#im quite irritated

[fisksaturday]

#my art #the secret saturdays #zak saturday #my doctor only gave me a ten day supply and ive tried to ask for a refill three goddamn times over the course of the past week #you can imagine the kind of stress i am under. the brain zaps have started #im quite irritated

[ocpdzim]

what you’ve got to understand about working conditions in education (and also other care-oriented careers) is that if they’re shit, two things are true at once:

that does not ever excuse being cruel to a kid, no matter what

until those conditions are fixed, education will continue to suck absolute shit

this is because when working conditions for teachers are really bad, many of the good teachers who recognize when they are reaching a point where they can no longer be the sort of teacher the kids deserve due to burnout WILL quit. they will do the responsible thing and go away for their own sake and the sake of the kids. and you end up stuck w a combination of new teachers who are trying their best but won’t last long, burnt out teachers who are trying their best but have nothing left to give and therefore aren’t very effective at actually teaching, and cockroach shitheads who take out their misery on the kids.

we have all had terrible experiences with bad teachers, many of them flat out traumatic, but for fuck’s sake please try to look at the systemic underpinnings of the problem for one minute. spitefully declaring that teachers don’t deserve good working conditions or even the right to complain about bad working conditions because ms. whoever in 5th grade was a bitch is only going to create more of her. if you want good teachers then we need an education system they can survive in

#i get so irritated w the post where like. #95% of it is a good post and then at the end op is like WAAAHHH teachers are complaining about burnout on my post about a bad teacher #like yeah no shit. if the field of education wasnt so hostile to everyone who works in it maybe they could have found a better teacher to #replace that motherfucker with. and then she would not be there to bother the kids any more. #as someone who Has had traumatic experiences w bad teachers. #its scary enough walking into a field i know is pretty much built to chew new teachers up and spit us out #hoping to be able to survive it long enough to do some good and be the kind of teacher i needed as a kid #without people acting as though it is some sort of crime for teachers to want. like. basic human dignity at work and enough money to survive #even people who are nominally pro-workers rights #you guys have no fucking idea how bad the situation is in schools right now #the reason bad teachers didnt get fired perhaps USED to be tenure #but nowadays its the fact that its rare for a school to be fully staffed *at all* bc so many teachers quit or died #so they'll hire and keep absolutely fucking anyone simply because the alternative is No Teacher. and an empty classroom #full of kids who wont learn anything except that the system doesnt even care about them enough to put a teacher in the room. #i have gotten job offers ON SIGHT from principals who know nothing about me and im literally not even legally qualified to teach yet #like before even telling them my name lmao #and im sure everyone else in town who expresses any interest in teaching whatsoever gets the same.

[oatbugs]

anyway this upcoming trip w my gf. will decide a lot i think

#travelling tgth can tell u a lot abt a person #my gf has quite strong anxiety #but nevertheless for me. i know i cant be rly in a relationship w someone who becomes like #irritable and panicked and clueless under pressure instead of looking at it like a fun challenge or an adventure #like genuinely the attitude of becoming snappy when travel stress hits is smth ive seen in my parents and i Cannot deal w it personally #ive been held up a lot at the border and ive been trapped in foreign countries cities w a dead phone at 4 AM etc #and somehow its always been an adventure esp when im w a friend w a similar outlook of like. omg this will be a good story to tell later #lets make the most of it let's sit on the beach or find a bar thats still open lets discuss smth we love until sunrise!! #anyway i know shes an anxious person but regardless of that being . not pessimistic and enjoying adventure and stuff #is so important to me in a person. it reflects not just on travel but abt how they will handle life later yk. what happens if our car #stops in the middle of the road? will you start freaking out about it? will you be calm through it? #so #well see #i hope it goes well i love her sm

[sapphicdib]

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#i think this is just my irritability from my meds #so i’m putting my rant down in the tags #im going to delete this later but i just needed to get this out bc i’ve seen it quite a few times now #but if i see one more fuckin person say something along the lines of ‘stop drawing the iterators/slugcats in this way because it’s boring #or wrong or doesn’t match up with MY HEADCANON’ #im gonna fucking lose it. if you want to see slugcats or iterators drawn how YOU like them. why don’t YOU draw them. or YOU pay other #artists you draw them for you? #the fact that some people are so god damn entitled to fanworks that passionate people are making FOR FREE #this isn’t about any of my followers or anything and i block people who say shit like that on sight but for real. #your interpretations of characters and designs are not the end all be all. i interpret sigs shape language as pointy! a lot of the fandom #sees her as square! you know what i DONT do? make posts about how artists should stop drawing him square #you know what i DO do? draw her pointy MYSELF! #i’ll delete this later bc it really doesn’t matter and it’s NOT directed at any of my followers or moots it’s just a general thing ive seen #you do realize that most of what we have to go off of are 10 pixel tall muppets right. #going crazy stupid with designs is FUN! im beginning to think some of y’all take this shit WAY too seriously lmao #anyways.

