#im happy now tho. this helped

[transvampireboyfriend]

like just tonight, i've been agonizing over the fact that i didn't get to correctly hem the top i made for my sister bc she took it with her bc she's so excited to wear it on saturday. like, laz, do you hear yourself? she's excited to wear it and you're here feeling bad bc it wasn't perfect. you dumbass

#moron. you ridiculous fool #I'll stop talking to myself now #i just cannot believe i hadn't noticed i was doing this! #(guy who has a hard time recognizing his own feelings voice) #. #im happy now tho. this helped #im proud i made a top for my sister (who famously has immaculate taste and style) and she really loved it #it's her bday tomorrow #microblogging

[koszmarnybudyn]

Juno deserves a little broding, as a treat.

#juno steel #peter nureyev #the penumbra podcast #my art #tpp #gosh these two are hard to draw #idk when this would take place and im not happy with the backround but if i didnt make fanart now i was gonna explode #i binged all of juno steel and second citadel up to season 2 in like a week and a bit #it was very good but now im kinda sad i dont get to binge more :( its good for my sleeping habits tho lol #also for my dndads followers my sister thought this was hermie and normal in an au and i am dying pls send help

[orcelito]

It is Now

My birthday 😌

I am now 27 💃

#speculation nation #i'll update my bio later bcus i gotta b on my computer to not wreck my html #but the age old 'it's my birthday which means it's time to tick that age up one more year' #been doing this ever since i was 15 lol. and so it shall continue for the foreseeable future. #anyways im feeling better than i was earlier. my girlfriend came over & that helped a Lot #just chatted and cuddled as i waited for my birthday to hit. #it is now may 13th. my 27th birthday. and i have absolutely nothing written for ITNL chapter 19 😭 #i'm working on getting there tho. making good progress in my reread. just having to be more thorough than expected. #i'll still make it my birthday chapter. just in a 'hey my birthday was a few days ago. if u guys wanna wish me happy birthday :]' way #anyways yea if anyone wants to be oh so niceys to me in my comments or asks i would enjoy that very much 🥺

[eternallovers65]

Thoughts about dramatrio as a forever viewer (and occasionally bad and baghera viewer)

RP WISE!!!! DON'T GO BOTHER THE CC'S

From q!forever's perspective, you can see how the dramatrio was always a duo and not a trio. qbad and qbaghera do not trust forever, and if they do, they don't trust him enough for their secrets.

- They never supported qforever during his presidency (qbad did vote for him, tho). qbad always complained about everything forever did, even tho qforever always tried to listen to him and everyone else.

- qbaghera did not told him the secret about her childhood, but she told qbad. Just like bad didn't tell qforever about the fed worker he kidnapped but he told qbaghera.

- "Oh but qforever took his waystone first" he did that because he asked for an item and no one helped him, so he got tired of helping people but no one helping him

- Also, qbaghera is dapper's mom, and qbad is pomme's dad. qforever was never included in this conversation.

- They say forever will get easily manipulated by the federation because he's the president, but yesterday both bad and baghera said they don't think cucurucho is bad

- They both banned forever from their houses

Anyway, they like to have forever around for the fun part of it, to joke and all but when stuff get serious they don't tell him anything and keep talking about him behind his back. And the only people that actually trust qforever is the favelafive

#i saw people saying that qbaghera was in a lose lose situation yesterday but idk you tell bad but you dont tell forever??? #'oh because hes the president“ when did qforever ever betrayed his best friends??? during the whole pill arc he still tried to help cellbit #also the whole argument goes to shit because now bad and baghs are saying cucurucho isnt bad as if he didn't lock up phil or torture cellbi #this was always a duo during the serious moments and only blind people dont see this and say qforever is acting like a child #and i think this started when q!forever hit leo during his attack but even tho he redeemed himself foolish doesnt hate him for that #and has forgiven him somehow baghera and bad dont and they have this idea that forever is impulsive even tho he can be quite the strategist #when he wants and again he always does everything for everyone and theres zero retribution from them i mean forever literally did that part #for bad two days ago and told he would try to make bad and baghera happy even tho he doesnt know whats going on with them bc they dont tell #anyway im tired of forever being the good guy always i need him to actully wake up and just stop caring #qsmp #qbaghera #qbadboyhalo #qforever

[murdochia]

Finished my 911 pinset!

