#i’m kidding don’t come after me

[clownjacket]

If Kipperlilly DOES end up betraying Porter/Jace as part of a secret other scheme she has (whether good or evil) and it has to do with saving Lucy, I just know she’s going to be a bitch about it and pull a ‘sorry, I only save High Five Heroes’ before leaving her other friends to die or some shit. And then she will take her final form: Magic Betty from Adventure Time, betraying her allies and saving her frost gf at the expense of the world. It would also parallel what Ankarna is going through (‘your girlfriend’s out of town, it sucks’, becoming a little imperialist rage machine under the influence of Porter/Sunstone but not being able to fully turn on Lucy despite going against her values and turning into a violent weirdo). This is my wish. My dream. I am manifesting it. Magic Betty Kipperlilly I believe in you.

#I am currently painting clown makeup on my face rn but this is what I’ve been rooting for from the beginning so let me dream #Come on though she HAS to have some other shit going on though right? #She was DEFINITLY in that temple when the Bad Kids said Ankarna’s name #Brennan literally rolled #and we know she was in Porter’s office #so WHY hadn’t she told him Ankarna’s real name yet? We know he genuinely believed Fig found it #Also the BKs couldn’t see who was in the window during the Wanda Childa scene #Which one of the RGs has invisibility? #HMMMM #Wanda saying ‘Kipperlilly? Why are you doing this? Is it because you’re jealous?’ before getting carried off by a fake Porter would let KP #know ‘okay they FULLY saw what happened after I killed Buddy and are onto us’ which would cause her to follow them to the temple #Also…if NONE of the Rat Grinders knew Ankarna’s name then what did Lucy write on her form to change her divinity??? #We KNOW it was Ankarna’s name and not the ‘symbol representing her’ because no one could see it BECAUSE the god was dead and no one alive #knew her name #Which means Lucy HAD TO HAVE KNOWN and was keeping it from the others right? #And when she died and didn’t come back they were fucked because they couldn’t even check the form anymore #But #Brennan also said that if Porter WASNT using Devil’s Honey and genuinely believed in Rage And Conquest goddess Ankarna instead of just her #domain then he and his ritual would (maybe) bring her back instead of killing her permenantly so he can take her domain #And idk #A powerful goddess of rage and conquest who despite everything can’t be turned against her sister and ex #who’s resurrection would mean the rune could be broken and Lucy can come back to life #One who has (or had) a personal vendetta against at least one of the bad kids #and a personal vendetta against the people who led to Lucy’s death #that sounds pretty appealing to someone as spiteful and obsessive as Kipperlilly doesn’t it #especially after her best (maybe only real) friend died and didn’t come back #especially if she stayed dead specifically to stop Porter #Again I’m putting my clown makeup on but I don’t want her to be secretly good or anything just unhinged and gay and a parallel to Ankarna #Please world let me have this I’m on my knees #dimension 20

[evie-a]

Okay but Claire and Isaac getting married? Him not having to change into someone with human emotions to be accepted but still showing growth and maturity and and a genuine care for her and her children? Her loving him for who he is and understand his way to express himself??? Him trying his best to follow earth customs by inviting his entire species (not seeing the problem in the fact that they were just at war with the whole galaxy and that them showing up in their ships would freak everyone out)??? That line about him taking care of her descendants forever?

#I don’t have kids but I’m not going to lie #that part where he said he’d take care of her sons and all of their children to come after she dies would’ve gotten me too #it was so beautiful and so HIM #the Orville #god I hate how much I enjoy this show #Claire finn #Claire x Isaac

[edettethegreat]

”orphan/abandoned child finds out he’s the long-lost prince” is a perfectly fine cathartic rags to riches storyline. but what about the stuff that comes afters. Gimme a detailed analysis of the pros and cons of a street kid running a Kingdom.

because on the one hand having the commoner’s point of view at the forefront of every political decision will ensure that we finally have a ruler who truly is for the people. but on the other hand this kid’s got no formal education and knows nothing about politics.

