#i wonder if anyone will see this haha

[starflungwaddledee]

from: @starflungwaddledee to: @post-it-notes7

message from santa: "happy holidays post-it-notes! 🎄🥳 i know you very politely only wished for a few modest things- characters high fiving, or struggling in christmas attire- but i hope you'll still enjoy this given that i kinda went the opposite direction entirely! i'm an enormous fan of your work and most times you post anything i wind up browsing your art tag from tip-to-tail in enraptured delight. as such, i thought it was only fair i give back something a little more significant in gratitude for all the joy your work has given me. i knew i wanted to do a comic, so i was thrilled you already had a whole storyverse for me to work from!! this scene seemed the most obvious choice (chapter 8 of "wishful thinking" on ao3) given that i enjoy a dramatic fight scene 😂 i tried to stick as beat-by-beat to the writing as i could and worked in as many details as possible; i hope it'll be fun to see it envisioned this way! merry christmas! ~starflung 🎀🔔 "

#phew... this is by far the most ambitious piece i've ever posted here! 12 pages! this is why i've been so afk from other work haha! #shout out to the poor mods who sent through assignments and received no small amount of all-caps panicked screaming from me in response!! #me?! draw a gift for THE post-it-notes7!? immediately knew i had to overachieve to stand any hope of being up to the bar haha #if you feel these characters look a little different to how i usually draw them- that's totally on purpose! #i worked really hard to match post's designs and styling for them rather than my own; seeing as this was a gift! #actually think it stands out a *lot* surprisingly- given that they are still the exact same orbs. really interesting to compare to my usual #i hope some folks will notice all the details from the story in here! if you've read it and you recognised it please let me know! #genuinely hoping someone just recognises it on the first page. iconic canyon fight... what an honour to draw for this fic tbh #also thank you to the mods for handling all the wips and progress on this ridiculously sized entry from me with such grace #it's being posted on my personal blog due to length for anyone wondering. should be seamless... fingers crossed. #my art #my comics #meta knight #galacta knight #hnk secret santa #cw violence

[lea-khena]

Part of a secret santa exchange i participated, prompt was about 1911 Javier basically relearning how to to groom himself with John helping out, I spent way too much time on this man

#jovier #javier escuella #john marston #rdr2 #red dead redemption #I put a bunch of symbolism in the pic I wonder if anyones gonna be able to see some haha #I also made javier chubby but it just doesnt show hes chubby because of his position and his clothes are hiding everything rippppp #yes 1911 javier is chub at least a little bit i refuse to believe otherwise #my art

[marimbles]

at the risk of sounding like really entitled….

does anyone else have a fic that is their most popular, but you don’t want it to be, because you don’t think it deserves it, and you have better stuff, and while ofc you are grateful that people like something you wrote, it’s almost annoying that for some reason That one is the most popular. lmao

#for me it’s this like time travel shenanigans ml fic called Why Are You Like This #which I had a ton of fun writing and I like the fic #but I also tend to forget about it lol #and then I see that it’s my most popular one and I’m like ‘not but this isn’t even in my top 5 favorite fics I’ve written. why’ hdjsjs #it’s probably closer to the bottom of the top 10? and I do not have that many fics hahaha #I remember rooting so hard for tell me something I don’t know to surpass it in kudos #which it eventually DID and I was so happy #but then later WAYLS passed up tms again lol #and I was slightly annoyed to realize that WAYLS was my first to break 5k kudos #while tms still hasn’t #it’s very close tho I need like. 2 more #ok ok sorry this definitely sounds super entitled DHDKDK #I promise I am VERY grateful for every fic interaction!! every kudos or comment I’ve ever received!! #thank you thank you to anyone who has ever read my stuff💜 #I just think this is kind of funny #cause I keep scratching my head wondering why that one is the top fic #I think ppl just rly enjoy time travel stuff? #also I did it as a gift for yunyin based on one of her comics so that probably boosted it haha #anyway

[feroluce]

