arrive and literally all the chicken out expires within ten minutes of each other #meanwhile to remake everything takes about an hour 20 #tried my best to get everything out and replaced and make sure i have enough of everything and then take my break bc with chicken there are #few narrow windows to take your break in you have very little control over when it is #get back and while im getting ready for my next fry one of the assistant leaders comes back and passive aggressively asks 'everything ok?' #and when i say yeah shes starts saying how shes 'just checking' because apparently i didnt have enough chicken out for her liking and went #on about how we're in a chicken drive (I KNOW. I WORK CHICKEN SHE NEVER HAS.) #etc etc. i just say ok and she leaves #like 20 minutes later she comes fucking back to rag on me again about how i need to choose my break times better and i need to have more #chicken out there as back up (extremely difficult bc there is literally only so much room in the fryers. the batches i usually make already #nearly completely fill them up) blah blah and then when i try to explain how i WAS making pretty big batches people are just snatching them #up fast she keeps trying to walk out the door right away and keeps stopping and looking over her shoulder to just stare at me while i try t #finish my sentence #and she just. doesnt say anything in response when i do finish she just leaves #so clearly she didnt want a conversation she just wanted to rag on me #then later for cleanup the timing of everything just kept lining up inconveniently so i kept having to get in and out of raw cleaning gear #and slowing myself down and i end up having to stay almost 15 minutes late to finish cleaning #during cleaning i have to go grab a key to the back door to take out my trash and this one coworker i have was standing in the way of the #door. i say excuse me and she just stares at me and goes huh? #and i say i need a key and she barely moves out of the way without responding and she has a look like im bothering her #why are you acting like im being douchey. i just need a key. thats something she does a lot she acts like im inconveniencing her by asking #basic favors . ive stopped asking her to help me open the back door (sometimes needed if i also have raw garbage to take out and therefore #cant touch the key myself) for some reason she takes it upon herself to almost completely close the door after i walk out so when i come #back i have to awkwardly use my foot to reach around and pull the door open #ive asked her before not to do it and she just ignored me #GRAH GRAH. and then like i said in my last rb i realized while i was drivign home i forgot to wash a damn pan #im mostly worried about it because ive forgotten a couple times in the past too . in my defense its a pan i personally dont use but it just #gets left behind from first shift sometimes and then second shifters end up having to make sure its clean #im just irritateddd and im mad im worried about it all. its all little things piling up on each other #LOL I WROTE A LOT MORE BUT THE REST GOT CUT OUT IG I HIT A TAG LIMIT. tumblr voice ok dude quit your bitching !!

[three-bunnies-in-a-trenchcoat]

I'm pretty sure what I just had wasn't a breakdown but it sure fucking felt like one

#to recap. there was a mouse and a bag in my room. freaked me out. i removed the bag but the mouse remained. #i kept hearing it. i kept thinking it was trying to climb up onto the bed or it was already on me #this continued for a span of around 20 minutes that felt like an hour #finally i stopped trying to sleep. eventually i started crying. i am now upstairs in my sisters old room where i know mice cant get #i am terrified still and exhausted because it is five am and i havent slept. my leg muscles are jittery #anyway i feel miserable. i am going to give my best attempt at sleeping and if that doesnt work #i have several hours of zelda speedruns to watch. or i might just cry some more. #mb's two am rambling

[ringneckedpheasant]

had the second worst great clips visit of my life today but thank fucking gd my hair turned out Okay despite the other horrors

#there are 2 in relatively close proximity to me & the one I like more had like 90 minute wait times #as opposed to 15 at the other place #and I knew it would be awkward & bad bc it always is at that location no matter who the stylist is #And Then It Was #stylist repeatedly misgendered me to her coworker who was giving some other guy almost an identical haircut to mine #said coworker did too despite me checking With My Name Which Is Marcus #& then she accidentally nicked my ear w the clippers #& I think she was worried abt doing it to the other ear so I had to trim around it a little when I got home #very stilted conversation which was mostly my fault and isn’t a crime #but she kept telling me I should try a specific style after she’d already started #& I was just like oh haha maybe next time. like three times over the course of 20 minutes or w/e it was #and ALSO sometimes the great clips employees do not really help you get cleaned off #I was spoiled last time the stylist gave me a dry washcloth to get all the little Bits off my face #but todays stylist just sent me out into the world after using the blow dryer for about 10 seconds #got out to my car. hair all over my face. itchy. nothing to wipe it off with. #anyway. worst time was when someone gave me an extremely incorrect haircut bc of a language barrier & I wasn’t really mad about it #but I did cry in my car after bc I felt So ugly & dysphoric #also last complaint abt this poor person #she seemed to have Very little confidence in her choice of tool and changed the guard on her clippers and what clippers she was holding #like 3x more than was necessary & I know this because I get basically the same haircut every time w very little variation #& it just made me anxious that it was going to look bad bc her behavior was #making me feel like she wasn’t very experienced w the kind of haircut I was asking for #marc.txt #last last complaint for real not abt her #her coworker who was also misgendering me cut my hair last time I was there 😔

[mars-ipan]

you guys have no idea the amt of self control i have exhibited this morning

#marzi speaks #i did NOT want to go to class holy shit #i kept waking up throughout the morning. like 8 am 8:30 8:45 9:20 #and i guess my dreams were confusing or smth bc every time i woke up i was so disoriented #i would wake up. try to see what my roommates were doing #check the time on my phone. think ‘do i have to be up yet???’ #sit there in confusion for a minute or two before remembering No I Do Not (probably) #and then go back to sleep #but THEN when i woke up for REAL bc of my ALARM my roommates were both in their beds!!! #which was DOUBLE confusing. i felt kind of insane #i wanted nothing more than to rest my head against my pillow and drift off again. but i was strong and i am now waiting for class to start #i’m holding onto those absences for when i really need ‘em #can’t waste one this early #also i’ve been waking up with sore throats the past couple days bc of allergies #so i’m like. irritated at the moment bc of that #i hate sore throats they r so annoying

