#i want a fucking medal

[clockworkdragonffxiv]

I started my D&D campaign back in April of 2020 shortly after the COVID Lockdown hit. I was bored out of my skull and stressed, and a friend had expressed his frustration with his own D&D group and I just went "Fuck it."

I hadn't played DnD since college. I had never GM'd a tabletop game. But I had nothing better to do. So I went on to Discord into, like, the three channels I'm active in and rounded up a gaggle of friends from FFXIV and from my old City of Heroes group. For my starter campaign I used the very first Eberron campaign ever published for I think 3e or 3.5e, converted to 5e, "The Forgotten Forge."

And three and a half years, multiple cases of COVID, two rounds of cancer and chemotherapy, four or five moves, three kidney stones, multiple bouts of depression, and a half dozen job changes, we finally finished the campaign at level 16, having convinced the Lord of Blades to devote his talents to building the new Warforged nation and healing the Mournlands using the unique techno-organic warforged plants and animals we'd discovered, instead of his original plan which was to absorb the power of a Creation Engine and a Demon Overlord into himself, achieve apotheosis, and drown the world in a tide of blood.

My original plan for the final battle has in large underlined letters the phrase "Biblically Accurate Chainsaw Angel" and included a speech with lines like "LET THE SEAS BOIL AND THE SKIES FALL! LET THE WORLD BURN!"

Also probably ending up with the players picking the Red, Blue or Green endings from the End-o-Matic 9000.

But that didn't happen.

So instead, the campaign that started with our little group of heroes stumbling onto the murder of a professor with the clues to a hidden workshop, ended with the wedding of Seeker the Warforged Artificer, the man who'd talked the Lord of Blades down (despite having a Charisma of 8) and now holds the title of Maestro Seeker, is an advisor to the national leadership, and is the teacher of a whole new batch of warforged, and the warforged medic Solace, an NPC whose existence began as a joke about Seeker having a whirlwind romance with a medic in the space of about 23 minutes while the rest of the party were running errands.

Hot damn was that a lot of work. Three and a half years, and despite it starting in modules by the second I'd decided I didn't like the story as it was written, threw it out, and told my own story. Featuring friendly little fire elementals named Phil, packs of extremely patriotic and laddish mimics named Jimmy, an eight foot robotic sweetheart named Friend whose primary weapon was an equally massive tower shield and her totally-not-boyfriend warforged druid/allosaurus/swearasaurus Din, a wrestling match with a hobgoblin that nearly turned lethal when an 18 foot tall warforged titan came in with the steel chair, an alligator with a gun, and banishing the elemental dragon powering a flying battleship while A) the team was still on the battleship and B) it was still several hundred feet in the air and C) it was the only thing keeping it there... it's done.

And it was all worth it. God I love these guys. So here's to you, Katie, Jacquie, Mike, Stan, and Will. I'll see you all next week for our next adventure.

#dnd #dungeons & dragons #dnd 5e #forever DM #eberron #i want a fucking medal #anyone who runs a full campaign from 1 to high levels and herds a half dozen people into regular games should get a certificate or somethin #and for SOME REASON I'm running the next campaign too! #I mean I love GMing but still

[teatitty]

Okay no but I'm thinking more about Big Brother Eskel hearing about this fucking bard Geralt has picked up and all the mischief and mayhem he causes while also bringing back a light to Geralt's eyes and making his path so much less lonely [wolves were never meant to be alone and especially not Geralt] and when he does meet him he's just like. Fuck. Look at this thing. He's so small and wild and free. Is anyone going to fuss over him like he's an errant baby brother or do I have to do everything around here my-fucking-self. And then he does and Dandelion's incredibly confused but he's not, like, mad about it

#the witcher books #eskel #dandelion #meanwhile geralt's like 'you know I found him first right?' #and eskel's just 'okay?? what do you want a fucking medal for it?? now move I need to squeeze him'

[not-poignant]

Every now and then I just get the kind of comment that makes me stop working on a fic and just has me going 'how about you write it since you're so concerned with correcting me on this one tiny thing that doesn't matter because it's fanfiction actually'

And like, I do want to work on this fic, but damn, not today.

