#im so deeply invested now

[beetljugo]

Keegan says nothing for a while, unsure of what Isaac means.

He lied to them? About what? Was Isaac really some kind of traitor? Was this about something completely different. Did he lie to all the Ghosts or just to Keegan?

Isaac is looking at the ground when he finally speaks again. “When I told you all that my only goal is to take down the Federation, that wasn’t true. There is something else.”

“Isaac…” Keegan doesn’t want to believe it. Just when he was starting to become okay with opening up to Isaac. Just when he decided to actually TRY for him.

“Taking down the Federation has always been my priority, but the reason I transferred under Elias’ command was because this division had the broadest military database in the country, and I needed access to it to find someone.”

“Who”

“My little brother”

-

And so Isaac tells Keegan about his brother Arthur. How despite their mother’s insistence on university, Arthur enlisted just like his big brother did a few years ago. Wanted to be just like him in every way. And Arthur excelled in training, was a model soldier, and was set to be stationed with Isaac for a while in a few months. Isaac was so proud of him.

Arthur and his squad were about to ship out of Boston when the city was hit by ODIN.

Isaac couldn’t get ahold of his mother or anyone in the city on base to see if Arthur was alive or not. He spent months looking for him, even deserted his former commander because he was so desperate for ANYTHING. But there wasn’t anything to find. Not even a record of death. Isaac spent years bouncing from operation to operation, using his skills to help take down the Federation but also to find any information on what happened to his little brother.

Once he landed in with Elias and the Ghosts though, something changed. He started to care about people again. He wasn’t consumed with desperation for a scrap of intel on one Arthur Hill.

He found joy in the dynamic between the Walker boys. He felt proud when Elias told him he did a good job. He felt like the safest he could ever be was on a team with Keegan.

Isaac tells Keegan all of this and by the end it’s him who is crying and being comforted by someone.

Keegan holds Isaac close as Isaac just keeps repeating “I’m sorry, I’m sorry I lied to you, please don’t hate me, don’t send me away.”

“Hey, it’s okay. I’m not letting you leave us anytime soon.” Keegan’s voice rumbles in Isaacs ear.

Once his tears have mostly stopped, Keegan gently cups Isaacs face and pulls it up to look at him.

“You didn’t have to do this alone. We would have helped you look for him.” Keegan says

Isaac sniffles “I know that now. I haven’t had…anyone for so long. I don’t think I knew how to ask for help.”

“You have us now. More than that, you have me.”

“Keegan.”

“I mean it Isaac. I’m done pretending that I don’t care about you. I’ll be by your side for as long as you’ll have me there.”

Isaac let’s put a weak chuckle. “Don’t give me that kinda power, I might want to keep you there forever.

“Then that’s how long I’ll be there.”

((I ran out of steam near the end but I think that’s it))

you did amazing. omg i dont even- where do i even begin...

RAHHHHHH okay first of all the isaac backstory?? SCRUMPTIOUS love the angst, love the lore

BUT THE "something changed. he started to care about people again" AHHHHHHH can you hear my screaming??? stop right there!!! THAT TROPE THAT STORY PATH IS SO.. AHHH ITS SO GOOD

((im so sorry i have no brain power to actually give you decent feedback besides "AHHH" and "RAHHHH" just know its positive))

okay but the "you have us now." and "im done pretending i dont care about you" BITCH IM KICKIN MY FEET IM CHEESIN IM SMILIN IM GIGGLING CAUSE THEM THEM THEM THEM I LOVE THEM>>

AND THOSE LAST TWO LINES??? "then that's how long i'll be there" PLEASE PLEASE I WANT WHAT THEY HAVE.

