#i'm feeling sick

[anitalianfrie]

I'm having prosenna thoughts again

#to my dear friend #alain #the hate the love the everything they had the way prost put in his contract that he couldn't be teammate with senna the way senna called #prost after his retirement and pleaded him to go back because there wasn't racing without him the way they kept talking on the phone and #started being friends the way that day at imola prost was there and senna told him something that he never told anyone not even his family #and prost said he will take that secret to his grave the way the same day before what happened senna from the car said and that everybody m #the way that prost said that if he could go back he'd tell ayrton “screw all the others it's me and you” #I'M FEELING SICK #classic f1 #prosenna

[petite-pixie-princess]

The weeks just keep happening huh?

#The progression of time #Wild #Silly #But true #I want off the ride #I'm feeling sick

[duskowithapen]

The Museum's Grand Reopening

Part One

January's Rambles Day Three

Word count: 297

Summary: Drabble about the Express attending the Grand Reopening of the Belobog History and Culture Museum

The Museum's Grand Reopening

“Whoooaaa, it’s so big!” March exclaimed as they walked through the entrance hall towards the museum proper, “No wonder it took Stelle and Pela so long to get everything up and running again!”

“Indeed – they have both worked hard to return the museum to working order,” Dan Heng tugged the younger girl out of the way of another distracted visitor before continuing, “We will have to offer our congratulations when we see them.”

“That’s right, you haven’t seen Stelle yet! You need to see her – she looks so pretty, right Himeko?” March spun around without any consideration of the people around her, and Dan Heng sighed as he caught her waving arm it hit someone.

Himeko chuckled, saying, “Yes, Stelle has cleaned up quite nicely. Bronya arranged for Serval to take her shopping this morning, and March and I helped her get ready earlier. Apparently, there were a few last-minute things to take care of before the opening, so Stelle promised to meet us in the History-Culture Hall in about…” Himeko trailed off, tilting her wrist to check her watch, “20 minutes. That gives us time to browse some of the exhibits first. Does anyone have anything they’d like to look at first?”

Welt cleared his throat politely. “I find myself curious about a sculpture Stelle mentioned in the Industrial Hall – Gears and Wisdom, I believe?”

“We can start there if you’d like, Welt,” Himeko said before turning to her younger companions, “And you two?”

March waved her camera. “Stelle told me to check out some of the paintings! She bet me ten credits that I wouldn’t be able to figure out where they were painted from!”

“I should probably accompany March,” Dan Heng sighed, “I’ll make sure we meet you in the History-Culture Hall on time.”

To be continued... when I'm not throwing up

#January's Rambles #honkai star rail #fanfiction #dan heng #march 7th #hsr himeko #i'm feeling sick #so only little writing today

[hl-obsessed]

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#i'm first time in months on bus #for a longer trip #and #i'm feeling like i'm missing something #but can't figue why #and now i know #i'm missing MY FUCKING CAR #anti-anxiety meds someone????? #help me #i'm feeling sick #next time i'm gonna take fucking car and no one gonna persuade me not to #i don't know what to do with myself

[stormxpadme]

That last prompt I did just now was like pulling teeth tbh and I’m choosing rather to put that on a headache than on using Katja for the first time in person in that whump collection, because admitting the latter would be giving in to the assholes but ... It’s really very fitting that I couldn’t get into this like into the smut shots after being told once more what an unworthy, homophobic, shitty author I am for daring to use OCs. Honestly, I’d probably just have used anyone else if I’d had the idea in time because I don’t want to write an of my babies in that mood. It’s not doing them justice. And I know the moment Imma add that tag to the collection, whoever might have been interested in it so far will leave anyway. Then again?

With that kind of feedback, it honestly doesn’t make a difference.