#idk if this posts comes off as a joke but I really truly want a story like this #As in the story starts after/immediately before the guy is appointed king #No story about his journey and how he discovers he’s royalty #I don’t care about that #I want to see this kid try to run a kingdom #(And before anyone comes at me about that tv series about Rapunzel from Tangled— #That’s not what I’m talking about she’s not a street kid she’s isolated from the world #Also I don’t wanna watch that)

[thesockghost]

Astral body lore that I have gathered from vague things that Castor and Pollux have said. First created on 2/15/2024

1. If Castor or Pollux dies, then the other dies as well.

From what Pollux said in the episode ‘Castor CONFRONTS Stitchwraith?! in VRCHAT’, and I quote: “cuz if you die then I die, and I don’t want to die.”. This brings in the question of whether or not if one of them just gets hurt, does that mean that the pain/injury gets translated to the other twin as well? Or does it just transfer over when the other twin dies?

2. If an astral body dies, then they do not truly die, they just respawn.

From what (Castor? Gemini? Idk) said in the episode ‘Lunar is FLUSTERED around Gemini in VRChat’. Some of the astral body’s have died. But that brings in the question of why Pollux is so scared of dying if they just respawn? I asked this question in the comments and someone pointed out that they might lose their memories if they die (thx for that btw if your reading this :), but there’s also the possibility that it’s just extremely painful for them to regenerate.

3. If Castor and Pollux are separated from each other for a long period of time, they will die.

From both the episodes ‘Earth Learns LUNAR'S DARK SECRET?!? IN VRCHAT’ [the episode of which the Gemini twins first appeared] and ‘Lunar Needs Castors HELP in VRCHAT’. This is very self explanatory, the only question or note I have on this part is how long does it take for them to start dying? Like a day or 2 I’m guessing? Idk man I just work here.

4. The astral body’s like things to be on schedule/Pisces and sagittarius are more kind than the other astral’s (?)

In the episode ‘Castor and Pollux's PLAN for LUNAR?! in VRCHAT’ Castor and Pollux said this: “everyone’s getting angry! I mean- they like things to be punctual! They like things on their own timetable.” “Those two are very awful about it.” (Note: in this scene the twins are complaining about how the other astrals are rushing them on find out if lunar’s a threat or not, and their complaining about Leo and taurus in particular.) *sigh* “Pisces and Sagittarius are likely doing their own thing.”. I looked up what the personalities of Pisces and Sagittarius, and they generally seem like they’d probably be more nice (if google is correct), and I might be jumping to conclusions on this one, but I think that they might be friends, due to the way that castor mentioned them together, and google says that they have a very high friendship potential.

5. The really fucking weird system of how Gemini works.

In the episode ‘Earth Learns LUNAR'S DARK SECRET?!? IN VRCHAT’, apparently the original plan that Castor and Pollux had for wandering around earth, was to turn into Gemini so they would look slightly less strange because their Gemini form looks more human. And during that part of their conversation, Pollux says: “when we have to do work, you can take over!”, and in the episode ‘Lunar DATES Gemini in VRCHAT’ castor decides to take a nap while Pollux and lunar hang out. But in a previous episode (I forget which lol) Castor said that they don’t sleep??? Does that mean that Castor just doesn’t like to usually sleep??? Whatever, that part at least makes more sense than what I’m about to say next, since it seems like at least they kinda have what sun and moon had when they shared the same body. But in the latest episode ‘Earth and Monty's SURPRISE DOUBLE DATE with Lunar and Gemini!’ They say something along the lines of “when we’re Gemini, we are one. Whatever one likes, the other one likes as well.”. SO UHHH, I kinda remember Castor mentioned at one point when they were talking about their Gemini form “when we’re like that I want to do my job less…” so like- how does the personality bleed system work???? Because whenever they’re Gemini, it seems like Pollux is just the exact same as she usually is. SO IS IT ONLY CASTOR WHO GETS A PERSONALTY???? I mean I guess we wouldn’t really know the difference since we never really get any info on his likes and dislikes in the show, BUT POLLUX IS JUST NORMAL!!! HOW DOES THIS WORK????

Side notes: it’s also been demonstrated that in the episode ‘Lunar is FLUSTERED around Gemini in VRChat’, they share a headspace, and actively have conversations in their head when they’re Gemini. Also it’s kinda confusing because sometimes it seems like they slip into one person for a second, but then go back to being two different people. So is Gemini (the person) real??? Or am I just verbally hallucinating???? Also I’m not going to go into this in detail, but…..wtf is Gemini’s gender??? Because castor takes on a more masculine form and uses he/they and Pollux takes on a feminine form and uses she/they, So what’s up with Gemini??? I mean they obviously use they/them because they’re literally 2 fucking people, but flag wise, what is their gender??? Nonbinary? Trans? Gender-fluid? Bigender??? WHAT IS IT SHEEPOLE????

