#i'm not that mad i'm just bitter

[dollsome-does-tumblr]

ted lasso s3 was really like, "you like this pairing you've had years of emotional investment in? well, then you'll love ✨never getting to see them be together again✨!"

#I CARRY MY ROY/KEELEY PAIN AROUND FOREVER. #i'm so mad at this season of television. i'm just so pressed at it. #i get that it's my own personal bitterness thing and that not everybody feels that way #but to me -- personally -- this is war. #dollsome's deep thoughts

[emmabirb8]

WWDITS writers, please, I am on my hands and knees BEGGING YOU to take cues from OFMD in actually having the fortitude to follow through on plot points and actions from previous seasons and episodes. Emotionally repressed characters can in fact communicate about past events to a degree that is satisfying to the audience, continues story threads left hanging, and also manages to stay in character and make sense for the narrative. Traumatic events can in fact continue to affect characters for more than the duration of a single episode. Actions can have real, lasting consequences.

Shocking, I know, but. It's possible. It can be done.

IT'S NOT DIFFICULT AND CAN STILL FIT INTO A SERIES FOCUSED ON COMEDY. EVEN, DARE I SAY, HORROR SHENANIGAN-BASED COMEDY.

WITH JUST A BIT OF DEDICATION AND EFFORT, YOU TOO CAN CRAFT A SUCCINCT STORYLINE THAT WRAPS ITSELF UP IN MORE THAN JUST A THROWAWAY SENTENCE THAT'S NEVER MENTIONED AGAIN. YOU CAN WRITE CHOICES AND ACTIONS FOR CHARACTERS THAT MAKE SENSE.

I KNOW YOU CAN DO IT.

IT'S. NOT. HARD.

#i'm just still SO bitter about the fallout from s3 being almost entirely skipped over #among other things #unfortunately i think i'm gonna have to live with the fact that i'll die mad about it #and with s5's questionable choices we are on VERY VERY thin ice now and i do not like it #it's sad but at this point the storylines and scenes people create in fics have become more captivating and intriguing than the actual show #which on the one hand is great bc i love reading fics but on the other hand... :/ :/ :/ #ofmd #our flag means death #wwdits #what we do in the shadows #nandermo #wwdits critical #my posts

[shikai-the-storyteller]

Vegetta heard that some members of the server are scared of him and he was like "Why? I'm not even a tryhard, I was the last person to get slime armor" and I'm like... Vegetta people are already scared of you, WHY would you respond to that with "But this isn't even 1% of my true power''

#i talk #qsmp talk #Vegetta be like ''This isn't even my final form'' #Vegetta be like ''well if you're going to be scared of me at least let me give you a good reason for it /pos'' lmao #It's always so baffling to me (as a KarmaIand fan) seeing how Vegetta's depicted in Fool/igetta fanworks #because the way people often depict Foolish as this incredibly powerful demigod (only sometimes incorporating his actual personality / lore #is how people depicted Vegetta (minus the ''we're disregarding his personality'' part that sometimes happens) in Karmaland #Like it's almost a perfect reverse uno in terms of how people depict Vegetta in KarmaIand vs Q.S.M.P #I'm not mad about it or anything I'm just genuinely amused by how people manage to underestimate him and STILL are afraid of him #like oh honey....... whatever Foolish's ties to immortality and godhood are pale in comparison to Vegetta's #(This is nothing against Foolish BTW his lore on the previous server was fun and I'm bitter we never got to see more of it) #(The entire death totem thing was sick and also the concept of totem gods is so interesting) #The way Vegetta is depicted in Karmaland is very strange #he seems like a being (not necessarily a god but definitely something powerful) #who made their world then stepped back so he could be a part of it #So even though he respects the guidance of elders like Merlon #(to some degree) #and talks about the ''gods'' (admins) as higher powers #the world still bows to him #and that includes the QSMP world #realistically we know this is because every single admin adores Vegetta and grew up with him #but we're looking at this through a lore lense #I can get into this more later - I feel like I should elaborate on my thoughts here and add some canon backing to explain myself a bit more #but you get the jist #Me: let's post a silly little thought about the minecraft series I'm watching #Also me: LET ME CITE MY SOURCES - #Listen man you can't unlearn some things #I'm a professional writer it's in my nature

[jennyandvastraflint]

Oh wow. Disney cancelled Willow. Y'know. The. Butch4butch lesbians. Knight and Princess. Fucking amazing rep, brilliant fantasy setting. Fabulous storytelling.

