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cluster-b-culture-is · 6 months

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hey!!! if its ok i’d like you’re thoughts on something ig and to sorta ask you something

so im bodily 15 atm, and i have cptsd. when i look at posts regarding certain cluster b experiences (possibly some cluster c aswell) i relate a LOT (obviously im not saying that bc i relate that i have these disorders, i just kinda have a feeling that *something* is going on). its tricky bc i keep looking into things and i cant really find an answer. i also dont know if im too young and that its just because im a teenager.

i wont get into like what “symptoms” i experience rn bc i feel like thats a whole other conversation but yeah.

i hope i dont sound like one of those people that are like “i must have x bc i related to a silly video i saw” im just really confused and i feel like something aint right

i know you’re probably not professionals so feel free to delete or ignore this if its too much, but if not, what do you think?

So, here's the thing (and we will attempt to avoid being patronizing): It is absolutely correct that your age and emotional/psychological development can affect things, and that the process of development can cause things that look like mild symptoms. It's also correct that that combined with c-ptsd (and any other disorders you may have; you'd be surprised how many symptoms and comorbidities autism, ADHD, NPD, and BPD all share) can make it extremely hard to determine where your symptoms are coming from and whether there might be something more.

(You're also correct that we are not professionals; this is all coming from our own research and personal experiences, so as with everything, take this with a grain of salt.)

However. I would argue that it would be far more harmful to deny any possibility of having a personality disorder until you reach some arbitrary age threshold than it would be to say that you do have a PD. Especially if looking at your life experiences through the lens of having a PD is helpful, and if resources for pw/[x]PDs are helpful to you. Even if you don't end up having a PD, that doesn't mean you were just a hormonal stupid teenager refusing to listen to the Adults™ or whatever the fuck--it means that you looked at your experiences, found something that seemed similar, and it turned out that you were wrong; but hopefully, along the way, you found things that were helpful.

Under the assumption that you have done a lot of research, I would personally recommend saying that you have traits of a particular disorder as opposed to saying you have the full disorder, and that is to two ends: one, a lot of adults with PDs (especially in ASPD spaces, if that's one of the disorders you're looking at) will kick your shit to hell and back if you even insinuate that you think you may have the full disorder (which I think is extremely counterintuitive if we want teenagers to understand their experiences and, yknow, not develop a full-blown personality disorder, regardless of whether you think teenagers can have a full personality disorder); and two, it might help you target the specific symptoms that you're experiencing without saddling you with the belief[/knowledge] that you have an incredibly stigmatized and lifelong disorder.

A lot of this stuff depends on a few things: (A) what your symptoms are (and if they can be better explained by other things, especially other things you know you have); (B) how severe your symptoms are (like the difference between being generally grouchy versus being actively hostile); and (C) how long your symptoms have lasted (if they only started popping up in the past few months or the past year versus if you've had them for years and years).

If you end up not having a personality disorder, anon, I think it will still be better for you in the long run to explore the possibility instead of shrugging it off under the excuse that you're "too young". It could turn out that you never had the disorder and it really was something else, it could turn out that you have traits but not the full disorder, or, hell, it could turn out that, by using resources and support you found by being part of communities surrounding PDs, you ended up not developing the full PD (even if you may still have a few traits)--because, at this age, you are still developing, and you are changing a lot, and very little is set in stone when it comes to these types of things--and you should absolutely take advantage of that! And even then, speaking from a more selfish perspective, it will never be a bad thing for more people to understand what it may be like to have a personality disorder.

For a bit of actionable advice on determining whether or not you may have one, though:

(1) Do your research. Obviously it's great that you're getting information from people with the disorders themselves by looking at PD communities; however, not everything having to do with the disorder will be talked about, and quite honestly, Tumblr is a terrible place to find definitive information on the PDs. Life experience? Yes. Actual information looking at how the disorders work and what they can entail in full? Ehhh, not quite. Look at a variety of academic sources, but in the same vein, keep your wits about you--professionals aren't immune to ableism, and may often perpetuate it with glee. Some of it may be obvious, some of it might not be.

(2) Keep an eye on your symptoms--make a manual check against the actual criteria every once in a while (but keep in mind that the DSM is also deeply flawed and biased); @shitborderlinesdo has a ton of checklists based on the DSM and individual testimony that can help. We first started questioning ASPD when we were 14, and we'd do those kinds of manual checks once every several months or once a year or so. It both helps you understand what your symptoms are, and helps you keep track of how you're doing over time. Don't use online quizzes for this; quite honestly, they're not really good for anything except validation if you know you'll get a high score.

(3) Look at stuff other than personality disorders, too, and try to figure out why your interest skews towards specific disorders. For a long ass time, we believed we had StPD and did our absolute best to ignore any information to the contrary, because (due to our symptoms) if it wasn't StPD, the only thing it could be otherwise was schizophrenia, and we were scared shitless of the idea; at first because we were scared of the idea that our symptoms might've been so severe, but eventually because we were afraid to admit that we were wrong. (As I've said before, no shame in being wrong--do as I say, not as I do.)

Ultimately, I can't stop you from doing anything, and I can't force you to do anything either. I'm just a mentally ill guy with an internet connection. My life experiences have led me to this conclusion, and others may disagree with it--that's perfectly fine. Again, I am not a professional. You know yourself and your experiences the best, and I think by this point, you have enough understanding of yourself and the world to be able to figure out what'll be best for you and your health, given that you have the proper resources to do so. You are a being with life experience, even if it's less than others may have; you aren't a rock, and you aren't a three year old who still hasn't realized that touching the lit stove will equal a burned finger. I personally think that the way a lot of folks go about talking to and about teenagers who think they may have personality disorders is, frankly, infantilizing and invalidating, and it just ends up with traumatized and unsupported teenagers turning into traumatized and unsupported adults, with the added bonus of an extra helping of imposter syndrome to top it all off.

I hope you're doing well anon, and I hope you see this (sorry for responding so late lmao). Off into the world ye may go, hopefully with a bit more knowledge and idea of what to do next than you had before.

#not cluster b culture #Mod Reef #anonymous #unqueued #this got way longer than intended. oops

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raveneira · 5 months

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Hola amiga. Me alegra mucho saludarte y escribirte.

Cómo ya sabrás me gustan muchísimo tus análisis, me siento muy contenta cada vez que los leo, por eso estoy aquí pidiendo que nos hables sobre lo que piensas que pasará con sarada cuando descubra que sasuke está mal. Y también que nos hables de lo que piensas de la última interacción que tuvo kawasara, que te pareció?

Espero no ser inoportuna. Te mando un abrazo. Gracias por tus escritos.

No no its ok you didnt do anything wrong, I dont mind answering questions lol and Im glad you like my analysis, I appreciate your positive feedback so thank you.

As for what I think Sarada might do when she discovers Sasuke is wrong [thats what google translated it as] I think you mean when she discovers he's been turned into a tree? if so then I think she'll be pretty worried but she wont blame Boruto or have any anger towards him because this writing ALWAYS has to make her just so understanding and forgiving towards him about EVERYTHING but NOT others because this manga forgot that her idol was Naruto and she literally said she wanted to be like him, someone people can rely on who she'll reach out to and save the way Naruto saved her, but again this manga done forgot that character trait unfortunately.

So what do I think is gonna happen? she'll be shocked and upset but wont blame Boruto and instead blame herself for sending her dad off with him which got him into this situation because of her selfish request, which may open the door FINALLY for some big character development because this is NOT the first time her selfishness and recklessness has resulted in somebody else getting hurt.

So maybe this might be the time for Sarada to get some long overdue character development as she finally realizes her actions, or more correctly, LACK of action has consequences, and that when she jumps in or makes requests without thinking long term about the consequences or even if its a good idea to begin with, she's gotta deal with the consequences of it which more often than not will be negative.

Boruto no longer has his eye because of her, Sasuke has been turned into a tree unconscious while a 10 tails tree clone of him is eventually gonna try and kill them all because of her, HER CHOICES caused this outcome, the only positive that came out of something she did so far was saving Boruto's life, but at what cost? she saved Boruto at the cost of her father, she 'protected' Boruto at the cost of his eye because he ended up protecting her instead, do you see the pattern here? so hopefully seeing her father as a tree finally gives her a wake up call that she NEEDS to do better going forward and actually THINK before she does things instead of just acting in the moment without any thought of how things could go wrong.

