#idk if i can disagree after this

[cluescorner]

Tim Drake has a weird fucking function

The thing about Tim that I find unique is that his life became SO MUCH WORSE after joining the heroing thing. Everybody else had a mid-to-shit life before becoming a hero/living with Bruce and mostly everybody (except Jason who LITERALLY DIED) had their life improved by being a hero/being Bruce's kid (or at least it is typically portrayed as such.

Tim had the exact opposite trajectory. His life wasn't perfect before he became Robin, but like...multi-millionaire/billionaire (canon is unclear, but he's within Gotham's upper-strata) kid with both natural intelligence + charisma and a bright future ahead of him and parents who were emotionally neglectful but nothing really beyond that (which is also a form of trauma, but all of the info we have indicates that the Drakes were no Arthur Brown or David Cain) and he still had other people he could rely on outside of them. He went to boarding school, which could be something horrible OR something amazing depending on your own thoughts/experiences. I grew up having a commute where we'd drive past a really pretty and rich af boarding school that literally everybody in our area DREAMED of going to, so to me the idea of going to boarding school sounds incredible but mileage may vary. Tim seems like the type of kid who would thrive in that though. Based on what we know in canon atm, his pre-robin life was fucking amazing.

And then he starts being the sidekick and working towards becoming Robin. His parents immediately get kidnapped and poison themselves through drinking tainted water; his mom dies and his dad is in a coma. This is not the fault of Robin, but Tim himself muses about the idea that Robin and dead parents are linked: to become Robin completely, you must lose your parents. And with how fate/destiny/canon events can operate in comics universes, maybe he isn't that far off. Once his dad wakes up, their relationship becomes strained as the man grieves the loss of his wife and realizes that his son has been doing vigilantism as a hobby. It is unclear exactly how good of a parent Jack was before the incident, but the results of Tim's involvement with the Robin mantle has definitely made things worse between father and son. Jack will also die within quick succession of 2 of Tim's best friends, his girlfriend, and his other father. He will also effectively lose like 1/2 his loved ones in the fallout of all of that mess including: his older brother, his other friends (both civilian and superhero), and the stepmother with whom he shared what I would argue is his best parent-child relationship (Dana also may have died, but it's left unclear). He has stopped pursuing higher education (the moment he even applied for college he 'died', and it seems he hasn't made another attempt since) and if he wasn’t a major focus of the media before he sure is now. He tries to quit briefly (in fact he initially was planning on quitting once someone more suited came along) and cannot bring himself to do so. Even when he does manage to get away for a while, his superhero life impacts the pre-robin life he is trying to go back to. Leaving is an impossibility, this is all there is for him now. He also isn’t allowed to make mistakes anymore, not when lives hang in the balance. The one who enforces that impossible standard the most (besides Bruce depending on who's writing) is himself. He’s got TRAUMA now and people want to hurt him constantly. He is constantly questioning his own sanity and morality and place in the world. He almost dies like every month. Tim grows colder and less grounded, he is becoming both a better and a worse version of himself at the same time. He’s saving lives in the same few issues as he’s setting up a Saw movie plot for the man who killed his father. He is haunted by the ghosts of his past and the looming figure of his future. His life becomes SO MUCH FUCKING WORSE after he becomes Robin. Some of it is the fault of others, some is the fault of circumstance, and some of it is due to his own actions. But basically all of Tim's worst traumas and life-changing moments are either tied to or caused by Robin. Dick's parents would still be dead, Jason would still be living on the streets, Stephanie would still have Arthur Brown for a father and a lot of other things that deserve their own posts/IDK if they've been retconned, and Damian would still have been raised in the eco-cult where death is a constant. Those are life circumstances that occur without the involvement of Robin, the only one who even needs Bruce involved at all in their series of events is Damian. But Tim? All of what is considered his 'worst' moments occur after he assumes the role.