#personal #writing #x men #everything after x2 didn't happen sue me #x men original timeline movies #that's one comment plus answer btw #and the author stopped by because they explicitely asked to be informed #in their story #when someone else did their pairing #so i did #it's kind of ironic they who ship the rarest pairing in this collection probably #actually bothered #i'm not even in the mood to add the smut to the end of this chapter #though it's right there #i'm feeling sick #i'm just tired of it at this point #doesn't even matter if i write popular fandom pairings #obviously just a shitty writer what can you do #imma put haunted house again #so i can drool over catherine zeta jones again #while proofreading that shitty shot #and think about the next prompt

[lestatlioncunt]

arianne as she descends more and more into that melancholy and pain that comes with her surrender that she just wasn't ever destined to be happy with the woman she loves and it's also bc of her daughter that "forced" her to be away from her and THE WAY her undoing is her own daughter,,named after that same woman she loved,,,,IT ALL COMES FULL CIRCLE

#rena.txt #I'M FEELING SICK #also that pic has me dying akfjdlf #YOU CAN'T TELL ME THAT IN THE MOMENTS ARI IS THE LEAST LUCID SHE WOULD MUTTER A RHAENYRA INSTEAD OF VISENYRA AND VHANYA WOULD BE THERE LIKE #(incredible pain bc i'm the reason my mother is suffering and incredible rage bc in the end she only thinks of one person even above me) #VHANYA THAT'S NOT TRUE SHE LOVES YOU BUT YOU ARE THE CAUSE OF MOST OF HER PROBLEMS (add here that walter white meme screaming in the car) #in the end ari chose to be by her daughter's side instead of rhae IF THAT ISN'T LOVE FOR U VHANYA. I THINK ARI LOVED U WAY TOO MUCH FUCK #going through it this morning skcjskf THE OCS BRAINROT

[pan1c-3]

I want to post stuyff errhh i been jumping from fandom to fandom so uuurggr is hard to post i iu i really hadn't draw anything anywyasy

#please someone help #how you draw #i'm feeling sick

[daegorth]

Whelp

It's joever.

#inter miami #chi v mia #they decided to score all the goals in a 10 minute span lmao #I'm feeling sick

[stars-of-kyber]

I haven't had such a shitty, stressful day in years, I swear to god.

#I'm feeling sick #personal #Cee vents

[linkeduniverse]

July art

#linkeduniverse #creator content #artworks #Comic update soon #Wild hums #Or he could borrow one of the many ocarinas legend owns #Legend has so many instruments but I picked a small one that wasn’t an ocarina #spent all of July very very sick #I'm finally starting to feel like myself again #Being sick sucks! #So much precious time lost #And I missed a whole month of beautiful warm sunshine! #Sunshine is so rare here

[inkskinned]

there are a lot of posts out there that are positive and healthy coping mechanisms for handling the holidays. this is not one of them :)

i think there's like. going to be times in your life you will be stuck in a social situation that you cannot escape from gracefully. i do not know why the internet doesn't believe these times exist. it's not always just that your physical safety is at risk - sometimes it's legit like "i just don't currently have the energy or time to put in the effort of responding to this." sometimes it's a coworker you hate so much. sometimes it's just like, fine, you know? like you know you can handle your aunt when she's cheerily horrible, but if you actually set a boundary around her, it's going to be weeks of fallout with your father.

i don't know why people think the answer is always just "cut them out!" or "don't let them get away with that!" because ... the real world is tricky and complicated. i think kind of a lot of us have an internal "radiation poisoning" meter for certain people. like - i'm talking about the ones who are absolutely giving you gradual ick damage. like, you can handle them, but you'll be exhausted.

and yes. you absolutely should listen to your therapist and the good posts about handling others and set good boundaries and take care of yourself. prioritize peace.

HOWEVER :) ...... since im often in a situation with a Gradual Sense of Ick person i cannot just "cut out" of my life (without losing someone else precious to me) - i have sort of developed the most. maladaptive form of mischief possible. because like, if i'm going to have to listen to this shit again, i like to have a little bit of private fun with it.

now! again, i am physically safe, just mentally drained by this man. you should only do this with people you are not in danger with. which leads me to my suggestions for when your Unfortunate Acquaintance shows up and says oh everyone pay attention to me.

my favorite word is "maybe!" said as brightly and happily as possible. whenever the Horrible Person starts in on a topic you do not want to go further with, particularly if they make a claim that you know to be inaccurate, do not respond to it. you and i have both tried to actually argue with this person, and it hasn't gone well, because this person just wants the drama of an argument. however, "maybe!" gives them literally nothing to go on. it is incredibly disarming. they are used to people having some response. they know they can't prove what they're saying, and maybe! treats them like the child they are. it dismisses them in the politest way possible.

i like to say maybe! and then, in their stunned silence, immediately change the subject. this is because i have adhd and i will have something unrelated to talk about, but if you can't think of topics fast enough, i recommend just pointing to something and saying, "isn't that lovely?" because fuck you let's bring in some positivity.

