#i'd say need a nap but i dont want one so idk

[royalwriteroftheuniverse]

Thanksgiving with Chris and Co. For the first time (choose your own Chris)

Warnings none its fluff shes nervous.I dont specifically mention names of his family members cause you can choose your own Chris I think most Hollywood Chris’ have sisters, but is just say kids and sisters but its just her meeting “his” family for the first time. I just used my favorite Chris ‘ photo

COMMENTS appreciated!! So are Rebologs . No permission to translate republish or print

My family isn't one for Thanksgiving.

So once Chris heard that he, very quickly invited me to celebrate with him and by invited I mean he was slightly pushy and by slightly pushy I mean he insisted I go and before I knew it there was a plane ticket in my inbox and me without a viable excuse . Chris and his stupid picking me up in a private yet so I can't claim to many people and covid exposure. Damn that man for knowing me so well.

When he saw me he had this sweet but smug smile with his hands out read or a hug. I put my grumbles pouty face on that I could bitin the inside of my mouth so I wouldn't break it as we both often break into smiles seeing eachother.

I passed him but he had brought me into a hug anyway.

"Hey baby" he wispered even though it was the two of us and I know there's a steward or two somewhere but they weren't around.

"Aww why so grumpy? Someone needs a kiss."

I roll my eyes. And somehow my grumpy pout had disappeared but I put it back on.

"Really?" He deadpanned.

"I'm just nervous"

"They're gunna love you."

"Chris i bet you say that to every girl you dated."

"Whats your point thats my job as a boyfriend to be reassuring."

"Great thankks."

"No I mean it though. You're sweet you eat more than a carrots so you've got my moms heart right there. You're great with kids. You can drink my weight in vidka,"

I giggled if only he knew half my shots in bars were water a little deal I work out with the bartenders when Chris and I first started dating I was worried I couldn't keep up with him.

"Yea but I'm better with kids I'd rather color then I dont know people my own age always hate me."

"I dont hate you."

"You're like 5 years older. Doesn't count."

"Sweetie if i didn't think everyone would get along I wouldn't have introduced you during Thanksgiving ok? " he stroaks my face as he helps me buckle in.

"Ok."

He gives me nose a small kiss which I can't help but smile and giggle.

After a nap a few kisses and a bad movie called "before we go" idk if you've heard of it "Ugh love sick dude no one looks that handsome must be prosthetics." I complained with a smile. I got a kiss in return "so you agree "

We get there and then we're getting out if the car to the front door i breathed in

"Ok I can't do this I this is a bad Idea ill just ill feel more comfortable at your house seriously I'm used to spending Thanksgiving like its just a Sunday and"

"Hi come on in" his mothers bright voice greets us and me by name.

I'm a bit shocked but Chris looked amused,

"Come in come in. Christopher take her coat. Ylu can wash your hands in the sink in the kitchen or the bathroom."

I look at Chris.

"I may have told them a bit about you."

Oh god what else did he say?

"Its a good idea honey. " she says.n

I wash my hands and try to calm myself and I walk into Chris when I open the door.

"You ok?"

"Yea just nervous. Really nervous."

"Come on," he offers his hand. "Dont be mad."

Oh god I wanted to throw up

"Oh god."

"No I just said you were nervous."

But they were really nice his they even asked if they could give me a hug. The kids ran towards Chris and then introduced me with someone asking Chris if I was a princess cause I was really pretty. I only knew that because Chris said

"You're are so right she is a princess and not just because she is pretty. But she is pretty isn’t she.”

Damn that man. I couldn’t help but smile. Evil. he’s evil.

The kids were tugging for us to color something I was perfectly comfortable with. To be honest it seemed like me and Chris were the ones acting like toddlers and stealing each others crayons.

One if his sisters brought over some snacks for the kids.

"You know you don't have to color right?"

"Its ok. I like it and I get to spend time with Chris and Chris gets to spend time with them and frankly kids are less intimidating."

I really need to shut up.

"Not that you're intimidating or your familt is just i just need to shut up."

"Its ok" his sister a studied me.

Not too long after an argument came about when two of the kids wanted the same color and then Chris had taken it to use to settle it which made it worse.

"Can you two share?" I asked calmly

They both said yes but both wanted it right now.

How about we split the crayon in half and you both can use it now?

They both thought for a moment and agreed. I easily split in half and sharpened both sides. Both kids were happy.

Change in P.O.V. 3rd person

Chris had been watching her in awe able to settle an argument that has left the two cousins arguing and in tears before, with a simple flick of the wrist. God he wanted to kiss her. He slid her half on his lap and kissed her on her cheek as the kids ewwwd Chris stuck his tongue out.

"Chris" she slapped his chest.

She had no idea his family had been watching until later on no other girlfriend of his was this well with kids or this calm with them. Or eatting cookies.

"Lets go outside hm" he wislered in her ear.

"K"

"Behave you two"

"You too Uncle Chris." One of the boys fired off. "I think you have an admirer" Chris said as they were walking to go out to the backyard.

"Well he has to get in line." She laughed.

When they got outside he pulled her into him surprisingly quick.

"That was so sexy" he gave her a a sweet but almost needy kiss.

"Chris I solved an argument between two kids."

"Yea but"

"While you made things worse." He rolled his eyes.

"You doing ok though?"

"Yea." She smiled and Chris' hart should be pounding from thr love he felt because she always took his breath away but it was so at ease with her. They were outside kissing for a little while and giggling like teenagers until they were interrupted.

One of the boys, he one who was obvious about his crush.

"Grandma say dinner is ready."

Chris sighed in disappoint.

"Ok"i rolled my eyes at my big baby of a boyfriend.

Chris tried to lead me inside but was stopped by the boy

"Ladies first."

"Why thank you young man. Nice to know someone in this family has manners." She winks at Chris.

After she and Chris wash up which ends up in some water flicks and giggles, he is playful anyway but had done everything at every moment to make sure she was relaxed and calm plus that smile of her was his favorite in the world second only to her giggle and slight snore as she slept.

They went to the table, while she took a seat the little boy sneaked under Chris arm and sat down.

"Well excuse me where did you come from."

"My mommy." Everyone laughed.

"And where am I supposed to sit young man?"

"Theres a spot at the kids table."

Which gave way to more laughter.

"Ookay you" Chris easily picks him up and put him down at the kids table as his girlfriend says,

"Nice to know I have options if me and Chris don't work out."

"Sweetheart you are not getting rid of me that easily." Chris said as he sat down.

"Oh ye of little faith."

There was easy laughter which set the scene for a an easy comfortable dinner.

At one point Chris mother asked for his help getting more rolls out from the oven.

"I love her Ma." He said the minute he stepped through the kitchen door.

"I know I've said I love girls before but its slightly different with her."

"I personally love how she eats like a normal person honey."

Chris chuckles "I told her you'd think that."

"But I love how happy she makes you. Your eyes are brighter. Then they have been in a long time."

"I need some help picking out rings." He said it like it was the weather but his stomach was churning.

"Well I'm sure one of your sisters can occupy her one day so the rest of us can go "

"Thanks Ma."

"I should be thanking her you seem happier and healthier than I can remember. But don't wait to long you've got some competion."

His mother moves the door slightly to point to the table and the little boy who took his chair.

He goes in the other room shaking his head "I am not even gone for 5 minutes and you're moving on."

"I did nothing he sat here."

"Young man don't make me wrestle."

"Please uncle Chris we both know I can take you." In a as-a-matter-of-fact tone. Chris had always let his neices and nephews win.

"I hate to break it to you buddy but she likes to kiss."

"Ew."

"Christopher" hwr face went bright red.

"Honey it's just the truth."

Chris clears his throat.

"Do I have to move you again?"

The little boy rolls his eyes "ill be back darling." And jumped down to the kids table.

"Oy" she said dropping her head Chris takes his pointer and moves her head up to give her a kiss.

"I am only staking my claim maiking sur when knows you are mine "

"Staking your claim? Yours hu? I don't see a ring on this finger Christopher."

She laugh little did she know what Chris was planning.

After dinner and desert they dtay the night as it was late and the roads a bit slick.

It was a snug fit in his single bed which Chris was so happy about. He loved holding onto her as she slept.