This idea is what I find the coolest and most fascinating about Tim as a character. Being a hero is usually portrayed as either an outright awesome thing or a righteous duty that one must fulfill or (maybe in a grimmer and/or more grounded story) a sacrifice to your interpersonal relationships/mental health that is made for the greater good. For Tim, being a superhero actively ruined his life (both because of the general circumstances surrounding being a kid vigilante and the choices he made as part of that role). It's never portrayed that way in canon because we need to come out of issues going 'wow being a superhero is so cool! I'm gonna buy the next issue!', but when you just look at Tim's life literally everything really bad that we know of occurred after he became Robin.

#tim drake #batman #batfamily #Red Robin 2009 #Red Robin #idk this is just why I think Tim is a really interesting character. I'm probably not being as articulate as I could be but it's tumblr so #I've had a lot of people say that they think Tim is the most boring robin. And I disagree because I don't think any of them are boring #but it is definitely the hardest to explain what makes Tim interesting to people with only a cursory knowledge #and it doesn't help that a lot of what makes Tim cool relies on his relationships with OTHER characters. #like you can explain why Jason is cool and interesting without even mentioning Batman if you really want to. #with Tim you need a fucking relationship chart and like 11 asterisks whenever anything involving the 'Bruce is dead' era is involved #so I just felt like typing up why I think he can really work as an exploration of somebody who straight up got WORSE after heroing #granted it's never actually stated because DC needs to make money. and tbh the closest we've ever gotten is Red Robin 2009 #which I feel is dubiously canon at best at this rate. was it retconned? did any of it happen in the current universe?

[mokeonn]

Before I go to sleep I leave you all with this piece of advice: sometimes you don't actually have to answer big political questions, sometimes you can just say "I am not smart enough to know that, I just know the small things I do to help." Like you can often times completely avoid making a fool of yourself if you just say you don't know.

#simon says #to explain here and not in a reblog: #sometimes when you try to explain big picture solutions you're gonna sound dumb #you might not have done enough research #you might not have a rebuttal to a counter argument #you might not be articulate enough to explain why you think this #sometimes you gotta take a step back and give the simple solution. the one man solution #you do what you can to fight against the problem #you talk to people to help spread awareness and how to fight the bad problem #and you vote and invite others to vote for bigger steps towards solving the problem #like you can talk about theory and how you believe we need to do a huge drastic thing to solve and issue #but people will disagree and argue til you're blue in the face #they'll poke and prod until you mess up or lose your temper and use it against you #and you'll feel dumb and they'll learn nothing #sometimes the best thing to do is step away from the big picture and just say 'idk what the solution is I just know the things I can do“ #sometimes you gotta admit you're not a scientist/expert and you can't answer that #i used this while talking with my Dad tonight #he brought up our climate crisis and space travel as a possible solution #and I said I think that's just addressing the symptom and not the cause and we need to care for our Earth now #and he asked me what solutions I think would fix it #and knowing my incredibly smart Dad who is articulate and ready to throw rebuttles at a moments notice to play devils advocate #and my past experience in struggling in this topic with him before #i just told him I didn't know. all i knew is the little things I can and do do to help #and that hopefully by spreading the word and habits and encouraging others to vote for those bigger solutions I could help make a change #but all I really could do is the little things I have control over #and the topic became much less stressful about the little things we have control over #like planting native plants and recycling and adopting habits that are healthier to our planet #which was 100% more preferable to if I tried to give a big solution. because I would reveal i didn't have all the knowledge needed to argue #and my articulation would make me sound like a stupid kid who only thinks they know what's best #so yeah I basically suggest that if you dont wanna feel like shit after debating someone just step away from the big picture for a moment

[snekdood]

"if we make america worse and more of a dictatorship that will be even harder to unravel and make it the way we want the country to be, maybe then everyone will join our Glorious Revolution!" bb girl you cant even be in the same room with someone who thinks you should vote, how in tf do you think you're gonna unite people to fight in The Revolution with you? it's gonna be you and your 5 friends, i hate to break it to you.

