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pink-sparkly-witch · 11 months

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Taken for Granted, Part Two

Summary: Having had his share of dangerous situations and close calls in Houston, this was meant to be the start of a quieter, slower life for Beau, Y/N and their daughter. Taking the job as Acting Sheriff in Helena, Montana, was a dream come true until Beau starts to spend far too much time with Jenny Hoyt, in and out of the office. At first, Y/N doesn’t mind too much, but one night Beau misses his daughter’s hockey tryouts and phone calls in favour of shooting tequila in a bar with his co-worker, and Y/N isn’t sure if she’s being taken for granted or if something bigger is going on that she needs to worry about.

Pairing: Beau Arlen x Female Reader

Warnings: 18+ Only, angst, misunderstandings, language, making up, fluff, smut, p in v

Bingo Square: Make Up Sex for @j3bingo

Word Count: 3.8k

A/N: I sincerely hope this doesn’t disappoint… a few comments I’ve had seem to want this to be a bigger thing than it is, but it was always only going to be a fight and needy make up sex.

Though I make no promises, what I will say is that this was my first time writing for Beau and I kinda fell in love with this little family, so maybe I’ll go back to these guys and investigate their past a little more, who knows?

Anyway, I hope you enjoy the submission for the Make Up Sex square for @j3bingo. And another thank you to @writethelifeyouwant for beta’ing for me (even though I added another little part once you sent it back to me because apparently I can’t help myself 🤷🏼‍♀️)

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The next few days were nothing short of torture for Beau. Y/N’s code of silence had spread to include Maisie and he didn’t know why. He thought everything was fine between them, and it was his wife he was in the doghouse with, but he seemed to have unknowingly upset his daughter again, too.

Regardless, he did everything in his power to be home in time for dinner and hadn’t even entertained the thought of going for drinks after work this past week. When Jenny asked him to go for a beer last night, he’d said no, that he spent enough time with the people in this office and was going home to spend time with his wife and daughter. When she had insisted, he reminded her that as her happily married boss and the sheriff of this town, they needed to maintain a professional relationship at all times. Jenny had tried to play it down, but his years as a detective meant that he saw right through it. He told her that he was her boss and her friend, but that was all he’d ever be.

Beau initially thought that maybe Y/N was jealous of Jenny for some reason and that was why she’d had such an extreme reaction to that night in the bar, but seeing for himself that Jenny did have feelings for him, made him see the whole situation in a different light.

He’d told Jenny when he left that night not to expect him for the next few days and that she was in charge–he was going to take a well overdue long-weekend–and to only call him if it were truly life or death, and that he’d see her on Tuesday.

Maisie was going on a school field trip for the weekend, and he would be the one to drop her off, using the journey as an excuse to talk to her and find out what was going on. He was also planning to use his weekend off to make it up to Y/N.

His home and his family were always happy and bubbly and filled with joy, and he hated that his sanctuary, his happy place, had a huge dark cloud looming over it. He was going to fix it. He needed to.

“Did you pack a first aid kit?” Y/N asked with Maisie stuck in her suffocating embrace.

“Yes, mom.” This had been going on for five minutes now, and Maisie couldn’t hide her impatience if she tried.

“Pepper spray? You know you might come across bears or badgers or possums in the mountains,” Y/N questioned.

“Yes, Mom! Can I go now? I’m going to be late!”

“Okay,” Y/N pressed a kiss on her daughter’s forehead and finally let her go. “Have fun, and be careful.”

“Yes, Mom.” Maisie playfully rolled her eyes.

“I love you, honey.” Y/N’s voice caught as she tried to fight back the tears.

“Love you too,” Maisie smiled as she grabbed her backpack and walked out the door.

“You know she’ll be back in three days, right?” Beau smiled softly at her, his heart aching at seeing her so hung up about being away from their daughter for the weekend.

“I know. It just makes me think about her leaving for college, even if it is still two years away.”

“Me too,” Beau nodded solemnly. “Are you coming straight home after work?”

“I’ll be home around six,” Y/N nodded. The conversation was still a little stilted between them, but at least she was talking to him.

“Alright, I’ll cook. Maybe we can share a bottle of wine? Have a quiet night in, and make the most of the empty house. What d’ya say, darlin’?”

“You’re going to cook?” Y/N smirked, and he grinned at her look of complete disbelief. “The last time you attempted that, you nearly burned the house down!” she laughed and he was quick to join her.

“When I say cook, what I mean is buy some meat and fire up the grill,” Beau said, tucking a piece of loose hair behind her ear with a smile.

“That would be nice,” she smiled back. “I’ll see you tonight.”

“I love you,” Beau said, hoping this time she’d say it back and not murmur an ‘uh huh’ like she’d done for the past week.

“I love you, too.” Y/N walked closer to him, lifted onto her tiptoes, and kissed his cheek.

“So, are you excited for this?” Beau asked Maisie once they were driving down the street.

“Uh huh,” Maisie replied, her fingers flying across her phone as she typed something to someone.

“The house is gonna be quiet without you. Too quiet,” he chuckled, trying again.

“Uh huh,” she replied again, putting her phone away and turning her head to look out the window. She was so much like her mother that Beau often wondered where his genes had landed in her.

“You know, at least when your mom gives me the silent treatment, I know why. You wanna tell me what’s going on here?” Beau glanced over to her, and he could see her chewing on her bottom lip—another trait she got from her mother—and he knew she was just about ready to crack open. “Come on, talk to me, baby girl. I can’t fix it if I don’t know what I’m tryna fix.”

“Are you cheating on Mom with Hoyt?” Maisie finally asked, saying Jenny’s name with a disdain Beau had never heard from her before.

“No. Absolutely not.” It was an automatic response, one that needed no pause or dancing around; it was irrefutable.

“Then why did you lie to Mom about where you were the night of my hockey game?” she countered and Beau could see her eyes beginning to water.

“I didn’t lie, I–”

“You told Mom you caught a case, but the next day, I saw the photos of you and her that night in a bar!”

“Listen to me, Maze, please? That night after work, I went for drinks with Jenny because she really needed a friend and I was there for her. Nothing happened then, has ever happened, or will ever happen between us because I love your mom.”

“Then why did you lie about it?”

“I didn’t. Your mom knows where I was. She tore me a new one when I got home, and she knows I’d never, ever do that to her. She still got pretty pissed at me for that night though, and how those photos look and what they’d look like to you. And, on some serious reflection, I completely understand why she was so upset.

“When I missed your game and your phone calls which–just so you know–I’m still beating myself up over, Mom made up the story about catching a case so that you wouldn’t be more upset than you already were.”

“So… Mom lied?”

“To protect you,” Beau responded. “And, I think, to hit home just how much I was hurting you and her with the late nights at the office and the too frequent bar visits.”

“There really isn’t anything going on? Because those photos are…”

“Bad. I know,” Beau nodded. “Emotions were running high that night for Jenny and I didn’t see it at the time, but I’ve since realised that she has some… feelings for me. I promise I’ve shut it down. I’ve explained that I am her friend, but I’m also her boss. Her happily married boss, and that we need to maintain professional boundaries.”

“Does Mom know that?” Maisie asked as the car came to a stop outside the high school.

“Well, I think you know that she’s not speaking to me right now, but I’ve taken a few days off and tonight I’m gonna fire up the grill and talk to her.”

“Good, because I don’t want you and Mom to get divorced,” Maisie whispered and Beau pulled her into a hug.

“We’re not getting a divorce, baby girl. Your mom and I have been through a hell of a lot worse than this and it hasn’t broken us. I promise this won’t either, okay?”

Beau’s heart broke for his little girl and it strengthened his resolve to fix his mess and never make the same mistake again.

Although Y/N was warming up to him again, he still made sure to do everything he could to gain some extra brownie points. He mowed the lawn, fixed the leaking tap, and oiled the garage doors so they wouldn’t sound like a screaming banshee every time they opened. Everything that had been on Y/N’s to-do list for weeks had been done.

