#i speak from the coffin

[zarvasace]

I've been doing my hair in full, tight ponytails more often thanks to a new-ish custodial job, and recently discovered that the practice broke some of my hair around my face into wispy pusedo-bangs. I resolved to do more braids instead and complained about it to my sister.

"Well," she said, "that's just a Long Hair Experience (TM)." (I'm paraphrasing, she doesn't speak like a meme.) At the time, I replied with "yeah, I guess" but after thinking about it, I think I would say something different.

I do a lot of things every day: fail to get out of bed on time, get dressed, figure out how to do my makeup for maximum impact and minimum fuss, make food, buy food, decide what to spend my time on... A lot. I don't call myself very busy, but I do fill my days with things I consider fairly important.

A message I hear over and over again is that what I do is "enough." As a visual artist, I recently got into a conversation with another artist about how I posted something they found very good and I'm not allowed to talk about how I don't think I'm very good anymore. I think there's truth in sentiments like that—what is "enough," anyway? You do need to be happy with your work. You need to enjoy what you do.

Still, that conversation left a bad taste in my mouth. I like what I make, but I want to be better. What I do might be fine. I can be satisfied with that, and not just in art, but I also... don't have to be.

I choose to be satisfied in a lot of things. I don't really work to improve my music skills because I can do what I want with what I have. I don't look up videos about how to be a better driver or a better cook. I don't worry about the zipper of my combat boots rubbing into my long socks, because I decided to not stress about it. I do consciously try to improve my art and writing skills, though, because I'm not satisfied with where they are.

In the same way, I'm always finding little things in my life to do more efficiently or with more precision. I changed my handwriting because I didn't like it. I decided to pronounce my Ss a little differently. I'm currently making an effort to wear more tights because I like them.

People often tell me that I (or my work or whatever) am enough, and I only disagree because "enough" is a flawed concept. In the spirit of the encouragement, I do agree. I can be happy where I am, with the skills and habits I have. But, like I said, I don't have to be. If I don't like something I do, I can change it. I don't have to settle for any reason.

I guess the point is: you can do just as much as you want. Happy with your stick figures? I'm glad! You go! Unhappy with them (as everyone tells me they are when they see a drawing of mine they're impressed with)? You can learn to do better, if you want to!

In my case, I don't like the little wispy bangs. Sure, it's a Long Hair Hazard, but I don't have to be satisfied with that. I don't like them, I can do something different. It doesn't have to be dramatic. I like my life overall—at least the things I can control—and I'm pretty sure it's because I've made a lot of little decisions to improve it in ways I care about. I think I've figured out that I can control a lot about my daily life, and I'm happier because of it. :) I'm going to keep doing more braids in my hair.

TL;DR: You get to decide how good you are at something. You can keep improving or stop where you are, and either is valid. You get to decide what's important to you. Don't listen to haters.

#i speak from the coffin #sorry ive been having a lot of thoughts #long post #sorry if this doesnt make sense i still feel half asleep #inspired by someone telling me i could be so much better at the organ if only... #and that person teling me im not allowed to complain that i dont feel like a good ejoigh artist because they liked my art

[damp-gravelove]

Ough, thinking about how Andrew would react to dressing up. Because on one hand, it feels like he wouldn’t be particularly swayed by fancy dresses and lingerie (we know they both don’t like lingerie, but I could easily see Ashley putting a set of it on once just to screw with him).

But on the other hand, with the vision, we don’t get any hint of him having desires for her being in any dressing; the vision explicitly showing the collar on Ashley’s neck means that imo he explicitly enjoys her in her casual wear, because she’s still the idea of his Ashley when she is. But he’s more than willing to undress her, willing to undress his Ashley. Willing to bite, willing to indulge in, willing to ravage his Ashley. Not anybody else’s, only His Ashley.