Yeah. I'm not surprised..... I remember seeing a clip weeks before I started it and immediately wondering how long it'd take zo have the confirmation it's cancelled. I'm just so tired. Every. Time. And I mean EVERY time we have sapphic representation on a show, it gets cancelled, censored, or receives massive backlash. I can't name a SINGLE wlw rep (centric!!!) show that wasn't cancelled. Doctor Who, maybe. Wow. One.

I can name at least ten shows that were cancelled off the top of my head. In the last year. I'm tired.

Fuck Disney. Fuck Netflix. Fuck every single person who cancels wlw rep. We constantly hear that our stories don't want to be heard. Thanks. Apparently queer women only matter as a fetishised form of entertainment for men or as a background and side character. Thanks. Definitely does GREAT things for people's self-worth.

Representation matters!

#i'm fucking fuming #i just want to cry #this is making me so mad #but i knew and expected it #Which is the worst of it. I'm so used to this constant bullshit #i couldn't even let myself enjoy the show at first because I just KNEW they'd cancel it #oh as a side note. That's the site where fucking RTD wants to broadcast Doctor Who. #definitely does NOT make me want to watch his stuff any more.... #esp when i look at who's writing for it #old white men great diversity rtd #but i digress #fuck disney #fuck netflix #just because. And I'm still bitter about DeadEnd and everything else #again. Thanks for telling us no one wants to see our stories. That they're not PROFITABLE enough. #willow 2022 #willow disney+ #willow (2022)

[butchthirteen]

fully processing that they explicitly bisexualified the doctor... YIPPEE

#doctor who #dw spoilers #rtd era 2 #THE FACT THAT THIRTEEN WAS THE FIRST NEW WHO DOCTOR EVER TO NOT KISS A WOMAN AND WE HAVE FOURTEEN BISEXUALITY ALMOST IMMEDIATELY #GOD #sorry for being really bitter about thirteen era all the time do you still think i'm hot. #i literally can't stop myself i got so invested and i was so disappointed and now i'm having fun again #and i'm just mad i wasn't having fun before

[detransraichu]

broooo not my ex making posts abt how hard it is to come to terms with being conventionally attractive while having low self-esteem issues and how wild it is to get compliments randomly on their appearance when they go out and how they're worried that their new transmasc boytoy is only into them bc they're hot -_- i'm tired... meanwhile i'm just seen as a gremlin now that i'm not hyperfem... they truly have the biggest issues in the world lol

also they were like "omg turns out i'm not ace i just needed a bf lol" and i'm like yeah. i know. you've been lusting after male characters for years. you were horny as fuck just not for me bc i didn't transition. you only made moves on me when you were bored, lonely or drunk. i always asked if that was the case and you were like no baby it's just your insecurities i don't need you to transition uwu. for 5 years. my trust issues are thru the roof now yayyyyy /dies

#lay text #i'm being mean and petty ugh #my heart kinda hurts but talking w my counsellor abt it helped #it rly helps to have a neutral third party to vent to #also i still think my ex is a good person i don't actually hate them i love them as a friend. but i do hate what they did to me #i hate that they went along w us dating bc they're too much of a doormat. i hate that they thought abt breaking up w me for years #but never told me bc they were worried i wouldn't survive without them financially or emotionally #feels so fucking infantilizing #now i'm so much better off without them despite being broke #that was my first and only real relationship my first time my first everything. i'm so embarrassed wtf i was RIGHT i was right all along #i was right it wasn't just insecurities they straight up never wanted me they wanted future transitioned male-passing me #it was all lies!!! from the get-go!!! meanwhile i did so much romantic bullshit and i was wearing rose colored glasses!!!! #and i was a big dyke. being with a woman who identified as a woman would've made me 2000x happier anyway. we could've just stayed roommates #i'm so bitter guys. i feel so jaded but i'm trying not to be :/ #and now they have so much luck in their love life #and i'm just a lonely gremlin dyke who only attracts polyam/casual girls who only want me on the side #where tf is my love story :'( i've been trying SOOO FUCKING HARD to gain my ex's affection for 5 freaking years i was the most loveydovey g #i deserve a love story i think i've really earned it by now!!!!! #so much love to give #now they have it so easy wtf. feels unfair ngl. i'm happy for them obviously they deserve happiness too. but i am still bitter >:/ #trying to process these feels instead of repressing them for once. i have a tendency to bottle up angst bc i think i'm bad for being mad #but nope those r healthy emotions!!! i can work thru this #it just sucks #if you read all of this bs i give you a cookie 🍪 <3