Beau prepped the grill and set the dining table using the so-called “fancy” plates and wine glasses that Y/N only used for special occasions. A dozen red roses stood proudly in a vase between two candlesticks, and he’d lit a couple of her favourite scented candles, dotting their glass holders around the table.

To top everything off, after he’d dropped Maisie at school, he drove across town to go to the bakery she loved and got her favourite dessert. He’d then gone back across town to buy dinner and made sure he picked up her favourite wine from the liquor store. Tonight he was going all out.

With everything done, Beau showered and trimmed his beard, painstakingly making sure it was the length Y/N liked it. He dressed smart and used the aftershave she’d bought him for Christmas.

He knew his wife, and though he knew everything he’d done around the house would go a long way to getting back into her good graces, the biggest thing he could do was make an effort. To buy her favourite wine or dessert, to wear his hair and beard the way she liked it, to wear the scent she loved on him. Those are the things that would mean the most to her because he’d done it for her.

When Y/N got home, Beau was in the backyard checking on the grill. She strolled through the house, smiling at the perfectly set dining table and beautiful flowers. She paused to smell them and felt a flutter in her stomach as she saw the candles and a bottle of her favourite red, open and breathing next to two crystal glasses. Walking into the kitchen, she headed over to the open French doors, leaned against their frame and watched her husband stoking the coals in the grill.

“Don’t you look handsome! I feel very underdressed,” she said, smirking as he jumped slightly at her voice and turned towards her.

“You look beautiful as you are, darlin’, but there’s time to freshen up if you want to.”

“I know what you’re doing,” Y/N bit her lip in an effort to stop her growing grin.

“Oh yeah? What’s that?” Beau smirked as he put the lid on the grill down and slowly edged towards her.

“The lawn, the garage, the wine, the flowers… you’re trying to seduce me.”

“Is it working?” Beau grinned, knowing that it was. For twenty years he’d been playing her like a symphony. By this point, he was a maestro.

“Maybe…” Y/N chuckled as Beau slid his arms around her waist and pulled her into his solid body.

“How can I change that ‘maybe’ to a ‘yes’?” Beau murmured, running his hands up and down her back.

“Hmm,” she hummed as a shiver ran through her body at the feeling of his hands touching her. “Well, you’re getting close.”

“Is that so?” Beau smiled and pecked her lips… jaw… neck.

His beard tickled her skin and made her shiver, and her knees weakened with every stroke of his large, warm hands up and down her spine. Gently, Beau pushed her away from the door and back into the house, only stopping when the kitchen island prevented them from going any further.

Beau pulled his lips from her throat and settled his gaze on hers. Softly gripping her chin with his thumb and forefinger, he tilted her head up and brought his lips to meet hers. The kiss started with soft, slow pecks before he became impatient and began licking at her lips, begging for permission to deepen their connection.

Y/N’s hands slid around his shoulders and pulled him closer as their tongues met in a passionate kiss. Beau had missed this. Missed her. Y/N was an affectionate person, and it wasn’t something she usually withdrew when she was mad because it was a punishment for her too. But he’d really fucked up this time and so she’d not only withdrawn her affections, she’d withdrawn herself from him completely.

He knew it wasn’t all him; she had some deep-rooted insecurities that came from her childhood. Always feeling like she wasn’t good enough or didn’t belong had plagued her growing up. Then when she chose not to go into the family business, she felt she was a disappointment. The black sheep. Different–and not in a good way.

Y/N had always told Beau that it was him who made those insecurities go away, and the few times they had snuck back in, comforting words of love and praise would usually get her out of it. This time though, when he’d likely been instrumental in her insecurities coming back, he wasn’t sure it’d be that easy.

“I’m sorry,” Beau spoke, breaking their kiss. “I know what I did was wrong and I know how much I hurt you.”

“And Maisie,” Y/N added. “What happened there, by the way?”

Beau sighed loudly, the conversation this morning with his daughter replaying in his mind. “She saw the photos and thought I was having an affair with Jenny.”

“Beau-”

“I know, Y/N. I talked to her and straightened everything out, okay? Maisie is fine now. And while we’re kinda on the subject, I’ve set things straight with Jenny, too. You were right, there are feelings on her side, but I do not reciprocate them, and I told her that. I love you, baby. Always have, always will.”

“I know,” Y/N smiled softly, and Beau saw some of her worries melt away from her furrowed brow. “Thank you for what you’ve done to fix things with Maze. And for the Jenny thing.”

“No need for thanks, darlin’. I’m only doing what’s right by my family.”

“I know, but I appreciate it all the same.” Y/N’s hands slid up his neck and into his hair, gently tugging on its length. “I love you, you know that, right?”

“Never doubted it, baby,” Beau winked and cupped her cheeks with his large palms. “And you know you’re my only girl, right? That it’ll only ever be you.”

“Never doubted it, baby.” Y/N grinned

After dinner, Beau and Y/N settled onto the sofa to watch a movie but found themselves too distracted to watch it. Beau’s hand squeezed at her thigh and steadily crept higher and higher up her leg. Y/N’s hand curled around his neck, and her nails gently scraped over his skin and into his hair.

The gentle touches turned into soft kisses which heated up quickly until the pair were making out on the sofa like a couple of teenagers.

“Not to push my luck here or anything, I know I’m still on shaky ground, but do you wanna move this upstairs?” Beau said as he reluctantly pulled away from her lips.

“I’d like that. A lot. I missed you,” Y/N replied.

Beau untangled his limbs from hers and stood from the sofa. He held his hand out and helped her stand and together, made their way to their bedroom.

“You’re so beautiful, baby. Not a day goes by that I don’t ask myself how I got to be the one that married you.” Beau rasped as he crawled up the bed. He was going to ease any concerns she still had by worshipping her.

“I love this body,” he continued as his hands trailed under her shirt. “So sexy, and always so responsive to my touch.” Beau slid his hands under her shirt, over her lace bra, and cupped her breasts with his large palms, smirking when he heard her gasp.

“I love these breasts and that little sigh that you make every time I touch them.” He slid his hands down, gripped the hem of her shirt and pulled it over her head, throwing it behind him.

“I love the little whimper you give me when I do this…” he pulled the cups of her bra down, exposing her pebbled nipples. Taking one in his mouth, he hummed as he sucked greedily on it.

Y/N whimpered and tossed her head back. “Beau, please,” she begged, her hands gripping his hair and pulling.

“You like that, don’t ya, darlin’?” Beau pulled his lips from her sweet bud and switched to using his fingers to tease and tweak. “Like it when I play with these,” he murmured as he massaged her chest.

“Baby, please,” Y/N begged again. “Don’t tease me. Not tonight.”

Beau pulled away from her and kneeled on the bed. He quickly removed his shirt and threw it on the floor where it met hers. Standing from the bed, Beau took off his belt, unbuttoned his jeans, pushed them to his ankles and kicked them off.

Turning his gaze back to Y/N, he chuckled seeing that she was completely naked and looking at him expectantly.

“What?” she asked innocently, spreading her legs.

“You’re killing me, darlin’.”

“Then get rid of the underwear and get over here,” Y/N giggled.

“Yes, ma’am!” Beau grinned as he shoved the offending item off and pounced on the bed, making Y/N laugh.

Covering her body with his, Beau kissed up her body starting at her tummy and working up to her neck. Y/N’s little gasps and moans were driving him wild.

“I love being the only one who sees you like this. That all of this is for me,” Beau placed kisses over her throat, knowing exactly what he was doing. Knowing exactly how to play her. “And that I’m all yours. Always have been and always will be. I love you more than you could ever know. It’s only ever been you, darlin’.”

Softly, gently, Beau pushed himself into her, gasping when he couldn’t go any further. The moan he let out made Y/N melt, her eyes rolling back in her head.

“Fuck, Beau!” she gasped when he pulled himself from her and pushed back in.

“That’s my good girl, taking me so well. You’re perfect, baby. Made just for me,” Beau murmured between kisses to her lips, and slow, deep thrusts. “Fuck, darlin’, you feel so good. Bet I feel just as good inside of you, huh?”

“Fuck, Beau, you’re so big, stretching me, making me feel so full,” Y/N screamed. “Feels so good, baby.”