Naruto was headstrong and reckless too, but he never caused THIS type of bad shit to happen as a result of his recklessness because even HE used his brain somewhat before he acted. The worst hes done was willingly let Kurama take over to attack Orochimaru for taking Sasuke which resulted in him attacking Sakura and giving her a really bad wound, which when told he caused this what do you think he did? he never let Kurama take over like that again and vowed to rely on his own strength so he would NEVER cause harm to anyone else like that ever again.

Sarada unfortunately has not learned that lesson yet which she should've when she made Boruto lose his eye but I digress...maybe this development was saved for the timeskip so lets see if she finally gets it after seeing what happened to her dad, only time will tell.

Now onto how I feel about the KawaSara interaction this chapter...well Im gonna be brutally honest, I dont HATE it but I dont love it either and its not even because the interaction itself was bad nah I actually like their little rivalry they have right now, it adds spice and an obstacle Kawaki has to deal with but also the one person [besides Sumire] he doesnt have to watch his words with and can just be himself with. But let me get my gripes out of the way first and then I'll go into the positives.

My gripe with the interaction is Sarada's attitude and dialogue because it just makes her look both stupid and petty for no danm reason

First off shes telling them to confirm with Ada about what happened, why is she let alone ANYONE treating Ada as a reliable source when she didnt even warn them about Code's ambush? when she didnt even send Daemon out to fight him which is LITERALLY the whole reason their all even letting them stay there? lets not forget that Ada can easily just LIE about anything she wants like she did about Boruto killing Naruto, they literally have specialized ninja that they KNOW are trustworthy who actually DO work for them that they could ask to verify Sarada's story by peeking into her brain but no she chooses to reccomend asking Ada for confirmation, thats dumbass moment number 1.

Her remark about Kawaki being Otsutsuki too was just plain PETTY for no danm reason, and stupid as hell in this context because Boruto has Momo inside of him [pause] actively trying to take him over so he can kill Kawaki, make a divine tree, destroy all life on the planet to make a chakra fruit so he can eat it and become a god, SHE KNOWS THIS

Yet shes comparing that to Kawaki who doesnt have Isshiki looming over him threatening to take over at any time, he simply has his powers, and with his powers he wants to wipe out ALL OTHER OTSUTSUKI WHO ARE ACTUAL THREATS TO THE WORLD and that INCLUDES Boruto since he DOESNT HAVE CONTROL OVER MOMOSHIKI AND HE IS SHOWN SEVERAL TIMES ABLE TO TAKE OVER BORUTO WHENEVER HE WANTS UNDER THE RIGHT CONDITIONS, so her comment here was just petty, which made Kawaki's response all the more depressing.

He explains to her that he's an Otsutsuki that kills Otsutsuki and that his power only exists to do that, and once he wipes them all out he'll gladly die, but until then he will do whatever it takes, and she has ZERO reaction to this and just says she wont let him do what he wants as a shinobi who aims to be Hokage 🤦‍♀️ like everything he said literally went in one ear and out the other GIRL BYE.

He's literally calling her out on her stupidity and she doesnt even catch it, she was petty pretty much saying well if all Otsutsuki are enemies are enemies that should be killed doesnt that include you, and his response is yea it does and I fully intend to die with all the rest of em but not till I get them first, and she just...she just doesnt even hear that.

You'd think there'd atleast be a pause like 'danm I didnt mean for you to actually agree to that' but nah she just moved past that like he didnt even say it and is just like 'I wont let you do what you want' when thats literally what hes been doing for 3 years straight while she's been getting nothin but ignored 😭 seriously this writing hates her so much because who tf really thought this was good dialogue for her? this only works if she was actually DOING something to hinder Kawaki in some way, which she hasnt, so she just looks goofy and unserious.

But thats it for my gripes, now for my positives.

For starters I like how this confrontation resembles their one back in chapter 28 when they first really interacted and they became friends

I love how even though the subject their arguing about is different, the paneling is still the same, Sarada appearing behind Kawaki and calling him out for doing something wrong despite not knowing all the details, Kawaki turning around and getting in her face to tell her off, and the Hokage stopping it from before it gets ugly and they both settle down as their told.

What I like about this is that when you look at these scenes side by side you can see the development between then and now, back then Kawaki had ZERO respect for Sarada, called her an asshole and basically told her to mind her business while yelling in her face.

Now Kawaki doesnt snap at her at all, the roles are actually reversed now to where Sarada is the one being more hostile than he is. Kawaki, unlike before, doesnt just shut her down and tell her to mind her business, but he actually takes time to explain to her when he really doesnt have to. See here.

Kawaki says does he really have to say this again? meaning they have had this conversation before more than once, so he has no reason to repeat himself anymore than he already has and could easily have brushed her off without saying a thing or just simply told her to shut up and butt out but he didnt.

Instead he takes time to not only repeat himself, but breaks down in detail EXACTLY what his motivations are, why hes doing this, and that he fully intends to die for all he's done by the end of this. Just like before, he gets in her face, but its nowhere near as aggressive as in 28 where he was actually being intimidating, but here he's relaxed, talking calm, and looking her in the eye, and responding to what she said, rather than ignoring it completely and just yelling at her to shut up.

Why is that significant? because his last line really hits home when you realize the subtext and see how meaningful it is.

Think about this for a second, for 3 years now everyone has been brainwashed into thinking he's Boruto, have been treating him like Boruto, have remembered him as Boruto, have been looking at him, talking to him, loving/respecting him AS BORUTO.

Sarada is the ONLY person [lets leave Sumire out of this cuz we havent seen them interact yet] who treats Kawaki AS Kawaki, the only one who when she's talking to him she's talking to KAWAKI, when shes thinking of him shes thinking of KAWAKI, when she looks at him she sees KAWAKI, anyway she treats him she is treating him as KAWAKI.

This may not seem significant on the surface but lemme put it into a little more perspective.

This is what Kawaki has had to deal with every, single, day, for 3 years straight since Omnipotence happened. Kawaki never WANTED or ASKED for ANY of this, but no matter how hard he tried everything just kept going more and more to shit because of him, but atleast back then he still had his own identity, but now? everyday is a whole new kind of hell he has to endure that wont go away no matter how much he rejects it.

Just before Omnipotence Kawaki said what he really felt about himself, what he saw himself as, and thats what makes this situation he's in now so hellish, because to Kawaki he's a nobody, an outsider that nobody would mourn if he died, he tells Ada to use her all seeing eye to look at him and see him for the powerless piece of garbage that he is.

This is what he thinks of himself, now lets see what he thinks of Boruto and then it'll all make sense.

Kawaki puts Boruto on a pedastal similar to Naruto but not nearly as strong obviously, but the point is, Kawaki sees Boruto as someone who NOBODY WILL BE WILLING TO KILL, as someone nobody would even CONSIDER killing regardless of the threat he poses, as the HOKAGES SON literally NOBODY would EVER turn against him, and NOBODY would ever even think of killing him knowing the consequences of nobody ever forgiving them for it.

Keywords to pay attention to here

He's the Hokage's son! Lord 7ths son!

Who in Konoha could kill him? the Hokages son?

An act that would turn all your friends into foes! who'd ever agree to take on such a task?

Why'd it have to be him!?

Kawaki emphasizes Boruto being 'The Hokage's son' several times, but I want you to pay attention to how he says 'Lord 7ths son' as well, remember chapter 60? Naruto officially claims Kawaki as his son, even if not on paper, Kawaki was just as much his son as Boruto now.

But look at how Kawaki percieves it, HE doesnt see himself as Naruto's son at all and sadly Naruto didnt do a good job convincing him, because when he mercy killed Boruto BY HIS REQUEST Naruto did NOT stand by him and kept his distance, acting awkward around him, and even sounding forced when he tried to give the 'everyone is family to the Hokage' speech which alone right there showed the distance between them now, because in chapter 60 Kawaki was his son, in 69 he's the same as any other villager and believe me, Kawaki felt that and thats why none of his attempts at reassuring him worked because he knew it wasnt entirely genuine and that he indeed held some resentment towards Kawaki for what he did, that Kawaki clearly was nowhere near the same importance as Boruto and that in the end Naruto would turn his back on Kawaki before he ever would Boruto no matter WHAT hes done or will do.

Am I dragging Naruto? no, obviously his bond with his biological son will be stronger than the one with his adopted one hes only known less than a year. But I will say when has that ever stopped Naruto before? he only really bonded with Iruka for a year before the timeskip and he viewed him like a father, he only interacted and bonded with Sasuke for a year and he considered him a brother he was willing to go to hell and back for, he knew Gaara for less than a year and he was IN TEARS when he heard the Akatsuki had attacked and killed him and nearly beat Deidara to death so bad Kakashi had to use the seal to calm him down before he went full Kurama mode.