#personal #i don't know how many times i can tell people #to fuck off when it comes to canon details and palmarosa #but if you ever have the instinct to correct something in palmarosa #just know you're the reason i don't want to work on this fic atm #because it's not at all motivational to have people arguing with me #about the NOT CANON COMPLIANT details in my own fic #like it's tags and author's notes at this point #reading comprehension i miss you #you all get gold medals for knowing the canon better than me #now leave me and my fic and it's very clear “not canon compliant” tag alone #because palmarosa isn't for the people #who want it to be canon compliant #and cannot let it go otherwise #i've just deleted a bunch of comments i will no longer be justifying #this fic to people who just exist to win #know it all contests

[joyflameball]

I only realized like looking back abt a week ago how incredibly ableist Yansim is like, even aside from the yandere trope being ableist as hell (demonizing BPD), Ayano's whole backstory is just. Awful on many levels. Wow you're telling me this girl lacked empathy and felt nothing and learned to fake having empathy and emotions and pretended to care about her friends but in reality she lacked empathy and could kill a cat without feeling anything because she lacked empathy. But then she briefly bumped into a random guy and that changed everything. Wow that's soooooo crazy you're sooooo original tell me more about how original your game is

#like girl fuck off #damn yandev managed to be misogynistic AND ableist towards low empathy folks while basing his whole game off of an ableist trope! #you want a medal for being a piece of shit? here's your medal for being a piece of shit! #cassie rambles #yandere simulator #i don't like this game

[spineless-lobster]

The Captain just wanted to be loved.

#all of the breaking and entering and stolen valour and heartbreak and humiliation #he served in a war and received no medals for it #if he had he wouldn’t have to go through all this shit #all he wanted to do was see his lieutenant again #he wanted to be loved and recognized and respected #by anyone #but mainly by havers #he just wanted love and he died before he could properly get it #until the other ghosts and alison of course #I could go on and on but you get it #you definitely get it by now #I’m so fucking tired so I’m going to bed #goodnight I love you <3 #bbc ghosts #the captain #bbc ghosts spoilers

[starlyht]

not to be like that but

added to my rules in point 8. made it into bold pink because i am not comfortable or happy with what i have seen in the rpc with erasing bi and pan characters' sexualities.

i am just going to block people who write the canon bi and pan baldur's gate 3 characters as anything but bi and / or pan. they have canon sexualities. at this point it is erasure of bisexuality and pansexuality.

#no that pan character is not secretly actually gay or a lesbian . #no that bi character is not secretly actually gay or lesbian . #this fandom is actually unbelievable . #oh you see the truth? you think they're bi to appeal to a wider audience? do you want a fucking medal? #i have seen the most un-nuanced takes and just . 🐈‍⬛🐈‍⬛🐈‍⬛

[talentforlying]

@normaltothemax: Ooh meta about John and children. How he sees himself vs. how he actually is with them <3 — SEND META TOPICS.

oh he thinks he's horrendous with children. he thinks nobody in their right mind should ever let him look after a kid / spend time with their kids, because he's terrified about being a bad influence or turning his back at the wrong moment. even when he really makes an effort to do everything right by your most puritanical housewife's standards — no smoking, no swearing, no drinking, PG movies — he's always convinced that something's going to happen, some accident or tragedy that he won't be able to prevent, especially someone looking to get to him and using the kid or their family to do it. it's happened several times before, and it'll probably happen again. it's one of the reasons he can't really see himself being a dad, even though on some level i think he would have liked that. (in his new 52 verse with his daughter rose porter, he is very much a helicopter parent for this reason; he's always terrified of something happening to her because of his reputation.)

aside from the obvious life-or-death fears, he tends to feel out-of-place and clumsy and careless when he's around kids; he's someone who works best with a plan, even just the kernel of one, but around kids he's always improvising, with their clever questions and inane curiosities. he also has zero concept of what constitutes a normal response to an average question, most of the time, because it's not like he's lived a normal life; turns out the right answer to "sometimes i see a scary man in my closet" is not, in fact, "well he's probably dead, so."

