#idk what time tho its whenever i get off work lmaooo

[samijen]

Heyooo I have a store launching this Sunday (9/4) if anyone’s interested!!! 👉👈💦 I got charms, a standee, bunch of stickers, prints, and a couple of more stuff~

#idk what time tho its whenever i get off work lmaooo #art #artists on tumblr #genshin impact

[delusional-mishaps]

well guys. since i missed epic's birthday (devastating) have some headcanons :)

he is one of those weaboos who learned japanese so he can watch anime "the authentic way" (his words)

so he's fluent in japanese 💀 he literally only learned it for anime but dude was DEDACTED

he's so cringe guys 😭 i can say that. he's my boyfriend i love him

he would adore those cute anime girl v-tubers. like not in a weird way but he'd watch a lot of them

HE PLAYS GENSHIN 💀 he'd probably main beidou or raiden shogun/ei.. maybe run a full electro team with miko and fischl too 😭 (fischl is his fave character he loves her backstory and her bird thing idk i dont use fischl 💀) he loves the electro characters for some reason idk

HE HAS THE WORST LUCK ON THIS GAME THO. bro has c6 diluc (me too ☹️) and all his artifacts SUCK ASS even tho he'll grind every day

he has to spend money on every banner because he always loses his 50/50 and only gets high pity

ok enough genshin headcanons he's cringe we know this

im here ranting about a game i hate because my dumb boyfriend plays it so much

he hangs out with cross a lot ofc BUT

whenever he hears the word cross used in any context he turns to cross like "CROSS????? BRUH THATS YOU!!" (i always make these jokes. im projecting)

cant believe jesus died on his best friend fr... LMAOOO

he speedruns minecraft. he's NOT GOOD AT IT. but he can do it

he's had his speedruns ruined by creepers like 7 times

one time he somehow got into the deep dark and got killed by the warden??? idk what bro was doing down there in a speedrun dawg 😭

sorry he's a gamer in my head but hes really bad at every game he plays (just like me fr)

he sleeps under like 6 different weighted blankets in the hopes that he wont thrash around when he sleeps but he's too strong and ends up tossing them all off his bed 😭

bro needs to be CRUSHED to fall asleep!! he literally cant fall asleep without the weight

not that he likes to sleep anyway because of the nightmares but whatever. hes gotta do it. unfortunately.

he fights in his dreams ofc thats like canon but bro is throwing punches in his sleep fr

if he gets a partner (me fr!!) they gotta sleep in a different ROOM 😭 he is taking NO CHANCES and tbh thats so fair i wouldnt wanna wake up being beaten up by my bf

he is so ipad baby-core <3 he'll just watch youtube on his ipad all day if u let him but he's an old man and needs his spectacles otherwise he's holding it at arm's length 💀

don't forget bro is literally a doctor?? he's SO smart but he uses his goofy persona as a cover up

im convinced like most of the people that know him actually dont know this. they all think hes dumb as bricks 💀

them he'll casually say smth super smart and everyone is like ???????? HELLO??? SINCE WHEN DID UR BRAIN WORK??

i love drawing epic with glasses guys he looks so cute. but he has old man reading glasses

this the typa shit he wears

AND HE FUCKING. anime glasses 😭

like yk how ppl in anime push glasses up

him fr

AUUGH WHY IS HE SO CRINGE I NEED TO CRUSH HIM

he actually needs his glasses all the time but he doesnt like to look like a NERDD so he doesnt wear them

he makes cross read everything for him

they go out to eat and gotta make him read the whole menu otherwise hes holding it 2cm from his face 💔

"whatd that sign say i cant read it"

"dude the letters are huge how cant you read it"

"oh lol i need my glasses my bad bruh"

"YOU ARE DRIVING A CAR RIGHT NOW????"

actually he cant legally drive. because thats funnier than if he could

id still be his passenger princess <3 i refuse to get my license

anyway guys isnt my boyfriend so silly

im so tiredni needto seelp goodnight smooork mimimumumu

its 3am i neednto get up in 5 hours naioiiooooooo

goodbye guys enhjoy my boyfrien mdgrf

#count how many times i project onto epic challenege #headcanon #undertale headcanon #epic #epic sans #epic headcanon #bruh idk how to tag stuff i dont make real posts anymore 😭 #jester writes

[taeyamayang]

hahah yeap everyday unfortunately. on good days though it only takes about an hour 20 or an hour & a half so i cross my fingers & hope for the best each time lol 😄. it ends in August which seems long to me but i'm hoping these months will pass by in a flash 😆. other than the travel time, the work culture & environment is not so bad so i guess that's a plus, but, you never really know what life has in store for you ╮(︶︿︶)╭

i'm in mech engineering! it does include math but if im being honest not much of it is being used rn 😬🫣

congrats on graduating omg!! idk why but that is so you to be studying even after graduating and going to grad school. i wish you all the best and good vibes in your exams~

ahhh i took japanese lessons too! didn't get to finish it bc the classes were always full (╥_╥) i rmb getting excited every lesson bc it was a chance for me to show off my verymediocreveryelementarylearntfromanime pronounciation skills to my sensei ＼(＾▽＾)／ (yeah it nvr went well but she'll always say i did a great job👍😭). i hope you have fun learning the language as much as i did and maybe if i find the courage to pick up my notes again we'll be able to talk in 日本語 . . .(・・ ) ?. jokes aside, what's your favourite part about learning this language so far?

i've heard sooo many people talking about genshin lately. i'm not a big fan of rpgs (actually very bad at them) so i tend to observe from the side. what do you like the most about the game? and ofc i have to ask this, who's your favourite character?

as for me, i'm currently in love with yakuza 0! its my first of the series and i'm enjoying it to the fullest. i've been playing on the weekends to release some stress & it's the perfect antidote for me. i mean come on, it even has a karaoke and disco dancing minigame!

anyways, take care my love. remember to drink water and take your vitamins. you are loved <3

🌻 (p.s missed you too lol)

lmao its so funny that i was so shocked of your travel time when i suddenly remember that during my senior year i used to inter for a company outside the city so i literally have to cross borders before the crack of dawn which was wild bc how did i survive that?? anyway, it was just a month a half or two so it wasn't much. the job was okay too so fatigue all came from the commute (tho reading a book durinf a long ride kept me company, maybe you should try it to!) i'm glad that the work didn't add to your problems tho i'm sure you can handle anything thrown at you ;) and yes i agree, nature has its way of rocking our steady boats but im sure youll be able to cope and overcome it (if it gets too tough always rmbr that my asks is always open for rants!)

really?? i have this belief that engr have to solve math problems their entire lives and i just 😭 (i have math traumas, its speaking loudly rn lol) idk why too but "studying after uni and going to grad school is so you" makes me feel happy lmaooo. well, you are right that is so me ig i love keeping myself busy plus idk it may should rlly weird coming from me but... learning can be fun too 😭 i lit sound nerdy rn but who cares 😭

