#id love to make a proper one

[jackalhadrurusluvr]

want to get back into tarot but my dad would nooooot approve

#idk why because hes not even super religious #like obv we're in a christian family so he has that and like i know he believes in god and stuff #but i dont think hes gone to church since the times his mother wouldve forced him to #maybe he wouldnt be mad about it. he is curious and he does believe in the universe and fate and talks about it much more then god #but you know #society if i didnt have the nosiest dad in the west (how the heck do i get a package without him asking to see what it is) #(if i say no he'll get even more suspicious) #but ive been seeing videos of people practicing hellenism (bonus points: usually with the one i worship) #and my birthday is sunday this year #sooooooo im feeling like it might be time for me to Return to it all #but like. never tell a christian you worship another god especially if it is not monotheism is what i have learned #they will not like it very much #how do i subtly make an altar now that i have a bit more space and am not going between houses #id love to make a proper one #i kind of need to just redo my entire room and change my furniture (its not happening bc furniture expensive but just pretend like it could

[arsenicflame]

the thing is, right, if izzy WAS evil i would still absolutely love him. hes a fictional character, i don't care about his morals if hes compelling.

but the frustrating thing is that hes not evil, hes not even the antagonist anymore by a long stretch, hes arguably more liked by the crew than ed at the moment, but people still insist that we are reading the text of the show wrong and its going to completely 180 and turn him into a cartoon villain when there is absolutely no sign of that in the show, from the cast and crew, anything!!!

its so ridiculously annoying that i feel i have to defend my stance on a character because some people are so determined to cast him into the roll of a villain he is not, and think that we are the wrong ones for simply reading what the show is putting out

#sorry to izcourse over here im jusy thinking #i think about izzys morality constantly because hes so interesting to me #i find him so compelling + its so frustrating to see people reduce him to this 1 dimensional villain when hes always been so interesting!!! #this is not my finest example of coherent thought but honestly i do not care to try and organise this into a proper argument #im fine w being incomprehensible. you get my point. #id still like him if he was evil but hes not and its frustrating to be told you shouldnt like him because hes the villain and mean to our #most precious innocent babies :( #you get the vibe. i love evil characters but izzy is not one of them #nyxtalks #ofmd #ofmd s2 spoilers #the izcourse #i have actually been thinking about like. what draws me to him. the desperation!!! its the desperation that tinges everything he does #idk its so boring if you make him evil like what. why would you do that when you could give him a real fucked up divorce

[whack-patty]

Got REAL invested in clangen last night. Here are my fav 4 that haven't died yet

Og sprites belong to the game!!!

#my art lol #clangen #warriors oc #furry #cobalt and prance have like 10 children already #garlic i was so sure was gonna be ace till squid came along #theyve got two(?) babies now too #squid also had a sister named barracuda who died trying to save one of cobalt and prance's kits #unfortunately they both passed away #anyway hw is kicking my ass so sorry for saying id catch up on sneep snorp then immediately not doing that #i should probably make a proper update post abt that huh #but until then... KITTY CATS #blorbie clan is named after my irl cat btw #it’s my tester clan to just see what the games about #I’d love to someday start a more intense one and make a comic abt it idk #I just like making brainless comics #no I never read wc btw my buddies are trying to get me into it lol

[hella1975]

sometimes i think about the fact my grandparents literally overnight just cut us off and im like. how did u even do that. does it torment you

