#i need to switch off my brain

[v333rbatim]

the more i listen to strangers the more i have come to terms with my demise if i were to be cannibalised... like i think it would be my time and if it was all for love it would ultimately be worth it right?

#i need to watch bones and all #but i do not want to breakdown again #preachers daughter #ethel cain #i need to switch off my brain #but i tried to be good am i no good #no i am yearning #eww that is embarrasing #someone should sleep #hanicore

[piecanl]

Do you think Tubbo would recognize the path Bad is going down, because it's one he's already walked down on?

This self-destructive behavior coming from a broken heart?

He hasn't seen Bad at his best, before the eggs got kidnapped. He's seen him a victim to grief more than a father. It's why the blue staining Bad's being isn't out of the ordinary.

But suddenly he starts carrying flowers to remind him of the love he lost, suddenly the void calls out his name even louder and suddenly Tubbo sees himself in the older demon.

And it's scary, because suddenly he sees what he has become, how it affects others.

And for the first time of many, he sees Bad walk down a road he's paved. For the first time of many, Bad is the one repeating Tubbo's mistakes.

#the parallels between soul hunters make me SOOOOO ill you hav no idea #i needed to get this out of my brain I might've misscharactarized Bad on the way and If I have sorrayyy..... #their fascination or connection with death #their undying loyalty to those they let in their circle #the switch of their perspectives on resolving conflicts after both Purgatories #the self-sacrificial mindset when it comes to the eggs #the fact they're some of the most trusted people with the eggs #Bad is openly trusted by parents while Tubbo is silently trusted by the eggs while they're both simultaneously safe spaces for the kids #Tubbo has been there for a lot shorter than Bad which lead to him following a lot of previous islanders' including Bad's steps #but suddeny he's been trust into many tragedies and now he has his own path people may fall down in #JUST AGH #i feel like I'm going in circles #i don't know #i dont think they'd ever openly discuss their weaknesses infront of eachother #but I also don't think they'd ever outright shut off a conversation over grief they share #qsmp tubbo #qsmp badboyhalo #soul hunters #soulhunters

[omaano]

…. Just so we all know this is the stage from where I need to pull my little clone portraits together

#Wip #my art #and then I will merge my sketch and paint layers together and the messing around starts for real #but FIRST I need to figure out my colours for good #haven’t struggled with them so much in a very very long time I feel like #shadows and mid tones and secondary light source and all that aaaah #I need to switch my brain off a little between commissions #I swore I was normal about that Tem gifset didn’t I? #then I stumbled into a fic where Rex picks up the horrible habit of smoking while on leave and here I am #I know I messed up something in my sketch that I will suffer to try and fix later but even when I flip it it doesn’t look TOO bad #he looks FINE in the reference window #which I will take at this point #the sketch took me as long as the other portraits from first line to colour adjustments lol #purple is giving me hell…. it’s time I run away and live out the rest of my life as a hermit away from civilization I suppose

[esmeislewd]

Yes I'm really looking forward to my post-grad course in september but also what if you hypnotised and melted my mind into making me a soft, submissive bimbo who can't think beyond her next meal so I instantly get kicked off my course and have to give up my plans and become someones fat little bimbo pet???

#the painful duality of really enjoying academics whilst also having a dumbification kink T-T #honestly i need a switch for my brains on at school and work and off literally everywhere else~

[bog--unicorn]

life of a bog dog

I’m really starting to love December

#my pics #dog #dogblr #22 weeks #she’s really such a happy friendly little guy #and in the last couple weeks has just hit that point where dumb puppy brain switches to big kid brain #she still struggles with overstimulation hyperactivity #but she tries very hard to refocus on toys like I’ve been teaching her #she is very mouthy like most acd’s but she has been EXCELLENT at learning ‘gentle’ #now that she has at least a bit of an attention span I’m taking her out walking pretty far #both on leash and off #we live on a farm surrounded by other farms so there’s lots of space to roam #next I need to start reinforcing cues by drilling outdoors / in strange locations #need to work on stay #and then I can really get into teaching her how to herd sheep #she LOVES being around them #and honestly there’s nothing that makes me happier than being out grazing the sheep w a dog #really just having so much fun with my little bud

[sylvies-kablooie]

”what if sylki isn’t endgame” rest assured i will not go anywhere. i will blog regardless. i Will continue to make playlists and write analysis and maybe even fanfiction. canon has no effect on me. you cannot get rid of me that easily. if only it were that easy.

