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sunflowerseraph · 3 years

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HEEHEE! hits u back with the character game uhh thor or bucky :33

!!! I'll do... BOTH >:D ! It'll be long tho so I'm putting em under cuts :}

Here's the ask game btw!

Thor!

How I feel about this character: OH he's such a bi disaster. But he's trying his best. Textbook himbo. Crushed under the weight of his father's expectations of him alot of the time. Probably struggles with self worth nowadays too,with the battles and family he's lost! Also he's very much like those memes abt dudes/dads where they'll mention some horrible childhood trauma and then have some funny song playing in their head like nothin even happened.! I feel like he cares very deeply for the friendships he's made and the found family he's gained with the warriors three [rip] and the avengers! Overall? Kind himbo who respects women and forgets how smart he is sometimes.

All the people I ship romantically with this character: honestly this is such a hard question cause im sure if u presented me with like,good reasons for most people then I'd be on board. But so far one of my Main ships for Thor rn is Bruce and Thor <3 GammaHammer makes me happy :} I've seen thor n valkyrie stuff too which is like aight they're all bi4bi t4t prolly,but honestly a polycule or some shit w Bruce Val and thor would be Inch resting :} I'm not sure tho! Oh and Jane Foster I Guess but she's not rlly up there.

My non-romantic OTP for this character: OH absolutely thor and loki ! Brothers 🤍 I rewatch the thor movies the other day and seeing them fight together and hang out as kids made me so 🥺❗ yknow? I also think Thor n Darcy are a fun pair! Thor and the warriors three make me :} as well bc they're all buddies! That's his little family yknow!! Or. Was.

My unpopular opinion about this character: listen i know I just called him a himbo but he's smarter than people give him credit for I think. But also he's pretty cocky at times with his fighting ability and I feel like that's his greatest downfall. He tends to sorta think he can do everything on his own,and he doesn't rely on others until he really needs to and it ends up w him or his companions hurt :(

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon.: ough I wish we could've gotten more time to see him experiencing earth stuff! In other like shows n such (like one of the animated series) its funny to see him interacting with mortals and I feel like we don't get that enough. Like sure we got the "another!" Scene and if you watched the YouTube mocumentary he obviously doesn't understand money or jobs. But it's still funny and I'd like to see him go "I don't understand what that means :D" like an optimistic puppy yknow :]

Uhmm yeh that's for thor! OK Bucky time 🤍

Bucky-

How I feel about this character: I feel like. They should do more w him in the mcu! But that's just bc im a kinnie ig but it makes me sad that he's just viewed as Steve's Sidekick when he's got a personality and works so well as Sam's partner in TFAWTS! I like the representation he can bring to the table though,regarding disability (I mean even though. He's an enhanced person but yknow.) And mental health! He also shows that your past doesn't need to define you and you CAN be free and work past old mistakes.! I feel like he's a little out of touch sometimes bc of the time shifts and mental stuff goin on,but I'm not saying it's a bad thing,its just compelling to meeee

All the people I ship romantically with this character: I USED to ship stevebucky I won't lie,but I much rather prefer SamBucky bc its just better LMAO Sam is much cooler than Steve in many regards and to me Sam is a better influence on Buckys life ig? Like. Idk how to explain it well enough but their banter is better and they compliment eachother rather than one of them taking the reigns all the time. I just like the level playing field where it still feels like Bucky can be a Sidekick but his partner at the same time rather than Just Bucky Barnes. Idk if that makes sense but !

My non-romantic OTP for this character: honestly I'm not sure? I feel like if they could both get over association's with like...almost killing eachother Bucky and Nat could be friends :] both were molded to be Weapons and have to deal with their traumas and mental health. Obviously I also wish Steve would've stuck around bc I hate that he like.LEFT his best friend and new family,but whatever.

My unpopular opinion about this character: I think bucky is sort of a dork actually. Alot of people make him very stoic and Winter Soldiery but that's. Not all he is! He's a complex person who's been used and weaponized and its annoying whenever people try to say he's a stoic person or whatever. Like no bro ur thinking abt the winter soldier. Ofc the winter solider was/is part of him and that doesn't just shut off but I think it's bs to boil him down to Killing Machine Assasinator Ooo Scary! When he was also a soldier during. Fucking Ww2! He was also like shown to be a bit of a dorky guy who liked to dance and be with chick's n shit lmao,like he mustve been a charmer. And even after,like during tfatws he's shown to still have bits of that personality. He messes around with Sam's nephews and offers help without prompting and just overall wants to live a more peaceful life while still managing to be social and humorous. ("How old are you anyways?" "106.") Anyways I think what I'm saying is ppl tend to forget to split him and tws.!