#eeaao's 'how did you let me go so easily' moment. like i dont let myself even THINK about this too often #bc i immediately beat myself back with the 'if it's hard for you then imagine how hard it is for mum. her PARENTS cut her off' #but like. idk. my nan i couldn't give less of a shit about which is something i always find so interesting #bc even as a child with NO basis for it or any understanding of her behaviour both past and present i still wasn't Comfortable around her #like children are smart actually. i just Knew her vibes were off and i Knew my mum was weird when she was around #like i truly dont think i ever loved my nan even when she was a very frequent part of my life #but my grandad? i ADORED him. id see him multiple times a week and he's the kindest man ive ever met #and hannah what i told you about my mum saying certain people have magnetic auras THAT WAS ABOUT HIM #like i cant actually put into words what it was about him but people just wanted to know him and spend time with him #but he was weak and let my nan walk all over him and when push came to shove he chose her and now ive not spoken to him in 3 years #& i KNOW he loved me. he thought the world of me like it's a bitter unspoken thing between me & my sister that we KNOW i was his favourite #he used to buy me egg butties at agricultural shows when my mum said no and specifically ask for two eggs #he used to sit and eat his soup with me when he came over to do work at the house #he used to play with me. he used to smile all the time. i can so clearly hear the way he'd go ''iya [my name]' with his proper rural accent #or how he'd tell anyone who would listen 'she's tough as old boots that one' #and i could make him laugh like NO ONE else could and he'd light up and go 'give over' and he genuinely enjoyed my company #i KNOW HE DID. and i havent spoken to him in 3 years. he'll be dead soon #and i cant talk to my mum about it bc it's her DAD it is so much worse for her and i cant talk to my sister about it #bc she wasn't close with him like i was and she just shuts the conversation down and those are the only two people #who know my grandad and know what he meant to me so im just here like. he literally stopped speaking to me overnight #i stopped hearing from him i stopped meeting up with him im so so angry with him the love is still there i dont know where to put it now #why couldnt he stay. why did he pick her when she's a loveless void of inhumanity. why werent we enough #hella goes home #my grandparents on my dad's side are also not in the picture funnily enough but idgaf about them. she got that grandparentless swag

[rsenak]

weapons from the basement!

#my art #swords #goat weapons from the goat basement <3 #+ a pair of bone daggers made from the fangs of some beast 4horns killed #(those 2 were going to be given to someone as a courting gift but things didnt go well so they just became regular gifts....) #(so proud of 4horns for finally learning how to be a proper disaster from her brother) #weapons on the left side belonged to the goatmilf #and greatsword on the right is 7000ish years old and has a little bit of a history #but its very cool! in more ways than one #sv forum #running around on all fours id love to share all the weapon lore but i CANT bc it wouldnt make SENSE to anyone other than maybe 5 people

[jonny-b-meowborn]

I need to become very rich so I could commission a fursuit I need to be dog

#also i need to figure out if there are any fur cons in poland #i know that theres furries on pyrkon but thats a more fantasy con #i still want to visit it one day tho #my sisters been on it so many times and she always makes it sound so cool #my cousins been there once or twice. some of my friends too #and yeah ive heard there are some furries sometimes too #but you know i wish i could go to a proper furry convention be surrounded by my people #and ofc id love to have a fursuit of my own #ive been thinking about making like a partial suit from yarn #like crochet myself ears paws maybe a tail and a mask #i dont think a fully crocheted fursuit would look that good unless id make it actually fluffy #i know there is a method for that but. its a pain in the ass lmao #but if i had at least some parts that would be cool #therian #furry #bee buzz

[neofelis----nebulosa]

against my better i ended up seeing some of the clips people are posting from kfp 4 and i actually really like it

#id have to actually watch the movie to form a proper opinion #but based on what ive seen they made a lot of choices i dont love but i love what they did with the direction they took #and everything they did with the effects on the chameleon are just so cool #i feel like its worth watching based on that alone #and ik a lot of people are not happy about zhen but she actually looks like a pretty interesting character #i wish they had hired someone other than awkwafina to play her but you win some you lose some #all and all it looks like it works well as an epilogue to the original triology #like the trilogy is pos journey with body mind and spirit #and the 4th is what happens after that arc is complete #but i hope they stop the main series after this one #but i would love a furious 5 spinoff movie #or just more short films set in this universe #like secrets of the scroll and secrets of the furious 5 #wow the people who make these movies really like the word secret #but yeah i can see why a lot of people feel let down by the movie but from what ive seen it has a lot of merit in its own right #but as i said havent actually watched it yet #so whos to say #ill probably wait until i can rent it or it goes to streaming bc i dont know anyone who would watch it with me who would actually want to #like i have people who would be willing to but i dont think they would actively want to and i dont want my experience watching it to have.. #...to be me forcing someone else to watch it with me #and i dont want to go alone bc that would be embarassing #(unless another secret option presents itself before its available to rent or stream #which dreamworks if youre reading this that was totally a joke i would never watch your movies in a way you would not profit from)