#as always you can ship whatever on this blog but u know where I stand on this matter #i was in the clintasha trenches in 2016 you literally cannot defeat me #as if something as simple as canon could flick off the switch of what my brain needs to think about!!! #I understand the sadness people feel over things not going the way they want and I feel it too #You just personally cannot get me to stop analyzing every inch of subtext #If i had ae i would make edits. You want edits? Find me ae!! And you can have them. #loki #loki series #loki tv show #Sylki #pro sylki #loki x sylvie #sylkie

[songsofnoble]

i've seen ep 3 of loki, now to move onto ofmd to catch up w yesterdays eps!

#loki #ofmd #npmd #i need to like...switch my nerdy prudes brain off for a bit lol #she's doing too much

[tempestclerics]

[ID from alt: A pair of purple and black socks with patches of blue visible mending on the heels and one of the toes. The second photo shows the backs of the socks, showing the blue mending in different styles on the backs of the heels. The third photo is a close up on a patch of Scotch darning. End ID]

I used these socks as kind of a sampler of different darning methods—there's a little bit of sashiko over threadbare areas, some swiss darning over actual holes, and I tried some Scotch darning for the first time on a bigger patch on one of the heels.

#scotch darning is great - i think i'm going to use it a lot more on knits especially #i think it both looks nicer on the outside and feels better on the inside #than swiss darning. and i'm just too hard on my clothes for sashiko to be very useful although i do think it's pretty #visible mending #sola stitched #sola said #sola described #big pile of mending has been a good craft to switch off w chainmail - more practical and considerably quieter #fulfills a different craft need in my brain

[trenchcoat-gecko]

I need to hyperfixate on something. I feel like i’m not hyperfixating right now

#i was hyperfixated on my book for a bit but then my brain turned the light switch off and now im just regular about it #im being too normal i need something to not be normal about

[sluttysweetgirl]

Need him to casually spread my thighs open while chatting with our friends and start fingering me right in front of them because he wanted to hear me whine in embarrassment

Need him to tell me what a slut i am for soaking his fingers with all our friends watching

Need him to offer me up to them and stroke himself to me getting filled up by all of them

#nsft concept #eve talks #bd/sm kink #bd/sm community #cnc free use #i kind of need to be used right now #just stuffed full until my brain switches off #sigh

[iamasaddie]

you know a fic was good when i’m screaming at my friend cussing the author out and crying to the point of suffocating

#that unexpected untagged angst really wasn’t welcomed today #i’m lying the angst was tagged i’m just stupid #i gotta switch to fluff istg #one more fic like this and ima blow my brains out or swear off fics forever #I JUST WANTED DIRTY DADDY KINK WHY DID U HAVE TO HURT ME LIKE THAT #i need to learn to control my emotions and stop getting so emotionally invested in fic #that’s not healthy #pls send dirty daddy kink fics i need to stop crying ffs

[queen-scribbles]

Pre-edits my sister's Christmas present is 7300 words. Considering the shortest(first) one was 1500 and the longest was 12k, this is nice middle ground. Didn't quite reach a reveal I'm v excited about(it will make her yell at me again >:3), but it might happen in the next one.

#qqueen rambles #writer stuff #wrote that in two weeks #with a couple days off to relax writing the aj/adam au thingie #bc i needed a break/muse switch to keep my brain from melting xD #NOW FOR OWAP

[panspy]

hmmmmmm.................vent post under tags...... feel free to give advice or dont¯\_(ツ)_/¯

