#i'm too tired to think much about it rn

[raointean]

Okay, I was watching Love and Thunder clips today and I found these gems.

THIS IS CANON! We always rag on Odin for being a terrible parent, but we mostly just bring up how he pitted his children against each other and the "worthiness" thing. If we're doing a REAL deep dive, we may talk about Thor's role as Odin's personal attack dog.

But we never bring up anything from Love and Thunder because a) it wasn't a great movie, and b) Odin wasn't actually IN it. However, that means we miss out on this golden moment for ammo against Odin (and Frigga's) parenting!

Odin sent his tiny-ass BABY into a LITERAL BATTLE! And Frigga LET HIM! We don't know anything about the circumstances of their marriage, so it's possible her hands were tied, but STILL! Probably not even a century after the whole Hela fiasco, Odin is sending his next child out to learn how to kill people!

Thor has been fighting in battles since literal infancy. All he knows is death, destruction, violence, and burning, plus whatever the fuck was going on at home. He has no frame of reference for "normal"! (That also explains why he was so nonchalant about Loki trying to kill him all the time)

I'm not going to go on about all the issues that would have caused, because I don't know them. I just thought it was crazy that no one's talked about this while discussing Thor's abuse!

#thor #thor love and thunder #odin allfather #frigga #odin's a+ parenting #frigga's b- parenting #honestly we don't know enough about her situation to be able to judge her properly #child abuse #please add more #i'm too tired to think much about it rn

[nutklcker]

I'm thinkin abt Anno rn and like

Imagine loving a Masked (romantically, platonically, or otherwise)

Wether you're an employee or a monster or whatever, you have a lovely little masked by your side all the time, and you collect scrap or hunt or just exist until eventually their body starts to deteriorate

And as a person, an organic thingy, you think it's dying and you mourn and spend your last days together, until eventually, one day, they stop moving

And then a few days later you notice the mask has fallen off, and you bring it with you as a keepsake, holding it with you for days, or weeks, or months, or maybe even years. Before eventually you just can't help it, you need to feel them, to see them, to hear them, to smell them, and you just need to be close to them again, and you bring the mask up to your face, it potentially fitting around your features perfectly, and it's like you feel them and see them and smell them again.

And then you feel their consciousness, and from her either can go two ways

Drunk on love and the grief of potentially reconnecting, you can't bring yourself to move the mask away, it feels like they're right there with you, you need to stay like this, because they feel so close. And eventually, the mask connects. And you can hear them and feel them and smell them again, but they're not there, they are but it's because they're within you. You share the same skin, you look with the same eyes and touch with the same hands, and you're perfectly together, whole once again, but in a new way that can never separate you two ever again. (*)

Or, the other option, you manage to pull the mask away, connecting the dots on what's happening, and you realize if you can just find a host you can have your lovely Masked back. So you spend time, maybe you hunt down a different Masked to use their body, maybe you go for the first humanoid thing you see like an employee or a Bracken, or maybe you are an employee and you send out a request for a new employee, recognizing you're dooming some newbie to death but coming to terms with that fate of theirs in order to have your loved one once again

And, there's a third option that's quite a but angsty beneath the cut

(*) Or, depending on your interpretation or wishes for how the masks work in this scenario, maybe once the make takes hold YOU die. And your poor Masked returns, recognizing this smell, these hands, this voice, and it's yours, but you're gone. And you've left them there, in your body, your decaying body. You had their mask, and their mask was basically immortal. But now? For them? You're gone, and the only physical remnant of you is theirs now, and because of the way their life works, that remnant is decaying, rotting, and eventually turning to dust. And once again they'll just be a mask, slowly falling off a body, waiting for someone to put it on.

#host #anyways I'm normal rn /lying #angst #vent #kinda? #we've been switching so much recently and I haven't had a lot of time to live my life so I've had a lot of pent up emotions #but some creative writing helps #especially when I think about option one and the possibility of basically cuddling Anno forever #but now I feel Rend tugging at my brain cuz he wants to think abt the prompt too #sigh #I love my brain guys #they make my life better #but also I miss being around sometimes #oh well #say la vee or whatever /lhj #also ignore any spelling errors I'm so so tired /pos /nm

[angel-of-sweet-revenge]

When your friend needs you to be there to comfort them, but you have no energy for serious conversations and so you're stuck wondering if youre being a selfish asshole or if youre justified in not wanting to be the one to sort their problems out