Connecting dots tonight (didn't connect shit, I've connected them, etc) because of this post about item descriptions to do with Sampo I saw a few days ago and! I feel like there are so many interesting things that could be implied from this!! Because the recipe for the High-Tech Protective Gear is given to you by Bronya (before the IPC invaded Belobog!), who says this little interesting tidbit about it:

This is an item from before the Eternal Freeze, 700 years ago. Even to the rest of the universe, it would be SORELY outdated. It cannot be made in Belobog anymore due to the loss of entire eras. It is effectively useless; this recipe had to be somewhere gathering dust, kept around solely for archival purposes. There is no reason for Sampo to know about this item or have any idea how it works and yet. AND YET. He's just running around selling knock offs!!

He shouldn't even know how to make these, but the fact that he does means Sampo either

had the blueprints from off-world before he came to Belobog (most likely but also most boring answer)

broke into Qlipoth Fort and copied down the blueprints (completely plausible - he's possibly shown doing exactly that in his splash art)

found another copy out in the ruins of the old world (also completely plausible - Sampo is astoundingly resilient against both the Fragmentum and the cold, as noted by Lynx haha)

Meanwhile, the Inferior Protective Gear recipe comes from an NPC in the underground, and when she gives it to you, she talks about building robots and the robot fighting scene sorry about the quality I didn't have screenshots for her dialogue so I had to use wiki

Which makes me feel like it's safe to say that the inferior gear is mostly being used in the underground, especially by the vagrants and their robots for fights, because...well, who else would use it? Cocolia has made it illegal to explore too far into the Snow Plains, and besides, it's way too dangerous for most civilians even WITH gear. The Silvermane Guards are funded by official sources, they have no reason to rely on Sampo for armor. So it makes sense for an underground mechanic to know the recipe; there's probably not as much market for it up in the overworld.

And if you look at the descriptions, you can see why this probably wasn't something that could be made in Belobog anymore; it requires a charging system of some sort.

We know it's not a problem with the basic materials because all three ingredients can be found right in the administrative district. But the underground only has two of them; somehow, despite being in the planet's crust, and literally crawling with robots...there is no metal down there. It isn't found anywhere, sold by anyone, or dropped by anything. And metal just so happens to be the one ingredient Sampo replaces in his knock off version.

The Inferior Gear uses trash instead, something which, going by the words of that same mechanic, is MORE than abundant in the underground- any good quality parts are extremely difficult to come by down there.

Anyway, all his shadiness aside, I love the implication that Sampo is smart enough to be able to take this item that no one else on the planet probably knows anything about, and was able to figure out what he could replace, and how, and with what, in order to make it easily accessible to the people of the underground, even without access to overworld resources. Because his version DOES work! It literally gives you the exact same amount of defense boost as the IPC one!

Someone should absolutely still knock him around for it, though, world's most slappable face fr fjkdsjfdkjafk

#hsr sampo #hsr sampo koski #sampo koski #honkai star rail #hsr #belobog #he's such a slimeball fjklsdajfkld #I feel like there is something to be said though about the fact that if anyone in the underground is buying this shit armor off Sampo like. #it's either his armor or it's nothing. the overworld isn't exactly sending them a lot of protective gear. #And I'm sure they'd rather have cheap armor they can make and afford themselves than nothing at all. #I wonder if Wildfire would be one of his customers for this stuff or not? #like I think Sampo would be a lot more upfront with them if they were- he's not stupid enough to bite the hand that feeds him. #And Natasha is probably his most important client. We already know Sampo smuggles weapons and is her arms dealer. #It's canon that he brought Seele her scythe- #-and I wonder if it's coincidence that Natasha uses a giant weapon that looks similar to the Silvermane hand canons. #I could totally see Sampo trying to sell his armor to ring fighters to fix the matches in his favor though FJKDLSJAFDKLJ #we already know he bets on the fight club from his About Luka line and his dialogue from the Cyrille the Fool quests #so I'm sure he'd be gambling on the robot fights out by Svarog's encampment too haha #do you think they have penny bets for the kids for that kind of fight #crying imagining Hook tagging along and betting single credits on the fights alongside Sampo's much heftier bets #she still wins more than he does JKLDJSKLAJDS

