Hopperās talking to her, telling her to breathe, but all Nancy can focus on is Robin, dead, in front of her.
She barely registers when Steve stumbles in. Hopperās moving before she processes it, trying to gently escort him out.
Steveās a mess. Wild-eyed, his face streaked with tears, hair unkept.
āI need to say goodbye,ā Steve begs, fighting against Hopperās steady arms. āI needāI need to tell her I love her and that Iām sorry andāand I need to find the fuckers that did thisāā
Steve knows about her āgiftā. He looks directly at her, a plea on his face.
Nancy thinks of Barb, still and silent in her arms.
āLet him stay,ā she croaks.
āWheelerāā Hopper starts. She shakes her head.
āLet him stay.ā
Hopper relents. Steve scrambles over, faltering when he sees Robin.
Nancy understands. Itās not a pretty sight.
At open-casket funerals, the deceased undergoes hours of careful preparation to make them look presentable. To make sure they look as close to how they did in life as possible.
That is not the case here. Robinās skin is a sickly white, freckles stark in contrast. Ugly purple marks cover her throat and neck. Strangulation, from the looks of it. Nancy doesnāt want to imagine it.
Steve strokes Robinās hair, the gentlest Nancy has ever seen him. Fresh tears have started running down his cheeks.
āSteve,ā she starts, equally gentle, because how can she tell him this? How can she describe the sensation of having your whole world stopped, started, and stopped again?
āI know,ā he says, not taking his eyes off Robin. āIām ready.ā
She wants to say, You can never be ready.
Instead, she nods, and taps one finger to Robinās cheek.
The effect is instant. Robin gasps, eyes flying open, one hand automatically going to her throat.
Steve lets out a sob, pressing his forehead to hers. āIām sorry, Iām sorry, Iām so sorry, I shouldāve been there, Iām sorryāā
āDingus,ā Robin rasps, and sheās crying too. Nancy averts her eyes, a pang in her chest.
Hopper must decide to let them have their moment because nearly five minutes pass before he comes over. He asks Robin questions, the standard procedure, and Robin answers shakily, her hand held in Steveās.
Robin didnāt fully see her attacker. It was a man, that much she knows. Sheād managed to flee the initial attack but heād caught up to her when she tried to lose him in the woods. She thinks he was less prepared because of it, but things are hazy. She remembers being pinned down, hands around her throat, and these cold, terrifying eyes. His face had been covered with only his eyes visible.
Hopper takes notes, frowning. Finally, the questioning comes to an end, Robin out of answers. His head slowly swivels to Nancy.
Steveās still clutching Robin. They both look at her with a sad understanding on their faces.
āIāll find him,ā Steve says quietly, resting his forehead against the top of Robinās head. āIāll find whoever did this and Iāll kill him. Iāll kill him.ā
Robin just smiles sadly. She murmurs something too quiet for Nancy to hear, but she doesnāt miss the devastation that flits across Steveās face.
They look at her expectantly, both clearly trying hard not to cry. Theyāre still holding hands.
Nancy canāt do it.
āWheeler,ā Hopper says, low, a warning.
āI canāt,ā Nancy whispers. She knows what will happen if she lets Robin live. The same thing that happened when she couldnāt let Will die again, when she couldnāt let Eddie die again.
The universe rights its wrongs in its own way. If it canāt have its death, it will take another. When sheād brought Will back and kept him alive, a well-loved local, Benny Hammond, had died. When sheād let Eddie live, Jonathan and Willās stepfather Bob had a heart attack out of nowhere. Thereād been seemingly nothing to cause either death.
If she lets Robin live, someone else will die in her place.
The worst part is that Nancy finds she doesnāt care.
She canāt let Steve lose his best friend the way she lost hers. She canāt let this be the end of Robinās life.
Kind, funny Robin, who has always been so full of life, so loved by everyone around her. Nancyās never gotten the chance to really get to know her, but sheās always wished she had.
