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It FINALLY happened... A fic knocked The Fall out of the top spot on my AO3 most viewed, and I was more than shocked it was something as dark and twisted as Demiurge x Reader: The Devil’s Contract. ♥

Kudos and bookmarks are inching up in overruling it too, and I am beyond thrilled for that. ♥

I know this is a weird thing to celebrate, but it’s not narcissism that’s guiding this post. lol I swear. Hell, I’m shocked people even would love a story like that.

I got into blank reader inserts, because I just like inviting people into my worlds while trying to work out my own BS in real life. I’ve said it a million times, but writing is cathartic for me. I don’t really enjoy doing it, but I’ll gladly find the urge if I ever find the comments to keep doing so. And in the past--especially when I wrote dark fanfics--I have.

That was an OC/Canon story, mind you, but when I opened blank inserts, it was equally a blessing as people could feel welcomed and loved by their favorite character(s). I could write small snippets to make people feel better, and those comments mean the world to me, honestly. I’m not a therapist by any means--hell no--in fact, I need one myself, for damn sure. But I am glad I can reach out and help others whenever I can or inspire them by some means. ♥ The world sucks, and if I can do my best to help others during these rough times, then let this be it for me.

I know it’s weird to say, but it was why I started to write The Devil’s Contract. I almost left inserts completely as I felt I attracted some not so savory people in the AC fandom and some were getting me upset in the FFXV one too; but I told myself ‘no, don’t. People need an escape just as much as you do’.

So I did it, regardless of the rocky path that had to transpire as I did so. ♥

I know people are thinking I’m blowing my time in the AC fandom out of proportion, but guys...you never saw the 5+ anon hate messages I got nearly every week for 6 months just because I was ‘popular’--a word I hate more than anything. It was HARD. I wanted to keep a brave face and not let any negativity on this blog, but that was the biggest mistake of my life, and I’ll never let that happen again. Ever. Constant hate mail screws you up, and when I fell, I had some fans turn on me for choosing to delete the fics I did--yelling at me angrily for my choices I made. After a time, I felt I had nowhere I could turn without being ridiculed. You start to contemplate the worst, so whenever I look at stuff like The Fall or any AC stories, it’s like looking at a dark time in my life that triggers all kinds of negative thoughts. Some I dare not say here.

So seeing my newer one that is helping me through a rough time knock it out of the slot really makes me feel better. It truly does.

I know it’s not everybody’s cup of tea, and that’s fine. I don’t need to know that. ♥ I don’t need your stamp of approval (don’t mean to be cruel there--truly--I just don’t know why people need to say those prior things lol). I just need to write this fic for me and to whoever else wants to lean on it during one hell of a time.

I love dark fics as much if not more than fluffy fics. It’s always how it’s been for me. ♥ My life has never been sugar sweet or full of rainbows, as much as I wish it were. Dark fics help me control the bad in my life and the sweet fics are the ones where I wish my life were that grand. ♥

Thanks to everybody who has supported my works--be it this one or the others. It’s super sweet of you all.

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