[tallgh0st]

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#this is long but i’m so bad at reading people lmao #so i meet up with this guy on grind on his lunch break #just as a friendly park date under some shady trees #and we hang out for like an hour and the whole time #he’s like shifting how he’s sitting #but like i don’t really think anything of it #then i walk him back to work #hug goodbye and go #and then he texts me #so you’re like really bad at reading body language hey #i was trying to kiss you for the last 20 minutes and you kept moving every time i moved #anyway i hate myself #but that was tuesday #and i came on his ass last night #so things have progressed well anyway #thanks for listening ✌🏻

[iloveyoumorethansoup]

Today I learned that essays and written work isn’t that hard. I just have adhd

#not in the funny haha quirky way #as in. I’m finally getting a diagnosis and got to try adderall and what would usually take me a week to write I wrote in 7 hours #it’s not that bad when you don’t write a sentence and go god I hate this! and take a 40 minute doom scroll break #like. thank god there’s something that works!! definitely made me nauseous and kinda gave me a headache. head might’ve been from no sleep #i finished out the semester #and still helped my ex study til one after 2 huge assignments #that’s crazy. usually I can’t form a sentence after 1 #i was able to just. do stuff #thought. i should quit doom scrolling. and just closed the app?? #and this is a normal thing people can just do #which sounds so fake but also. man. screw that. ur telling me that if someone when I was younger actually referred me to get tested I could #have had this sooner?? that I didn’t have to suffer for 20 years first??? #it’s a really weird feeling. my head was just quiet. no loud obnoxious thoughts. when something did cross my mind I easily pushed it away #i was even more creative. i had ideas and I remembered them long enough to write down. it didn’t just slide right off #i didn’t go oh god my room is a mess I cannot work if the vibes are off #i didn’t even need music #i just up and worked #my ex kept popping in my room and laying down with me and I didn’t immediately jump into bed with her and take a 5 hour nap #i was able to talk to her and do work #and get up and sit with her for a little and go back to work #this is like. genuinely life changing #now I just need to find a good dose #probably not til January. i don’t need meds if #no. no. i definitely don’t function in general. i was gonna say I’m fine until there’s homework #and then I remembered laundry #however I still can’t do anything til I get back from Christmas break cause I gotta go thru my college #but there’s hope! next up is anti depressants #soup talks

[pebblezone]

Finished black butler Where were they hiding Grelle and why 💔

#talkingcore #finny’s a lesbian now I make the rules this is my house he him lesbian end of story #he’s no Haruka Tenoh but yknow what sailor moon set a pretty high bar it’s unfair to expect that out of him #I think it’s fun that ciel kept his memories by being a professional hater love that for him #I was expecting more grelle can you Imagine my disappointment 💔💔💔 #the hellsing overlaps are craaaaaazy lol. I like how much they both want London to die what a lovely goal ❤️boo British people #wait okay I didn’t see the dub are they British?? ooooo Bryce papenbrook Sebastian that seems like a good idea #looks like the guy’s from Texas I’m assuming probably not hm #just spent 20 minutes trying to get squirrels to love me (I’ve been left heartbroken and sad) #new mission unrelated to everything: need to get sexier elevator music so I can export that to Spotify share the wealth yknow?

[miodiodavinci]

you ever end up typing a rant in the tags so long tumblr physically cuts you off and the post publishes with probably only 1/3rd of the tags

#had an interaction with The Leech™ and it left me feeling so frustrated and upset #tl;dr: i wanted to record today but she showed up and started talking so loudly my mic could pick her up through my bedroom door #and it hit me that it's fucked up that she's somehow just allowed to come and go as she pleases #(and is actively entertaining the thought of moving back in for a minimum of 2 months if she gets the surgery she's looking for) #(2 months to 2 years according to her words) #(despite the fact that she was literally evicted nearly a year ago) #(after 7+ years of sleeping on our couch and making our lives hell and generally dodging any attempt to get her to get a life and move out) #anyway after about 20 minutes of chatter i heard her go outside #find the plant i bought and planted myself this last week #(the first one i've ever had ! ! ! ) #(every other plant i've ever cared for has either been my grandmother's or a gift from someone else) #(most notably the two peace lilies from my dad's memorial service) #and dump. an entire bucket of water on it. left over from soaking her orchids she insists on keeping here. #spoilers: it's a desert plant that requires low moisture and well-drained soil #so i went out and got on her about that and she insisted she was just trying to help #(like how she was '''just trying to help''' when she nearly drowned both of the aforementioned lilies) #(because she literally kept putting in water until there was noting but standing water without soil in the pot) #and for a half hour after kept coming in to bother me about the plant #asking where i bought it and if she could have clippings and asking if i had the right soil or the right tools #and reminding me of how i tried to grow pumpkin seeds when i was six and they died #and INSISTING she knew more about caring for it despite the fact that i literally researched this plant for a solid week before #and jsu t #another instance of The Leech™ trying to jam herself into my life so she can claim she's a provider and i'm helpless without her #but also turn around and complain about how it's sooo hard caring for us and how it's //impossible// for her to get a life #if she's busy caring for us #fuck off and die actually