#if i ever stop being a coward

[dirhwangdaseul-archived]

i wrote an entire yellowjackets season in my head just as an ode to lottie and mythology and storytelling and eldritch psychological gore bullshit i love so much and maybe ursula k le guin too and im so sad rn, like idk how fans and these writers couldn't see the potential in a story that truly looked at how lottie took jackie's place, and how that exists within the mythologization and the materiality of survival, and how the landscape bows to her but how much that isolates her both before and after wnd how how that could be both a story of herself as the limit allowed for her but she's trying to break humanity itself so that she can be, and with her madness added, in the space of the bleeding and the mind breaking apart because of life? im sorry but this story had the potential of eeaao, while fully leaning on the horror side, if the writers weren't so white🖕🏽😭

#el suco #sigh #maybe ill write it one say #if i ever stop being a coward

[burymeinblack2022]

“if nothing ever happens again” “if this is the end..” shut up shut up SHUT UP.....they took the blows and did it their way....in the face of oppression say fuck you.....GET UP COWARD..... UNKILLABLES.....ARE YOU NOT SEEING IT......

#*charlie day board meme.jpg* #wow anna said something #this cant be the end like fr #the dichotomy of 'yes it conforts me much more to lay in the foundations of decay* to the roaring "GET UP COWARD*....this is the song they #chose to come back with clearly abt their journey (ignore the beggining of the next tag) #and their journey.....nothing is a coincidence with them HOW COULD THEY STOP NOW....THEY'VE NEVER BEEN BETTER #THEY'RE REVIVED WITH A NEW SPARK A NEW FIRE THERE'S LIFE PULSING THROUGH MCR AGAIN DO YOU NOT SEE IT #FOR ONCE THEY'RE ACTUALLY GENUINELY HAVING A GOOD TIME WHILE REAPING THE PRAISE THEY DESERVE FROM THIER PEERS #*THEIR #AFTER BEING OSTRACIZED FOR BEING A VOICE FOR THE OUTCASTS THEY FEEL STRONGER THAN EVER #mcr #i cant keep ranting in the tags bc ill run out but just know i have a lot of feelings abt this #my chemical romance #anna's shitposts #mcr return #mcr reunion tour #mcrosaka #txt #oh noooo my tags got ruined hold on #tags got ruined again hold up #Greatest hits

[itshyuka]

hueningkai 🐧 to do ep 104-105

#hueningkai #tomorrow x together #txt #moacentral #mine #m: gif #love him cowards 🔫🔫 #the way hueningie blinks!!!!! <3333 #does hyuka ever stop shifting his weight #bestie im tryna fit u into a frame stop moving #also highkey if i stay organised at work i actually might be able to #gif once every two days or so #better yet once a day slay #not these gifs being hella washed out on mobile!!! noooo!!!!

[intotheelliwoods]

I got new glasses finally and my brain is ooaoaoaooaoa ooao um adjusting (im having a time)

#nonsense #I needed new glasses so bad #my old ones were straight up being held together by DUCT TAPE #but are the new duct tape free glasses worth the 3 day brain pain we will see #btw if you ever want to know what I look like I deadass look like chicken little #that meme of “stop saying I look like chicken little” but you see I actually look like chicken little and I am very much a coward #I know if I focus on 2al that will hopefully distract from the new glasses pain #.... do I post this on main or my goddamn turtle blog. #..... do I post this on my few hundred followers blog or my few thousands followers blog hmm. #god I really need to do a follower milestone thing #again probably maybe a dtiys #but uhhh ummmm erm after the twist how about that #anyways hello fandom sideblog my beloved how are there so many of you following me #what #WHAT what #slowly but surely getting used to the idea that im a “big” blog oops #im literally chicken little #why am I big #am I chicken big? #im chicken big. #goodbye #enjoy tag ramble

[cherriko-art]

I started playing My Time at Sandrock!! Here's my builder oc, Yu-Li!