#i dont think you realize how repelling you and your politics are to everyone else #you get all of your validation for how Smart You Are from your friends and ignore any kind of feedback that suggests you should #change or do something differently. thats the only reason you're so convinced average people will go along with you bc you keep getting #affirmation from the people who ALREADY agree with you- but you have NO IDEA how to bridge the gap between people who agree #with you and disagree with you. you're horrible at convincing people of your side of things outside of straight up guilt tripping them #or bullying them like a highschooler. im sorry but the tools you learned to survive with as a kid aren't gonna help you in this situation. #the ONLY THING you can come up with to bridge that gap is a bloody revolution. thats how bad you are at this. #and you're also so bad at this and unimaginative that you dont even realize how THAT might not even be enough. #you cant imagine ANY kind of avenue to getting people to change AT ALL outside of blood and fire. and thats why people call you #an authoritarian. #i'll be honest- i really do think the world would be a better place if we did incremental change under a democratic president who wont #set the world on fire vs the godkingemperor republican WHO WONT EVEN LISTEN TO YOU AT ALL EVER AND MIGHT KILL YOU #FOR PUTTING UP A STINK. idk if you noticed but if that evil fuck gets into office we are severely outnumbered if he gets police #n shit to go after his own citizens. letting trump win is making this battle so much harder than it needs to be. #you are choosing trying to fix the world while its exploding vs trying to fix it before it explodes at all. #what is this like a procrastination thing? you wanna wait till the last minute to try? idfgi. wtf is wrong with you #throwing minority lives away to prove a point. and then you try to tell me you care. gtfoh. #accelerationists should never be taken seriously.

[raindrops-on-concrete]

at this point they could've just cut the first three episodes and told the entire story chronologically. I mean, what's the point in a flashback if it's not there to enrich the main storyline? I feel like whoever wrote the script for The Untamed didn't really think about why MDZS was told in the way and the order it was.

#idk just venting my frustration over the untamed #it's an alright series and the acting is phenomenal and the visuals are stunning #but maybe I shouldn't have started watching it immediately after reading the novel #especially not bc I'm super obsessed with the storytelling in this novel #anyway pls don't attack me I'm new to this fandom and I'm scared of new people #I promise I'm nice and will respect you for your opinion even if you disagree with me #we can even have a civil discussion #mdzs #the untamed #mo dao zu shi #the grandmaster of demonic cultivation #cql

[torchickentacos]

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#the 'they would not fucking do that' meme is starting to feel like yall just wanna make fun of people's headcanons #but tumblr is not ready for that conversation lmao #'they wouldn't start a family' okay maybe that's just not your trope. i get it. not mine either usually #but like. maybe they WOULD in that person's fic! maybe we can learn to like that trope more!!! #idk man my creative philosophy has always been 'have fun and let everyone else have fun too' #like. i get so sad when people make a point to disagree with headcanons #maybe it's a specific sore spot for me after Situations and Circumstances #but just. we can all coexist. we don't need to prop one thing up as ULTIMATE 'HE WOULD DO THAT AND NOTHING ELSE' #it comes back to how canon is more important to some people than others #but we all have to coexist in the fandom spaces anyways and find ways to get along #we can have different ideas all meshing and coexisting!!! i do it with my friends every single day!!!!! #like!!! palletshipping and oakshipping are holding hands and skipping off into the sunset in my friend group #same with contest and respect. vibing #we make it work. we vibe with other people and have fun #i promise you'll like fandom more if you focus on the happy parts of it and not the parts you hate

[confinesofmy]

how you gonna vote your way out of something you didn't even vote your way into...

#we got.. gerrymandering. we got voter suppression. we got uneducated voters like all the lgbtq+ people i know voting straight ticket repub. #we got literal vote stealing. we got the flawed electoral college. we've got bad nominee choices! god do we have some bad nominees #we've got issues that cannot be fixed by political action regardless like.... #idk. i think it's fine to encourage people to vote. it's not that i disagree with it as a concept. it's not that i think it doesn't matter. #it just matters.. very.. little... it seems like. after many years personally.. of voting #lol.. #i have never been happy with a candidate i've voted for even those who have made it to office #the turnaround has never been particularly positive #neutral sure. a few times locally. #but often i feel an ideological shame later because their views don't align with mine in reality or in practice so it's like 🥴 eugh cringe #so whenever i see someone being aggressively pro-voting and ranking it so highly as a political action it's like well #are you naïve or are you fundamentally opposite to me #can we be ffr right now 🐱 #adam yaps