[lampregistration3000]

god i love health insurance in this country

#would love it if it did literally anything #got to love the news that it won't cover anything at all for me in this surgery! #anyway i can still afford it and im still happy about it but like finances are so tight for me rn lmao. #its like. part of the reason ive been waiting so long for this is the pride and knowledge that i should not have to pay anything for #medical care under a just and correct system and having to set my standards aside and grovel for the fucking. necessary and life saving #stuff i need to not feel horrible and disgusting and ugly every day of my life is debasing and dehumanizing #to sum it u #i'm just really frustrated rn. #its so hard to like... go get help or do anything for myself in the first place ever because like. every single time i try to do anything i #get slapped with the harshest penalties known to mankind #you could argue that i could have tried to find a different doctor or whatever but i need my hand held through everything and i still think #that this one was the proper and correct choice based on that #anyway. i have the lump sum. i dunno if i should try to finance it to make myself not feel like i have no money or what. #maybe ill try to open comissions or something but idk if i even have time for that #like im still going to send them the request to reimburse me for my fucking medical bills anyway and i know theyre not going to because #fuck you. but still. id like a letter saying 'fuck you vintage go die and give me 10 grand' instead of just trusting some schmuck over the #phone about it. lmao. #im so tired. i need a break. #between this and work i think its killing me. #im hopeful my blood pressure isnt going to be too high for clearence lmao i am so fuckign worried about that because if it is then like. #nothing ive done at all to prepare for it has mattered at all #i need to be unemployed i am so tired of working for a living i just want to crawl in a hole and sleep for forever

[jaekaicx]

rb and put in the tags a piece of media with an amazing concept but terrible execution

#the 'minecraft stranded' series by the proper idiots/dummies on youtube #the overall plot is nothing big its a bunch of plane passengers crashing onto an island and stuff happens #theyre split into pairs and they each get into conflicts w each other out of pointless paranoia #but the thing i love abt is is the perspective and the way it ends #so each of the youtubers posted their own povs and i first watched it from unspeakable's pov #but the thing about his pov is that him and his partner end up becoming the villains #unspeakable is kind of a dummie bc thats how he usually portrays himself #but his partner ryguy is super smart #he's a strategist and an engineer he makes these cool hidden bases and ends up making gear thats far beyond the other teams' #at one point the other teams worked together to raid their base and ryguy came up w this elaborate escape plan that worked almost flawlessly #but the main thing is the ending #its kind of a long story but basically things went really wrong for unspeakable (nathan) & ryguy. so they plotted revenge #ryguy went a bit crazy but he ended up creating this super op gear for him and nathan and they used it to threaten everyone else #and theres nothing anyone can do about it #ryguy ends up staying on the island to live out his power trip but he makes a deal to let the others leave if they leave him alone #the overall story isnt really that great. like its a minecraft rp series there isnt much to expect #but i liked the twist its what made it memorable #ive wanted to make something inspired by it like an au or smth but id have no clue how to go about it #i just wanted an excuse to talk abt it #but also pls share i wanna see

[tokyoteddywolf]

It sucks so much once you realize how entwined someone is in your life, then it just sucks more when you have to scrub away the traces it existed. That it was there, and it was good, until it wasn't anymore.

(Ignore my angry venting it's 3am I'm cranky and want chocolate.)

