#idk i’m emotional abt them

[boltmyth]

when florence resurrects nate doesn’t get back together with her because neither of them are the same person they once were and they both worked very hard on coming to terms with not being together BUT he does feel like a piece of him that had been missing has returned and she’s truly still his soulmate and best friend and they still have this weird codependent thing going on where they still always team up during camp activities and are always hanging out together and when nate decides to go to new rome university florence and him get in a pretty big emotional dilemma because she doesn’t want to go but she also doesn’t want to be without him and vice versa and that’s truly the moment where they have to learn how to exist without each other 24/7 again

#there’s just NO ONE who will ever understand nate the way florence does #there’s NO ONE who’s been through all he’s been through #who knows how he was then and how he is now #they love each other so so so much even when that love isn’t necessarily romantic anymore #she comes back to life and only then he actually starts breathing again for the first time in 50+ yrs #he can bicker with her and laugh and cry and be vulnerable #bc he’s been that for years #she was his first friend his first love his first everything #idk i’m emotional abt them #i write florence on my multi @taroet for those of u who don’t know x

[agoddamneddelight]

my design for my beloved Estraven :,)

#tlhod #ursula k. le guin #the left hand of darkness #therem harth rem ir estraven #genly ai #they are my specialest little guy (gender neutral) #i have so many emotions abt them idk what to do 😃 #i’m rereading this it’ll help right #that won’t make it worse right #also um if u saw me accidentally post this at?? 4 am my time sorry heh oops #my art

[mezzbians]

autistic girlfriend realness

#td #td fanart #total drama #total drama fanart #total drama 2023 #mezzbian #td axel fanart #td axel #td millie #td Millie fanart #axelmillie #Td axelmillie #i like to imagine that axel tries to emote more to millie as they grow closer but it becomes rlly awkward since it’s unnatural for her #idk I’m projecting a bit onto axel here #both wouldnt pick up on social cues w/ eachother but millie is def more observant #axelmillie dumping over for now i love them sm #both of them r autistic btw. no im not debating abt this.

[deerlisteners]

thinking abt felix being protective of areadbhar and feeling entirely normal about it actually

#deertalking #feposting #few3h #ITS SO. LIKE THE WAY HES DEPICTED IN THIS GAME DRIVES ME CRAZY #like i haven’t thought this through i don’t have a point here exactly #i’m just thinking abt the screencaps here from the king awakens & him giving ingrid glenn’s spur & his support w mercedes & the cat #where mercie points out the cat likes him & he goes ‘well i can’t keep it. It’s practically a kitten what if it has parents that miss it’ #not to even mention wildflowers for the future!!!! #like. ROLLS ON THE GROUND #it’s abt ‘i’m not immune to emotions you know’ it’s about it’s about #it’s abt how he feels like his emotions were disregarded since childhood (esp after duscur) so he pushed away the #sentimentality because he’s seen where it got his friends (revenge quests & death wishes) #but he can’t help but follow his friends down those paths anyway because he loves them so much!!!!!!! #like him acknowledging the spear’s importance to dimitri bc it’s all that’s left of lambert but ALSO #in that moment it’s all FELIX has left of DIMITRI. ykwim #like felix babygirl my beloved y do u think it makes u sick to see areadbhar in the enemy’s possession…….. #he is just so hypocritical i adore him. he might be the character of all time to me #bro is trying so hard to b a lone wolf but was NOT built for that he was built to be loved and cherished by his friends #and so he shall be. thank you #um anyway idk what my point here was. i just like thinking abt how much felix loves everybody #someday i will make a coherent felix post. today is not that day #dmlxposting #dimilix #yknow what yeah.

[amanesknife]

Yall it’s been half a week, I’ve finished 3 other manga, but the Concubine Walkthrough brainrot is still here 😭

I’m simply not over Sunshine? Between Lili and Dooyak, the story pretty much tells you never to trust appearances so I had a feeling he had his reasons. But I wish I did hate him when I was reading so I wouldn’t be so hung up about it.

At the end of the day, yeah, they all get their happy ending but man. Did they have to basically make a more heart-numbing version of that reddit lamp storu

#concubine walkthrough #concubine walkthrough spoilers #ig I’m not explicitly spoiling anything but v heavy implications #I’m literally just ranting lol #i have emotions abt the story and idk what to do with them #does any of this even make sense? no. post.

