#idk what the hell i'm doing tbh

[tei-to-tei]

December 5 - Solidarity

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#rottmnt #rise fanart #rise of the tmnt #rise leo #rise donnie #disaster twins #in reference to the dec4 early snack post: #yeeeah they were not napping in the living room *sigh* #really rushed im sorry today is horrible - i might redo this one someday (they got paint everywhere except on the paper shh) #this might be the last “turtle tots” one #idk what the hell i'm doing tbh #i can't believe i've doodled stuff 5 days in a row #daily challenges are so hard #really hoping i can keep it up just for my own sake <3 #teidoodle #tei's dec23

[labetalol]

this scene in s1e3 when the team realizes dale is the most babygirl in the entire county

#cannot tell me they all aren't a little in love with coop. wym i'm projecting #anyway <3 yes i'm insane. i really genuineyl thought peaks'd be more popular on tumblr. where is my unhinged fanart and insanity #wuntrum doing the lords work <- love their peaks art #ok. tag time #dale cooper #<-implied #lucy moran #harry truman #andy brennan #deputy hawk #WHAT IS HISFULL NAME !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #twin peaks #my art #how soon is too soon for re-watching the show. i did this instead of preparing for my osce 2mo yayyyyyyyy #i do love that scene. the way everyone leans in in their chair swuinting eyes like what the hell is he gonna do... #how he maintains such an air of professionalism despite literally talking about dream worlds + throwing bottles as a means to #determine who is guilty. bonking andy on the head... oh andy the bestie andy andy andy #i miss them... dream blunt rotation tbh . idk obviously fuck cops etc. but they are just some guys... #like small town cops idk. fwwm's sheriff & deputies sucked MAJORLY so like. we know it's literally just trumans dept like just them #they are the only good cops ever... sigh. girl help i'm getting emotionally attached to a tv show that aired before i was born

[francy-sketches]

aegon is brokenstar coded (child fighting enjoyer) and joffrey is breezepelt coded do you think if they were warriorcats aegon would be joffrey's evil dark forest mentor

#.txt #would joffrey train in the dark forest tho I'm not sure. doesnt really seem like the type tbh #you know who would train in the dark forest. euron 100%. sorry I mean croweye #btw semi related but in warriocat au sandor is joffrey's kind of evil mentor who makes him beat the shit out of other apprentices #and the other warriors are like knock it off dude what the hell. and he goes on a rant about how they're raising a generation of kittypets #I mean this happened in canon basically lol #joffrey would be sooooo annoying as an apprentice btw hed be like im stormstar's son you have to do what I say :3 #and sandor (houndclaw) would be like that's not how it works dipshit I hate my job #stormstar is robert's leader name ofc. not sure what his warrior name would be but I like storm as a prefix #also bc dany is stormflight and I think it's kinda funny for them to have the same prefix. robert's like no doubles kill that baby right no #renly is stagleap stannis is something lame like blackfur idk #I know stagleap is a canon name stfu it's cool and it fits renly

[byanyan]

some days i'm just laughing over how ridiculously extensive byan's criminal record actually is

#tbf manslaughter isn't actually on their record bc it's only happened once and they got away with it but #everything else? it's on there. #they probs have a couple charges as an accomplice to various crimes as well tbh #idk I was rereading some old stuff last night and I've been thinking about their record ever since #one thing I definitely need to do is sort out like. what sorts of punishments they've actually been faced with #that'll require some research tho so I haven't gotten there yet lmao #anyway hiiii I'm in executive dysfunction hell today so I'm kinda just. existing 🙃 #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don’t @ me.