In short:

🩶

#grub speaks #this isn’t a peak post but my brain’s fried today #I can only think of these two so much before I short circuit from thinking about the things they’d do okay 🥺 #the coffin of andy and leyley #tcoaal #andrew x ashley #ashley graves #gravecest #andrew graves #ashley x andrew #coffincest

[ranminfan]

A blushing mess

#some more human Kevin for ya not that you asked #I'm just liking him a lot #Instead of minionese he's speaking in French since Pierre Coffin is #without the context of minions I like this character design #this is me taking a break from school #good gods first week and I'm already loaded with work #my art #quick sketch #minions #human minions #Kevin #despicable me

[jestiamy]

I've been playing around with a 'can only communicate through song*' yuu AU but I didn't really see a reason to post anything until I realized. oh my god commercial jingles count. yuu, looking at a fish and almost-subconsciously stating: the snack that smiles back, goldfish! and then just. immediately crashing into the floor disorientated because. of course. the one the one thing they've said in this past month in a full sentence that wasn't incredibly choppy and only vaguely resembled a tune was the fucking goldfish commercial. very fitting. that's just their life at this point, honestly.

#*not like. “i can say what I want but it needs to be carried with a tune” type of song-only speech #I mean full on. radio. have to piece lyrics together from pre-existing songs type #I have no idea how this happened and yuu doesn't either. #they just woke up in a coffin and found that if they aren't actively speaking in mitski lyrics no one can understand a word they say #(said mitski for the example. yuu can theoretically sing whatever they want as long as it already exists) #altered universes and the fallout #twst #twisted wonderland #twst au #twisted wonderland au #I actually wanted to write a fic with them but. honestly this au just came up because I use song pieces for vocal stims a lot #and I saw a lot of yuu aus and I was like. wow wouldn't it be fucked up if yuu could only talk in song. wouldn't it be. #saying stuff #tired tumblr posts

[daffenger]

Thinking about the cages/caged motif in amc's iwtv u_u Louis trying to feed Claudia with broken-winged birds in ep. 5, and Claudia bringing him birds and rats in cages in ep. 6 (and a goat kid). The way they say they dressed Lestat in costumes that made him look confined (and the billowy black shirt he wears when he reveals his monstrosity). When Lestat looks out through a window to Antoinette, and when Louis chases her out of her own home and she stands outside by the window. The scene where the newly-transformed Louis tries to leave the Rue Royale street ("this is your home now, Louis") and the sun burns him through a fenced gate in ep. 2. The tall windows in the present-day penthouse that look like the bars of Louis' cage. The way Lestat surrounds Louis with the circle of his arms the first time he drinks from him in ep.1 (and the way he struggles to free a hand from Louis' grasp). The way Lestat tries to scare Louis from leaving with what could happen to Claudia in ep.5, and the way he justifies dragging Claudia back home with the fear of what could happen to Louis without her in ep.6. The way he breaks open the lock to the dog's cage and then sends it back inside when it's done licking his hand clean. The way Lestat says "I send my love to you, and you send it back round to me," as in a closed circuit, a circulatory system... "His love is a small box he keeps you in" you're so right Claudia...

#amc iwtv #iwtv* #must be forgetting so much stuff... the way ep.6 goes from louis throwing out lestat's coffin to them both sleeping in louis'... the way #ep. 6 is louis making himself smaller and smaller and smaller (i can barely speak french and english so wjat :.0) #*txt #louis de pointe du lac #lestat de lioncourt #the vampire claudia #OH and the way they keep repeating each other's words back #even the dialogue is claustrophobic in a way (compliment) #i made you and your purpose in life is to enjoy yourself #enjoy yourselves that's the purpose of life #i don't want to kill humans anymore there it is #i need a little... variety. Now i said it. #restraint cropping up again and again #& enduring in ep.6 #AND the shot of Dubai in the first ep that has it looking like a spider web (a cage predator if there ever was one)

[stararise]

the more i think about herlock's plan to protect kazuma the more holes it has. which is probably because he made it up on the fly, but, like, what was his plan if kazuma woke up sooner than *checks notes* (less than) 48 hours after getting bonked on the head (and also didn't lose his memory lol). like if he woke up early the whole scheme is fucked because he could have just said "uh no i'm not going home?". and even if he still got amnesia the only reason he got lost in the first place was because he wandered off. but if at any point he'd heard that the ship was heading to london, well

(presumably herlock would have come up with another ridiculous scheme which. i think would be very funny)