Update: 2/18/2024

6. Taurus, Leo, and Libra, destroy planets.

Once again this section pretty much explains itself. Mentioned in the current latest episode of S.A.M.S ‘ECLIPSE is CONFRONTED in VRCHAT’, my assumption of why this is, is because the astrals (from what we know) are all about protecting the laws of the universe, and because all things must eventually come to an end. So my theory is that some of the astrals must destroy planets to keep the balance of life and death, and kill old planets to make way for new ones (sorry that this section is poorly worded, I just don’t know how else to explain it lol.)

7. The antimatter is sentient (?)

Once again mentioned in the episode ‘ECLIPSE is CONFRONTED in VRCHAT’, castor mentioned how there are “anti constellations” (which the way castor said it makes sounds like the beginning of the plot of a really shitty marvel movie, but that’s besides the point), aka the antimatter and also not are not his kin. And also mentioned how the wither storms are like demented children of the antimatter. And I quote “did you think when you made negative star power, there’s no such thing as a negative constellation? One that draws on that power? One that wants to bring the end?” “I thought that was the damn storm?!?” “It is. The storm is…sort of like its child. It chooses to foster.” Which the way castor explained it didn’t make them sound like an unstoppable force, more like an unstoppable person (if that makes sense).

Update: 04-23-2024

As of writing this, the lovely Gemini twins have made a brief appearance in the current latest episode ‘Gemini SENDS A MESSAGE in VRChat’ and have brought a small bit of new lore with them :)

8. The astrals have their own unique culture and manners

Mentioned in the current latest episode as of writing this: ‘Gemini SENDS A MESSAGE in VRChat’, Gemini mentions that the stars have their own etiquette, but never really gave any context beyond that since they thought if they told lunar, then it would break his mind, WHICH IS COMPLETELY UNFAIR. BESTIE I DO NOT CARE IF IT MAKES ME INSANE, IN CASE YOU COULDNT TELL FROM ME WRITING THIS ENTIRE ESSY, THE ADDED INFORMATION WILL ONLY MAKE MY HYPERFIXATION STRONGER. *cough cough* so anyways yeah this section is basically just a place holder till we get more info on their culture.

Honorable mentions that I think are too small of facts/too obvious to get their own sections:

Since the astral body’s are made out of light (mentioned multiple times throughout the show, but I think the first mention is in ‘EARTH and POLLUX Become BEST FRIENDS?! In VRCHAT’) they can move through walls and most physical structures and surfaces.

(Updated 03-11-2024. got a bit distracted so this update is 2 weeks late from when the episode with this info was first released.) The astrals can for some reason not be seen by colorblind creatures??? Mentioned in the episode ’Lunar Is FRIEND ZONED! in VRChat’, because there was a deer standing near lunar and Gemini said “it must be comfortable in your presence” and when lunar asked why they didn’t care about Gemini, with which they responded with “no we are more or less invisible to them. See?” Then they started to run around the deer. And when asked why by lunar they replied with “most animals on your planet are colorblind. We are light. If light can’t reflect the way it’s meant to, then we kinda just come off as invisible.” WHICH MAKES NO F*CKING SENSE AT ALL!!! Cuz like yes. they wouldn’t be able to see them in their full glory, but if an animal were to look at them they’d at least see a glowing figure towering above them!!! So yea, it was probably just a bit to explain why a deer would be standing so close to them, but it still makes no sense.

Castor and Pollux take on the left brain and right brain atriabuts of a human being. Castor taking the left, while Pollux takes the right.

The astral body’s can naturally produce star power without creating any anti matter. (Mentioned in the episode ‘Moon is THREATENED by GEMINI?! in VRCHAT’ I think.)

The astral body’s are actively fighting the anti matter (somehow).

Castor has the power of telekinesis, and Pollux has the ability to control lightning (telekinesis demonstrated in the episode ‘What is CASTOR HIDING from LUNAR?! in VRCHAT’ and Polluxs lighting/storm (?) powers mentioned in the episode ‘Lunar Needs Castors HELP in VRCHAT’ I think.)