[coridallasmultipass]

Felt cute, might deteriorate later. [He/Him]

#feels like im in hell um #shibuya to belgium #anyway did my eyebrows perfectly but its night and ill prob sleep em off so ugh #im so tired bro i went thru my arm workout THREE times today bc of stress and anxiety #not to mention body dysphoria on top of the health concerns im trying to not think about anything rn so selfie time #OBLIGATORY: 'DISCLAIMER: i'M HI (HIGH)' TAG #but tbh not enough im still hurting with stress #could fuckin go for another round but i rly gotta try n sleep bc i get to cry abt all this in therapy tmr yaaaaay #fuckin hate that i cant treat endo lmao its like living in a cage w a tiger and not knowing when its gonna attack or give a love bite #anyway not to be a crybaby but yeah im not okay and dont know how im expected to go on lol #thought i looked good in my red light but ended up w a good orange light pic #wish i could show off my arms but its not impressive. mostly just feels nice to be like... solid lol #wish i could afford a gym #so my face will have to do for now hope i dont regret posting selfies at almost midnight lol #me #selfie #Cori.exe #Image.exe #ignore my chapped lips pls my dermatillomania has been rampant for the past like 2 days lmao i never stood a chance #hhhhh idk what to tag beyond this fence sitting whether to post or not so im just gon post and then go sleep hffff

[apricote]

i'm pretty sure it's not smart of me to absorb the tadpoles like they're breadsticks or some shit but i just wanna see what will happen okay

#kinda growing suspicous of the dream visitor ngl #what does he want from me 🫵 #is he evil is he good??? idk what to think #anyway just did the house of healing holy shit that was awesome #like super fucking creepy and scary as hell but that was so cool #anyway woke up the dude with the lute and now ive killed halsin for like three times trying to break the curse :) #idk if i'm supposed to break the curse first and then go to the moonlight towers or do it afterwards?? #i rly want to have halsin as a companion :( #but it's hard!!! #i'm so bad at this game #anyway i'm pretty sure im going to regret using the tadpole's powers at some point #i don't think it's a very rowena thing to do to use them tbh but somehow didn't think of that earlier lmao #i feel like she would just want it out but too late now!! #just watch me get the bad ending lol #💬

[deetherusalka]

Not seeing the person I broke up with and just cutting all contact is one thing but loosing the whole friend group and loosing all contact in school cuz I don't have classes anymore and others either graduating or leaving uni and just being almost alone with my thesis is really sending me into downward spiral

#život #i miss people to hang out with regularly so much tbh #like it got me fucked up #break up all peaches living my life but suddenly going to almost 0 social life is circle of hell #if my bestie haven't moved in with me and my boyfriend wasn't there idk what I would do #that's last two standing #what will I do in Brussels for two months? #god knows lmao #and no I would not go back #this needed to happen and the things needed to break #it's gonna get better I just need to be patient #but I'm sad about it that's just how it is #i want to go raving in Saturday and I wish I had friend group to text to and go with

[casiavium]

I opened my computer to buy something I didn't need and ended up organizing my files and writing a resume and applying for a job and starting a cover letter and CV for another. This is usually not at all what happens

#and I still haven't bought the thing which tbh I do kind of need now that I think about it but what the hell is going on #I have two more jobs I'm applying for that would give me relevant experience before I open up the starbucks application 😔 #it's within walking distance and would be good but like. its starbucks #there's another coffee shop also within walking distance but idk if they're hiring #ideally I'd get one of these remote jobs AND a coffee shop job but probably not

[rattusn0rvegicus]

Bro they really be trying to put four year olds on antipsychotics... crazy shit

#Look I have very mixed and confusing feelings about the fact that I didn't receive any psychiatric treatment at all until I was 19-20 and #didn't get antipsychotics until I was 22-23. But like... #The pendulum can swing way too far in the other direction too #I'm reading Anatomy of an Epidemic and oh I'd love to have a conversation with Robert Whitaker about my case #<- grew up fundie Christian and very extremely anxious and then obsessive compulsive and then psychotic and depressed #(but did not receive any medical care for it whatsoever) #While I think meds would have helped me I also think that the average modern American psychiatrist solution of like #'throw more and more drugs at the problem until they go away and throw drugs at the side effects of those drugs' is. Bad #Idk what I'm saying tbh #I know for a fact my issues (aside from at least part of my emotional numbness) aren't iatrogenic. I was Very Mentally Ill from the start #And while I do consider my utter lack of care as a kid/teen/young adult to be some form of neglect it's like #The alternative (the modern American psychiatric system) was NAWT good either #I don't know a single person who's on meds who doesn't have some sort of complicated relationship with them and all I'm saying #is they shouldn't be treated as a magic bullet #Hell *I* have very complicated feelings about my meds and I haven't really been *harmed* by them just... Chilled Out Too Much #ANYWAYS #This book is kind of shitty towards ppl on SSDI (kind of implying that they're a Burden To The Country) which is gross #but otherwise I'm enjoying it