#vent #i feel like my hands are soaked in blood that soap cant clean #'blood is thicker than water' they say but that just makes it all the harder to scrub away once it goes bad #i loved you so much and i still do but now everything is just bitter and rotting and i hate it so much #and im just ranting to myself about how unfair it is that im doing so much better but i still miss what i had #that it wasnt your fault i didnt get help sooner- i believed so badly that i didnt deserve help. #that if i just waited long enough id rot away and be done with it all. #and i never got to say 'thank you for loving me when i couldnt love myself' at the worst time of my life. #you tried to help me. i can appreciate that #but i can be bitter that you still abandoned me. i have that right. i am going to be better and do better but you dont get to have that. #im still learning how to be a proper human. one that can learn to love herself and not distrust any form of affection. #but im going to do that on my own and when im better i hope you see it. i really hope you do. #you both still abandoned me though so fuck you both for that. im not gonna be nice about it anymore. #i didnt wanna hurt feelings even though mine were CONSTANTLY trampled over. so yeah. fuck you. that feels good to say. #fuck you for never apologizing. fuck you for abandoning me in a city i had no place else to go in. fuck you for giving me false hope. #fuck you for making promises you couldnt keep. fuck you for all the times i felt alone or excluded or just plain unwanted. #fuck you for constantly picking each other over me. fuck you for all the times i had to swallow how i felt because it was 'mean'. #fuck you for making your love conditional. fuck you for never even trying to understand how i felt. fuck you for taking years of my life. #and mostly just- fuck you for making me think i was worth it. #i felt like i had to do all the work in that friendship. starting convos and game days and INTERACTING. #the friends i have now dont do that shit. they COMMUNICATE WITH ME. Fuck you for that too by the way! not communicating! #rant over. fuck you. im gonna sleep now knowing you wont see this cuz ya BLOCKED ME.

[samwisefamgee]

Love being reminded that no matter how hard I try or what I do for them that every single person in my family wants me to kill myself so so sooooo bad

#i only walked halfway across town in 40 degree weather to help you specifically it's fine #i love being lied to i love being ignored i love being used by people i thought cared just to learn theyve been lying for years for my labo #i love emotional abuse i love perpetual disrespect i love manipulation and disguised hate #and at least im out of weed so I can have a real proper fucking meltdown about it cause god forbid i help myself not hurt myself too #gonna be a super super fun couple days let's see what inside the shitty fucked up freezing molding box i live in makes it through!!!!!!!!!! #did i mention i cant keep it above 55 degrees in here in this weather during the day cause its a fun addition to my times #ive only been lied to about being given a heater for my efforts for *checks watch* two years of 'living' here #just wait til night falls thats when the REAL fun staying warm starts #id pay anyone $20 to shoot me in the heart if i had $20 #also smth actually good happened this morn n i just realized i completely forgot n buried it under all this lovely pain and dissappointment #so cool i waited for literal weeks to have one good thing i worked hard for to happen and i dont even care anymore why do i fuckin bother

[vertigala]

*Grabs you by the throat* Listen to me you TMAGP-loving freaks. Listen to me right now. RedCanary might be the host for this universe's Jonah Magnus.

This is under the assumption that TMAGP takes place in a parallel universe that may or may not have already had the fears in it prior to Jon releasing them at the end of TMA.

RedCanary goes to explore the Magnus Institute ruins. They become paranoid because the Eye is watching them. They pick up a wooden box with strange symbols carved into it. They go to put it back. Next we hear from them, they post an image of gouged out eyes with the caption "Canaries should stay above ground."

They found the tunnels, hence that caption. Then they found Jonah Magnus's body sitting down there, waiting for a new host.

In this universe, the Magnus Institute burned down in 1999. Maybe in this universe Gertrude went through with her original plan of burning the place to the ground after finding out Elias was actually Jonah in 1997. Either way, let's say Jonah's original body is down there, maybe with Elias's body and his eyes and all that, and with his plans foiled, he's just chilling down there waiting for an opportunity which RedCanary then gives him. This is my going theory due to the specificity of the caption "canaries should stay above ground" (referring to the tunnels, and also it being in third-person) and the fact that RedCanary themselves would be pretty unlikely to be able to post that picture of THEIR OWN EYES GOUGED OUT unless it was Magnus assuming their body and identity and being a freak about it.

But there's more.