#vent #its not like they didnt offer to hear my problems. but i just dont want to talk about. or anything #i dont want serious conversations. i dont want to have to worry about other people. i just cant. #im just so fucking exhausted and i dont know if its talking to them and feeling drained by the fact that theyre going through something- #-and that i need to be the therapist or if im just sick. again. #plus yesterday i slept late. my mum made me cry (i think she was just tired out by that point in the day so i doubt it was personal) #and just #im fucking tired ok #and I'm sorry im a bad friend #i just dont have energy. i want to have good energy around me to try give me some. #but when theyre upset it gets into me and drains me and I've been there as much as i can but i just cant right now. im too tired #i know im a shitty person but literally everyone got to be a shitty person at my expense so isnt it my fucking turn? #and then assuming i was acting like that to hurt them. I DO NOT WANT TO HURT ANYONE. IF WE HAVE A FIGHT I WANT TO MOVE ON. #I'm not gonna be caught up in it if we resolved it #but yeah. long story short they're going through shit and i feel like shit #and i think them going through shit is what makes me feel like shit. because i worry about them #and they can lash out on me #i just dont know anymore. i dont know if im an awful person or not #last year i broke up with a friend and my mum said I'll do the same with the next friend #it wasnt my fault #that friend ghosted me #im trying not to be her rn too and im scared that ive been in the wrong im scared im a shitty person too #but at the same time im too done to even really care #i just wanna stop fucking feeling all this and just get on with my day

[sheepkebby]

We put your boyfriend in the fandom and they smolfied him beyond belief. Yeah sorry. They took out all his badass/masculine traits and turned him into a helpless precious baby boy. Yeah, they don't care that he has visible biceps. They're calling him cute and tiny. Yeah they're kinda infantilizing him. Yes I know he's a grown man. I dunno what to tell you dude. Sorry.

#This post is about Ellis L4D2 but I know it can apply to SO many other characters #Honestly I'm so tired of people turning a guy character into a tiny brainless baby just because he's sweet or a bit silly #Like Ellis is cute and sweet but he's also A BADASS ZOMBIE APOCALYPSE SURVIVOR WITH A CHAINSAW!!! #Sweethearts can still be badass and rough and tumble and strong!!! #Ellis isn't a helpless baby!!!!!!!! #idk maybe it's because I'm a trans man #and we transmascs are constantly infantilized in one way or another #and when i see a character that i see myself in getting infantilized it's just . yeowch !!! #Also I'm DEAD TIRED of the word ''smol'' #anyways whatever i guess #if i think too much about it i'll just get mad lol #but i'm fine rn #kebby rambles #kebby complains #your boyfriend

[sudoscience]

For being dealt such a shit hand by The Mouse, Dana Terrace and crew really pulled off a wonderful finale, huh?

#toh #the owl house #watching and dreaming #really wish they'd gotten a full season but #gonna try not to think too much about what could have been #i'm kinda tired rn but expect more thoughts later #also kinda mad that my dvr always cuts off the very end of the show #i feel like i missed about the last 30-60 seconds of the finale #thanks a lot spectrum #also incredibly fucked up that there was a scientology commercial during the finale #i'm generally opposed to any religion advertising on any channel #but i'm especially opposed to scientology advertising on the disney channel #my post

[barkingangelbaby]

dude...

#if I don't stop hyperfixating on my breathing... like... idfk how much longer i can live like this... #it's been happening since last august snd I'm so tired of it..... #it's not even only when I'm high anymore it's like... all the time #i just like.. stop automatically breathing once i think about it and it takes me *so* *fucking* *long* to start again #honestly I'm just typing this post to distract myself a bit and hopefully i just start breathing normally again but I'm still manually #breathing rn. and now im wondering what the normal amount of time in between breaths is and if I'm taking too long ?? #i tried to time my breaths with N's but she's asleep so i know it's gonna be different than mine #hoooo boy wish me luck falling asleep this is so annoying!!!! #is this ocd??? I've had several ppl in the past year tell me they think I have it but thinking about it makes me spiral #but it would explain A Lot of my thoughts n habits #anyway. I'm very annoyed with myself rn i just want to breathe normally and not worry myself into panic attacks anymore #actually very worried about how bad my stress in general has been bc there's no way it's been good for my body #ok. time to snuggle up n try to fall asleep!! im v cold rn so i have to warm up before i hug N bc i don't want to wake her with my ice cold #skin lmao. i can't wait for it to be warmer so i don't have to worry/feel bad about that lol #OKAY BBYYYYEEE if you read these tags I'm so very sorry. #rAMbles

[bearsace]

not the way motonari route has me by the THROAT rn... and i thought ieyasu was the one who bias-wrecked me for my ikesen replay...