[gatoraid]

Ouyang/Baoxiang thoughts pt 2

Still thinking abt when I first saw this tie-in picture for the HWDTW reward story and did not really know what the picture was about… so for a hot two minutes I thought Ouyang/Baoxiang would become canon sobbb

Aand like it totally made sense in my head, since they are both so fucked up they’d suit each other perfectly… but most importantly bc they both knew Esen like no other, they both lost Esen and know what that loss means for the other, since they also both chose to kill him and will carry that regret forever.

Like idk I just love the idea and potential of two people being brought together by their shared grief, and maybe eventually even finding some sort of solace or absolution through that. But obviously it would never have been possible between these two, precisely bc of how fucked up they are.

I always find myself with these ships where the characters mirror each other in such fascinating ways, showing each other what they most resent abt themselves leading to mutual dislike. The other having what the other doesn’t, leading to obsession and jealousy and some really complicated untouched emotions. Where the characters can show their truly ugly sides to each other without filter.

I just always want to see what would happen if these type of characters met under different circumstances, in a different universe, and what kind of friends, rivals, allies, lovers they could become. What if they could recognize themselves in one another and find it something to cherish, not to reject? What if they were totally insufferable to each other but still stuck together bc on some level they still care? What if they could help each other heal while still remaining their terrible selves, just a little less fucked up?

#idk they just make me so emotional lately #i’m in finishing stages for the fic I’ve been writing abt them and it’s like the antithesis of everything written in this post lmaooo #or a totally messed up version of it #anyway I should probably sleep #once again my ask box and messages are open for any and all ouyang/baoxiang and baoxiang related thoughts and feelings #orz #ouyang/baoxiang

[collegeoflore]

filing these under “lines that make xarrai feel extremely normal” as well.

#this whole conversation is a lot for them. LMAO. #i have actually fully rewritten this one as a dialogue study too bc it’s like. a very important moment for them but #idk man. i wish u could argue with him more in game LOL #this convo makes me and xarrai both batshit insane tho LOL #the inbuilt banite ambition they run from but cannot shake (let him take this power and then take it from him) #vs the love for him they refuse to admit is love (this will ruin him) #they don’t WANT this power and they don’t want him to have it but they can’t shake the part of them that plots out how to get it. #but they have to be better than what made them or none of it was worth it etc etc etc i am rambling. anyway. bye #oc. xarrai #r. hold me like a knife #(for durge!xar they r much more like ‘idk if this is a good idea but i will maybe help u??’) #(canon!xar is (after they get over their knee jerk reaction of Oooh I Want It) is very directly to his face like ‘this is an awful idea.’) #realized these tags r not even about the lines in the screenshots. lol. #the whole ‘what cazador did was only wrong because it happened to *me*’ cuts them like a fucking knife tho LOL #it’s such a flagrant rejection of everything xarrai has said to him by this point. and he doesn’t even recognize it as one LOL #but xar hears that as ‘every bit of genuine emotion you’ve shown me and the trust u put in me with ur past meant nothing :) sowwie’ #‘it was only bad bc it happened to me and that means it’s not bad when ppl like cazador do things to ppl like u either :)’ #and they Know that’s not what he means. but instead of communicating like an adult they just seethe abt it LOL #okay sorry now i’m done. #lord only knows why i exclusively drop lore in the tags.

[consulaaris]

love in the little things 

shepherds of haven (@shepherds-of-haven​). red antiqua / f!MC (rhiannon vasi). ~1.3k words. 

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Every time Rhiannon thinks she’s got her life under control, something comes back to bite her. Change has always felt a bit like a threat— she finds herself uncomfortable, out of her depth. She likes things to be predictable and people to be kept at an arm’s distance. 

Red… is a complication. 

She can’t bring herself to say it’s a bad thing, though, having her old friend around these past weeks. Even when he inadvertently storms through the walls she’s spent a decade building like they’re made of paper— and when every moment she spends with the other mage reminds her of why she’d fallen for him all those years ago. 

He'd asked her to meet this morning on their shared day off, so here Rhia finds herself standing wrapped in a warm cloak in the courtyard of the Shepherds’ compound, gray eyes blinking blearily at being drawn from her bed so early. 

(If it were anyone else, she’d have told them to chew on rocks. ) 

It’s fairly empty of other Shepherds so far. Mist clings to the top of the tower, and the quiet, cloudy start to the day has Rhia feeling especially drowsy. She’s half entertaining the potential of leaving Red a note and retreating to the warmth of her blankets when she sees him enter the courtyard and instantly perks up. His height and shock of scarlet hair make him easy to pick out, and though she’d grumble if asked, Rhia can’t deny that her heart flutters at the way his handsome face lights up when he notices her waiting. 

