#idk im just excited to see where things go

[luridaemos]

i know people are tired of versus 13, but i've been thinking about if anything from the trailers will be made relevant to kingdom hearts 4 lately so i want to just dump my thoughts here. also a little bit about the 4 trailer because a certain line is bugging me and i’m going stir crazy waiting for news. like for one "there is nothing either good or bad, but thinking makes it so" was so important that it was in all of the trailers until the direction change and could possibly be mentioned by mom or yozora himself. if maybe "the true figure is still hidden in sleep" is still important with how much sleep still seems to be (sora and yozora sharing dreams but also riku’s dreams and sora’s apparent coma upon arriving in quadratum). strelitzia is the new white-robed figure & it’d be so cool to maybe see a variation of yozora vs strelitzia or even sora vs her:

i kind of feel like maybe the conversation between noct and stella might have been mostly scrapped

i think mainly the parts about a select people being able to continuously see a light in the sky after a near death experience from which they gain power from at the cost of another's life. but the stuff about etro opening the door for the dead and a light shining down could easily become “door to kingdom hearts” related or even related to the meteor shower that happened on destiny islands. maybe worked into the characters we know arriving in quadratum the way kairi arrived on destiny islands.

there’s also the whole “eyes that see the light of expiring souls” and “there are things i just ‘know,’ and i have no idea how.” which i guess could now be yozora being able to go to the final world in his dreams. 

plus an conversation that happens directly after noct talks to stella after their first trailer interaction which boils down to a disembodied voice asking who noct is and him responding that he was going to ask them the same thing. a line added in a later trailer is him saying “goodbye. whoever you are.” which i’m thinking could either be now yozora talking to whoever stole his appearance/whoever told him to “save sora” or completely reworked into his meeting with sora in the final world. i think it’d be super interesting if yozora had spoken to the person who stole his appearance before hand and maybe even become friends before it happened, but i’d honestly be okay if that isn’t the case. it being whoever told him to “save sora” could also lead it to him not knowing who stole his look and that maybe the same person took nameless star’s name.

i’m also wondering if “the heart resides within the soul, which in turn is guided by fate to its rightful place.” and “the choice is yours once more.” form the kh4 trailer is related to yozora saying “if you are who you say, and it was fate that brought us here, then... my path is clear.”

i also wonder if “guided by fate to its rightful place” is more related to yozora or sora, or perhaps everyone who isn’t supposed to be in quadratum and it’s clear that it’s up to sora to decide what to do. sorry if this is all something people have already talked about at length. i just figured i might as well use this tumblr dump my hyperfixation thoughts somewhere.

#kingdom hearts #final fantasy versus xiii #ffv13 #yozora #master of masters #sora #strelitzia #thought dump #idk im just excited to see where things go #i dont really care if 4 doesnt use anything else from v13 #i think the thing that really infected my brain was noct talking to the faceless voice #its not quite yozoras convo with sora but its what i thought of instantly #i also wonder if riku is in a dream version of quadratum #dreams seem to be able to be shared so perhaps dream quadratum crosses over fiction and nonfiction #even though it was said that the realm of dreams is on their side instead of quadratum #i wonder if this means that sora and yozoras meeting happens before sora reaches quadratum #i think thats a whole other line of thought that i gotta drop for now lol

[lavenderjewels]

you fascinate me

#sukuna #jjk spoilers #I’m not smart enough to talk about this but 1) love a little symbolic cannibalism/hunger thing going on #and 2) Im interested in seeing what Sukuna’s end is and if we’ll get more of his past #I remember when people theorized that sukuna in that jogo scene #where jogo asks ‘what is this’ and sukuna replies with ‘idk either’ #that it was a result of Yuuji’s self breaking through when complimenting jogo #but I like that it’s more clear that that IS who sukuna is #it’s a little more complex than a simple generic villain #which I appreciate bc honestly he’s never been my favorite of the villains #and partially that WAS bc I think some things are lost in translation (also dub makes him seem SO casual like just some guy lol) #I find him most interesting with these moments #and it’s funny comparing his interactions with others vs yuuji in hindsight #ok that’s enough rambling in the notes. yes I’m back to enjoying sukuna more now that gojo vs sukuna is over and he’s in his original form #I’m VERY excited for that scene animated soon and his censored powers #I’ve talked a lot about how much I love jogos death scene it’s definitely up there in moments I love from the series