#cherry draws #my time at sandrock #mtas #mtas fanart #mtas builder #mtas oc #cherry ocs #yall i bought the deluxe edition for the extra goodies #THE MALE SWIMSUIT SWEATER IS TRANSPARENT!!! #SO YEAH THAT WAS A DELIBERATE ARTISTIC CHOICE TRANSPARAENT TOP!!! #ok but also I would like to riot bc the tassle earrings on the dlc outfit IS A SINGLE GAY EARRING FOR THE GUYS STOP BEING COWARDS GIMME BOT #I'm currently between Owen or the ever-so-popular Logan

[teknikolor-walters]

the urge to overshare on the internet vs. the fear of being a burden to my friends and worrying yall

#sighs. sighs #i. uh #im sorry #i love u all #so much #none of this is your fault #i just #you know when i said today was my origially planned date but i wasnt gonna do it #yeah #well #that aged terribly #i dont know #i think there are a lot of benefits to me killing myself but i dont wanna traumatize anyone and i dont want anyone to mourn me #i wish i could just fade away #have nobody remember me #if i do stop being a fucking coward and actually go through with it. just rmember that i love you. so so so fucking much #you guys are some of the best people in the world #dont ever forget it #cicadas vent tag

[widevibratobitch]

moments like this when im really glad im a sad little cynic who always considers the worst possible outcome and never lets herself truly get comfortable and trust the good things in her life to stay there and builds her life around trying to soften the blows of the eventual disappointments just waiting around the corner lol never leaving my edgy teenager era peace and love

#i mean if the alternative is whatever the fuck is going on with my best friend rn then hooooo boy #cancelling therapy immediately i never want to change i wanna keep my trust issues forever and ever if its gonna save me from THIS #is he a dick? kinda. yeah. and a coward because if dude was sure he didnt want it since AUGUST and didnt have the guts to end it till now #actually he didnt end it. she was the one who finally snapped. but we seriously fought twice before because she just woudlnt listen #when i said that girl this isnt gonna work and you trust him too much and you're attachment styles are incompatible as hell #your* #but nvm. the least you could do when a 7 years younger girl who's clearly obsessed with you is breaking up with you #cause she just cant take it anymore. and you can see she's still in love with you because you've been lying to her for half a year. #imo the least you could do at that point is just. dont tell her that jfc. just say you're sorry it didnt work out etc etc #dont fucking tell her you stopped being in love with her in fucking august #and just 'didnt know how to end it' and lied when she asked if everything's alright #like my god. yes ig this would never have happened if she hadn't trusted him so completely and expected love to fix her whole life #but jesus dude. she's not even 23 she has a right to be naive. you're almost 30. you DONT get to be a man child anymore #christ. okay. #anyway i wish i could help her but telling her to 'trust less' and 'never truly rely on other people' sounds horrible and cringe and edgy af #but i genuinely dont have any other advice #like babygirl im sorry but your bestie is a piece of human garbage and she's doing the best she can but her best is Not Much alas

[lucyvaleheart]

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#i need to stop doing this. but i just. i..... #.....I'll probably fall asleep minutes after i post this #so if you message me about it and i don't reply that's why #but i just #............fuck I'm trying so hard #it doesn't seem to matter #no matter how much i get done or accomplish it's never enough I'm always ten steps behind where i need to be to even reach net zero #not even the point of making progress. the point where i can so much as rest #I'm so tired. im so tired. nothing i think of works nothing i try is ever the right thing #i know from the outside looking in i may not seem like a burden i may even seem like an uplifting person to be around #but I'm a burden. #i am. I'm not self deprecating. it's a fact. it's just a fact. #as i am now i am a resource sink and i need too much help and i can't really be independent #and yet i don't really have a choice #so at present whoever i live with (currently my husband) gets stuck taking care of me because i just fall short in so many ways #.....i can't do anything right #nothing i do seems to matter. i can't.... i can't do anything #fuck #I'm just repeating myself I'm almost certain but #...............why can't i have a decent idea for once #all this confidence and i just keep fucking up anyway #worked so hard on being confident in myself that i don't match up to my own expectations now #i #.............fuck #everything hurts so badly #I'm so tired #....I'm so tired #....................if anyone happens to live in Minnesota and wants to just. come shoot me dead hit me up #im too much of a coward to do it myself