“I’m sorry I’ve taken you for granted since we got here, darlin’. You were right the other day when you said I was taking on cases I shouldn’t,” Beau spoke but continued to thrust at a slow, deep pace, driving Y/N wild and wanton for his praise and carnal affections.

“At first, the change of pace was good and I was enjoying it. Then Poppernak got shot and I stepped in to be Hoyt’s partner. But, when Pop came back, I got bored being stuck behind a desk and wanted back in on the action. So, I’d fall behind on paperwork, work late, go drinking to let off some steam and discuss cases with the team.”

Beau paused the push and pull of his hips, switching to stay fully seated and grind against her. His gaze held hers, soft and full of love and admiration for his wife.

“Nothing happened with me and Jenny and I didn’t want anything to happen. It’s only ever been you. There has never, ever, been a time when I’ve even considered stepping out of our marriage. You’re mine and I’m yours and nothing will ever change that.”

Beau was driving Y/N delirious with his grinding hips, hitting the most sacred places inside her. The sex was always good, but their lovemaking had always been incredible. The way he made her feel meant that he could’ve told her anything and she’d believe him, but she knew him; she knew he meant every single word that he said. None of this was the heat of the moment, all of it was completely and utterly true.

“No, I’m sorry, Beau. I shouldn’t have thrown that at you. I know how hard it was to take this job, to choose a quieter and safer life than what we had in Houston.” Y/N gasped as she clung to his shoulders, her entire body was on fire and only he could put it out.

“Baby, I need more of you. Will you let me go deeper?” Beau moaned through his thrusts.

“Yes,” Y/N mumbled, whimpering as he slipped from her and she turned onto her front, shifting onto her hands and knees.

With no effort at all, Beau slid straight home again. The new position forced her to open wider to him and engulf his throbbing member entirely. Her contracting walls sucked him in and squeezed, holding him within her for an extra few seconds.

Pulling out, Beau’s eyes locked on where their bodies joined. Seeing the way Y/N stretched to accommodate him made him growl and his eyes roll as he pushed back in.

“Fuck, darlin’, can’t believe you’d ever think I wanted anything other than this perfect little pussy. So soft and wet, feels like heaven,” Beau mumbled as he lay over her and pressed kisses to her shoulder blades and down her spine.

“Beau, baby, I’m-” Y/N moaned, completely wrecked and he loved it. There was no sweeter sound from his wife than her falling apart on his cock.

“I know, darlin’, I know. And I gotcha, baby. I’ve always gotcha. Let go for me, that’s my good girl.” Beau grunted, his hips speeding up and snapping into her harder.

Y/N whined every time he pushed into her, his throbbing cock hitting that sweet spot inside before coming to rest at its hilt, grinding into her cervix with his sensitive tip.

Having as much as she could take, Y/N came with a scream. The tension he’d built so perfectly in her snapped and her orgasm crashed over her in waves.

Beau wasn’t far behind and with one last push as far as he could go, he stilled within her, profanities spilling from his mouth as his orgasm coated her velvet walls.

“I love you, Y/N,” Beau whispered between kisses on her shoulders and neck. “Always have, always will.”

THE END

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Meu Amor | Chapter 16

Author's note: The first part of this chapter was written last week because, let's be honest... That Nike photo was too good to not use it somehow 🤷🏼‍♀️😅

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"I need to ask you for a favour" Rúben says when he's done with his phone call.

"Ok" I say, putting down my book.

"I need you to help me with some last minute work stuff. But I first need to go into the city to pick what I need. Do you want to come?"

"Can we stop at that bakery from the other day? I'm craving something sweet and here in Portugal you have so many options."

"You are... craving?"

"Yes, I'm... Oh, no no no. Not like that. It's not like that" I quickly say, noticing how wide Ruben's eyes have gone. "I actually got my period this morning, that's why I'm in the mood to eat my weight in chocolate or anything similar."

"Oh, ok. Sorry" he chuckles. "We'll stop at the bakery, then. And if you need anything else, just let me know."

"I'll probably need a nap after lunch. While cuddling."

"Your whishes are my commands, meu amor."

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"You can't be serious" I whisper to Rúben. "You want me to take a photo of you... wearing that?"

"Not this one, I don't like the colour" he says, looking at the underwear on his hands. When he said we were coming to the Nike shop, I thought it was to get some work out clothes, not... This.

"Whatever the colour you wear, do you really expect me to take a proper photo of you on your underwear? Me? And when my hormones are throwing a party and making me think... Things?"

"You've done it before" he shrugs. "And you are constantly thinking... Things."

"But those photos were just for me. Us. Not for the world to see. And did you just call me horny?"

"Are you not?" he says, arching an eyebrow.

"I... You... Idiot" I say, hitting his arm. Oh God, his arm. His big and strong arm and... Maybe he is right. Maybe I am constantly thinking things. But it is his fault.

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"Ok, so... How do we do it?"

"They said something casual, and the logo has to be seen."

"As if anyone is gonna pay attention to the logo" I snort.

"Someone will" Ruben smirks. "I thought I could sit over there and do some abs? That corner of the garden looks nice."

"Again. No one is gonna pay attention to the background."

"You are not helping, meu amor."

"Hey, you knew what you were getting when you asked me to do this" I shrug. "And you are lucky I'm dying inside, because if I wasn't, I would have already thrown myself at you."

"We can leave this for later if you are in pain" he says with a concerned look while putting a lock of hair behind my ear. Why is he so cute?

"I'm fine, don't worry. And the sooner we do this, the sooner I can eat that chocolate thing I bought while you give me cuddles."

"Ok" he chuckles, giving my nose a little kiss. Too cute. "Does this look good?" he says, getting into position.

"The light is perfect" I say, already taking some photos. "But you always look good, Rúben. Always"

"Thank you, meu amor" he says with a big smile, looking directly into the camera while I take another photo. I am keeping that one for myself.

"And?" he says after a bit, putting his arms on the grass and leaning back, looking glorious.

"One minute" I say, taking as many photos of him on that position as I can. "The logo isn't properly showing, tho."

"Shit" he says. And when he moves to make sure everything is in place... That's our photo. We got it.

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"This is it. You are gonna break Instagram when you share this. And Tumblr. And Twitter. It should be posted with a warning. They may even censor it!" I say before giving my chocolate pastry another huge bite. My God, it tastes so good.

"Are you sure, meu amor?" he says, looking at the photo. "Nike has to say yes first."

"They will say yes. If they don't, they should go check their sight. It is perfect, Rúben. Casual like they wanted, and you can see the product. The underwear is there too, I guess."

That makes him laugh, and I just shrug. I don't think anyone will disagree with me.

"Do I hit send, then?" he asks.

"Do it. And if they don't like it, I'll frame it and put it on my bedside table."

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"I thought you weren't going to make it!" I say when I see Taylor and Charlie at the airport.

"I know, I know. I'm not flying with that company ever again" she says, giving me a hug. "Where is Mr. Dias?"

"Outside on a phone call."

"I was hoping his big and strong arms would carry my suitcase."

"Hey!" Charlie says.

"As if you didn't droll over them too" Taylor says with a cheeky smile.

"My brother and my mum also do it" I shrug. "But c'mon, you are probably dying to get a shower and eat something."

"And to see that gorgeous house where we are staying. Does Rúben has bad taste picking anything?"

"Just the club he plays for" I laugh.

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"That was the best dinner I've ever had. Thank you, Rúben" Charlie says.

"You're welcome" he replies with a smile.

"Now that our bellies are full and we all are happy," Taylor says "I think it's time Charlie and I shared some news with you two."

"Go ahead, you tell them" Charlie says.

"Ok. So, by the end of the year, maybe the beginning depending on how they are feeling... Someone else will be joining us!"

"Someone else?" I say. "Wait! No! Are you...?"

"Yep. I'm pregnant!"

"Oh my God, Taylor!" I say, getting up of my chair faster than ever and going to give her a hug. "Oh my God, you are pregnant! How? When?"

"I think you are pretty familiar with the how" she says with a smirk, looking at Rúben. "And when, almost 4 months ago."