[finiel]

ms paint gideon to test my new laptop's palm sensitivity + stylus functionality (poor and acceptable respectively, if you wondered)

#tlt #the locked tomb #gtn #gideon the ninth #gideon nav #tlt art #anyway. as you can see by the time i got to her shirt i gave up entirely on filling things in properly #i don't think she'd mind though #i got this laptop for school - which i start the day after tomorrow - and i've never like. used a laptop for note taking #i'm trying to test all possibilities before school starts but costco's return policy is decent so i'm not too worried #the thing is. i think i like the laptop itself quite a bit. #but i'm like what if i don't end up using it for school that much... i got it with scholarshare or whatever #hm no i probably will need it a lot #even if i don't use it for notes taken in class it'll still be needed for research and homework and stuff #so yes i think it was a good investment #it's the hp envy if anyone wondered lol #it gets a bit warmer than i'm used to and the fans are louder than i'm used to as well #but as long as it runs well i guess that's not really an issue? i hope not anyway #i have yet to look into whether that's a problem with these laptops #if anyone has pointers let me know haha #oh yeah also i did this with my blue light filter on so hopefully the colors aren't too miserable but if they are. i apologize #i mean it's all reds so there's not much to mess up but just in case #finieldraws

[matchandelure]

i fear that the undercover top secret government assassins are growing on me (cp9)

#I HAD ZERO THOUGHTS ABOUT THEM AT FIRST #IN FACT I WAS DEVASTATED THAT THE WATER 7 QUARTET WERE ACTUALLY CP9 #BUT THEN??????? I READ CP9'S INDEPENDENT REPORT AND. I!?!??!?@?!? #the thoughts are endless ive been having one piece dreams every night for the past few days and they have all been cp9 related the brainrot #is so bad. i am sodgjkadhg #i love one piece there are so many characters with each new arc i get to i get some new characters to obsess over i love it i feel so alive #ive been fighting tooth and nail avoiding spoilers for the latest episode BUT GOD IM SO SO TEMPTED TO. TAKE A PEEK #anyways last night i was once again doing a wiki deep dive and i found some silly things on cp9's pages #JABRA AND LUCCI ARE THE SAME HEIGHT!!!!! THIS IS SO FUCKING FUNNY #CAN YOU IMAGINE?!?!?! the kid you've had beef with since he was 13 (maybe even earlier since lucci alreayd knew him when he was 6) who you #used to have a whole head over is now at eye level with you i would actually be so embarrased #KAKU IS FROM EAST BLUE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THIS IS OS IMPORTANT ACTUALLY!! THE MOST IMPORATNT FACT EVER!!!!!!!!!!! #so he knows the strawhats are...also from the east blue right?!? right??????! and ik the wg steals these kids early on to train them so i #doubt he has lingering attachments to his home sea but i still think this so both so so sad and so important :'(( #also not getting over how oda's depiction of tiny kaku has him holding a toy boat BC ARE YOU KIDDING ME!!?! ARE YOU K IDDING ME #kalifa and jabra's favourite dishes are both lamb based!!!!!!!!! silly because her animal motif is a sheep haha #BUT ALSO considering how her father was also cp9 and she's probably been conditioned since birth to also follow his footsteps and how jabra #holds seniority in the current lineup id like to think that these two have known each other a very long time and there were influences #the most dysfunctional fcked up family ever. cp9 #blueno and jabra are both from the north blue!!!!!!!!!!!!! and that one falshbakc we see that the two of them plus 6year old lucci trained #together but also it would be so fcked up if the two actually knew of each other before being roped into the governemnt #idk how the wg works do they just??? routinely scout around and pick up a bunch of kids ata time???? were jabra and blueno taken together?? #also wondering if ... kalifa jabra and kumadori knew each other the longest as fellow agents or soemthing #i feel like im entertaining a gazillion thoughts all at once its so hard ot balance but we know both kalifa nad kumadori have #parents in the governemnt/assassin profession that also influenced them right #idk maybe one thing they can bond over #cp9 to me is just a fucked up family of some sort. they are not found family they are like some weird forged family where they were all #forced together and somehow made it work and they all love lucci and care for his wellbeing enough to raise all that money to get him to a #doctor and they cared about each other enough to get off enies lobby together without leaving anyone behind and they went cafe hopping and #shopping and bowling together and they all care for each other in their own way