So keep in mind while I do understand where Naruto is coming from as a parent, I still have to point out the inconsistency with his character because blood ties have NEVER mattered to him but it was always the BONDS he felt with the people themselves, whether short lived or long, Naruto always clung to those bonds WITH HIS LIFE and he instills this very message into Sarada in Gaiden, yes, the same Naruto in the sequel now, not past young Naruto like people try to argue saying 'he grew up' cuz no, this is grown parent of two kids Naruto preaching the EXACT SAME MINDSET.

So yeah, Im calling out the inconsistency with his character in the sequel because THIS IS HOW KISHIMOTO WROTE HIM EVEN IN THE PRESENT ERA its literally what the entire plotline of Gaiden was about, learning to value and treasure your bonds regardless of blood ties. Naruto literally grew up without NO family do he literally had to FIND and MAKE one for himself, and hes never done any more or less for his blood fam than he did for his found family.

But unfortunately thats no longer the case in Boruto so lets get back to that.

So you see the point? Naruto, atleast in the sequel is a total liar, he promised to keep Kawaki safe, he made him feel like this was his home, told him that they all see him as family now, he called him his son, everybody was telling him that this is his home now no matter what anyone says his place is in Konoha and Kawaki was almost starting to believe it.

But when Naruto's biological son was killed by Kawaki at his request everything changed, nobody was on his side, nobody visited him even though they didnt even know the truth of what happened yet, Naruto wasnt looking at him with sincerity anymore and his words were scripted word for word just what he always says to everybody, but not anything personal from the heart like he usually does. Yes their conversation was interupted, but he never made any attempt to continue it either and simply left Kawaki to sit with his half hearted 'forgiveness' anyone who knows Naruto knew it wasnt sincere.

So where am I going with this? that was the turning point, that is when Kawaki realized and accepted that he was completely and utterly alone and felt isolated from everyone else.

This is why he says what he does to Ada and why his words hit so hard because they let you see just how utterly ALONE and REJECTED he actually feels. He doesnt feel like hes a part of Konoha, he doesnt feel like Narutos son, he doesnt feel like anyone would care if he died, its literally PROVEN right then and there how easy it was for them to put a kill order out on him without hesitation just for THINKING he did something to Naruto and ATTEMPTING to kill Boruto but none of these people gave a DANM when Boruto stabbed Sasuke's eye out, tried to kill Kawaki twice, tried to kill Naruto, oh and ironically tried to get Shikamaru killed too, the same guy who put a kill order out on Kawaki didnt push for any kind of punishment on Boruto.

'But that was Momoshiki' so what? who's body is he in? who's body did he use to commit all those horrible acts? when Gaara kept failing to be able to control the one tails his dad tried to have him killed before he'd end up destroying the village [no I am not defending Rasa fk that guy Im just pointing out the principle] if somebody is a danger to the village, even if its of no fault of their own, IF THEY ARE A THREAT TO THE VILLAGE then they have to be eliminated, so the it was Momoshiki excuse doesnt fly because regardless they have NO way of controling Momoshiki and preventing him from coming out, nor do they have a concrete way of forcing him back once hes taken over unless under very specific circumstances which even then if he feels like thats gonna happen he can dip to another dimension through his karma and they'll have a hell of a hard time finding him if he does.

Bottom line? Kawaki saw that for him he was disposable, he was a nobody, someone they didnt care if he died and would kill easily without hesitation and NOBODY would complain, but Boruto? let me repeat Kawaki's words.

He's the Hokage's son! Lord 7ths son!

Who in Konoha could kill him? the Hokages son?

An act that would turn all your friends into foes! who'd ever agree to take on such a task?

Why'd it have to be him!?

Do I need to say more? Boruto is the Hokage's son, Naruto's son, NOBODY in Konoha would ever dream of killing him, because killing Boruto would turn literally everyone against them regardless of what harm he's caused and what threat he poses for the future, they will be hated for it BECAUSE HE IS THE HOKAGE'S SON.

And because Kawaki is the only one strong enough to do it and accept all the consequences that comes with it, he's the one suffering that exact fate, but whats saddest about all this...is that everything he thought about himself was proven right, every awful thing he thought about himself was proven 100% right.

So what does that have to do with his and Sarada's convo there? well I needed to break down all of what happened beforehand so I could say how much it probably means to Kawaki that Sarada isnt affected.

The reason I needed to point all that out was to make sense of why being treated like Boruto by everyone is so hellish, because he KNOWS how they really feel about him, they say it to him constantly.

Mitsuki is always following Kawaki around full of bloodlust that Kawaki says is suffocating and Mitsuki keeps saying how he wont forgive and definitely will kill Boruto for what he did

You have 2 random Jonin he's working with protecting the village just casually talking about how good it would be if Boruto and Code took eachother out

Then you have Hima calling him big brother the way she would Boruto which only irritates him more because he knows that affection isnt for him which is why he rejects it so harshly

So imagine how relieving it must be for Kawaki to have someone that he doesnt have to listen wish him dead to his face without even knowing it, someone not full of bloodlust wanting his head on a stake, someone not calling out to him affectionately because they think he's someone he isnt, and most of all...someone that he knows without a doubt that whatever she says or does for him, is for HIM.

So quite frankly her hostility contrary to popular belief actually doesnt even bother him, he welcomes it because he feels its what he deserves and more than that because its the only genuine thoughts and feelings aimed at him, unfortunately we dont have enough chapters yet to see the full scope of how this has gotten to him but I imagine 3 years of being seen as someone your not has to be EXHAUSTING, so even if Sarada is being hostile towards him, it probably means the world to him that shes one person who sees him for who he really is, Kawaki, not Boruto.

His words to her in that last panel is what made it clear to me that he actually doesnt mind her opposing him, he tells her point blank that he plans to die once he has wiped out all the Otsutsuki threats there are, why thats significant is because he'd never have to say this to anyone else, why? cuz they think he's Boruto so why does he need to tell them his goals as Kawaki? even if he did why would he tell them he's gonna off himself at the end of it? there'd be no reason to.

Not only that but he's said this more than once to her, implying they've bumped heads about this exact subject more than once, which again if Kawaki was annoyed by her and wanted to be left alone he would've never got into this conversation in the first place and just ignored her or told her to shut up. The fact that they've talked about this more than once says alot, because Kawaki has no reason to, once was enough, but if Kawaki is taking time out to explain the same thing over and over to her then thats more than enough proof that shes different from everyone else.

Everyone else he drowns out, ignores, or tells to stop acting or speaking to him a certain way, but Sarada? no matter how many times she confronts him about this same subject, he always takes time to explain it. You could say that was just exposition for the readers but in that case why have him say he was repeating himself? he could've just said 'Do I really have to spell it out for you?' which leads to the same exposition witn NO implications of them ever having this convo before, but the fact that they specified that he was repeating this, means they wanted the audience to know this was NOT the first time they've had this talk.

Personally, like I said we need to get more insight into Kawaki's thoughts now before I can make a accurate analysis, but personally and this is me being unbiased and basing it solely on Kawaki's character up till this point, but I feel like in his own subconscious way he enjoys Sarada's company and hostility towards him because its the one thing he knows is for him, it probably puts him at ease whenever Sarada confronts him about anything because its the only time where he can be himself now without being looked at as weird or OOC because hes not acting like Boruto, he was probably relieved when it was revealed she wasnt affected because it meant he wasnt totally alone with only Ada who he cant stand knowing the truth, but his former friend/teammate.

I imagine he felt indifference towards Sumire because she made it clear she was scared of him ever since she found out he killed Boruto, but until we get some actual interaction or thoughts from either of them we wont know for sure.

Anyway, I personally feel like Kawaki keeps repeating himself when he doesnt have to because she's the only one he can to. Unless injured or getting a check up Kawaki doesnt interact with Sumire at all, and Sumire from what we've seen so far has been keeping a low profile since she sees the situation is hopeless trying to convince people at this point, but Sarada is the complete opposite and is persistent no matter how many times she fails she is very loudly and vocally opposing Kawaki and Konoha. She says herself that she wont repeat herself too, meaning she's also said this to Kawaki more than once as well, and thats that she wont let him do what he wants as a ninja who aims to be Hokage.

These words are crucial because she's said this to Kawaki more than once about her Hokage dream, usually something that gets repeated alot in the Narutoverse by someone, especially to someone in particular, usually ends up having a really big significance in their relationship down the line. See Sasuke's 'your annoying' for example or him calling Naruto Usuratonkachi, or of course the 'because your my friend'. It doesnt matter what it is, if its something thats repeated consistently, its gonna have some big significance be it romantic or platonic, either way its gonna mean something big for those characters.