"I... Wow. I'm so happy for you two. Truly" I say, starting to get emotional.

"You are gonna be the best aunt. And you the best uncle if you want" she says, giving Rúben another look.

"It'll be an honor, thank you. And congratulations" he says, also getting up and giving Charlie a hug.

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"I still can't believe Taylor is pregnant" I say as I get in bed and tuck myself next to Rúben. "She's always liked kids, but she never mentioned anything about wanting them. I mean, she still doesn't like calling Charlie her boyfriend."

"Does he call her his girlfriend?"

"I'm not sure."

"Well, whatever they have going on, it works for them and they are happy."

"They are" I say. "But... Wow. Taylor is going to be a mum."

"Do you want to be a mum one day?"

"Are we really having this conversation?" I chuckle.

"Why not? I'm not gonna ask you to marry me tomorrow and start making babies, we need more practice."

"A lot more of practice."

"A lot more" he says with a cheeky smile. "But you know me, I want to do things right. So I want to know where do you stand regarding all these things."

"I know I want to be a mum one day. But I also know there are things I need to do first. Goals I want to achieve."

"Work related?"

"Yes. I don't know yet if behind or in front of the camera. But I don't want to stay as just an assistant. I want more."

"Good. How many kids do you want?"

"I don't know. But at least two. I want them to have someone to play with and always be by their side. You?"

"Same. But I wouldn't mind having three or four."

"Of course you wouldn't" I say, rolling my eyes. "You don't have to carry them inside you for 9 months and then give birth to them."

"True. You should have the last word" he says, kissing my head. "Let's settle on two and then whatever happens."

"Ok. And thank you."

"Do you want to get married? Before or after the kids? Religious or not?"

"Rúben" I laugh again.

"What?"

"You do like planning everything, don't you?"

"I do, yes. You should already know how throughout I'm with everything. Just like you."

"I should, yeah. And... I guess I don't mind if it's before or after, religious or not. Those things aren't that important to me. What matters is that it happens with the man I love and the one I want to spend the rest of my life with."

"Aww, look at you. Who thought you could say romantic things" Rúben says, teasing me.

"Rude" I say, hitting him on the chest. Ugh, his chest.

"But whoever that man is, he is a very lucky one."

"You tell me" I say, moving to look him in the eyes. "Because you are the man I was thinking about when I said that."

"Really?" he says, his hand on my face, caressing my cheek.

"Really. I love you, Rúben. I love you like I've never loved anyone before. I don't know when we will get married or have kids. Or even if those things will happen. But what I do know, what I have zero doubts about... Is that whatever happens and whatever the future holds, I want it all to happen with you by my side. You and only you."

"I love you too, meu amor" he says, kissing me in a way that tells me that he feels the same as I do.

#ruben dias #ruben dias imagine #ruben dias x reader #ruben dias fanfic #football fanfic #football imagine

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torque-witch · 2 years

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Little shop/life update. Seriously debating only having the shop open for ready-to-ship items. Being consistent with social media (which is the only way I generate sales) is only possible when I have no other obligations. Since starting DoorDash again, my shop views are around 40 per day as compared to 120+, I’m only getting sales on the weekends that come directly from the auctions, and I guess the dilemma is that it has to be one or the other for it to be worth doing it. Otherwise I will literally have to be working 12 hours a day. DoorDash isn’t worth only doing one or two times a week with how much gas costs, and I still have to limit the amount of time I’m doing it per “shift” so that I don’t get physically worse.

I will still do customs, especially for return customers you are always welcome - but I think for the benefit of me and my husband, I need to making consistent income and only one of these choices is guaranteed if I put work into it. Sooo so much of being an artist is putting in hours that you never get paid for. In the future, yes, I want just to be working from home, but maybe I need to reframe back to selling locally in shops as passive income and only pre-made. I don’t really know how to feel about it, but me being sick for so long tore through our finances and my husband doesn’t make enough (despite making more than most people I know) to support both of us because this is 2022 in America and you need to be dual income and he literally loses $600 a paycheck to taxes, plus retirement and union fees.

I know y’all don’t want to hear all of that, but hey. I gave up my 40k/yr job to be safe during Covid, and these are the 2 year consequences it seems. 🤷🏼‍♀️ Pretend you aren’t disabled, or try your best any other way lol.

Regardless, I would still appreciate any support in the shop if y’all happen to think of me or see anything you like. I can do this full time again, but I’ll need a savings account. I am getting rid of a lot of my personal vintage collections to replace with Squishmallows because they have been helping me overcome a lot of the agoraphobia/trauma response that I developed from medical issues. I have tons of tea pots and candle holders and oddities to add.

Everything super old that never sold was donated to a local charity yard sale coming up for a local family in need, and everything else eventually will be re-donated as well if it doesn’t sell. Anything from weekend auctions that doesn’t sell is uploaded the following week.

You can find ALL of my social media and the shop links and auction links AND discord channel on my website. I can’t afford the domain right now, but you can sign up for a mailing list if there is significant news (but I only have one person rn 😅). Pics for attention!

Death’s Head Divination

#torquetalks #deaths head divination #witchblr #shop update

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x-multifandom-trash-x · 10 months

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Favourite Shows Tag Game

Rules: List 5 favourite shows (in no particular order) and answer questions accordingly.

No one really tagged me but I took @isqueedmyself up on their open invitation, so thanks for that 😊

I’m gonna tag my only irl friend with a fandom focussed blog @the-kiwi-lady-pendragon but if anyone else wants to do it then go ahead!

1. Doctor Who

2. Doom Patrol

3. Once Upon A Time

4. NCIS

5. The Flight Attendant

1. Who is your favourite character in 2?

Laura easily. She’s such a sweetheart with a pure heart. Of course she’s not perfect but I understand what it’s like to basically lose parts of yourself and act against your values in the name of self-preservation and I empathise with that.

2. Who is your least favourite character in 1?

Rose. I know that’s a super unpopular opinion but 🤷🏼‍♀️ I just find her whiny, selfish, and annoying. Don’t get me wrong I know she’s supposed to be 19 and that definitely plays a role but I just can’t look past it. Also maybe Simm!Master buttttt that’s just me being a bitter ass bitch about things.

3. What’s your favourite episode of 4?

17x03 (Going Mobile), 15x04 (Skeleton Crew), and 16x04 (Third Wheel). There’s so many to choose from but I’ve narrowed it down to three. These are all ones with lots of content around Jack (my fave character) without torturing her.

4. What is your favourite season of 5?

Season 1 by far. I actually really didn’t like season 2.

5. What’s your favourite relationship in 3?

Y’know I actually don’t have many ships in Once Upon A Time and none of the ones I do have are really serious. I think maybe Regina x Rumple (but I also lowkey ship Zelena with Rumple so idk).

6. Who is your anti relationship in 2?

Oop here’s another super unpopular opinion but I can’t stand MadamFarr. 😅 I love Laura as we’ve already figured out and I really can’t stand Rita or the way Rita treats Laura. I just think Laura deserves better. However, I’ll support it a tiny bit if it becomes canon as I’ll do anything to have Laura’s queerness confirmed on the show.

7. How long have you watched 1?

11 or 12 years.

8. How did you become interested in 3?

I saw an ad for it on tv! But I didn’t wait until it aired here in New Zealand I just watched it online.

9. Who is your favourite actor in 4?

Maria Bello ❤️

10. Which show do you prefer 1, 2 or 5?

Two (Doom Patrol). But one (Doctor Who) is a close second.

11. Which show have you seen more episodes of 1 or 3?

I would think it’s Doctor Who even if you don’t count the classic episodes. There’s just a lot more of it. I’ve seen every episode of both shows.

12. If you could be anyone from 4, who would you be?

I’m most like Ellie and I ship her with Jack so I think it would be her.

13. How would you kill off your favourite character in 5?

Lmao I would not. Somehow she’s still alive, at this point it seems to me Miranda Croft is unkillable. If she was to be killed off it wouldn’t be a fair fight - maybe one of her many enemies sent multiple assassins (at the same time) to kill her.

