#im going to go nutso crazy

[mbat]

dude its twice now that ive tried to play origins multiplayer minecraft servers that happen to be mandatory roleplay for some reason and its just wild that they like, want you to come up with a whole entire person before even playing, especially with worlds that feel... bare bones as fuck, from the information they give

like they give an origin story of the world and maybe like one or two sentences on the races or cultures, and then theyre like 'okay now give your character an entire in depth personality, backstory, family history, job, life goal, childhood dream, credit card number-'

like... with what info ?? with what basis??

the second one ive joined isnt as strict as the first one, seeing as i joined the minecraft server before i even realized there was character applications, and no one really paid me any mind at all or acknowledged me

but there was one i joined like 2 years ago that you had to get your application approved before gaining access to the server, and they direct you to their wiki for reading up on the world and stuff... but again, bare bones as fuck. and i exaggerated before slightly, but fully seriously they asked me 'oh, and where did your characters origin come from? their grandparents getting infected? how did they become this way' and its like. DUDE I DONT KNOW, WHO CARES. WHO WILL ASK ME THAT IN THE ROLEPLAY??? like where am i supposed to even get any of this shit from, the two paragraphs you typed about the world origin story??

i didnt finish the application because that was stupid and it wasnt worth it imo. shame, cause the custom origins were cool, but theres always other origins mods and servers

like... i guess other people work different from me, cause clearly these servers have people in them that somehow came up with functioning characters, but that aint me. if i make a character in a game, their personality and story comes to me while im playing, through their experiences and appearance and the choices im given in the world.

and also literally no one is ever going to fucking ask 'lol so how did your bloodline get mutated?'

#my post #mc #coming up with characters in video games is some of the most fun. like how ive been obsessed with my WoW characters lately ahghdhg #but i came up with those characters mostly through playing as them OR finding out about their racial history and culture through the game #or fuck. even through looking at the WoW wiki a bit for clarifications or even for information i otherwise couldnt get #and guess what! they actually describe things there! they have helpful information and go into detail about things! #they dont just go 'oh the gods got angry and now the world is a little funny silly'. they actually tell you the smaller things!!!!!! #im going to go nutso crazy #either the people making these servers dont have more in depth ideas about the worlds they want people to care about or #they just want to stay vague to be appealing or for all these different people to make more sense but its like #okay but at this point its literally. nothing. you made nothing. congratulations. #I FUCKING LOVE MAKING WORLDBUILDING OKAY IT MAKES ME MAD THAT THEY DO SO LITTLE AND EXPECT PEOPLE TO CARE #THE AMOUNT OF WORLDBUILDING IVE DONE. bitch i could make a roleplay server too. i wont for a few reasons though lol #no hate to the second server i mentioned. but like...hate to the first one. not hate as in send hate but hate as in i dont like them #like i want to tell them that they sound fucking stupid. but i wont #and of course i wont say names because that would be shitty but also i dont want them finding this and starting something #like im just complaining rn. not trying to start drama cause idgaf

[lobotomyladylives]

I think bpd is a bullshit stigmatizing label thrown at women to pathologize what is very obviously a response to prolonged childhood trauma and would be better labeled as C-PTSD. that being said my god I am bpd as fuck

#my sister just snapped at me bc i said i dont want to do a ton of physical labor for the job she signed me up for which apparently does i #in fact involve a lot of it. and her being mad for even that moment sent me spiraling so badly & i had the reaction i often do where #i start hating both her & myself terribly & want to isolate forever #i think she hates her new job & is taking it out on me but it doesnt matter bc i cant handle being yelled at #and the fact thst it took me till adulthood to realize thats bc i associate it with my father is crazy. yeah its just the cptsd like #everything else. and whats nutso is how i continue to think my trauma Wasnt Bad Enough for ptsd . #just bc he didnt beat the shit out of or molest me i feel like i dont even have a right to be this fucked up #not that it was only him. being bullied at school really did not help. i guess now that i think about it the problem is that until #i was a teenager i literally did not feel emotionally secure anywhere. home or school. always the ticking of a bomb in the bg #the inevitable moment my dad blew up over nothing or i overheard my peers talking about what a freak i was #i dont know why it still hurts to think about. im so far removed from it my life now couldnt be more different #well thats the stupid fucking thing about childhood isnt it. those are your very first experiences with the world & other ppl #i do know my view of romantic relationships was irrevocably poisoned by my parents & that is never going to be undone. so cool

[todayisafridaynight]

THE MOLE SONG!!!!!!!!! PLEASE ENJOY I AM SO EXCITED TO TALK (ALWAYS AM BUT!!!!!)