#idc if im too stupid to actually explain how good this was just know its great and the more you keep giving me im just eatin it UPPPPP #i also dont care that ive probably reused the same memes over snd over #those memes accurately represent how i am by the end of these blurbs and drabbles #im so deeply invested now #skidspace oc #oc talk w/ skidspace #keegan x oc #cod oc #cod keegan #cod ghosts

[codecicle]

Ash how is the fated watching going rn?? You’re braver than most

godd wampus im fucking THRIVING right now. this campaign sucks so bad it's genuinely unwatchable at times and I think that's the appeal to me <3 they spent like 10 minutes just describing and figuring out how the money system works and literally none of them sound like they've ever played dnd before and i don't think it will ever pass the bechdel test once the entire campaign even with velrissa trying her hardest but it goes crazy anyway

br'aad is my favorite character by a lot right now,, he's my FREAKK i love him and his idiot swagger so much. he's supposed to be charismatic but he sucks so bad at it everyone hates him but sticks around with him anyway. he's a warlock and his patron stops time and gives him insight on things/danger to come and kicked off the main plot in the sickest sequence I've ever seen. also his gayboy ass really did walk so every other gayboy slimecicle character could run !! they were so right !! and the party spent the first and second session hating everything he said and did . Took them sooooo long to be normal about him but they got it eventually when mountain (MY MAANNNNNN) defended him. Also he says everything with ^_^ . Just outloud you can hear it in his voice

for the rest I think the only other character that's talking enough to form an opinion on is taxi. and that opinion is STRONGLY a good one o(-( ! his banter with br'aad is so fun they're the only characters that feel Real and In The World so far and I love it so much. the names bit where br'aad kept getting his name wrong and calling him "saxi" and whenever he corrected him br'aad would just go "I know saxi. Nice to meet you im br'aad!" actually had me in tears at a certain point they're the only ones that have gotten me to laugh fr fr so far

sadly velrissa mountain and sylnan just Don't Fucking Talk so i don't have any real concrete opinions on them yet other than "hmm. Interesting ^_^" velrissa and her necromancy stuff is so neat so far I hope we get to see it in action soon instead of just small mentions here and there. same with the dynamic between sylnan and br'aad I NEEED to see more snockers scenes like their sibling scamming bullshit seems so cool I can't wait for them to emotionally rip my heart out through my throat. I can feel it coming

honestly the main appeal of it all is the characters and the characters alone. them slowly becoming friends and trusting each other will fuck with my brain permanently. I already cheered out loud when they so much as INSINUATED that they could stand br'aad and his charisma and they don't actually hate being around each other like that made me so happy. their meeting makes no sense but that's okay the Shenanigans with the solid snake box and br'aad trying and failing to stealth was so fun and "nice forearms, and a nicer staff!" and the little weirdo gremlin goblin following them around they're all very scared of and creeped out by (except for br'aad. he is strongly sexually attracted to goblins. this is canon and brought up over and over again) all make up for it. the story really doesn't matter to me here at all ^_^ all i care about are the characters being happy and traveling together and that's what makes the campaign enjoyable for me

#i make yet anothet post just for me 👍 #we have mail :] #if this makes no sense sorry its 2:30 am #cayden's dms are getting the brunt of my liveblogs otherwise inwould just be transcribing whole episodes on here #every time a character talks my ears perk up like a dog and i get excited. i feeeeeel the fixation forming #why cant i stay hyperfixated on good campaigns and media man why is it always shit that ended a long time ago #and sucks soooososo bad #as im writing this im finishing episode 2 so ill take a break for the night i think then start again tomorrow morning ^_^ #WHICH I AM SETTING AN ALARM FOR SO I WAKE UP AT A NORMAL HOUR. I FORGOT TO DO THAT THIS MORNING LMAO #anyway thank you for letting me just Talk because this fucking campaign has me FUCKEDDDD UP #i love them so much... i am deeply invested in br'aaxi and i Get It Now #currently taxi has a whole girlfriend but its okay shes said like 2 lines and thats it because again. Never passing the bechdel test #wait okay episode 3 started they are doing a real and proper intro where they explain what characters they play #for the First Time #this is so cool woag

[tankgotstuckinthecircusgate]