14. Would a 3/4 crossover work?

Definitely not. That’s not to say that that there isn’t a place for supernatural/fantastical content in procedural shows (I’m pretty sure I recall Castle having a zombie episode and a time travel episode). However, I think that the NCIS characters would not know what to make of the Once Upon A Time characters and the situations they’d be in and the more they learned the worse it would get. They would find out about these ridiculously complicated families etc and just start calling everyone out. Which would piss off the Once Upon A Time characters and it would all go to hell basically.

15. Pair two characters in 1 that would make an unlikely, but strangely okay couple.

I think Captain Jack and Donna would work well together. The hard part would be getting Donna to give it a chance.

16. Overall, which show has the better cast, 3 or 5?

Uhhhh … neither of these shows are particularly known for their cast as far as I’m aware, although both casts do excellently at delivering the material. In Once Upon A Time there’s two actors I like and in The Flight Attendant there’s only one. So based on that I’d have to go Once Upon A Time. However, I only watched The Flight Attendant for Michelle Gomez but I watched Once Upon A Time because I was actually interested in the premise of the show. So based on that I’d have to go The Flight Attendant. Meh, I guess it’s a tie 🤷🏼‍♀️

#doctor who #doom patrol #once upon a time #ncis #the flight attendant

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ok so ur thay’s blossom right? would u mind answering the same questions as this? y’know so we can see compare with love and adoration for us guys? <3

Ah, of course! Let’s see…

I - What do you think about before you fall asleep? There’s a lot of crazy stuff that just rolls around up there but there’s always one thing that’salways a consistent thought — or rather, someone. 😌

II - What's your favourite thing about being in a relationship (past or present)? The comfort and security of another person, it’s nice to share soft, intimate moments with someone you care deeply for while knowing they’re just crazy about spending time with you no matter how you end up doing it. I want to know all about your day and at the same time be the person that gives you the amount of comfort you need. You be my safe place and I’ll be yours. Truthfully though, if you make me happy, you’d be my favourite part of the commitment.

III - What is your idea of a perfect date? Something casual. We could just stay at home, maybe make dinner together and then watch something we’re both interested in. Stay cooped in for the night, snuggled in tight just enjoying each others company.

IV - What's your biggest weakness? I tend to overthink my way out of things — or into irrational outcomes. I may blow things out of proportion because I’m… afraid or convinced I’m not good enough. 🤷🏼‍♀️ But it’s not an impossible task to ground me in those situations.

V - What makes you nervous? Life. I’m an anxious mess, so there’s no one answer. Just everything.

VI - Who inspires you to be a better person? I think it’s more so people who are not as accepting or rude, judgmental and narrow minded — people like that inspire me to rise above all that negativity, I do believe it only holds you back. It’s better to live seeing the good in everything rather than nitpicking at things that don’t matter as much as you’re making them out to. It’s a waste of energy.

VII - What instantly makes someone attractive to you? Other than their general personality, someone who contrasts with me in certain areas. I’m attracted to people who are a little extroverted — I’m very introverted so I need that. Someone who I’d like to step out of my comfort zone with, who would gently coax me out of my shell but wouldn’t push it and would be supportive and patient, and understanding with me. People who are down to earth and true to themselves. Who pride themselves on what makes them unique, people who don’t try and fit in, who enjoy being who they are. How they interact with others is also something I’d notice, a healthy amount of confidence is attractive but I like a good sense of humour — my own can be a bit dark and morbid so if someone can appreciate that, they’re definitely a person I’d want to spend more time with.

VII - Online dating. Yes or no? For the right person, yes.

IX - Are you looking for a relationship and what would be a big red flag in that sort of commitment? I wouldn’t say looking, I like the idea of falling into someone, getting lost in that one person and being driven by feeling and emotion. Feeling the need to look and seek out a relationship seems stressful, if it happens it happens. But I won’t deny the thought that being with someone completely isn’t appealing to me because, well, it is. As for red flags, I think constant narcissistic behaviour (and maybe just narcissism in general) would be one of them.

X - Would you ever make a playlist for someone? I think the idea is sweet and I’d absolutely melt if someone did that for me, so yes I would (or at least attempt to).

XI - If you could move anywhere in the world where would you go? God, I’ve been wanting to get out of this place for years. 😪 The world is a big place, I love the idea of travelling and experiencing new places but to settle down? You know, Brazil has a very nice appeal to it, I could see myself gravitating there. 🥰

XII - What three things would you bring with you to a deserted island? So, a lighter, merely for survival reasons — I think I could stave of my addictions in a situation like this. 🤭 My dog, or someone who’d be good company, and a warm fluffy blanket that smells like home.

XIII - Do body types matter to you? Not in the slightest. If I love who you are as a person, you can come in any shape, size or form and I’ll fall for you all over again. It doesn’t matter, you’ll still be the most beautiful person in the world to me.

#🤲🏻 asks #anon ❥

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December 23 — New Moon

Current weight: 190.8

I’m happy with this weight honestly. 😌🤷🏼‍♀️

Friday, December 23:

Cold brew

Fruit & nut bowl, with extra pistachios after

Cold brew

Dinner — a bunch of stuff: 5-6 deviled eggs, chocolate hummus with veggies, brussel sprouts, vegetarian meatballs, gluten free biscuits, mashed potatoes, some challah bread with homemade dipping sauce, 2 chocolate chip cookies, a carrot cupcake, 4 double chocolate cookies, dairy free egg nog; and whatever else I missed writing down (most of it pictured below)

I overate on the pistachios but didn’t eat the whole bag. And I also way overate on dinner, but I don’t feel bad about it emotionally. I definitely ate until I was so stuffed that I got nauseous, to the point where I really thought I might just throw up. I think I’ll fast tomorrow until my work dinner and just enjoy it and try to be conscious throughout the night. During my journaling session I’ll fill out the “write it down and move on” worksheet, which is intended to help us process and learn from the times we overeat. I’ll probably write my answers here, since the focus of this blog is sharing my journey. If I find the worksheet for anticipating events and I have time, I’ll fill that out too and share here. Honestly, I’m not even close to feeling guilty or ashamed of how I ate today. My main thought is “I’m learning from this” and “these are the types of habits and thoughts I get to re-wire in my brain” by using this process, because they are. My 170lb self isn’t worried about one day or even one week of overeating and she would never be hard on herself about this.

I was feeling kind of tired most of the day today. I feel like I’ve been going and going kind of a lot. I pick up extra shifts most weeks, I work out 2 hours most days, and I hang out with friends multiple times a week, I clean my living space and do personal administrative stuff, and I post a lot of content online lately. Even on my downtime day this week I spent that relaxation time editing videos, which is low energy physically, but it’s still work. I edited my schedule for tomorrow already to incorporate more relaxation and possibly more sleep if I need it. Making content has been feeling like a true part time job recently with all the vlogs but I do 100% enjoy it, especially since I’ve entered a phase where I’m getting sent free stuff and getting paid for views on my videos from TikTok & Instagram. It’s a cool honor, I genuinely appreciate it, and I want to keep growing it. At the same time, I find that taking care of my body as I do that is crucial. I’m already thinking maybe Sunday I’ll do a super light cardio day where I just walk for 45-60 minutes instead of try to go hard and push myself. Anyway, I’m super sleepy so see ya tomorrow!