OMG REALLY! THATS SOOO FUN japanese people are very respectful so ig thats why your sensei always praises you or perhaps you were good. contrary, my sensei was sassy 🥶 lmaooo he points out mistakes and is very particular with pronunciation and clarity of words so when we recite in class it always gives me the nervesss. the only time i was able to connect my classes to anime is through the characters names like yuki means snow and yuki from fruits basket has gray-white hair and is deemed cold or yoru means night asa means morning and that shows the duality of yoru and asa in chainsaw man lol smth like that. WE SHOULD! lmaoooo tho i am not fluent in N5 i got to warn you ahead of time!! im not sure about my favorite part bc i enjoyed it sm lol i love learning languages, to begin with, so altho it gave me a high blood pressure whenever were to recite in class i enjoyed it sm heh how about you? あなたは 日本語 べんきょう たのしいですか。lololol

if you ever pick up genshin or smth YOU GOTTA TELL ME alright? cause im willing to guide you all the way and share the obsession lmaoo my fave characters... god theres A LOT but i mainly played genshin for zhongli and venti and later on liked itto tighnari and kaveh. you dont have to be good at rpgs bc coming from a no brainer in games, dude im surviving lol wait wait so yakuza 0 is a game? where do you play it? karaoke and mini dance games oooo that sounds interesting. tell me more about it and u might find a buddy

you are always so sweet. i hope the same and more for you too sunflower anon :)

take care! love seeing u here :D

#anon.🌻 #pea.asks

[svnoohe4rts]

I MISSED YOU TOOOO AND IM OKAY!!!

i’ve been studying and working sm i barely have free time now 💔 idk how it works in your country but in brazil we have to take like REALLY difficult tests to get in a good university :( some people have to study more than 2 years to get in lmao so im getting kinda crazy bc the first fase for getting in the university i want is already this november 6 😭😭😭 and im insane for wanting a degree in biology bc its the third most popular course and its like 100 candidates per vacancy IM SORRY ILL STOP TALKING ABOUT THIS NOW

BUT HOW WAS YOUR HIATUS DID YOU ENJOYED YOUR TIME?

love u to the moon and back !! u are my favorite author 🌷🌷🌷

oh?? my?? god??? lord i’m praying for u emi that’s sounds HORRIBLE i’m not too sure how it works here since i’m not planning on going to university LMAOOO but i think it’s somewhat similar over here and tbh that’s what throws me off like why do they make it so difficult?? it’s almost like they don’t want me to get into university damn

ALSO BIOLOGY ???? DAMN i aspire to be like u one day :’) i know ur gonna make it tho!!! i believe in u and so does everyone else <33 ALSO PLEASE DONT APOLOGIZE I LOVE HEARING ABOUT UR LIFE TELL ME MORE RIGHT THIS MOMENT🗣️🗣️🗣️

ahhh my hiatus was great!! i spent time with a very close friend who i haven’t seen in two years & i feel like that’s exactly what i needed … it was so comforting u know?? but now i have the worst case of separation anxiety LMAOO thankfully she’s coming to see me in a month again :’)

also i just wanna thank u for always sliding into my inbox i always get to so so happy whenever i see ur username in my notifications </3 i love u emi!!!

#🌷 25dejulho #ur like the main reason i love going on tumblr #mwah

[aro-aizawa]

suprisingly not that many people ship them, but the thing is. the "&" is literally in the top 3 relationships!! i have not been in a fandom where a "&" is one of the most popular rships. (im not exactly.. against them? i prefer brotp in general but there are a lot of uh racist antis against that romantic ship so i like it on principle for the ~spite~)

i think theres a difference between a ship fic and a ..normal fic(?). like. usually in ship fics the plot and the focus would be their interactions/getting together. whereas for regular fics u can kinda balance plot and rship, but the main plot isnt actually getting together. do u kinda get what i mean haha

no no feel free to rant! its kinda funny that they taught u to swear in yr6 but rip for not being able to censor urself. and also. broke up. over facebook??? better or worse than text lmao.

the only rship ive had started off... not great. like it was an online friend from south america, and they asked me out literally the day i rejected my friend. so... i said yes out of guilt for rejecting my friend bc it didnt look like my friend was taking the rejection well ^^; not a wonderful start rip. went well for 6-8 months then we broke up bc the honeymoon period wore off and i havent talked to them since! ✌🏻✌🏻✌🏻✌🏻✌🏻✌🏻✌🏻 it was fun tho, but it felt honestly just more online friends tbh (....interesting decisions all around yknow? )

it be how it be. i was still id'ing as panromantic ace at the time. but still. im wondering if i could eventually "work" with someone? or is that just. allonormative asgsggshshd

i see enemies to lovers but what i Rlly want is enemies to friends to lovers. the friends is necessary!! at least in a long fic haha. ...and love at first sight sounds really fake to me? it sounds just like a hyperbole tbh. like maybe it was first wow u seem like a great person and then u like, get to know each other and then fall in love, etc etc

(👀 oop i type a lot. Rip)

oh yiiiikes i hate when fandom gets those racist fans. i’m kind of,,, dense?? about that kind of thing (abt a lot of similar things too), so whenever i see it, it’s like. mega bad. but nice! i don’t ever pay attention to what’s the most popular in terms of ao3 because when i get into a fandom i’ll blacklist every thing i’m not comfortable seeing in said fandom and then save that for when i’m gonna check out said fandom. for example [here is my atla filters], [here is my mha filters] and [here is my ml filters]. (i also use an extention called ao3rdr which has a blacklist function and my blacklist is SO LONG. but it’s an essential so that i don’t feel like my brain is going to rot by trying to find good fics.)

ye!!! i always think abt it in terms similar to genres. i hate watching films and regular books because genres are so....stilted? and ridgid in what it involves? so in fandom terms i think there’s two main kind of genre categories that have sub categories. there’s ship fic, then there’s genfic. no clue if these are wide spread terms i’ve just kind of understood it that way lol. but within those two categories, there’s sub genres like canon divergence that focus on said ship but with a focus on the plot as well so there’s two plots going on rather than just the main plot. usually there’s always equals in both sides. i think that’s what you’re thinking of. the difference is how the authors approach their fics, whether they think it’s a ship fic explorating the how do they get together of relationships or if it’s the genfic of exploring the relationship itself.

lmao yeah it was like. the only way we’d communicate in non-irl fashion because we were both like. 12/13 so we’d have like. pay as you go plans for our phones so i at least, hoarded my credit and primarily used alternate communication methods. so idk if this is wide spread but at the time we never got into the habit of communicating via text. it’s why still to this day i never ever contact my irl friends via texts, and always through social media (the only time i ever use facebook nowadays is to message my friends tho i’ve been,,,, rather lax abt that. i need to respond to one of my group chats but i’m,,, procrastinating). and we were both awkward people, so i wasn’t bothered by the online breakup, if he didn’t break up w me that way i’d have guessed we just,,, wouldn’t address the relationship ever again and still technically be together but not at the same time lol

oh man that sounds rough. never had any experiences w online relationships, but i can definitely see where it could feel like an online friendship. because,,, idk maybe it’s just me but there doesn’t??? seem like there’s much?? romantic-esque stuff you can do exclusively online?? it’s why long distance relationships are hard, and they only fit certain couples. and lol i deffo understand that feel of internet friends dropping out of your life suddenly. i still think of nearly all my internet friends fondly...except for the bad ones. yeah some of those ones ten years ago were p bad.

it is!! i think that people always shorten it to just enemies to lovers though because it’s easier to say lol. i’m MUCH more interested in the genfic varient of enemies to found family because it goes from “god i want to kill you so bad” to “god i need to kill for you like rn”. it’s just,,, *chef’s kiss*

(dw i type a LOT too lmaooo and sorry it took so long for me to reply, i didn’t feel like talking to anyone for a few days ahah i just get those kinds of moods sometimes. as evidenced by my also ignoring of my friend group chat of over seven years, that i’ve been meaning to reply to for over 24 hours and i haven’t yet. yay.)