in reality, he's mostly only a bad influence insofar as swearing and normalizing obscene amounts of cigarette-smoking; he's actually really fucking good with kids. he had an awful childhood and he remembers vividly all the ways he used to wish adults in his life would treat him, all the times he wanted a hand to hold or a hug; to inflict any kind of hardship on a child would mean he's become his father, and that's a fate worse than death to him. he's incredibly protective of kids, he's a genuinely good listener, and he communicates with them like they're adults (which isn't always a good thing, considering the way he communicates with other adults, but he doesn't condescend or brush them off). he's childish enough to know & engage with what they might consider fun, and he's always willing to risk embarrassment to play along with a game or coax out a smile. he would risk absolutely anything if it meant saving a kid's life, and he will ruin the existence of anyone who so much as thinks about hurting a child. (even though he has pushed the occasional snotty bastard into a duck pond before. he stuck around to make sure they could swim, though.)

now, the intersection of the two is this: sometimes he's so good with kids, and they like him so much, that they start to emulate him. which includes getting involved in the occult and starting down the same path he did when he was younger, with all the pitfalls and harsh learning curves and horrors that come with it. this is what happened with his niece gemma, and he regrets that every day of his life.

all things considered, his primary strategy towards dealing with children is that he doesn't. it's safer for them, and it's less stressful for him.

#normaltothemax #i see quite a few people on tumblr complain about fic writers & fans wanting to see constantine as a dad and i'm like. why #it's a FASCINATING role to put him in!! the mental gymnastics he would be doing are gold medal worthy!! #he has so much unresolved trauma from his father & from newcastle and i for one would love to see him manage it #while at the heart of a scenario where he has to develop his own parenting style & set an example over time #would he be a perfect parent? fuck no. and there is always a non-zero chance that he panics and leaves the kid with someone else #especially if danger rears its ugly head and he thinks his presence is a danger to them #and there are all the resulting hang-ups that follow that. how long before he comes back. potentially being denied a subsequent relationshi #but god there is SO MUCH to explore. i just think constantine is exceptional with kids #and that can be as much of a bad thing as if he wasn't #( headcanons. ) I'M JUST LIKE THE BASTARDS I'VE HATED ALL ME LIFE. #( answered. ) THIS IS JOHN CONSTANTINE. FUCK OFF.

[reviseleviathan]

“The moon is so beautiful tonight. It wouldn’t surprise me if someone got drunk and fell to the ground while trying to look up at the night sky. Just like this. This is how your life ends, Momo. How does it feel?” “How do you feel? Are you enjoying finding more sour grapes for yourself?” “...Make him drink everything in the room.”

you ever just psychologically tear down the villain so hard he decides offing you in a way that looks accidental is easier than trying not to be the worst human being on the planet

#also i watched the advance screening of the final episodes so let me just say you are all In For It next week #i7s3spoilers #idolish7 #i7 #momo #momose sunohara #ryou tsukumo #gifs #momo taking out the gold medal at the absolutely fucking dunk on ryou world cup #you can feel how long he's been wanting to say this and have any consequences fall purely on him and not anyone around him #third beat had to cut a lot of momo's more savage lines but they couldn't cut this!!! #cw alcohol

[itslookingback]

good night gay little people in my laptop

#i have had a quiet night in and it's been good 👍 #got to wake up early tomorrow............ big day......... #every day is a big day when you love your degree 👍 #i had my first major anxiety spiral of ''omg why am i at uni and not. idk. a librarian or something'' #and then went outside and immediately snapped out of it because i was too distracted by !!!!!outside!!!! #so anyway i'm all good again. #this might just be me but... i feel like because i hang out with people that also want to work with environment #it becomes a sort of competition of. who does the most volunteering. who is the most eco friendly. etc. #which sounds stupid!!!! #and obviously it's not a competition!!! #but idk. sometimes i speak to people and i feel like i'm constantly behind. or maybe that's just the autism #and it doesn't help that if you want to get a job in conservation / whatever it's so competitive and they want so much experience from you #like that just adds to the stress to the point of you're worrying am i not going to get a good job because i havent got a summer placement #or whatever the fuck. anyway i need to sleep #if you've read this long.. congrats!! here is your medal 🥇

[dr-shkthg]

This creature can go fuck itself.