#170 #me #fitness journey #weight loss #food journal #food diary #losing weight #fitness

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mediocrebiscuit · 2 years

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Crack theory//crack theory born of anti argument//ramble//rant//musings

🌹🌻🌸🌹🌸🌻🌹🌸🌻🌹🌸🌻🌹🌸🌻🌹

Theres this one anti argument, that frequently makes the rounds. The one where people claim that Azriel only views Elain as “a sex toy” or more politely “he desires her bc she’s canonically one of the most beautiful” (bc he didn’t fall to his knees and profess his undying love to a super pissed/stressed Rhys.) Now, there are heaps of thoughtful debunks for this argument, and as I am obviously pro elriel, I agree with them. They make the most sense to me. However, I can’t fault (the more polite antis) for raising the query of “well why didn’t he take that opportunity to say..something?? Nice or affirming..” and..yeah, I think that’s a pretty valid question, tbh. Whilst I do agree with my fellow pros, that the BC isn’t the place for any such declaration(s), as it is simply that — a bonus chapter (and one that only one book store, in one country, in one language had access to 🤨) again, I can’t fault the query. It’s valid. 🤷🏼‍♀️

Now for some blasphemy. I think SJM in regards to ACOTAR, and more relevantly SF was lazy. I don’t think SF was approached with care or adequate research. Frankly, I think it was a damn mess. In particular the bonus chapter, I’d like to think that it was perhaps intentional..but it was also attached to SF, so I dunno 😅😅

So, ah, anyway when I was first reading the books. Specifically ACOWAR, I and many other readers clocked the potential for a swan lake retelling in future books. There are quite a few thoroughly explored theories with many sound arguments made! I won’t pretend to be on that level, bc I simply am not..but!

I’d like to humbly raise - The Swan Princess, 1994. We know Maas loves Disney, we know she watches cartoons, and then plots and thinks and starts series from them. I think it could also potentially play into the afore mentioned anti elriel argument. Bc whilst I personally don’t think Az professing his love is something that needed to be there, to ya know, build tension and plot for the next book and stuff.. that anti argument makes me think of something that could ultimately be pro elriel and incorporate the themes of Swan lake (specifically a cartoon movie from the 90s😂)

The Swan Princess incorporates: miscommunication, “forbidden” romance, transfiguration, magic, evil sorcerer, shape shifting, “wrong girl”, tragedy, the power of friendship and love, HEA.. 👀👀

As a side note! The movie is great. It’s filled with banger lines and songs. I’d recommend it 😂🤪Maybe I’ll make a few gif centred posts. Maybe I won’t, we’ll see 🧐😂

#elriel #pro elriel #swan princess #crack theory #for the lols

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survivor-north-sea · 1 year

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Tribal Council #11 - Vinnare

AJ, how has Bethany being voted out shifted the dynamics of this game, considering she was a major force in previous votes?

I think Bethany getting voted out will shake a lot of things up in this game since she really was a major force in a lot of the previous votes. I think since she was playing a lot of sides without everyone knowing it until one (1) hour before tribal a lot of us counted her as on our side, and with her gone I think everyone will have to reevaluate numbers going forward. I do worry that my name is out there tonight, since her message in the tribe chat before tribal name dropped me I think at least three (3) times. But as I've said before my only goal was to make it onto the jury, so if/when I'm voted out I won't be bitter about it. Of course I'm hoping it won't be me but you never know.

Arvin, how do you decide who to trust round-to-round? How do you figure out if someone is really an ally or just trying to use you as a pawn?

It's really difficult to trust anybody in this game, round-to round I just go with my gut. Even if you voted together the last vote, it doesn't mean they are your ally or maybe they are just trying to use you as a number.

Champ, do you see yourself as being on the bottom of the top in this game? Why?

Tbh I’m not dumb but I always feel like I’m never in the right vote, or I’m very confused on where the votes lie. I’m definitely on the bottom, I don’t see a path for me to frc but I’m just trying to make it tribal by tribal

Jayjay, despite Bethany’s plea to go home (essentially), the vote was still split between you and her. Why do you think that is? Do you think you’ll always be the ‘backup plan’ for if someone plays an idol, or are you getting out of that position?

I REALLY don’t know what the point was in splitting the votes on me and Bethany because if they didn’t let Bethany in on it then they should have known how it was gonna play out and the votes were basically pointless? It just made people realize there were people working with certain others that wouldn’t have been known if all just went to Bethany. It’s just confusing to me but I guess an idol being played was the reason they were split? I do think it would be very easy for me to continue being the vote or the back up plan considering people don’t want to turn on each other just yet if they don’t have to. I wish I could say I was getting out of this position but with how much I still feel completely out of the loop with things I don’t think I’ll be able to. I honestly think that I accidentally burned possible bridges that people are still upset with me about when I gave my emotional opinion about Raffy to the wrong people when I reacted to him throwing my name out. I just think it’s hard being completely new to this game and incredibly oblivious about who knows who in real life or not because I would have done things different in this game had I known what a lot of players already seemed to know from the beginning. 🤷🏼‍♀️

Jinx, you’ve been a visible returnee this entire season. Now that there are really only two returnees left, do you think that matters?

I think it’s funny because I don’t even consider myself a returnee?? I was voted out on accident my last season and I only played because 6 people dropped. I also idoled out a returnee the first tribal we went to and have had no issue for the most part voting out other returnees. I do think tonight it may play a part as I’m being asked about it but I feel as if I��ve always been a visible person in ORGs regardless of being a returnee or not because of my dumptruck ass. But I think the visibility doesn’t really bother me and it was a choice I made early on when I played an idol correctly, as the first and so far I believe only person to do so. I hope being a returnee in this game isn’t what matters to anyone else but I guess we’ll find out tonight and in the next coming days as the endgame approaches. hope this helps 🫶🏽

Raffy, congrats on your immunity win! This challenge clearly had a social element and you scored much higher than even the next. What do you think this says to others about your game?

I think this challenge definitely relied on the social element. You had to guess not only the lie, but what also SOUNDS like the person. I think what this shows to people (and myself tbh) is that my game is more social than ever. I’ve literally never won a social challenge before so I think it goes to show how much I’ve changed my gameplay to this setting and how much I’ve gotten to know everyone and their quirks! Also helps that I can look at intros from past seasons to find some of the lies haha

Toni, let’s talk idol hunt. Have you been sharing information about it with anyone else? And has anyone else been sharing their idol hunt intel with you?

To be frank, I do from time to time share idol hunt info with those I’ve been playing this game with for a long while and who’s intel has always proven to be reliable. There are also those who have shared one off reliable intel with me which served as an affirmation that I can trust them also. That’s the thing ultimately in this game - trust is currency and sharing information is one of the ways to gain that. Along with voting the way you said you would and sticking to your word. But I think when we reach the latter parts of the game we’ll gradually see people keep information more and more close to chest.

Trinica, how trustworthy do you think you are in this game? And do you think others would agree with your assessment?

I think during the pre-swap, I found myself having to withhold a lot of information from people I wasn't allied with. After the swap and merge, I've tried to be as honest as possible because this game was really messing with my head and I found myself second-guessing every choice I made. I kind of needed to do a reset on the kind of game I was playing so it was sustainable for me. If I had been asked this question before yesterday, I would have said that people agreed with the assessment that I'm pretty trustworthy. But I was recently given information that someone (and likely someone I'm aligned with) has been throwing my name out there as someone who voted for JayJay. So clearly someone is trying to at least spread the idea that I'm lying. So for the sake of full transparency, if it's a voting message that references Taylor Swift, I wrote it 😂 I hope that clears things up and bless your soul @ whoever is telling tales out of school. 🥰

Tyler, we’re getting to the point where you have to start thinking about how there are only three spots at the end. Have you found your two people you think are a final three? How many people do you think are willing to take you?

Well Jay! I agree we most definitely are getting to a point where people are starting to consider who their ideal final 3 is and how to get there. However, I think I am in a unique position as someone who’s been relatively shocked by all the vote counts and I also saw my (not so secret) two closest allies in Esteban and Bethany go out in the last two tribals. So for me I feel it is more important to take it vote by vote and hope I can survive rather than elaborately planning the next few votes because I simply do not have enough control to have the luxury of doing that.

This was a unanimous vote for Arvin, including a self vote.

Vote: Arvin … [emoji that does not on pc]

Vote: Arvin Floaters grab a life vest

Vote: Arvin have a good one, pal.