[sysig]

Reading moodboard #84430940 (Patreon)

#Doodles #I wonder what this is in reference to lol - could be anything really! #Bit funny actually - I was reading something else in overlap at the time - a fic from another fandom though it ended up not being for me #Different authors just speak to different people! It was fun to come back to something familiar and realize Just how much I appreciate it ah #Novel and familiar! My very favourite <3 And of course it was a wonderful experience on top of that hehe ♪♫ #Numbers lol - I really have done way too much age headcanon math pfft #I just love timelines! And even if the hints aren't exact they /are/ hints and I'm going to use them!! #The numbers that are established are such fun markers - and using characterization as hints towards how many years have passed! Ah! ♪ #Like how it's definitely possible that Max took a two year but considering his family he was probably pushed to do a four year #There's no confirmation either way but it's just so fun to consider what they'd do based on how they're written! #These are the kind of written math problems I enjoy hehe #I was being a bit self-deprecating for that doodle actually tho lol - art mimics life and all that pfft #Also confirmation of him being a Lit Major ❤️💕💖💞💗 Small details give me big love you must understand this lol #As evidenced lol ♪ Adding to my playlist definitely didn't help it very strongly upgraded to Big Love for like a week straight lol #Terrible ♪ Couldn't stand it <3 Genuinely painful ♫ #Lol - ''finding'' more - it's what had my blood on fire! I'm so grateful for mirrors #Anyone who's been following me for a while knows I have this whole thing about Legacy and what you leave behind and the internet in general #That the internet is forever except when it's not - that plenty of things get deleted or lost etc. etc. and it makes me very sad :( #So seeing that there was an in-built preservation - it only saved Some things but anything saved is precious!! It made me very happy <3 #And then finishing off 💔💕 Beautifully heartbreaking ah #Even skim-reading later made me cry again! It's deeply affecting hhh #Another experience I'm so happy to be able to have ♥ Another tally on the wall haha <3

[lanternstrolls]

my designs of brozone parents

#their names are BLUEGILL (first one) and JOVI (second one) #haha get it? I am so clever (no) #anyways it took me like few weeks to actually make the designs #'cause every new concept of them looked not how I imagined it #anyways #I see them as two female trolls or female and demigirl (for Jovi) but I don't know yet! so I just use she/her for Bluegill and she/they for #Jovi if anyone's wondering #you can kinda read my notes there and that freaking bluegill (fish) sketch #trolls #trolls 3 #trolls band together #trolls oc #my art #myart

[steven-cubed-au]

rip moon, they’ve perished 😔

So….. hey there! It’s been a while (almost 3 years now haha,,,)

I’ll be honest this blog has been haunting me these past few years dskbuchsdckdwub I’ve been feeling really guilty about abandoning this blog despite my insistence that I’d actually finish the story T^T

A lot has happened these last few years! I graduated high school and gotten into college, its been so crazy there that i barely had time to draw anything haha

I kinda fell into this trap of thinking that if I came back then I gotta have something I've drawn to show, buuuut next thing I knew, almost 3 years has passed and I still got nothing 😭😅

Unfortunately I kinda lost interest in su 😅 it’ll always be in my heart, but I’ve been more interested in other stuff and couldn’t get myself to actually draw anything for it -~-

So, it’s with a heavy heart that I’d like to say that I’m officially ending this blog. I’m sorry that I couldn’t finish this story and thank you to everyone who read it!