[deus-ex-mona]

looking on at the ✨hype✨ about last stage like

#i wanna be excited about it too!!!!! lemme in~~~~~~~~~~ #maybe it’s just bc i didn’t listen to the ‘loid version on the koishiteru album but i think im not as excited about it as i should be lmaooo #on jp twt there are fans screaming about last stage and i. feel kinda left out ngl??? fomo’s hittin’ like a truck and idek w h y #but me? im just clinging to meoto to ✨carry on✨ #idk why but it kinda sounds like that song aka***ki enstrs sang to beat r****ts to a pulp in the anime #i dont even like enstrs anymore so idk why that song was the first thing i thought of when i heard the preview help #in any case!!!!! i hope the rest of the new songs get mvs!!!! especially meoto!!!!!!!!!!!! #going by the love chuchuchu(chu! kawaikute gomen—) im p sure that’s gonna be the moge mv lol #wont be surprised if their outfits in the mv are the same ones that they’re wearing in the moge-ilustrated album standees… #if that is indeed how the oshi no mahou mv is gonna go… all of you will now owe me tree fiddy >:) if not nothing happens idk #im very much looking forward to seeing where the completely new direction of upcoming lxl songs is gonna take us though #(p r a y i n g for lxl falling for each other in 4k hd p ls—) #g o d i should really get some sleep my innate state of crabbiness is creepin’ in the tags here too aaaaaa

[kavehater]

I wish I could inject pasilyo into my brain so I can have permanent happiness

#There’s this specific part of the song #It srsly alters my brain chemistry #Anyways #i hate tumblr sm #Idk like I Gen hate being on here sm #No matter what account I make no matter if I tell ppl about it whether I don’t tell ppl I just hate this place soooo much #Like if I have a following it sucks because it’s rlly lonely if I don’t it’s still lonely and then if there’s nobody at all it’s lonely #Loneliness is what got me to discord boy so like :D #The fact I am genuinely missing him sm I’m gonna krill myself 😻🙏 #Also I think I hate talking to minors cause these kids be letting themselves get groomed all the time I’m so tired of seeing it #The creep in my course is being so weird to Raisa who is a minor … I can’t help but think it’s all my fault … I invited her to the pharm gc #To show her how messy it was …. #I didn’t expect her to follow and accept requests of everyone … #Anyways I just am so annoyed. Like I wish I could have one person just one where I can be confident in being their no.1 but every time I th #Think I’m maybe somewhere high up on someone’s list of important ppl I realise I overestimated my position even tho I’m rlly self conscious #And being myself down over that. Also I still hate Eid. I hate Eid sm. How do ppl genuinely enjoy Eid. Idk if I’ve ever been excited for Ei #It’s like I’m just suddenly getting more sick of ppl by the day. I Gen don’t like talking to ppl at all even tho I used to rely on talking #To others like its sustenance now it’s just such a hassle to me because I’m so sick of being unimportant to literally every single person I #Have ever known. Literally everyone except maybe dahlia idk. the only person who has never gotten mad/snapped at me o is dahlia #And knowing my luck that will soon be taken from me too. Anyways good riddance to tumblr i loathe this site and im sick of the mind games #All the time from just existing on here. Gen makes me feel ill. I’m so sick of that girl I like and sick of everyone. The only time ppl car #Is when I cause a scene. And ykw atp I loathe being showed sympathy and pity for these sorts of posts because it just feels like a big joke #Cause why couldn’t you just care when I was fine. Why do you ONLY care when I’ve had enough of your bad behaviour. How does one make someon #Like me go mad with all these things #Istg if I come back to this dumb site whether to this acc to the tora one or my other account everyone has permission to beat me up. #dora daily #Tldr;I HATE ppl and everyone ever + I’m just sick of pretending like everyone doesn’t suck cause how can ppl be so insufferable intolerable #Insane horrible in every way and ppl like them. How do they live with themselves when they’re this aggravating. Every day I hate ppl more #Because their mannerisms their everything is just so embarrassing. #Essay tags 😻😻😻

[thehardkandy]