[death-rebirth-senshi]

I need to make myself like Vivienne more I can make it happen with another playthrough

#I won't just get annoyed at how shallowly she's been written as a black woman or the way Inquisition uses black people in this game #and become mad and bitter with her character and all the posts that acted like I'm racist for not liking her. #I know better now! I can do better queen

[noisytenant]

i think maybe an implicit assumption of a lot of anti-porn or porn-skeptical sentiments is assuming that sexuality is opposite to rational thought.

there's a sense that you have to shut down your brain to get off. and that's a sexy notion--both in the sense of having widespread appeal and being kinda kinky :P--but it's deeply flawed.

in particular, there is an underlying sense that rational thought is the core defensive mechanism of all things decent and prosocial, and it must stand guard against our base, carnal natures to prevent disaster.

on both fronts, the notion is wrong: rationality and sexuality can coexist, and rationality is not harmless while carnality is harmful--both can be positive sometimes and destructive other times.

yet the so-called rational mind is often treated as the last bastion against predation (both as victim and assailant). porn with "problematic" themes is sometimes treated like a unique tool of regressive brainwashing compared to other forms of storytelling, but this seems to assume that the rational mind vanishes in service of sexual pleasure, leaving the subconscious vulnerable to implantation of backwards ideas. in actuality, i don't think porn is more likely to change someone's mind than any other kind of art, i just think it's often more honest about its hang-ups.

explicitness can seem tactless, but arguably the rawness of expression allows us to feel the whole of our responses to topics that may feel taboo and untouchable in the everyday.

and that's another thing... rather than a unilaterally celebratory attitude, i think pornographic stories can--intentionally and unintentionally--elicit challenging feelings: dread, ambivalence, confusion, disgust, and fascination, among other things. these may not be sexually arousing, but they are a different kind of stimulating.

and even if creators didn't intend for you to treat their work as anything other than, ahem, fap material, i think you can challenge yourself to read it as a story and to analyze it the same way you would other works.

if you fear losing your rationally-based moral compass in a whirlwind of carnality, then try and see if you can hold pleasure and pain together simultaneously. choose to make meaning of the work you have deemed meaningless.

when we approach with some curiosity, i think challenging topics in porn can act as a trick mirror that reflect a side of us that we may not have wanted to see, but still needed.

i would like to transmute the energy used to reject and avoid topics that trigger the discomfort of confronting the evils of our world into energy used to witness and examine our relationship to those evils. sometimes, they are so alien to us that they become objects of exotic fascination. sometimes, they are closer to our hearts than we may think. either way, i hope we can move past the idea that sexuality and thoughtfulness cannot coexist harmoniously.

#indexed post #It's extremely late I'm half asleep this might not be super coherent #I'm keeping reblogs on as a bravery exercise but please be patient #I also am like super guilty of drawing this dichotomy myself. I'm almost embarrassed to post this lest we reexamine my old writing and find #This topic's sticky fingerprints everywhere #But again. Exercise in bravery. #Anyways really I just wrote this because I get mad that people assume porno comics are all just schlocky nonsense #Its like You dont even kjow the heartbreak. The intrigue. The bitterness and the overwhelm of the humble sex cartoon #Anysays I have autism and I want people to take the art I care about seriously. What else is new

[youraveragecatastrophe]

[Image description : Three screenshots from the 2019 show Carmen Sandiego, from the season 2 episode 6 episode The Need for Speed caper. The first one is Carmen on the blimp, talking to offscreen Zack and Ivy. She says "Look, I think you both know you're more than just my crew." The next two screenshots are from the later scene in San Diego, when Carmen is talking to Shadowsan. She says "But Zack and Ivy chose family over career. Throwing down roots for them is the least I can do." The last image is a a picture of a man saying "So that was a fucking lie". /End description]

