#i wish i was shifting by now

[celestialrealms]

Fun fact: In Barbatos's intimacy storyline in Nightbringer he ends up living with Solomon and MC at Cocytus Hall temporarily. Here's a highlight from his 40 intimacy call:

The way he makes Solomon sit in the corner. 😭 You cannot convince me he didn't raise this man.

#+ the tonal shift when he started talking to mc again made me laugh ngl #i'm already spoiled for these calls but there's no substitution for the voice work #but yeah uhh spoilers in all of nb's intimacy calls they basically end up in a committed relationship w mc #i gotta step it up with farming so i can be annoying about it. barbatos's phone calls are SO good tbh #though now that mc and solomon aren't living at cocytus hall i question them making it so theyre living there even up to 100 intimacy? #i know whales are probably much speedier but its still a bit weird considering the devs #still won't let mc and barbatos's relationship progress in the main story practically at all in comparison to the phone calls #obey me barbatos #obey me solomon #obey me nightbringer #obey me #obey me shall we date #barbatos obey me #barbatos #solomon #also man i wish they'd spent some of this budget on routes instead considering how long it will be for anyone to really see these calls

[mamanbou]

i truly say this with no malice in my heart but black butler fans who think the series peaked at book of circus/that the circus didn't deserve their fate........... are 7 times out of 10 not really black-butler-as-a-whole fans and are very unwilling to engage with the main themes and characters of the series as a whole. BoC was a fantastic high and had tons of engaging characters but I've met people who still hate ciel bc he had doll killed and that is CRAZY. to love a side character so much that it renders you unwilling to let the main/objectively most complex and important character into your heart at all. I'm sorry that the circus died but even though they loved each other they were also child murderers- in doll's case she still is LOL- and their most important narrative role is their impact on ciel/snake (whose plotline ties back to ciel's ideas about lies becoming the truth, so still a ciel thing ultimately). anyways the best arcs are Green Witch because it's good and Book of Murder because it's funny

#and the maid arc because jane was hot #txt #kuroshitsuji #ive just been thinking about this for some days now and had to get it in writing #also i feel bad for doll fans during the current arc. it's drastically shifted her character #in ways that make sense but like if you loved her bc of the moral struggle and now youre watching her in her most evil hour.. brutal #i kind of wish joker was a bizarre doll instead of her #his interactions with seb and ciel while he bled out were SO interesting i'd love to see him brought back and forced to grapple with it all #he has a way more nuanced view on what happened than doll possibly could #but then #thats why it had to be doll. she doesnt have context or nuance or anything but pure animal rage #50

[plushpyromoved]

idk how i managed to forget but herez all the art i did for TFtober :D!

#most of it actually there were a few sketchez and scribblez i didnt put in thiz post but these are the main onez #now i must go to my 8 hour shift ;_; itz black friday wish me luck lads #tf2 #team fortress 2 #TFtober #🔥.art

[thesoupisburning]

ashes to ashes

#slay the princess #the princess #yeah i guess im just posting art now? #mspaint art. of all things #well either way this one is about how i think she looks cool in the new style ive been trying #and something something impermanence isnt permanent or. vice versa #all things must come to an end. i love you. #the shifting mound #my art #mspaint art #sigh. i wish i could write good fic of her. #burntsoupart

[sketchy-tour]

If I had the energy, I'd sit down and draw Original Dandy meeting all the silly AUs and different Wallys I like. It sounds so silly and fun.

But haha that requires me to...draw a lot of character interactions. But man I WANT to. I have all these silly ideas of how Dandy would interact with these wildly different Wallys.

All noncanon interacts but damn it, it sounds fun.

#text post #just rambling #i love that now my posts have turns into me wisftully daydreaming of what art I would draw if I had more time #I wish work would take me off afternoon shifts #it makes me feel like I have no fuckin time #i wanna draaaaw #I wanna be silly #:(

[highlysusceptibletodisaster]

im pretty sure bernard met jack drake in the 93 robin run but something about tim introducing him to the whole batfamily as his boyfriend and when the night is over they are going home and bernard is talking about how nice his family is and how great the night was and tim simply says "i wish i could have told my dad about you" and bernard understands exactly what hes talking about

#this is me trying to shift the blame of never telling my parents some things and now it seems too late #but let's pretend it's about tim drake missing his dad #and wishing he had understood sooner the feelings he ignored because he was robin or some shit #maybe i will try to write something with it #maybe #tim drake #bernard dowd #timbern #timber #dc

[minthy]

I never posted these here, but yeah,

Imma make more content outta my shifting experiences especially my Undertale/KNY DRs, because, HAHAHA, shifting..

anyway, (the main cast?) yeah, my people there.