#911 on fox #911 #my art #i might do more characters later but for now im sticking with the fab five #chim warped a tad and some had some smudging but overall im happy with them #using only prismacolor or blending some prisma with my crayolas really helped #not sure what to seal it with tho

[todayisafridaynight]

everyday i constantly think of masato's wheelchair and if that's his only one/main one no wonder he's so pissed at everyone

#snap chats #someone pointed this out to me like last year so im stealing it sorry cause I Think Of It Constantly #the handling of masato's disability will forever annoy me esp with how vague it is but esp his chair #one day ill draw masato with an appropriate wheelchair. maybe then he'll be happy for once #in a way i guess it could tie into how restricted or trapped he felt since the type of chair he's shown is more like. a hospital one #and not one youd really use as a regular user- like in that vein it is a bit of storytelling in that he can ONLY go out with help #since hospital chairs are SO much different from home chairs ESPECIALLY in regards to mobility and independence the user has #AND NOT TO MENTION HOW UNCOMFORTABLE THOSE CHAIRS ARE get his ass a proper cushion P L E A S E #like it portrays the idea that its unfathomable for him to go anywhere on his own and so in that vein . Interesting Storytelling #theres a lot of implications going on here if im so honest and again it makes for Really Interesting Story Telling #however i refuse to give rgg credit like that when it comes to disabilities. ... they havent earned that from me yet #see this is why the vagueness of his condition annoys me because he's shown to be independent enough to roll himself to his elevator #and presumably get himself dressed but he cant have a proper chair ? #because ik there are people who have expressed they have conditions where even writing is tiring #so if his condition was in-line with that and it was hard for him to push himself in his chair then i could buy it #obviously the issue lies with his lungs but i just want to know the full extent yk... #to wrap this up tho ive been thinking of character design in rgg and how we dont give credit to it enough #sooooo if i make a second post ten minutes from now thats why cause i keep forgetting to spam my thoughts on here LMAO #ok bye

[sluckythewizard]

so uhh i DID start writing again but this time its w my Riptide Cowboy Au Thats Also Just An Animorphs Au. here check out this very small bit of it. (under the cut is an OLD doodle page that i made based around this idea)

#ITS AN ANIMORPHS AU BABY AND THAT MEANS THAT THERES YEERKS BABY OOH YEAH #I LOVE YEERKS THEYRE JUST LITTLE SLUGS THAT CRAWL INTO YOUR BRAIN #im very happy w my descriptions in this lil snippet. i hope it comes across as scary as i wish it to be #im also still very happy w this doodle page. check out chip he has a pickaxe earring now #jay also comes from an airforce family. instead of RAFT its called CRAFT #yknow like air craft. teehee. also instead of the planet o MANA im thinkin o calling it either LIFE or STAMINA #yknow like how ina game u have ur health bar n mana bar n you get what i fuckin mean #OKAY AND ILL ALSO MAKE A CONFESSION. I HAVNT READ ANIMORPHS SINCE ELEMENTRY SCHOOL #IVE BEEN MEANING TO READ IT AGAIN. BUT IT STILL HAD SUCHAN IMPACT ON ME I THINK I REMEMBER ENOUGH #i wont be following any Exact canon of animorphs bc yknow what this is a different planet. or somethingm #yes i DO plan on giving the trio the power to morph #and yes i DO plan on making C.R.A.F.T entirely infiltrated by yeerks. jays dad is especially taken already #ayvas also been taken for a very very long time. even before she died #im thinking edyn in this au would also be taken. teehehee. her and her yeerk work together tho maybe #OOH lizzie is out there also. running w a big n awesome caravan of bandits. caspian is an alien but im not sure what kind yet #yknow whjat i could inject whatever wacky alien shit i want in this au. my world. my world. my world. #anyway if u feed me ideas i might eat them. i might eat them. i feel so fuckin possessed tofay #EVERYTHING IS SO DARK HEEEEEL[P!!! HELP MEEE!!! HEEEEELLP!!!!!!!!!

[harvestmoth]

sorry for posting fnaf on main

#feel like it was to be expected at somepoint tho #considering my pfp and some of my latest posts having something to do with it…. was only a matter of time i think #i think 10 yr old me would be happy i can sorta draw these guys now though #.sorta.. #anwyays sorry im goin through a phase rn i dont know how long itll last but send help #how would you even tag this #fnaf #fredbear #golden freddy #the puppet #i guess ? #anyways can you guess my favorite fnafs.

