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wildernessuntothemselves · 2 years

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I’m actually crying- MY LIEGE MORT YOU DO NOT UNDERSTAND THE EMOTIONS IM EXPERIENCING RN JAKDHJSKS

i’ve been a long time follower of yours for so long,, i’m talking years!! i became hooked w the skz yandere fics and could not escape bc of you- and for all of the right reasons 😩🙌 and now im keeping up w your yamqn series and will occasionally reread your other txt fics,, and i’m planning to read enha’s as soon as i have time !!

but to hear that you enjoy my works truly TRULY means so much to me bc you’re the mastermind behind it all- one of the most inspiring writers to me on this app that have encouraged me to start writing 🥲🥲 and i’ll always be grateful for that

before this turns into a full on love letter, i just want to thank you for being my inspiration and basically the blueprint for my sub!idol writing career! you are truly the MOMENT mort i owe it all to you seriously 🙌🙌

-@/ssensitivityy 🥹🫰(i’m sorry if this ask is a bit dramatic- i’m just so in disbelief rn thank you i love you mort my heart is having an orgasm atm)

My liege ahsjdkdjsmakd 😂😂😂

It's so flattering to hear when a writer I like turns out to like me too. I'm always timid to approach other writers because I know I write polarizing stuff so I expect the reaction to be like "eww get away from me" lol so like having you actually like me too is 🙈🙈🙈

But anyway I love your writing so much. I read everything even the idols I don’t stan. Like I have no idea who eric is but his puppy series? 🥵🥵🥵 right up my alley

Thank you for deciding to write because ma'am you make awesome sub!idol content and keep us fed 😭

#i love you too babe #can't wait to read more from you #mort talks

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gringolet · 3 years

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Hi! Can you describe the different versions of Lancelot in different works (you choose the ones that you think more representative). I'm interested specifically in the traits of character, which are more common to find and which differentiate each work. Ps: I love reading your posts 🥰

ahhh thank you anon! sorry i took so long to answer this lol i have like 90 unanswered asks rn and every one weighs heavy on my soul. i think it would be best to go from chretien to vulgate to morte, and then dash over the the various romance traditons lancelot.

chretien lancelot: he has unmatched martial prowess, but hes also heedless, naive and doesnt think things through or know his limits. hes very loyal and prone to both outbursts of violence and emotional instability. he has little to no regard for his own well being, and at some points of the text is actively suicidal. hes a huge mess in general but he is also like, a teenager. this is the og lancelot, and the direct inspo for

vulgate lancelot: in many ways resembles chretien lancelot, especiaLLY when young as he is in chretien. he is shy, but not overmodest; he cries very often and hates talking to people. as the text goes and and he gets older this lessens to an extent, and though he remains a very private person he does have friends who he is intensely loyal to. hes violent and gets away with it because people just like, love him, because who wouldnt?

le morte lancelot doesnt have that sense of naivety to the extent the earlier ones do, and is much more quietly competent. vulgate lancelot seems to not quite understand how everything went so wrong, and despite his competence at arms feels hapless in the face of his sins coming to roost. le morte lancelot faces them with grim acceptance. hes still sort of awkward but mostly VERY stab happy. not as likely to burst into tears upon being asked his own name

the lancelot of romances is often more of a parody of prose lancelots; especially in the dutch, where hes sort of this ridiculous perfect knight figure whos absurdly violent, loyal to guinevere and rushes into things without thinking, needing gawain or his relatives to drag him out and clean up the disaster in his wake. This is true of a lot of epigonal french romances like marvels of rigomer, where he is overly violent and bad at social interaction.

this is super broad ansd im leaving a lot of texts out but i hope this is a helpful starting point!!

#tw suicide mention #Anonymous

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tillman · 4 years

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Pls infodump about lancelot from what i observe almost everyone hates him? (Ok its understandable bec of his affair with queen) im curious why do you like lancelot? And i remember a few days ago you post that there so many things you want to talk about him? And i want to see you rant/gush about his character, relationships, mental illness, his flaws etc ans also what is the difference between fate lancelot and lancelot in the legends? I want to know more about him he is complicated

OK its not that everyone hates him its that people hate what he stands for. the french side of arthurian lit is VERY focused on making lancelot seem like the greatest knight in the entire world because…. wow… hes french. and french people suck. stop normalizing the french. i like lancelot because of what he COULD stand for. theres a lot of things that could be delved into more (his mental illnesses, his communication issues, his inability to comprehend love, the struggle with being unholy or wrong, ect) but no one ever does. so i stole him hes mine now fuck the french they did him dirty.

uhm ok this is under a cut for talks of kinda heavy topics (lots of mental health talk, lots of abuse talk) and also cus its long. sorry i have a lot to say about him)

i like lancelot a lot cus i see myself a lot in him. mostly in his mental health and how he ends up dealing with situations. his struggle with violent mood swings and his huge burden of being labeled as a sinner or whatever for a relationship he admits to feeling trapped in is…. relateable… comforting to see in a fictional character i guess. as flawed as he is hes still heralded as a good person. hes still loved by his friends and his family. and thats nice.. i like it.