#ikesen #motonari #ikesen motonari #i am so WHIPPED for bitches who have a rough exterior but are very romantic and sensitive lovers #it took me so long to play his route cuz i thought it was gonna be rough on rough #but every time they say motonari's eyes were gentle? his touch was soft? his voice was tender? good SHIT. #i promise you. i will 360 my ass right back into his route as soon as i am done with it #he has so much more depth than i thought he would wow. #my overall takeaway about the fandom discourse when he first came out: #it seems to me like the whole “owning you” thing got blown way out of proportion? i totally see why people were squicky about it. #tbh it kinda irritated me too a lil. #but as his route goes on i'm like “ok yeah honestly this was a good jumping off point” #i really disliked what he was doing at first but i'll say he goes to redeem himself #i think mc's headstrongness was the redeeming factor up until we got to see his side that's lmao. head over heels for her #also .......... everytime the game is like “he's so clever. he's so smart. what a sharp mind he has” i'm like BRING ME MORE #i have the hots for a smart boy #i also have the hots for a bad boy #who would've thought it would be motonari of all suitors to marry those two tropes perfectly for me #honestly i was getting tired of replaying mitsuhide route and that's why i slowly fell off ikesen #but damn if motonari isn't changing that rn lmao....? #anyway. that's where i'm at.

[harrowharkwife]

it would be cool if talking to my mom could help me feel better for once instead of. making everything worse

#sometimes i get so violently jealous of people who have good relationships with their moms #and who can go to their mom with any problem and just get a hug and some good advice #or even just reassurance that it will be okay #like my mom came over for a couple hours and i literally told her yesterday about how depressed i am #and that it's really bad and that i need to go on antidepressants #so why tf did she think i was in any frame of mind to be nagged for two hours straight about logistics and plans for the future #like. i don't have any bandwidth right now!!! for anything!!! take the fucking hint!!! #i ended up bursting into tears and telling her to either knock it off or get out of my house and. well. she left! so #my dad is usually my supportive parent but he's dealing with such bad depression and burnout of his own rn #that i can't really go to him with anything cause he's at capacity and i don't want to stress him out #just. im tired I'm so fucking tired im exhausted there's too much to worry about and she came over and put like twenty more things #on my plate #and tried to pick fights #and i just. idk. i wish i could rely on her. but i can't and i know that and IDK why i keep trying #delete later

[queenofthieves]

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#do anyhting to make myself feel that sort of relief rn. it's been feeling like such a reminder of all the things i can't do for myself #that i should be able to do but my body is too broken for. that would at least be some form of relief and gentleness. #burning burning jfc #i do try... to give others what i need to some degree... idk that i'm good at it but at least i can be... helpful... i wish that i .... #... it'll be snowing there on a significant day this week and it feels like such a strong pull.. but i am also upset that i could easily be #swayed. i'm just tired . it's all too much and the physical pain stuff is just anotehr layer. i can't even do anything about it. #and i keep thinking and know that usually it'd be dormant again by now but ugh. i'm tired. i'm so so tired. #it's bad. tired of feeling unnecessary and unneeded and unwanted. not missable. i'm tired. it all feels wrong. #it really does feel so helpless when there are so many things that would lift this and make things doable. #it is a certain kind of hell when it is all out of my reach. and i still try the things only i can do. i try and try and try. but. #i'm so desperate for any relief

[james-isqueer]

I've always loved phineas and ferb but when I saw the news, I honestly hoped it was a false rumor. I just feel tired of all these reboots. leave the good things in the past, yknow? make new stuff for people to enjoy instead, stop trying to recreate previous successes.

not to mention everything that keeps getting remade has problems with it and sometimes they don't get addressed for the sake of "accuracy"

for example, the character baljeet is a walking racist stereotype and he's the only main poc. and he gets bullied by a white guy. yes I'm aware that they're also friends and stuff but seriously? if that shit goes on I'm not watching. I'm expecting a lot from Dan Povenmire, to say the least

#phineas and ferb #dan povenmire #reboot #I don't think we know much yet but hgh #yeah I dunno I'm just tired #can we just not #I know it's about money but yeah #I dunno maybe I needa sleep on it #but fuck capitalism #fuck disney too #we just don't need to recreate every good thing we've ever had. it's ridiculous #disney can' Stop rn and it's so annoying

[linawritesocs]

"lina maid day was a month ago-" every day can be a maid day if you're brave enough

#i wanted to draw both jays too but. i got very tired for some reason and my body said no #i can't even draw or write what i like without getting tired/sleepy now 😭 #i really like how the seth one came out though. i think it looks very edible #not sure how i feel about hayden and riley but i'm not that creative when it comes to maid outfits #man i love drawing riley with the same face expression all the time. i don't even have to work on him that much #just realized that it's been a while since i've drawn hayden. sorry my son i just. uh. i have another god complex boy on my mind rn #i'll add the character tags later sorry my energy level is too low