Anyway going back to Sarada, the fact that Sarada has been repeating herself too on this same issue just goes to show how adament and consistent she's been in opposing him, unlike in chapter 28 where she backed down and felt nervous when Kawaki got in her face, now she stands firm and looks him straight in the eye the same way he does her. He's not trying to intimidate her, but make her understand the situation and his perspective, and Sarada isnt trying to intimidate or threaten him either, but make him understand that she wont go along with doing things this way and wont back down no matter what, because the way Kawaki and Shikamaru is running things isnt how Naruto would've wanted, which is why she is their biggest opposers because she looked up to Naruto and wanted to do things the Naruto way.

Its no coincidence that in the very first chapter Sarada tells Shikamaru off about disagreeing with her opposition, its no coincidence that she snapped back using Naruto as her example of going against everyone to fight for what and who she believes in and tells him that the Hokage she looks up to is Naruto not him.

Then in chapter 4 she's now telling Kawaki something similar, that she wont let him do things his way as a ninja who aims to be Hokage, but not just any Hokage, but Naruto.

I dont want this to get too long so I'll sum up my final thoughts.

I believe Kawaki is relieved and subconsciously enjoys Sarada opposing him and is probably lowkey happy to not be alone in this situation with nobody he could talk to as just himself, to look at someone and be looked at and know that their looking at him, being around Sarada is probably the only time he can actually breathe without being subjected to brainwashed people treating him like someone hes not, or hearing this and that person wishing him dead, but with Sarada he can actually just speak and act as himself.

But most importantly anything she does or says to him will mean so much more to him than anyone else because from lets say Hima or Shikadai or even Inojin, if one of them were to get badly hurt or even die for him Kawaki will know its only because they thought he was Boruto and that they never would've done that if they knew it was him. But if Sarada does that, it'll have so much more weight now due to omnipotence because not only is she unaffected by it which means she did this KNOWING its for Kawaki, but the fact that even after everything hes done and how mad she is at him for it, she still put her life on the line for him or any other big gesture she'd do that'd show she cares. So when that moment happens its definitely gonna be an interesting scene, assuming Ikemoto doesnt botch it somehow...we shall see.

As for Sarada I believe in her own roundabout way she's trying to make Kawaki see that this isnt what Naruto would want, that in her own way she's trying to make him see the flaws in his logic, when she said he's and Otsutsuki too she wasnt saying that he should just off himself now or that she wanted him to die but that if all Otsutsuki are the enemy no matter what their motives are then doesnt that make him an enemy as well? regardless of his motives? and if all Otsutsuki must die simply for being Otsutsuki then shouldnt she just kill him right now? not that she could but she could try, she could say 'I will kill you someday' or some other death threat if she were actually saying he should die 100% and thats what she wanted but she doesnt.

Overall Sarada is just trying to make Kawaki see the holes in his logic, to make him see that this isnt what Naruto would've wanted, that trying to carry the weight of it all by himself isnt gonna be effective long term, especially now when something FAR BIGGER is going on that only Boruto knows about, so regardless of how he feels they are gonna have to set aside their differences and work together to deal with a far bigger threat and resolve a way bigger problem. Kawaki doesnt even argue with her about that, he listens to her and hears her out and most likely will agree to it since that will be the most efficient course of action.

Hopefully this will start to make him see that the solo route isnt the way, which if the FF isnt retconned we know it wont be, but maybe for a moment he'll see sometimes teamwork is nessecary and that he really CANT do it all alone. I believe thats the message Sarada is trying to send to him, the same one Naruto sent Sasuke, whether or not she'll be successful remains to be seen but for now I look forwards to seeing how they both develop from here and hear even more about whats been going on between them over these 3 years.

Antis think them being at odds and rivals with eachother now is somehow a negative that kills the ship when thats literally how many endgame ships interacted for a while before eventually coming together lol like ppl fr just gonna act like Jerza, Zervis, VegeBul, Taiga x Ryu, Tonari no kaibatsu-kun, Suzuka, Reimei no Arcana, and so on don't exist.

So like...I dunno, maybe ppl just aint seen alot of manga/anime or hell even media in general but regardless this really aint the ship killer antis think it is, its honestly just the beginning lol but Im never one to count chickens too early so I wont get too cocky, but antis need to start bein humble too cuz they are WAY too confident about KawaSara's downfall when things are just gettin good lol but hey more material for us to laugh at later when their once again wrong about everything they say about the ship and what'll happen etc.

I apologize for the lost post but I wanted to properly express my thoughts as best and clearly as I could but I might've over explained 😭 my apologies...but I hope you enjoyed my little breakdown regardless.

#rave responds #boruto manga #pro kawasara #anti-bsa #anti-ksu #manga spoilers

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minjiarchive · 1 year

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earned it | jiu x fem!reader

^ new title layout

warning / smut

"shit, my phone is ringing." at this hour? the sound of her annoying, repeating ringtone made her lift her head from your chest to look. her phone lightly shined at her face with the name displayed, "kim bora~" minji contemplated on answering or if she should just ignore it, but if she's calling so late at night then it must be important.

she turned to look back at you with your hands still guiding hers down between your center again – needing more. "minji... please don't sto-"

"quiet now love, i wont but listen to me," she slowly lifted herself up and reached over for her phone, while continuing her dirty act behind the screen. it's not like bora would ever know what happens when the other members aren't home.

"do not make a sound while i fuck you, understand?" minji demands, her voice is so soft yet she sounds so bossy with it. you nodded to agree with whatever she said. if you were going be honest, you didn't like it. you wanted to have the control to scream out her name as much as you'd like, and how loud as you'd like. you also didn't want to make a scene during her call, so trying to stay quiet would be fucking torture. "make one sound and i'm stopping until im done with the phone."

her fingers entered you and you already lost with a moan that slipped past your lips. catching your doing before further punishment; bringing your hand up to your mouth to hopefully muffle your moans as much as possible. "good girl." kissing you one last time and accepted the call from nosy bora. "took you long enough to answer."

"what's up sua, im in the middle of something. make it quick please." make it quick? like she could make you cum quick too. she pushed herself deeper into you, causing you to throw your head back – crashing into the pillow too. your hips rolled and grinded faster at the knuckle deep sensation. "i was just wondering if you wanted something from the store?" her pace quickened and this started to feel impossible to keep yourself quiet "...i wasn't too sure if you wanted something to eat when we get back."

"what time would you be getting back?"

"about 12:00?"

minji drew circles with her thumb on your throbbing and wanting clit to end your suffering. the time on her phone read, 11:46 PM. i could make her cum before they get back. "thank you for the offer but me and y/n are actually good. we were hungry for something... else." your breathing grew heavier under the amount of bliss that took control of you. even muffling curses that left your mouth wasn't enough to keep you quiet either. "oh okay, just let me know if you need anything! i need to go though, we're about to leave."

"okay sounds good, stay safe and i'll see you later." the last stroke of her two fingers in you tipped you to your edge and you couldn't handle it anymore. "you can cum, you earned it for being so good." minji whispered in your ear which for sure pushed you completely to your climax. your hips raised in her hands that helped you release. then her phone went back to her home screen meaning the painfully, what felt like an eternity, long phone call was over.

#dreamcatcher scenarios #dreamcatcher imagines #dreamcatcher x reader #dreamcatcher #jiu scenarios #jiu imagines #dreamcatcher smut #jiu smut

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narwhalandchill · 6 months

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uhhh anyway. so like yesterday was my first time ever doing story day 1 and i have many Thoughts about the AQ. mostly positive unfortunately my major gripes do relate to the childe/narwhal situation which kinda dampens the overall experience more than any other part being underwhelming would given (gestures in general direction of self). like we all know the multitude of diseases i have on the subject 💀

dunno how much of a complete nonsense rambley writeup thisll be i think i might take some time to sort out my overall thoughts and write sth more coherent specifically on childe/narwhal stuff, maybe leave out some other aspects i have more pointed thoughts on as well so this wont get mega long but eh lets see. this just all kinds of thoughts i have for now And its a mess so Beware

anyway. firstly. as scarred as i am by melus and silver. Its also just. holy shit man theyre truly just straight up tapdancing on teppeis grave like THIS is how you write NPC deaths in an actually emotionally impactful way. dunyarzad was a massive glow up already in terms of NPC writing in general but she didnt die so. but like the way their characters and bond to both callas and navia is built up and how the writers actually managed to make them feel like such dynamic people even if their roles are ultimately quite straightforward made their fates just... genuinely heartbreaking like what the fuck 😭😭😭 AND THE WAY THEY STILL SAVED NAVIA FROM BEYOND THE GRAVE AND SAID THEIR FAREWELLS I JUST. I CANT. i just teared up thinking about it again

idk what could be said about navia that hasnt been said a gigabillion times before like. Wow. she is just. Truly the moment. like she fucking blindsided my ass in 4.0 bc i wasnt expecting anything like how dynamic and compelling and complex her arc and characterization has been like. everything about navia her resolve her grit her experiences and her bravery and stubbornness just feels so incredibly human and raw and she is just? a wonderful character i never foresaw falling in love with her this much like truly. and she delivered JUST as hard in 4.2 too like if it werent for navia being the conduit through which we first experience the devastation of poisson i dont think it wouldve ever hit as hard as it did. i just wanna comfort her shes already been thru so much yet i also admire her insistence to keep going and keep living like man 😭😭😭 give her a happy story quest hoyo idgaf if it gets called shallow or some bs she deserves a break!!!!!