Rewatching The Need for speed caper after the series finale like

#WHAT WAS THE REASON??? #me? still bitter about the finale? it's more likely than you think #actually scratch that i'm not bitter i'm mad. what was that?? #i already know i'm gonna say the exact same thing when we get there but- #carmen leaving a FUCKING NOTE?? not even a proper goodbye? #'i went to buy milk see ya' #dbzndkzvxjbe do NOT get me started on the subject bc i will rant for the next hour #what was the fucking point of telling us they were her family? if she was going to just leave without a word at the end?? huh? #gah this makes me so mad. that ending did not sit well with me #btw lmk if this needs some sort of salt tag or something? idk if there's one in the fandom #csweekly #carmen sandiego 2019

[stop-breaking-my-heart-telltale]

Why Kenny is so loved and David is so hated?

This question's been in my inbox forever because I didn't know how to answer it... and I still don't tbh

Kenny's a more established character. We've known him longer, he's has a stronger connection to Lee and Clementine, and the Kenny crowd are ride or die for him. When we first meet him in S1 ep1, we get the impression of a decent family man dedicated to his family, and then he goes through a roller-coaster of tragedy and character development.

David, on the other hand, is only in one game... a game that a lot of fans consider the worst installment in the series. We don't have enough time with him, and even though he has a strong connection to Javi as his older brother, players aren't attached to Javi, they're attached to Clementine. You know how this works- if Clementine no like, then we no like >:[ and Clementine no like David. Therefore, David bad.

And to be fair, she does have legit reasons for not liking him, but that just gives the player all the more reason to dislike him.

So even though I would consider David the "Kenny" of ANF, most people who loved Kenny still labeled David an asshole even though there is an interesting parallel there... which he is an asshole, but he's an interesting asshole... he just wasn't given the proper development like Kenny was.

I've said before that David is a "problematic fave" of mine, and I do hesitate to double down on that just yet. I haven't replayed ANF in forever and who knows, perhaps my opinion on him has changed like it has for a few other characters so I don't want to be like "and I still stand by the fact that David's my favorite, he's a bitch and I love him!" until I'm sure I actually feel that way, y'know?

If I had to give you my best answer, anon, it'd be that Kenny's better established and David's thrown in, the games explore Kenny's issues more thoroughly than David's, and lots of people hate ANF but love S1 and S2.

Though now that we're talking about David, I'm curious if I'll still feel the same way about his and Javi's relationship throughout the game. I was always more interested in the brother relationship over Javi's romance with Kate. I wanted a brothers reconciling storyline from ANF, and I did get that storyline done well in another game [surprise to no one, it's Dragon Age 2, Carver is my bitchy baby brother and I love him so much] and I have a feeling that's going to affect my overall opinion.

Sigh, add it to the to-do list, one day I'll revisit ANF.

#asks #twdg kenny #twdg david #twdg javi #twdg clementine #answering this makes me want to do a garcia brothers vs hawke brothers comparison tbh #because i mean... david and carver are both soldiers who always felt overshadowed by their siblings #especially in feeling like their father favored the other over them and it made them bitter and caused tension in the relationship #and it takes effort on the players part to repair the relationship #hell you can romance the person they're romantically interested in.... though to be fair merrill isn't carver's wife #they never actually get together but it's pretty clear that he's interested in her #and i can say with confidence that carver won't beat you with a wrench if you romance her and he comes around to supporting you two #like the big difference is there's never any doubt that carver loves you no matter what path his story takes #david on the other hand tries to kill you with a wrench no matter what and then he runs away with gabe #and if you manage to keep him alive he's just like 'yeah that's my bad sorry bro do you think dad would be mad at me if he were here?' #so david and carver have surface level similarities but they differ at their core #....and i guess that's my tag ted talk about why carver good and david bad sksksksksks #i'm so sorry sksksks