#star says #ace attorney #the great ace attorney #dgs spoilers #herlock sholmes #kazuma asogi #herlock when kazuma wakes up in a fucking coffin and immediately demands to speak to the manager (hosonaga): #damn i should have locked that door #LIKE? HE JUST LEFT? THE DOOR? WAS UNLOCKED??? #(there was most likely no one inside since kazuma got out so easily so it can't have locked from the inside) #ANYONE COULD HAVE COME IN AND NOTICED HEY THIS DEAD GUY'S NOT DEAD #au where ryuunosuke and susato go visit the body to pay their respects right after dinner and kazuma sneezes on the pepper or some shit #ik herlock says that manipulating ryuunosuke into lawyerhood was a way of guaranteeing kazuma couldn't actually go #but. i think if kazuma was present on the ship no one would be able to argue that perhaps the actual lawyer chosen is a better candidate #than ryuunosuke who at this point is Just Some Guy #this is not to rag on the game btw i think it's very funny <3

[cloudsrust]

"I'll be your mirror" by Velvet Underground in Crowley's playlist -> I'm dead, discorporated, gone, reduced to a million of weeping atoms I'm-

Also the idea of Crowley diving into his Bentley after the "naked man friend" moment and just blasting Queen's "I'm in love with my car" to """get back""" at Azira while screaming inside (&outside) <- Real.

#the cloud can speak oh boi #Good Omens #<- gonna start tagging so others can mute if I become even more insufferable (it will happen <3) #Was I expecting either I'll Be Your Mirror or Pale Blue Eyes for his playlist? Yeah. Was I hoping for After Hours to be there also? y ea h; #Lowkey glad Old Fashioned Loverboy isnt on there because that could've actually been the final nail in my coffin after what we got lately a #TAKE ME TO CHURCH THOUGH EXCUSE ME- #did AO3's spectre posses the one managing the GO PV account??? UHH??? #Would've expected Unknown or From Eden more but my god they just went DIRECT WITH IT #CROWLEY DARLING YOU GONNA BURN STOP- #Am I really unwell over a playlist? Oh my god what is GO doing to me- #also the other songs I uhhh- still gotta listen to them 👉👈 I'm not as cultured I'm afraid A- #Now I shall go culture myself in music whoop-

[creative-shine]

as I go through Kuro theres SO many parallels to the girl from the other side. the last book covers for each series? a father figure whos been transformed/cursed and his adoptive daughter whos also cursed? SHIVA AND KURO CALLING THEIR RESPECTIVE ADOPTIVE FATHERS TEACHER? found family? both kuro AND shiva have blackness speading on their body with the risk of consuming them entirely?

#go read shoulder a coffin kuro i am holding you hostage #shine speaks #the girl from the other side

[earl-grey-love]

I'm extremely sad I didn't get his bday UR tbh. But I have 2 weeks to keep trying, so I haven't given up yet (I hope I get it).

*1st tag was supposed to say yesterday

#today was big bad for me cus my husband went home and I slept like 5hrs at most and nothing went right for me #so missing out on the card I worked hard for was like final nail in the coffin lol #but I have my plan of action now #there's no giving up until the end #I made a joke w my husband that rn I am like Undy-ne from Undert. when you try to kill her in the bad route #not going down that easily without a fight 💪 #sunny speaks #ship: anything for you dear #tw vent

[zarvasace]

(I'm not part of the main discord server or anything but I've been toying with the idea of organizing an LU digital zine of some kind. It wouldn't be in-progress for a few months to a year, but like would that be a thing people would be interested in? A sort of collection of stories and crafts and art?)

#i speak from the coffin #consider the parentheses a whisper #an unobtrusive question #i have stuff in the fs pipeline that im looking forward to #but i love organizing stuff like this itd be fun

[damp-gravelove]

Helloo I don't expect u to respond but I gotta ask, Your head cannons for Ashley and Andrew or so spot on and in character so it just makes me wonder if u actually worked on writing the characters for the game!