[eskawrites]

what would flayed!nancy look like?? 🤔

wild, unhinged, enraged, cheeks smudged with dirt and blood and hands constantly itching for a gun--Vecna wants to point it at the others, she wants to point it at herself

....but to be completely honest, i don't really think flayed!nancy could work. it ties into my theory that nancy is one of the characters least likely to die in s5. they need her too much. if nancy dies i'm not sure the group will be able to win, y'know? she's always been in the heart of the fight, and while she was doing her own thing in s1 and s2, she's the clear leader in s3 and especially s4. she's arguably the most powerful character that doesn't have superpowers--the only other contender is hopper, who almost always has more resources at his disposal than nancy.

anyway the point is that, despite what the antis think, nancy is fundamental to the group's chances of success. not only is she insanely smart, ruthlessly determined, and good with any weapon you put in her hands, but she's also a central (albeit unappreciated) pillar to the group. she's mike's sister. the boys have all known her forever. el at least lowkey admires her and max clearly trusts her and thinks to turn to her in a crisis. steve and jonathan have feelings for her. she and robin are friends, as in, officially. she's even one of hopper's earliest partners, the one he trusts to toss a gun to, and she was murray's tie into the truth of what was happening. if nancy is compromised, everyone is devastated, and personally i don't think it's something they can recover from

basically tl;dr unless it's a last minute sacrifice play (which is honestly more likely to happen to el or steve imo) i don't think you can take nancy out of the picture and still have the group realistically win

#this is NOT what you asked for anon i'm sorry #tbh flayed!nancy would be fascinating and devastating af and i'd read the hell out of it #but i cannot actually fathom it happening lmao #i mean...who in the world would hit nancy with a white hot firepoker???? #not the kids obvi. steve would never. jonathan couldn't do it to will he wouldn't be able to for nancy either #as much as i'd like to think robin would idk.... #maybe hopper lmao give mike another reason to hate him #actually i lied mike would probably do it but that'd be so lackluster #okay i'm done now #asks #anon #flayed!nancy

[rubberbandballqueen]

since i just rb'd a poll abt high school grades now's probably a good time to drop one of my many million-dollar ideas for how to run a high school classroom, which is that i think that at the start of a quarter/semester kids should be asked if they want hw to count towards their grades or not bc i was So Fucking Bad at submitting hw in high school, but my test scores were really good, so i'd rather have not had hw count towards my grades. but obviously there are a good number of kids who are either bad at taking tests or anxious abt their grades dropping and are diligent abt turning in hw, so letting hw count towards their grades would give them some padding in that situation.