“I got these for you!” Red calls out in lieu of a greeting as he jogs over, and he’s a little out of breath as he hands a little paper bag to her, holding it like some precious thing. 

After an instant of surprised hesitation Rhia takes it, curiously unfolding the top and peering inside. Within lay two fresh strawberry pastries, their fruity, buttery scent wafting upwards from the bag. Her mouth opens in a perfect “o”, because she recognizes these treats, from her favorite little bakery halfway across Haven— the one she seldom goes to, because it’s so far away, and often everything but plain bread is sold out not long after sunrise.  

She’s still trying to calculate just how damned early Red must’ve woken up for this when she hears him shifting in front of her.

“If you don’t like them, I can get a different flavor.” Red rubs the back of his neck, laughing. Though his posture is relaxed, he’s buzzing with an energy Rhia can’t quite put her finger on. “And they might not be warm anymore, since it took me a while to get back here—” 

“No!” Rhia blurts out, before realizing she’d interrupted him, and her face flushes “No, no, I— they— these are my favorites. They’re perfect.” 

She knows full well she’s rambling now, but the broad smile on Red’s face is enough to light up a room and she can’t quite bring herself to care. 

“I remembered how much you loved strawberry pastries at the Circle, and figured you still might.” 

All of the air flees her lungs in an instant, leaving Rhia feeling a bit like she’d been tossed into a freezing lake. For all she’s done to try and convince herself that she hadn’t mattered, that her childhood friends were better off without her and that she’d be a long-forgotten memory, he… Red had remembered. Such a small detail, but she feels the truth, the genuine affection behind the gesture. That had to count for something. 

Her breath, catching in her throat, feels like the sting of an affection that lurks so deep and raw within her, Rhia thinks she might burst from it.

(A pain, too, in equal measure.)

It takes a split second to collect her composure, but even so for a moment all she can muster is a quiet, emotional, “Thank you.” 

And then she does something very, very stupid. 

Rhia impulsively throws her arms around Red, pulling him tight in a hug just like he’d done with her the day they’d reunited. And when his arms wrap around her in turn, warm and comforting, she tries not to think too hard about how right it feels. Tries not to think of how Red’s all-too-familiar scent of juniper and ink reminds her of the things she’s never going to be able to have. Most of all she tries, desperately, to convince herself that none of this pity— that he’s not mourning the person she used to be, doing this because he feels he must (because Red would, he would, and as selfish as Rhia knows she is, she can’t bear the thought). 

But perhaps she is still the same, in some ways. Maybe even the ones that matter. 

The bag of little pastries still gripped in her hand can attest to that.

When she pulls away, face flushed crimson, Rhia pushes back a few strands of dark hair that had escaped from her braid. Finds herself staring at the ground, at rough cobblestone that’s suddenly far more interesting than the pair of pretty green eyes focused right on her— though she’s unable to refrain from peeking up at Red through her lashes. 

“I’ll take that as a sign you like my surprise,” Red says, lightly, but he can’t keep the dazzling grin from his face, nor the slight flush from his tanned cheeks. There’s a softness in the way his eyes crinkle at the corners— a tender expression that makes her chest ache with the force of it. 

“This is how you used to look at me,” she wants to say. But Rhia’s a coward and always has been, so she keeps her mouth shut. 

Instead she raises an eyebrow at him imperiously, trying to pretend like she hadn’t just bared her heart for him to see. “Wouldn’t you like to know.”

Even after all these years, he can read her well enough to know she’s teasing. Red laughs, brushing his fingers lightly against her arm, and not for the first time Rhiannon wishes that he weren’t so easy to love. 

Instead of saying anything further she opens the paper bag, mouth watering at the sight of the pastries, and plucks one out— before tilting it towards towards Red in silent offering. 

Red merely laughs, shaking his head and crossing his arms. “No, they’re both for you. My treat.” 

Rhia purses her lips. “It’d be no fun to eat them alone.” 

“You’ve never shared your pastries,” he says mildly.

“I do with you.” 

A pause. 

Red’s eyes widen slightly. 

The silence lingers a moment, something both tense and soft between them. It says too much and not enough all at once, but it’s as honest as she can bring herself to be in the moment. 