HEY I SAVED OFF ON ANSWERING THIS UNTIL I FINISHED THE MOVIE AND IN THE SHORTEST REVIEW POSSIBLE

THAT WAS DEFINITELY A MOVIE™️

#snap chats #thicker review down here laLKAJLKJ #i dont have words i just have feelings- taking all my rings off just to type thisLAKJVKL #im not doing this cohesively im just. Stream of Cosciousness #RIGHT SO I DIDNT EXPECT TO SEE REIJI GETTING HIS INTESTINES EATEN OUT HIS ASS TEN MINUTES IN. REALLY SET THE TONE #it reminded me of 1000 Ways to Die though..... i remember loving that show growing up #OH BUT ON THAT NOTE I ACTUALLY REALLY LIKED THOSE LIL CUT AWAYS it was cute. esp at the police academy #where all the extra officers were just lil ( ._. ) mates ☠️ #this movie was damn ridiculous bro i loved it- BUT SPEAKING OF FUNNY #PLEAAASSEE PAPILLON'S MORAL COMPASS IS GUIDED BY THE BIT I LOVE THAT LAKVJLAEKJV just like me fr 😭☠️☠️ #crazy motherfucker putting a gun in his mouth TAKING HIS DICK OUT AT THE CLUB??? he's insane your honor. #FLYING A PLANE WITHOUT A LICENSE 'do you have a license to pilot this <:)' motherfucker said ':))))' ☠️☠️ #I Repeat he's so committed to the bit everything he got fuckin butterfly themed THE KNIFE'S A BUTTERFLY KNIFE i respect it.... #oh but on THAT note i actually really liked how reiji picked up on his type of humor. also gutterfly.... shut up that IS funny 😭 #reiji in general though was fun to watch. like he's a freak and coward initially but then watching him just go Balls Deep was nutso #taking papillon's word to heart... Commit To The Bit or whatever... he really ate the fuckin cup.... #AND THE SCENE WHERE HE HAD SEX WITH HIS GIRLFRIEND reiji...... the fuck going on upstairs... you wanna do some self reflection... #nekozawa crashing into the fuckin. police all 🧍‍♂️😭😭☠️☠️ NEKOZAWA IN GENERAL #NO WAIT THE ROBOT LEGS BIT STOP. dramatic-ass sequence just to say I Got Them Overseas :) The End :) #SHUT UP that DID make me laugh idc everything makes me laugh at this point #there's a joke to be made here about tsutsumi never being able to have wings without them breaking but. He Does Get Them Back In This #Metaphorically Speaking. toru went fuckin splat tho SORRY.☠️ #the fuckin dogs. wh. WHAT ELSE CAN I SAY BOUT THE DOGS and here i thought they put drugs /in/ the dogs #cause i know there were cases of drug trafficking that involved putting drugs in dogs but no them bitches just paddlin with em #the charade bit was so silly.... arguing with each other while watching a fight and reiji try to communicate this shit #and then reiji doesnt even have to sneak round anymore cause papillon really said Hey. Drugs Suck. Ok? :) LIKE BASED. COMMON GOAL #IM GONNA RUN OUT OF TAGS I KNOW IT SO LEMME SAY i see there are two more movies.... the third one i only found with jp subs tho... #DEFINITELY WANNA WATCH THE SECOND WHEN I GET TIME BUT I REALLY SHOULD FOCUS ON MY WORK OH NOOO #thank you so much for reccing this movie i swear to god. i'm still recovering. oh my god

[souryogurt64]

85 fucking dollars after shipping and taxes for a teacup is insane right???? Right?? Am I the only one going crazy right now??? One sticker for EIGHTEEN DOLLARS????? Girl bye im sorry 😭

ive been so busy with work ive barely been online but yes that is nutso . sell out boy indeed

[hermithomebase]

so mad at dream for putting out 5 second snippets of the catchiest songs on the planet. it's stuck in my head and normally when that happens I listen to the full song to get it out of my system but that's not possible im going crazy it's playing over and over i need dralbum before i go nutso

hes ruined my life i need to hear these songs NEOWOWWOWW

#prompt.input

[dracwife]

fucgf off die i hate this place i want out i hate it here i cant stop looking at the one gif i made i am going gtof dffx bite scream cry chew going crazy insane balls to the walls nutso genuinely cant deal with this its so stupid im foaming at the mouth dying to talk about this dumbass stupid ass LITERALLY just some guy.