uhm for his mental health the main thing that comes out is his struggles with trauma, awful depression, and also just the fact he dissociates a lot. in knight of the cart he is so out of it he doesnt realize a knight is attacking him until hes thrown into the water in which he reacts violently and freaks the fuck out, trying to rip the guy off his horse. he like. physically can not handle extreme emotions and will either fall asleep so he doesnt have to face it (le morte says this is a known quality of him, he does this enough dinadan expects it as soon as he gets mad) or he swings so hard he has an extreme bout of depression (in the vulgate when trying to comprehend his relationship with guenevere and galehaut he just shuts down and spends all his time sleeping or staring at the river) or awful mania (see: the many times guenevere freaks out at him and he gets so upset he jumps out a window and lives in the woods). Lancelot has a lot of unworked out trauma from being r*** twice by the same woman who continues to use him and freak him out so much he cant find camelot safe (triggering another huge spike where he runs off into the woods) or the literal entire end of the legends where he has to deal with the trauma of while having one of his dissociative episodes in combat he accidentally kills gareth, someone he loves and adores like a brother or son and gets so upset he just accepts everything happening and hides in joyous gard, where his cousins have to BEG him to go and defend his honor from gawain whos basically knocking on his door pleading with lancelot to kill him.

lancelots inability to understand a lot of social nuances is also really interesting but like, ultimately leads to a lot of strife for him most namely galehauts death and gueneveres constant abuse. The thing is Lancelot basically idolizes guenevere and this is where a lot of the abuse and weird shit comes from in their relationship. lancelot was a very young knight who honestly didnt understand anything about BEING a knight when he came to court. the queen knighted him and him, being young and not understanding, took this as “i am her knight! i will do anything for her!” and guenevere just kinda ran with this? i dont rlly wanna go too into it ill do that later when i get farther in the vulgate and can talk more on it but it leads to lancelot being trapped in a relationship he admit hurts him, but the small sliver of love guenevere gives him when she needs him is enough to keep him in because his mindset is still “im her knight! this is what a knight should do for his lady!” Galehaut is a different situation where his blindness to social cues and other shit leads to a lot of drama and hellish shit and when he finally snaps and realizes “oh. oh no this is what love should be” its too late and galehaut is dead and lancelot isnt much better. his own mother has to come and convince him not to literally kill himself over this and sends him into a spiral of depression where he doesnt leave the joyous gard for months. when he does and when he comes back to court, no one really … cares? that galehaut is dead. and this is lancelots first experience with actual love and his first experience with the death of someone close to him. which is an awful double whammy to have to experience. he does have good friends like gawain and dinadan and tristan and his relationship with galahad is good but they all end up dead or turned against him by something thats he did and its just. god its so sad to watch. the only people lancelot is left with in the end are his cousins, and even at the end of all of that hes left alone with the corpses of people he thought he loved.

like hes a very flawed man. lancelot is a problem causer and not a problem solver. he doesnt try to he really doesnt, he strives to be the perfect knight mostly for some sliver of appreciation from someone he idolizes he never really ends up getting. he doesnt know how to cope, and ends up making things worse when he inevitably ends up screwing shit up because of this. hes called a sinner and unholy by god, and while he is very proud of his son for what he ends up achieving, has to deal with the trauma of the grail quest alone. he ends up killing someone he loves, and who genuinely respected and cared for him like a brother in a fit of him not being able to deal with heavy emotions. like he truly is in the wrong in most situations but like. in such a pitiable way. hes a good person, but lets his flaws overtake him a lot and pushes away the people who want the best for him. its like…. sad.

(about to talk about fate u can drop off now if u just wanted to read my arthurian lit opinions :-) )

i could go off about fate lancelot and all the problems i have with him for hours but i think the main thing i wanna talk about rn is how they handle his internalization of his life and then just did nothing with it. his wish for the grail is just to be told he was wrong. thats so fucking GOOD!! in life he was heralded as the best knight like of course his one regret was that no one ever stopped him and went “you are wrong. this is wrong. you are doing the wrong thing.” and that being all he wants out of the thing that can grant any wishes is soooooo soo cool and neat. and then they just reduced his personality to “oh boo hoo im so sad im going to fuck a married woman now” like. the fucking dissonance. like lancelot isnt the type for random flings. tristan sure i understand that a bit hes unhinged and hard to characterize and .. honestly does just go around fucking married woman. weirdo. but lancelots entire struggle is over his relationship with guenevere being both wrong morally and literally abusive! i jsut dont get it i dont understand how they built up something so interesting with zero and threw it all out the window it makes me so mad. i dont even wanna talk about fate lancelot anymore rn its giving me a headache cus im so mad.

#hes a really interesting and complex character with a lot of nuance but hes just so dumb #lancleot is the epitome of today i will cause problems on accident #hes just a mess of a man and trying to deal with taht fact but the problem is he has more power #than a man like that should have and it puts himself and others in dangerous situations #Anonymous

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