Travelling back home tomorrow hoping for a smooth groove

#i did have a really nice week last week but now im back to everything feeling busy #(its not really that busy) #and oh i miss being slow like idk ever since i was a literal child doing ONE excursion weekly #for an hour #always felt like such s draining burden #and tbh i would like to know why thst is because while it's easy to see as poor habit as an adult reinforcing itself #as a kid i was always made to do things. see people. #i did a summer camp every year at least during the day #i did sports i went hiking in forests #but i remember so distinctly like an age where i stopped asking my parents to try new things #because i would get so excited!!!! but then every week it would become this overwhelming presence #despite being something that i actively enjoyed #and it eventually felt so awful i was like okay no more wanting things you dont use them wisely #like ouch yeah actually that's a big one. wanting things usually wraps back #around to shame or guilt just about always #anyway how is this relevant to travelling? #it's just that i have to travel tomorrow and i have a doctors appointment Friday i have to go to in person #ive changed beds ive slept in 3 times in 5 days #and all i can say at the end of it is that even these little things are JUST enough to be on edge #to feel like im putting my hands over my ears and closing my eyes and pretend nothing bad is gonna happen #even thougu DEFINITELY something bad is going to happen #but of course it doesnt because this is all benign stuff ive done a trillion times before of no note #crazy how complicated it can be to be a person #it is why i dream of living in a small village where i am an apprentice tradesperson and i live simple house #and the house you can walk to anywhere you need to anywhere you need in an your #but no one is that urgent about anything anyway. #beautiful little place that has never actually ever existed for anyone in anytime #but i am still wanting to scream and pull my hair out just asking why why cant everything slow down and be smaller

[midnight-arcade]

I like the new FNAF stuff. And I don't personally think that a lot of it is retcons.

#//Jack.txt #//also this is just how I personally feel about things but at the same time I feel like people are. overreacting. to say it nicely #//I dont really understand the people who r like WELL THE FRANCHISE IS JUST RUINED AT THIS POINT! when actually like. we just hit a new era #//is some of it a little goofy? yah. its fnaf. its always been a little goofy. if u rlly hate the media so much at this point just. stop? #//idk I guess I just see it differently. I'm honestly excited to see where this new era goes!! #//like I LOVE the classic stuff dont get me wrong. but Ruin got me reinterested in the newer stuff. very excited to see where they go with #//the Mimic. I got cut off gdi. I love the Mimic so much as a concept. #//anyways im rambling. gonna go play more Cult of the Lamb and ignore FNAF fandom drama lol

[zeawesomebirdie]

It's official I have a sketchbook and a couple of pencils now!! I have no idea when I'll feel comfy sharing anything I draw, but I am fully intending to post about it as I go, so !! Here I am, finally building a proper tagging system 😌

The tag for those posts will be "Tomas learns to art" in case you don't want to see that!

#i should probably make a real pinned post or smth that shares what tags i actually do use #cause i use two tags for two kinds of simping + a tag for liveblogging + a tag for incredibly personal posts #though i do also try to be clear when i start liveblogging so that people can block it of they havent yet #im probably not going to make more tags beyond this for a bit #just because trying to consistently tag things that arent those is exhausting lol #but if i start making more of my own posts maybe that will change ?? #idk yet #we'll see what happens #anyway #anyway all of this to say 😅 #im excited!!!! #i dont even know where i want to start 👀👀👀

[perenlop]

i need to find another pmd project to love on relentlessly to make up for that. i almost feel bad hating on a fan project like that

#echoed voice #devs just know if you somehow find my posts: i respect the work that you do and its very impressive you made the first full length romhack #for this game #thats a great feat and im glad you did it and its this good technologically. the mind stuff was great and parallel timelines were fun #and pls take the fact that this won hack of the year a sign that im just one guy and i am clearly in the minority and that is ok #it just. sadly wasnt my thing and i was more frustrated than happy most of the time #we were talking abt this in discord but also in light of jelloapocalypse being kinda a hot topic rn- #i know im just one guy with a tumblr blog but pls know that whenever i bitch about something- i dont get pissed if you disagree #i dont think im like ''enlightened'' and everyone should just accept my opinions. im just an old man complaining on my lawn basically #if you adored this romhack then good for you! im glad you enjoyed it more than i did! #at the end of the day its still eos and eos is fun and exciting and feels good to play #if youre considering getting this romhack then dont let me convince you not to give it a chance. you may enjoy it more than i did! #maybe youll see stuff that i didnt! maybe itll resonate a lot more with you! #idk where im going with this. but i feel bad being mean to a fan project for too long jsdklfjdsf

[dykefever]

GOD spring has really come the trees are green and there's daisies growing at the edges of the pavement everyone was sitting out on the grass in the sun i took my jacket off walking home with groceries.... the World is beautiful i'm so Happy to be home . a guy smiled at me and said thank you when i let him go past in lidl.. HELLO!!