#dex.txt #this is what the kids call a gush post btw. this is how i share my emotions

[oneeyedcatlover]

i think i might be officially going crazy but at least i'm cool and crazy. ohhh yeaaahhhhh. cool cat. im not crazy... i am very normal in my head and not nutso. nothing out of the ordinary here. i have a very healthy and happy mind.

#girl interrupted #crazy #girlblogging #dissociation #crazy cat lady #blinkies #cabin fever #did #gaslight gatekeep girlboss #i am finally getting therapy #i think my disorder has completely controlled my life #i didnt accept i had it till this week #its been a hard week. #eerie

[jellykinss]

so theres a new xiao trailer that genshin just released and.

🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹 GIRLS WHEN THEIR WIVES ARE LEARNING TO HEAL FROM THEIR PREVIOUSLY SEEMINGLY UNENDING TRAUMA IN HEALTHY WAYS !!!! IM GOING NUTSO CRAZY GOOD LORDDDD 💥💥💥💥💥💥💥

HERES THE VIDEO BTW PLEASE WATCH IT

#i. i cant #i need to kiss him #i want to hold him So bad he deserves it he deserves everything that is good in the world #😭 i want him to know that im always there to support him!!!!!! #genshin impact #genshin impact xiao #genshin impact venti #bipoc selfship #autistic selfship #feifei.com #Youtube

[webslingingslasher]

oh my god i think i’m going crazy like actually 😭 i need to get out of my room, i’ve started talking to myself. not like full on conversations (at least not yet) but it’s getting there. it’s sort of like i’m answering questions/thoughts that are in my head out loud and it’s like… I FEEL CRAZY 💀 unless it’s normal and everyone else does that that too please say yes

super normal. unless i'm not. i have full blown conversations with myself and add in several people and act like im talking as them AND to them.

i am diagnosed nutso so, don't listen to me.

#thanks anon!

[myfriendtheghost]

Right? Idk why we can’t just show up when they say too and get wristbands and leave. Why do gvf fans always have to make it so complicated. And yeah it really isn’t fair!! Especially when most of them have been to 20+ shows and this is the ONLY one I can go to and it being a hometown show is special to me. And I know they’re gonna try to get barricade for the 500th time and not let someone else have it once. Im so upset about it. The fact that everyone is going now is ruining this experience I’ve looked forward to for an entire year now! And on top of that I had to go through the cancellation pain and they didn’t even have to do that bc they bought the tickets after😭😭 im sorry

LITERALLYYYY LIKE IT’S SO GOOFY. THIS COULD BE SO EASY. I remember people saying it gets messy when they don’t respect the fan wristbands, but it’s only messy BECAUSE of people like that who have been to countless shows and been up close every time and show up at insane times because I guess they have no life outside of this band idk??? 😭 it’s so frustrating to watch and to experience!!! I much prefer the GA shows I go to where people think I’m crazy for showing up at 8am lol. I hope you end up getting a good spot regardless of the nutso behavior this fandom tends to exhibit: you deserve to have a good time seeing your boys after all this time!!! <3

#also the cancellation pain .. so real babes so real #we went through the show getting rescheduled like 2 days beforehand #to having everyone and their mom buy tickets even tho they’re probably seeing them again a week later lmao 😭 #EXHAUSTING LUV EXHAUSTING #asks #anon

[corvidshipping]

MY BEST FRIENFS BIG BROTHER HEARD I LIKED GL AND HE GAVE ME A FUCKIGN TEAM DAI G.URREN FLAG IM GOING NUTSO CRAZY RN

#paperheart.txt #me pretending to be normal when she gave it to me. #literally immediately put it on as a cape. i love that show so much

[prynnehesters]

i finished my evil durge and im taking a break from bg3 to hopefully get a job/play other games

so like...i did redo the orin battle cuz it gave me failed durge where i didn't get bhaal's blessing and i became a failure and i was basically gonna go feral after my tadpole was removed so i just went "fuck it" and went to kill orin and got his blessing

tbh, having the slayer form made the game infinitely easier but the ending disappointed me

minthara's romance is not that exciting past the insane sex scene you get in act 1. you share some moments, but it's not as satisfying as the other two i fully did. you don't really get full on scenes. picking the origin companions is better. at least w halsin, he is poly and he doesn't feel tacked on in the end. and i did take him a few places. i should've stayed w lae'zel :((( i did get her second romance scene and that was nutso tbh