i think some ppl are disappointed by arles relative lack of presence in fontaine overall and while i get that i can genuinely say that its been so fucking refreshing to have an AQ centering on a conflict thats not entirely or mostly fatui based. its not like the weight or intimidation factor of arlecchinos presence has been any lesser just bc shes been largely on the same side as us. like personally i just Really enjoyed seeing her characterization throughout. the way shes been just so reasonable thus far makes me extra excited for whenever she might actually snap (at least hopefully she will). like both childe and scara think shes fucking insane?????? but yea. i also really enjoy arles dynamic with the HoH kids too like. i do think she genuinely cares for them in a way but i highly doubt thats all there is to it. and thats really neat. goes for things like her help to spina di rosula and poisson too; theres definitely strings attached to that aid lmao. even if arle has no particularly malicious designs in mind, shes a harbinger. like cmon. and i really like that!!

i dont have like. that extensive thoughts abt what i call the . uhhh. this is mean but extended cast of act 5 JKJKDWJKDJKAJK like HoH gang, clorinde, sigewinne, wrio. tho i do very much appreciate that clorinde dodged the sara allegations for good like. it was looking a little bit unfortunate in 4.0. her role wasnt super major but i love her english VA and this kind of grounded sort of character she ultimately is. also sigewinne jumpscare during furinas trial i love her so much.

mona n nicoles thing was unfortunately mostly a whateverburger for me bc. im sorry im not that interested in hexenzirkel lmao i feel like such an outlier in any lore discussion circles bc im just not that hype about them (gold is an icon however) idk why. it was neat, it happened, didnt bring any mega hype. what i liked the most was honestly just the talk with mona about destiny and fighting against it and all. she really felt like a friend trying to help us navigate our thoughts on this insane horrible situation going on!!

in terms of plot things uhhh i went in mostly blind? as to the actual events. i had spoiled myself a bit on some specific aspects (my own fault) but ultimately most had no effect on how much i enjoyed everything. also lowering my expectations on the. ahem. worries i had abt childe that unfortunately came true so i was less let down on the spot wjjkajkwdjkwd. my biggest issue was actually that i had to progress lyneys story quest TWO FUCKING TIMES by a pretty notable amount bc it was blocking locations. and that dumbass office drama world quest like i was morbing.

a particular standout moment (beyond the Obvious. i need not name it THE LAUGH THE FUCKING THUMBS DOWN also singed FL can kinda lowkey 100% absolutely get it) for me was when i was so invested in our conversation with furina in poisson and in the magic box that i actually fucking forgor about the whole trap scheme thing even existing and then the box fell open and i was like WAIT WHAT THE FUCK and started laughing for like a solid 5 minutes i was caught so off guard. what an incredible moment. bc like. when the thing we were hiding in w furina started shaking i was just hell yeah narwhal modcheck? narwhal modcheck? bc obviously i would. and didnt question for a second that it could be something else. like the trap we were LITERALLY plotting to set up just a bit earlier it actually killed me. altho the fact that one of the cursed lyney quest situations were in between the scheming scene and the poisson segment prolly had to do with it. anyway it was just really funny

i think this post is gonna take me 287382 years to finish if im gonna go into the like furina character arc situation and her trial and focalors and all that shit super in depth (+ narwhal/skirk things) but like. BELIEVE me i fucking loved it so much like its so awful and painful and horrible and just. best written archon easily. zhongli n venti i think r very well written but theyre p static characters bc oldies so its a bit different. raiden is. inazuma moment no comment needed. nahida is good but tbh i never truly reconciled with the way rukkha getting irminsuled sorta just erased the central conflict behind her inferiority complex so it somewhat ruined her character arc for me even if it did make me cry and i do love her chara overall. but furina i think they executed the whole setup and reveals and everything so incredibly well its insane like. god. 500 years........ and like. the way furinas arc just flops everything uve known about her and the interactions uve had with her sideways and turns it upside down realizing the predicament shes been in and what shes been grappling with. its just incredible man. harrowing but incredible like they truly delivered on that one. like that portion of the finale was just really well done

anyway not all thoughts i have by any means but whatever. ive just been Thinking. overall had a great time with the AQ n cutscenes in particular are only getting better and better, i thiiiiink this one tops sumeru for me? but like its sorta unfair bc i was never a scara stan whereas. even a narratively mishandled narwhal is a fucking world-devouring narwhal. unfair advantage. childe being there at all even if i have my gripes is too much points in favor KJWJKWJKDWDJKJK. theres things that make me really hopeful for the future writing but also things that concern me. so its an interesting situation rn. but im glad it went as ambitious as it did even if my fave got arguably sidelined the most. just hoping they actually do sth more with childe sooner than later if they want to leave all those loose ends unaddressed in 4.2. interlude rights PLEASE

#(cracks knuckles) anyway. hopefully ill have the energy to do some Takes tomorrow.#anyeay this post isnt coherent at all!!! deal with it!!!! HSJSJGK #rambles #genshin #genshin spoilers #4.2 spoilers

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nightmare8-420 · 2 years

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Intro

Call me J

Pronouns are he/him but they and it are fine too

I like screaming into the void known as this hellsite

somehow am still lonely while having friends

I call this an ed/sh blog but its relly just my shitty life™️ i wont ever post body checks of me or someone else. Everything that could potentially trigger someone should have a tw on it, if not lmk. I dont promote anything in my shitty life. probably not a safe space for ppl in recovery, love yall, just dont wanna trigger you

B0mblover is my writing/sometimes art blog

killmeplese34 (yes its spelled like that) is my sh blog bc worried abt being t worded

free Palestine🇵🇸

im a minor so please dont be too weird

i want to bash my head in in pavement

as of feb 24 2024 im learning chinese (simplified) i might post in it, please correct me if i mess up

Dni list:

Racists

Homophobes

Transphobes

Xenophobes

ablest “people”

pedos (does that need to be said?)

conservatives (american ones specifically bc ive heard its different in other places we will not get along)

pro “life” “people”

Fbi

government in general (i will call a crack head next time bc YALL DIDNT FUCKIN SHOW UP)

Do not ask me about

•gun control (im too confused on it to have a proper stance)

•for help financially (sorry but i legit cant do jack shit about it besides reblog bro im broke af)

•real advice (i can try to help but i make things much worse)

•how i feel about Kunai Tadashi (i mean you can just it will be long)

•every illegal thing ive done (FUCK YOU FBI YOULL NEVER CATCH ME as i post my ip address)

Info

Email: [email protected]

Email2: [email protected]

Email3: (professional shitttt) [email protected]

Instagram: Insane_268_2

Discord: mocchi59

(ao3 will be hopefully added if i ever make an account)

Tags, if you need to block smth (or need an index)

•idiot ass drawing (drawing)

• j’s a bloody mess (selfharm/blood)

• j isnt suffering for once? (my infrequent high points)

• j’s crying and listening to music (music)

• j’s guchiry posting again (guchiry)

• j is down bad as fuck and doesnt know how or deal with it / really any variation of it (me being down bad for a certain someone and handing it poorly, i made the tag as a joke and just kept using it)

•cooking with j (me cooking gross shit seeing if it tastes good)

•j answers (new tag, “answering” asks)

im mostly into

Guchiry /ぐちり

Hiiragi Kirai / 柊キライ

Syudou

And ¿?(wada shimon)

and i have severe trauma so i sometimes post about that 👍

I wish you luck

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flingza-roller · 2 years

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do u have any tips for like. staying interested in things. sounds like a peculiar enough ask but ur bio says you’ve been into splatoon for 5 yrs and i heavily dislike the cycle i have of being obsessed w smth and then forgetting abt it in a couple months time. so would u have any advice perchance?? sorry for the long ask 🫶