[wildmelon]

ive been obsessively tweaking my v and downloading different mods for like 2 days straight

#might finally b happy with her cyberware #at least i finally chose some eyes #and her skin is done too #im not immune to giving v huge tits... #i was gonna leave it vanilla but i couldn't help it #so i had to redownload all my clothing mods lmfao #commitment #having the hardest time w cyberware tho and now im worried her tattoos r too much w body cyberware... #sigh #if only i werent so shallow and could just play without a perfectly visually realized oc #lush.talk

[bunnihearted]

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#it went!!! idk lately my pain treshhold has been so low bc im in pain all the time #so i just dont wnna be in pain anymore... he said that now it'll still hurt for a few days T-T #but he wasnt exactly sure what it was but i had.. a cavity?? #im not rlly sure abt the english terms for all of this but the tooth is dying lol #but instead of immediately killing it nd getting a root fill he said that we should give the tooth a chance #so he fixed what he could fix #i hate dentist treatments bc of all the air nd water nd my anxiety i need to swallow constantly #but this time i actually told them abt it nd he was very helpful sksks #he even said 'ok now take a break nd swallow' so i didnt need to be so anxious #nd it was a relief bc he wasnt bad at all. he was actually rlly nice nd easy to talk to phewww #it cost abt $80 so i can manage to be without that until next week!!!! #so yeah it went much better than i had anticipated so im happy abt that #but yeah the problem still isnt 100% fixed yet so im still not relieved #he said i had a cavity in my other tooth as well but that we needed to check that at another time #im so frustrated bc i brush my teeth 2/day i use mouthwash i floss.... #and for the last 7 months i havent even had any sugar!!!!! like why did this still happen.. o.o #oh nd he also said that i probably clench my teeth nd yeah i do that a lot more than i've realized #your teeth arent supposed to be touching!! never!! only when u eat #my teeth.... are touching pretty much all day omg. bc im so tense nd anxious #he said that he couldnt be sure bc he didnt have enough info to go on but that could have contributed to this #well well... i did it nd went even if i didnt want to #hopefully my tooth will be better now. nd i have another appt in may to see what i could get done further #if financial aid for it gets approved tho it might not #but yeah.. god dental pain nd issues is my no. 1 fear bc im poor nd i cant afford it

[killuaisaprincess]

❤️🩷❤️🩷❤️

#personal #ALL THESE OTHER DRESS UP APPS ARE PUT TO SHAME #Just kidding I can’t help but love them alll 🥺🥺🥺😭😭😭😭😭 sometimes simple is better but ahhhhh REALLY LOVING ZEPETO #3D PRINCESS KI AHHHHHHHHHHH #AND I CAN EVEN MAKE HIM DANCE 🥺🥺🥺🥺🤧🤧😭😭😭😭 #HE IS IS SOOOO SOOO PRETTY GOODBYE #😤😤😤 KI IS ALWAYS THE MOST PRETTY PRINCESS THO 😤😤😤 #HES SO PRETTY #MOST PRECIOUS PRETTY PRINCESS KI AHHHHHHHHHHH #PRINCESS HE IS SO PRETTY WAHHHHHH #MAKES ME SO HAPPY AND PRETTY KI AHHHHHHHHHHHHH #I HAVE BEEN STARING AT IT FOT A WHILE #AHHHH THERE ARE DISNEY PRINCESS OUTFITS OMG OMG OMG #OMGGGGG #KI IS SO PRETTY IM DIE NOW OKIE I DIE HAPPPPY #BELLES X MAS DRESS INSPIRED AND HES SO PRETTY AND CUTEEEE #Some of these will def cost three dollars BUT ITS THREE DOLLARS FOR KI IN DISNEY PRINCESS DRESSES WORTH 🥺🥺🥺🤲🤲🤲🤲🤲😤😤🤧🤧 #THE ARIEL PINK DRESS GASPPP AHHH #😌 ALREADY DID IT WITH MY KI FIGURE AND HE WAS AS PRETTY AS IMAGINED BUT WHY NOT AGAIN #OMG HES SO PRETTY DIES #CUTE HAPPY KI AHHHHH #NO ONE CAN RESIST KIS CUTE LOOKS PERIOD 😤😤😤 #AHHHHH HNNNN GOODBYE MY HEART KI IS SO CUTE AHHHHHHHHHHHH

[skitskatdacat63]