"You enjoy yourself?"

"Yea it wasnt as scary as I thought."

"You're family is really nice."

"They think you're sweet. And nice and beautiful and that I am lucky to have found you."

There was a knock in the door. It was late "who is it?"

It was that little nephew of chris'

"I think its for yiu" he teased.

The little boy handed over a picture he drew of her an adorable portrait

"This is so beautiful thank you."

"Let me know if he gets mean or grumpy."

"I will. Now go to sleep."

"Ok" he cherps.m.

She closes the door.

"Jeezy I went from favorite uncle to public enemy number 1."

She closed the door

"He is too cute."

"I think I'm going to have to have a talk with him."

"Just dont give him nightmares ok baby."

"Never." But he was going to make sure he knew who was your number 1 and two. Him and dodger hopefully in that order.

"So what do you want to watch. "

"Anything"

"Penu-"

"No"

"You said anything." He puts it on

"Besides," he gives her a kiss "I think you-" he kisses her before he finishes the sentance and is partcillay forgotten until they get too tired to kiss.

"I love you" she said nuzzling thier noses.

"I love you too" he leanes up to kiss her forehead then her nose then her lips.

"Don't start that again."

She can feel him smile against her lips.

"I dont know what you mean?"

"Hmhm. Promise you won't let me fall of the bed?"

He gripped on her hip a little more as well as the clothing underneath his hanth."

"Don't worry ill never let you go. I love you too much."

The two of them slept very peice fully next to eachother him holding her and thier smiling lips close enough that once in a while one gave the other a kiss in thier sleep .

Ahe had no idea that next year this time she'd be Mrs. Evans as Chris didnt want to wait too long and very thankful her mother-in-law would insist on hosting. But right now they just slept so peaceful in eachothers arms even his siblings who came into wake them for breakfast couldn't help but aww and then they kinda all gathered.. But, that didn't stop them from taking a few pictures- no one could deny the two of them were so in love.

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[hiding-in-the-vault]

hi im the hk insp au person again,, i just wanted to share just some more of my au if thats okay with you

https://imgur.com/a/L4AVTir (All my unofficial works and also some old designs that didnt work out in case anybody would be interested)

https://imgur.com/a/TNjocDK (Tommys and sapnaps design woohoo)

i hope you like it and please drop some thoughts if you have any :))

also an au notice; not entirely a hollow knight au just HEAVILY inspired by it (hence why its called rogue au in the imgur titles lmao) but i still wouldnt mind if people called it a hollow knight au

btw; you got dream and george right last time, i was surprised because he does in fact live in a very mossy grove (its Mossy Decay in the map), always hides in the shadows and is VERY protective of his little place. when tommy first met dream he wandered a bit too deep in mossy decay and was ambushed by dream, nearly making it out alive

for george, he does in fact like napping a lot around Hills of Mildew (on the eastern side of the map) inside his own hut and doesnt really care about anything and only goes outside to stretch his legs and look at the horizon

and ill also add some lore & funfacts

nobody has ever dared to go in "The deep", only some have tried but few have returned and those few were never the same 😵

theres an arena in barkals, people bet money and fight to the death for it, that's where Dream met techno! while techno was watching dream fight in the arena, he was impressed by his agility and strength and decided to challenge him to a duel outside of the arena. obviously, techno beat dream and thus begun their playful rivalry

ok i swear this was all i just really like to ramble abt stuff ty and bye❤❤❤

WOO!!!! First off, I really love your art style. All the pen lines, especially in some of the older art, it's awesome. I wish I'd do more stuff like that

Anyway, I love these guys. The fire head design is sooo cool. Idk if its just your style or if it looks a certain way for a reason, but it reminds me of autumn leaves and sticks. Which feels apt, for something so nature-themed. A skrunkly guy, I bet he thinks he's the coolest kid on the block. I'd like to hear the thoughts behind those eyes xD

And Tommy feels so sitting. He's a Big man™ and he's got Belts and Such™, Dont Mess With Him !!!11!1!!!! And then you see those big goofy eyes <3 Yep, you're very intimidating and cool, Tommy~ Also him losing his wings reminds me of osmp. That there is one slightly above-average guy who cannot fly. He doesnt NEED to fly, he is simply built different. #trust

Other arts

Map!! I love maps. Big map fan. I bet Tommy likes "The Junk". (if he can get past Dream to make it that far, anyway :eyes:) or at least the name, idk. its funny.

I don't have much to say about the others, besides that they're very fun to look at. I love seeing the thought process behind designs. Crying at George v.1 looking like a waiter djkfhskfd

Speaking of Dream. Ahahehehh I was right >:D It's the vibes, man. The vibes are there and they work so well with these two. If c!Dream and c!George were to be in a hollow knight inspired world, that is simply what they would be doing, I don't make the rules. And hey, that means your character design did its job :D Pog

I'm also always in favor of any idea regarding a fighting arena. Dream would do numbers there, I'm sure. Glad to see the friendly rivalry exists <3

I don't know if you plan on writing anything or just drawing stuff, or just vibe, but I love this concept and I hope you continue it :D

#vault asks #rogue au #yea i typed half of this and it got deleted earlier rip

[ambalambs]

So idk if this is something strange to post but ive been trying my hand at writing fanfic about miko lately since I dont trust my art skill to do the little scenes that I come up with. But I also have zero skill in writing so this probably isn't any good either lol but im having a good time with it. And if anyone cares about my little miko musings I figured I'd share

———

"If you have a moment or two to spare, pray consider playing a little tune or two on it to practice."

Miko trailed behind Artoirel and his manservant through the Firmament, but he immediately froze in his tracks as they came upon the twin grand pianos the man had been describing.

"Often it takes time to get accustomed to a new instrument," the manservant continued.

Miko, however, was barely listening as he slowly approached the pianos. The pair truly were a spectacle of craftsmanship. One was pure black, the light of the day peeking through the clouds brightly reflecting off it. The other was white. The soft ishgardian snowflakes dusting its surface just barely visible as they rested upon it. Miko made his way to the white one, his fingertips barely brushing along the edge of it as if his mere touch would mar its surface.

He moved around to the bench before the piano and immediately took a seat. The keys laid out before him just beckoning to be played.

"I must say our hero might not need much time to practice at all, Foncrineau," Artoirel grinned. "You look right at home, my friend. Have you played the piano before?"

Miko smirked lightly and placed his hands upon the keys. He didn't press down just yet, instead taking a moment to simply get the feel of it again. Being as musically inclined as he was, Miko had tried his skill on many instruments. If he put his mind to it he could play just about anything to a relatively pleasant extent. Enough to carry a tune at least. He found he was most fond of anything with strings but there was something special about the piano.

And as Miko felt the weight of his fingers on the keys it occured to him just how long it had been since he played. It really had been too long. And as he mused upon this thought a memory seemed to push itself forward. Not in the way the echo painfully did, no, but simply just a memory of his own from a simpler time.

———

Miko was just a boy in this memory. No more that nine or ten summers old. He had only just begun staying at this farm and its hyuran family for a couple of days. It had been strange but not unpleasant. The trauma of his loss was still fresh during this time so it was still difficult for him to truly allow himself to settle in. He still hung onto the expectation that his father would find him soon like he promised and take him home.

On this particular day he found himself wandering around the family's home. The man was somewhere out in the fields tending to whatever farmers busied themselves with. The woman was in the back of the house putting their small child down for a nap. This left Miko unattended for a time so he claimed the opportunity to quietly explore.

He wandered into the living area and trained his focus on a particular piece of furniture that had grabbed his attention when he had first arrived. It was big and wooden, but although the top of it seemed flat enough to hold trinkets, it was clearly not a shelf. Or at least not one he had ever seen before. There was, however, a booklet of some kind resting against the front of it. Miko glanced back over his shoulder for a moment to confirm he was still alone and reached out to skim through the booklet. He wasn't sure what he expected since he was well aware he wouldn't be able to read its contents even if he wanted to. But he didn't expect the strange lines and scribbles that filled the pages. He was fascinated by whatever these strange symbols could mean but he quickly lost interest in their mystery for now and placed the book back in its place.