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon.: this is sort of similar to the Thor thing but discovering new age shit! Like I wanna see him be bad at tech or be confused by new slang. Also wanna see him like, get annoyed at how the tech is where he's at vs. The wakandan tech. That shit probably blew his socks off and then he had to go hang w Americans and went :(?? How do i use a flip phone. The beads were so convenient in Wakanda HFNEBDB. I also wish we could've actually seen how bucky Healed in Wakanda?? Like however he was helped yknow? I'm sure they (mcu) can't like do much besides say he was Magically Cured Of Mental Illness so I guess I'm glad they left it up to whatever but. Still 😔

Anyways uhm yeah! Sorry this is so long sjdjf it prolly doesn't make much sense but 👍❤

#thank u for ur ask ricky :}#now i wanna take a nap before work bc ive been up since 6 :(#ask game.answered #thor #bucky barnes #mcu #marvel #ill answer the other ones soon ooo im just sleepy rn

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mamallama1029 · 4 years

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a letter to my ex:

I miss u. and idk if ull ever think to get back on here.. but I've unblocked u & refollowed u. I've liked some of ur posts & I've contemplated just straight up messaging u. but ik I can't.. ur not good for me. and it's prolly a good thing that ur not reaching out to me... yea. I absolutely love that instead ur calling me leftovers on my friends insta posts. things like that remind me why we split. how toxic u were. so many memories flood back to me day in & day out. it overwhelms my brain, and theyre so strong I literally. LITERALLY. see it in front of me like im reliving it again... it's like ur still here...

as cheesy of a movie twilight is I personally loved it & still enjoy it. if anyone reading this familiar with the second movie u'll understand my reference. (if u even care to read this far lol) my life recently.. well ig more so over the past couple months, I've been feeling like Bella when Edward leaves & she sits in the same spot depressed as shit for like 5 months? I've been just reliving things in my head. getting high 24/7 to deal w it. I was drinking A L O T & I still drink an unhealthy amount but I definitely cut back since I started smoking heavy like I used to. I feel like I'm fucking floating. like I don't actually exist & that everything I had with u (Jay -shifting pov again lol) was just a dream. that everything before u was a dream. that the life I'm currently living is a fucking dream. I mean. pretty much all of ur old friends have reached out to me wanting to be friends after u either cut em off or insulted em, and do u know how weird it feels to hang out w them without u??? granted I do it anyways bc I love them and they have all been great friends to me. but like I hung out w M for the first time since whenever it was while we were together the other day && being in the room.. when she walked out and I was alone I looked up half expecting to see u sitting there waiting for me to jump over and kiss u or talk or sum. but u weren't. u weren't there. & u won't be. and it fucking sucks that it had to be this way. yesterday I was chillin w lil man & he goes "where's bri" & I said I'm right here silly & then he says "wheres J*****" & my heart fucking stopped. like I been waiting for him to ask about u but that hit me so different yo. I started tearing up... I fucking miss u. I miss my person. I miss having u by my side. I miss the u that loved me. the u I had before u let all the bullshit get to u. I miss the u I had before I fucked shit up. I miss us.

at the same time I hate u for what u did to me. I'm so fucked up bc of u. PTSD. severe (so worse than before) social & regular anxiety. I was already a depressed pos but it ofc got worse. I'm fucking traumatized from what u did. in every way possible. physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually. u damaged, broke. every single part of me. and im trying to pick up the pieces the best I can but fuck.

do u realize how hard it was for me to leave when I was still so in love with u? even tho u put me thru absolute hell by that point and yea I was extremely numb, but that didn't change how I felt. how I still feel... I mean, do u know how hard it is to stay gone? to not even reach out to u for a night? just one conversation. I think about it every day. I check this app hoping u've said something to me. that u noticed my attempts to lowkey get ur attention. hoping that u care. & ik u haven't changed. but just a message... just seeing what u have to say RN & how ur perspective has changed if any at all.. idk.. maybe it would help?? or maybe I'm just delusional. I mean. I know I'd wanna keep talking to u. I know I'd fall back into the hole. idk what the fuck I want.

I wanna be held. I wanna be cuddled. by someone who truly loves me. I sleep alone every night and I cling to my fucking blanket and pillow squeezing them as tho the harder I squeeze the more likely they'll turn into u. my heart fucking hurts at even the slightest thought of u. but ofc I've almost perfected my fake happy face. my oh no I'm healing fine from the J situation, don't worry! face. I don't cry like I used to. I zone out a lot. I dissociate more than I live in reality. I can't handle any kind of hook up, fwb, relationship, anything of the sort RN. all I see is u. it's been 7 months and I still see fucking u. I honestly bet u love watching me not be able to get u off my mind but its so brutal. ur my fucking herion. I'm so addicted but ur so bad for me. and it's killing me. im hurting worse than I ever have before. like I thought that I was done hurting when I left u but it just kept coming and coming and coming and it just doesn't stop.

in case ur wondering... I'm doing good in every aspect except mental & emotional. got a nice job making bank. got insurance starting April 1st and paid off my phone. I started buying my own flower in larger amounts & started buying concentrates finally. I missed em. I'm moving soon. getting a car and license after this whole Corona shit. I chief a pack of smooths in a day & a half - 2 days. which isn't so good but u know how it be.

well... I hope ur doing okay and that u can find ur way to permanent, genuine change. I miss u.. I love u... I'm sorry if u see this. and I'm sorry if u don't.

#sad #lettertomyex #depression #suicide #breakup #single #anxiety #bpd #angry #upset #heartbreak

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