“Constantia et fortitudine” - Emperor Sebastian I “der Sieghafte”

#i dont ever want to look at his face(blatant lie) #i love him and i love staring at pics of him but jfc trying to draw them. absolute murder to ME #well anyways. happy with this. took too many late like 4 hour sessions tho LMFAO #watched uhhhh animal documentaries and casino royale again :) #OKAY ANYWAYS ITS NOW YOUR FAVORITE! CONTEXT! INFO! LORE! #so ive mentioned before seb is charles vi. obviously. but i love to steal stuff from Joseph I as well 🥰 #seb is a mix of both bcs he obv doesn't have an older brother in this au so yeah! #'Constantia et fortitudine'(by persistence and courage) was Charles motto! #i think that fits seb so well no? 🥹🥹 #'der Sieghafte'(the Victorious) comes from Joseph I! bcs he was so successful in battle 🥰 #again! so seb right??? #i think so fucking often about him and nando's nicknames in this au #'the spirited' for nando's perseverance....'the victorious' for seb's well. victories haha #i think they fit them incredibly well both in this au and real life!! #even if this fucking murdered me to paint i like it a lot :) i thinm the hair was a lot of fun #actually im not even mad w this one! it was pretty fun once i got past a certain point honestly! #but the secondary expression whoch will be in a different post....jfc i wanted to throw my ipad away 😭 #it doesnt help that it was 4-5 am when i was working on jt LMAO #but i believe in courage and perseverance! i will paint constantia et fortitudine 🥹 #anwyaysyyyyys!!! hope you like!!!! i think i got him pretty accurate???? im pretty happy w the fsce tbh #wish i could draw his crown but i dont think ill ever subject myself to painting thay monstrosity #also dont really undertsand how they wore crowns back then alongside their giant periwigs?? dont crush the curls :< #sebastian vettel #f1 #formula 1 #boy king au

[lunarharp]

various witch stuff of the day or whatever the heck

#witch hat tag #orufrey #uhh yeah just getting some stuff out of the way haha i like the first one tho. i drew something that scares me #iguin must have been involved in qifrey's thing somehow. The Lidless eye..the sight of the world..i mean i think [redacted] #and he'll be [redacted] and [redacted] will be forced to... [redacted]???!?!!? #I want to keep my theories to myself.......or do i. not being a fandom person (other than dropping my art and leaving) means i just.. #combust inside by myself with ideas and FEARS FOR THAT MAN.....CAN SOMEONE HELP HIM IM SO WORRIED IM SO... #CAN YOU LET SOMEONE HELP YOU #apparently tetia's expression in the last one is hard to understand =.= she's emotional bc she cant believe they remembered #the twin hat idea. and that she's so happy. i was thinking about how she was probably qif's first pupil so there must have been a time #where it was just her qif and oru... i DO think she is hinted strongly to be trans but even if not her mystery background is probably so sad #why would qifrey even become a teacher? his goal was the brimhats. but he keeps being distracted by kids with problem pasts so #he must have only been drawn to help tetia out of a deep sympathy. it seems at that point he and oru had drifted apart #did oru decide to be his watchful eye hearing about that or did qifrey ask him? he thought that qif had given up on brimhat stuff so.. #*mumble mumble* lately i also keep remembering oru saying something UNREAL in kitchen like 'we're finally living under the same roof' ???? #you can't just say that. what on earth. i..... whatever. i haven't even processed like 20% of my potential emotions about them #i feel so weirdly emotional today. i stopped thinking about witch hat for zuka even tho im SO hyperfixated it is genuinely PAINFUL to stop #i stopped just long enough to watch gatsby raku.... my haachan #i'm so grateful right now that i dont have any big issues in my life rn so i can get worried about manga men and sad about actors retiring #today at least i am extremely grateful. living and being alive is so so so so weird. i hope we all make it

[crowned-ladybug]

Trying to shake my brain into letting me paint what I'm supposed to be painting resulted in a completely different thing getting finished first