#anonymous #lemme know if you want me to tag these posts/asks/whatever w a specific tag or smth so you can see them all in one place #like if there's a nickname i can call you #again sorry for the late reply i wasn't ignoring you i was just...stressed lmao #my neighbour had a really loud party for over 8 hours last night #we're in the middle of a pandemic THOMAS #i knew you as a cute toddler don't throw parties when you're dad's away #have fun explaining the fine you're going to be getting bc i reported you :) #next time don't let your friends scream the words to loud music until 11pm #Anonymous

[unproduciblesmackdown]

Hi!! So this is an honest question so i hope it doesnt come off as rude or anything- but doesn't the thought that everything you post here can be reblogged make you more reserved or anything? Idk how to explain it but whenever i wanna post something here i think about doing it for a super long time to be sure i want it to possibly be on the internet forever- but i see you're comfortable with sharing pretty personal stuff so i was just wondering if it affected you any way or maybe it was just me?

lmaooo it’s cool!!! there’s an unending AMA going on here and off the top of my head i can’t think of anything off-limits to ask about

it’s definitely not just you!! out of the ppl i know off the top of my head i’m probably really far and away doing the Most airing my bullshit. if you ultimately don’t like the idea of stuff just kinda sitting around to be seen by Anyone, that’s valid and there’s no problem with feeling like that makes you wanna Not Post some stuff

like this is especially true for young teens on the soche media…hell i just entirely threw out the blog i’d had from like 14 -18, and not because i was particularly embarrassed or anything, it just felt mostly obsolete. you can become someone so different in even one year and that’s fine and you might not want Old Venting and the like just sitting around out there. it’s definitely okay to be real private about that kinda stuff

i know sometimes ppl having sorta Compromises where maybe they’ll create a second blog / account specifically for talking abt personal stuff, and then only maybe allow friends (or nobody) to access it; or people will just tag everything with Delete Later and then go back and delete it later so it’s not out there forever, or just because they find it embarrassing soon afterwards lol

for my part, there’s definitely multiple reasons i pretty much don’t care

1. i never used to Vent post back in the early days. but one of my earliest examples maybe was this sudden essay i dumped on my blog when i was 16? 17? abt how unhappy i was at home. it took me till i was 18 to really start to realize that what i’d always lived with was literally abuse, and it was things like The Sudden Venting Essay that really helped me put it all into words and be able to organize my thoughts enough to write about it and realize that there was a lottttt of shit i was rly miserable about2. ever since then really i’ve found that when i write about something, whether messaging it to someone or just posting it in general, a ton of times it helps me kinda make connections or figure something out or just feel like i have a better grasp on an idea.3. even after i started maybe doing the occasional venting post, for a long time i was really hesitant about it, but this was mostly b/c i felt like i didn’t have ~real~ enough problems and/or nobody would really care. as for the former, well yesterday i was saying how i still have this underlying feeling that i’m an imposter / don’t count / not REALLY as ___ as other people or whatever, so i’m still working on that, but it definitely doesn’t upset me as much as it might back in the day. re: the latter—tbh i dont care if nobody cares. i write abt personal shit b/c i care. my entire blog is About and Because i care, and if other people care, great, if they don’t, ok.4. a lot of this is about having compassion for myself. i don’t look down on other people for making personal posts, so i don’t look down on myself, either. 5. more self-compassion: there’s probably olden text posts from the early days of this blog that don’t even sound like me coz my Outer Demeanor has changed a lot these past 5 or 2 or 1 yrs. but even if i stumbled across some Old Post of mine and was like “lmfao whats up w THIS loser” it’s like….well, i’m sympathetic to my Earlier Selves. this applies to like, me never deleting Late Night Sad Posts or whatever (even tho nowadays they’re never exactly like i’m upset, maybe just Melancholy or in a mood to talk abt something saddish) coz i’m like, well, even though rn i don’t feel like i Need this post, back then i did feel like venting to feel better! and that’s fine. i don’t find that embarrassing. it’s like if you’re thirsty on one day and you drink some water and at some random point during the next evening when you’re not thirsty you think back on that time you were drinking water and you’re like “wow, embarrassing.” well clearly its not a perfect analogy but the point is sometimes you might feel you need to talk, and sometimes you don’t, and both times are ok. its not an embarrassment to have been upset6. this blog is the most personal thing in the world for me lmao its my Main social media presence, goes back five yrs, and for like. well the whole five years its been what keeps me from being way more isolated than i am. irl friends have been long distance this whole time (save a couple exceptions) and mostly my way to talk to ppl has been on here. this was especially important when i was at my parents house for a couple yrs. it was fairly awful and being able to be in touch w ppl and being able to SAY it was awful was clearly important, and i became more inclined to write abt shit rather than hold myself back b/c my being able to say anything was important7. i still talk about things b/c being able to say anything here to people in the outside world is important8. i can’t be like “i cant talk abt this b/c its not important/interesting enough” coz if i did i wouldn’t talk abt anything. i just write b/c i have things to say, and this is my pointless blog9. i don’t expect i’ll ever become Well Known in any circles. for me the more likely concern is kinda disappearing either due to dying or incarceration or some other shit scenario. the times i talk on here are good b/c that hasnt happened yet and i have the option10. even if i did become well known, i don’t really care.11. also for uh…all the times i was living in my parents house thru my life i was really really isolated. for eons i was used to nobody knowing shit abt me and keeping p much all my thoughts to myself. nowadays this blog is what lets me be able to sorta Known and Seen and able to get in touch w ppl if we wanna. basically, there’s nothing TOO personal. i’m not even trying to push myself to “overshare” coz like i said, p much nothing is offlimits. i’ve just had a lifetimes worth of being very invisible and unknown to anyone12. actually i can still be very cagey abt myself in person. learning to be more open On Here is a bit helpful for that. 13. idk that anyone else would give a shit about old vent posts from me either. when i talk abt me im talking abt *me*, its really not even vaguely interesting when removed even one degree from that specific context. 14. maybe there’s the chance some shit will happen to be Relatable to other ppl and somehow helpful to them15. for example, a lot of how i realized i was actually experiencing abuse for real was thru anecdotal / qualitative posts abt it. sometimes there’s shit you think is Just You only b/c nobody else who it applies to is talking about it yknow16. maybe making it seem less a big deal to talk abt your bullshit if i unapologetically talk abt my bullshit17. i remember my younger self feeling like i didnt ~deserve~ to talk abt my own thoughts & feelings the way other ppl did coz mine weren’t as good, so i kinda do it for them / in celebration of no longer feeling that way18. i actually like to talk. i just usually can’t. irl i very very very very rarely talk at length about myself, i don’t talk much at all. for me this is where i get to talk19. hmm i may have skipped or forgotten something obvious but hey. for now, there’s this. no-limits milo they call me

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[idkwhatawritingblogis]

nsfw alphabet meme; toni.