#i really Do need to just maintain a doc of all my ideas for how to run a classroom #bc i've been storing some of these in my brain since i was like 12. that's a fucking decade by this point What the hell #the worm speaks #unfortunately it's probably unfeasible to Not have tests n the like count towards a grade at all #like personally as a student i do not hate testing!! as someone who enjoys gathering data / information i'm kind of obsessed w/it!!! #but i also have very strong opinions on TEST DESIGN as well as curriculum design n stuff #like tests CAN be a useful tool for measuring knowledge! if you design it right. and even then it's like. not perfect #one of my other million dollar ideas is that rather than giving out a final i'd give kids the choice to either do like #a freeform project to demonstrate their knowledge in literally Any Way They Want (foster creativity n stuff) #or! they could also just take a paper exam if they want. idk if anyone would take that option but idk. #mostly i'm just fond of the idea of giving high school students a sense of autonomy over their grades n education #like another reason why i think the 'do you want hw to count to your grades?' question should be re-asked at the start of quarters or w/e #is bc sometimes we also make mistakes! and evaluate consequences wrong. or situations change!! so they should be allowed to change things #how much would hw count for if they made it worth anything is honestly not smth i'm sure abt rn tbh #but i also know that i like. would also not even grade their hw on correctness just on completion anyway #a number of my high school teachers did that; bc the point was that we were responsible for ensuring its correctness #they all knew that kids would copy off each other and if that's how you learn. go for it!! my ap calc teacher openly acknowledged this!!! #anyway good lord i really do have limitless rants n tedtalks abt education in me lmao i need to sleebies now #so i can study for my calc quiz tmrw morning ( •̀ ω •́ )y

[astrxealis]

good morning 🥺

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #sorrey ... not active ..... lots going on but also not (?) #IDK anyways i've reconnected w an old friend who's a childhood friend bcs shes the daughter of my mom's friend ^___^ #she said she's gna get into the 1975 more !! but she's alrdy going to the arctic monkey's concert soon which is super cool #and i rmbr our mom asked me and lune if we knew them too <3 but we didn't know there was a legit concert SOBS #yeah miss her a lot and it's sweet how wnvr we do reconnect a bit it always so happens we're into the same thing of sorts :(( #AND THEN! wow idk i've grown a lil less hesitant. somehow. idk. literally replied to the story on ig of a guy ik but haven't talked to in ag #ages* purely bcs he kept posting like woaaa based game and then ff6 best ff so i was like SO TRUE but have u played 14 #and he has NOT but does want to and then wow we could have had a lil convo but i left to watch a movie sorry bro <//3 #what else ... hmm ..... WELL. an old friend from all the way in 6th grade. okay so we often message each other a bit just like 'hey wna be #grpmates' or smth like that and that one time where they gave me a lil help for the chem grp work and i'm like. just comfy talking like #myself fr BUT THENNN messaged me sometime last week bcs. like smth w a grpwork and they got anxious they did smth wrong #bcs no one in the gc replied to them (sorry i didn't either SOBS) T___T ended up turning the convo to 'hey wt abt i finally try to talk w u #properly more' and HELL YEAHHH we both r the kinds that talk/type a lot but sometimes dip and disappear how lovely /gen LMAO <3 #idk. uhm. with the school fair we have booths and shifts for the booths and my group is the one with uhh the 4 kids who i'm often groups #with and they're all the. yk kids. ppl who i'd get along w and i've been classmates w all of em b4 but you see they're a grp of friends now #RAGHH ONE OF THEM IK LIKES PERSONA (MULTIPLE?? IDK. they once were like yo apollo u seem like u like persona lol #IDK WHAT THAT IS SUPPOSED TO MEAN but yes i do have akechi and ren charms on my backpack for school #AND THEN ONE is into like gi pjsk a lot of rhythm games and gacha mobile but all like uhh. yeah? tot love live bandori ... still cool fr tho #she's rlly nice tbh lol ^___^ wait tbh all of them are HELP but uhm idk but it's nice when ppl r nice to me #tbf that's literally how i got my first crush BUT WE DON'T TALK ABT THAT !! yk sometimes i unconsciously wonder abt her or look for her and #then i did see her again after a few months since seeing her early in on the school year bcs shes in basketball and i hung out at the uhh #covered court w my best friend whos in another varsity bcs we stayed late at school that day to help out w fair preparations! #i refuse to like her again but i realize i like that familiarity with feelings and uhmm yeah shes cool ig i kinda wish i was less. uhm. shy #back then? you see i barely cld talk to her ... LIKE. she'd be like. heyy! and do shit sometimes and i WOULDN'T TALK or just smile and #mumble RAFGHHHFHFHDHH but she'd say hi to me and include me in things and jokes and it made me rlly /@!(@/'dmdkzn okay #AND sometimes when i do talk back I am SOOOO GODDAMN AWKWARD GOOD GODS anyways now i'm like. less awkward. or maybe i've just accepted it n #i'm cooler now B) and a lot more confident zEjfhejdjsnk. yeah. and uhmm yeah that's it #BUT YEAH nice classmate she asked me for a hug once lol and i notice she's affectionate w her friends n it reminds me of m y own bestie awhh #she sometimes talks to me which i rlly appreciate even if it prolly seems like i hate her sorry i just suck w talking

