#i’m (un)well

[pixelgrove]

I feel like no one talks about how when you’re doing personal gameplay you have to turn off simblr mode in your head and realize that you don’t need screenshots of every little thing or try to make it look pretty or aesthetically pleasing

#well that’s my mindset at least #I’m not afraid to admit that when I post I do mostly focus on aesthetics #that’s really why I left simblr in the first place because it was starting to effect my personal gameplay #and made the game un-enjoyable for me because I felt like everything had to be pretty and perfect #idk just a little something I thought about

[residentrookie]

DO YOU KNOW HOW MANY CILLAIN MURPHY EDITS ARE SET TO LANA DEL RAY SONGS?!?!??

#i’m about to take myself out back #my ultraviolence edit NOOOOOOOOO #i’m. #actually un fucking well #oh my GOD HOW COULD THEY DO THIS TO MEEEEEE

[jorvikzelda]

me, to my very nice doctor whom I love and would trust with my life: I have headaches all the time here’s how they feel I don’t think they’re migraines though

my doctor: my friend, my love, what you are describing is migraines

#yes I went to the doctor two days in a row #different doctors. different purposes #I have never been to a doctor like in my entire life theres a lot of un-dealt with issues here LMFAO #z talks #me for the past half year: do i have chronic fatigue. do i have pots. do i have a brain tumor #no. Migraine #And it is so logical too 😭😭😭 #ma’am doctor as I like to call her explained so well it all made sense she didn’t say or leave out one thing that made me go Ehhhh #I’m just relieved it’s treatable!

[spectral-honey]

Au where Damian is closer in age to Tim and joins the batfam after Jason dies

bruce has to make himself functional with a new kid dropped in his lap and then has to cut back on the violent outbursts because Damian WILL take it as permission to kill and they're trying to teach him not to do that

tim keeps his stalker tendencies and grows to like Damian's robin just as much as Dick and Jason's, even if this new robin is a bit stabby around the edges

damian is the first robin to notice Tim tho and confronts him on his own without telling Bruce

timmy is like heyyy don't stab me I swear I wouldn't endanger the bats ever & also I can maybe give you info I find sneaking around & also hey wouldn't it be cool to have a secret from bats? You could have your own personal informant wouldn't that be so cool you could impress Batman and everything

dami: fine but you don't have any more secrets right

tim, knows their secret identities: and I said no, y'know, like a liar

so they make a truce that turns into a friendship that turns into Damian hiding the fact that he has adopted a brother, shut up Batman you picked up random children from the street so can damian

bruce and dick: wow it's so nice that Damian has started listening to us about not killing or using excessive violence on people. We're glad he understands now

Damian, who got a 72 slide PowerPoint lecture from Tim about the practicality of not killing as a vigilante in Gotham: yes, that is what happened. I have accepted your perspectives on morality. No other reason

tim’s powerpoint has a lot of graphs and venn diagrams measuring different kinds of criminal activity vs public cooperation vs batman's violence levels vs police cooperation vs rogue activity. The gotham ecosystem is delicate

when jason comes back tim throws a fit because he has to REMAKE his powerpoint and all the graphs to add red hood’s vigilante-slash-rogue effect

Tim at some point: batman is fragile if you kill people it will make his traumatized brain explode

Dami: trauma?

Tim: y'know from martha and thomas being murdered in front of him

Damian, eyes narrowed:

Tim: I mean… that's just a game theory?

but just like generally Tim and Damian being each other's support systems

they bond over having parents who are absent?? Like, damian missing his mom and tim immediately empathizing on how its hard when you love someone who is away a lot or for a long time

they talk about missing them and damian is able to open up about feeling out of place and how difficult it is to adjust or know how he's supposed to act