i ascended astarion and i kind of want to have a split thing in my next playthru bcuz i hear the sex scene is nuts (and you can kick him in the balls). nuts in like, halestorm lyrics lol

i also helped shadowheart w her shar stuff

and then we went to control the brain and i had like 3 summons and was able to clear the overwhelming area no problem and then deal w the brain

you get so many ways to redeem the dark urge and it's wild. like you can be awful and then get rid of your urge like nothing happened. or you can embrace it, then defy bhaal and kill yourself. you take over in bhaal's name. or you destroy the brain and then deal w bhaal, kill yourself, or sentence yourself to prison. you do not see any of the character's 6 months "where are they now". the best you get is a scene of you w orin's weapon making creepy noises and watching from afar, as you're just a monster who craves blood at this point

but like, i think the times you get to redeem durge is like, you don't kill anyone every time you are asked and just deal w orin as yourself (rip)

idk i might play resist durge in the future but im just gonna play my next lil playthru and have my goolock romance astarion and see how that goes lol

i also saw this list of romance from most explicit to most chaste and it made sense but i was kind of surprised by some. i think the order was minthara, halsin, karlach, gale, lae'zel, ascended astarion, shadowheart, astarion, and wyll. and i guess it makes sense if you take it bit by bit

minthara has her one crazy scene and then you just have a few campfire chats (and you only get the crazy scene if you're off the bat evil already and she's also under the influence of the tadpole so uh...)

halsin comes later and it's fun. imo not that crazy. but you get one. and also you can bring him w you to sleep w prostitutes

karlach you get 2 spicy scenes, but that comes after not being able to touch her. which is, well deserved

gale you get one nutso spicy scene (if you choose, it can be subdued if you want to), and then a lot of kisses

lae'zel i know you get her first fighting over who is the dom in the scenario and then you get the fight to the death but it gets tamer after that (which makes sense, as she does warm up to you). you also do have sexcapades with her

shadowheart i've heard it ends in a spicy scene (but like, wyll, wholesome spicy) and if you help her become a dark justiciar your romance kind of...ends

i know astarion starts off spicy with sexcapades and you letting him bite you during sex, but it kind of gets subdued over time bcuz he starts to trust you, until the end where i think you have freaky vampire sex if you let him ascend and less freaky vamp spawn sex if you don't (? dont quote me on that...). but tbh it makes sense w his history :(

and wyll...is wholesome and gentlemanly. he basically just gives you a few kisses and then sleeps w you at the end when he shows you around what he did when he was a kid in baldur's gate. also i've heard marrying him is cute too

idk man if this says anything, im a freak first and foremost lmaoooo (first playthru i slept w lae'zel, gale and the emperor and (almost) haarlep. second playthru i slept w karlach, halsin, the drow prostitutes, mizora (wyll disapproved), astarion briefly, and kissed wyll. evil durge just lae'zel and minthara (although surprisingly...gale tried...again. my second playthru after the druid/tiefling party everyone wanted me except astarion wyll and halsin lmaooo...although i got wyll's second romance scene in act 2 so...)

im too naughty for this lmaoo

[sunnysheep]

Sheep plays hockey update:

So it's been a while since i've given an update in my hockey adventures so here we are.

I am back to my old rink now after a brief stint at some other rinks over the summer, and it's been good. One guy has taken upon himself to devise the most ridiculous drills imaginable and i am soooo here for it

My Favorite Drill of All Time is one that this guy got from his 7 yr old's hockey practices. So you do some circles around some cones (blah blah boring - whatever), and then the final Moment is that you throw yourself onto the ice in a belly slide - penguin style 🐧🐧🐧

I went absolutely nutso crazy with this drill when he first showed us. i was almost crying i was laughing so hard it was so funny to me - like i would throw myself down to belly slide and end up starfishing and spinning in circles it was great. at some point i feel like i need to do an artist's rendition of this because it was actually comedy gold

The other variations on the drill were also fun (going down to knees and back up, and jumping over a foam pad). I did learn that i Cannot jump vertically at all.. which makes the videos of sidcroz jumping over Massive Hockey Men so much more impressive now. like really 🫠 HOW DOES HE DO IT. Sidcroz,,,show me your jumping ways. I too wish to leap like a gazelle over my fallen victims,,

Otherwise, I took a series of lessons at a different rink during part of this summer, and it was awesome almost entirely because of all of the women. like it was amazing!!