What next caught his eye, and honestly the main reason the piece of furniture had caught his attention in the first place, were the small intricately carved designs on the wood. There were leaves and vines and flowers, all clustered together in the corners and along the surface. And among them were carvings of little creatures he instantly recognized to be sylphs. He had seen sylphs before playing among the toadstools while gathering herbs with his mother. She always warned him not to get too close. The green ones were nicer than the purple ones but they were still known to be tricksy.

As Miko reached out and began trailing a nail through the grooves of the carving, he liked to think this sylph was one of the green ones.

"It's pretty, isn't it?"

Miko jumped, immediately dropping his hand from the carving and whirling around to stare wide eyed at the woman behind him. His ears pressed flat against his head. The woman stood there leaning against the entryway with a soft smile. She had told him her name once when he first arrived but he still felt little reason to commit it to memory. He'd be leaving soon, after all, once his father returned for him.

"Oh goodness sorry. I didn't mean to scare you," she laughed lightly. Her laugh was sweet just like his mother's and it briefly tugged at Miko's chest as he inwardly berated himself for being so easily snuck up on.

"It's called a piano," the woman continued and gestured to the furniture before him. "Here let me show you." She tottered her way over to him, a hand on her pregnant belly. Once she made it to him she moved to reach beneath the piano and pull out the bench hidden below that Miko hadnt noticed before. He quickly hopped in to pull it out for her and she thanked him with a warm smile. She sat with a sigh that only a young mother can give and patted the spot on the bench beside her expectantly. Miko hesitated a moment before relenting and sitting beside her.

The woman tapped a finger to the wooden surface before them. "Go on, lift it up." She sounded almost giddy as Miko turned his wide eyed gaze from her to the spot she was pointing at. He wasn't sure what she expected of him to be honest. It didn't look like something he could lift, but as he curled his fingers into what seemed to be a seam in the wood and lifted, the panel easily gave way to reveal a long row of black and white keys beneath. Miko was instantly captivated. It was like he had revealed something mysterious and magical and hidden.

"My grandfather used to be a very skilled carpenter," the woman began. "He used to make all sorts of things but musical instruments were his specialty." Miko listened as he gazed at the keys before him. This was an instrument? They had many kinds of instruments in his village that he had played and loved but nothing like this. Suddenly the woman leaned in close to him, their shoulders bumping and whispered, "You know they say he even made some violins for an ishgardian orchestra that played before the archbishop himself."

Miko stared at her in awe. He didn't know what ishgard or an archbishop was at the time but it mustve been something truly important if she was being so secretive about it. She smiled and lightly giggled as she leaned away, Miko's attentive gaze never leaving her, hoping to learn more. But she instead gestured to the keys, "Go ahead. Push one."

Miko glanced at the keys with wonder. He carefully placed a finger on one and made to press down but it was sturdier than he anticipated and didn't give at first. So he tried again with more force.

DONG!

Miko jumped, ears once again flattening as he turned in the direction of the bedrooms where the toddler was sleeping. Immediate fear filled him. He hadn't expected it to play so loud.

The woman beside him laughed lightly again. "Dont worry about waking the little one. Once he goes out not even a calamity could wake him. Thank the Twelve for small mercies." Miko nervously looked back to her, calming a little. What happened next would remain in Miko's memory forever. The woman placed her hands on the keys and began to play. It was a pleasant tune. Something light and relaxing but Miko watched as her fingers seemed to dance along the piano. He found himself already placing each note and position of her fingers into his memory, the melody already latching onto him for later. He had always loved the sounds of the instruments back in his village, the strings and the flutes and the drums. Each would fill him with their deep and winded tones. But the sound of this was so different from any he had heard. It was almost like a chime but it rang so deep he could feel it run right through him and into his core. Oh he was already in love with this. He wanted to keep hearing more. To test out its limits for himself.

As the woman beside him played she began to speak to him as if the very act of playing the instrument was second nature. "This piece has always been one of my favorites. You strike me as someone who can appreciate it, too." Miko quietly nodded without taking his eyes off her hands.

She then suddenly stopped just as quickly as she began and gently placed a hand on her belly. "I hope to teach the little ones someday, but I dont think their hands will be quite dexterous enough for quite a while." She looked up towards him then, a gleam in her eyes. "How would you like to be my first student?" She said as she briefly booped a finger on the tip of his nose.

Miko's face scrunched up at the sudden contact but he turned his gaze down to the piano before him. He carefully and slowly placed his hands on the keys just as she had. For a moment he pressed his lips together in thought, then began to quietly hum the melody he had just heard her playing. It was soft, a bit raspy and broken in his throat from lack of use. But he ever so gently began to play the first few notes. It was slow going but the ease at which he so quickly picked it up was impressive. He felt a small smile tug at the corner of his lips and immediately stopped. Letting his hands rest upon the keys he thought, maybe it was okay if his dad took a little longer to find him if it meant he could learn how to play this just a little. He let the smile fully claim his face, as small and soft as it was, and turned to look at the woman next to him. "...sure."

———

As Miko pulled himself away from the memory he found himself smiling that same soft smile to himself. Remembering Artoirel had asked him a question he quickly straightened himself up and ran his fingers down along each of the keys with trained skill. "I have but I confess it's been quite a while," I replied with a grin.

"Well, it seems the Firmament will be in for quite a show," said Artoirel.

Miko chuckled and quickly scanned over the sheet of music already placed on the piano before him. Artoirel claimed he had written this piece so Miko was already determined to do his friend's creation justice. He softly started humming the new melody to himself, as he was wont to do with new pieces, before turning his attention back to Artoirel.

"You keep up writing music like this and you'll soon be writing symphonies for the Eorzean orchestra."

Artoirel chuckled, "Please, you praise me overmuch."

Miko laughed softly and turned his attention back to the piano before him. His heart suddenly warmed at the thought of performing before the people of the Firmament despite the cold of the snow. He'd have to write home about this and let mom know he got to perform a musical number to the esteemed ishgardians.

#i really hope that readmore works cuz this is a little longer than i expected it to be #also i havent written anything creatively since high school so idk how structure works anymore lmao rip #i might lose my courage and delete this tho hhhh #lambs personal junk #lambs tries writing #miko jinjahl #final fantasy xiv

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🐾yes:Jokingly flirting with me if we aren't dating, drawing my ocs/characters, asking to be friends(I will more than likely say yes), asking about art trades(never done one tho so you'd needa explain I'm sorry), using tonetags(I need them), asking to take info off of ocs of mine(as long as it's small depending on the oc)

🐾Ehhh:/srs flirting if we aren't together, being overly sexual with me, being an asshole, making certain jokes if it's coping or smth(I do it too js be sure to warn me pls)

🐾No/blocked:taking heavy inspo/taking my ocs, tracing my art/claiming my art as yours, not respecting Pronouns, idk I can't think of anymore rn

Uhh yeah can't think of anymore rn so yeah hope u enjoyed reading this have a cat meme

#introduction post #cat memes #introduction #help what else do i put idk oh my god

[bebecue]

God, it has been a time so when I saw that post I was literally like "😐... we'll table that for later" Ig the excitement of a new good song in the tornado of my life at that moment had me too excited haha. I'm gonna say I'd like to stay anonymous though cause... idk the mystery of it? You can follow me if you like, I don't really post anything myself though p much just reblog random shit ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯. MOVING ON, kitten update: we are 100% keeping her, and our vet (who isn't crazy like the vet we took her to before) said she's 8-10 months but she doubts she'll grow more. She's getting along GREAT with one of our cats (he's a massive tuxedo with no brain so, no big surprise) but our dear eldest child, who was a feral cat up until about two years ago, is not her biggest fan 😅 I'm sure she'll come around though. We decided to name her Mavis,,,, literally just cause it's pretty

I will return with music probably later this week, love ya, bye 😘 ~ bugunon(double checking the anon button)

RIKARIKA OMG I literally just found this song (like actually just 10min ago lol) but I'm already obsessed with it, its DEJAYOU by PiXXiE. It's cunty and darkish sounding, it's a lil bit repetitive but I don't think it's bothersome(lil extra detail, I love the effect they put on "oh boy you give me"), ALSO is almost 4mins long ... just saying

Idk like anything about the group except they're Thai and the youngest of them is 21(we love it when they're not total babies) and based on what I've seen their stage presence is really good.