#i think this is an autism related thing #but i genuinely feel like i wasnt made right for the world we live in #like something is just missing from me that ive never seen ppl talk about #and i know this is going to sound entitled and privileged and i KNOW i know i promise and im so lucky i can even be thinking about this but #it feels weird to have the privilege to be scared #this is specifically in regards to working #like having a job. like going to work #i feel like im missing an extremely important part of my brain or my BEING that is capable ot going through the motions of participating #in society. i never felt that switch of wanting to get a job in high school to make money for myself and get that experience #i feel like there's something i MISSED where everyone took a class on how to apply and go to interviews and write resumes and not be scared #like i NEED to be walked through every SINGLE step because i dont know HOW #and i see my peers and the literal entire world around me participating in this atmosphere and i dont know where to start #im fucking twenty three years old and ive only ever been an intern and an assistant #not even a full year of working #i cant drive and i probably wont ever because thats a whole other can of worms #and that means i have to rely on other people to even get to wherever it was i needed to go #i feel like a fucking child because im missing this knowledge that everyone else seems to have #ive tried i really have but none of it seems simple and its all so much and there arent steps to follow #i mean there ARE but its like 1) look up job 2) apply 3) interview 4) yay you're employed #and im talking about each micro step inbetween #what am i missing #and then theres the fucking demand avoidance that slaps me across the face whenever my mom brings it up to me like i KNOW youre being #supportive and encouraging and its not your fault my brain turns off and decides im full of shame bc i cant CONFRONT ANYTHING #jesus christ #manf i know u can see this maybe dont bring it up to mom i can do that on my own maybe #i WANT to help i just want to help at my own pace but unfortunately the world isnt built around individual paces and nothing revolves #around me. i know this #i want to help my mom i want her to never be stressed about money and to retire and never work or help me pay my student loans but i #genuinely feel like theres a switch that never turned on in my head and im being left behind and i genuinely dont know how to. like be alive

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

i am going to write something for today someone hold me to this

#probably going to be late but even if it takes until tomorrow that's okay #writing switches on and off in my brain sooo fast #i'm trying to create optimal conditions to get this done #changed my whole outfit for this #i know what i want to write but for whatever reason writing fiction confuses me #essays are easy peasy but fic? how do u even do that #i'm doing humiliation btw #i've had this vision for a long time i just need to articulate it

[b4kuch1n]

lol that post got super derailed off the bat (nobody’s fault but mine for being smarmy there tbh) but the point stands. before you call any creature with feathered wings I make “angel” please imagine me being very miffed about it and then do as you wish

#bakuspeech #like. I think the thing here is you're just misreading the piece if you go in looking for angel stuff #which literally doesn't matter really but I'm up in arms about it the way authors are about their worst character being fan favourite #idk man. do u know there are big birds on our copper drums #they're neat and they're cool I like them a lot #anyways. this round of comms is finally done!! #sorry to the last client in the bout for taking so damn long skjghdkj I just. I don't think I like working with a light table #or. I'd like it better if its bigger. I'd just like it better if I have more space in general probably #currently it's just like. I have to choose between my tablets and my ink. and switching is a Big hassle #I'll try to figure out something for it! #but the news for now is: I'll take the next week off comm stuff. to unclench my brain #got a Bunch of stuff I wanna take care of. before the month ends #so uh! we'll see about stuff! if ur here for the ink comms please look forward to that coming back in a week! #also I'm gonna reblog the recent stuff again. I've just been head in sketchbook/paper not giving a shit abt anything #I need to see sunlight again. man. boy

[cheekblush]

i wish i could just turn off my thoughts like a light switch

#i have a day off why can't my brain just let me relax in peace #no i have to contemplate and reevaluate my entire life & every decision i ever made #i'm laying here thinking about how i let my childhood self down how empty my life is how i went to uni in vain etc #instead of just enjoying my day off 😭😭😭 i really wish there was a turn off switch for my brain it needs to be unplugged!!! #this is a mentally ill thing right bc i feel like healthy people don't question their entire lives just bc they have a day off?? #they actually enjoy their down time & pursue hobbies or meet up with people & are productive instead of spending the whole day in bed #i was such a lively creative excited kid.. where did it all go wrong 😔 #i need to stop entertaining these thoughts but ultimately i'm unhappy with my life & it's my responsibility to change it #but i'm barely getting by i don't have the energy to uproot my entire life #and at the end of the day we still live in a capitalist society that doesn't let you thrive unless you're already rich #god.... where's the turn off switch???? 😭😭😭😭😭 #☁️