OH MAN okay so splatoon is actually pretty weird in this regard bc my entire life ive had the same deal with cycling thru hyperfixatioms and each one only lasting like a few months, maybe a year at most. but boy i think might as well classify splatoon as a special interest cuz its solidified in my personality GDSJD

okay so, tips! i find it easier to stay interested in something if the people im around are also into it, so ive got a lotta splatoon friends/discord servers n shit (and a partner whos also brainrotting lol). its also good to stay engaged with the community (im pretty much just on tumblr cuz twitter sucks ass), i used to go to in-person meetups n stuff too! being surrounded by passion for that particular interest helps me stay passionate too.

oh and if ur an artist, the biggest thing: having characters ur really attached to (and project onto,,,) helps a lot bc its hard to fall out of an interest when ur in too deep with drawing the blorbos all the time. also making ocs and aus helps a lot with staying involved, making new content means it wont feel stale (im constantly making new stuff in my head for sploon, its what kept me fixated thru the quiet period between 2 and 3)

i actually havent even played splatoon 3 in weeks but im still very much fixated on the franchise bc my head. is so full of squids. hopefully some of this stuff helps and i wish u the best anon!! :]

#text #ive definitely never been hyperfixated on something for this long and its WEIRD #and its not like i didnt have the opportunity to switch interests bc i did!! my brain tried #a hat in time. no straight roads. the owl house.#these easily couldve turned into fixations #but splatoon had a fucking chokehold on me #the funny thing is that i did actually feel myself starting to fall out of the interest back in early 2018 #but then octo expansion was announced #and ive never looked back lmao

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Haha yeah maybe we should come up with new nicknames 🤔 I mean I guess I can start calling you Chellez, but it's too simple and everybody else calls you that.

That's good, a little movement is good, it means you're getting stronger. Also, I'm glad you teach your daughter to clean and pick up after herself. Some kids can get so messy, and parents just let them have a messy room.

I can never believe those paranormal shows and movies. There's just so many things you can do now with videos and stuff, so its hard to know which one is real or not. But I'll be a believer once it happens to me lol like there would be nights I would feel somebody sitting on the bed with me... but I just brush it off like it's nothing, just my imagination...

I'm with you, I don't think I can survive a long time with the zombie apocalypse. Watching and reading all about it, makes me want to be all badass and be prepared hahaha I think I won't survive if the food goes away and we can only survive with canned goods.

Not really sure about aliens. It's a possibility since space is so big, and there is just a lot we don't know that's going on out there.

If you were stranded on an island, what 3 things would you have with you to survive?

And if you had a choice on 3 people that you would be stranded with, who will you pick?

-CuriousGeorge

Haha no no no.. its okay, i dont mind with my current nick name. It was pretty original n funny..lol.. yeah u r right, everybody calls me Chellez or Chelle. 😁

I forgot to answer ur question in previous ask. I met her online n she is not from my hometown. 😊 she is in different state.

Yeah i want to raise my daughter as a neat n clean person.. i grew up with a strict mom about cleanliness, im less strict than her but still i want her to be clean n organized.

Yeah i know what u meant, but mostly on this videos on the show r like old video or like it caught accidentally, so it's not like a show of investigator come n recorded it intentionally use different technologies.. i believe in ghost because i had some experiences. Otherwise i wont believe it.haha.

Hahah i wont survive, zombies r gross n i would be so panic n cant think well then i will got killed.. hopefully by the time shit hits the fans my archery skills gets better n i hope it will helps.hahaha.

Yeah, we never know whats out there in the space.

Hmm i never know how to answers these questions, what to bring or have if i got stranded. Lol. My survival skill is very bad 😅 so i will pass thisqeustion n will get back to u if i get some answer. 🤣

The same with this one, i dont know who i will take, one thing for sure i will take my husband because he is a very good in survival kind of thing.lol. i dont wanna mention emily because i cant even imagine how hard it is for her if it happens but if it real, of course i will take her, nobody left the princess behind.lol. n my sister. What bout u?

Next question?

Cheerio!

#chellez answers #ask answered #anon answered #curious george anon

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cherryusa · 2 years

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HELLO, TOWNIE!

PLEASE WELCOME CAMERON CASTLE TO CHERRY PROPER!

SKELETON: THE PIZZA BOY DOB: YES AUGUST 26, 1980 TRAITS: HARDWORKING, STUBBORN CCU: SOPHOMORE MAJOR: MARINE BIOLOGY JOB: DELIVERY PRINCE @ THE PIZZA PALACE SECRET: CAM'S SECRET IS ONE HE DESPERATELY WISHED HE COULD FORGET. BUT THERE WAS LITTLE HE COULD HAVE DONE TO STOP OF PREVENT IT. HIS MOTHER WAS AN EXECUTIVE ASSISTANT FOR A POWERFUL MAN WITH TIES TO EVEN MORE POWERFUL PEOPLE. SHE'D WORKED FOR HIM FOR YEARS WITHOUT SO MUCH AS A HITCH. CAM WAS NEVER ENTIRELY SURE WHAT IT WAS HE DID, BUT HE PAID AND TREATED HIS MOM WELL AND THAT WAS ALL THAT MATTER. AT LEAST THAT'S WHAT HE THOUGHT UNTIL THE NIGHT HE SHOWED UP TO DROP OFF A BRIEF CASE FOR HIS MOTHER, ONLY TO BE SHOT ON SIGHT FROM LONG DISTANCE AS SOON AS CAM OPENED THE DOOR. THE NEXT THING HE KNEW HIS FAMILY WAS BEING MOVED. THE MYSTERY OF THE BRIEFCASE STILL A MYSTERY AND HIS FAMILY PLACED IN THE WITNESS PROTECTION PROGRAM FOR THEIR OWN SAFETY.

“DO YOU TRUST YOUR NEIGHBORS, OR ARE YOU CONSTANTLY ON THE LOOKOUT FOR RED FLAGS NOWADAYS?“

Cam stared hard at Clarissa for a moment as he contemplated how to answer the question. Was he honest? Did he tell her that of course he was constantly on the look out for red flags? He’d been on the lookout for red flags since the moment his family moved to California. Or did he lie. No of course not. The Candy Girl thing hardly affected him. Sure it was terrifying. It was a threat that was completely outside of his control. But he’d been around her a total of one time and she seemed pretty busy with the group of his classmates to ever even look in his direction. Not much of a threat to him personally. “The Rosenbalm’s? Yeah they’re absolute delights. I brought them over a pizza the other night, and Mrs. Rosenbalm gave me some fresh eggs from one of the chickens that live in their yard. Really nothing to red flaggish to look out for you know?”

“OKAY, LIKE, IF YOU HAD TO RECOMMEND ONE PLACE IN TOWN TO SPEND ALL OF YOUR TIME - WHAT WOULD IT BE?“

“Honestly I’d be lying if I said the CCU Library wasn’t where I spent the majority of my time. Mrs. Logan seems pretty strict which I know for most people would suck, but it’s kinda nice when it means those assholes in the frats wont mess with me. Never really thought I’d have to worry about that like I did when I was in high school but you’d be surprised.” Cam swallowed hard, uncertain if that was the right thing to say to a girl of Clarissa’s status but knowing it was too late and that he’d already stuck his foot in his mouth. “But if you meant like around town, then I’d probably say the beach. You can find some really cool tide pools and ocean life if you look hard enough. Makes for some really cool finds. If you go down far enough you can find some really cool bioluminescent algae. Makes the beach look like it’s glowing in the dark. It’s one of those little hidden gems about Cherry though that you wouldn’t find unless you were really looking for it.”

"TELL ME HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT THE GANG… HOW YOU REALLY FEEL! DO YOU THINK THEY’RE TROUBLEMAKERS? OR DO YOU APPRECIATE THAT THEY’RE ALWAYS TAKING THE BRUNT OF THE FREAKSHOW, SO YOU DON’T HAVE TO?"

“How do I feel about the... the oh. Oh those guys? What’s there to feel?” Cam asked, knowing full well what she was really asking. “Look if I’m being honest, Mac and Alice live in the apartment above my families pizza place and while I know the group of them have been up to a lot of shit recently, they make good tenants. You’d think with Mac being in Mystic Cherry that they’d be super loud but it’s really not that bad. Now Rory? I mean she was supposed to be my lab partner all last semester and that kid was like literally never around. She left me hanging on almost every project so I can’t really speak for her. I guess on one hand I’m grateful that they took the brunt of whatever was happening last semester but like hopefully things can calm down from here. Think this towns been through enough you know?”