I'll probably have more soon cause I have nothing to do this weekend lol, until next time, love you! and don't forget to always check what freebie you're grabbing 😘🦇 ~bugunon

BUGUNONNNNN tysm for the rec, you are 100% correct, it's dark, cunty, and incredibly catchy..the hook is so addicting and i looove the visuals!!! we love a group with actual adult members lmao idk about seeing a bunch of teenagers doing concepts like this, we need more actual adults in the asian pop industry

AND AAAAA A KITTY UPDATE and i'm so glad you found a good vet, it's so hard when all you have access to is one that just wants to take your money, and I LOVE HER NAME omg it reminds me of mavis from hotel transylvania lmao (dont judge)

i'm sure the eldest child will come around soon, our dogs were the same, when we adopted our youngest, the older one did not want anything to do with her (but she absolutely adores him) and now he kinda tolerates her and they even stay next to each other when they nap

AND YES PLEASE more music recs!! i need more variety in what i listen to hehe

#and i did follow u from my main blog hehe i hope u dont mind! #rika.replies #bugunon

[sleepless-in-starbucks]

sometimes life is realizing you’ve been triggered but being too tired to actually have the resulting panic attack so you just get more tired

#vent #but only barely #i mostly just. #i'd say need a nap but i dont want one so idk #i kinda wanna reread old convos- been a fruitful pasttime recently- but think i need to wait that out a bit first #i'll put on doctor who yeah that's smth nice #maybe play sdv after dinner #do hw somewhere in the in between #yeah that's a game plan #the cryptid speaks

[obeymematches]

Hewwo when you have the time can I pwease get a matchup uwu

He/him-entp

Personality: I'm loud and outgoing, its easy for me to make friends with people and I love meeting new people. I've been told I'm good at forging bonds and bringing people together. People call me brave, I think I'm really just stupid reckless and careless which IS true but hey I'm not complainin if ppl wanna call that brave. I'm willing to put myself in danger to help others too, this uh. Isnt smart, I'm not smart. But if the people I care for are safe and happy then I dont mind what happens to me B) I'm also great with animals, I dont like taking things too seriously and often make (bad) jokes in tense situations. That being said I know when to stop if it's a genuinely serious situation.

That being said my worst traits are that I'm arrogant, sadistic, stubborn, lowkey hotheaded, untrusting to a debilitating degree, I can come across as genuinely scary unfortunately:( and I'm clumsy

My interests and hobbies are: true crime, the occult, drawing I guess, taking care of animals and helping lost pets find their homes, taking naps, dream interpretation, causing misery for my shitty father, binging horror stuff and crying over video games

What I look for in a partner is kindness, someone I can relate to? I dunno as long as they arent genuinely mean.

What I have to offer is uh. Ok be patient with me! I dont know relationships very well so if this is worded weird sorry.

Anyway I just want to be there for someone, i want to be able to protect someone and make them smile, nothing ever makes my day more than seeing someones face light up ! If anyone hurts them I'm gonna hurt that person twice as bad, and if they dont want me to I'll just be with them and do everything in my power to make sure they're ok. I want them to feel safe with me and know that I love them for THEM and not some facade or anything too. If they wanna go somewhere I wanna take them there! I want to listen to them talk about their favourite thing for hours on end, I would do anything and everything in my power for that person. Ok that's a lie if they wanted me to hurt an animal I wouldnt do that but I'd take on like. A spider for them.

Anyway thanks for your time sorry if this was too much, if you ever need anything else I'll call myself -💥 anon so just give me a yell and I'll do my best to help

Hi anon! ✨

I’ll put a read more because this is gonna be long! 

Okay so as I read your request I was hesitating between Mammon and Diavolo but I decided to choose Diavolo because regarding some aspects it would be a real missed opportunity/wasted potential to pick Mammon over him! 

Ok so you start with your talent of forging bonds and if you ever played this game then you know that Diavolo is all about exactly that - meaning you will be a real asset to him which is the base of a strong relationship! (dw i’ll elaborate on why he is also an asset to you in the following paragraphs you are not about to be left hanging) 

The fact that you are so friendly instantly catches his attention. I’m talking the moment he sees you kind of infatuation here. idk he just. senses it from a mile away that you are quality

I imagine your reckless tendencies get you into some serious situations which might also be dangerous. But worry no more, my friend! Diavolo would be the kind of partner who joins you in your fun and he might out-do you in such occassions but just keep this in mind: he is a powerful and strong demon so if anyone can get you out of trouble / keep you safe on a not-totally-thought-over adventure, it’s gotta be him. No other candidate in the game could compare and give you this balance. 

Also he is very keen on sponaneity (as much as his schedule can allow him) so you got that going for you too! 

Okay so since you want to keep him safe too, this relationship is just two ppl who protecc except you can also attacc 

come to think of that, I’m not sure if he would really encourage that and the “if someone hurts them i hurt them twice as much” behaviour as he is just a prince who wants peace with everyone. but growing together is fun! 

I can totally see you two joking around all the time, lowkey driving Barbatos close to insanity in the castle, but! that means you also have a friendship with Diavolo! so he is not just your lover or partner but also your best friend who you can joke around with or be with through serious situations. this relationship isn’t just about being in a relationship but actually making the most of what a healthy relationship can offer

Now i think Diavolo can handle your sarcastic and arrogant side of you pretty well. looking at his bond with Lucifer I’m pretty sure he would have no issues with it

Being stubborn isn’t always bad - as long as he knows your intentions mean well there’s nothing wrong. Clumsy shouldn’t be a turn off either as long as you don’t mind him laughing it off

I think he is also rather selective about trusting others - he might complain about being lonely but deep down he knows he can’t just trust anyone. 

Don’t worry, you definitely never come accross as scary to him. Even if you try hard. 

OK so if i didn’t only dream it then he keeps rescued animals (cats) in the castle so this is something you two could bond over and this would also help in building trust! 

Something else to bond over is your shitty fathers. I’m almost sure Diavolo’s insecurities stem from that and that’s why he and Lucifer are such close friends. You are part of that club now! 

He is one of the candidates who does his best to indulge in his s/o’s hobbies, though as I said his time is rather limited. I don’t think he would have any excuses for not liking horror stuff, video games, etc.

ok i’m pretty sure i already elaborated on how you two can relate to each other, in addition i want to emphasize that he is one of the kindest characters in the game as of now so he has that going for him 

From what I can tell from your offerings in a relationship, it is safe to say that you are more than willing to be there for him when he is going though insecure periods of his day/week/month/year so that is something he can appreciate. The fact that you mention loving someone for them and not for their facade speaks volumes in his case - he had to turn down many marriage proposals in order to protect himself and his future kingdom. I think it goes without saying why some people would marry him without actually knowing him. 🤴🤑

#obey me #obey me swd #obey me diavolo #obey me matchup #om! diavolo #obey me shall we date

[mifunebooty]

Tagged by @hensons aka i tagged myself to have something to do today

1. What do you prefer to be called name wise?

Cherry, baby

2. When is your birthday?

October 15!!!