#my posts #arknights #SL-EX-7 CM is kinda beating my ass a bit because of these fuck ass caster sheep 😭😭 #do I even WANT to get all the medals in this event right now??? probably not. I don’t feel great so I won’t try to #cute sheep but they piss me off

[sea-jello]

uhh hi morro enjoyers i finally finishing crystalized and started dragons rising specifically euphrasias episode and morrotober is soon so i’m coming back. do you remember me

no color idk just in case the colors clash horrendously

#i’m getting DRAGGED right back #i know anon remembers me whoever you are. shoutout to you #most if not all my morro mutuals moved on to something else like i did but the general people in the morro tag seem to be the same #if not some new people #new program goes crazy my artstyle looks completely different #this is IMPROVEMENT #i hope #i didn’t spend too much time on this #right looks younger left looks older for some reason #maybe it’s the face shape #y’all sat through my first ever digital art era you guys get a medal tbh #i might participate in morrotober i joined tumblr literally end of september last year #bmc people i’m so serious block the morro tag right now #yes i used to exclusively post about this guy. what about it #this is gonna be the only thing i tweet about for the next week #i’ve wanted this for years fuck #what the fuck #ignore the colors i’m in the dark and i have eye protection mode on so i cba #i want to hype myself up for morrotober gimme things to draw #off topic but i recently got into epic the musical it’s SO GOOD #i’m so excited for the coming sagas #especially calypso and scylla #and the LAST ONE god the reunion song made me cry lowkey #ninjago #lego ninjago #morro wu #ninjago morro #morro ninjago #god i used to have these tags in my quick access #jellos scribbles

[lolacouldnotcareless]

Rules: bold the ones that are true and tag some friends

tagged by @zeesqueere, tagging @ivy-lavender, @tootiredtoosadtooangry, @hyperbolicgrinch, @myriad-of-colors, @papangphromphiriya, @ambivartence, @avizou and whoever else wants to. tis not an obligation either

Appearance

i’m over 5’5” // i wear glasses/contacts // i have blonde hair // i prefer loose clothing to tight clothing // i have one or more piercings // i have at least one tattoo // i have blue eyes // i have dyed or highlighted my hair // i have gotten plastic surgery // i have or had braces // i sunburn easily // i have freckles // i paint my nails // i typically wear make-up // i don’t often smile // i am [most of the time] pleased with how i look // i prefer nike to adidas // i wear baseball hats backwards

Hobbies and talents

i play a sport // i can play an instrument // i am artistic // i know more than one language // i have won a trophy in some sort of competition // i can cook or bake without a recipe // i know how to swim // i enjoy writing // i can do origami // i prefer movies to tv shows // i can execute a perfect somersault // i enjoy singing // i could survive in the wild on my own // i have read a new book series this year // i enjoy spending time with friends // i [usually] travel during school or work breaks // i can do a handstand

Relationships

i am in a romantic relationship // i have been single for over a year // i have a crush // i have a best friend i have known for ten years // my parents are together // i have dated my best friend // i am adopted // my crush has confessed to me // i have a long distance relationship // i am an only child // i give advice to my friends // i have made an online friend // i met up with someone i have met online

Aesthetic

i have heard the ocean in a conch shell // i have watched the sun rise // i enjoy rainy days // i have slept under the stars // i meditate outside // the sound of chirping calms me // i enjoy the smell of the beach // i know what snow tastes like // i listen to music to fall asleep // i enjoy thunderstorms // i enjoy cloud watching // i have attended a bonfire // i pay close attention to colours // i find mystery in the ocean // i enjoy hiking on nature paths // autumn is my favourite season

Miscellaneous

i can fall asleep in a moving vehicle // i am the [designated by my own friend's parents] mom friend // i live by a certain quote // i like the smell of sharpies // i am involved in extracurricular activities // i enjoy Mexican food // i can drive a stick-shift // i believe in true love // i make up scenarios to fall asleep // i sing in the shower // i wish i lived in a video game // i have a canopy above my bed // i am multiracial // i am a redhead // i own at least three dogs

#let me ramble a bit here now that i'm finished dvfghsf #i actually prefer a combo of tight/fitted clothes vfshf #and by 'pleased with my looks' i understand. that i don't hate looking at the mirror? most of the time? i look at it's just. #'hi me. we're doing well today!' 'hi. oh god you look tired as fuck' #but it also helps that i focus on my face. not that i'm particularly beautiful or handsome but. it's my face! with emotions passing by! #with some light in my eyes! with dimples even! what's not to learn to like? #can i say i can still play the piano when i haven't touched one in years 😔😭 i want to play again tho. to learn again. #i have won a trophy!!! for a second place BUT i have a trophy! and a medal!! twas not a big thing but i still did it!! twas archery-related #yes i will consider this as my crush confessing to me bc if zee hadn't asked me out well. we wouldn't be here dbfskjdf #i am Obsessed with colours actually. especially how light and colour interact. you can imagine my disappointment each time i try #to take a pic of the sky with my shitty phone camera :pensiveclown: #and yes i am the mom friend but like. not by choice most of the time lol