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bastardsofravenkroft-blog · 10 months

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speak now tv for me on first listen:

in general:

i love the heavier and more unfiltered (?) guitar work, it suits speak now soooo well. hate whoever the backup singer dude is. their voice is not good with hers imo, its really throwing me off. i dont like how quiet her secondary/backup vocals/‘improvs’ are either. its hard to tell if i like the mix or not yet bc its just different yk

in specific:

i like all the vault tracks. theyre good. anyone who thought castles crumbling would be scream-y i have full rights to call you silly. i can see you was way more of a banger than i thought it would be.

fucking hate mine. i will not be listening to it i dont think. which is the first rerecord i absolutely cannot stand. remember when big wigs came up on you belong with me tv and said its a totally different song and thats me with mine. its awful

sparks fly - pretty good overall, doesnt quite match the heart of the og but i think thatll be a running theme unfortunately.

back to december - perfect. theres a sorta loud like horn or something after the first chorus but its fine. very good taysquared fans are FED.

speak now - perfect. solid. nothing to say bc its a pretty nothing song really but its great.

dear john - honestly was just okay until the middle really. then she really gets into i feel, and it fucking hits. the girl in the dress wrote you a song. and you shouldve known.

mean - i love it! sounds like how it did when they played it live. its fun

the story of us - meh. its not bad at all but its not like. magical either. i like the og better but this is still perfectly listenable

never grow up - three times as good as the original. listening to this was like hearing it for the first time at 14 when someone had one of the most prevalent thoughts in my head into one song.

enchanted - the model rerecord (kinda). this is what they should be. not all of them are going to be exact remakes, but this one is pretty damn close but still has its own personality. WIN.

better than revenge - BANGER. THE FUCKING BACKING VOCALS. i dont mind the lyric change, its hers to change, and i dont think thats much of anybody’s business. shes come to terms with the way she treated another woman when she was 18 and i personally wont shit on her for that. and she couldve intentionally made it shit so a lyric that still works well and illustrates the picture? yes please

innocent - better than the original. better. esp the bridge. no more words cause i will be crying. (also i didnt know for years this shit was about kanye and ngl that did sour it a bit but its MINE so I WILL NOT BE CARING. ty)

haunted - ehhhhh. this is one of my favorite ts songs literally ever bc i was born and raised to be an emo piece of shit, i love the second half, but im not sold on the first half. i hope this is one that mega grows on me, and im still so fucking disappointed not to have an acoustic rerecord :( hopefully itll be added later bc its so fucking good

last kiss - the two seconds of waiting for this to play were like every first day of school all over again. but like enchanted its stellar, she got into it from the beginning and i always forget what an amazing song this is until i listen to it again. i wrote this song out in full at least five times in the journal i had at the time. i really love this version just as much.

long live - so fucking faithful??? WHERE WAS THIS ENERGY FOR MINE??? UGGHHHHHHH anyways shes cute! i like. not super attached to this song anymore but i like this way more than the og even i think. a spruce up was what it needed for me i think

ours - its really really different, and i have no feelings really bc ive never really liked it lol. it flows better i think now, but its still a boring weee im in love song so eh

superman - i really didnt listen to this lmao, it didnt deserve to be on any version of speak now imo, esp now hearing the vault tracks, i wouldve liked foolish one more (timeless is more red to me, she was a bit too immature for when emma falls in love and castles crumbling to sound right, and the other songs were too pop for speak now really)

no matter what though, red and speak now will never be replaceable for me. i love these versions but listening to the originals as a young teenage girl and feel heard and seen in ways i never had been before and working through so many complicated things with the help of those songs is something the rerecords will never have.

also whoever said she could remove one of her best songs from arguably one of her best albums.

#music #archives #crimson speaks #taylor swift #speak now #speak now tv #speak now taylor’s version #if youre a swiftie and this pissed you off open a CIVIL DISCUSSION or keep it to yourself. im not dealing with toddlers over a ts post agai #also i didnt even read over this so who knows what it actually says #pinning so i dont lose it #crimson writes

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stress is deff a bitch but i feel like me and stress are the same now so🤡🤡

it's the 20th of august🤭 nooo that's a bit sad that u couldn't add urs but ur still a king for adding three birthdays in there🫡

WELL I HOPE THAT WONT HAPPEN AGAIN!!🤣 whaaattt that's such a long time oh my but the fact that u still had it is jaw dropping tbh

i don't understand why middle aged women have to be so rude sometimes☹️ wait i completely forgot that accents exist oh my god now thats even worse🥲 YEYY U SHOULD ARANGE ONE IN OCTOBER AS WELL COME TO THE 5SOS SHOW WITH ME/j (i'm heartbroken i have no one to go with so i probably can't attend) (i hope this doesn't break ur heart more cuz i saw ur posts about them sorry if it does☹️☹️hope i didn't cross a line with this joke☹️)

NOT TELLING ANYONE🫢 i look up to u for that cuz i'm still pretty much unable to do i suck💔 SO TRUE THE BEST DESCRIPTION I HEARD OF THEM JUST SOME GUYS!! i was so sad when yedam and mashiho left and i understand the soft spot he is such a lovely guy🥹 being a treasure stan is fun and a heartbreak but glad u admit now that ur a teume 🥲😌 ofc ofc we are sharing😵‍💫 HE IS SUCH A MENACE AND ITS SO FUNNY tbh he was the reason why i came back to tumblr cuz i wanted to see more content and things about him then i ran into the same problem as u that there are not that many writers in the fandom here tbh (or i just can't find them)💔 (sooo if u end up writing something for jihoon i will be waiting🫣)

IT SHOULDNT BREAK UR HEART IM SORRY IT WAS A CRY IN A POSITIVE WAY!!! i think it just means u portray emotions well (?) cuz every time there is a good sad scene in movies or books i just have to fight the tears back even when i was in a good mood before💔 AND THANK U FOR BEING AN AMAZING WRITER AND JUST BEING LOVELY AND READING MY LONG ASS REPLIES LMAO U ARE JUST TOO NICE OF A PERSON💖💕💝 (liebestraum anon💕)

omg 20th august is such a good bday to have im noting it down!!! 😌😌

IT IS the fic was originally supposed to be a part of collab but the writer deactivated and cancelled it but when i asked if i can keep the idea they were ok with it!! so yeah hopefully one day 💓

LOOK lets go to the concert together 😭😭 im like,, half serious and half joking 😭😭😭 i keep telling my mum about it and like the bus tickets to budapest are only 7€ and then i can find a cheap hotel and shit and i have money saved for the tickets 😭😭😭 like. budapest is objectively the closest stop to me ((even tho im still salty there is no vienna then i would go for sure) and i wanted to visit anyway 😌 but my mum doesnt wanna go w me and my dad doesnt either and i have no friends that would wanna go w me either and i am not allowed to go alone so. theres that 😭😭 i dont think ill get to go tbh im still kinda heartbroken but oh well its not the first time :// if i didnt live in such a shitty ass place this would all be easier 😭

girl i think its a miracle tbh but i got the names down. thanking my hyperfixation tendencies 💓💓💓 when i saw it i was so shocked tbh and now i keep getting sad mashidam edits on my tiktok fp and living through the pain LMAO. GIRL my crush on jihoon is getting out of control like genuinely what the fuck is happening to me- WHY IS TEUMEBLR SO DRY THO WHERE ARE THE FICS ??? i found like 3 fics and the rest are like 2 years old headcanon posts its such a struggle 😭😭 do i really have to do everything myself on this site.... (dont feed my delusions but give it a few months and if i dont fall out of them i can see myself creating a seperate treasure blog.....got a jihoon drabble idea the other day but. i will contain myself. so far he's the new main side character of the mark fic im writing 🥴)

awh you are too sweet 😭😭😭😭 thank u so so much !!!! this means the whole world to me 💓 once again was happy to hear from u, hope youre doing well ily xx

#💌ask #liebestraum anon

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oh-no-boi · 1 year

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ugh mental health thoughts???

its always like... when i am unemployed and have no money, i feel so guilty over money, just depressed so bad over the cost of living.. i struggle to create but also usually can create and enjoy myself if only for a moment. a thought is like "if only i just had a job.. could make money" happens and is like wow if i had money, depression would go away

but then if i am working some job, im so tired. and after a bit so overwhelmed my brain begins to fry itswlf. i can barely even do chores which sure i struggle with before but here its like oh i cant even wash the dishes. and i cant create, or barely which feels the same. any money i make, so much starts to get spent on takeout bc im so tired i cant cook, i feel like all my cooking progress is decimated lmao and then i want to buy more shit that before the lack of money was curbing a little bit, now its like oh but im so tired.. a new pen would make me feel better, a new pencil case, a new shirt, a new hoodie— and i mean i wanted these things before but like the moderation deteriorates lol

basically i kno this pattern. it doesnt change. its hard to believe in it whenever im in one or the other phase (meanong working vs not) bc its always like But no the other one was better! and no both suck, both are miserable af.