I’m a bit unsure about this part, but there might be an actual space court where lunar’s trial is currently taking place. once again mentioned in the episode ‘Gemini SENDS A MESSAGE in VRChat’……… what-

And lastly, and probably the most obvious of all, the astral body’s do not need to eat or sleep, since the astral body’s are made of light.

UPDATE: 05-06-2024 They have apparently downgraded the astrals powers, and have made it so only castor can do the whole seeing everything all at once thing.

Yeah idk why they decided to do this, maybe it’s because it would be a bit too over powered and godlike for them, but they already mentioned that the astrals only have one power (‘What is CASTOR HIDING from LUNAR?! in VRCHAT’), and even when Castor and Pollux are gemini they have a different power, SO DOES THAT MEAN THAT IT JUST KINDA COMES WITH THE WHOLE TELEKINESIS THING NOW??? OR IS THE PART WERE THEY CANT HAVE MULTIPLE POWERS JUST NOT CANNON NOW???? AND IF IT STILL IS THEN, BECAUSE IT SEEMS LIKE CASTOR AND POLLUX HAVE BEEN GEMINI THIS WHOLE TIME DURING THE TRIAL, THEN HOW WOULD CASTOR BE ABLE TO SEE LUNAR GETTING KIDNAPPED IF THEY HAVE DIFFERENT POWERS AS GEMINI??????

I know it doesn’t seem like that big of a deal that they red-conned a part of their lore, but just remember I’m the mad-man who’s been keeping track of their lore since day one, so I’m legally allowed to have a stroke any time they change something :) just like the astrals have a stroke whenever lunar uses his powers

Will update if any new information pops up! Please tell me if I missed anything!

#and before y’all come after me for saying that the Gemini twins use he/they and she/they pronouns #they are eldridge shapeshifting (essentially) gods. #I don’t think it’s too bold of an assumption that they don’t have a very stable gender identity. #also literally the only times that I’ve ever heard anyone in the series use anything but they/them pronouns for them #is when the twins themselves call each other brother and sister. #but then again I’m just some kid in a ghost costume with socks who is insane enough to pay close attention to ever little thing that #2 fictional characters have said for more then 50 episodes of a fucking VRchat rolplaying show #so take whatever I have to say with a grain of salt. #sun and moon show lunar #sun and moon show spoilers #sun and moon show #lunar and earth show lunar #lunar and earth show pollux #lunar and earth show #lunar and earth show castor #lore analysis #Update: 04-23-2024 y’all’s favorite batshit crazy grandpa has figured out how to link all of the mentioned episodes :) #wow I know I’m so tec savvy

[novelconcepts]

It’s always so funny to me when someone can’t tell the difference between an actor who’s over the top and an actor who is doing an intentionally over the top performance. The former can be super aggravating, I get it—but the latter can be so goddamn effective. Especially when you know the actor already, know they’re fully capable of giving normal human facial expressions and chill line deliveries. And they’re out here doing The Absolute Most all of a sudden? It’s for a reason, dude. It’s almost always for a reason. And once you can see past the camp on the surface, it’s so much fun digging in to what emotions the character is actually hiding.

#this is mainly about servant (and to a lesser degree YJ) #like Ambrose in servant is (pardon me) serving SUCH a chaotic performance #but having known her for decades I know full well that’s on purpose #Dorothy is over the top because she HAS to be. because she’s built walls so high around her own grief that the denial comes out in Crazy #and she fully thinks she’s the only one paying attention. the only sane one in the room. #you get glimpses of her being ‘normal’ in flashbacks #still a little Much. still a product of wealth and expectation. detached from reality to a degree. #but the character she becomes after the tragedy is. A Character. #it’s not the woman she was before. she bricked that woman up. she’s taken her performance from television and made a baby blanket out of it #it’s so. so intentional. #and you sort of get a similar thing going with Hewson in early eps of YJ #totally different starting block. Van doesn’t start out traumatized. but she does start out Big #she’s loud she’s silly she’s being intentionally wacky to get laughs out of people #and some of it comes off a little cringe. because it’s a kid playing a role #this is how you like me. I’m gay. I’m butch. I’m hiding. #if I’m a jester you’ll see what I want you to and nothing more. that’s the plan. it’s working. don’t look at the goalie. #not as a person. #but as the show goes on (or as she’s spending time with taissa) she slows down some. quiets. she’s snarkier. holding tension differently. #Hewson starts the performance at an 11 so they can really delve into who Van becomes when the mask is off #when there’s no point in playing the class clown #when it’s like. ah yeah. here’s the kid who grew up too fast. #here’s the kid who’s scared to death. and angry. and willing to fight to live. #it’s not an overacting thing. it’s VAN overacting to keep her secrets #watch the face so you miss what the hands are doing #actors man. actors are fucking cool. storytelling is fucking cool. #deconstructing the illusion is my favorite thing #(anyway still watching servant and it’s still really. Something Else.)