3. Where do you live?

Austin, Texas, baby, good luck finding me! *jumps out the window and starts running*

4. Three things youre doing right now? texting my friends, watching pbs on amelia earheart and on the couch with napping lady

5. Four fandoms that peaked ur interest?

Idk if im a fandom person as a whole or ever but i guess I'd say 1) old hollywood, it was a huge ass thing over here when i joined and tbh i did get involved in drama and shit but im a new bitch now 2) *brad pitt voice from snatch 2000/01* dags 3) im not in any fandom bc im honestly detached at a certain point and just vibe so I'd say movies and tv like idk if hannibal is a fandom like ..... Its a tv show of media's most famous cannibal like im just here bro

6. How has the pandemic been treating you?

Like absolute shit, baby! Cant go out, can't appropriately find a job, can't go on campus, can't handle my brain doing online classes like I'd take off a decade of my life to go on campus again and im so lonely, i get why Will did all that going back to Hannibal bc nobody held or touched him in 1-2 days

7. A song you can't stop listening to right now?

Sauvecito sauvecito by laura leon since i added it to my hannibal playlist (coming tomorrow or Saturday)

8. Recommend a movie

Megamind

9. How old are you?

22

10. School, university, occupation, other?

Physically i have 2 more semesters at acc until i transfer to UT and unemployed but spiritually awaiting until covid ends so i can become a class traitor and suck up to a rich bitch up their nepotism tree and leave all of this shit i dont want

11. Do you prefer heat or cold?

Heat

12. Name one fact others may not know

Not to snitch on myself but im an excellent forgerer

13. Are you shy?

I look like it but im not at all siehsmowaoziheks its the libra sun gemini rising, every class i took on campus i became very easily the person most verbally involved in the class

14. Pronouns?

She/they

15. Biggest pet peeves?

People who interrupt me while im talking and currently my google chrome app being a piece of shit and crashing very easily

16. What's your favorite "-dere" type?

What the fuck is a dere

17. Rate your life 1-10, 1 being crap and 10 being the best

Currently it's 5/6 (4 when i look at my spanish grade), id like my fucking money back!! Hope it'll go back 6-7 next semester and an 8 in my dreams bc im being realistic

18. What's your main blog?

Esto

19. Side blogs?

None, all of you will witness all sides of my teeny weeny brain and pathetic mood swings

20. Is there something about you people need to know before becoming friends?

Yes, my love is undying and you'll break my heart if you dont feel the same way and I'll support you wherever you go and as long as ur opinions and actions aren't harmful, i love and respect and support you. But also know my opinions are always on 24/7 and i hope you're sexy as me and respect and support me too

Tagging @thequeercowboy @theocseason4 @sluttynurse @johnnysilverhand @valwiggin @warm-pleatherette @sadhaw @zatanazatarra @buddyhollyscurls @jrpg @fruitybehaviour @kristina100000

#cherry says #im done my feet are cold

[cinnab3an]

Get to know me some more

This time tagged by @goodnightmoonvale

1. Nicknames: my name doesnt lend to nicknames well (teigan) so the only one I have directly based off my name is teigangerine, and that's technically not a nickname since it doesnt shorten my name??? Idk. The folks at my job call me red so that's what I usually go by

2. Zodiac: scorpio. The primary scorpio fact I know is that they are supposed to be Super Horny And Sexy and that's not me in the slightest, no, but supposedly also passionate and fierce too which is also not me. Yesterday I looked at a horoscope piece and the drawing of the scorpion hurt every piece of my soul. Listen, i was premature and i i wasn't even supposed to be a scorpio

3. Hogwarts house: I've "tested" into ravenclaw and hufflepuff. I think I lean more toward hufflepuff but I'm also not that into harry potter so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ what do I know

4. Height: Its been at least over a year since the last time I was measure but probably 5'4" and a half , or a quarter

5. The last thing I googled:

6. Favorite musicians: usually I dont like more than 1 or 2 songs by a person or band, so I'll say if I like more than 8 songs by someone then they have favorite status. That would be: flogging molly, radical face, Keaton Henson, and steam powered giraffe

7. Song stuck in my head: silhouettes/ by sleeping at last. Idk I havent even heard it in a few days but for some reason I just cant stop thinking about it

8. Followers: 160

9. Following: 318

10. Do you get asks: I used to, but that's mostly because I staunchly refused to speak to my friends through messaging and so we all communicated by sending asks xD. Every now and then I get some, but not like I used to

11. Amount of sleep: recently I've been getting about 5 or 6 hours a night but that might be because I moved out of the dorm bed and into a king bed? The last few months at school I would get around 3 or less because my body hated me. I also nap a bit around the house so that adds another hour or two

12. Lucky number: I dont have one. I usually pick 11 or 19 because of my birthday but I'm not emotionally attached to any numbers

13. What're you wearing: a truly ridiculously fluffy white sweater, my oldest pair of leggings, and two bracelets that my friends made me

14. Dream job: short answer, explorer. If I had to think of everything I would love to do and find the common factor, it would be exploring. I want to go on adventures and see new things and just be surrounded by the environment. Too bad the majority of the world is already discovered and I have an incredible fear of the ocean :))))

15. Instruments: I used to play the viola in elementary school. I have a violin now and I'm learning how to play the harmonica and the guitar. As a kid I wouldve died to learn how to play the harp (and I still would, probably)

16. Languages: english is my native language and I'm only barely fluent in it. Talk to me for more than a few minutes and you're gonna know it. I've been learning Italian for around 6 years and I just took a course on irish Gaelic so I know a bit of that.

17. Favorite song: if I ever leave this world alive / by flogging molly. I'm emotionally compromised by that song in THE BEST WAY. Other close faves: along the road (radical face), 3 rounds and a sound (blind pilot) and waterbound (dirk powell)

18. Random fact about me: I had a total obsession with squirrels in elementary school. Meaning, I'd chase them down whenever I saw them on the playground, to the point where other students would pretend to see one just to set me off and see what I'd do. This led to the shocking moment in fifth grade when, to everybody's surpise, I ended up being faster than a squirrel and managed to catch it. And then the whole school swarmed me and half the kids thought I was the coolest thing in the world and half the teachers though I was gonna get everybody killed. And for the next year and a half, my nickname at school was "rabies girl"

19. Aesthetic: i like flower crowns and flowing dresses and glitter. My neighbors once said I dressed like a fairy, which was pretty cool. I enjoy all colors and color combinations (except green) but my most common patterns are all colorful and bright or all black. The ideal look for me is a chaotic mess that shouldn't work but somehow does

20. Dream trip: I want to say italy, because that's what I always say when people ask me where I want to go, but my DREAM trip, which doesnt have to be a realistic trip, would be out to space to visit all the planets and their moons. In the same logic that would make this dream possible, I would delete all time needed to travel between locations, and I would also make it so that any surface I touched down on would be safe for me and the people I bring with me (no crazy temperatures, no deadly gases, etc). I just think that would be really neat. As a kid I used to dream about floating up to the stars and putting one in a jar, so maybe I'll bend logic one more time and find a star small enough to do that.

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Okay this one was a lot of fun :D tagging: @taegiyes @itsdragonstar @feral-renaissance-cat @totalnerdway @becauseflour @princesucculent @danish0212

#again yall only do it if you want to #tag game #gnmv thank u for tagging me a couple times i adore these

[fizzingwizard]

well back to the rat race this week. absolutely illegible nonsense venting under the cut

lit halfway through the first day back my voice was already half-gone and my butt hurt from sitting on those hard little kid chairs x'D idk why they cant make more comfortable chairs for kids... i mean not even just for us teacher's sake, some of the little ones really dislike sitting in the hard chairs. we make sit-upons for them etc. but what if the chairs were just... nice to begin with?? anyway i digress

there's a new student in every class T_T so much crying. despite that, my new student is really sweet, and speaks english shockingly well. idk if it's because he understands me better than most new kids do, but he's been very receptive to me and i've had no trouble keeping him calm. of course he's gone through typical new kid separation anxiety and general feeling scared from not understanding what's going on. but i have simply explained to him what's happening, given him options, and let him know he can change his mind when he's ready, and he's been able to do everything. he's adjusting in a snap. it's awesome. such a relief.

today was his first nap and snack and he was upset that his mom wasn't picking him up at the usual time. he didnt want to eat snack, so i put him in the play area with toys and told him he could come have snack when he was ready. a little while later i showed him the snack again and asked if he wanted it, he said no, but after a few minutes he came back on his own and asked to eat. he even sat at the table and drank his water, both of which he had refused to do before because he was feeling so anxious. his anxiety is totally age-appropriate, but his ability to calm down and feel comfortable is definitely higher than any other student I've had. he also has the ability to think about what else is going on (snack is available, the diaper mats are out, his water bottle is in the basket) and to know who he can talk to about his needs (me, naturally) despite it being only his second day with us AND his first full day. idk it probably seems not that special unless you teach kids under 4, but he's really shockingly independent. the only type of kid i'd expect to act this way would be a carefree type who is independent because they're just not afraid, but this kid is clearly afraid. he needed time to decide whether his fear was justified, i gave him the time, and he was able to happily and confidently self-soothe. really fantastic. i learn something new about kids every day i swear.