#damian wayne #tim drake #batfam #batman #talia: lets play musical children. I will take jason and you can take damian #If talia knew about jason’s plans for revenge she probably would make damn sure that jason wasnt about to touch her boy #BUT assuming he somehow got that past her #tim would be SO salty about it. #jason: wait I’M your hero? Tim: well not after you tried to FUCKING KILL damian #jason: #tim: but yes you WERE my hero. damian said you guys were cool tho so i GUESS youre okay. For now. #damian mentions hes from an assassin cult and tim just like freeze frame hold up rewind a bit there /huh?????/ #tim trying to like. Support damian in detoxing from the cult stuff #and says really unsubtle stuff about how SOME PEOPLE grow up in environments that teach things that aren't always good for the person. #And this RANDOM PERSON WITH NO SPECIFIC EXAMPLE have difficulty adjusting to normalcy and reaching out is both the most effective- #-and best for the emotional wellbeing of this person #and damian is like ah i see (completely misunderstands) I will keep this in mind while interacting with grayson. #tim was completely ready to take on trying to stabilize a violent adult man who just lost a son of COURSE hed be like #‘yeah i can probably un-indoctrinate an assassin child. What could go wrong’ #when Damian figures out Tim knows their identities they get to hang out at boring social events #damian is like tim has my complete confidence. And tim is like uh yeah i just dont rat him out on feeling emotion #damian is describing Tim to dick and he's like oh wow my informant is very trustworthy #he has great use in entertaining me at fathers horrible social events #and dick is like Damian buddy that sounds like a friend. A friend is the thing you're describing #also important to this au is Tim's adrenaline junkie tenancies. He just is. #maybe also as a side thing it's a Tim as Barbara's apprentice au? Eventually becoming a vigilante but more in the informational vein #babs is like hey Dami why did I see u on this camera hanging out with a random child and Damian is like shit. Do not tell father pls #so he recruits her to teach tim self defense so he wont fuckin die running around gotham #dc #is this just blatantly me liking tim and damian being friends? maybe. you cant prove anything

[benbamboozled]

Bruce Wayne Headcanons

that I cannot reconcile with current/most/ALL of his comics characterization but I hold onto nevertheless

—Bruce Wayne!! trains each of his Robins with the goal of them becoming better than him.

—Bruce Wayne!! intends for the Robins to be his actual failsafe if he ever went off the deep end. (Fuck that weirdo robot lol.)

—Bruce Wayne!! 1000% blames himself for Jason Todd’s death I don’t care what the comics have had him say or what his dumbass inner-narrative has said…*handwave handwave* all of that was just him desperately trying to cover the hole in his heart from failing his son so completely.

#Bruce Wayne headcanons #yes this IS a stealth rant about BvR and other things I hate. #the Jason Todd one in particular…like… #FIRST OF ALL—what fucking parent blames their teen kid for being *murdered in cold blood by a serial killer*??? NOT ONE THAT I WANT TO KNOW! #SECOND OF ALL—BRUCE DIDN’T EVEN *KNOW* THAT JASON WAS FUCKING *THERE*!!!! LIKE… #HOW WOULD HE *NOT* LOOK BACK ON THAT AND GO ‘I should have been better for him’????? #and like…as I’ve said before—I could buy him using The Story Of Jason Todd as like a Teachable Moment (tm) #to try to get SOMEthing of value out of Jason’s BRUTAL MURDER BY A NOTORIOUS SERIAL KILLER— #WHO THEN WENT ON TO TRY TO KILL THE ENTIRE UN BTW. #but like…he *himself* thinking that Jason was to blame??? NO WAY. nuh uh #not Mr. Tortured By Being Unable To Save His Parents When *He* Was A Child. NO. DO NOT PASS GO. #man I feel like I had a third point but idk I’m too angyy lol. #idk WHY WOULD BRUCE NOT BLAME HIMSELF FOR LEAVING JASON ALONE IN THE FIRST PLACE?!?! #IT DOESN’T FUCKING ADD UP!!! #YOU CAN’T TELL ME A DUDE IS ALL *HAUNTED BY HIS PAST* AND THEN THE THING THAT FUCKING WELL *SHOULD* HAUNT HIM… #HAVE HIM BE LIKE ‘lol sucks to suck.’ #YOU CANT EVEN SAY IT’S UNRELIABLE NARRATION BECAUSE IT IS NEVER CHALLENGED *WITHIN THE FUCKING* NARRATIVE!!! #LIKE SURE IF THE *GOAL* WAS TO HAVE BRUCE WAYNE BE A FULL-ON HUMBERT HUMBERT LEVEL BIG FUCKING LIAR THAT WOULD BE A GOOD WAY TO DO IT— #BUT THAT IS CLEARLY *NOT* WHAT IS HAPPENING!!! WE ARE CLEARLY SUPPOSED TO THINK ‘aw poor Bruce too bad Jason sucked so hard. :(’ #okay *deep breath exhales smoke from my nostrils* okay I think I’m done.