[shiningstages]

Me lookin' at my lil content: d'aaaaaaaw it's so cute~

I wanted to do stuff before work, but I like blanked out since I'm sleepy (went to bed around 1? 2?? then woke up at 7:11; not terrible but not like Great) then did my required stretchies / looked up stuff for things~ Tomorrow I have my last PT session and follow-up, and then I plan on cleaning my room / generally just chilling out since it has been Forever, but now...I will try and schedule in time for OC thoughts today and tomorrow (still have to decide if Atlas would be primal or astral...and maybe compare some story stuff to make sure it's not stepping on any Canon toes...but maybe we also don't care about that second bit ghffjghfgvcccgkhf).

#;big bubble blowing baby! ( ooc ) #( i think...i'm gonna try and schedule my hair cut too. either saturday or next thursday #i love my long flowy hair but i've getting that feeling of just...can't take it anymore ghfjcghfcgkhgcjgv #BUT it's also supposed to get colder so i may wimp out because this hair Protects Me #i also have to talk with my workman's comp doc about specific restriction papers my store director gave me tomorrow (fear) #i don't really like feeling less useful at work; but i also have just accepted that i need to take care of myself #i'm hoping nothing Too Big happens with that because i still wanna bank a lot of money before going back to school #but also a tiny bit less hours a week (since i work around 37-39 rn) would be nice...maybe even an extra day off...more me time #in other news i've also had many vtuber thoughts GFDHGFHGFHJFGHF #the only important one is...accepting that i should just kind of Do It. instead of actively thinking of where i wanna be; if that makes #any sense #and wars gave me Big Incentive to clean my room in like a non-vtuber way; but also just like...the motivation!!! the hype!!! #i have a lot of steps in my mind to do my creative stuff; but my room Must be clean #not that all my stuff isn't on my dad's very nice desk but...i don't want any potential pc i buy to be there #it would be so much better environment-wise (aka not being in my kitchen where my dad always is and near the living room #where my bro always streams) plus it's a two-way street of i don't want to disturb them either #i thought about cleaning my mom's office but she literally told me no because she wants to clean it all herself #which her being like “i have to be the one to go through everything when cleaning” is just...i see where i get my attitude #BUT ANYWAYS #i need to get ready for work gfhgjfjgfhgkjgfcghfg being the closer so much is so tiring;; #hopefully tonight is good and i don't have to have Drama and anyone who freaks out )

[noxtivagus]

hmm

#tbd #just thinking a bit before i sleep #today was mostly a good day but. i think i'm still tired yeah i feel like disappearing #just. sit by the sand n watch the waves. lose myself in the sight n the sound n #just sit there until the sun comes up n #thought abt it n i haven't been doing well at all lately but fiction's been a great comfort. n. stuff online in general like my friends her #i think that nightmare i had of being completely replaced n forgotten hurt me more than i thought. burying the pain was a mistake but i #don't want to make others worry #n.. that feeling of worthlessness n regret n feeling lost n utterly confused. forgetting myself n everything #peaked 2 nights ago. when i.. nah when i accidentally did That yeah #i really don't want to think about it anymore but i know it isn't smth i shld just keep to myself but #it.. haunts me so much. whether i reach out or not it'll hurt. n i'm willing to just shoulder the pain alone. i'm used to it anyways #n i'm so confused bcs despite my disposition or wtvr when it comes to reality. fiction tells me a different story #both are truths. they can coexist n they do but #goddamn i don't want to think of it anymore. i just want to.. live in that moment forever #those moments. under the starry sky. the cold night that warmed my heart or #the sight of the dawn this morning. the moon n the horizon. the clouds yonder n #dusk earlier as well. the wonder i felt for life as a whole; a feeling i missed all too dearly #time's going by far too fast. listening to edge of dawn is making me emotional rn oh my god #december's nearly over. the year is. so much is on the horizon n i'm both simultaneously anticipant & hesitant to face it all #it's a bittersweet feeling when you're living n going about your day like i've been recently but it feels like a dream #n soon i'll wake up. the gentle rays of the early morning sun will quickly turn into scorching heat. n then #i'm tired of writing even though i cld add more to that but hmm. the cycle goes on n on. morning then night then the morrow comes once more #until a point where all these days accumulate n.. yeah #yk what i'll just go to sleep instead. i'll just do more tmrrw n. yeah. i'll try to stop or distract myself before these thoughts get #too much like two nights ago or smth. i'll try to sleep peacefully tonight #distract myself from some aspects of reality in just this moment temporarily. #despite how tired i am i'm still so hesitant to rest n sleep but i'll push myself to do it now. gn. i'll just do more tomorrow

[satanfemme]

I like my current job but it keeps me so busy/tires me out so much I feel pretty empty compared to how I used to be, even at my prev jobs. on one hand I guess it's good to be grounded in a daily routine, but on the other hand it's bittersweet when I do feel some loose or brief connection to my interests again.