Sometimes i wonder why Eddie and Lauretta could find Carlo attractive. Like he's not the most handsome man, he's arrogant and self-centered, with some oddities, occasional paranoia (but given the last scene with him in canon - he can be relatively charismatic?). but i've long been of the opinion that it's all about his energy??? assertiveness? ambitions?? i mean judging by the records about him Carlo really tried to make the most of this life??? Connections with journalists and politicians, the planetarium, charity, he had a company in Ohio, he found new ways to earn money ( was the first to go international in fact 😭)

He also seems to have generally used material patronage as a way to gain loyalty?? I'm saying this because of the Mickey the Crab story, it's written that he used to be in the Vinci family, but moved to Falcone's because Carlo paid more and got him out of the army (+he gave Eddie a brothel in gratitude for his loyalty; +in ch10 Carlo emphasizes that he will pay Vito and Joe well if they successfully take out Clemente)

anyway. just an old thought

Upd. And funny how it's the absolute contrast with Clemente, who uses intimidation and cruelty to his men. Now I'm wondering how Carlo came to this way of connecting with people (=materialistic)

#Well and in eddie and lauretta's case I want to believe they found his quirks materialism and cruelty appealing #carlo has the sun tarot card vibes to me??? but ofc like the darker version of the sun #but maybe (100%) im projecting once again bc the sun is my card #and i deeply respect ambitious n energetic people #Abt ch10: yes i know it's a basic phrase #but i'm in my second year of working in the theater and i'm used to the story/characters being built largely on words #so i pay attention to it a lot #All this thing bout generosity in payment is basically investing for profit in the long term #Profit is loyalty in this case #But anyway. Now i will think how this structure came into his cursed head 😭😭 #Idk imo almost every character's trait has a background #m2

[b4kuch1n]

Hey Baku!! I'm considering beefing up my redbubble or selling art elsewhere and wanted to ask, how is it working for you? Do you like it, and do you have experience with other art selling sites?

ah I might not be the best person to ask about that... I don't like redbubble and I don't enjoy the thing they just did with their margin and payout, but also that's just kinda how platforms are? if it's not this then it's something else. any of the print stuff I offer is fully on request now anyway (except for when I really like a piece and think it'd make a great print lol) - I don't really treat redbubble stuff like how merch artists do it, there's very little calculation involved in upkeeping the store, and it's absolutely not where any significant amount of my income comes from. at most I get enough to reach the payout margin every two months, otherwise it's definitely not uncommon for it to lie around at no movement for months on end. I'm not even involved enough to figure out how to tag my stuff on there without getting it lasered off the face of the earth by IP holders lmao. quality-wise their stuff's about fine, nothing exceptional to 'em, it's a good spot if you want to offer a variety of products at about the same level of effort and aren't too fussed about the margin. and that's as far as my use of the site extends

#ask #couchtaro #bakuspeech #I imagine there are elaborate redbubble techs out there. I'm just not at all merch-minded so I invest basically nothing into it lol #I think the only kinds of merch I Really want to do is multipart charms and different types of pins #and redbubble doesn't do any of that. so I really just pull what folks want for em on there now #I'm sorry I can't help u further... this is just deeply not my wheelhouse #I like. barely even bring up the store I just realized. lmao Im so checked out from that ever since the margin stuff #hope u get better insight into the craft than mine! sorry again

[thewickerking]

had a dream I had a boyfriend and he wanted to come to a therapy session to talk abt smn unrelated to our relationship (this was 100% cool with me) but my therapist instantly hated him and she was like "justify to me why you're here 🤨🤨🤨 name something u like abt ridley and then maybe ill let u talk" like what 😭😭 it was just me being a mediator bc they were arguing. Which is insane it was like couples therapy but evil