[akkivee]

rivals

#vee queued to fill the void #lol sometimes i wonder if i miss the division beef #like nothing can really hit that 1st drb experience but kr also didn’t try lol #and while i can definitely breathe easier since they aren’t so intense anymore is that really a good thing i’ve been wondering lol 🤔 #like i see lots of people of the opinion that the conflicts between the leaders got solved waaaaaaaaaaay too quickly and i don’t disagree #i like pointing out how long it took jakurai to forgive ramuda vs how long it took kuukou to forgive ramuda #like from the standpoint of two individuals who have buddha/god imagery attached to them #and for that reason it’s really cool that kuukou forgave ramuda instantly without needing to know ramuda’s baggage like jakurai did #but should that have cooked some more is what i wonder lol #it could have also set up some fun differences between sasara and kuukou who are both very bonds dependent #but kuukou could have been significantly more angry about being split from ichiro vs sasara numbly accepting the loss #and it gets across in a way in the 6 colours track because kuukou does let ramuda know lmao #and sasara only chimes in after kuukou lets ramuda off the hook lol like it’s there!!!!! should it have cooked tho #ramuda being forgiven by everyone is good because plenty wasn’t his fault but him choosing ichiro and samatoki WAS #so something like that probably could have stewed longer lol #this is a whole entire thing actually lol i wanna keep rambling about the surface level squabbles we got with like gentaro and juto #and beefs that could have exposed more like hifumi and gentaro’s #or just the fact since posse is at the center of all conflict with their strongest chuuoku ties and idk if that’s a good thing rly #but these are a lot of tags lmao

[shepherdenjoyer]

thinking about the dog we almost adopted earlier this year. she would be with us by now if that did go through. i'm still not sure i understand the logic behind what happened with that rescue, i try to be objective when thinking about it but being given crucial information at the last moment along with their final, negative, decision did sting.

point is, there's been no update to this dog's information on their website. still says that "other dogs are fine" when what we were told in that last email from them (and at no point before that!) was that she had apparently shown reactive and aggressive behavior towards other dogs at the shelter. and like, i dont get it. why withhold information like that but then give it at the last moment and turn down people because of it without giving them the option or time to think or talk about it?

im fine with not having adopted her, i want to say it's probably for the best because our initial plan was always to get a dog from a breeder and that's what we'll do. but i worry about how long she's going to stay in that environment. i mean, old (8yrs) overweight malinois with a last minute "oh hey btw she's aggressive!" surprise ? good luck finding a "good fit" for that.

#mine #i also wonder how much weight that environment and stress has on that behavior. a lot i bet. duh. #like seriously. reactive mal and you'd rather keep it there than give it a chance at a home because its not a perfect fit from heaven? 😐 #thats just not something that i can agree with no matter how i look at it. maybe there's just smth to it im not aware of but wtf man! #anyway the icing on the cake is that i remembered they had an insta acc a while later and they tag their posts with ad*pt dont sh*p #very ironic. not only do i disagree w that sentiment but while im willing to adopt i just dont have any plans to for a long long time #(for multiple reasons) (including this experience) #idk. i was so excited and the way it went really upset me. i remember feeling very down for a while after that

[fortes-fortuna-iogurtum]

feeling very weird about the last two episodes of Miss Scarlet (3.3 and 3.4), because I... actually really loved them?? and I know it was largely because of the absence of William.

which I find odd, because I actually DO like him!! he's a complex and interesting character, he and Eliza's spark off one another is really fun (and also lbr, infuriating, and that's a large reason why this show works; hence the title), and I just... genuinely do like the character. he's irksome as all get-out, he can be entirely insensitive and a touch misogynistic and sometimes I really do wanna break his nose. but I still like him! he has a part to play in this story and I understand that for what it is within the narrative, I really enjoy it!

and yet... I've felt like these last two episodes were some of the most genuinely well-written and especially well-character-written ones for a good while.