and of course im just generally relieved not to have a tantrum thrower x'D i love all my students but that type is def the most difficult. right now though I have 18 students but for whatever reason they all get along SO well an my class is so peaceful. SUPER busy because we have to do everything 18 times lol. but they rarely fight, they can share, they laugh and play and joke around and seem interested in everything i teach them. i dont know i am just super blessed this year i guess! last year i had two kids guaranteed to stress me out at least once a day. this year we've had some bouts of stubbornness and a kid who hit, but the stubbornness is fading as the kids become more interested in their own independence, and the hitting's about stopped as well. id say the biggest challenge right now is 1) potty training - most of the girls are doing well but most of the boys are still reliant on diapers, and 2) getting them to eat lunch (we still have four kids who are slow eaters, two of whom refuse to eat after a while, and two of whom need to be hand-fed even though they are old enough to do it by themselves. in one kid's case it's due to special needs, but in the other, idk, he is just very daydreamy and is used to being hand-fed :P that being said he is sooo much more independent than he was just a few months ago, so im not worried about him. he will get their in his own time. it's just that his teachers next year will get mad at me if he can't feed himself by the time he's in their classroom... but that's my problem and not the kid's xP

other stuff. as predicted, not five minutes into the first day of the new term things blew up:

one coworker is out sick (now for two days).

another coworker has covid AND is overseas, so not only does she need to recover before she can come back here, she will then need to quarantine. so we won't have her for probably two weeks.

first things firstly, health is always most important and not in a million years would I blame my coworkers for getting sick or the fall-out from it. regardless it does affect the rest of us - that's on the company though (which very graciously treated us to a "surprise" training session during our prep in which we had to answer such challenging questions as "do you know our company's mission? do you agree with our company's mission?" and then being fed the answer "why would I work here if I didn't?" smh it was the most ridiculous waste of time like i cant even...)

so i realized not only would me and the only other teacher who isn't sick be covering all their classes (we do have a sub for one of the sick teachers at least), but I would also be covering all of the coworker with covid's extracurricular classes. goodie. usually if one of us is out sick the other will cover, but we make up for it by then teaching one of their classes the next time etc. if coworker is out for two week's she'll owe me those classes, but it's those on top of the ones she teaches normally. which I will already have done of course by covering for her, but it's extra work, it's time-consuming, we are already extra busy because of parent-teacher conferences, and she could potentially be gone even longer than two weeks. so that would be a lot of classes for her to have to make up. A lot for me to have to cover too... but still it would feel like punishing her for getting sick by making her teach that many make-ups.

so i realized i would probably just have to suck it up, cover her classes, and not ask her to teach make-ups even if she offers. at least i don't have covid, right?

but! the good news. today the sub sat in on my class, apparently with the goal that she will help to cover those classes starting next week, so it won't be all on me. i was thrilled, this was unexpected because this sub has actually sat in on my class before, and then was never ever asked to teach it. i was just asked to continue covering. so i assumed this meant for whatever reason this sub was not expected to sub extracurriculars, even though the subs at other schools ive worked at with this company were. all of a sudden maybe someone just remembered that subs can sub classes lol? but sub said since it had been so long she no longer remembered how to teach the class (it seems like she doesn't even remember sitting in on mine before...) so that's why she watched me today. well my hopes are high that i won't need to cover so much after all.

but there was another woman who i've never seen before in my life who walked into my classroom and just watched the whole lesson. never introduced herself. she was at the school the whole day and seemed friendly but lit never spoke to me once. i dont know who she was. of course we have observations but they're always announced. at least we're told "A surprise observation is coming" when it's something spontaneous. random people dont just walk in. but this woman came in with my manager and was working with her throughout the day. also she took notes while watching me!! i half wanted to ask my manager what's going on but in the end decided i dont want to know... if it's bad i'll deal with it when i'm told about it lol in the meantime im going to pretend she came to watch me because im just that entertaining when i try to stop babies from gnawing on my flash cards bahaha

in sum im exhausted after only working two days x'D i want vacation again already lmao. im just reminding myself that this is the end of the year, which is the best time for my kids' age, because this is when their understanding and comfort is highest. we can have so much fun these last couple months together. it's why i rarely take days off between jan-march, i dont want to miss this time with them, it's like the fruits of our labor finally pay off haha

why is like... well, a couple years ago my class reached 21 kids which was out of ratio. it had been huge for a while but management dragged its feet getting another teacher. they told us we'd have one in june... we got one in january. with only 2.5 months to go till graduation. and they made me split my class and keep only the youngest kids, because they would be more comfortable than me. which meant the new teacher not only got a smaller class (she had a max of SIX kids coming any particular day), but she didn't have to do anything to teach them. i had already done it all. she got to just enjoy their growth and throw them a graduation party (i also did a lot of her paperwork and conferences because "she's a new teacher and it's too much work" which i get and isn't her fault but otoh I had to do all of it when i was a new teacher without any help...???). i didnt even get to say goodbye to the kids who had been my students all year. yes i am still salty about this. i felt like no one cared about me. that's because no one did care :) because i'm a teacher and an employee, and this was not about me. It wasn't. it was about the kids. I know that. but i can't help the selfish wish that my class could have stayed mine till the end of the year. rather than splitting, if they couldnt find a teacher till the last two months and were going to expect me to do everything anyway, i think they should have just made the new teacher join my class and have 4 teachers for one class. but it wasnt my decision. also part of the reason im salty is the new teacher got praised for how calm her class was compared to the way it was, yknow, when they were in my class. that's great, i was happy for my former students, but wanted to point out that i, too, wanted to do things much more slowly and take more time, the trouble was rather than having only six kids in my class, I had 21. when you have 10 min to wash 6 kids hands it's no problem. when you have 10 min to wash 21 kids hands, it's another matter. i mean thats less than 30 second per kid (and we're supposed to wash their hands for 20 secs x'D)! plus those 6? were all about 4 years old at that time. My group of 21 had been oldest 3.5, youngest 1.5... it makes a difference. also we potty train them at this time :) :) :) i just dont know How man. How was I supposed to be both "faster" and "calmer" in that situation. we either needed more time or fewer kids. the number of sinks/teachers was not going to change lmao. oh yeah also we potty train when we wash hands as well x'D

#mostly me being salty dont bother reading #fizz's life #work

[emotionalyodeling]

hghghghgg I am unwell. i have quit my job. i need to text ceci that i cant come in. im gonna do that now and block her. ok i have left the gc. i feel not rlly better well maybe a little bit but ugh. molly was talking about how some guy wanted to like pressure her into sex and i like. idk it made me think of zach and i's first time i just am not sure of if it was consentual like it was so weird. he literally just like napped but then started like fingering and it was just ? idk maybe it was just clumsy, i just wish we had talked about it more :/ rushing into stuff just made consent so dubious and i wish it just hadn't so i wouldn't have to question stuff. idk i feel like i was just going along with a lot of stuff, maybe i wasn't but i just wish stuff had been talked.about.

anyways i basically feel like shit. literally just wanna ughfgkdfjgd. i dont even know. i thought quitting would help but for some reason i just feel so depressed. my sleep schedule is messed up, so i should probably work on that, and work on eating more and stuff. i just am. hgg., last night i just started feeling immensely lonely and sad because the friend group seemed to be doing so well without me and i guess i felt sad bc i like being needed? but that doesnt seem exactly right.

i think i was sad because i wanted to join but didn't have the energy, also a lot of my friends r like. mentally ill. and tbh its not a bad thing but i do wish i had ppl who were just. ok i guess. i feel like its my moms voice whenever i see them vent about mental health stuff. for some reason for the past month empathy has just become very difficult to me. and i am literally just collecting more and more mentally ill peeps in this server lmao.

ugh also the fact that i was like ya i dont wanna b a counselor. and i literally just. was a counselor for max. i need to ask carolyn how i can be a friend instead of trying to be something else bc i honestyl am now just starting to feel used and when i "joked" about being maxs therapist and that people only wanted to talk with me about their problems and nothing else i got so. fucking sad and i hoenstly am sad just thinking about it like. this kind of reminds me of that vid where its like it feels good to think about myself as a victim. but literally milo, and kenny, isabella,and initially caden, and max sometimes too i just feel like they only go to me if im being emotional support. and also i feel like im the only one who is making plans, idk like someone else can plan stuff and they are interested in going but like. idk this isnt that big of a deal. like i actively make the conversation about other peoples problems out of habit. i dont rlly think its to avoid something? maybe i just need to feel needed for that purpose.

anyways i felt kind blegh so i facetimed zach and i told him i felt bad and it actually made me feel worse b/c he basically asked what he could do to help. which to me felt like he was trying to idk? i just would've rather him been like why whats wrong do u wanna talk about it? instead of focusing on fixing it. but he basically said we should go to sleep and for some reason i felt so sad after he shared that. and i wanted to say goodnight but i didnt wanna cry and for some reason i just didnt want to tell him i wanted to cry b/c i think when i feel bad reaching out for help is just ugh. i'd rather feel bad by myself i guess is my habit. so i texted goodnight and said i'd be fine which i didn't mean and i think i wanted him to like. chase after me, but it wasnt like an active thought in my brain. i usually would just open up, im sure i would've felt so much better if i had literally just. said babe i feel like crying and i dont know why and he would have been comforting to me, but i just didnt so now i feel so bad. because of many things.

also school. need to do school stuff. bio is gonna start tanking if it ahsn't already. need to get my shit together for that. but tbh i just feel gfdjkgndkfgnd.