[kidsnextdoor-doodles]

If combining KND with any random ass interest I got was illegal I’d be in jail for life

Well

Hey what if I made an Ever After High AU

#LOOK!! Look! I like fairy tales #I like knd #and I like the premise of ever after high #well not just the premise I like the characters but the premise is the only part needed for a KND AU #also the shannon hale books are the best source don’t @ me #honestly I’m just struggling to come up with fairy tales for each character #and not just resorting to assigning my favourite characters to my favourite fairy tales #because I need them to be accurate!! #though I think I can immediately assign kuki to be a wonderlandian #knd #codename: kids next door #kids next door #I’m probably not going to tag it as Ever After High au because I don’t think it’ll be set in a high school #I still want to keep some KND elements

[toxictranny]

hey sisters, i know u (my fans) were wondering what i’m gonna wear to my ex stepdad’s wedding because i’m best man and there’s gonna be 200 ppl there who haven’t seen me since i was single digits so it’s a rly big event BUT i’ve got no clue what the fit will be because the dress code he gave me: wear whatever you want. GDNKE.???ATFJJF...!!! ARE YOU OH-FUCKING-KAY???? WHATZVER I WANT ??????THEY WONT EVEN GIVE ME A COLOUR SCHEME WHAT THE FLCUKC ALso no i can’t wear a wedding dress it was the first thing i thought of but i asked my mom and she said that would b mean :/

#his estranged brother’s gonna be part of the wedding party so i’m ?! not sure how this will go. #they’re estranged because his brother has some sort of religious belief that lead to him hating me/my mom for having a kid with another guy #stepdad met me when i was nearly 3 and his brother met me+my mom 4 years after that #the brother’s thing was that my mom/me are devilish or whatever #he also said shit about us stealinh my stepdad’s money but my mom was the breadwinner #tbh i don’t really understand this stance but it’s very common. he just Doesn’t Like Me. we’re not #biologically related and that’s literally the only reason #he thinks it’s disrespectful for a woman to divorce her husband first of all but second to let another man raise her kid #yawn. gross asf. BJT LIKE HOW DO THEY FEEL ABOUT ME BEING LIKE THIS?! #everyone knew i had a Condition ™️ but i didn’t uh #do anything? lol #i was seen and treated as A Little Weird. not like a third gender #we could all tell i was going with the sex and pronouns assigned to me simply because that’s what i had #so i THINK i’m gonna be valid but rly truly if someone tries to explain why there are only two genders to me i’m going toLOSE ITTTTTT #ooh i can wear a wedding dress to the rehearsal dinner lol #my stepmom got me a neon green suit jacket .? so #maybe that’ll come out #toxictranny

[malmagmafr]

A winter-y veilspun!

#also wanted to say thank you to everyone sending me kind messages after my last post! #it sucks that people like that person exist and decide that it’s fine to bully people #it’s also just concerning she’s going after kids? #her comments on my art don’t bother me as I’m an adult and can walk this sort of thing off #but I’d be disheartened to learn if her nasty comments turned away anyone young and wanting to do art #this community is a wonderful place and I’m glad to be apart of it #I’m not a big blog #but seeing quite a few of you come to my defense and the defense of others was awesome #it shows we’re a tight knit group and I love all of you #putting this all down as tags so you guys can reblog without having to include that certain person lol #flight rising #dragon #dragons #fr veilspun

[the-meme-monarch]

*Repeating 'I am not immune to propaganda.' while looking at your blog*

GOOD the more people i can convince that scc are actually really charming characters the better i think