Vote: Arvin You’re literally the best person of this whole cast. You have a such a light, but I can’t ever tell where your head is at

Vote: Arvin Pick a side and stick to it ❤️

Vote: Arvin a legend an icon thee moment you are forever my maryanne loving bestie

Vote: Arvin Arvin,

Vote: Arvin I'm sorry, you're one of the nicest people I've met in this ORG

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rukia-writes · 3 years

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Dentist! Askeladd headcanons

Setting: modern au

A/N: I saw on Twitter someone saying Askeladd would make a great dentist 🦷 so I took the liberty of making headcanons 🦷✨ also my editor isn’t working today so I can’t make it as pretty as I want 😭😭 (I’ll fix it later)

Link to Twitter post

🦷Yukimura says he would be scary dentist and I have to agree with that…

🦷But he’s a scary handsome dentist at least 😭

🦷He’s great dentist but maybe he’s a little rough when extracting teeth, laughs it off with a “ooops” 🦷Depending on the kid he does a good job, if they are a crying mess he totally turns the television on to their favorite show. If the kid is being…rude to their parents (especially their mother) Askeladd gets them back. 🤷🏼‍♀️

🦷Good kids/ cute/sexy girls/ moms get candy, boys/men don’t.

🦷Askeladd totally scolds while he’s doing his work too 😆

🦷”Have you been flossing?”

🦷”Of course.”

🦷”Your gums say other wise.”

🦷😭😭😭 You can’t get over on Askeladd.

🦷”You need brush your teeth two times a day and floss before you go to bed.”

🦷He’s a little softer when it comes to patients he likes.

🦷Scary dentist but a good one 💕

🎃Rukia-Writes🎃

#Vinland saga headcanons #Askeladd headcanons #VS headcanons #dentist Askeladd #Vinland saga

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Same anon from earlier…. I like dean because he actually tried to be friends with Lorelai and knew that was important to Rory but other than that….. I got nothing 🤷🏼‍♀️ I am curious though, why don’t you like Logan? I recognize he is spoiled and isn’t great at relationships but I think he was the best for Rory of the trio.

hey anon! I want to preface my response by saying that I do not hate logan stans. I have issues with certain ones/ones that hate on jess or rory but my anger towards logan is only towards logan. I’m sorry if it comes off as aggressive or anything — I really dislike the character but it’s totally separate from my feelings on the stans. that being said, I have a lot of thoughts so I’m so sorry for the mess of a response this is going to be, but I’ll do my best to put it coherently.

I guess by saying that I don’t like logan, it’s kind of a given that I don’t like him as a boyfriend for rory, so I’ll start with that. I know it’s a common opinion that he was a good boyfriend, but I just don’t agree. I don’t think he treated her well. even before they were technically together his behavior was awful. when they meet, he’s smarmy and smug and patronizing. he’s just such a dick in their first one on one scene even though you can tell he thinks he’s being charming. when rory starts crushing on him, it gets worse. he toys with her knowing that she’s into him and I really really hate it. one thing that really sticks out to me is that episode where logan tells her about some party he has to go to with some journalist that rory gets really excited about. logan says something about the party being “more exciting” or better or something, pretty clearly hinting that he’s going to invite her. she clears her plans for this party, because he’s lead her to believe that he’s going to take her. later in the episode, they’re talking and he mentions the party. before he leaves he pauses in this way that definitely implies he’s going to ask, before saying he’ll see her after the weekend or something. (I may not have all the dialogue down, but I promise you this is an accurate summary of the scenes — I forgot the episode, maybe 5x09 or 5x10 but it should be on youtube.) look, while I may hate logan, I’m not going to pretend that he isn’t intelligent. he can read rory fairly well at least at times, and I know he knew what he was doing. logan is very intentional about a lot of what he does, especially when it comes to rory. so it’s clear to me that he knew exactly what he was doing here.

it gets worse when they’re casually seeing each other. a lot of people like to say that rory made her own decision when it came to seeing him casually, which is true, but in no way does that absolve logan of responsibility or say that he can treat her like dirt. he gives her this whole speech at the vow renewal that did not impress me at all. he knows exactly what to say to her. he says that he knew she wouldn’t like seeing him casually, which ends up being true, but it’s like he forgets it. he ghosts her at one point, which leads to rory crying on the bathroom floor because she (a) is convinced he doesn’t like her and (b) that she did something wrong to make him not like her. this was a point of no return for me. it doesn’t matter that they weren’t dating. it really shows that she wasn’t special to him at the beginning. she was just another girl he was seeing for a while. yes, he did like her because he agreed to date her exclusively later, but if he really cared about her then, why was he leading her to think that she made him dislike her? I’m not claiming that he did it on purpose, but it’s really inconsiderate and it’s just something that I can’t get over. but that’s not even the worst of it — maybe if his behavior had improved, I would be able to see past it. but that isn’t what happened.

when they’re first dating, it isn’t as bad. I don’t love his lack of encouragement and help when she starts the internship with his dad, but I don’t get super worked up about that in particular. it’s just annoying. what I really hate is how when she says she wants to steal the yacht, he’s practically giddy. like he’s immediately ready to run off and do it. I’m not saying that he made her do it because he didn’t, but the fact that he doesn’t even see a problem with it and encourages it sucks. it’s worse, too, because he doesn’t get any punishment for it but rory gets community service. I think the community service was deserved, and rory didn’t fight it either, but it rubs me the wrong way that logan was equally responsible (remember, he needed no encouragement or convincing to steal it) and wasn’t held accountable at all. another thing about the end of season 5 I don’t like is that when rory is telling lorelai about her decision to drop out, she says that logan agrees with mitchum. I know that logan didn’t say that, and I’m not saying he did; it’s the fact that he is her boyfriend and she believes he thinks she doesn’t have what it takes to achieve her lifelong dream. all logan really said was like “oh this is what he does” in reference to his father but that’s just so...lame. this isn’t a major thing but it’s another smaller thing that adds up to me not liking him. and I swear I’m not being nitpicky or searching for reasons!!! these are all things that stood out to me while watching for the first and second time (I’m on my third) and are reasons that I dislike logan, particularly as a boyfriend for rory.

the next big thing that I really hate is how logan acts when rory drops out. and look, I’m not blaming him. it’s true that she made her own decision to do so after what mitchum did. I’ve never argued against that! but logan is her boyfriend and he wasn’t concerned at all. at the party he throws for her to celebrate her committing a crime (which is also...yeah) he says that she’ll never last out of school and he’s giving her one month. people like to cite this as a defense, but it’s so lackluster?? he says one thing and then never a single thing after that. he said it himself that she’d never last that long without attending college, but he isn’t even concerned that she has no plans on going back. like he’s just happy that she’s slacking off with him lol. in addition to that, he does not say a single fucking word about her not speaking to her mother. he is her BOYFRIEND. he would know that rory is closest with her mother. he would know all about that. but he does not say anything at any point or show an ounce or concern that rory is estranged from her best friend and the person she’s closest to. it’s upsetting to me that he just does not care about that at all. he’s happy that she’s in his world and can party with him, and he can throw parties in her pool house without asking permission and go out drinking and have her drive him home. oh, and then his behavior in 6x08. it’s atrocious, sorry. ignore the fact that I like jess. even if it was some random friend of hers, like freaking marty, it would still be so sucky. like, rory is going out with her friend and the second logan gets there he’s decided to be an ass. the first thing he says is like “am I interrupting something?” as if he doesn’t trust her. and he’s just immediately being a dick; posturing and, I don’t even know, is he trying to intimidate jess? he inserts himself into the outing out of jealousy and distrust. the way he puts his arm around rory (and she tries to shake him off) shows just how possessive he’s acting.

logan is a complete jerk to jess throughout that entire dinner. he mocks him, shows off his wealth, etc etc etc. like the way he acts there is so fucking immature and jerky. I don’t know how else to put it. and somehow it got worse after jess left. okay, so, rory comes in and starts spiraling. she’s realizing that this isn’t the life she wants to lead and that she’s unhappy. she’s realizing she isn’t being herself. what does logan do? first, he just keeps saying that it’s “temporary.” obviously, he feels no rush to comfort or help his girlfriend, and just wants to drink and slack off with her, despite the fact that it’s clear she wants out of this life. what does he do next? well, he makes himself the victim! she’s just talking about how she’s partying all the time and he just gets up and starts yelling. like wtf he’s telling her not to drag her into this, but she didn’t??? she didn’t even mention him. like dude, this isn’t fucking about you. but no, he makes it all about himself and how bad his life is because daddy wants him to have a job (more on that later). he starts SCREAMING at her in public. like he is shouting. “don’t you dare blame me” she fucking wasn’t. remember, this isn’t about you. but no, he has to throw a whole damn tantrum and then storm out. and this sets into effect the whole cheating thing.