#h

[punkscowardschampions]

Ronnie, Bronson, Charlie & Bea

Ronnie: I'm going on a run Ronnie: who wants? Bronson: My stash is depleted for some unknown reason 🤔 please stock me up Charlie: Ooh, new year new you babe? Charlie: couch to 5k is it aspirational af 😍 Bea: ✋ me Ronnie: fuck off i just dont need you pussies crying when you can't scav my gear Ronnie: what'll it be princess? the usual Charlie: c'mon, we've always shared everything, nothing is your own #carekidlife Bronson: Ha! That'll be why the lock on my door never sticks Bea: yep, not decided to get heavily into crack since we last spoke, just lots of amphetamines in any form you find 'em, tah, got exams coming up Ronnie: Shame Ronnie: reckon I'd like you more on the hard shit Charlie: just in case you missed the old place, man, giving you that nostalgia for when you had to padlock anything that wasn't bolted to the floor 😜 Bronson: Good times! 😀 Bea: Shame I'm not trying to be your type then, I guess Bea: soz darling, spoken for 💋 Charlie: Truly, missing that tenner a week pocket money, LUXURY! Ronnie: fucking am Ronnie: pissing jobcentre Bronson: I'll add it to your tab if you're desperate as Charlie: gotta learn to play their game, babe Charlie: not throw the board in a hissy Ronnie: 🖕 doss cunts Bea: catch me here fanning myself with sweet, sweet debt for future me to give a shit about Bronson: I'll wipe it out if you use some to keep me sweet Bea: sweet enough sugar 😘 Bea: but forreal, if you could manage that I would be your sugar mama for LIFE 🙏 Bronson: It's student loans not the feds Bronson: Easy peasy Bea: true, like all branches of the gov, pretty fucking useless Bea: but I'm an immigrant as far as they concerned so they treat me SO good 😋 Bronson: Same, but we can always stretch our hands out a little further Ronnie: To jack it and pat yourself on the back at the same time, yeah? Ronnie: calm it down Bronson: New year, new look too! Green looks ace with black 😄 Bea: Clearly do not have natural rhythm Ronnie, that's really not that difficult Bea: You're not a drummer, are you? 😕 Ronnie: get off my tits all of yous Ronnie: do you want gear or nah? Bronson: 🤐 Bea: I thought you'd already gone tbh Ronnie: not trying to score that weak gay shit Ronnie: hitting up a more reliable source like Charlie: rude, i'm RIGHT here Ronnie: are you even gay fitzy? always in my pussy lad Bronson: 😷 Bea: 🤢 Charlie: idk, ask ur man 💖 Ronnie: that'll be why me and Bron's dads did a bunk Bronson: Get yourself locked up at the same time just for the d, did you? Romantic Charlie: if the porn n the stereotypes n the rate of STIs are anything to go by...love is in the air always in cell block h Ronnie: princess'll have some handcuffs to get you on your way to that good loving Bea: 🚿🧠 anyone got any bleach? Bea: Charlie isn't worth the 💰 use cable ties, more authentic Bronson: 99 🚔 My fingers are on the button....Stop for the love of god Ronnie: Bron can help you out there Fitz Ronnie: 🤓 Bronson: Take that over a thicko label Charlie: Look, babe, know you wanna tie me down forever but do it yourself, don't involve the kid Charlie: 💍 diamond or no D, soz Ronnie: Bring a needle I'll snag a gem Bronson: Don't go there, C, I'm still riding the ear infection wave Bronson: It's been 84 years Ronnie: yeah cause you're a mong that can't turn an earring Bronson: In my defense I was a legit child Bea: nothing screams low-class like stabbing your friends for the bants Charlie: and i already scream homo loudly enough, don't need another reason to be hate crime-d, a thank you Bronson: If I didn't know you I'd guess bisexual Bronson: You can have that for free Charlie: what a smooth-talker! thanks babe 💖 Charlie: and if i didn't know you, i'd guess you were trying to see my dongle Bronson: Been there, repressed the trauma o that Ronnie: get a fucking room benders Charlie: why you being so homophobic when we all know how bad you want on princess? cliche stuck in the closet much Bea: shut up Ronnie: in your wet dreams Charles Ronnie: fuck off Charlie: oh the delicious tension Charlie: too much for either to bear Ronnie: I know where she's been Ronnie: fuck that Ronnie: like you wish you could gayboy Bronson: Wait, you fancy Fraze, Charlie? Ha Bea: Bron can you not encourage either of them Bea: thanks Bronson: Sorry my mind's just blown I thought he was out of his straight boy phase Charlie: What? Its a compliment for you, he's adorable, why else would you be with him? Ronnie: they're both annoying cunts Ronnie: match made Charlie: and never out of that phase, bro 😍 #daddyissues Bea: get his name out of your mouth bitch Ronnie: oi get your mouth off his dick Fitzgerald you heard her Ronnie: princess is raging like Ronnie: when your mans a slag and youre a prude Bea: As if Bea: Only one McKenna fucked up to go near you Bea: #singletear Charlie: Children, enough Ronnie: Bron do that final 9 she's going off 😂 Bronson: Walking away Bea: know you're hard up but as per we're all funding you getting your rocks off so run along and do it, no need to bore me trying to get your kicks Ronnie: know youre a snobby cunt but I don't work for you Bea: you don't work for anyone, not even JC gonna fund your lack of a life Ronnie: 🖕 mad cause I don't need reddies to fund myself Bea: yeah fuming Bea: if only I'd have thought of selling my body, wouldn't even NEED to be at cambs rn omg Ronnie: nailed it Bea: 😂 Bea: whodathunkit Bea: talking to the cure for cancer stuck inside a waster here Bea: and I'm the snob, okay Ronnie: fucking hell Ronnie: devvo like Bea: We can tell Bea: you don't need to shout about it, you've got the energy of a walking wasteland Ronnie: can't wait until you take some more speed and get more smug Bea: Right? Bea: Must sting, better only getting better Bea: why don't you get something to numb the pain- Ronnie: let you know how it feels when the lads come up Bronson: A rare compliment, you hitting it already? Ronnie: you'll have your share calm the fuck down Charlie: i don't want any, i'm busy Charlie: glad you all noted my silence, feel so listened to usually! hmpf Ronnie: so now you're a little bitch too Ronnie: fuck's sake Bronson: PARTY TIME, am I right? Really in the mood now thanks everyone Charlie: who's in who's pussy, dollface? Charlie: keep your shirt on, Bro 😂 got enough with the two angry feminists here Charlie: I've got previous plans, if you're really so hurt, you can save me some, no? Whaddya mean that'd hurt more? 😏 Bea: you're alright, I personally rather you weren't there, suits me 😘 Bronson: Shirts already off, too late 😜 Bea: Standard 👌 Charlie: you big man whore Charlie: when i'm not around to be predatory, too, tuttut Bronson: I'd wilt under your stare, you know you aren't missing out Charlie: our beautiful wallflower Charlie: I bagsy being a red rose, lil trashy but iconic Bronson: Thorn in our sides Bronson: accepted Bea: Nice one, babe Bea: i'll be an orchid, because i'm beautiful, ornamental and high-maintenance Bea: getting in there before any of you fucks can Charlie: though your silence IS noted, wonwon Charlie: don't be cross at me 😘 Ronnie: fuck off Ronnie: you're not the only one who's busy Ronnie: got a dick in my mouth too like Charlie: such a skilled multitasker Charlie: teach me your ways Bronson: in private please Bronson: not a lesson I want to learn Bea: we're not living in that teen movie Ronnie: On my way Bea: 👍 getting cash out, meet you there Bronson: Doors on the latch