[fightaers]

sometimes i think abt how sakura's become so widely-spread and misinformed in that mass-production that she's almost become this caricature of the third female member in a trio who is a 'girl-boss who is so cool and is so sexy or so confident etc' when, in fact, she's actually a character with believable flaws and unique characteristic pertaining specifically to the experiences she's endured, and she's beyond someone everyone mass-ships or mass-hates, and in this essay i will—

#thinking about how many people mary sue'd her #including myself unfortunately before i reread part 2 #and like.......... god. #the way she has compassion and genuine goals and has her unique insecurity and flaws #and she has her strengths and her own determination #and the way the fandom either..... simplifies her or reduces her just. #it grinds on my nerves! #the other day i read fanfics where s.akura supposedly is just endlessly irritated by i.no bc shes ''suffering'' so much #[to get the attention of a guy and i.no's being 'unreasonable'] #and im like??????? #WHAT DO U MEAN #im not even gonna go to that rabbit hole because i have like. RECEIPTS on how much i.no means to her #i 100% believe i.no quite literally is probs the first to SAVE HER when team 7 was .... not around #and this is beyond mentorship. she has genuine PEERS bc of i.no! #AGAIN. i could go on and on about that #on how much guilt and gratitude she probs feels abt the rest of konoha 11 who /did/ take her in #on how much PART of why she worked so hard — catching up to nrt and ssk aside — is BECAUSE she wants to save k11 when they NEED her #ok imma quit now before i go full on rambling #i love her soooo much. and team 7 is messy yes but i love their messy dynamic too! #but i simply detest how she's either an accessory. an obstacle. or this dramatic over-the-top heroine that can do-all #funny how her main narrative is always abt her wanting to be an equal to her teammates #and even outside of the narrative she's almost never that. #gen: out of character.

[chryzure]

whew, people get heated over their fav booktok book.

#memorie.txt #once you’ve read more you’re more willing to admit that you love a kinda poorly written book #by god i love jackaby. the writing style is a solid 3/5 and the plot stuff is cheesy as hell. #you get a better frame of reference for ‘this book requires an award’ style of good #and a ‘god this is so my dumb little niche that scratches all those weird little itches nobody else has’ style of good #one of my fav series is the ghost and the goth!! is it good?? i don’t know if i’d go that far!! #is it fun and does it make me think of trysi / chryzure stuff??? yes :) #i’m beginning to wonder abt ppl rabid abt their fav books. anyway this one person was losing their shit over ppl liking apollo #and aurora and i’m an aurora shooter but i digress #they were foaming at the mouth and im like Well. its a little not that serious . #he is letters on a page. and also mostly irrelevant to the story as a whole so im kinda confused as to why ppl feel so strongly abt him #it’s funny because most of my complaints stem from an outside pov #where i critique the worldbuilding / plot work / character writing and its inconsistencies #whereas ppl assume im encouraging villainy irl. it is quite seriously more that the villainy is unmotivated #or otherwise poorly done. i love to hate a good villain if the proper legwork is put into it #because i like observing how others work their craft!!! #but my irritation with stephanie is that she doesn’t work her craft well. it’s shoddy craftsmanship full of retcons or #convenience required for plot that otherwise hold no reasoning in the story #and i can admit that i find the series unsatisfying because it’s marketed as a romance (the romance had little chemistry that could be #understood by anyone that’s not straight. straight romances are always laziest because it’s the ‘norm’ so that equates to chem) #and also it was marketed as having plot when rlly the ‘plot’ was trying to put these characters in weird chemistry-less situations together #so yeah i’ll complain abt the villains being jealous shallow archetypes when it could’ve had depth. #i’ll complain abt a lot. but in the end it’s a silly basic ya romance series that isn’t anything unique #most unique stories will not be found on booktok. i’m sorry #i can show you the beautiful world of horror novels though! #or weird lil 80s fantasy novels that are actually quite long that my dad likes showing me #truly no romance novel will be better than the darkangel trilogy though.. that is what stephanie wanted to write. #but that’s lightning in a bottle ithink. #okay anyway. good night. i worked a long day and i have appts in the morning

[aha-aha-ahahaha]

Dear belly, you have to choose.