I guess it's just because, with the Duke out of the picture, other characters aren't constantly being held up to him in one way or another. Moses, Detective Fitzroy, Mr. Nash, Detective Phelps--they're all given a chance to be developed as characters in their own right, instead of just supporting William/William and Eliza's relationship. and even Eliza grows and is a far more multi-faceted and, I think, genuinely enjoyable character when she's not reduced to simply her reactions to and against William.

I'm intrigued, to be honest. I know he's back in his usual spot as the second lead in the next episode, and I'm looking forward to seeing what happens given the ~revelation~ in the very last scene of episode 3.4... but I'm already kind of sad that the rest of the characters I've so enjoyed getting to spend more time focusing on are going to once again be cast in the shadow of 'Miss Scarlet and the Duke'. despite that literally being the entire point of the show.

#idk what's up with this but. it's a weird feel? #and I'm probably not communicating it well... #I think it's just that I feel like after 2.5 seasons #those two are kinda stuck in a rut?? they're in a perpetual cycle of nonsense with one another #seemingly never getting a n y w h e r e in either their personal or professional relationships #and despite the fact that they CAN in fact make a FANTASTIC team together... they also kind of bring out the worst in each other #and so Eliza is often at her most combative and disagreeable and William is often at his most resistant and authoritarian #when they're together and clashing over whatever new issue they've found to argue about this time #and since Eliza really is the /most/ lead character #I feel like she's got a lot more room to breathe and grow and *be* the Lead Character in general whenever she's not constantly bashing #heads with William and she has other characters to interact with #other people who challenge her assumptions and test her willpower and her investigative skills and who provide her with a very different #sort of jumping-off-point to what William usually brings #it... adds enrichment to her enclosure? I think that's actually what I'm trying to say here?? X'D #I'm not going to be one of those people who watch a series just to bash on half the MC group or to anti the ship that the show turns around #but it's still really funny (funny like odd) to me that I feel this way about all this #miss scarlet and the duke #gurt says stuff

[restinthewest]

Not what I usually post about and I’m not sure why I’m frothing with rage over this on a random Monday morning but here we are.

Malignant (James Wan) was one of my favorite movies of 2021. I like watching movie reviews on YouTube after I’ve seen a movie to see what other people thought and holy shit the film bro reviewers were even more annoying than usual over this film. “I just can’t tell if this is genuinely bad or if it’s trying to be over the top” this film could literally not be more clearly camp. The opening scene concludes with a doctor in a cartoon-level gothic hospital saying “it’s time to cut out the cancer” then it smash cuts to the credits playing with a bad rock song. It’s camp. “I guess it’s good if it was supposed to be an homage but it’s bad if it wasn’t” what a fucking cop out how bout you do your job and make an informed assessment about what you think the films intentions are and stick to your guns about whether you think it’s good or not.

Even worse everyone was like “James Wan’s work is solid otherwise but this was a total flop.” I don’t totally hate the conjuring universe or insidious or whatever but those films are formulaic, uncreative snooze fests that everyone goes nuts over for some reason I can’t decipher. At best they’re fine. Malignant was fun. It was brave. It was wild. It was hammy. It made me feel something why do people hate fun.

Also lots of people compared to Malignant to The Room which strikes me as completely absurd. Even if you think Malignant is bad, The Room isn’t the only other bad film ever made and there are very few comparisons to be made between the films. Let’s stop comparing every movie we think is bad to The Room 2k24.