by the way. that second trick - of pointing to something and stating an opinion about it? - that just works on its own, like, 70% of the time. i picked it up from teaching preschoolers. it's an intentional "redirect". it stops children crying and it also stops grown adults from finishing their explanation on why women belong in kitchens. dual wielding!

keep it silly for yourself. i absolutely do not care if people think i'm fucking stupid (it's more fun if they do) and as a result i will purposefully misunderstand things just to see how long it takes them to realize i've completely removed them from the subject at hand. when they say "women aren't funny" i get to be like. "which women." "all women." "all women in america?" "no in the world." "like the mole people? the people in the world?" "what? no. like, alive." "oh are we not counting the mole people?" "what the fuck are you talking about." "you don't believe in the mole people?"

similarly, i play a personal game called "one up me." my Evil Acquaintance literally knows this game exists (my family & friends caught onto it and now also play it) and it always fucking gets him. i don't know why. you have to be willing to be a little free-spirited on this one, though. the trick is that when they make one of those horrible little bigoted or annoying comments they are always making, you need to go one unit weirder. not more intense, mind you - just more weird. "you don't look good in that dress." "yeah, actually, my other dress was covered in squid ink due to a mishap at the soup store." "you shouldn't wear such revealing clothes." "wait, what? oh shit. sorry, your son tears off strips when no one is looking and eats them. i swear it was longer before we left the building."

the point of "one up me" is to completely upend this person's narrative. we both know this person likes setting up situations where you cannot "win" and then they really like telling other people how badly you handled it. in a usual situation, if you respond "please don't say something that rude", you're a bitch. but if you let it happen, you're letting yourself be debased. they are not usually expecting door number three: unflappably odd. because what are they going to say when they're telling everyone how badly you behaved? "she said my son eats her dresses" ".... okay?"

if you can, form an allyship with someone whomst you can tagteam with. where they can pick up on your weird "soup store" story and run with it.

the following phrase is amazing and can be deployed for any situation: "oh, be nice :) it's the holidays!" i do not know why this works as often as it does. i'll say it for the most random shit. i think this is bc most of the time these people know they're being impolite, they just like to fight.

godbless. when in doubt, remember that you could always start stealing their pens.

the whole point of this is - if you can't escape. maybe see how long you can just be. like. a horrible little menace.

#this is objectively bad advice #don't listen to it protect yourself and do real work on yourself find one of the good posts i've made about this #but also. u know. if u want to have fun while u do the work of setting boundaries #.... it IS fun #i will say that my fear of him went SO down after i just started. fucking with him. #bc i used to get SO fucking upset #i'd spend WEEKS arguing with him. tearing my hair out. sick with anxiety and dread and anger about all of it #and now i just LITERALLY do not engage #instead i'm like '' haha :) mole people" and get the HELL out of any tense conversation #i kind of think some of these people are literally addicted to drama as a form of connection #they like the rush they get from arguing #but those arguments are incredibly damaging for me #so like..... i am in the process of literally rehabilitating this person to figure out how to find connection thru #NORMAL CONVERSATION #he doesn't get it yet #i also do talk to them like they're preschool kids lmafo . ''are you using a safe and kind voice right now?'' #'' do you need a snackie? you sound a little upset. let's have some hummus and come back to playtime when we feel ready''

[sergle]

There’s no shame greater than that of adding a mutual on discord, and then blowing it at establishing regular convos in the early stages. and then it’s been too long. and their name simply sits there....

#why do I do that bro. it's a sickness. a disease #sergle.txt #feel a lil too late now perhaps so i'm just gonna jump in front of this semi truck and see what happen

[alexsiple]

#yakuza #goro majima #rgg #ryu ga gotoku #fanart #art #i'm sick i drew this to make myself feel better. normal

[duckprintspress]

Urgent: Help Us Not Get Screwed

Anyone who follows us has seen us screaming from the hill-tops about our current crowdfunding campaign for Aether Beyond the Binary (17 aetherpunk stories! Outside the gender binary main characters!). We've only got 50 hours left...and we just got screwed.

Our Anthology Kickstarter is being scammed.

About two hours ago, with us still roughly $1,500 from our goal, we got a junk pledge for almost $2,000. This pushed us into being marked as "funded" but there is zero chance it's a real pledge, it's from a shell account marked as being in Turkey. This kind of money doesn't just fall like a miracle into the laps of small business like ours.