Narratively speaking, it makes sense for the third voice in the computer to be Jonah Magnus, right? If Jon and Martin ended up in this universe as voices in a computer, the only other person sharing their fate would have to be Magnus, given how TMA ended. Recall, also, the boot-up sequence in the trailer of TMAGP.

[id: a screenshot of the text from the TMAGP teaser, which says “initializing J.01… OK/initializing M.01… OK/initializing J.02… OK”. end id.]

Jonathan, Martin, and Jonah, right? Unless Augustus is gonna be a new J name or this is just an unrelated easter egg but like. It's Jonah right?? Right??? And he's watching the O.I.R.A through the systems like a good little voyeur, and Colin knows it!

So now we possibly have TWO Jonah Magnuses in this universe!! That's absurd!! One from the TMAGP universe now loose and running around in RedCanary's body, and one from the TMA universe trapped in a computer. But if this is true...doesn't that mean there would be two Jons and Martins too?

And listen...I'm thinking about what Jonny and Alex said during that liveshow panel about this story's themes regarding "what makes a human." If we dare to hope that Jon and Martin (and Jonah, if it's his voice in the computer) are going to gain consciousness and once again become proper characters...then, are they going to simply stay in the computer? Or are they going to "manifest" physically? Are they going to UPLOAD themselves into THEIR OWN TMAGP UNIVERSE BODIES?

@doomatix and I have been going crazy over these theories and they were the one that initially considered RedCanary's new identity as Jonah Magnus. Are our facts wrong? Does any of this even make sense? We haven't seen anyone else posting about this particular theory. Someone help us we are rotting. And don't even get me started on how GWEN would fit into this--

#the magnus protocol #the magnus archives #tma #tmagp #spoilers #theory #jonathan sims #martin blackwood #jonah magnus #elias bouchard

[ponytailzuko]

[ID copied from alt text: Two drawings of Zuko from the live action series. In the first drawing, he's posing, smiling with one hand on his hip and another putting up a peace sign. The text next to him says "just got back from trying to kill defenseless people cowering on the ground again. #justzukothings." In the second drawing, he's sitting proper with his hands in his lap with a wide grin on his face. The text next to him says "watching a 12 year old fall to his death when i break his glider." End ID]

rewatched the live action series with some friends a bit ago. now i know what happens i've been able to focus more on characterization and zuko cracks me up. i can't tell if they were trying to make him more or less sympathetic. ep 1 he shares that hes banished and dad doesn't love him etc etc but also he tries to fry sokka immediately. he doesn't burn down kyoshi island but he's about to fry katara. there was a moment in ep 1 where aang is falling from his glider and it just kept cutting to zuko widely smiling as he plummets - literally cannot tell if he's aiming to capture or kill aang. the dissonance its so funny to me.

#atla #natla #zuko #when i go to bed and dream abt the 12 yo im about to terrorize tomorrow. HELPPP

[neil-gaiman]

hey mr gaiman. i saw that this post got revisited and wanted to address it.

i submitted this ask over a year ago on my old account and it was one of the stupidest things i ever did. it was my first tumblr account. id only been really online for a few weeks. i was 13. i was just coming back to school after a global pandemic.

ive been a fan of good omens for years and a fan of yours for longer. i was brought up reading odd and the frost giants and fortunately the milk, and as i got older i fell in love with your norse mythology book, good omens, snow glass apples, the sleeper and the spindle, and more.

i was excited to see one of my favorite authors on tumblr and tried to come up with the most bold and interesting ask i could think of.

i was rude and misinformed and it was a stupid choice of me to send it in with no thought.

but i got feedback. some in the form of kind suggestions. quite a few in the form of death threats and people telling me to kill myself.

while those specific messages were rude and hateful, the point got across. i educated myself to the best of my abilities, and eventually came back online.

not only did i misuse the term queerbaiting but i also implied that you were not an amazing supporter of the queer community. that’s absolutely incorrect. you’ve done so much for us with activism, representation, and overall kindness.

i wanted to address this ask that got so much attention because despite moving accounts i still feel guilt and shame every time i see it, or even when i interact with any of your posts at all. i need to actually address it.

also, i wanted a proper apology to be made. by no means am i now a saint. but im trying to be more thoughtful about thinking before i speak.

whether or not you decide to make a public response to this, i think ill find some peace knowing you’ve received this. ive needed closure on this for a long time.

im overjoyed and thrilled that season two is so close. thank you for tolerating the dumb questions of pretentious kids and thank you for helping to create a world where we can grow to be better than we were.