Legitimately, i had so much fun with it!! Your drawings all blew me away!! And I had so much fun with your asks!! It all honestly made my year!! 💙

Take care of yourselves, and I hope you have a wonderful day!! 💙💙💙

#i dont know if anyone will see this haha #but i feel like a proper ending to this blog is long overdue #genuinely thank you all and i hope you have a wonderful day! #moonstone speaks #not art #anons

[monty-glasses-roxy]

On another note since I can't find my Okami game and before my brain can keep blowing it out of proportion (who cares if the disk is gone is saves to the Wii console not the fucking disk calm your tits brain I can still be a Pomeranian for shits and giggles if I want fuck you) I've been thinking about the Staffbot situation again...

Fucking hell was the staff party actually to round them up and kill the human staff?? Why??? For what purpose??? Were the Staffbots essentially just overcomplicated remote control cars with no AI built in so they used these people as the AI??? Do they want revenge??? Freedom??? Death??? Will they ever get it??? Where did their bodies go??? How has no one noticed so many missing people??? How would you even free them??? Fire??? Some sort of master controller that's preventing their souls from moving on??? Can Roxy see them???

That whole situation is wild and it feels so over the top given everything else that's happening. Like, bro, do we really need more shit happening??? Come on...

#yes my brain has been cooking some spooky ghost shit where Roxy is fucking HAUNTED by these guys #why?? because she has special eyes. she can't actually see what's wrong but looking at them too long makes her whole head spin #but all they know is she can see SOMETHING please oh PLEASE remember them please set them free she's the only one that can see #and so her ass is HAUNTED and she's losing her god damn mind cause are you KIDDING??? #as if she doesn't have ENOUGH to deal with???? #first storyteller then glitchtrap now this?? ON TOP of mimic???? fucks sake she's NOT paid enough for this #it's WILD to me because like. it looks like I'm being all 'haha blorbo has to deal with EVERYTHING' but think about it #if anyone would know what's going on or that something's wrong or be able to see what Fazbear doesn't want them to... #it's gonna be Roxy. #canonically a part of the MXES security system. canonically can see through walls talks to herself and stares at people through them #has a 'fuck you I know what I'm doing' attitude too?? yeah she's burdened with knowledge. it makes sense! #AND there's Vanny I forgot about that I just sorta categorise her with Glitch but they're separate entities I keep forgetting #like come on no wonder she's obsessed with winning if she loses someone's probably gonna die #but the insane part is that not only did she not sign up for this #neither did fucking Fazbear who gave her this ability to see everything #they were like 'hurdurdurdur guard mimic wurrburdurrr' #and then gave her the ability to see all the other fucked up shit and they thought 'well that's not her job she won't care' #and then OBVIOUSLY she DOES care what the FUCK do you MEAN she WOULDN'T care about fucking DEAD BODIES #are you JOKING #ya know??? yeah #it's insane #ya girl is DROWNING

[solradguy]

You know, we all make jokes about Sol/Frederick and Jack-O'/Aria being married (myself included), but they never actually refer to Aria as Frederick's wife in Begin (or anywhere else, afaik) and definitely not with Jack-O' anywhere.

I think the closest they got with Aria has been 恋人 (koibito; lover/boyfriend/girlfriend), which was kinda tricky to render in English when it was used gender neutrally. I ended up translating it as "partner" at least once for the Begin translation.