A = Aftercare (What they’re like after sex) she really does like to be close to pete after. she knows he likes it, but it's also just a comforting thing for the two of them after they bone, and you know, it's nice to just get to cuddle and enjoy the other for a few minutes before pete settles down into wanting to spoon and sleep. hold hands. just Be Together. those little moments they miss out on a lot. she's also cute and giggly after good sex. 

B = Body part (Their favourite body part of theirs and also their partner’s) her ass. like 500%. and thighs, obviously. legs even. fav body part of petes are his arms and his legs. and obligatory dick. whatsup.

C = Cum (Anything to do with cum basically… I’m a disgusting person) ..god. she's obsessed with cum. it's not even funny how much. like she straight up will start dirty talking about cum on the flip of a finger. pete is Aware. swallowing. she also.....really loves creampies now, so thanks for the nuts sans condoms, whats up. yeah. so you know. preferred place is inside of her, though. deadass her fav thing ever at this point. probably ties in later. oops.

D = Dirty Secret (Pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs) WELL. she's slept with plenty of people and she thinks the oldest was in his 50s. so. few times at least. he was bangin' and you know. she a hoe.

E = Experience (How experienced are they? Do they know what they’re doing?) she's very, very experienced. she's been doing this for awhile, with many partners, so she knows whats up from down. she's been taught a lot. 

F = Favourite Position (This goes without saying. Will probably include a visual) doggy. because hair pulling and spanking. this is the least shocking thing ever. 

G = Goofy (Are they more serious in the moment, or are they humorous, etc) depends on the mood. she knows better than to laugh when they're trying new things cause she doesn't wanna scare off pete and make him think she's laughing at him. but a lot of the time, the two of them can laugh. they also laugh at themselves for knocking into shit. or stepping on shit.

H = Hair (How well groomed are they, does the carpet match the drapes, etc.) trimmed. carpets pretty matching. it's chill.

I = Intimacy (How are they during the moment, romantic aspect…) holding hands during blowjobs. she's her and her romance. if things are slow, though, she's def into the deep kissing and focusing on pete. lot of whispered i love yous and babys. just trying to like.. focus on him. 

J = Jack Off (Masturbation headcanon) she's still weirdly obsessed with getting to watch pete jerk off. like that's just something she really wants and it's just a whole watching thing, so idk.

K = Kink (One or more of their kinks) choking. hella into choking. and pain, honestly. mega pain. also spanking. hellllllo spanking. 

L = Location (Favourite places to do the do) on a balcony. she also is gaining such an appreciation for the shower. their couch. 

M = Motivation (What turns them on, gets them going) dirty talk, obviously. pete working out hella. like them arms tho. light choking. like kiss her and put your hand on her throat? she's allllllll about to goooo.talking shit is also somethin' for her. and being mean. oops.

N = NO (Something they wouldn’t do, turn offs) other than like........... the normal grossities, i'm not entirely sure what she wouldn't do. turn offs is just condom bjs. aight. bye.

O = Oral (Preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc) well. petes very giving. and so you know, she loves to receive. but toni is.. a very big giver. like very big. Very. Big. oral is very big for her, and she's just.. yeah. she knows she's good. very proud of that, too.

P = Pace (Are they fats and rough? Slow and sensual? etc.) it's all very much a mix. she prefers a fast and rough for the most part, but she's come to enjoy a slow and sensual. a lot of that is cause she knows pete is big into it. romance.

Q = Quickie (Their opinions on quickies rather than proper sex, how often, etc.) she is pretty down for a quickie whenever, but only if she knows she'll get full sex later on during the day or night. she finds them hot, and i mean, she's very in the camp of wanting to do 'em as much as possible. she loves a quickie in petes box. oops.

R = Risk (Are they game to experiment, do they take risks, etc.) LMAOOO. yeah, toni's up for experimenting. like 100%. she's usually pretty down for anything, though pete never suggests anything, so she's just .. rollin' through. but she also does take risks. she likes a whole lotta risky behaviour. always has.

S = Stamina (How many rounds can they go for, how long do they last…) she's pretty average on how long she lasts. but she's down to go for as many rounds as possible. 

T = Toy (Do they own toys? Do they use them? On a partner or themselves?) she owns a vibrator. she's looked into buying a buttplug, but after she felt pete was making fun of her, she tabled it for the time being. now she has the wand for them to do things. she.......lowkey wants to use the wand on pete at some point, but she has to Bring That Up, but it's fine. otherwise, it's not been used by pete.

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease) uh. she really likes it. she likes to ruin pete's life. especially if he's not home and doing things, or they're outside and doing things. flights. she likes to talk a big mad game. especially if they've been apart awhile. it's a lot. she wants pete to jump her bones a lot. sure fire way for it.

V = Volume (How loud they are, what sounds they make) she's loud. her fav thing is being Obnoxious to upset her neighbours, but. she's loud. she's a moaner. she likes her partner to Know how much fun she's having. 

W = Wild Card (Get a random headcanon for the character of your choice) lmao, so. she's not sure why this is a Thing, and it's probably because of all the baby stuff surrounding their lives, from friends and **** and everything else, but she's weirdly been .. fantasizing about like....... pretending to bang to have a kid? with pete. so breeding or whatever. but she will never bring it up. because she knows it's weird, she also knows it'll fade, and that its not worth the headache of having to explain any of this to him. so. rip.

X = X-Ray (Let’s see what’s going on in those pants, picture or words) ittie bitties.

Y = Yearning (How high is their sex drive?) fairly high. toni is.. really, really sexual. she constantly wants to be doing Something sexual with pete, or even on her own. somethings usually pretty wrong if she's not in the mood to do something, and that's Really wrong because lmao, we know she copes with sex for a lot of stuff.

Z = ZZZ (… how quickly they fall asleep afterwards) unless pete's spent all night going down on her and she's Exhausted, she doesn't sleep after. she cuddles with pete, when he finally falls asleep she rolls around on her phone and eventually naps, or just lays there.

#( ts. )

[rouge-the-bat]

Your OTP for the ask meme?

YEASS itsss shadouge timee :33!!!!!

Who hogs the duvet: neither !! rouge doesnt have much fur so she needs the extra warmth and shadow isnt accustomed to the cold, and neither want to leave the other chilly so they try to make sure theyre both getting plenty of the duvet (which is easy if theyre snuggled right against each other :3)

Who texts/rings to check how their day is going: both, rouge checks up on shadow often bc his mental state isnt exactly in the best shape with all the shit he’s been thru - and shadow maybe does it a bit more often with her bc he gets a bit worried easily (also bc of all the shit he’s been thru djdhfjd)

Who’s the most creative when it comes to gifts: defintely rouge, shadow typically just goes for gems and jewelry to gift her (no going wrong with those lol)

Who gets up first in the morning: probably shadow mostly, if rouge is up in the morning before he is its likely that she was just awake all night dhishfjd (bats are nocturnal so,,, plus nighttime good for thievin)

Who suggests new things in bed: i mean itd have to be rouge bc shadow wouldnt have the slightest idea about that sorta stuff fibdjfhfe

Who cries at movies: rouge probably cries at movies a bit less than average amount, shadow on the other hand can be stone cold thru the entirety of an extremely sad movie but then some small moment in an otherwise cheerful/funny movie will send him trying to stifle down tears but completely failing, it depends on what happens and if it hits close to home with his past or fears (tho if its not just him and rouge then he’s much better at keeping himself from crying at all - but when he’s alone with her he’s more comfortable being more emotional and doesnt feel the need to hide it)