#it was very strange.. the boyfriend was a completely made up guy also not anyone i know #also like. idr what it was but i wanted to talk abt it with my therapist and he was being encouraging and asked if him joining + keeping me #on track would be helpful and i said yes bc i thought it was/would be sweet and there was so much dread bc my therapist was MAD #i also remember we hadnt been dating for very long so i hadnt talked a lot abt him to my therapist prior but she was livid it was weird.. #i also was like. well. if she hates him maybe im stupid and we shouldnt be dating and maybe i should go die in a hole also #it was so strange.... hmmm. i have more thoughts now actually but that may be deeply personal.. #i will say my therapist kinda felt like my mom in the dream. i wanted her approval sooo bad. i met with my therapist today btw it was normal #like. i care what she thinks but its not as intense by any means and like. idk. i dont think im capable of having a normal therapist-patient #relationship. not bc of any therapist being bad at their job/boundaries i just get very emotionally invested in them as a person #IDK thats also complicated. maybe ill make that a different post or never talk abt it again well see. #so many thoughts in my brain but probably a bad idea to elaborate heavily. idk. maybe ill talk abt it with friends later maybe i wont 🤷‍♂️ #.ares

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

OMG MACCCC R U REWATCHIN TOKYO GHOUL...... shakin ur hand rn little 14 year old me loved this shit. kaneki ken fucked up little guy going thru things he never should have gone thru </3 have u ever watched the very last season??? i finally watched it when i did my rewatch of the full series like maybe a year or so ago and BOYYY IM NOT GONNA SPOIL ANYTHING BUT GOD...... it'll fuckin get u mac it'll GET U!!!! so excited i am grabbin ur hands and spinning around in a field of flowers with u i love this fucked up little guy i love blood and cannibalism <3

I DIDNT EXPECT TO GET SO INTO IT AGAIN. I WAS JUST GONNA WATCH THE FIRST COUPLE EPISODES FOR THE NOSTALGIA AND THE HELL OF IT AND THEN I GOT HOOKED AGAIN. KANEKI HAS WHITE HAIR NOW AND HES SOOOOO FUCKED UP <3 extended torture scenes spanning 4 episodes will do that to a mf.

ALSO NO I NEVER FINISHED IT !!! which is part of the reason im watching it again!!! when i watched it the first time it was still being released so i just kind of forgot 2 keep up with it bc i wasnt technically allowed 2 be watching anime and had to sneak it anyway. i just kinda fell off and forgot abt it. i honestly dont even know if i finished season 2???????? i somehow completely forgot about the torture arc so this might mean we are reaching the end of what i actually saw. this is awesome though 14 yr old me was so predictable <3

#<< i say as if my current favorite character rn isnt just another flavor of black/white haired ghost boy going through unspeakable trauma #HEY ALSO??? FUCKED UP TO BE SPINNING ME IN A FIELD OF FLOWERS. KANEKI JUST ATE THE GHOST OF RIZE THAT LIVES IN HIS MIND IN ONE OF THOSE . #HEHEHEHEHEHE #honestly im a lil. out of it 2nite and have been watchijg these in the bg while i do other things... i am not super deeply invested #in the overall plot i just love when little guys are going through fucked up shit apparently !!!!!!!!!! #i dont remember what happens to hide but i feel like its going to be so bad. therss no way he survives any of this right. poor boy. #i used to LOVE him #fucking horrid 2 hear kanekis sad monotone voice now. he js so traumatized he is so broken. his mind has snapped and i am so sad about it #my poor boy ..... #asks #anachronistic-falsehood #friends!!!

[bellamyblakru]

im 26 episodes into the story if minglan and if anyone dares to hurt my girl zhao liying even once ill hurt them tenfold

#ashley rambles #zhao liying #bro i LOVE her #i want to marry her #HER ACTING BRO #FIDST IN PRINCESS AGENTS AS A BADASS WARRIOR #NOW SHE IS AN INTELLIGENT BEAUTIFUL SAD ORPHAN BUT ABSOLUTELY GENIUS AND KIND DISKSNSJAJ #im literally in love with her #she is such a phenomenal actress #story of minglan #the story of minglan #i legit cant het enough of her and her acting. so beautiful and versatile and lovely #this drama start’s extremely slow but im so deeply invested in her story #ashley watches cdramas

[lecliss]