yes, I consider what he did cheating. I know that that is controversial, but I stand by that opinion. I also doubt his integrity when he claims that he thought they were broken up, and I’ll explain why in a second. so, logan leaves her in a bar with some money to pay for the drinks and all that after a fight that he instigated. he and rory don’t speak for a while. she doesn’t call and he doesn’t either. around thanksgiving, he hooks up with one of his sister’s friends. this is only a few weeks after his fight with rory. around thanksgiving would be maybe a week before to a week after TOPS, and 6x08 was a couple weeks after rory’s birthday, according to jess. he sleeps with another one in december. there’s no estimated date for when he fooled around with the other girl, but it’s gotta be in between those two or maybe a little after sleeping with the second. regardless, this is all before he starts trying to get rory back. rory’s semester would’ve started in january and that’s when he started trying to get her back. why do I doubt him? remember that when honor called rory on thanksgiving she said that logan said he and rory had broken up. (also, even if he was telling the truth...breaking up over the phone THROUGH YOUR SISTER is not classy. and yes, it’s through his sister. but speaking for a couple weeks without confirming that it’s a breakup doesn’t count.) well, logan says to rory when he corners her outside her apartment that he only told honor they broke up to “get her off his back.” rory asks him “so you didn’t think we were broken up?” and then he says like “no, I did.” so which fucking is it, logan? did you think you were broken up or not? like jesus, pick a fucking lane. when he realizes that rory is, yeah, gonna consider it cheating, he definitely picks what he’d consider the safest lane. also, if you’re going to sleep with someone (or multiple people), YOU need to call your girlfriend and make sure it’s over. that is YOUR responsibility. people like to say that rory didn’t call so it’s okay he assumed they were broken up (if he even did), but that’s just so unfair. like, no. you should’ve called. rory thought they were just taking a break. she thought they were taking some space after a pretty shitty fight and then would get back together. also, it’s just poor communication that they might not have the same definition of what a break is. and btw, if you’re on a break or just broke up and your first instinct is to sleep with someone else, that shows some questionable commitment. rory has a line when she sees the therapist. she says that logan just “decided that he loves her” and then asks “how long until he doesn’t love me again, huh?” pretty telling that she doesn’t trust him. that she thinks he’s saying he loves her to get her back but that he doesn’t really mean it. big, huge, crimson red flag.

(side note: I don’t like how he pestered her when she didn’t want to get back together. okay, so she agreed eventually. it wasn’t that she was over him. it was that he had hurt her and she wanted things to be over. she would have had to move on, but she didn’t want to be with him. but of course, he couldn’t take no for a fucking answer. and he goes to LORELAI. god. imagine if he respected any of her decisions.)

back to the cheating. so, he cheated. pretty shitty move. of course he doesn’t tell her. then, he lets her go into a room full of the girls he cheated with. okay, so, not so good so far. rory finds out, of course. does logan apologize and try to make things right? nope! he doesn’t take an ounce of responsibility, first of all. he won’t even acknowledge that she thinks it’s cheating. the only semblance of an apology he gives is some shitty version of “I’m sorry you’re hurt” which isn’t apologizing for his actions or trying to make things right. not only that, but he tries to shift the blame to the girls by saying they love to do stuff like this, as if they told her intentionally. no, they were just being drunk and stupid. what rory says in this scene is really telling. she says that she fell for all his “stupid tricks” and that he had “plenty of backup. what do you need me for?” again, RED RED RED flag. of course, he has to track her down and not give her any space at all until she agrees to take him back. rory loves him, and she wants to believe that he means what he’s saying, even if she doesn’t really believe it deep down. so, yeah, she takes him back. but of course he has to call the girls vipers and just refuse to acknowledge that rory thinks he cheated. her side of it does not matter to him at ALL. when she doesn’t forgive him, he plays the victim and fucks off with his friends. she only ends up forgiving him out of guilt and pity because she fucking blames herself for him almost dying. god it’s just so frustrating that he never takes responsibility and then just gets out of it. meanwhile rory is standing up to his friends and father for him when he couldn’t care less about her when it doesn’t suit him lol. he doesn’t deserve her one bit.

(also, don’t love that he knew he had to work for his father immediately after graduating but didn’t tell her and instead let her plan a whole trip for them. when he knew they couldn’t go.)

I see a lot of people say that logan was a great boyfriend in season seven. while I think the new writers tried to make him a great one, they failed. okay, so, he learned the word sorry. he only ever apologized when she had already absolved him of all blame and put it all on herself anyway. like when he got so offended by her criticisms of rich people (not people with privilege like her. really really rich people with millions on millions of dollars) that he yelled at her and held her living with him over her head even though it had been his idea. don’t like that. in season seven, also, he had spent so much time in season six complaining about working for his dad but now suddenly he loves his job and it’s all he talks about. like when he surprises her his job is all they fucking talk about jfc. when his business deal falls through, he doesn’t tell her and instead fucks around with his friends. getting home drunk and having rory take care of him etc etc. oh, and he ends up bailing on her when they had plans to go to lane’s baby shower to go gamble in vegas. real smooth. later in the season, he also tells rory that he’ll plan his future around hers and she doesn’t need to try to accommodate him. but then he immediately backtracks when he proposes. he proposes IN PUBLIC in front of friends and family which is so crappy if they’ve never even discussed marriage or proposals. like the pressure on her to say yes because of that...I’m glad that she was able to do what was best for her. but still, real shitty. and he already has a house to buy and a future planned out across the country when she wasn’t looking for jobs further than the midwest?? to want to take her away from her friends and family without even discussing it is a real dick move. and then the breakup is just...like first of all why do you need to decide it at her graduation??? is that really the place and time?? oh, and when she says she isn’t ready to marry him but still wants to stay together. his reaction is so so so shitty. some quotes include: “You really think that’s gonna work?” in reference to them dating long distance when they’d DONE IT BEFORE; “yeah, it does” in reference to it having to be all or nothing; “what’s the point?” in reference to staying together. like that is just so...bad. he ruins her graduation with this shit. classy.

and then there’s the revival. I’ve explained my feelings on this before but I’ll reiterate them for the sake of being extensive. so, yes, rory makes the decision to be in this relationship. I am not claiming that logan forced her or that she does not take any responsibility in this. what I am saying is that LOGAN is the one who is engaged. HE is the one having the affair. it is not rory’s responsibility to make him leave odette. if logan really loved rory enough, he would leave odette for her. if he loved her enough, he wouldn’t string rory along and make her the other woman. if he loved her enough, she would be enough. but no, he wanted the best of both worlds. logan was a 32 year old man. daddy can’t make him marry anyone. logan WANTED the benefits that came from that marriage. he wasn’t even bothered that he was seeing rory on the side and treating her like a dirty mistress. god, he slept with both of them in the same bed. it just feels so wrong to me.

so that’s why I don’t like him as a boyfriend. not brief, I know, and I’m sorry for getting carried away ajsjdjsjd. I do also just do not like him as a person. a lot of that I’ve covered already. but god, like, he’s just so spoiled. he’s obviously never heard the word no in his life. everything has always been handed to him on a silver platter. and instead of being grateful, he’s entitled and a jerk. and he never gets better!! he’s inconsiderate, he’s rude, and he’s patronizing. he looks down on marty and jess and is condescending in general. he complains about being rich and having to work for his dad (an opportunity that, like rory says, a lot of people would kill for) and then turns around and loves it! I know that part of that is accounted for by the switch in writers, but it makes him look like a fucking hypocrite. I just...he acts like he faces so many hardships and that his life is oh so terrible and it’s just. not. like yeah I’m sorry that your dad was distant but that doesn’t give you the fucking excuse to behave the way you do. and you can’t really chalk it up to him being a stupid young adult because he acts the same way in the revival lol.

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