#the summer i turned pretty #tsitp s2 #tsitp #tsitp belly #conrad fisher #jeremiah fisher #team conrad #belly???? #nick miller #new girl #you have to choose #YPU CANNOT HAVE BOTH LIKE QUIT PLAYING #im irritated

[kummatty]

allergic to being back in the usa

#quite literally itchy all over and no idea why #im guessing its the water bc ive always been sensitive to hard water while showering #but it usually lasts for like 10-20 mins post shower and goes away instead of irritating my skin 24/7

[eclipsecrowned]

but yeah like. the more i think about it the more i want to make it 100% clear that as a canon writer i don't appreciate forceshipping, so in writing my ocs i will never assume a dynamic with a canon in turn. for the most part, i try to let people come to me when it concerns characters that might derail or change canon significantly -- for example, the oc in question odessa, or my ice and fire oc mira, or countless others -- because i never want to step over boundaries or force interaction with someone whose lore or character is at odds with my own worldbuild.

if i do post about an original or player character muse's dynamic with a canon, i hope it is understood that one of three things is happening:

i am talking about my own dual muses. ie if i allude to stray and ard*n having a special bond, or that i ship hel and dream, i am talking specifically about the ones on my own muse page. i am not forcing my own idea on my partners. stray does not have to be a reflection of the main villain. hel is not going to go throwing herself at every dream in the tag. if things go that way organically with a partner's muse, i'm not opposed to exploring my takes with someone else, but it's never my intent to railroad my mutuals into indulging my own personal lore. at that point i might as well write fic and leave other people out of it.

i am talking about a dynamic established in a pc's playthrough -- using my most recent gaming experience as an example, i might reference helstarion/valheart/wybelle/auzel/ruetash as being romantic, but i would never just spring that on my writing partners who play the canon, or assume they have to cater to my own savegames. i'm simply talking about in-game lore in my own personal playthroughs that help shape my take on the pc. this applies to other fandoms/games as well, too. ismail does not have to endgame with a grippy sock drow milf, it's just that he does in my worldstate. einmyria doesn't have to take the bull by the horns, that's just how i played the game. me musing about in-game ships does not mean i go into interacting with accounts for those canons with expectations.

more often than not, i am referencing ships with established partners. for example, this morning, i was talking explicitly about the irudessa ship with lee. i was not jut posting for my health about a hypothetical dynamic, i was talking about a one-on-one ship between my muse and that of a friend. this applies to more than romantic shipping, too -- ex, lea and tarhos are siblings per my and ferret's lore, aria and eld's loki are cousins in his da au, and that's between us and lightly sprinkled into other threads with friends. i may not always namedrop this fact, because i assume other people trust me as a partner enough to understand i am not throwing dynamics out there without proper plotting and discussion.

thank you, friends, have a normal one.

#psa #out of stories #idk why this is irritating me so bad and i think it's just bc it's so personal to me bc!!! #im really quite shy about my ocs. not so much talking about them but definitely in approaching others with them. #i never want to be that person just fumbling in and making sb rewrite their entire narrative to fit in my character--

[kikiyo]

due to [static noise] i’m in an odd state so i may be a bit chaotic in activity tonight/tomorrow as it eases up!

#will they b constantly online or completely silent who is to say #the mind of ró is a strange little beast #tbd / #this is as much an update as it is me simply complaining #😪 I got awful sleep ln and my body is in this sort of #heightened flight mode status which is hilariously (HaHa) painful in #a strange way! anywho… again partly just being loud about it #bc i find it annoying but also am quite irritable bc of it so im #likely avoiding ooc interactions for just a smidge

[corvidaedream]

my nemesis are historical fashion girls who act smug about our clothes being "wrong" bc of facts they know about women's clothing in the 1770s but its like. their idea of "historically accurate" is, in fact, "historically fashionable among well-to-do young married women" or "working women but only the ones in rococo paintings who are actually rich women posing in poor people cosplay"

like girl please look at some paul sandby sketches of old women in london selling fish and maybe you'll calm down about how frumpy i look

#messages from the ouija board #sadies day job #im stewing rn bc our costumer tried to save themselves some time on winter clothing by buying premade cloaks #and the woman who made them sent a really condescending letter of authenticity w details on how they /should/ be styled #and we are all quite irritated by it bc all her notes are like. 'you cant do (thing northern poor women provably did that wasnt fashionable