I mean. I wish! It’s an honor you think that!!! But no, I’m not a writer or anything for the game, just a fan! I’d be bragging to hell and back if I was chosen to write for it! I just know how the two have acted in game and I do my best to emulate how I think they’d react! Of course with my own little HC spins :3

#I do sometimes worry my HCs may get in the way of accuracy to character #but if nothing else this puts that to rest! #surprised to get this kinda ask from a blank blog tho #regardless thank you and I’m glad you like my stuff!!!! #grub speaks #the coffin of andy and leyley #tcoaal #gravecest #coffincest #shipcest #ashley graves #andrew graves #andrew x ashley #ashley x andrew #grub answers #proship

[guideaus]

mty needs another moment where ashaf describes guideau as beautiful as he's abt to annihilate someone

#personal #mty #guideau's mask/collar is such a funny design to me. looks like a horror movie psycho serial killer #guideau out of the coffin's first appearance where ashaf's introducing him and he's complimenting him #i also like ch 50 bc its the first time u see asahf away from guideau and speaking abt him and he disagrees w using him as a tool #his motivations are heavily hidden but if hes declaring hes gonna teach her love and not let someone else take advantage of her #its hard to doubt him. tho i imagine smth tragic might happen #anywayss i need an ashaf complimenting guideau compilation

[ladynicte]

Love the idea that Ashely cares so genuinely little about the girl she and Andrew killed that she doesn't even remember her name and that's why it's not mentioned in-game

#like meta speaking im pretty sure its just because mr Creator didn't want to give personality to a plot device #which is the smart thing to do in these cases but speaking from an in universe perspective i think its really cool #the coffin of andy and leyley #ashley #andrew #luna says

[honeybabymp3]

hits different doesn’t sound like speak now the closest song are sweeter than fiction and cruel summer but it’s still. a reminder that there’s still hope (the speak now vault tracks)

#like this album is fun but it’s really like.. hard not to think that it might be the final nail in the coffin #in terms of ‘the direction she’s interested in following sonically is not what I want from her’ #but at least there are the speak now vault tracks

[leatherbookmark]

no no but like. what do we think happened with jgy’s body in cql specifically

#shrimp thoughts #there is a fic that breaks my hear into a million of pieces that deals with A Version of the cql ending! it's remains by welcome_equivocator #and it kills the man #but that aside!! like. what. does he still get a burial/memorial tablet in jinlintai when he's everyone's most beloathed villain? #(isn't it fun that both jc and jl have had to/will have to pretend to suffer less after the loss of someone who technically Yes did all #those things but also WAS FAMILY. isn't it fun that jl's position in most likely unstable as fuck and that possibly speaking too well of jgy #could even damage his reputation/put him in danger of being considered someone who would follow his uncle's steps ISN'T IT JUST NEAT) #or. what. personally i made this post because i thought about jgy's body at the back of the temple and the body of his mother stolen and #destroyed from the back of the temple and had to mentally sit down #in my fic (based kindasorta on cql) nmj gets moved back to qinghe for a sect leader's burial and jgy replaces his mom in the coffin #in a move that left many less satisfied than they'd like to be AND ALSO FOR THE AESTHETIC AND THE FIC TO BE POSSIBLE #because ngl cql is a hundred times better of an ending for jgy than the actual novel where. i mean. nmj strongest fierce corpse etc #and where i just think that if they were like 'oops wait i forgot my phone' and opened the coffin an hour later... SIGHS HEAVILY :'/ #but. what happened Actually? i don't know. and i kind of do like it left unsaid as if gives us space to fill out #(just like. the space of lxc's absence...) but also. oh god. what happened. What Happened #(utter chaos in the tags.)

[frankensteindotpdf]

just bought a monster high doll...... the absolute BLISS. i am feeling.

#i speak #i fucking LOVE THEM!!!!! #I GOT FRANKIEEEEEEEE #THEYRE SO FUCKING COOOOOOL #im gonna be good boy and not open it until im done all my homework #but im so so hyped #i have a draculaura i got from a thrift store a couple years ago #but ive wanted a frankie since i was like. 12 #i was very close to getting a g3 draculaura as well dfhjksg #but!!!! frankie was there hiding behind a cleo #i like. screamed. sdfgdjkshgfdghdskg #so so so so hyped. #they also had coffin bean frankie and deuce. incredibly cute slay of a fit. #unfortunately not a huge fan of deuce's redesign #so i couldnt in good conscious purchase #evern tho it was on sale #also all the skulltimate secrets dolls were on sale #but they only had clawdeen #i fucking love draculaura and lagoonas fits for that one so i mighta got em if they had em #but oh well!!!!!! incredibly happy #now to do my homework.