Bea: Morning sweetness 😴 Bea: manage to recover your good vibe/night? Bronson: is it? 😪 Bronson: Until now it wasn't too bad Bronson: Do you get to say the same or is it pure suffering? Bea: Wow, when you hit bae up with that morning text and he's like day=ruined 😰 thought we was forever 😉 Bea: Decided to get off with someone around the same time I lost track of yous, so it was fucking awful, don't tell me you coulda told me that Bronson: It's only the comedown I wanna dump you're welcome to come and nap 💗 Bronson: Not to be that know it all Bea: Molly's such a cruel, cruel mistress, she wants you to miss her when she's gone 💁 Bea: Poor bubba, better than waking up next to that pushy bitch from last night though, Jesus, what was her damage? Bea: I reckon he'd actually gone out and had his drunken kebab and THEN PAID TO GET BACK IN Bea: No sir, not alright Bea: Why do I bother? Bronson: But I'm shamelessly smitten, only girl for besides present company like Bronson: Whatever it is she's not the first or last sufferer Bronson: Thanks for the bail out and sorry I wasn't there to do the same with kebab Kev Bea: N'awwh 💞 glad I hold more appeal than Tina, don't need to be going down that route Bea: It's an epidemic! Basic bitches who can't get a man willing, yeah take that out on innocent onlookers who ain't buying and talk about how your ex ain't shit for being a creepy letch Bea: We see you sweets 💅 Bea: Any time, even if you weren't there to take that donner breath bullet Bea: I'd never ask that of anyone, even Ronnie, though she'd brag about not being arsed, I'm sure 😂 Bronson: Next time I'll carry gum and throw it at whoever you deem worthy Bronson: Give me the nod Bronson: It was all over her socials like we had a good night together until I got there first Bronson: Rather take out Tina and all her mates Bea: as if you don't already Bea: if only little miss would-be-rapist knew that strong jawline was from gurning up a storm 😉 Bea: not so sexy now Bronson: there's nothing in my pockets I'm just pleased to see you Bronson: Seriously though, some of those selfies had to go for that unflattering reason alone taking into account none of her other antics Bronson: I looked a state Bea: 😂 not fallen for that one before but i'll make an exception for you boo Bea: catch me in my duvet cocoon, please don't look at me 'cos same Bea: I dread to think Bea: kept off my accounts for that reason and many more, some of us have reputations to uphold, skank Bronson: want me to check Bronson: clean up the carnage Bronson: Then brunch, your treat Bea: please Bea: roleplay my IT bitch and I'll be feeling my boss best in time for a liquid lunch Bea: will have to damage control my face first, enjoy watching me lovingly whilst I turn a -2 to an 11 Bronson: Never get bored of staring at you, you know that Bronson: Make my hair great again Bronson: Thanks Bea: when you shoulda been Trump's campaign manager 😕 Bea: sort the weave, clean up that twitter Bea: what a wonderful world it coulda been Bronson: Last night proves I can't stop him pussy grabbing Bronson: Need you for that one Bea: This pussy bites back 😼 Bea: its not your fault, girls like that, if you tell her to fuck off, and rightly so, it'd be made like YOU were being a prick to her Bea: gotta bullshit these hoes sometimes, tis the only way Bronson: Or playing hard to get...they fire that one at me loads Bronson: 😦 Bea: 🤢 gross Bea: got that one myself a fair few times, when I'm not being accused of being a prude by Ronaldo, hilariously Bea: People are the worst Bea: 'cept us Bronson: It's only because she likes you Bronson: Flattering, isn't it? Bronson: Being called broken is my fave Bronson: "Who hurt you?" You are right now, fuck off before you get a slap yourself to feel the pain of Bea: Wouldn't that just be the perfect solution in their simplistic little world? If only Bea: Save myself the feelings of disgust not brought on by kebab breath Bea: Though, if you think that that's love coming from Ron, then you do have an answer to their riddle right there, not real but the masses'll take one look at her and buy it 😜 Bronson: No arguments here Bronson: Your socials are sparkling now so that's real comfort to take Bea: 💖 yay Bea: the world never need know Bea: as long as I didn't drunk dial or text Fraze, this day is looking up, tah babes Bronson: Not to be a know it all again so quick Bronson: but I'm going to go ahead and guess the answer to that one Bea: BITCH DON'T KILL MY VIBE Bea: I'm sure I'd have angry ranting in my inbox if I had Bea: or a passive indirect on the socials, come across one perchance smartiepants? Bronson: Might've Bronson: I'll spare you Bea: Noooooooooooooooooooo Bea: Coulda had it all Bea: Really sours my Bloody Mary Bea: Fuck sake, now he's going to think I FUCKED kebab kev and enjoyed it meanwhile I sit here virginal and scrubbing my mouth out with soap Bea: How's this game fair again, please remind me Bronson: It isn't Bronson: But I can't tell you to stop playing Bronson: All yours Bea: you're meant to be a superwhizkid Bea: can't you think up a strategy so I win Bronson: Thinking cap is on Bronson: Because my hair still looks shit as much as Bea: I'll fix your barnet Bea: Between you and Charlie, honestly Bea: Never known boys like it 😂 Bea: blatant lie, have you seen how particular Fraze is but he doesn't really have much hair to be stylin' so Bronson: 👴 awkward Bea: you fool Bea: not like that 😂 Bea: though I'll keep it in my backpocket for when we inevitably row later Bea: #malepatternbaldnessBITCH Bronson: Freebie to kick your day off right again Bea: if you refuse to tell me what to do, could you use your skillz for good at least and fucking disable my phone when i'm fucked Bronson: Last time I tried you tried to fight me like Bea: Look, I didn't say it was a task for the fainthearted 😉 Bea: and yes, you would be the first to succeed too Bea: but if anyone can, its my man 😘 Bronson: Ego boost before eggs Bronson: Whoa Bronson: Today is looking up Bea: Gotta keep you sweet with all the bitching I'll no doubt do at brunch Bea: such a Carrie move, like no one cares bitch, write it in your column or books or...what did she even write? Or was she just monologuing at her computer, like all been there babe but don't act like its buying you all that designer Bronson: Her real true love was that laptop Bronson: Solved it Bea: 😲 Bea: but Mr. Big Bea: clue in the name Bronson: Could be his wallet Bronson: explain the designer gear Bea: Exactly Bea: Just my type Bronson: I'd go in for it if I can spend and send him the receipts Bea: you must be aware there are websites for that Bea: get on it boy Bronson: It all gets too sexual for my tastes Bea: set out boundaries Bea: different strokes for different folks Bea: i'm SURE there's a millionaire out there that just wants to chat Bronson: 🤔 There's enough fighting off advances in the club Bronson: Shelving that until millionaires become good people Bea: not bad people by default Bea: just a bad system they profit from more than you Bronson: Getting deep in here Bronson: Truth though Bea: real talk take #2 Bea: where do you think charlie was last night? and who or what was he doing? Bronson: Good questions that I have no answer to Bronson: If he had a job we'd all know Bea: I need to know, suspense is killing me Bea: I didn't think anything beat drugs in his book Bea: somewhat encouraging? Bronson: You could ask but I doubt you'd get far enough into the real Bronson: It is Bronson: Boy's growing up? Bea: Full of the #bants them two Bronson: Since day 1 Bronson: I'm coming to get you, Barbara Bronson: Ready yourself Bea: *falls over gravestones like a dumb bitch* Bea: i'm good to go and looking fly Bronson: I'll do the coded knock Bronson: Made up rn Bea: Helpful Bronson: That's my thing Bronson: Soon, my love, soon