#they have Clearly got their own narrative going on chapter 2 #at least twice whne you run into queen scc are in the next room #they are keeping tabs the whole time !!!!! #the specific one i can remember rn is after you meet The Berdly Statue #scc Made that. and then you see them in the next room #OH the other one i think is when they’re selling overpriced bagels? i think queen was in the room before that? was this after noelle was Ju #Just kidnapped or do the bagels bit come after i don’t r #i don’t rmember rn #there are just so many little ties they have to A Lot Of Other Stuff going on in the chapter it just fascinates me #and then they also tell you abt spamton (im fairly certain you met him already when you talk to them in their shop? idr) and then they buil #they built the berdly statue and rebuilt the thrash machine for rouxls #OH AND THEN THEY BUILT THE ROLLERCOASTER TO CATCH YOU? AMD THE MECH FOR THE GIGA QUEEN FIGHT KINDA #they weren’t kidding!!! their main gig is making scrap into machines!!! #I’m just Talking at this point also i saw a theory that the ‘the other thing we made was way cooler’ ‘it was big’ was talking about giga qu #giga queen? which im not sure on. i don’t think they would’ve been proud to have made that if they hate queen #also just how much personality and nuance of their characters you can gleen despite how little they’re Actually Around #the monarch’s court #scc

[warlenys]

#i’m middle #the scenes where they’re talking back and forth about it are insufferable to me #but i like when taub comes to work the day after like he’s had to sleep on the pavement #i love adulterous taub i love pathetic taub i don’t care if rachel lives or dies #or maybe i do (latter) #but yeah the constant back and forth married arguments god shoot me #why did they do that. it was so boring and so long #to me at least #the ending it with sophie and sophie fucking rules though #feels like reparations for such a boring plotline like fuck it let’s do something insane #give him two kids who cares but they kinda even manage to make that boring #i forget how much of house md’s writing i actually don’t care about lmao #they made some interesting choices #house md #taub #+

[thatfaerieprincess]

Feel free to skip on past this, I’ve just gotta ramble for a minute bc i cant stop thinking about this kid from work last week. They were so much like me at that age (5-6th grade) that I didn’t know how to interact with them? I didn’t know what to say to them bc I don’t know what I needed to hear back then, what I would’ve WANTED to hear? What would I have even listened to? They were almost entirely silent and looked out at the world with a hesitant curiosity, but would pull back so fast as soon as you tried to interact w them. Little to no eye contact, face hidden in hair, always looking down, following others until they could strike off on their own and just quietly explore. Intently focusing on drawing any chance they got. We did an art project and they hunched over their piece the entire time and wouldn’t let any of us see it in progress, refusing to look up or acknowledge us if we asked to see it or to know what it was. Idk. I barely interacted w them while they were with us for those few days bc I didn’t know how? It almost hurt to try? It was like looking back into a time machine and i didn’t know how to tell them that it does get better,,, I still don’t even know if where I am is better, some days feel so unsure that I don’t think I’ve made any progress at all. But seeing that kid, idk. I’ve come pretty far. And it DOES get better. Maybe it’s not the best now, or even that great at all, but it’s better. I wish I could’ve told them but I don’t think they’d have wanted to hear it anyway

#im a rambling sam #I’m in a weird place again since getting here for this season of work #idk maybe I’ve been in a weird place all year probably #I don’t think I’m that far from where I was at that age but I know I am there’s just still so much further to go #one day I think it’ll feel easier but maybe not today #I do love working w kids but I’m considering going into horticulture instead of outdoor education bc I don’t know if I can handle this #I can #but god I don’t know #in my heart I’m still that exact kid and she’s still in there so damn anxious and unsure and needing to observe the world and everyone in it #just to get some sense of understanding of just what the fuck is going on around here #but by the time I’ve gotten a good handle on what is going on everything is already so set in place and my place is outside the system and I #I don’t know how to step into it #sorry sorry I’m still rambling I’m having a weird day I probably just haven’t eaten nearly enough in the last few days and I’m about to #start teaching on my own this week which is terrifying and I can’t stop thinking abt that damn kid I wish they stayed longer I think #we probably would’ve gotten along #but groups only come here for a couple days and then go home which is v weird after having the same kids for 3 weeks for summer camp #idk life gets better and it gets worse and sometimes u grow into the world a little more but there’s still a mute child in your ribcage #little hands pressed up against ur ribs like laying a palm against a bus window #I put my hand over my sternum as if we could press our hands together thru time #when I was that age I used to pretend to have someone around me like an imaginary friend but usually it was a book character that I liked #and I’d talk to myself in my head like having a conversation and giving myself motivation and assurances from someone else to me #and now I’m here and I still talk to myself like that but without the imagined friend as a buffer I just talk to myself in my head #now I’m the imaginary friend for the little Sam that lives in my chest #when I talk to myself I’m talking to her #I’m giving her the assurance she needed back then #the assurance I still need now #I am here for her so I am here for myself #this is getting poetically nonsensical maybe it’s time for bed