Yeah so me and my bff have decided to stop watching hunter x hunter. Turns out we were one ep away from Kite's death and that was the only ep we watched today before being mega disappointed and deciding the rest of the show just was not worth it. I hadn't cared about anything in the show except Leorio, Feitan, and Chrollo until Kite showed up and the Chimera Arc actually started getting interesting. But we were just disappointed that Kite didn't even get a proper death, it just skips the whole thing and shows Neferpitou with his severed head for shock value. We didn't even get to the stupid Kite ant reincarnation shit, we just sat there and complained for like 20 minutes lmao. And the fact that it was actually only 10 eps in with 51 left knowing it was going to be nothing but training arcs and fights against ants and all without the Better Kite. Not worth all that time. Not even worth knowing that Feitan comes back either.

#also guess what. she got spoiled almost immediately that kite dies too. but she told me after he died and i chose not to say i was also #spoiled and pretended not to be fjfnfkfnfk. i was just. ya know. hoping for an emotional death. not throwing away one of the only #interesting char just for shock value and to show off neferpitou #im adopting kite out of hxh. hes my character now and im going to do what i want with him (i.e. sexualize him /j) #i might adopt feitan too just cuz in still attached to him #and btw this happened IMMEDIATELY after we finished demon slayer season 4 so like. the expectations were way too high #(i cried twice during that btw. and we were thinking too deeply about tokito and theorizing he couldnt remember which brother he was #which honestly made it a bit disappointing when we confirmed there really wasnt an identity mystery. it woulda been so cool if #he couldnt remember which brother he was and we never got confirmation. we tricked ourselves with that one lmao) #anyway sorry for shilling hxh just cuz the first 9 eps of season 5 is the best it gets 😔 #and theres other good moments too. but this was the only time i actually felt invested in all aspects of the plot #and sorry to people that like it. im sorry we will never understand each other. at least i tried. kite my beloved i will grieve what you #deserved but never got #personal

[dilfkuza]

rgg summit has left me. very unwell and attempting to cope. but after a quick scroll on here at least im not alone in being severely fucked up by this new info and that's comforting

#im not very articulate rn but uh. yeah. getting this new info about a character we all care so deeply about that the studio has continued to #bring back time and time again instead of letting him retire/settle down/be with his family after everything he's accomplished to keep this #self-fulfilling prophecy of pain and isolation going. and slapping him with a diagnosis that almost certainly gurantees that the studio wont #give him the ending hes deserved for YEARS now.... #i just wanna know who thought that'd be a good idea. who said 'oh yeah lets do this. surely the fans wont mind' #was it Yokoyama. was it. #god. when my Kiryu plush comes in the mail im not letting him go for a long ass time #something something it feels good to know that other people are just as invested that they feel the same way #so theres no need for me to make myself feel weird about being so attached to the series and Kiryu like this #idk where i was going with this. end post ig #kiryu kazuma #y8 spoilers #ig? vague but ill do it to be safe #bulletin board

[thebleedingeffect]

I still unironically think that hashirama's and tobirams's mom was a hatake and was one of the key factors in the mokutun kekkei genkai and not just senju bs alright good night everybody

#i love how this makes zero sense if youre not invested in narutos lore #results from my very very late night energy spike but im crashing now so yippeeeeeeee #some elaboration cause i feel like it. i personally headcanon that the hatake clan used to exist but was killed around the same- #time as the uzumaki clan #the reason they werent so well known in the fire country is cause they originated from the lightning country #the hatake and uzumaki clan became allies after the lightning country became fearful of their white charka and turned hostile #the uzumaki clan deeply related so the two quickly became fierce allies and that's how tobiramas mom happened #basically konoha met the hatakes through the uzumakis extremely early on in their history and was a key result of the mokuton #in my brain white charka works like this. its an extremely volatile but powerful charka nature but its not made up of any one element #its basically pure energy that has the ability to heal and build upon existing jutsus to make them 10× more powerful #thats why people were so fearful of them as they could take your own jutsu and make it way more lethal in a blink of an eye #another plus is that the healing properties are unlike any another. basically it was well known of hatakes healing uzumakis that had- #pushed their charka systems too far during sealing. blowing out or even collapsing part of their charka network #white charka would basically restructure their network to a 'fixed' or 'pure' state #it was also very common for hatakes to work alongside uzumakis to help them control and share the vast power of their charka so that- #if anything happened. they could siphon majority of the kickback and make sure they didnt just fucking ko in a heatbeat #thats my argument to why things such as charka chains were much more common in the past cause youre SUPPOSED to have- #a hatake on standby who helps heavily in stabilizing their charka and shares the power while making it more durable and controlled #thats why karin and kushina fucking combusted each time they did the charka chains and its NOT supposed to be a- #solitary jutsu!! get you a fucking hatake to HELP YOU OR YOU WILL REGRET IT!!! yeah anyway so im making an oc