[benanazauce]

my spidey ‼️‼️‼️

can’t BELIEVE I haven’t posted this yet I’m still proud of it

she lives in a vaporwave inspired universe and she’s somewhat in the style of the archie comics I hope you like her

character sheet under the cut!! I posted it before but it’s buried

the art’s a bit old so she’s not in her actual style here

by the way she does wear glasses she just can’t wear them under her mask but the lenses of her mask have prescription degrees so she can see just not without it

no idea what she’s looking at here probably a bug on a floor to the side

also disregard the 3 points below “bitten by a cat that ate the radioactive spider” those are irrelevant now but I will make an updated character sheet when I’m free!! hopefully a better one too

#oc #spiderverse oc #spidersona #bennet parker #hopefully you guys can see the screen tones #by the way! to replace the irrelevant points in the character sheet #actually only 2 of them I’m still workshopping the canon event because I want her to be happy IM SO SORRY BEN IT HAS TO BE DONE #she doesn’t know hobie! maybe I can try to make them meet but the society is HUGE so I’m not sure how but then again he’s quite well known? #she doesn’t DISLIKE Miguel per say just really irritated at him for scolding her so much #she’s always getting in trouble #she only starts disliking him after the whole miles thing since she’s around the same age as miles and is like “dude wtf. he’s a kid too— #—you can’t just do that” #anyways she’s also part cat from the cat that bit her #she uses web shooters she doesn’t have actual web #she’s pretty much only got spider senses and the traits of a ginger cat #her pupils can dilate and contract and stuff #not to that big of an extent but still a considerable amount #it’s a cool party trick

[xannerz]

my parents like actively stress me out and then wonder why i'm so neurotic all the time lmao

#i really missed them but pa and i were barely 5 min from home on the way back from LAX #and he was already unloading and venting shit onto me #i called him out on it and he shut up but seemed both surprised and irritated at my pushback #im still VERY much on tilt from it #like stop dude! stop! this xyz thing you keep griping about is out of everyone's hands #just like me near-buckling under the Everything that comes with being the only child of 2 aging emotionally stunted immigrants #and having Quite a Few Rich Friends who you'll just eternally gawk at in comparison #with their families being self-sufficient while they get to vacation (often abroad!) at least 2x a year #me hauling ass between 2 museums and meeting my coworkers for the first time in 1 day in a new city for the first time #was LESS exhausting than that car ride back w my dad #i dont want comfort rn im just venting. #xangoeswah

[queer-crusader]

I'll be honest besties. I'm doing Not Good. One might even go so far as to say I'm doing Bad

#anne speaks #my mood is plummeting and im irritable in a way i recognise from my depression days #im actually fucking furious at my work situation now. and it's day in day out #wanna quit so fucking bad but i need this money. i need to save so i can go back to scotland #but it's just going Bad #im hoping this is temporary but idk it's looking bad and messy #am planning on reducing my hours in september bc i get a raise then but thats still half a year away and i need to find a way to survive #speaking of. im not in survival mode at least (well not yet). but i can feel the unhealthier coping mechanisms creeping in #im fighting them off with a stick but ya know a girl (gn) only has so much energy

[tvslashers]

i don’t like to talk about my drug problems but the new years has me reflecting and i just wAnt to say i would not wish dopesickness or withdrawal on my worst enemy. but i do wish that people could be more understanding without going through those things themselves. The instinct IS to wish those things on bigoted people, but it shouldn’t be that way.

#like im saying the lowness the desperation and the hunger is indescribable when you’re trying to quit #it’s so easy to say ok I’m going to quit. but then the next day you haven’t slept a wink. #you’re shaking. you’re sweating. you can’t even keep water down. you’re muscles are searing #your brain is firing every alarm and bell it can all at once #your head is pounding you’re anxious you’re irritable you’re terrible to be around #and all you need to fix it is just one hit #even when you get close to death on whatever you’re on and say i can’t keep doing this or im going to kill myself soon #it is the hardest thing I’ve ever done and i have to do it every day #the sickness is gone but every day. every day you have to choose to be sober from it #every hour of every day

[geffenrecords]

imscqred my eyebrow piercing is rejecting I might just end my life

#zyz #the bar i have in now was supposed 2 be the short one but it sticks out so much:(...n it was all irritated for a couple months n shit im so #nervous....gna try to get a shorter bar but mannnnn #fuckkk... #my parents will be so upset if i end up having to take it out i know they will...worked for all rhat money and begged so much just for it to #quit on me...godddamnit