Who gives unprompted messages: both, but more often rouge bc she usually does it to relax shadow when he’s tense, which he often is. shadow tends to do it more on the lines of thinking like “this feels really good and i want rouge to feel good too”

How they are when they’re sick: shadow doesnt really get sick ? but when rouge is sick she’s typically kinda grumpy (i mean being sick is annoooyyying) and shadow refuses to leave her side except to get her something until she feels better

Who gets jealous easiest: i dont really see either getting jealous much really ? rouge is flirtatious by nature obviously, which shadow would probably get a bit bothered seeing her flirt with others but it doesnt get to him too much bc he knows that she uses it as a tactic to mess with and even steal from people (and its just kinda ingrained with how she talks normally)- besides, she’d keep any flirting with others to a minimum if shadow’s around anyways

Who collects something unusual: hdkdjdhe well rouge collects gems lol

Who takes the longest to get ready: rouge, i mean she has the hair, makeup, and clothes to do while shadow maybe just has to smooth out his quills. unless he happens to be dressing up too for whatever reason, but still rouge would take longer regardless since she’s more interested in her appearance than shadow is with his (i dont see her taking like a super long time tho)

Who is the tidiest and organized: maybe more shadow by just a bit, i think theyd both like to keep things organized tho

Who gets most excited about the holidays: definitely rouge, shadow just isnt really a festive person lol

Who is the big spoon/little spoon: i think theyd often switch, maybe rouge is more often the big spoon ? its a good position to give him little ear smooches and she can also wrap him up in her wings :3 his quills might be hard to deal with normally but i tend to draw them super poofy so she probably can easily just use them as pillows lol

Who gets most competitive when playing games and/or sports: they both get super competitive but shadow definitely more so

Who starts the most arguments: umm maybe shadow ? it might kinda source sometimes from him misunderstanding certain things or something, misreading what something means, or like taking things too seriously

What are their nicknames for each other: rouge calls him shad/shads sometimes, other times she’ll probably use stuff like handsome, cutie, sweetie, hun, etc. shadow doesnt really use nicknames much but if theyre alone he might occasionally call her something he knows just kills her- liiike whispering “good morning, my love” in her ear while theyre cuddling and just waking up in the morning :3

Who suggests that they buy a pet: neither, i see it more like shadow just comes back one day from babysitting cream with a chao egg and hes just like “im sorry she offered it to me i couldnt just say no” gdisgf they both (and omega too) end up loving the little guy to pieces tho. ofc it becomes a shadow chao ;p and with bat-like wingss

What couple traditions they have: ummm idk maybe just like traveling a lot ? bc back on the ark shadow always wanted to experience what the world was like and im sure he still has that curiosity to check out everything (and im sure rouge would find it incredibly fun to go out traveling the world too)

What tv shows they watch together: tbh i barely watch tv anymore itd be like impossible for me to match any shows with them lmao. shadow probably just watches whatever rouge watches (thas how shadow got into anime fjdhifhd)

Another couple they hang out with: i mean probably none, shadow doesnt like to hang with people much besides his team lol

How they spend time together as a couple: i suppose if theyre not working or on an adventure saving the world or whatever theyre probably either hanging out at home or at someplace that’s not crowded, rouge is probably often times showing shadow things hes never seen before or never experienced in person since all he knows is whatever was on the ark 50 years ago (also thered be lots of cuddling and smooches going on too :3 less so in public bc shadow doesnt like bein all mushy with others around but rouge would still be doing a bunch of stuff to get him to blush)

Who made the first move: i can imagine several ways this going down but one way i see is its just rouge making all the moves all the way lol. like shadow notices these feelings he has for rouge but he doesnt really understand them and isnt sure how to handle them, so he just becomes an extremely blushy dork whenever she’s flirting, trying to act unfazed but its so clear that he likes her- and of course rouge would notice this. so what does she do? flirt with him even more lmao, she just keeps it up and keeps being more flirtatious with him until one day she actually kisses him and that sorta just kicks off their relationship officially

Who brings flowers home: S H A D O W fihdihf i took that thing from lego dimensions and fuckin ran with it lmao. shadow loves flowers fight me. he makes rouge flower crowns

Who is the best cook: rouge by a landslide fhdihfih shadow can make…. hot pockets lmao. things he make typically either: 1. taste awful/comes out completely ruined or 2. is some weird combination that somehow tastes good to him

Who snores: uhh idk, i dont really see either snoring tbh

god uhhhhh i spent way too much time on this than i should’ve lmaooo. anyways thanks for the ask !!! it was fun to answer :3

#shadouge #shadow the hedgehog #rouge the bat #hhhooooooooooo i love these two so mucchhhhhhhhhhhhhh #just. hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

[kazualbrekkuparchive]

omg ship meme for whoeverrr

{ super long ship meme }

“whoever” lmaooo nice ruby, ANYWAY

CHARLIE & HOLLY 

who would be the one to randomly adopt a puppy without consultationwow holly!! she’s also a veterinary student SO 

who’s the first to wake up in the morningholly tbh good luck getting charlie to wake up honestly 

who would suggest a quickie in the morning before worklol CHARLIE

who distracts the other from trying to work at homealso charlie omg, holly can forget abt studying

who stays up until 2 readinghollyyy

who stares at their partner while they’re sleepingwow, they’re so extra both of them

who asks to go get ice cream like a five year oldomg i feel like holly would! 

who would force the other to take aesthetic pictures of themumm i feel like holly would be the gf who takes nice candids without charlie ever asking and then charlie catches her she either sticks out her tongue and makes a silly face or go full on #SexySmize there’s no in between

who would do stuff they think is stupid just to make the other one happyboth of them!! they wouldnt even think its stupid!! i cant believe these girls!

who picks out the horror movies to watch just so the other will cling to themwow, charlieee 

who is constantly studying and who is constantly trying to distract themif holly think she can study around her she’s WRONG

who initiates the facetime calls whenever they’re separatedhollyy?? charlie would too unless she’s feeling particularly bitter that day over chris

who is more likely to storm out after a fight and who is more likely to cry when they docharlie would def… storm out damn 

who stays up way too late binge-watching their favorite showscharlie!! she makes holly watch her trash tv too cos they cant miss an episode of antm ok

who bites the other’s ear when they’re feeling friskycharlieee

who sprays the other with water when they’re washing the cari feel like holly would??

who has more fun decorating the house during holidaysholly def would, charlie just has more fun with holidays cos she’s around

who is more likely to give the silent treatment when they’re mad at the otheri dont think either of them would tbh but charlie would def be more passive aggressive 

who plays with the others’ hair moreholllyyy

who is more likely to climb all over the other one when they’re boredcharlie jkdjkd

who tries to kiss the other as often as they canwow both of them! they want all the kisses please

who pouts when the other one tells them to shut the fuck upi dont think holly would tell her to shut up but like in a nicer way and charlie would still pout

who initiates the sex and who walks away when the other is riled upi wanna say charlie would do smth like that but you gotta be wildin if you think she has the patience so NEITHER

who always forgets the umbrella and who holds it when they actually have onecharlie would forget all the damn time and holly probs hold it tbh

who demands showering first in the morningsholly can since shes the one up first probs

who sneaks into the shower with the other one in the morningsumm charlie! 