#went outside and was immensely grateful and so excited 2 be back. i am just :-) #not to mention im seeing RIDI tonight i cannot wait it's going to be so so soo nice. !!!!!! #we have so much to catch up on lots on the agenda xxx we are going to be hottest ppl in spoons btw #idk i just feel like i'm exactly where i'm supposed to be right now and going back to aus confirmed that (as much as i miss friends n family #laura says some things

[nomaishuttle]

i kind of dislike that its like. focused on your sim being a landlord it seems (from surface level looking into it) But whatever

#iiii am going to use it so i can have a huge family living on the same lot without having to use mods to increase household size #bc it gets overwhelming having to control like 50 sims LMAO. this is awwwsome bc i legit just this morning got inspired to start a new #legacy save ik i always say that and then i barely even make it to 3 generations but listen. this ones going to be different bc i remembere #ghosts and i have a rly cool mod so that only certain sims (kids animals and some other sims) can see ghosts #so i think itd be swagalicious to have a ton of ghosts . idk why i said swagalicious sorry. butttt itd be so cool to have this huge old #house and split it into smaller apartments so i can have a big family living there :] and have little likee detached apartments.. #im just kinda bummed that itll treat the extended family members as like. tenants. rather than family members #BUT this is exciting. i feel like i cn make something rly similar to my great grans house #where like. you had the main house my great grans house and then you have my uncle ronnies trailer in the front yard and then #my aunt brits/shaes (idr whos it actually was skull) trailer out back... #and this could also be like my grannys house Ill never be able to actually make my grannys house in ts4 its got like. a kind of weird layou #its not weird TO ME bc its normal. but its built into a hill so ts4 doesnt like it #same thing with my grans house. both of them r built into a hill so its just not doablee 😭 unless they completely change the way they do #terrain + floor levels. bc the way my grannys house is like #the front door is ground level and then theres a little landing bit #and then you have a staircase upstairs and a staircase downstairs #and downstairs is Technically a basement but bc of the hill like. the back wall of the downstairs has a little patio. even tho the front is #likee. its not completely underground theres likee maybe 2ish feet above ground level and there s a window there peeking into a flowerbed #and the downstairs isnt like a normal basement bc its like. its got 3 bedrooms + a living room with fireplace and its own full bathroom. an #also the laundry room is down there #sigh.... so basically the house is like. its a very simple 2 story house but theres like. its just shifted so its a halfstory below ground. #i mighttt be able to do something with platforms ?? to make it work?? but i wouldnt be able to build it into the hill #my grans house is more straight forward like the basement is mostly underground aside from the very back wall which is also the garage #butttt its also got a little landing on the staircase that leads to the basement. and theres a door there that leads outside #it also has a bunch of random doors on the top floor (which is the floor you enter on but as you get further back into the house its like. #it kind of turns into a 2 story house) #this isnt my grans Now house she moved out yeah im upset abt it but whatever. but yeah its like that bc apparently the basement used to be #like. entirely underground but when the interstate was built they had to like. move the house ?? or move the hill at least. so yeah

[gothamcityneedsme]

i see how it is, everyone loves the page where batman's mind is on fire, but they don't like it when he starts acting like it

#shitpost #im just saying like. i don't think the narrative here is actually doing a 'batman is right' pov #he is very clearly the enemy of everyone atm. they clearly need to save him or destroy him #and thats probably where the lines are going to be drawn #and YES he just did something terrible to jason. its also being like. used to clarify the terrible thing bruce has done to himself #because he is NOT properly himself right now. there's uh. they're really focusing on Zur here and have been since he got back #anyways. idk. haven't read the full comic yet but actually im pretty excited to see how it'll all fall