#textpost #I don't think saying they're married is bad just that it's an interesting point I haven't seen anyone mention before #It makes me wonder if maybe they would've gotten married if the Gear cell research thing didn't go sideways #But since Aria was apparently terminally ill maybe they decided not to? #We also don't know very much about how the culture of the world changed post-Dawn of Revival #Since they were in America maybe it would've been just a simple court marriage instead of a big elaborate one #I can't see either of them being into something that flamboyant haha Especially not Frederick #But I don't think we know how long they had been dating either? I'd have to double check that #Frederick got torn tf up for like 100+ years over what happened to Aria though so I'm gonna assume they were together for a while #I'm very interested in that period of GG lore between the years 2000 to 2016 (Dawn of Revival and the events of Begin) #What's the other thing you can do in the US besides marriage? A civil partnership? Maybe they had something like that #Since Frederick/Sol is based on Freddie Mercury so much maybe if Sol is also Parsi then maybe their marriage would've been- #-something related to that culture or perhaps blended with Aria's? #I don't know very much about Parsi culture but must cultures have something similar to a marriage or partnership bonding ceremony- #-so I'm sure it does too #Anyway it's kind of fun to think about!! #Ah typos in the tags... I'm on mobile and can't edit them. RIP

[acemakes-art143]

guyssss I can't think of what to make my tadc oc-

I have the strong urge to make an oc but all I can think is either A. Card related bc "Ace" of spades, B. Art related?? Idk C. Idfk just anything else that fits my vibe. Idk what to makkeeee anyone else that decided to observe my stuff also enjoy the silly show and have ideas? I really like the whole ace of spades idea, but I really don't wanna just be a sentient card so aside from that? Out of ideas. Especially considering I don't actually know stuff about cards/card games-

If only there were random prompt generators or smth for this ;-;

#the amazing digital circus #tadc #Also haha sorry for like- entirely disappearing for a bit I don't actually have an explanation I just stopped checking Tumblr for a bit #I'm alive!! I promise!!! #Also anyone see this and like half of you is like ''ok so don't buy suspicious headsets lol hah'' and the other half is like- #''but.. but what if.. I did.. what if I did get digital circus-ed. What if I did want to be transported'' #Like I'd be terrified if it actually happened #BUUT. Imagine. #I WANT THAT LEVEL OF ADVENTURE!!! LET INTERSTING SSTUFF LIKE THIS HAPPEN TO MEE!!!!!!! #GAH #Is this just me? Yeah? Mhm ok cool great #Pomni's my favorite for anyone wondering #I feel like that's the basic choice because she's like the main protagonist but like- #Silly :)

[kjrcrz]

ok well at least i can view my explore page....BUT WHY CANT I SEE THE MAIN DASHBOARD HELLO???? 😭😭

#guys this is actually so sad #i cant see updates help #i wonder if i can still see my activity... #erm is anyone else having this problem or is it just me #haha! if it's just me i'm jumping xoxo #. — ㅅ — speak now 💬 ˖ ׁ ⁩ .ᐟ

[classicsmosh]

I know u already answer but, I wanna ask u again 💖🫂

pass the happy! 💌 when you get this reply with 5 things that make you happy and send this to 10 more people! get sending. 💖💐

😂💖 I said it in the notes on one, but getting asks is always delightful even if I've gotta figure out what tf to answer hsfhfshfsb

Fall Out Boy makes me happy! That bit in concerts when the singer puts the mic to the crowd and a stadium full of people sings the words together makes me happy! Rainy days when it's not too bad out but there's the light rain and you see all the wildlife just hanging out and everything smells clean and earthy make me happy!

#woo stream of consciousness answering haha #i just watched a vid of a stadium of people singing mr brightside #and was reminded of another video of a huge crowd of people singing bohemian rhapsody #i love that shit #also it's been raining a TON rn lmao summer/end of summer is rainy season and hurricane season ✌️ #this post is like me wondering aloud #< non-sm*sh post tag for blacklist if anyone doesnt wanna see me answer asks

[applebunch]

just played through our dirge (again) and i... didn't realise you could get other endings??? i went through the game again to see what other options where there to pick, but it changed the conversation at the end??? spoilers in tag and under read more

like, first time i was mostly nice to jack (agreed that coming to the school was neal's idea and complimented jack on the costume, but asked him to play something stupid and didn't accept his help with the switch)

the next time i was kinda mean (insisted that i did not suggest going to the school, and insulted jack's costume, but also asked to listen to one of jack's songs instead and this time i accepted his help.) i also ignored a few things while speeding through the dialogue this time

the first time, when jack talks about staying and waiting and neal starts leaving, jack just like, gently, smugly prods neal a LITTLE bit in order to get him to stay and neal gives in, but this time jacks like, almost pleading. apologizing and worrying and everything... what a shift!