#does that make sense. I'm very foggy rn #just thinking about how vaguely-excited I feel about occult stuff rn and how much I miss feeling actually-excited about it #or when I reblog the occasional killjoys thing now and still feel like it ''should'' be super important to me. #it just isn't cause I'm too tired to care or think about it or feel connected to anything 🤷‍♂️

[faust1926]

:/

#negative and venting in these tags #+ I'm not at ALL grounded rn so like. u know #I don't have the proper words rn. but I'm just hoping very much today is just an off-day like most sundays have been lately. #and maybe I can be somewhat functional again tomorrow #I wish I had more positive things to talk about maybe tomorrow will be better and I'll have more positive things then #I'm just so tired and keep not being able to think well. and I just spent like 3 hours just laying down #like resting but not sleeping and I really wish I were at least more ok with being like this #cause I'm not. but I'm too tired to do anything about it when like -_- I've got spirits putting thoughts in my head #and like touching me and telling me things and I couldn't get them to go away even if I wanted to cause I'm just too tired #and their presence is so. heavy on me like their energy or whatever just Weighs u down when too many of them get close #so I can't move I just have to lay there and listen to them and it's so. horrifying #but at the same time it's like!!! the best feeling in the world it's literally better than anything. and I wish it weren't #I wish real physical things felt good to be around too :-( #I wish I could be grounded and functional and awake like normal humans seem to be even in situations like mine #one of the spirits is still touching me now. like. on my ribbcage and I don't know why but it feels . impossible to describe #or to compare to something else lol #I don't know why. they're doing that I don't know what they're trying to do with me exactly. #it's like electricity but softer maybe. not sharp. dull warm radiating pulsating pressure very alive. I can feel them like under my skin #ok it's getting late. I'm running out of what energy I have left I need to go to bed #and in the morning I'll have breakfast and take my vitamins and maybe I'll be a little better and more awake #and I'll get bloodwork or something done soon and I'll see a new therapist and maybe we can do something and my brain won't be so fuzzy #they told me to trust them tonight also. they said I'm not in any real danger and I need to just let myself rest when I need to #<- one of the angels said that I mean #even if that's more often than most people I need to like. just lay down and rest more and trust them to take care of everything & Im safe #so ok

[frostbite-the-bat]

Holy fuck I'm for real gonna need to like make a ramble vid of me talking about clash lore and my current issues because I'm currently going insane I'm over here making fucking essays in my mind again

#I LIVE YOU CLASH BUT LORE IS PISSING ME OFF RN SO BADLY #LIKE I LOVE IT DEARLY BUT I FEEL LIKE A DISHEVELED CONSPIRACY THEORIST #I feel better about saying this here because at least clash staff doesn't follow me on my maib #Except for one but they're never active in my notes or anywhere else much #It feels bad to criticize a fan volunteer project this harshly but I'm just majorly autistic about the story #And dead tired of the lack of communication staff has about the direction of the story #Just in order to build hype and be mystical about it #Please just SAY if btl is being removed or not #You've been burying it under the carpet but also there's mentions of it in stuff that's still 'canon' #And Atticus quite literally fucking haunts the narrative for me #I've spent hours rambling about this I've spent hours unable to fall asleep bc I'm thinking about toontown too hard #I just want a clear story man but since clash is busy with i game work WHICH I RESPECT #But also busy being mystical THEYREDOINGITAGAIN #I'm just. A bit tired like I know the story can bring itself out and I'm a firm believer of show don't tell #And I myself need to practice it more #But with this confusion just please make a proper statement other than ih yea lores fucked we are working on it #Which may take #Years #And now there's possible new stuff #But also for a while people thought GRANDMA IS CALLING was lore for a sec #So Uhm idk #But also anything chairman is more related to the story #I haven't looked much into it yet. I don't wanna be disappointed again #But are we getting possible future cog department dehauls...? I dunno I could be wrong #But oh WELL #Oh my god if my ramble ends up anywhere in the main tags seen by anyone I'm ending it all #I sound very critical and I kinda am but know that ttcc is very dear and close to me #I just Like To Bitch and would like a story that's easy to follow and more accessible and CLEAR ABOUT WHATS GOING ON #😭😭😭 #Omg tag limit kys