#even my fav film reviewers over at double toasted had bad takes on this film I felt so betrayed #I’m fully having a breakdown three full years after this movie came out idk what is happening 😂 #we can have different opinions over movies it’s fine but also if you disagree with me on this we may have to fight #you could critique the film for some valid things that aren’t great but the criticism I see is all the same and is WRONG

[puzzlekinq]

cant sleep because im seething with anger

#been laying here for like 40 minutes fantasizing about finally snapping and telling my mom everything i really think and feel #if i ever came out to her she would end up cutting me off like she did to my aunts and uncles and cousins #basically im alone and my parents and siblings are the only family i can be in contact with right now and its isolating #off topic but yeah #i miss having a big family and people besides my parents that i could rely on. people i felt like i could actually breathe around #idk. whatever #why do i feel responsible for her actions all the time. its been my job to keep her stable and listen to her vent for years #but i never say anything about my own feelings. because she would make me feel stupid and ridicule me. lol #all she does is make me feel like shit most of the time. shes always in a bad mood and shes always whining and always pessimistic #and yeah i get along with her for the most part but lately her attitude has been weighing on me a lot. i cant criticize or disagree with her #because she'll just get mad. shes always been an angry person. thats why i hardly spoke to her from ages 10-15 #maybe i jsut wanted to give her another chance. maybe i felt sympathy for her. shes had it rough her whole life #but when shes still bitter no matter how many times i comfort her and let her vent and cry to me and when she chooses her husband over me #every single time he fucks up (which is like. constantly) and always takes his side when they inevitably make up after a huge fight #it feels like i'll never be able to make her happy. it feels like i should stop trying. if she wants to be full of hatred #and have a shitty husband then fine. i cant fix her like and i cant hold the weight of her mistakes #*life

[chryzure]

i’m beginning to think that ppl don’t know how to be polite when they’re reading a book a friend recommended them

#memorie.txt #he things i see in that discord server leave me with my mouth agape #that’s so fucking rude!! what the hell!! #like the ppl that started being mean abt a book someone said they’d been RLLY looking forward to reading #or this person recommending a series for multiple ppl to read only for someone to say they thought it was super boring #(also they said the first 50 pages were boring which. isn’t rlly a basis to judge on.) #(50 pages is very very little on the face of a book. it’s jst settling you into the world. if after 50 pages you’re not into it—sure #but calling it entirely boring is so mean!! what the hell!!) #i disagree w a lot of the ppl there but i’m definitely way nicer than everyone… #and i’ve noticed ppl start backpedaling when i say i enjoyed something but i get why they might not #it’s.. crazy. #‘course these are the ppl that said criticizing eva’s stupid choices was being anti-feminist #because girls make stupid choices i guess?? man idk w them #ngl i thought i was objectively bitchy abt this series but honestly the ppl there are not very nice #i would not like being their friends. #but also this post is abt multiple friends shitting on series that i’ve loved for years when i rec them #the only person to be nice to me abt books i recommend doesn’t use tumblr anymore :( i have their address so i can send letters but… #idk. feels like it would be weird. ‘hello we were mutuals on tumblr and you liked reading books i liked. what have you been up to?’

[mettywiththenotes]

Wait do you think the hc lady never spoke up about chairman doing things she didn't like because she'd get shot or something

#i can see that being the case #did people who disagreed with him have to be sworn to secrecy if they were fired #with possible surveillance even after leaving the job #or is it a 'two can keep secret if one of them is dead' sort of thing? #which i mean. idk how far up the system hc lady was but if she was chairmans assistant then #it sounds like it could have been the latter #was being killed only a threat for heroes like nagant who got out of line #or was it for anyone in the hc? #and probably the most important question - was chairman just crazy enough to be threatening to kill people if they disagreed with him #or is it something everyone in that position feels it 'necessary' to do? #would hc lady do the same to others in that position too? #god what the fuck is up with this place #bnha #hero commission #chairwoman #mettys posts #metty posts #sorry if im only just realising this #im thinking hc thoughts tonight #GET MY SLEEPY GUY MERA OUT OF THERE

[deerlisteners]

do u ever think abt how 3houses/hopes position dimitri’s relationships w his friends in relation to his relationship w the goddess & feel rlly rlly normal or is that just me