who prefers riding the roller coasters and who prefers playing the gamescharlie for rollercoasters and holly might like games?? she’s going to try and get holly to ride the coasters tho! 

who will text the other one thirty times in a row until they respondboth of them i feel?? like especially holly when charlie’s at a night out or whatever

who always forgets to charge their phone overnightcharlie!!

who comes up behind the other and slide their hands into their back pocketscharlie would i think??

who tries to get hugs from the other as often as they canwow Big Mood for both of them!! charlie loves her hugs sfm omg

who is louder and who constantly has the tell the other to be quietcharlie is louder but idt holly could tell her to be quiet all the time holly knows she lowkey messy

ASH & VAN

who would be the one to randomly adopt a puppy without consultationwell neither of them can tbh

who’s the first to wake up in the morningi think it depends? like they probably wake up at the same time cos whoever does wakes the other up and sometimes theyve been driving the whole night so they sleep in for a lil and then others they gotta be out of there at like sunrise

who would suggest a quickie in the morning before worklmao work but if u mean a quickie in morning before they head out then both

who distracts the other from trying to work at homework!! sure!! both of them are forever distracting each other they need #attention

who stays up until 2 readingneither?? lmAO they stay up doing other things

who stares at their partner while they’re sleepingwow affection ummm ash would tbh

who asks to go get ice cream like a five year oldvan!! and then spends forever trying to decide on a flavor and ash is like baaabe

who would force the other to take aesthetic pictures of themi feel like van would tbh

who would do stuff they think is stupid just to make the other one happyumm ash!!

who picks out the horror movies to watch just so the other will cling to themkjsdkd ash might do that tbh just to see if they scare her

who is constantly studying and who is constantly trying to distract themstudy PLS but if they did like an au or whatever neither of them would study and both of them would distract each other

who initiates the facetime calls whenever they’re separatedi dont think this really applies since theyre on the run and all and dont even have proper phone but if it did in an au or whatever i can see both of them being all petty like “i did it the last time so THEY SOULD DO IT THIS TIME”

who is more likely to storm out after a fight and who is more likely to cry when they dowow both of them are equally likely to storm out? neither cry? they just destroy stuff then fuck and make up

who stays up way too late binge-watching their favorite shows…not to be nsfw but tbh if by favorite shows u mean watching porn together…

who bites the other’s ear when they’re feeling friskyumm both!!

who sprays the other with water when they’re washing the carthey dont have time to wash whatever car theyre in at the time kdfjkdf

who has more fun decorating the house during holidayslol what holidays but ahhh idk hmm

who is more likely to give the silent treatment when they’re mad at the otherneither

who plays with the others’ hair moreash! van too tbh!

who is more likely to climb all over the other one when they’re boreddef both!

who tries to kiss the other as often as they canashhh

who pouts when the other one tells them to shut the fuck upthey both tell each other to shut the fuck up and neither of them do

who initiates the sex and who walks away when the other is riled upi can def see van doing this damn :/

who always forgets the umbrella and who holds it when they actually have onethey dont have an umbrelllaaa lmao

who demands showering first in the morningsboth of them! then they fight! then they shower together!

who sneaks into the shower with the other one in the morningsboth would tho

who prefers riding the roller coasters and who prefers playing the gamesrollercoasters for bothhh tbh

who will text the other one thirty times in a row until they respondvan! ash too probs

who always forgets to charge their phone overnightboth of them probably lmaoo

who comes up behind the other and slide their hands into their back pocketsvannn

who tries to get hugs from the other as often as they cani think theyre more ‘jumping each others bones’ than the hugging kind tbh

who is louder and who constantly has the tell the other to be quieti mean theyre both v loud together

MATTHIAS & AUDREY

who would be the one to randomly adopt a puppy without consultationaudreyyyy af

who’s the first to wake up in the morningdef matthias!!

who would suggest a quickie in the morning before workmatthias… but audrey too if she’s up lmao

who distracts the other from trying to work at homedkfjkkjdf we both know its audrey

who stays up until 2 readingboth of them! together! so domestic! 

who stares at their partner while they’re sleepingmatthias… i hate him

who asks to go get ice cream like a five year oldaudrey omgg

who would force the other to take aesthetic pictures of themaudrey 100% im cryin

who would do stuff they think is stupid just to make the other one happymatthias would but so would sheee

who picks out the horror movies to watch just so the other will cling to themlmaooo maybe matthias but if audrey doesnt like the movie you know shes shutting it down and theyre watching something she wants

who is constantly studying and who is constantly trying to distract themneither are in school anymore but audrey 100% in our college au FUCK

who initiates the facetime calls whenever they’re separatedaudrey??

who is more likely to storm out after a fight and who is more likely to cry when they doaudrey would storm off but idt matthias has cried… yet

who stays up way too late binge-watching their favorite showshmm maybe her

who bites the other’s ear when they’re feeling friskywow both of them are frisky af!

who sprays the other with water when they’re washing the carif they ever did audrey would

who has more fun decorating the house during holidaysalso audrey i feel like cos she’s so #aesthetic

who is more likely to give the silent treatment when they’re mad at the othermatthias as hell!

who plays with the others’ hair morematthiasss!

who is more likely to climb all over the other one when they’re boredlmaoo audrey!

who tries to kiss the other as often as they canwhen theyre together both of the rip

who pouts when the other one tells them to shut the fuck uphe would say it more… nicely but audrey pouts

who initiates the sex and who walks away when the other is riled upkdfjdfkjkj umm that gifset when he gets that call??? matthias af lmaoo

who always forgets the umbrella and who holds it when they actually have onematthias holds it, i think they’d both remember tho

who demands showering first in the morningsif she’s up, audrey would

who sneaks into the shower with the other one in the morningsaudrey? matthias too tbh! 

who prefers riding the roller coasters and who prefers playing the gamescollege au where matthias wins her cute gifts and she forces him to ride the rollecoasters

who will text the other one thirty times in a row until they respondi feel like audrey might??

who always forgets to charge their phone overnightummm also audrey maybeee

who comes up behind the other and slide their hands into their back pocketsboth of them!

who tries to get hugs from the other as often as they canaudreyyyyy, matthias love it tho

who is louder and who constantly has the tell the other to be quietwow audrey is louder and matthias does constantly have to tell her to be quiet

KATYA & MAXINE

who would be the one to randomly adopt a puppy without consultationi feel like max might omg?

who’s the first to wake up in the morninglol they both sleep in probs

who would suggest a quickie in the morning before workummm both of them!

who distracts the other from trying to work at homelol kat would tbh

who stays up until 2 readingneither? i dont thin

who stares at their partner while they’re sleepingmax maybeee?

who asks to go get ice cream like a five year oldomg max!

who would force the other to take aesthetic pictures of themkat probs would tbh

who would do stuff they think is stupid just to make the other one happyboth of them would!

who picks out the horror movies to watch just so the other will cling to them…max plEASE

who is constantly studying and who is constantly trying to distract themwell they arent studying but max is still trying to distract her

who initiates the facetime calls whenever they’re separatedahhh kat cos max is #busy on tour

who is more likely to storm out after a fight and who is more likely to cry when they dokat would def storm out

who stays up way too late binge-watching their favorite showsi feel like this is max?

who bites the other’s ear when they’re feeling friskylmaooo kat!