[avtvmnalvibes]

Literally so tired of seeing like thirst edits for Belos captioned “IT’S JUST A JOKE LMAO”. Ok. And you’re checking out how many x reader fics there are for him on AO3 and tumblr because you “just want to see how many people actually simp for him lmao”. I know how this goes

#Don’t try and pull this shit with me #I was raised Catholic #with TWO parents in the Army #I’m better at suppressing my feelings than you will ever be #just stop being a coward and admit it #this was me about Ford from Gravity Falls for the record #the owl house #toh #emperor belos #philip wittebane

[kof-xiii]

PPL HATE SHUN’EI’S DESIGN??? PLS SAY SIKE

#YALL ARE SO GOTDANG BORING I THINK HIS DESIGN IS FUN AS HELL #ITS SO FUCKING FUNNY I STUMBLED INTO A VIDEO BEING ALL LIKE ‘worst kof 14 design ever’ and the top comment wrote a whole paragraph about #how shun’ei’s design is based on a chinese fashion trend ‘‘by SOCIAL REJECTS LAME PPL WHO HAV NOTHING BETTER TO DO’’ and its SOOO embarassin #how angry they were about it like. first of all youre a coward <3 second of all ?????? stop projecting????? anyway fuck yall I lov shun’ei #i dont kno much about him but i lov him #el.doc

[khufiya-khaufnak-antariksh]

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#i hate being trans & i have no clue if i'll ever actually transition (too many things to consider that i won't start listing here. but it #WOULD stop a whole lot of suffocation) but heyyyyyyyyyyy at least it's creative fuel #coping mechanisms: using it as creative fuel & making choking kink jokes about the suffocation of being closeted #cuz my tear ducts simply do not work anymore so at least let it all be funny! #at least the chronic pain is more manageable. as is the fomo of having to avoid stuff because of it. #for the most part everything's way better now that i'm in college & living away from my parents (they're much better to talk to when i'm NO #living with them) and i'm getting to be more of myself. i'm getting to actually EXPRESS. i know i said 'suffocation' but compared to before #much improved. although the fact that everything is better is also making the shit things stand out more in contrast. #anyway if i'm too much of a fucking COWARD to come out & transition + if this makes me suffer as i continue the double life stuff w/being #trans on the internet & cis offline (to most people) then it'll be fully my responsibility (it already is) & no one should feel bad for me #or my cowardice

[dragonflute]

almost 4 am thoughts. ppl who say they want "worse graphics" but actually mean stylized artstyles in games piss me off. like i actually want bad graphics but okay

#personal #i like when things just have janky 3d artstyles that look like its the creators first 3d model ever #i like when the textures are so messy that it muddies things #i will NOTTTTT allow ppl who want stuff like hollow knight or night in the woods when they say they want shitty graphics #those things take skill just as much as any hyper realistic visible pores game. stop being a coward and get into actual “bad” stuff with me #^ not to say things that 'look bad' dont take skill they do. but its very about the polish. i want things to be rough. dont sandpaper shit

[lyxchen]

I really love the Moana movie but I think it could have been ever better if Maui had been a woman

#i would probably pass out #but maybe i want that... #look #i saw a woman on tiktok cosplay maui and that was the hottest thing i have ever seen #like oof #wow #marry me #soooo #female maui when? #art inspo #lea's random thoughts #disney stop being a coward and make more strong buff woman characters challenge #More! Characters! Like! Luisa!!!!!