[hardrockshrimp]

I feel insane I just wanna talk abt trains with Bruce Dickinson

#I WANNA GO TRAINSPOTTING WITH HIM AND SEE HOW GIGGLY AND EXCITED HE GETS #one of my irls is like this with planes and we were hanging out around an airport and we ate outside just to watch them land #cause around where we were they fly right above your head cause the airport is like right there #the landing spot specifically #BUT ANYWAYS BRUCE ILY GIRL #new psycho schizo espresso episode where he talks about neurodivergency w dr kevin and says he doesnt think he is #but then special interests come up and he goes on for the rest of the episode about trains and #what is it again like submarines right or boats too #idk not to diagnose a man i dont know but yknow #he also really like planes right or at least military planes #YKNOW I DIDNT KNOW SKUNKWORKS WAS THE NAME OF A FUCKINGN PLANE #regardless #bruce dickinson #screaming into a paper bag #spencer contemplates becoming a musician interviewer #but i dont even talk about the normal things i just let them talk abiut their interests outside of music #I JUST WANNA SIT DOWN W BRUCE AND TALK ABOUT BIG VEHICLES #im not a plane/train autist btw im a vintage/novelty car autist #anyways bye #heres a whole post in the tags

[flugame-mp3]

SEASON NINE FINALE WAS WILD. I HAVE MANY MANY THOUGHTS. WHAT JUST HAPPENED. A FUCKING ROLLER COASTER FOR SURE

#theo.txt #I DID NOT REALIZE DEMON DEAN WAS NOW #DESPITE KNOWING THAT YEAH HE LOOKS ABOUT THAT AGE OR WHATEVER IN THE SCREENCAPS IVE SEEN #WHEN I TELL YOU I CHEERED AT THE END WHEN I REALIZED WHAT WAS GOING ON!!!!! i love crowley pulling some bullshit at the last minute. classi #king of hell shit #and in the end scene where it's just mark sheppard's stellar monologue and the EYELID NOISE... chefs kiss that got me so hyped for s10 #i do think this finale got me really interested to see what s10 brings generally #AND DOESNT ROWENA SHOW UP THIS SEASON?? WE LOVE TO SEE IT IM EXCITED #rip gadreel though he was an interesting character. sad he had to die just to prove a point and blow up a cell. but a fitting end ig?? :( #i also loved cas's plan at the end though with the angel radio thing. get his ass lol #but also god i felt so bad for him. can the narrative give him a fucking break. he is trying his god damn best #the curse of free will and the curse of loving. painful but you do it anyway. castiel when i get my hands on you #also if i am not mistaken... the shot parallels to sams first death with deans death... we cry #IS SAM JUST GONNA BE ALL ALONE NOW?? I ASSUME CROWLEY TAKES DEAN WITH HIM? #OH NO 😭😭😭 SAM BABY IM SO SORRY #not that he doesnt always have a rough time but he has a particularly excruciating season. someone give this man a hug #i feel for him very deeply #'i lied' 'ain't that a bitch?' got me. i hate them. SOOOO brothers. #anyway #AAAAAAAAUGH #also why was metatron the worlds number one destiel shipper at the end of the season here im DEAD. MULTIPLE pieces of dialogue hes like 'yo #did it all for HUMANITY... for your ONE HUMAN of CHOICE... the HUMAN who motivates you...' JUST CALL HIM A SLUR WHY DONT YOU #im dead #idk what the general community thoughts are on that episode but i did enjoy it. wild fucking ride from start to finish #s9 wasnt my favorite and definitely did not hook me in the second quarter for some reason. def was not as compelling as like s7 for me but #the points that i liked i really enjoyed #loved sam resorting to summoning crowley. he wants his ass dead SO bad. i think sam deserves the world after the shit he was put through #this season #anyway overall. i am gnawing on the walls and pacing around my room at incredible speeds. what is UP with this show. #man.

[narutomaki]

I don't know how to do it scared and I'm so mad about it.