[harvestar]

would love if the depression would leave me alone for one day but alas ... its ok I mean things are slowly & steadily getting better each day it's just that I'm sad about cat related things and sad thinking abt my past relationship (mostly in the context of... why did I do that to myself it made me so much worse. but at the same time I really needed to go through it and make the mistakes. that ambivalent feeling is kinda harder to deal with than just going That Sucked I Hate It)

#ktxt #honestly I think it was good to at least spend a little time being angry and mad and bitter about it #but now I'm just embarrassed and sad that I didn't stand up for myself more or identify when I was getting way too carried away with things #legit feels like I turned into a 14 year old for a few months and then changed back all of a sudden and now im like. Ah #as for the cat stuff I Don't wanna talk about that but its not related to danny she's doing fine if a little lonely

[evaiskindaweird]

I may or may not have joined team guitar out of spite for Shiver always winning

And I keep dying

#Splatoon #I have spite for the stupidest things #Like it's just a game but I'm so mad that every time I choose somebody that isn't Shiver she always ends up winning #Either that or Frye or big man end up winning while I'm on shivers team #I'm a bitter loser 😭

[peniscat]

.

#it's actually rly fucked up how seeing one bad picture of myself can ruin my entire evening #i've spent so much time and energy to reach a level of understanding and acceptance of how i look and it has been working #and it's like. i know i am fat. and it's okay. it is just a fact. i've mostly made my peace with it. #then i see a pic taken of me from an unflattering angle and all the unhealthy thinking patterns i've tried to unlearn come back #i will forever be bitter about growing up basically hating myself and i am SO MAD that it is still affecting me!!!! #it's like. so what if i look big in the picture or if i have a double chin in it. that is literally just how i look and that's it #the level of neutrality has been hard to achieve and it annoys me how precarious it still is :( #not to even mention that maybe neutrality isn't the best goal anyways. but like. the concept of being hot seems so foreign to me #like. other people? sure. me? never #sometimes i simply hate the society for making me feel unworthy of everything because i'm fat. #and how people talk about fat people and how they treat fat people has given me trust issues for life #so i'm just sad it's like this. i want to love myself and all that but sometimes it is just so hard #idk thank u for witnessing my rant if u read this far here have a flower 🌸 #body image tw #personal

[leafy-m]

alizayd for character opinion bingo 🧍🏽‍♀️

Thank you! 💖

Alizayd al Qahtani is the fucking best. There is no contest. He's empathetic, he's a sass machine, he's got a backbone made of righteous steel, he's a nerd raised to be a jock and was the best zulfiqari of his generation through sheer determination. He's the smartest (and tallest) man in the room that loves to help people and is also an oblivious social loser. He's a math genius and an economic wizard that outsmarted the Royal Treasury's best accountants as a teenager to secretly fund and make the Tanzeem's illegal transactions untraceable, and *During a Recession* got a millennia-old decrepit hospital to be completely rebuilt and functional in like 6 months. He also actually listens to people, and did possibly the most romantic thing in the series by building Nahri her private Cairo-themed office. He's self-sacrificing and self-denying to a fault and all he wants to do is fix things (and swim, and read), and he perfectly fits into soldier life and civilian life.

My man has the best character arc of the trilogy as he learns and grows past his early prejudice and indecision while sharpening his best traits. He is constantly reevaluating himself and his actions while still holding on to what matters to him, like his faith and his idealism that Daevabad can be improved. Even in the depths of his bitterness or grief, he always returns to trying to do the right thing, and not holding unrelated people responsible for the actions of others. He has the best motivational speeches in the series. His great grandpa is a crocodile and their scenes together are hilarious.

My man Alizayd has some Lord of the Rings: Return of the King-level epicness, in how he is descended from both Zaydi al Qahtani and the marid-blessed Armah. Zaydi, who rallied the djinn world against the genocidal Nahids and overthrew them to take Daevabad 1400 years earlier; and his ally Armah who commanded the marid to help take the city and Suleiman's Ring, and made the ultimate sacrifice by staying allied with the djinn. Ali is constantly compared to Zaydi in City of Brass and Kingdom of Copper, but there's this steady transfer of similarities to Armah in Kingdom of Copper and Empire of Gold, until Ali is truly representing both sides combined as he aids Nahri and a global army that he put together in three days to once again take back Daevabad from a genocidal Nahid. The man is a fucking legend, and with any other author or director it would unquestionably be at the forefront of the story. Instead it hides in background details foe readers to piece together, like it's barely worth mentioning.