It’s Red who breaks the quiet, as his lips curve into a gentle smile. “If you insist.” 

He agrees to take the remaining treat only on the condition that she take the first taste of her own— and that, she has no qualms about.

Rhia’s burning cheeks slowly fade as they chat and nibble on their breakfast, walking the streets of Haven near the compound. The conversation between them flows as naturally as it ever had, and if there’s a few topics she avoids, Red doesn’t seem to mind. They’ve got years of catching up to do, to learn each other all over again; but it’s easier, the second time, to fall back into familiar patterns and inside jokes. Still, something in her begs for more, more, and no matter how much Rhia thinks she can’t bear to hurt him the way she’s hurt everyone else she’s loved, she can’t quite stamp down that flicker of hope.

But her heart is full; and with the taste of the berries and powdered sugar sweet on their tongues, laughing together about the crumbs coating Red’s face, Rhia accepts that this has to be enough. 

#shepherds of haven #shoh #red antiqua #rae writes #oc: rhiannon vasi #otp: rhiannon/red #smth smth love through acts of service and sharing of food and idk man it’s 1am i’m feeling a thing #wrote this entire thing in a daze this evening so if it’s bad pls don’t perceive me too hard shjdjdj #i’m just feeling some emotions abt them #esp after last month’s chp 8 update #also have i mentioned i hate tumblr formatting. this is so much pretty on the doc #*prettier i’m tired and not retyping that LOL #but yes. very early reunion pining let’s gooooo

[autistic-katara]

u ever get mad at urself for getting overly upset abt smthn but then realise actually this is a pretty normal reaction to that information and ur just kinda desensitised to that kinda stuff

#idk if i wanna say on here what this is abt or not #if anyone asks (feel free to) i’ll dm u it but idk if i wanna say publicly #god i just miss them #i miss all of them #is this a vent? #idk #feel free to rb if u wanna #edit: actually please someone ask me about it i’m feeling actually sick just thinking abt it #(kinda overstating things there i think that part might actually just be my period hormones causing me to overreact) #(or just my regular ‘it’s either not a big deal or the world is ending and its all ur fault’ emotional thingy idk)

[fleshdyke]

absnskaisgbsj

#lost literally one of the best friendships of my life yesterday #i mean it’s been gone for a while i just never had the courage to talk to them about it until yesterday. and that basically confirmed it tbh #they didn’t say i did anything wrong but they also didn’t not say i did anything wrong and i’m v paranoid that i did do smth wrong #like i dont want to talk bad abt any of them bc genuinely i had so much fun with these people and im so glad i got to know them #like when i talked to them they were very dry ig? like not like their usual self at all even when talking to someone they dont know #definitely sounded like they were talking to someone they hated. im trying to tell myself taht its just my anxiety but ummm yeah idk i think #im actually right this time #idk. it just sucks man. im trying to think of what i did wrong bc i just dont know what happened #i think im overanalyzing every interaction i can remember having with these ppl bc i dont even want to entertain the idea that they might #have been bad people all along. i dont want to think that and i dont but idk it feels like an observation about myself that ive made from #the outside in yk. like half of me is feeling the emotional response and the other half is just watching from the outside like im someone #else. and i know this is a normal human thing but its just always weird yk #and then theres the whole awful thing of seeing shit that they would find funny or that reminds me of them. and i also dont know what im #supposed to do when school starts back up again bc we took a lot of the same classes and if i end up in a class with them idk if im supposed #to say hi or just pretend they dont exist or not and i dont want to make the wrong decision so they hate me even more yk #whatever man. it fucking sucks but life goes on. my dog is just chilling in my room rn and i’ll always have her and tia and my brother #rambles #vent

[mars-ipan]

genuinely i don’t know how someone could meet a kid and decide children are horrid monsters actually. kids are so good

#marzi speaks #idk if i want kids myself but i am good with them #and i do love kids. once they get old enough to talk to you can have such amazing conversations #idk. who wouldn’t want to talk with the future? #i am probs thinking this bc i’m just finishing visiting my little cousins #and i have tried Very Hard to be the cool older cousin they can look up to and trust #and i’m proud to say it’s succeeded <3333 ough i love them they’re so sweet #it’s cute they’re shy. i was the exact same type of shy as a kid so i know exactly how to make them feel comfortable #but they’re creative and they draw and they like my drawings #and they’re at the age where they’re starting to explore their identities and because i am unabashedly queer i get to Know About It #and just !!!! augh i am filled with love. #unfortunately the older one is only an inch shorter than me despite being over half a decade younger than me #</3 curse of height genes #that’s ok tho. still little in my heart #i don’t want them to grow up ever they r so important to me #i’m very emotional abt it rn idk why. maybe i’m tired maybe it’s residual period hormones #i just love them so so much. i need to visit more #ok i’m not gonna cry but like . it was close for a second