[levi-dayne]

silly little vent in the tags

#i really miss him and it's not fair how much i gave to him every day when i had to beg for attention back #i don't get why this always happens #it's every single person every single time #and they always tell me i was the best person they ever dated and i made them realize what being loved feels like or whatever #but i always end up more damaged #it feels like people think the way i love is like an apology from the universe that they can just take all of without reciprocating #instead of another traumatized person with feelings also trying to get what they give #it's so exhausting and frustrating i just want to love someone that loves me back #and they all say they do and tell me how great i am but they never listen when i communicate what i need and i have to beg #and they expect praise for the bare minimum #i asked him what he does for me and he said 'i was there to support you' #do you want a medal?? you SHOULD support your partners and your friends #and they all acknowledge that when the roles are reversed #what really fucks me up about it is when i see how they treated their exes #why not me?? what did i do wrong?? #and they say i didn't do anything and that i was the best but no one acts like it #im so fucking tired of this it hurts so much #like i know for a fact my other ex legitimately saw me as his reward for persevering through rejection #when can people start seeing me as an equal to them that also wants to be loved and valued and needed?? it's not fair #people keep taking advantage of me and how caring i am towards them and it sucks #im losing hope once someone DOES treat me right i won't even trust it #personal posts 😌✨️✨️ #tw vent

[tacagen]

have i mentioned that i am a music arranger. (and potentially a composer. my speciality doesnt include that but we still have a composition class here.)

this is blake neely's 'catch me if you can', the flash cw ost remade in my image bc lets be honest the music's fine but its nowhere near sounding like comic!thawne. this is also what i brought to entrance exam at my uni and what basically got me there (i overheard the commission say thats a good work when i played the original lmao).

#eobard thawne #reverse flash #professor zoom #the flash #stumbled upon it omw home relistened and was like 'why isnt this on fucking tumblr. this is genius. people deserve to Know' #anyway i also want to orchestrate it. but i have no idea when that'll happen #this shit desperately needs a violin solo and thats at the very least #oooo wait yall have no idea about my strong association of thawne's time traveller look and violins #basically that was like the second thing i thought about it. 'YK WHAT HE LACKS?? A VIOLIN. HE WOULD VISUALLY SLAY EVEN MORE IF HE GOT ONE.' #(and dont get me started on vivaldi's winter. man do i associate thawne with that strongly. including the 3rd part at a fast enough tempo!) #anyway [2]. the one who spots the most references wins an imaginary medal. i put a literal fucking quiz in there lmao #you actually have to be certified insane (and i _mean_ it) to recognize at least some ig but still

[tennis-kittens]

2023 Men Doubles Pan-American Champion 🥹♥️

#he's soooooo cuuuuuute help 😭😭😭♥️ #i mean LOOK AT HIM #he literally just got a fucking gold medal around is neck and choose to go 'naaaaw pinguin plushyyyyy' I'M NOT WELL #my 6ft5 kitten #so proud of my boi 🥹♥️ #I don't want a lot for Christmas i just want Demo to be happy #Marcelo Demoliner

[egg-emperor]

something I'll always take pride in is how I wanted to fuck Eggman WAY before it was cool lol. like it's commonly a funny cool thing for the fandom to do now in recent years apparently but I remember when I was one of the only people I knew who even liked Eggman in any way at all in general and I could hardly find any fans or fan stuff, let alone anyone agreeing that he's attractive. I've been with him through it all and will remain after the trend dies down XD

#I was in love with him years before both Boom and the movie #and yes I do want a medal for that lol #fat Eggman 🥰💜💕💓💗💓💖 #CLASSIC AND MODERN EGG FOR FUCKING EVER BABY #and so many didn't catch on til skinny versions existed or versions that are nice like Boom or they think are nice like Frontiers :P #but I love him for the diabolical bastard he is too 💘 #dr. eggman #dr eggman #eggman #dr robotnik #my post #self ship #self shipping