This is because my man Ali also has the self-confidence/self-esteem of a shy beetle hiding six feet under the earth, and the author's subtle/vague writing style and inability to stand up for what she's trying to say when people misunderstand has created... how do I word this... A lot of wiggle room for bullshit?

Ali gets dragged a lot for being self-righteous and a fanatic, because characters that are threatened by him in the book call him that, and readers parrot it without any consideration or critical thought. Is it self-righteous to be against slavery? Or to create personal boundaries regarding drinking and premarital sex? Is it fanaticism when he argues against corruption, or practices his religion *in a completely normal way?* I dare say no! But Ali is both black and muslim, so he gets a shit load of shit from every corner, and with the author unable to really clear things up and too cowardly to even admit that Ali is her favorite character without immediately asking everyone to forget she said that (Oops. Also: no), it makes me very, very concerned for whoever ends up playing Ali in the Netflix show. Because if past is any pretext, he's definitely not gonna get paid enough for all the harassment he'll face. And if the author can't stand up for her characters and book themes now, how will she do it when the audience is much, much bigger and louder? :/

As much as I love Ali and his countless parallels with Nahri, and have a thousand headcanons for him (and a thousand fic & art ideas/wips), the series itself (or rather how it undid all its narrative themes in the end to appease loud fans who never understood what the series was trying to say in the first place, along with the author's blindspots regarding the Nahids/Daevas), has made me incredibly bitter. 🙃 I am someone who worships canon encyclopedically and remembers everything, and have come to the unfortunate realization that I cannot in good health ever read this series again.

So my beloved blorbo Ali exists for me in a weird dimension that I cannot really interact with anymore. Made worse because I still desperately want to see fandom stuff, but then also viciously tear apart everything I find. 💀

Idk how to end this. Thanks for the ask! ☺️

#The stupid thing is that I'm still trying to finish my fics #Because I LOVED writing Nahri and Ali???? #Like yes my god he deserved better; but when they worked it was So Good 😭💖 #And I feel guilty because We Fucking Won in River of Silver and I still can't get past my bitterness #Doesn't help that the final story is a time paradox and proves that no one on Team Daevabad is doing any due diligence with fact checking #Don't even get me started on the changes to the Gazebo scene -- I'm still mad about how she watered down his lines #I literally cannot think about this series without ranting #Even the good parts just remind me of how it gets fucked up later #And most people don't even notice??? All the praise I see makes me feel insane #And all the Dara fans and other readers completely misunderstanding the series makes me insane #I've never seen a series ask its readers to remember so many details and nuances; and then Get Worse the more you understand! #And not in the 'oh its so much more tragic' sense; but literally 'they stopped fact checking things' sense #It's a series that runs on vibes but is also completely against the vibes its sending out #Fuck I wish I could quit this series 😭 #How do other fandoms manage this kind of bullshit omg #Hhhh #Ok I'm done #Alizayd al Qahtani #The Daevabad Trilogy #Long post #My posts

[mad--sad--bad]

i'm so sad

#bpd #so sad #i feel empty #overthinking #mentally ill #lonely af #exhausted #just drained #tired #mad #hate myself #hate everyone #hate everything #hopeless #i'm bitter #feeling alone #feeling trapped #i don't belong here #depressed

[born-to-lose]

Btw I feel so fucking good for cutting my ex out of my life finally

#it was about time i did. i let him lead me on and confuse me and give me anxiety and depression for six months #and now i'm finally free thank fuck i broke off contact for good with him now #he hasn't replied in two days so i think it's fine with him too but i mean what's the use in talking to your ex #who you can't ever have a conversation with without it turning into an argument or bitter discussion #who posts about how much he misses you and regrets leaving you but when you ask him what's up with that he says he doesn't want you back #and gets defensive mad at you for seeing his posts and asking him to make up his mind #i'm just sick and tired of it and done with it and him and it's so freeing to know you don't have to deal with that anymore #no hate on anyone and i'm not gonna elaborate but i'm so happy i can move on with my life in peace now #mel talks