[deerlisteners]

can we talk abt how many times felix like checks in on dimitri abt eating. can we talk about that

#deertalking #feposting #dmlxposting #HE DOES IT. SO MANY TIMES #or well maybe like three times across both games. but i think that’s the most times of anybody isn’t it #the devs were like how many times can we reuse felix asking mitri ‘why aren’t u eating are u ok’ before the players get tired of it #(the answer is unlimited times) #mby i should compile them actually #im torn btwn him knowing abt the taste thing and him having no idea but picking up on it in these scenes #like probably he would’ve noticed Something in the two years post-tragedy & pre-rebellion right #then again i have nooo idea what that era looked like & glenn had just died so he might not have noticed. #but then again AGAIN he’s felix and probably would notice. right. like he would #man idk im just like………. #fr abt to make a masterpost of every time someone mentions it #it’s wild how much more significant that dialogue becomes after literally one support convo #this post was prompted by me once again thinking abt felix & his whole lone wolf persona thing but his own actions betray him over & over #like the beginning of hopes if u ask who the boar is & he goes ‘he’s not ur problem’………. #and ‘i’m not immune to emotion yk’ #LIKE YKWIM #anyway i cant start talking abt felix again here or I won’t stop goodbye

[mrburnsnuclearpussy]

Maybe I would play any of the sonic games if they had Carson in them but they don’t so….what do they expect lol. If you want me to play a game you have to put Carson in or I don’t care!!! God when will they fucking LEARN

#btw idk if I’ll be more normal about Carson soon ish coz they upped my meds to highest dose in hopes it might regulate my irrational thought #thoughts* and stuff etc etc so…we will see lol #not BECAUSE of Carson lol but just like everything in general #also I gotta take another test coz they’re like we can’t confirm a disorder but you definitely have autistic traits so that might be #interesting! coz I’ve been wondering for years and I learned that others have too #and bad emotional regulation or something like that? #plus anxiety and depression obvs. but im not complaining abt this coz im getting further to knowing answers of- #-what is wrong with me. which is what I’ve been craving since forever so it’s a huge step forward! #i can’t believe I am where I am now compared to just a year or so ago like it’s crazy #i had a lapse yesterday and was suicidal which was bad but I have an amazing supportive team and im so lucky to have them and they helped #-me a lot and I’m so glad I’ve got the recourse’s I do because if I didn’t im scared to think what I’d be like #so 🙏 #sorry random life update ramblings #but im good today yay

[vvenuspng]

something in my soul needs to see loona and stolas interact

#LISTEN.. i know it would b a (hilarious) disaster but also also. idk. i just wanna see them interact #they only existed on the same frame in both s1e6 and s2e2 😞 #LIKE i know via n blitz would get along bc they’ve had a lot of parallel cut scenes so they’re similar enough so i’m just curious #also feel like loona wouldn’t b able to handle how. stolas. stolas is. IN A GOOD WAY. would confuse her into being chill w him yknow ? yk? #anyways. yes i’m thinking abt the familial relationships in helluva. yes it’s making me emotional stfu i’m normal #xx venus #need to draw more loona&blitz and via&stolas tbh

[nyandereneko]

Tomorrow is Elden Ring’s one year anniversary time to explode

#ck.txt #should delete #will delete #I’m gonna talk abt my VM ER AU nonstop to celebrate bcuz I already can’t get it out of my head #and I wanna talk abt it 24/7 but I’ve also thought abt both Qifrey and Arcanum in ER verse too… #I should stick my own OC Nox in there and actually start developing my OWN STUFF #but anyway I’m obsessed w/ running around in both Elden ring world and botw even w/ Vax specifically #I wanna go on so many magical adventures w/ him idk what this half elf did to me but #he’s definitely hit and perhaps even exceeded Hei levels of emotion in me so #I wanna marry Vax and go on magical adventures w/ him okay 😭😭 and Zhongli and Qifrey and Arcanum and Vere too but #IM JUST GONNA HAVE TO MAKE ROOM FOR ALL OF THEM RIP