#i yell into the abyss #our dirge #first time it was “come onnnn don't you wanna see what happens? you know you do ;3” “agggh fiiiine” #this time it's like “wait wait wait where are you going? ☹” “i'm leaving? we're done” “um. uh. did i upset you? 😢 i'm sorry if i... 👉👈” #“uh no? you didn't do anything? i'm just saying it's probably time for us to... ...???” “🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺” “...fine???????” #our dirge spoilers #i guess? #i haven't seen anyone else make a “spoiler” post like this so i wonder if it's like ok or not........ #also the dialogue after the hallway thing stops short also. he stops talking after "i don't think that's supposed to happen #from “come onnnn isn't this fun haha” to“ ”w.... we're friends right? i... did i do something wrong?“ #like neal wanting to leave the abandoned school building that they impulsively decided to break into at midnight means jack annoyed him #jack's motivations are so mysterious i love him #playing through the game again to get a better look at that scene cause. again. I Was Skipping Dialogue. what an enigma..... #wish i saved at some point lol

[renegadeontherunn]

hi! this is my small, gentle reminder that you don’t have to be like other people. I know the best parts of other people are beautiful and exciting and just so cool, but you don’t need to be everything. it’s okay not to be as good at watercolor as your sister or not give good advice like your mom does and it’s okay to love qualities in other people. sometimes other people’s words or their idiosyncrasies or the way they part their hair is so wonderful that you want to join, you want to feel the way about yourself, about the not-as-great parts of yourself that you do about the best parts of them. and it’s okay if you start listening to The Killers because it’s your brother’s favorite band or if you decide you want to get red converse like the ones your best friend has. but it’s okay if you can’t “keep up” with their grades or will never be able to do eyeliner as well as they can or maybe it seems like they just love life more than you do. I just want you to know that there are unattainable parts of you too. you can like things about other people that you don’t have, and you don’t have to give a compliment thinking god I wish I was like that. you don’t have to be like that. it’s okay to just be the things you are. you don’t have to be everything. 

#found this in my drafts from a couple years ago & thought it was still pretty relevant haha #this isn't at anyone other than myself but #sometimes i look at the people i love and think !!!!! this part about them is so wonderful!!!!! #i want to be wonderful in the same way!!!! because i love it in them and so i want to love it in me too #but you can't have every quality and you can't be good at everything #it's okay to be what you already are #not to say that you can't try to emulate your role models don't take pieces of your loved ones for yourself #we are collages of every person we've ever loved ever known #but you don't have to #you don't have to take everything you don't have to be everything #you don't have to be like someone you love #someone you know is loveable #to be loveable too. #you can. i started listening to the magnus archives because of my friends and i like to try my hand at aus i loved reading #and those things bring me a lot of joy!!! and i love them!! #but sometimes it can turn into. why isn't this as good as theirs why can't i look like them or have as cool clothes as them or whatever #'i'm so sick of myself / rather be rather be / anyone anyone else' #'i know their beauty's not my lack / i know their win is not my loss' #maybe this is a very selfish mindset. it feels like it and ha #i wish i wasn't as selfish a friend as my friends are #do you see how this works #hm. this probably doesn't make much sense. #i just. you don't have to be everything #you are already the things you are and that's already enough #fiona speaks #i just think comparison #comparison and shame are at the root of so many of our problems. they are one of the greatest enemies to us #take pieces but. ha a uquiz told me once that your fuel does not have to be shame #idk just. yeah. what other people have is not your lack #idk