#Finna shift again and make Alphys watch season 2/3 of kny now #I wish I had more motivation to draw bc daym #shit is wild there #undertale #Shifting realities #toriel #sans #papyrus #alphys #undyne #It's fun #yall need to try it #and I can share all my shifting tips/tricks/methods with yall if yall want to #I post them a lot in tiktok tho #if anyone wants I would

[untoldsoup]

I am having waaay too much fun drawing pissed off Bowser lol.

Also am I supposed to be posting wips? I see other artists doing it but I really never have...even on my old Tumblr acct.

#working on page 16 right now. wish i had more time after work but alas second shift life...

[natreads]

I got a job as a bookseller!!!

#nat talks #listen. it's not the dream bc I've already worked in a bookstore and it's actually terrible at times #but I only really worked during holidays and people were just so rude #BUT I do have higher hopes for this location #also I tentatively know two people who work there so it will be fun! #it's a sub role and a little unclear if I'll only work during christmas and the book sale in feb or more #it depends on if the people who are on sick leave will return and when #but I can keep freelancing and apply for corporate jobs I want in the meantime #at the very least I can work during december either way and if I end up finding something else maybe I can work weekends during the booksal #so to not let them down too much #I honestly am just looking forward to getting out of the house and meeting people and working with my body more #because my mind is very fried #I have a short shift tomorrow to train #then I'll see when I'll officially start but it will probably be soon! #I've had a very busy few days so I wish I had said I could do my training shift next week #bc they gave the option of this wednesday or next #but I didn't want to turn it into a “thing” by letting too much time pass bc I might get anxious about it #but now I wish I had lmao I'm tired #also forgot I was gonna be home alone with the dog tomorrow #had been looking forward to it tbh #oh wellll #work stuff

[notbecauseofvictories]

it's almost midnight but I did go grocery shopping today, I did go on that foraging plant excursion, I talked to my mother for 2 hours, and also baked three large boxes of cookies and baked goods to bring with me to the office as my farewell gift, so probably a good sunday.

#it's interesting I can feel my relationship to my mother shifting. #not that we're equals now but I am an adult to her. we talk to each other as two adults. #I...have complicated feelings about this. #mostly good! but also I wish there were better words for ''oh you were a person the whole time??'' #celestial emporium of benevolent knowledge

[zylphiacrowley]

Miqo March Day 13: Color

#Final Fantasy XIV #FFXIV #Final Fantasy 14 #FF14 #Miqomarch #miqomarch 2024 #X'vahl Tia #miqo'te #male miqo'te #As if it could be any other color. #Sometimes I wish I didn't color code him so strongly for dark green #but it suits him so well #it's weird to see him in anything else to me now. ^^' #Doing a quick one for the 13th #because I don't think I'll have time to tomorrow between a shift that runs late #and raid almost running into each other.

[magpie-trove]

🪝

#feeling like. something’s shifting. feels like the tide has turned and is going out now with my youth kids #like my time is coming to an end in some way. I’ve taught them all I know and my answers are falling short or into catch 22’s #also feel like maybe I am being a little dramatic #sfhhds. but I feel it somewhere inside you know? #so I’m praying into thy hands into thy hands into thy hands lord #thy will be done #(they are moving from practical stuff to doctrine and the thing is. my doctrine is not what my umbrella organization expects. so I don’t #know what to do or where to go from here. guess we’ll see #scary cause it’s going out of my hands and I have no next thing to look forward to at least that’s a comfortable next thing #but it’s not scary either it’s like. my leader who lets me be his partner whom I trust with my life and have a deep understanding with #is beckoning and saying ok watch stage 2 and smiling knowingly. and I obey and back off and get ready to follow #because finally. someone I can follow worthily till the day I die #he knows what he’s doing and I know he knows. I know he’s got things figured out I haven’t even begun to anticipate. it’s as you wish and #into your hands

[dreamlogic]

musing in the tags about the view two years out from my hysterectomy and the shifting nature of neuropathy. i asked my PT for recommendations/resources pertaining to pain science and that's been a very helpful lenses to have. i'm still not back to normal, will never be unmarked by this experience or return to my pre-op self, but my baseline has been gradually increasing over the last few months, and it feels good to look back on the last two years and say "i have no idea how i managed to function while living with that, but i did!"