[darcyolsson]

i’m literally going crazy deciding whether or not to text my ex best friend it’s been on my mind for so long but everyone in my life constantly tells me no but the one person who’s capable of having a more nuanced opinion on said ex friend told me to do it and now i DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO

#i miss him but he hurt me a lot #and okay here's the deal. he's just a very deeply confusing and complicated person #like if you know him semi well you start to get it but he's just a bit different than most people #but because of that none of my friends really understand the full situation? theyre just like he hurt you i hope he dies which okay valid #id do the same #but now im friends w someone whos also ex-friends friend so he gets it #like he gets the nuance of the situation and he told me to give ex-friend a 2nd chance #but i'm not sure honestly. what it all comes down to is that it ended for a reason but he was also my best friend for a reason #and i still miss him for a reason #(to this invested in ivicky......this post is about guyim(nolonger)dating) #(and about my high school nemesis. he's the new friend. my life is normal) #personal

[texeoghea]

btw i have not posted art in a few days bc again we are in the process of moving i dont always have time to draw but i feel like my brain is going to explode with the amount of ideas i have that i cannot for some reason talk about. at all times i am thinking abt a hundred things and i post about one of them maybe sometimes. youll never know about the incredibly in depth persona 5 destiny au that has been forming in my brain for the last three weeks

#not art #albeit i have not caught up in destiny in like a fucking year. my knowledge of it spans from #red war to beyond light. anything before or after that i dont really know and i didnt really pay attention to some of the seasons #like arrivals and uhh the caiatl introduction one. sorry im just invested in the eliksni mostly. but like #a lot of the lore and concepts of the destiny world drive me insane i am so deeply in love with the idea #of guardians and light and darkness and what it means to be chosen by a god and the question of identity #when you cannot remember anything about your past and are expected to simply start over and let yourself #become something completely new. some kind of perfect living weapon of destruction for a wordless faceless god #that eternal question of who is that under the mask. who are you when you have nothing. when your light is destroyed #what makes a guardian. what does that mean. what happens when you take that away #what parts of you are ingrained so deeply that you have kept those traits through death and amnesia #and what parts of you are so different as to be unrecognizable because of the way you live now #what does free will mean when you exist at the whims of a higher power. when your life was picked at random #DESTINY IS SO AWESOME CONCEPTUALLY IT SUCKS THAT ITS PAY TO PLAY AND DOESNT REALLY WELCOME NEW PLAYERS #AND THAT SO SO SO MUCH CONTENT YEARS WORTH OF CONTENT AND LORE HAS BEEN SUNSET #AND IS NOW PRETTY MUCH IMPOSSIBLE TO ACCESS AND YOUD JUST HAVE TO READ ABOUT IT THROUGH OLD LORE ENTRIES AND POSTS #AND EXTRAPOLATE FROM CUTSCENES WHATS GOING ON. DESTINY IS GREAT. ID LOVE TO PLAY AND ENJOY IT #sorry i like somehow really deeply imprinted on this space shooter game back in 2020 somethings wrong with me

[coldflasher]

i really need to catch up on season 8 bc i actually wanna watch s9 properly as it airs and have the ~experience~ but also. i really can’t be bothered watching season 8