who sprays the other with water when they’re washing the carmaxxx

who has more fun decorating the house during holidaysprobably also max tbh

who is more likely to give the silent treatment when they’re mad at the otherneither of them??

who plays with the others’ hair moremax!

who is more likely to climb all over the other one when they’re boredboth of them damn but also max tho

who tries to kiss the other as often as they canhmm max maybe??

who pouts when the other one tells them to shut the fuck upjkjkcjdks kat loves listening to max so much so maybe shes the one pouting

who initiates the sex and who walks away when the other is riled upplease they dont have the patience

who always forgets the umbrella and who holds it when they actually have oneummm i feel like theyd both forget and enjoy the rain tbh

who demands showering first in the morningskatt and max would let her tbh

who sneaks into the shower with the other one in the morningsprobs both of themmm

who prefers riding the roller coasters and who prefers playing the gamesboth of them like roller coasters?

who will text the other one thirty times in a row until they respondi feel like max would?

who always forgets to charge their phone overnightlol max and its a problem cos she has to travel

who comes up behind the other and slide their hands into their back pocketsmax!!

who tries to get hugs from the other as often as they cankaaatttt maybe

who is louder and who constantly has the tell the other to be quiettheyre both loud i think? kat might be a lil louder?

ARIES & FELIX

who would be the one to randomly adopt a puppy without consultationwow aries might tbh!

who’s the first to wake up in the morningfelix if he has a flight or smth but aries otherwise cos he’d let him sleep in

who would suggest a quickie in the morning before workaries!!

who distracts the other from trying to work at homeneither of them really work from home but… BOTH

who stays up until 2 readinghmm aries maybe?

who stares at their partner while they’re sleepingdamn :/ aries might cos he’s scared of Feelings

who asks to go get ice cream like a five year oldwow they cant go outside and be pictured together lmaooo but maybe aries

who would force the other to take aesthetic pictures of themlfjldjf please felix is a model! every picture if aesthetic af! aries would love taking them too! 

who would do stuff they think is stupid just to make the other one happy… both of them probs and never admit it

who picks out the horror movies to watch just so the other will cling to themariesss might he needs an excuse to cling apart from sex tbh

who is constantly studying and who is constantly trying to distract themstudy pls… but both of them are super distracting ://

who initiates the facetime calls whenever they’re separatedfelix maybe?

who is more likely to storm out after a fight and who is more likely to cry when they doummm i feel like the both might storm out?

who stays up way too late binge-watching their favorite showsumm both maybe? they watch them together in bed cos theyre too far behind and both of them need to catch uo

who bites the other’s ear when they’re feeling friskyIDHFKHK both!

who sprays the other with water when they’re washing the carfelixxx

who has more fun decorating the house during holidayshmmm they probable cant stand holidays with their families lmaooo but maybe felix when theyre with each other?

who is more likely to give the silent treatment when they’re mad at the otheraries would be… terrible at giving him silent treatment so maybe felix

who plays with the others’ hair moreahhh def aries, felix’s hair is so fluffy he loves

who is more likely to climb all over the other one when they’re boredwow both of them!

who tries to kiss the other as often as they canummm both of them but they try not be obvious about it

who pouts when the other one tells them to shut the fuck uplmao both of them would probably tell each other and both of them would pout

who initiates the sex and who walks away when the other is riled upjdfjksd omg hc felix has to go because of a shoot or whatever and aries is all like ???FUCK??? but then he has to get back at him ://

who always forgets the umbrella and who holds it when they actually have onewow both of them would forget but its ok cos they have other people to hold it for them

who demands showering first in the morningsfelix probs

who sneaks into the shower with the other one in the morningsboth of them have zero qualms abt it

who prefers riding the roller coasters and who prefers playing the gamesthey’d both go for the roller coasters probably but hc that one of them wins the other something and they internally melt cos they might get expensive gifts but this one is PERSONAL

who will text the other one thirty times in a row until they respondfelix maybe aries tries hard to maintain his #chill aesthetic

who always forgets to charge their phone overnightfelix! 

who comes up behind the other and slide their hands into their back pocketsariess probably

who tries to get hugs from the other as often as they can…aries like damn those abs tho sos

who is louder and who constantly has the tell the other to be quietummm both of them are loud and neither tell each other to be quiet

#eizawrites #meme: answered #m: ash kline #m: aries esparza #m: charlotte wilson #m: matthias hawthorne #m: katya rollins #otp: all i need in this life of sin #otp: aries x felix #otp: my favourite what if #otp: you were all i wanted but not like this #otp: your love is my drug

[viperssvenom]