[sammygender]

thinking about how one of the last things john ever tells dean is an admittance that the way he treated him was fucked. & of course this destroys dean and makes it so much harder for him to come to terms w his death right after and with his childhood in general bc he’s spent his entire life chasing after johns approval. he’s spent his entire life telling himself that the way he was treated was okay and justified and that their childhood was good because he could handle it and he was strong enough and that was how it had to be. he’s worshipped john as a hero and seen nothing wrong with any of it. because he’s had to. his entire life is built around this idea there’s nothing else. he’s his dads perfect soldier and punching bag and wife-replacement and suddenly his dads gone & he said he’s sorry and that he shouldn’t have treated dean that way. what the hell is he supposed to do now.

#augh. i don’t know i haven’t seen enough of this show yet but. #thinking about that episode with the abused kid who has psychic powers like sams and sam sees himslef in the kid a lot #but is horrified by the extent of the abuse and keeps saying like. Dean i never thought i’d say this but you’re right dad was pretty good i #guess we were really lucky to have him. it could’ve turned out a very different way. #and deans just like. idk there’s something about his face. like he wants to agree cause this is what he’s always saying but he Cant. #because. well. sams thinking about this kid with circumstances so similar to him who ended up entirely victimised by his father and #thinking Wow i had something that kid didn’t. i had MY dad who was so much better after all (despite kicking me out of the house and #always refusing to support me but wtv) #but really the thing sam had was DEAN. #dean as sam’s protector and john’s golden child and the adult of the family. dean as the person #john winchester comes home to after a hunt the person who tells him it’s okay #dean playing the part of his dead mom and still shielding sammy from the worst of their father and as a result internalising that this was #fine. #what the hell is he going to do now that his fathers dead? after his fathers dead and wrong and theoretically morally weak and admitted hed #raised dean badly? #IDK!!! i’m sure excited to see him continue to break down though #(have just finished s2e2 for future me ref) #supernatural #<- Sorry guys i’m batshit obsessed. #father by the front bottoms dean song of all time #spn #oliver talks

[tariah23]

ur tags on that kenjaku post… oh my god you saw that too? i was truly horrified

YEAH… I saw that shit, I hate stsg so much lmfaooo. It’s so obvious that they want Getou to be the “girl,” so badly. He’s getting the treatment of every dark haired best friend in a popular shounen 🚶🏾‍♀️. He’s too good of a character for this!

#I don’t really hate it fr but I’ve never been too crazy over it at all like the I don’t feel too strongly for it but I like some of the art #that I come across and all that and I’d prob draw it myself one of these days but the fans make me want to turn the other way most of the #time #they just hit getou with the girl beam and it’s unfortunately become like another case of fans acting like fanon is canon when regarding the #ship and the mischaracterizations of getou’s character has been insane #I feel like.. what’s the point of liking a ship if you don’t like the characters at all because this is how I feel whenever I see most stsg #fan content if I’m being real #they even draw him shorter on purpose just because they want him to be that girl it’s so stupid to me sorry #and he’s always being abused in fan content and now im even thinking about that one doujin where he was being assaulted by kenjaku and #forced to bare his children only for Kenny to kill the kids immediately after birth…? and then Gojo somehow saved him and at that point #getou had become obsessed with sex and it ended with gojo committing a murder sui #man what the fuck ever #I will save getou he’s so cool and doesn’t deserve THIS #and if you’ve noticed anything about them ship wise then like #I hope I’m not the only one who’s found it odd how most stsg is always weird and fucked up vs gego being mostly lighthearted??? I have no #clue as to why but!!! #maybe it’s because most stsg again. still treat getou like the girl vs in gego well I’ve noticed that they’re usually the same as canon??? #(outside of the genderbent content but you get it) it’s just something that I’ve noticed #sasukeless #tkf replies #um #getou get behind me-