the instructor was a woman + there were five (5) women also learning with me (and the like 15 men but who cares)! and some of them were really really good and the men looked up to them. so that was cool af and made me feel like i belonged a lot more

i really liked the atmosphere at that rink and im kinda bummed i wont be able to go back

And in other hockey-related news: might be able to see some Women hockey games in january!! i am sooo stoked everytime i think about it i grin maniacally

Also, i found out that apparently the yotes are associated with an adult learn-to-play thing that has a LGBT branch (?) and i have never more wished to live in fuckin arizona. Sadly, i must persist 😔

#sheep plays hockey #realized i hadn't updated this in a while. and as it is essentially my hockey journey journal i thought i must. #sorry for everyone who does not give a rats ass about my hockey adventures lol #unrelated: there are so many funny things about my dingy little rink but sadly i Cannot share. #maybe one day

[mrs-kelly]

👀👀??

Teddy!! Thank you!! Do gifs count?? Pls tell me gifs count ahdkfl both come from @/kirammann

So I think about this gif a lot ajdkfl just cuz he looks so sassy!! He’s getting what he wants!! By any means!! An I love that about him 🥺💕 I just look at this one a lot I suppose;; also cuz of the way his lips rest at the end;;; idk I just like lookin at his lips 😳💕

And!!! My favorite gif!!! Look at his smile here!! It’s different than most of his smiles;;; he looks really happy and. I have to say. Even tho I don’t rly plan for Jack and I to get married or anything. I feel like this is how he would look watching me walk down the aisle if we did 🥺💕 i don’t even remember what he was smiling at here but just play along with me ahdjfl he just looks rly happy 🥰❤️

#AHDKFL I keep taking breaks from doing these cuz every time I do one it makes me go CRAZY NUTSO OFF THE WALLS #when I finished the first one I had to dash up and down the stairs a few times to let the energy out #I was so crazy that while I was playing pirate game I forgot ship etiquette and what makes physical sense for The Party Rat (our ship)! #I had to majorly calm down ahdkfl #and now I’m feral again but that’s fine cuz all I’m doing is playing an.imal crossing!! #anyway thank you teddy I’m love him 🥺💕 #ren speaks #jackren #im gushing out here folks

[dracwife]

hii so like in ncis canon mcgee gets held hostage for like 6 months in south america right? and nobody knows where he or gibbs are? does that happen in your ncis verse and if so, how does mickey respond to his boyfriend being gone so long? (@ssozo)

yes i havent gotten to that part in the show but im very aware that it happens 😔 it def still happens and i think about it like. constantly. i dont know all the details since i try to avoid spoilers but. ill give a rundown of my ideas

fun fact this is how i came up with the idea of dina originally but now its just kind of a timeline mess and mickey just nondescript has dina whenever i feel like it. originally it was like "hi mickey is going fucking insane crazy alone" lets get him a dog so he isnt so lonely

so like. mickey definitely blames himself 100000% since yknow. those are like the two most important people to him. he goes absolutely nutso working constantly to try and find them. he like goes crazy overthinking everything doubting himself constantly and like cuts his hair washes the dye out and tries to act ""normal"" to work better but overall it just kinda brings him down even more. the rest of the team and a few others pitch in and get him a puppy in hopes it would distract him, and it works a bit by giving him something to care about but. he still has a lot of trouble getting back to that same level of confidence and idk just that spark he had yknow. he contemplates going back to the special tactics team to be more proactive rather than reactive to crimes and stuff but he cant get the motivation to ever put the transfer request in.

he is super protective though of like tims desk and stuff and he WILL bite if anyone tries to touch it or say anything about he or gibbs being gone. when they finally find them he goes crazy stupid doing everything he can to help and like one of the first things tim says is that he cant tell who had the worse time, him or mickey and its one of the first times mickey really smiles since hes been gone <|3 theres a moment of like clarity there for them both like "holy shit i didnt know how much you really did mean to me and nothing was the same without you all other things aside" and lowkey they get married like shortly after bc what else would you do when u realize someone rlly is the love of your life. plus also hey i think that season was the same year gay marriage got legalized the writers really said gay rights huh. they knew they did it for me

#theres sooo much more to it tbh. but yea #mickey basically takes it horribly! LMAO #the man has been through ENOUGH ok hes been with him fucking. what 13 years at that point. #you cant just take him away like that and expect him to cope well. not that he ever coped well anyways #🔎posting

[magdalenas]

i love looking at images i love looking at images i love looking at images i love looking at im

#i am so bored of looking at images #woke up crazy from my nap today #like i literally feel like im going nutso insanity