[secretagentsagainstwhatever]

politicians on reality tv shows make me want to gouge my fucking eyes out

#uk politics #uk reality tv #i’m a celebrity get me out of here #fucking nigel farage doing well on i’m a celeb is so frustrating and yet so un surprising #it’s vile #i want to scream #shouldn’t be allowed #it’s so frustrating #and i mean #probably a terrible thing to say #but the british public are thick as shit #for falling for an obvious pr masterclass #i don’t even watch i’m a celeb but it’s pissing me off #how is he not out yet

[karinyosa]

being trans with ocd is so fucking exhausting dude

#slash sexuality questioning i suppose #slash uestioning in general i suppose #i’ve been half in half out of every label i’ve used for like a year and a half which is very un slay #anyway i told you guys my middle name slaps did i not. and well my indecisive ass is considering making it my first name #one day i will look back on all the gender stuff i did and be glad i did it and/or ill be like this man needed to get rawed #i’m also in like closet purgatory where i’m out as QUEER to p much everyone but what type of queer varies #which may??? be fucking up my mindset in regards to all of this??? having like 3 different normals in kind of an accidental way #thinking and talking about it is exhausting but i probably should lol lmao #the name slaps though. unrelated but i am happy about that #im taking a very long time to decide on a name bc there are a bunch ive cycled through like a BUNCH and i do want to try them all #part of me is like ill only ever start to have more of a handle on this if either i start transitioning and/or live alone at some point #it will stay like this if i keep doing This #karinyo.txt #and it might not be the ocd it might be a bunch of other things (scary) but it certainly doesnt help

[goldkirk]

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#sometimes it really hurts more that they’re well intentioned #and love me and want me to be part of the family still #than if they didn’t try to keep me included at all #like just. it just is rough that they’ll never acknowledge I’m living with a partner and committed #and have been in the relationship for years #they want me to come be a part of things and they want me to be happy and #they send a congrats on your new home card but don’t mention her. they include me in a family vacation jigsaw puzzle but not her even though #i told them I won’t lie to the kids and that she and I are a package deal for family parties and things if we do come into town for them #I can’t stop trying because I’ve seen them be so diffferent with the grandkids than to me on some things #and I’ve seen some of them treating me pretty normal despite everything about their beliefs #but I just #don’t know how many years it’ll take for me to learn to navigate this weird zone #I can’t talk to friends because they don’t understand how good and genuine my family is and only know the parts that hurt me in the past yrs #and I can’t talk to family because they get how good my family is at the heart of things but can’t understand the bad parts enough to #get how half of me wished I could never have to remember any of the good because it’s hard to protect myself if I do #but the line between black and white has to be walked #even if ONLY for my own sake because I have to un train black and white thinking from every area of my worldview #but anyway #it’s just hard. nothing particularly to be done about it. I just need to say it’s hard sometimes #it doesn’t seem to hurt less each time #it’s the same #but I think I’m getting better at not letting it affect my actual daily experience for as long now #idk #it’s hard. it will be for a long time. it’s worth trying anyway. #I know we’re double nope in that we’re queer and we’re not even civil married much less sacramentally married #so we’re in like five separate levels of mortal sin yadda yadda #but I tell you x hurts and you do x again and it sucks. I see you improving in other ways so I have hope but GOD it sucks right now. fuck #shh katie #personal

[slverblood]

see y’all don’t understand that I’m actually getting really attached to Lumbar and theorizing backstories. I knew him a handful of minutes yet he shall haunt me all my life.

#OOC / HOLLY. #MOBILE. #how fucked up was your life that in (un)death #you are utilizing this state to charge people to beat the tar out of you #reasoning that you’ve been beaten so much already you might as well get paid for it #and saying you set that price (only 15) because if you charge me they’ll just beat you and steal it back #more* #what really gets me is this is happening in broad daylight #in an alleyway between a multi faith temple + a flaming fist barracks #not even far back in the alley either you can very easily see + hear what’s happening #there are crowds of people right there #and no one bats an eye. it doesn’t matter. #I’M SAD OVER THIS ONE LIL NPC #I paid him but didn’t hit him because I got so sad skfjdld #it’s like he’s happy to be (un)dead just so it doesn’t hurt when people hit him anymore #the worst has already happened to him #I’m ill 🫠

[aizenat]

Ending was nice. I 100% hope there was no intentions or goals of that possibly getting a second season.

#I’m very surprised by how un-fun that was giving how the actual story and execution was good #I guess I can recognize it was good and I’m sure comic fans would love it #but it just wasn’t for me #ah well #these things happen #scott pilgrim

[curiosity-killed]

This fucking dude: well [my name] says she has some background in writing in a certain voice and I don’t disbelieve her but I haven’t seen it

Me: my last job was literally purely writing In Voice for a huge-ass org with global publication but Ok.