#meatsuit renno #chronic blogging #ctxt #at first post-hysto pain was a deep burning ache #and eventually that lessened on my left side and settled in for the long haul on the right #after a couple weeks it had started to feel like a small carnivorous creature scrabbling and gnawing at the inside of my abdomen #nestled into the hollow of my pelvis and reaching up with its raking claws #about 6 months in and the creature still chewed occasionally but had shrunk to the size of a tennis ball under my right incision site #it clamped its jaws down and went to sleep and i perpetually felt like someone had pinched a fold of my insides with a large binder clip #this constant awful twisting tug every time i moved that kept me from straightening up or breathing fully #this is about a year into recovery and my original surgeon has blown off my requests for follow-up treatment three times now #i carried on as best i could. fatigue and brainfog getting worse & worse as the pain wore on unrelentingly #about a year and a half into recovery it worsened again. searing lancing pain like i'd been impaled on a piece of white hot rebar #couldn't hardly move. couldn't think straight. couldn't sleep #finally checked myself into urgent care & then the ER just to try to get someone anyone to take me seriously and help me #finally got a referral to a new surgeon who immediately pinned it as extreme neuropathy #started gabapentin end of december last year and the relief was immediately #i never thought i would welcome the gritted teeth vice grip of my little feral pain creature #but when i felt the molten spike slide out to be replaced once more by its worrying jaws #the intermittent spark and fizzle of that pinching squirming pain was a dramatic improvement #then i started PT in march and slowly so slowly the creature's hungry grip is loosening #it still clamps down occasionally. maybe once every week or two i'll have a day when i just accept #that there will be a horrible little creature chewing on my right side from the inside #but nowadays with the gabapentin doing as much as it can and an exercise routine i must stick to religiously to supplement PT #the pain is more of a little pearl of dark matter shifting around under my skin #it's incredibly dense. the heart of a black hole of disabling agony. all that white hot fury condensed into a slick heavy marble #as i recover some of my strength and energy i can feel my body coating it in nacreous layers to minimize its influence #my hysterectomy was 2 years and 4 days ago today and i feel like i can finally finally say i'm beginning to truly heal #i suspect i'll always carry this pearl in my side like shrapnel. product of damaged nerve tissue that went untreated for far too long #i wish my original surgeon had been more competent more attentive less lazy & indifferent to my pain. but i still don't have any regrets.

[winterrose42]

"I can fix him" "i can make him worse"

I can put him in therapy and make him learn communication skills

#winter speaks #for legal.purposes this is just a silly rant #the i and him are boyh me #character growth ia all well and good h til.youre tge one doin it and then its like oh. oh ouch. oh big ouch wtf o want off the ride #bjt the ridw is necessary and its akin to draggimg a toddler to.the dentisg #i only vaguely understand wjats happening and what to do and im trying myndamndesy to git the square throuhh the cir le #and iyll work but no kne will be happy abouy it for at least a few weeks #and i have to do.little letters of today inlearned bc my brains so fucked right now i cannit remmeber the lessons unless #i write them fifty fuck times #i am so tired and brumpy about existance today and i am working a twelve hour shift #but tofay i learned my nose was in fact most likely broken when i was like sevem ir eigjt #and kts not a normal thing to brush your teeth til the gums bleed thats nit how they get clean #so this weekend i get to research dental heigiene bc i just never did iy bc it fuckin hurt and i finallu know #where the bump on my nose came from. my head wishes to be lut through comcrete

[deus-ex-mona]

last stage: coming soon next week… probably lmao

#AUUUU AM I MISREADING LXL TWT OR DID THEY ACTUALLY LEAK A LAST STAGE IMAGE OF LXL HOLDING HANDS LMFAO #im. probably misreading it huh… there’s no way loserxloser would hold hands on main… right…? #they’re too dumb to be affectionate on main… right? #I WISH I COULD’VE SEEN IT AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA KTHN DISTRACTION WAS TOO STRONG #IS LAST STAGE GOING TO BE ACTUALLY GOOD NOW LMAO #C R Y I N G IN NIGHT SHIFT NOW I GOTTA NEGOTIATE MY WAY INTO A SIMPLE WORKSTATION TO CATCH THE RELEASE #SEE Y’ALL NEXT WEEK FOR AIYUU CANON (MAYBE?????)

[stellexpress]

okay as a towerhead i should discuss her character + new poem in detail like she deserves but rn i'm just doing a victory lap that she called us a "dog blind to its leash." i don't care abt ascending to godhood anymore this is genuinely my peak

#꒰ ✧ ꒱ wish upon a star #// mostly cause i drew the broken with a pet collar and i NEED to finish all of those sketches now #// god i love these two freaks so much they make me wanna eat gravel why are they like that #// the tower's animation too where she's equaled to the shifted mound is so *twirls hair* #slay the princess