[palesoftangel]

guys... war is over

#NOT that i wanted him to come back #(i definitely did) #i just wanted to know if he ever thought about me #I'm flooded with emotions rn idk if i should accept him back into my life i still miss his company #but at the same time i have feelings for him he probably does too but he doesn't want to act on it #so I'd be dumb as fuck if i just repeated the cycle unrequited love is hell #but i miss him as a friend and i feel kinda selfish for cutting him off #i don't know I haven't been thinking about this tbh #i knew he'd text me again but i didn't think it would be THIS SOON #i don't know what to say #I'm not mad at him but i should be #i don't know what to do or say

[butchdonne]

wildly swinging between 'i am a songwriting genius a natural at production a musical prodigy' and 'omg omg this song sucks so bad wtf am i doing'

#mostly the first one. tbh #but with a dash of 'idk what i'm doing but i sure as hell am doing it well' #that's the pip lifestyle ig #💪💪💪 #pip squeaks #pip shrieks

[puppys-rhythm-heaven]

it's funny to me when people say they dislike frog hop and shrimp shuffle and moai doo-wop and fillbots 2 n shit cuz those are all among my favorite games lksdfjklflksdjfkfsjdkfds-

#puppy rambles #rhythm hell #frog hop #shrimp shuffle #moai doo-wop #fillbots 2 #more specifically moai doo-wop 2 #i've never struggled with the quick taps really cuz on emulator i used touchless #and on actual hardware it's really easy to quick tap using the side of the stylus tip #that's what i do for the sixteenth notes in shoot-'em-up 2 and the fast section in drummer duel too #that's one of the key reasons why ds is easier on actual hardware #i prefer frog hop 2 also for the record. but og frog hop is also v good #frog hop just isn't really that hard for me idk #i'm pretty sure the only time i've ever really struggled with it is when i first played megamix on. overly laggy citra #why is citra so laggy skldfjfskdjflfjdls- #it's better now but oh my god it used to be hell #i literally had to use simple tap because button controls had input lag #more specifically for like. charging chicken and rat race and animal acrobat and shit #it'd release the a-button before i actually released it #which is definitely part of why i'm not too fond of rat race tbh lkfsdjdfksjdfskfsdlf- #that was a problem in tengoku sometimes too tho with rat race so maybe it's more so a keyboard thing #... though no$gba also has input lag so idk #citra's a lot better now. still not perfect tho #now i only use citra to fuck around with amplified brf exploit sdlkfjsfdkjdslfsfd- #once i inevitably mod my 3ds i won't have to do that anymore either slfkdjsdlfkfdlsfjs-

[imagineagreatadventure]

idk i'm still feeling really not great about the work situation that happened this week and really strongly considering looking elsewhere and it's not even entirely that situation's fault

#most of my company is actually pretty great but i'm just.... feeling very restless #going to see if my vacay helps that restlessness feeling but i have a feeling it's more career focused than anything else #like i feel like i'm a snake who needs to shed her skin #idk how else to explain it #and actually my boss was really great about it and so were a few other people (re the work sitch) but i'm just upset still tbh #it just might not be the place for me atm as much as I respect the company and the people i work with #also probably not helping that i'm pmsing atm #but i really have been feeling like this in a broader sense for months #maybe my vacation will help me pause and figure out what the hell i want to do generally