[ivyithink]

back to my roots (drawing alfred and aethelflaed interactions, cause they melt my heart)

also the 1st season squad is very important to me, i love them a lot

+ moments from books that were stuck in my mind while i was drawing))

#my art #my doodles #yeah i am ignoring the golden hair description cause even though it might’ve been even more visually striking i reference the show #for characters’ looks #my brain won’t let me break this self-imposed rule sorry #but aren’t they so sweet? #i’m definitely not thinking about how it would feel to remember a moment like this after they both are gone #absolutely not thinking about that uh-uh #and yeah i’m #trying to depict more historically accurate clothes while using 21st century language #mad lad behaviour #i love the interactions between uhtred and little aethelflaed in the books #there aren’t many of them but they are kinda hilarious #love the one where he basically wants to tell alfred to fuck off but can’t do it cause aethelflaed is laying in her dad’s lap and watching #uhtred like a hawk #and the scene where she tells uhtred she wanted danes to come closer to their hiding place so she could watch him chop their heads off #what a kid right? #i don’t actually mind their relationship in the show and 5th season absolutely broke my heart #but fond uncle uhtred and bright little menace aethelflaed is one of my most beloved headcanons for sure #wholesome #the last kingdom #tlk #tlk alfred #tlk aethelflaed #tlk uhtred #tlk leofric #tlk iseult #tlk hild

[cakemousse]

sad ladynoir hours because i watched a few episodes from earlier seasons and saw how chat noir declares his undying love for ladybug

and then to hear what he said in exaltation, it shattered my heart T^T granted i know he’s lying to himself but 😭😭😭

#and it seriously doesn’t help that i’ve been seeing lot of posts explaining why it’s leading up to adrinette #like no i get why it’s leading up to adrinette after these 9 episodes i don’t need people to explain it to me #it’s very clear in the episodes unless you’re watching with eyes closed ~~so dont come at me bitch~~ #but then these posts also take a minor dig or even a dig at ladybug 😭😭😭 #and it’s not like we don’t understand why ladybug did what she did but the wordings in these posts god dammit man #i agrée with noodles #at this point might as well treat the fanfic movie as canon and throw canon into the bin #i’m kidding or am i 👀 #i’m joking really #REALLY. #ladynoir #ml spoilers #exaltation #exaltation spoilers #i can’t believe im crying as i type this down #well listening to ‘ce mur qui nous sépare’ definitely didn’t help skjdksjsj #*

[goldkirk]

Here’s what I know.

1. I am not dead

2. I don’t need to suffer to justify being alive

3. I can’t save other people

4. I will always want to try

5. That’s not stupid of me

6. I have a responsibility to save myself

#I hate all of it #this is bullshit and I’m sick of being a human and life SUCKS when things are good and everything in my head is FUCKED #I’m preparing for battles that don’t happen and leave me feeling stupid #and never see the ones that DO come until they hit me #I’m not going back to Missouri for the holidays #it’s going to be a miserable round of guilt tripping for the next two months #UNLESS IT ISN’T #I tell people things for once #and then my family DOESN’T do what I JUST told someone they’ll do #and then I feel SO stupid. I hate this stage #I don’t know what to expect from may of them #they treat me like an outsider now but still are sweet and kind and include me and stuff #but they’re engaged in criticism and spiritual warfare and an anti-Katie’s-fallen-ways campaign behind my back with all the kids #because that’s what they did with me in regards to other relatives #UNLESS THEY AREN’T #I want nothing more than for them to change but if they change what the FUCK was all my suffering for? #if they change after all this time then why wasn’t I enough for them to change for when I was begging #and if they don’t change then my suffering and fears will be valid but we’ll also probably have two dead kids or at minimum estrangement #this is a mess but I also overcatastrophize EVERYTHING #which is leading to the 10 month journey of “Katie becoming the girl who cried wolf #…again #anyway whatever this is a weird week I’m kind of fucked up and need to go walk and think #I can’t feel anything but I feel /weird/ #you know?? #shh katie