Slept over baby boy’s Friday and Saturday. I wasn’t supposed to sleep over but I got to and I’m so happy I did. Friday night we watched some basketball, cuddled, and talked about my blog. I also let him go through my notes and bby boy found the note with all of my dreams and he saw the 4/19/17 one. We talked about it for a while, and then he said I love you first. I almost actually cried lmao. he said it again when we were kissing and said how good it felt to say it, and I agreed, I love you so much baby boy. He also told how he knew he loved me from the day we went to Bella and when he walked me home and I called him to make sure he was okay. After talking about that, I showed him some of my blog. I told him up to the picture of us and he went like two posts past that lmaoooo. AHHH he also read my notes for him, w/ the list of why he’s the bestest and he read what I wrote about him “settling” and he told me he wasnt just “setting” for me. He told me that even if he was, he wouldn’t want to be with anyone else anyways. I don’t remember much of what else happened, but I think we just went to sleep after that. I love sleeping next to baby boy so much 😭. I love that whenever we sleep together we have to hold hands, not just one, but both hands lmao. I also love waking up next to him, it feels so nice lol. But when we woke up, the first thing we did was watch get out. The movie wasn’t as good as it was hyped up to be, and it was a lot funnier than it was scary, but it’s categorized as horror??!? but then, we watched Star Wars: ep VII with Philip, and it was a pretty good movie. Finally met bb-8 tho, he’s (??) so cute lmao. But we fell asleep during the middle of the movie :) I was out like a light lmaoo. But when I woke up we finished watching Star Wars, then we went to get Wendy’s and I swear it wasn’t raining when we were walking to Wendy’s, but it definitely was raining when we were walking back. lmao, ray if you’re reading this, I’m not taking that back! Love you thooo. We went outside for a while after he got Philip into bed. I could tell he was upset, so I just hugged him and let him talk when he was ready. I’m not going to lie, it was hard for me to listen to him because I wanted/ want to help and i didn’t know how to. For now, the most I can do is keep baby boy calm when I can, and talk to Philip and check up on him when I can. Saturday night, we went to sleep very late again lmao. baby boy gave me space to do my homework, so I worked on that until like 1 am. After that, baby boy suggested to practice dancing, and I refused bc I cannot dance lmaoo, so then he asked me what I wanted to do and I suggested a scary movie, but he didn’t want to watch one 😭😭 but then I remembered he said we would watch a Jenna marbles’ video, so thats what we did. He still didn’t laugh as much, smh. but after that, he also still didn’t want to watch a scary movie, so I asked him what he wanted to do and he said go through his tag 😭😭 but I let him anyways lmao. I told him not to comment on anything, and he did anyways lmao. basically he said he felt the same for most of what I wrote. and idk, it just feels nice to have finally shown him, but at the same time very embarrassing lmao. After he read everything, he went through his tag again and commented on stuff esp parts where I talked down on myself. But before that, I’m pretty sure we talked about him overthinking, and how he worries that maybe we’re just getting along because he’s my first and that he’s afraid someone might come along and do it better. But, I just want him to know that I love him so much for reasons I can’t explain. I just love him for him, maybe one day I will be able to explain it though, because I want him to know why I do. and there is no one on this earth that I would rather be with, spend my weekends with, walk around town for closed ice cream shops, FaceTime late at night, and sleep next to. After talking about his insecurities, we talked about mine, most importantly my stomach. He told me my body is beautiful, and I know he thinks that and wants me to remember that, and I will remember that, but I want to be able to accept my body without needing other people’s opinions about it and needing other people to compliment me for me to feel good about myself. Bc I was sitting facing him, he laid me down and pulled my shirt up to show me that my stomach was literally nothing, I still don’t feel like it’s nothing, but I have been feeling better about it since. Also, he had his hand on my stomach when he said it, and it felt nice. I love whenever he puts his hands on my stomach or my back, it just feels really nice lmaoo. but then after that we both agreed not to talk about poopy stuff anymore so he suggested dancing again and I told him I would dance if it was on the couch, so we danced while sitting on the couch lmaooo. he let me play my music so I played some songs off of digital druglord, ballerina by belly, some of his songs of choice, and then cherry hill by russ 👀😜 LMAO. towards the end of the song we started to kiss and then it got pretty intense (in a good way). he felt my boobs and kept asking me if it was okay and I told him yes everytime, but he was still nervous lmao. At first it did feel weird bc it was new for the both of us lmaooo. but after a while I got used to it and it felt nice, mostly bc I love having his hands on me. he told me like twice to move my hands lmaoooooo, I didnt want to move them because I didnt want to let go of him lmao. but he laid me down a few times and each time he did, I could feel how fast his heart was beating, I was going to point it out but I didnt because I didnt want to ruin the moment, plus I love listening to his heart beat, esp when we’re just chilling. But anywayss, yeah so we were getting pretty into it and at one point he lifted up my shirt and asked me if it was okay, I said yes and then he proceeded to kiss my boobs lol, it was nice but also awkward, so we just laughed it out lmao. but thats basically what we did for like 45 minutes lmaoo. During that time though, he also kept asking me how far and I didnt know what to say, and I still dont lmao, but he said that sex was not an option and honestly I am relieved he clarified that lmao. But after that, I sat on his lap again and then we talked about how we might not get that kind of chance again because its going to be harder to slip away and sleep over his house once ate is outtie :(. But then we went to sleep, and all I can remember is laying on top of him and then falling asleep like that and then sometime in between that switching back to our normal position lmao. Last night when we were talking about consent and everything, he told me how he wanted to be transparent about everything between us, and I appreciate it so much. like he’s not afraid to talk about anything with me, and I wish it was as easy for me to talk to him about things as it is for him to talk to me. Also bby boy said how he thinks there’s nothing to be embarrassed about, regarding his tag, but uhhh it’s pretty corny sooo yaah also, he commented on the post where I said he is out of my league and told me it was the other way around, but false because he’s too lovely  he also said how he’s considered dating me even before Matt’s party, but like I can’t imagine why before Matt’s party bc I don’t think id ever really spent time with him before then

On Sunday morning though, I woke up to him holding my face and also felt him trying to hold my hands. I also love when he does that because I love knowing he’s there even if I am already laying down next to him. he asked me what the best part of waking up was and I said I don’t know and he said waking up next to me 😭😭😭 I don’t remember what else happened but I remember him asking to send himself some posts so I let him and he said that he’d consider starting to write stuff too. When he was going through my blog, he saw the post about the phone call from when we went to the diner, and he said how he did say “love you” 😭😭 ALSO HE COMMENTED ON THE POST WHERE I SAID HIS VOICE IS SEXY LMAOO and then teased me about the abs post, boy I should have never posted it lmaooo. but then we chilled for a little bit, and watched one punch man, and I got hungry before we were supposed to leave so I asked to eat and we made lo mein, and ah the asian jokes will never get old lmaoo. but we ate and watched some more Star Wars. while we were eating though I saw him picking at his thumb and I saw how bad it was (the worst I have seen it yet) and I got worried and tried to get him to stop but he said he does it whenever he’s stressed, so I left him to it for a little bit, but then he kept picking at it more and I got upset and tried not to stress but got really sad when he said it was time to go home, I don’t know why but those words just triggered something to make me really sad, not about going home but more of leaving baby boy. he pulled me into the kitchen and I couldn’t pull myself to tell him what was on my mind. I told him we should start going, but he said he wasn’t moving until I told him so we just stood there in each other’s arms for a while. and I tried to go into the living room again, but he sat down and pulled me to him so we just stayed there for a while again. But I still couldn’t tell him, so I went into the living room and I got my stuff ready and put the dishes in the sink and walked over to baby boy again. He got up tho bc I tried to walk away again and told him that it was nothing, but then he told me that I was killing him by not telling him and that hurt me a little so I hugged him and he let me write out what was bothering me, which was his thumb and how it just felt like a minor form of self harm to me. But he told me that it was nothing to worry about and how its been like that since he could remember, but it still worries me. after we got that over with though, we starting walking to my house. I still think my way is faster but imma let bby boy rock lmaoo. but we got to mcquillan and I still didnt want to leave him but he’s going to be outtie at the end of this week and I will get to see him on Friday so I feel a little better about that. but that was my weekend, pretty much a rollercoaster of everything lmao. 

oo also, he also pointed out how I called him baby boy on my posts even before we established it lmaoooo oops also there was a point before we talked about our insecurities where we talked about uuuuhhhhhhhhhh (forgotti what I was going to say) oo, but we do pretty much have our handshake down tho, its litttyy also going through his phone was really nice. to see that he saves legit every picture he takes of me/ we take together lmao he said he could tell I was dreaming, but honestly I can’t remember lmaooo walked me home, when I got home, I jumped into bed and hugged my body pillow. closed my eyes for a few and thought I was still at baby boys :/ he also plays with my earrings, I don’t know why or how but it makes me happy lmao Also I love looking into his eyes just bc their beautiful lmao ahhhh we also talked about college difficulties, like how its going to be a lot harder to see each other but he said we would figure it out and said he’d even take the train for me :// also every time I say “ow” he apologizes even tho like he knows he only “hit” me lightly, idk why but I think its funny lmao he’s only “thi” lmaooo also baby boy wrote his own <3 lol i shall go into further detail in other post, maybeee….  baby boy also made sure that we didnt go to sleep without saying I love you to each other <3 after crying about myself baby boy kissed me and I told him how he had just kissed snot and idk it was just really cute because he would literally do anything/ risk anything just to kiss me when he can lmao also there was a point when ray walked downstairs shirtless and I looked up and it was awkward bc he just goes “hey” and was like “hi” but in my head I was going “asdfghjjk oooo dsddyy ???!!!!!!! 👀👀” LMFAOOO Im going to get teased about this too when he reads this 😭 baby boy also pointed out the old spice post lmfaooo. And then he also pointed out the “you feel like home” post and when we were hugging, he said “this is home” 😢😢😢😢😢 after we told each other I love you, baby boy was like if I had known this all along I would have checked your phone a long time ago 😭

I love you so so much baby boy

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