#ohhh man #my sister and I were talking abt him last night #bc he’s just #such a fucking egoistic dick #and like TO BE CLEAR #the brand writing I’ve already done (very quickly) for this initiative #had the ceo like ‘’I have chills. I’m in love with this. I can’t stop thinking about it.’’ #so YEAH DUDE I THINK I CAN WRITE SOME FUCKING COPY #personal #oh man. I try not to have too much ego at work but like fuck #I was so close to being like ‘’I can send you my resume mike :)’’ #Jfc #this is up there with the consultant who was like #‘’well :) things are A Bit More formal than your nonprofit background :))’’ #and I was like: flashbacks to liaising directly with UN/world bank/govt senior officials #LIKE BRO IVE PRESENTED TO THE OFFICE OF THE US TRADE REPRESENTATIVE #IM NOT ACTUALLY A HILLBILLY AT WORK #(I am a hillbilly at heart and home but like. I know how to put on a suit) #I’m so #this shouldn’t bother me this much but I’m rlly riled up now orz

[theancientwonder]

fuck it *reads manga in french because les francophones are bigger weebs than english speakers and they get their volumes physically published faster in their language*

#Man I just really like reading manga physically but I cannot wait until like 2025 to read volume 19 of yuumori 😭😭😭 #Next time I’m in mainland Europe I am raiding their €6 volumes of yuumori #I say that as if I’m there frequently lmao #for reference I did French in school and have enough competence to read it but not speak nor write it well lmao #je ne comprends pas comment construire une phrase mdr #Also there probably is more reasons why its translated faster (at least for all my fav manga) but i find this funnier #Shoutout to Germany btw they have completely translated yuumori even the french translation is still only on vol 17 i think

[seventh-district]

IT’S FISH DAY IT’S FISH DAY IT’S FISH DAY

#Seven.txt #fish stuff #vibrating with excitement #and also nervous energy and sleep deprivation but it’s fine cause ITS FISH DAY BABEY #i’m sitting outside waiting on them and i /had/ another package with snails coming today as well #and i was typing up a post like ‘let’s see which one gets here first. the snails or the fish?’ #cause they’re coming from two different carriers y’know #but the snails literally got here while i was typing that post so uh. the snails won the race lmao #anyways i am exhausted and anxious out of my mind cause the stakes are pretty high with these fish #and i’ve averaged about 4hrs of sleep this week #and you’d know how bad that is if u knew that my depressed ass can easily sleep for 12-16 hrs if i’m allowed to #not that that’s good either but. 4hrs is NOT enough for me friends #i am. running on pure distilled nervous energy rn #but i’m still excited don’t get me wrong. i just hope everything goes well and they aren’t too stressed or beat up from the shipping #wish me well that i don’t fuck things up!!! #i have like. a number of years of experience to fall back on but i am still always learning and i’m nervous every time i get new fish #anyways. the guilt of all the messages and comments i’ve gotten lately that i haven’t replied to is eating me alive :) #and it makes me feel bad for posting things on my socials whenever i have any un-replied to messages #cause i don’t want people to think i’m ignoring them!!! i’m just so busy rn!!! and it’s less effort to type out a lil post like this #versus sitting down and thinking of the good genuine thoughtful responses that i wanna give to people #especially when i like. can’t think straight rn. about anything other than keeping these fish alive #so. that will be my full day today but once things calm down and everyone’s hopefully settled in tomorrow #i can finally start working on replying to everything #okay enough rambling. back to staring at the fields and waiting #at least the weather’s nice. and i’m sitting in the golf cart so i’m in the shade #which is good cause i’m wearing a hoodie over a shirt and long pants #and i’ve got a coffee and music playing. now if i could just chill out everything would be great #but knowing myself I Will Not

[hawkfrostapologist]

the thing is that if clear sky was even mildly more interesting than he is i’d probably be a huge fan but as it is he’s just like some guy i knew in high school who’s probably a neo nazi by now

#god #bees speaks #last thought on this . for now #okay but . wait actually #HANG ON . #clear sky’s whole fear leading to expansion leading to jingoism thing is VERY fascist lmfao #and the casting out of the weak/undesirable…. #okay i’m . hm i’m seeing the vision #doesn’t make me like him. REALLY doesnt make me think he deserves a redemption arc #also really don’t like the whole . well he started clan traditions and they’re in place now so we must carry them on for generations’ #erins spit that out that’s 1930s europe #WAIT AND GRAY WING’S FONDNESS FOR HIM AS APPEASEMENT RATHER THAN REPRIMAND #what the fuck. are the warrior clans the un