#head in hands………. #few3h #it’s about the thing he says to byleth ‘we lack the means to reach out and grasp it’ and then everybody continuously reaching out to him #again and again over and over forever #ESPECIALLY in the king awakens cutscene. felix & dedue reaching out & dedue being the one to physically take dimitri’s hand #it’s like yeah faerghus worships an absent goddess and you’re SUPPOSED to believe in her and trust her and be good for her etc #and dimitri just can’t do it until it’s for his friends #and the scene in the rain after gronder in houses too obv #obviously it’s more blatant too considering the byleth sothis situation but ykwim it’s not sothis doing the reaching out there #like #we can talk abt glory and honour etc all we want but is that a truer motivator than the ppl u love??? #for dimitri it isn’t bc he disagrees w all that honour anyway esp after duscur where he saw it fall apart w Glenn’s death (ingie support) #honour and glory are what get his friends killled for him but if he resolves to make the world a better place FOR them #that’s much easier to stomach #(and. the church being intertwined w the knighthood honour thing etc.) lol #idk if this makes sense im having SO MANY issues rendering a film in maya rn lol im slamming my head thru the wall #feposting #fe3h #deertalking #im being very brave not derailing my initial point to just talk abt dmlx here i hope u know that #i love him so much. mimi relationship w faith b like ‘true personal connection is inherently as impossible as seeing the goddess herself’ #(teacher proceeds to become the goddess 2 prove him wrong) #im gonna come back and talk abt this before bc its my fav dimitri topic my brain just isn’t working rn o7

[birdblues]

tw for sexual//assault in the notes

#so ive been dealing with some realizations that my ex has traumatized me sexually and its ruining my sex life with my bf #i spoke about it with my therapist and she says that my ex sexually abused me but i agree and disagree with that #it's complicated because i feel like its more my fault than anything #i just went with what he wanted because i was scared #i felt like i couldnt say no but thats still my fault #and i know i would say otherwise if it was someone else but it's difficult for me to process this #its been eating me up more and more since i've discovered that what i was experiencing during and after sex with my bf was retraumatization #its taken me over a year to figure out what was wrong with me #i feel even worse during sex now to the point that i feel like giving up on it #i want to have sex but i cant even enjoy it anymore so its like whats the point #but you know what ill do it anyways because its like my brain is trained to just do it #i fucking hate this #idk if anyone can relate or understand but its aggravating #how can this be abuse or assault when people have gone through SOOO much worse and traumatic stuff #idkidkidk

[dennisboobs]

this is genuinely... so funny to me. like the hilarity of copypasting rational tweets. i'm literally right. it's not even a funny copypasta because it's literally just. objectively correct. it's a criticism of twitter culture and that makes it funny to you because...... god forbid you actually have empathy for other people. caring is for losers if you're on twitter dot com, you have to be snarky and funny at all times.

#moots & friends keep sending me shit and im just like. lmfao this is embarrassing for YOU guys. i stand by everything ive said actually. #i'm sorry you think trying to have a genuine conversation about harmful behaviours is cringe #you consider yourself an activist and will retweet every fucking post abt current events #but you can't actually be bothered to make a positive change in your own life......... #the fact that most of them stop responding after they realize im not going to freak out and give them something emotional is very telling #it's not even like most of them disagree they literally just want to make fun of me for...... caring. like ok. weird hill to die on idk #im at the point where im considering privating my tweets just so i dont continue to get ppl responding but #i think its important that ppl can see my responses. because i stand by them and clearly other ppl do too #theres been a lot of mixed responses but a lot of people have actually ended up agreeing with me after some back and forth #which i appreciate. i didnt want to start fuckin. twitter drama. but like. ill take it #i dont interact with sunnyblr at all so i think this is a good opportunity to potentially change at least a few ppls perspectives #and if youre too far gone to the point where you think that someone caring about perpetuating homophobic rhetoric is funny #i. dont really want to interact with you anyway lol. get better soon xoxo #last post about this on here im. putting this to rest. #ada speaks #genuinely disgusting how many of these ppl will say shit like. ppl are dying. like... yeah. what are YOU doing to help. #retweeting a donation link or someones random carrd doesnt do shit actually. performative armchair activism. #same ppl tweeting vapid shit while acting like theyre above engaging with me on this #i was venting about people qrting glenns old tweets with stupid shit because it was clogging my tl actually lol