#idk how to do new things. idk why i go from yeah im doing it and im excited about it #to getting to it and self harming bcus the terror and fear is too much to handle and backing out #is there something just. wrong with me that isnt wrong with other people? #i dont do the actual self harm as often. i still do but i more just. #turn around and leave or hide and dont go #that i leave the apartment at all feels like a miracle sometimes #i do not fondly remember the YEAR i spent isolated in my apartment for 28 out of 30 days a month. #so i think even being able to go to familiar stores is a victory for me sometimes. its definitely better than sitting up in bed #awake and shaking with exhaustion holding a knife in the corner so that i cpuld see the closet door (held shut by my dresser) my closed #bedroom door and my window in my eye line. #..... maybe i will get to the point one day where i dont need to be physically dragged into new stores. #maybe i have made improvements... #maybe i should be proud of that .. #what a novel concept

[moonchopsticks]

uuuoooogghhh friend i invited out to drink with invited like 5 more people to the event and also asked to change it to karaoke and i have terminal can't say no disease so now i'm dreading going out to something i was looking forward to for weeks

#LIKE I KNOW its not his fault but uggghhhhh #it was originally gonna be a small chill thing for my late birthday and now it's an entirely different beast #which is FINE i'll still probably have fun i just am a bitch about many things. i'm not gonna hold a grudge over it. im not #im just tired and wanted to get drinks in like. a setting where i was more comfortable w the people there #but all the people there are localized to a club that i am on leadership in and the more non-graduates/non-close friends i invite #the less i can let go. personal motto in club settings is literally “no weakness” i don't relax there even if i don't show it. #like idk. i was excited about this for a while but now i'm mentally bracing myself to be overwhelmed until i get three drinks in me #eh i think im mostly a little pressed bc a few people that i didn't want to come are coming. but whatever #i think im overestimating how comfortable i'd be even beforehand. friend's boyfriend who is also technically my friend was also coming #and still is. and i am not comfortable being a person around him ngl #the most paranoid part of me is thinking that this is like. revenge for making the friend that's inviting everyone hang out with me #you wanted to hang? let me invite all the people i wouldve invited before i hung out with you #which is actually delusional but the hating myself grind never stops #it's literally whatever. like it's ten people total that's not even an enormous amount #and im genuinely excited to see most people there. like i'll have fun. i just need to be a bitch about it for a little #i'll delete this later. idk why i even posted this on my non-private acct :((

[the-kipsabian]

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#idk if this is angsty or not so im just gonna throw it in the tags #but like. i fully know what my problem is. and how i could fix it. and literally the only thing making me sad and upset is myself #why? because my choice of medium is writing. because that makes it incredibly difficult to get anything out there and get people interested #in my creations. cause visual media is preferred so much over written anything cause its so much easier to consume #it doesnt help that i dont work with popular characters or ships (literally my current work im most excited about is for a ship only *i* #have contributed to so far. like.. we are talking that level of unpopular choices here) #and like. i dont say this to shame or blame anyone. this is obviously my choice. ive decided to do both of these things when i could have i #so much easier. i wouldnt be better at it if i did visual shit still. im way worse at that than writing. ive always been a writer first #but.. honestly seeing the difference with interaction and even in general interest due to these factors... #idk man. again i know this is entirely self inflicted like i chose this. i chose all of these things. and continue to do so #ive literally seen all of this. im not making it up. im not talking about just in general im talking this has happened to me personally #that rare time in june i made and posted art? do you understand the amount of ppl that said 'ive missed your stuff'? #the same people that dont consume my current works due to their form and have never went on the lengths to say the same thing about #my writing? when i took a two year hiatus from all of that basically? but a few months of visual arts? #idk fam im just. i understand all of this but im hurt. you know? #cause i know it doesnt matter. and its so much more difficult. i know there are people out there who love and appreciate what i do #and who understand how important this is to me compared to other stuff and before and whatnot #but at the same time the negatives (that are mostly in my head but they are still real things and they still hurt) are so much louder #i dont know where im going with this. im just thinking. excuse the brain barf #or dont. whatever. im just.. acknowledging my recent feelings. there is a reason i had a breakdown few days ago and yesterday was so rough #i should probably go to bed. sorry about this #its not gonna change anything in how stuff is viewed or how im gonna act about it but just.. you know. putting this out there #the inequality of how art is treated just has me thinking. that maybe im not made for this #maybe i should just be the below mediocre visual artist that does things that give them no happiness just cause it gets more attention #idk. just. yeah #good night #night is an absolute mess on main