#see every now and then there'll be a random good episode and i will be like *pokemon egg cracking animation* ...oh? #and then i'll watch another episode and it will be so aggressively meh #the problem is that i am a very firm believer in quitting shows that are bad #the second i am even slightly 'ehhhh' about a show i will just bail #so when you get a show that im this deeply invested in that im determined to see through but the eps are bad #it is a constant battle against my nature that is telling me to quit at all costs #and like. the whole ronnie being a fucked up evil calcifer-style fire demon who destroys ppl with their own grief? #kinda fucks. except then they had all the drama with caitlin wanting to save him and more stagnant character development #and i was like oh right yeah *goes back to banging head against wall* #i do really wanna catch up tho cos the reverse flash stuff from s8 actually looks good #but. i have a hard time watching shows that ARE good bc of my poor attention span #so instead i just find myself watching 'it's me or the dog' on youtube for 4 hours

[redrreign]

if they make h*ntlow real in s3 im blowing this whole building up

#POST MADE WITH UNHAPPY INTENT TO BE CLEAR #really not liking the Implications i am picking up from the promos #i do not want to fight with anyone and i do not have genuine serious beef with the many MANY shippers #it's just one of those things that like. never really liked it from the start. but i was like whatever #it was just kind of annoying how much of it there was #but then it became inescapable in online spaces. and i quickly lost tolerance for it. so now it fills me with instinctual rage #god i feel like such a chump having Opinions about A Ship but as we all know i am DEEPLY invested in toh and hunter specifically #and so. unfortunately. i am now cursed to have Opinions about stupid shit that does not matter #feel like im swinging a bat at a hornets nest with this post #mutterings #toh

[waspspots]

Insanely messy insanely quick sketch to get this idea out of my head the instant it formed to prevent it from killing me in 6 seconds

This looks way angstier than the idea I had in my head but I was rushing to get it out, while discussing possible feats and other future options for sideraes build, the wording of gift of the metallic dragon was the perfect catalyst for the image of siderae using this immense extension of his innate power to desperately protect one of the others, these glowing wings that have only ever appeared when he's been desperate to save someone as fast as possible. I'm SO sorry to my 7 beautiful followers for this word vomit + crusty ass drawing but I CANT contain the radioactive sludge this trans godzilla eel dad generates in my brain

#i went to draw wings and realized a. i havent drawn at all today im not ready to just vomit up some michaelangelo right here right now #and b. i havent drawn wings in a while whoops gotta remember the structure of those real quick NOPE NO TIME JUST DO SOMETHING #one of the main reasons i made siderae a crystal dragonborn was for the gem flight ability #and the only time ive used it so far was to literally save our clerics life as he nearly died to an impending trap #siderae is so so deeply invested in protecting others #i was intending to make his next feat sentinel cause. duh obvious protector + generally really good ability but this metallic dragon feat #is also immensely intriguing and now im TORN #im so sorry to those reading this who have zero d&d knowledge i promise this is super difficult and is giving me ravenous brain rot #siderae stigmata #i need to draw you so badly bbg #waspsart #doodle

[iamthedamndonutdrawcat]

im so bound to social media and online fandom culture. i wish i didn't know about my favorite singers and actors and authors and i wish i wasn't interested in influencers and i wish i didn't come back to accounts that make me feel bad

#deleted tiktok its a FIGHT with myself 24/7 i really am addicted #should delete instagram too bc now im watching reels and thats even a downgrade #on a positive note: for the first time in literal years ive been so deeply invested in a book that i read it in 2 days. #im talking a 400page book #but REALLY being able to watch celebrities and interpreting THEIR mental wellbeing is insanely unwell for me but i still do it #ALSO never experienced fomo like those last few months. finally entering a place in my social media use where i actually interact w ppl fro #my life #and its so stressfull im constantly trying to leave an impression and being sad abt being boring #like my sense of self worth has suffered a lot recently i just dont feel good #mine