I still don't understand what the hell his face is doing

#original character #original art #digital art #oc: higgins #warframe #warframe lavos #OKAY CAN I DO OTHER THINGS NOW. PLEASE. #so turns out i dont need to draw him as a human for him to decide to look like a goddamn surfer dude #the necklace alone does the job #tho im sure my questionable decision of collarbones to help make sense of what the fuck is going on #is not helping the case either #its not even a proper necklace btw its part of his armour it just Looks like a necklace #and also im not even 100% happy with how it ended up looking #(it Looks like a necklace bc its a gift north gave to him and he had it embedded in his armour to keep forever) #in general this was not a good idea to do without a proper fullbody ref xbdchdhbxb #but hey! new icon for the warframe blog! #fun fact the reason any and all drawings of him as a human will always be au/paradoxes #is bc hes trans and being turned into a warframe was what cracked his egg #he literally doesnt even know for the longest time bc he doesnt remember his pre-warframe life. hes just vibing

[dbphantom]

you know if you guys voted for stretch armstrong i probably would have shut up a lot sooner tonight

#so really this is all your fault /lh /j #i love thinking about h2o tho so im happy #VERY FUCKING TIRED THO WISH I COULD SLEEP #i think my brain is kicking into overdrive after being filled with cotton the past 3 days which. hey im glad ur back bud #CAN YOU SHUT UP NOW I NEED REST #i was just thinking because im probably not posting that essay i will summarize here (i saw #that privating it made it lose like 4 recently edited paragraphs and i don't want to type all that out again my memory isn't good enough) #it just boiled down to the pods basically making a self fulfilling prophecy by orphaning their sons and making them increasingly #desperate for connections to other people like them which is why i think erik behaves the way he does esp when ondina is around #like i am not excusing his actions in the slightest dont get me wrong here he really fucked up BUT #his last conversation with ondina before he goes to the chamber kind of sold that idea to me #how he scoffs at her saying rita says it's dangerous because she's 'old school' and of COURSE old school mermaids think all mermen are evil #and then starts adding on how he wants to do this for HER and get her home back for her by controlling it #like a bit of an add-on at the end to try and convince her #i think what he really wants is to be hailed as a hero. you know. validation and acceptance from the ppl who originally abandoned him #the OGs who made him feel like an outsider. the ppl who ripped everything away from him just bc of the way he was born (which is prob why #when he's trying to convince zac to help him he keeps bringing up their ancestors bc that's what unifies them) #i don't think he's an evil dude per se i think he thought stealing the trident stone from rita's grotto would be small peanuts in the past #once he finally got the pod to come home bc he genuinely (mistakenly) believed he COULD control the power of the chamber #i also think that's why the camera keeps focusing on his face when he's watching the others panic over #zac's sacrifice and i think he is feeling jealousy bc they are paying attention to him and not Erik #like that's not the face of someone who deeply regrets what they just did. my guy is just sitting there like 'that should be me rn' #i think that is why he also sounds so desperate to make things right with ondina afterwards. iirc he's just like 'wait no we can start ove #RIGHT?' and she's like 'uhhhh... no??????' (valid). my dude is lonely as fuck and he finally found a group of ppl like him and he messed up #big time just trying to get their attention and affection bc he couldn't just be normal abt it he had to go big or go home #like i kind of feel bad for him in a way #but i feel bad for everyone #i felt bad for denman the other day! that's how bad this is getting!! #i mean come on imagine making the scientific discovery of a LIFETIME only for all that shit to happen in a row #especially after you get your comeback. they just go right back to fucking you over again

[lilac-vode]

hey! this is a long shot but seeing as i have some ppl following here, i wanted to ask if anyone at all has links to mental health resources that could be helpful for repulsed aroace ppl constantly struggling with feelings of alienation. or like, any mental health resources at all geared toward aroace ppl!! there is just. not that much out there for us and i don't have a place to start trying to make my brain less miserable. i would appreciate so much if anyone is familiar with stuff like this that they could share

#thanks for reading #ultimately im sad at the prospect of spending my entire life feeling outcast and miserable just bc of the way i am #especially when it used to be a part of myself that gave me confidence and joy #there are no aroace elders i can look to for help and guidance. or if there are - they are invisible. like i am #right now i'm in lie down & give up mode and i want to hope for something more someday #i don't want to be like everyone else. i just want to stop feeling like im a problem for being how i am #anyway i fully expect im just tossing this into the void so dont feel bad if you have nothing to contribute #all the aroace positivity blogs are just a mix of ace/arophobia discussion and other ppl saying they feel as sad as i do #which is not really helpful even tho those feelings are real and relatable #i dont have examples of how someone like me could live a happy life without removing themself 100% from society. #i want so badly to be a light for younger ppl who are like i am & to show them it's possible to live a happy life #but that is not possible at the moment