[sylhea-raemi]

When you realize this moment isn't him getting backlash from cancelling a middle schooler online or finding out the victim died because of it...

...but it's him watching the cyber bullying continue even without him participating in it any longer, watching everything unfold from the sidelines, not doing anything about the situation, until the end of it.

#it could be because he is a 'coward' and tried to 'run away' from the pitfire before it consumes him #or it maybe he TRIED to stop it but the fire became so large he can't extinguish it #it was out of control he couldn't control it? #he realized at that moment the he really truly FUCKED UP BIG TIME. #he KNEW. what he did haunts him. #and yet he deny it. he kept disconnecting himself from the incident because he don't think he's the one who pushed the victim to death #because he only started it but didn't continue it. #the moment he realized how he fucked up and how he realized he's wrong.. he's been in denial ever since #because he only started it but didn't continue and didn't end it! #he knows! that it all started with him!! yet this fucker REFUSED to give up!!! #this fucker may have known what he did wrong and realized it all started with him #but does not accept it!!!! as he said in the vd 'i didn't think it'd end up lile this!' #this fucker was guilty he is aware he regret what he did #and yet he's still not facing it after losing a fucking eye #jesus fuck kajiyama fuuta #the thing is....... he's well aware.... he's apologized.... #but he clings to the 'justice' and 'good' he knows of... #....he doesn't want to be seen as 'bad' and 'wrong'? #even in the backdraft mv he's still backing off and being defensive #his fear. the many people judging him in his head is him judging himself #i hate it so so much #sylhea talks milgram #milgram #kajiyama fuuta #fuuta kajiyama

[stinkbeck]

i'm in the wrong fuckin crowd.

#this town is just not for me lol. #i think there's a reason all the gay people leave #u just can't survive here! this place like crushes the gay spirit. i feel ashamed of everything + i feel like i'm supposed 2 be available 2 #all the guys here. i'm just depressed lol. also i feel like everyone is straight pretty or expected 2 be. i saw a woman in a tee shirt #hefting a beer keg up the steps of a liquor store a few weeks ago + was like 'holy shit. most beautiful person i've ever seen. thought all #the real people left..' #where r all the real people though... like where r they living. i gotta get out of here #also wtf. how dare people shame me for being real lol??? boring-ass cowards. all need something 2 talk about huh! if i wasn't here #what would bind u + your besties together? stop being so fucking afraid. wtf do u think life is?? #like is everyone so afraid of having to answer the questions they ask themselves?? #bury ur head in the sand. whatever. you'll die like the rest of us.

[astrxealis]

what if i actually got to. streaming (again?)

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #only ever did months ago casually for p5r for friends but hey uhh. uh. #LOOK i don't want to delve into it anymore than a hobby but i do want to get into it more #rather not show my face (though uh. last friday or thursday i forgot but hehe streamed a bit of omori with my twin and other irl bestie #and i did show my face LOL unfortunately i also stopped playing omori after a bit bcs apparently the audio wasn't shared and uhh #idk how to fix that for steam games but i did get it to work w streaming... youtube videos of my fav band rn ifykyk LMAO #OTHER ARTISTS TOO OKAY but yeah anyways) uhh. pngtuber thing is possible but idk but yeah i don't think i could get a vtuber avatar #but i DO want. smth at least. so a png would work. i'll look up more on that #but anyways ya ... i do need an ethernet cable to stream my games on ps4 tho aaaand my laptop isn't for gaming so i'm worried #it will overheat but hey at least i can get into stuff :] esp omori not being too power. big? big on power? yeah? #altho i do rlly wna stream ds3 and bloodborne mainly for the fact im a coward otherwise. tho i am still a coward regardless. #uhm if you want my twitch (tho tbh im prolly gna stream on yt unlisted bcs i don't like being perceived too much) feel free to ask ehe #i have a different username for it to everything bcs it kinda connects to friends from everywhere and that i dont wnt to know my. other #social medias LMFAO BUT YEAH ^^