The timing on this attack is devastating. The final 48 hours of a campaign are absolutely critical, especially for one as close to meeting our goal as we are. We were very likely to hit our target, but doing so was going to require appeals to y'all that started with "hey, we're so close, please help spread the word." Further, the campaign has hundreds of followers who will get a notification at the 48 hour mark, and many who might have backed to help get us to the finish line will now think "oh, they're there, they don't need me," and not back. Meanwhile, one of two things will happen with the spam pledge: either it will get removed by Kickstarter, which could take hours or a day+, totally nuking us during this crucial window, or it won't get removed until the payment bounces post-campaign, at which point we won't actually have enough money to do fulfillment.

Either way, we are fucked.

Please, please don't let these dipshits ruin the love and passion that 30+ people have poured into this project for over a year.

Our campaign IS NOT FUNDED, and it won't be without help. I'm begging, help spread the word about how we're getting screwed, and help spread the word about Aether Beyond the Binary (visit the link for so much info!) so that we can get enough real pledges to fund this project we've poured our hearts and souls into.

SUPPORT THE QUEER ANTHOLOGY KICKSTARTER FOR AETHER BEYOND THE BINARY (with your pledges or with signal boosts!)

#unforth rambles #like seriously guys i feel sick #this is a disaster #and the absolute earliest KS can do anything about it is in another 2 hours when their offices open #but it will probably take longer #someone else i know running a campaign right now it took 24 plus hours to get rid of an $8k spam pledge on their campaign #we WILL NOT FUND if it takes that long #in my submission to KS support I've begged them to give us another day #but even that's only a stop-gap because we've been advertising as ending tomorrow #there's no fixing this #i'm so upset i'm nauseous

[merrigel]

I want it back = I drag its dead weight forward

#artists on tumblr #animation #in stars and time #isat #illustration #in stars and time spoilers #isat spoilers #like for real #anyway I'm still thinking about Siffrin Instarsandtime #shoutout to tumblr user jb-blunk for the words from the caption which inspired this whole deal #literally finished the game and had those words looping (haHA) in my head like 'how do I use this what can I do to match this feeling' LMAO #if you haven't played ISAT well. first of all stop looking don't glean anything from this shhhh- but also GO PLAY IT IT'S EXCELLENT #heavily based off the astronomical clock in Prague! I love that thing so it was really fun to try and make it more ISAT-like #bc the themes are already there yanno!! Stars n' whatnot! And then of course the craft types instead of the astrological signs! #Loop and the King for the sun and the moon!! #can you tell I thought about and planned this one for like. A while. Longer than I usually spend LMAO #so yeah go play it immediately come be absolutely ILL and SICK and PLAGUED about the secret boss with me #fanart #pic

[definitionofacritter]

The way that Dariax is the only one to end up alone at the end of this.

Opal has Fy'ra; they have their deities. Morrighan has Cyrus's soul for a moment and a Matron for a lifetime. Dorian has the Bells Hells once more. But Dariax... for a while, at least, Dariax will have no one.

And it's in the way that Dariax won't realize at first that he's been abandoned.

Maybe he'll think he lost track of time. He'll go traipsing through town, asking about a handsome blue bard, trying to figure out what inn they must've agreed to meet back at for the night. Because they must have, right?

The night grows dark, and still no sign. He'll get sick with worry. He knows he's thick, but surely he would've noticed if something happened, right? He would've known if Dorian was in danger?

And then... I don't know what's worse from there.

What story does he tell himself, in the end?

That Dorian blames him for not being able to save his brother? No, no, Dorian was taken—because he would never have abandoned him, not when they were all the two of them had left?

Dariax has always known he was a lot to handle. He's been told how exhausting he can be. He knows he has never been worth sticking around for.

But he thought—

—he thought that maybe he'd done it right this time. That maybe someone would stay.

Eventually, Dariax stops looking. He greets isolation like an old friend.

He plays his new lute to fill the lonely silence, and it does not help.

#cr spoilers #critical role #dariax zaveon #dorian storm #doriax #cr meta #cr fanfic #y'all I'm. not okay with how that piece of the session went. not handling Dariax's ending well rn #i feel sick #(beautiful session ftr. totally understand Robbie's decision out of game. just. very pained by the in-game implications.)