First of all, and most importantly, I'm really sorry that people were mean to you. That's awful. And nobody should ever have to deal with death threats or online threats and attacks, let alone a thirteen year old.

And secondly, you do not owe me an apology. I figure I have a Tumblr account, people ask things. Mostly they'll get nice replies, occasionally (normally when I'm being asked the same thing over and over) the replies will be terser. There has to be a certain amount of rough and tumble though, and occasionally I'll grab an ask that represents all of the asks I've had on that subject, and try and reply to all of them. That's what happened to you. I was getting tired of being accused of Queerbaiting for the occasional answer about a Season that was not yet released and about which nobody knew anything. And I needed to tell everyone who was doing this that they had to stop now. You had the misfortune to be the representative of all of the other people.

If you are not making mistakes you are not human and you are not learning anything.

(I wish there was tone of voice on the internet.)

And I think you are growing and learning and will make a fantastic adult.

I really hope you enjoy Season 2 when it drops.

#And I hope as many people are nice and supportive about this post #as were mean about that first one

[psychiclounge]

btw feast of pilgrims scared the shit out of me with the haunts in the crypt. i am NOT immune

#running away screaming arms flailing trying frantically to fire arrow them without also dying in the process #bc they are So fast and you ready the bow So slowly and the fire arrow has an aoe explosion #so theyre like 2 feet behind me rattling chains laughing in 10 different voices at once screaming at me hitting me with a sword #i kill us both i reload i do it again two more times until i remember i have mines in my inventory and instead lay those in their paths #then jump in place until they start running towards me. hide in a little alcove so i dont get hit by the explosion as well #Don't spend too much time dwelling on how ghosts are dying to mines much less how theyre even setting them off. dont worry about it. #rob the crypt leave climb back up into the chapel proper #get jumpscared by the va for the non-garrett player character in this fm #bc hes doing a sean connery impression that's mixed so much fucking louder than the rest of the audio for some reason #it was a good fm though. it was very good i love thieves highway missions #very much in the spirit of life of the party #reallly one of my few actual criticisms is that the audio mixing was kind of a mess #again conall's voice was way too loud #and the ambient noise tended to be on the quiet side esp music #and i do love hearing ambient soundscapes in these fms i think they add a lot #so id crank up ambient audio #but it would overpower the sound of footsteps and enemies talking and shit which is obv necessary #except if i turned up that audio it would also make conall even Louder #including the new mantling/pickup/sword swinging etc noises they recorded for him #so it was either hear the ambient audio but have conall blasting my eardrums #or put it so that the conall sounds were at a normal level but then everything else was a bit too quiet #that being said on the topic of the va #a lot of very good fm authors did some voices in this one #i think cardia did the voice of the character u hear in random ambient tracks getting into chases w the guards and shit #and it was so fucking funny he did great #like that man was just SCREAMING. tickled me pink #i find his fms with enemies a bit disjointed and confusing for me but his more ambient ones focused on architecture are very neat #so it was fun to hear his voice in this as a sort of easter egg lskdjfghsdgf #should have just started typing this in the actual post if i knew i was gonna go this long but. <3 whatever

[this-should-do]

oouugh just realized in the grande scheme of my color analysis of hl2, you could apply it to barney and have it be sad cuz hes always been blue, the color of the combine, cuz hes always been a cop and fuck he was even on BLUE shift, oh im insane im off my rocker im a genius i see things nobody else sees

#lots of people have touched on this without the color #but one day i would love to see my color analysis in it #i love color and i love imagry #if i were a writer id do this my self #i mean i coukd always try to make a wordless comic but.... #im not sure i could get the proper emotional hit in it #iwillspeakincessantly