āI canāt,ā she repeats, her voice steadier now. āI wonāt. Itās not fair.ā
āLife isnāt fair.ā Hopperās voice is kind. She doesnāt deserve it.
āI wonāt do it. Steveāā
Steve looks stunned, a hopeful expression dawning on his face. Hopper looks at him and sighs.
āI canāt force you. Butā¦ well, on your own head be it.ā He shakes his head. āIām going back to the station. Youāre causing me a lot of paperwork.ā
As he leaves, Steve turns to her. āThank you. Thank you, thank youāā
āAs far as youāre concerned, Robin survived the attack.ā Nancy keeps her voice steady, avoiding eye contact with both of them. āRobinā¦ā
Robinās eyes are on her. Curious, focused, like theyāre studying her. Nancy swallows hard.
āRobin, you should avoid going anywhere alone for a while. If your attacker thinks you could identify him heāll try and finish the job. I wonāt be able to do this twice.ā
Robin gives a short nod. āIāll lay low for a while.ā
Her voice is soft, raspy. Steve, maybe afraid Nancy might suddenly change her mind, thanks her one last time before helping Robin up and ushering her out.
Nancy watches their retreating backs, a heavy weight in her chest.
In the nicest way possible, she hopes she never sees Robin again.
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Nancyās backstory from the TLOU Bill & Frank AU, written for @strangerthingsfemslashweek Day 6: Came Back Wrong
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Stranger Things (TV 2016)
Rating: Mature
Warnings: Major Character Death
Relationships: Barbara āBarbā Holland/Nancy Wheeler, Barbara āBarbā Holland & Nancy Wheeler
Characters: Nancy Wheeler, Barbara āBarbā Holland
Additional Tags: barb dies!, dont read it if you dont want to read barb dying!, comphet, like a lot of nancy comphet tbh, Prequel, Backstory, Canon-Typical Violence, this takes place in my TLOU au but its not really in any way a TLOU au on its own, POV Nancy Wheeler, Nancy Wheeler-centric, the birth of a doomsday prepper
Series: Part 2 of Every Thing That Youāve Done
Summary:
Nancy swallowed hard, and told a secret that didnāt matter anymore to anybody but her. āThere was a girl, once. When I was sixteen. But we didnātā¦ But she died.ā
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Nancyās origin story from My Piece of Land.
Written for Stranger Things Femslash Week Day 6: Came Back Wrong.
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Just read for probably the millionth time the Raise Dead Au and I once again felt the need to tell you how gorgeous that story is and how much I love it. I have reread your stories often bc I love them so much and as much as I adore the celebrity au there is something so painfully beautiful and fulfilling in Raise Dead so that is to me my number 1 always.
You talked about writing more for it maybe in the future and I really hope you will because I would be the happiest person ever.
Exploring the consequences of coming back to life and what happens after that is so interesting to me.
Either way I am gonna enjoy whatever you write tho bc you truly are a gifted writer and nobody manages to capture ronance better than you do in my opinion.
This is the loveliest message to wake up to, thank you friend <3 Also wild because I was just thinking about raise dead the other day and how much that story means to me. Iāve said it before but writing that fic and getting to see so many people respond to it in such a loving way was something that helped me in ways I couldnāt even fully understand or articulate at the time. Itās truly one of the most satisfying experiences Iāve ever had with fandom and with writing in general, and I am still honored and amazed and emotional every time I think about it <3
I do want to write more for it! But I also want to make sure that anything I write for it upholds the meaning and feeling of the original fic, yāknow? There are a lot of plot things and conflicts and changes and stuff that would be fascinating to explore in that universe, many of which I do want to explore! But at the end of the day the raise dead au is a story about grief and love and devotion, and if any other one-shots or additions I write arenāt also about that, then whatās the point?
Itās all very interesting and slightly intimidating to think about, especially with how meaningful that story is to me and, incredibly, to some readers. So for now it sits on the back burner lol but I do want to return to it someday!
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