nothing helps this depression or whatever it is. both are just bad. i mean having free time is great, one might almost say its better but the mental bad brain shit with it is also just supwr brutal.

i feel just stuck.. i legit dunno if its possible to have a job where i wont feel like i cant go on. i wanna say an art job would be better but honestly who fucking knows?? bc doing commissions also fucks me up, i always think it wont be that bad (and its not always) but its not like better.

i feel like i cant change anything for myself. just gotta hope for universal income to become a thing hopefully or live miserably for ever, finding momentary joy, or just idk die lol

anyway as always i just need a little treat, i am trying so hard while also being "lazy"

mom is always like "u'll adjust" and i feel like.. yeah i'll "adjust" but will still be imploding every week, that basicallly never seems to go away, at least not for too long

#mental health #bad #shit feels impossible

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cnlalimna · 2 years

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July 10, 2022

hm i wont lie the past two months have been absolutely shit. like oh my god i cannot face anyone right now because my brain cannot handle it, which is basically how its been. The only person ive talked to consistently is jordan...but even hes been busy so most of the time im kinda just doing my own thing. honestly though it hasnt been bad, i like being on my own and stuff.

SO! major updates!

i began working at the aquarium of the pacific and thats super cool. i really like it there despite it being super exhausting. I like looking at the animals and interacting with the kids. weird huh!? i like working the later shift because when im working the touch tanks usually theres no people and i can just play with the animals :> here are some pictures

we're going from most recent to least recent btw.

went to LA a good few times! I've been looking and going to my favorite places recently and have been deciding whether or not to bring jordan there when he comes down to visit one day.

I've been to so many baseball games!! two angels games and one AA dodgers game :). baseball is so cool and it makes me so happy but oh my god I can't enjoy it anymore without jordan. like it's fun with my family but it's just different :/ BUT hopefully we can go to some games together eventually.

right after I moved back from college I spent wayyy too much money trying to distract myself from being so fucking sad :[ I got harry tickets and some vinyls.

pack up day for college was super emotional. not to sound mean but I really don't miss anyone other than jordan. I felt so isolated there and like I had no friends so it's hard for me to have those attachments to people who had a complete opposite experience than I did. here are some pictures from the end of the school year

in all honesty the summer has been super lonely but actually I think I'm happier than I've ever been these last couple of years. one major thing I've been feeling though is like just longing ig? in many different ways. I guess I really long for stability and a sense of belonging. I want that happiness you get from being in college. I want to be drunk with my friends under a discoball playing cumbia. I want to be able to see jordan whenever I want. so many wants in my life yet it seems like they're all going to be just out of reach.

jordan says he's gonna try to visit sometime in July. he's told me before that while he's gonna try his best the one thing he can't do is promise me that. he's really fucking sweet for shit like that, but he's absolutely crazy whenever he says that. the drive is almost 400 miles and over 5 hours, to do that shit alone is insane. I would love for him to crash here a few days but given his new job, it would be a waste of time to come down to visit only for a weekend. we like to joke around saying we're on our way to see the other person and everytime it makes me feel a tiny bit happy cause it feels normal and not like we're a good hundred miles apart. and truth is I miss him, like a fuck ton. I think more than I've ever missed a person. I hope soon comes in the near future, I'm filled with naive hope :) only time I'll be willingly naive for a person. I don't expect him to come though if I'm being completely honest, but one can dream hm?

#July #2022

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lunatic-fandom-space · 2 years

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Ayyyyyyyyy time for Episode Nine babesssss hopefully its not as bad as the star wars movie

Okay, the scene of that one girl whos been helping the No Name Guard throwing some stuff into Aphs house is fine, I'll definitely have to change the order on some events though since Im assuming Aphmau is gonna see the effect of those splash potions right away now, which she cant do if shes staying in Brightport

Okay so, Aphmau cant have this convo w/ Garroth at the beach so I'll do it like this: Garroth still gets those disturbing news and he still gets worried abt Aph n stuff (at least I assume hes worried its kinda hard to tell). Meanwhile Aphmau is hangin out at the village, packing her things bc she wants to home soon. Paul accompanies her while they both go to the docks but on their way they hear a bunch of people whispering about lords being killed and all that. Paul stops and goes "uh oh, aphmau that doesnt sound too good" and she answers smth like "yeah it really does, its a good thing we wont be in danger though" to which Paul goes "Ehhh, I wouldnt be too sure about that ykno" Aphmau is a bit confused because "Im not a Lord" but Paul goes and says smth like "Ive seen the way you care for those villagers, for me, youre a Lord if ive ever seen one" Shes kinda flustered for a moment but then goes "Oh. Wait doesnt that mean Im in danger then?? Maybe I should stay here for a while" Paul agrees and tells her he knows someone she can send as a messenger so the others back home dont worry/they can maybe work something out while keeping Aph save

(The way im imagining this rn is basically like, Aphmau writes a letter to Garroth, gives it to this messenger who travel to him and gives him the letter and so on, I might come up w/ something better but thats the best ive got as of me writing this)

Zenix is doing something at the old Lord's house while Brenden works to take it down, Im not sure what I should write here bc like, Zenix is pretty clearly doing some shady shit but I dont remember anything he did or why he did it or the fact that he existed at all. So yea, maybe I'll just cut this entirely and leave it as something weird goin on in the background or I'll rewrite it when I have more context

She also doesnt get any of those potions, but they are technically free for Zenix to take now, so if that ever plays a role.......

Aphmau finishes the letter and gives it to that messenger, they have an exchange thats basically like "hey I heard this stuff about how Im like, a Lord basically and also theres someone going around killing all the Lords so I decided to stay in Brightport for now" "hello its good that you know that, Ive heard that too, deciding to stay there when you heard that was smart but Brightport is not as advanced as us (no offense) so it'll be better if you returned as soon as possible"

Im gonna research how long boat routes usually take later, for now I'll just say that between the messenger going back and dorth and Garroth n Aph writing the letters this takes like, one and a half days (bc yknow, that messenger has to sleep n eat too)

Meanwhile, Aphmau is mostly just chillin in Brightport. Shes a bit anxious bc of the whole Thing, but shes having a good time bonding with her new cat and keeping Pauls spirits up. At some point he says that he feels ready to go talk to Visher's Wife now, Aph gives him some encouraging words before he leaves and then she takes the opportunity to ask around a bit about the Lord and what he was like (i dont actually remember if that gets brought up at any point, so itll have to be pretty vague for now). Maybe she can also help w/ some issues the villagers are having so she can distract herself from her anxiety more idk

Maybe we can have a part where our villagers are a bit worried about Aphmau, particularly Emmalyn, Donna n Kiki. Maybe potentially Garroth too, but I actually think its kinda cool that so much of Garroth is initially a mystery and I'd like to keep it that way here too

Alrightyyyyyy also sorry for accidentally posting this before it was done lol

#lunas mcyt shit #my mc/d rewrite

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Hay are you taking requests still?? I'd like to rq a vinnie imagine where the reader is a little older (22ish) and even though she loves him and knows he loves her in spite of that she still feels insecure so one day when hes hanging out with his friends and she hears them giving him props for bagging an older chick (jokingly) she starts to put distance between them.

***under would be more info but it's a little too much for a rq so feel free to just write whats written above ***

In a moment of insecurity and doubt the reader calls a friend (a while after hearing what his friends say) and vinnie walks in to hear she's thinking about asking him for a break, heartbroken he could lose the one he loves, he starts being extra clingy and buying shit for her. After like a week or so of endless gifts and cuddles and worrying over when the reader will leave him, she sits him down and asks what's going on.

Him having told her that he'd heard her talking about leaving and she tells him why in the moment she had considered it but had changed her mind as she'd come to the realization that even though her age difference scares her, leaving him scares her more.

An happy ending blah blah, he gives her reassurance that the age difference dosent matter, even admitting he finds it super intimidating but he feels the same and can't live without her blab blah blah, she tells him to stop with the gifts, he says he agrees but they both know now hes started it wont stop Haha blah blah, I'm not good at endings but since you wanted a happy ending there you go.

*****

Yeeeaahhhh, sorry. I got carried away. I swear everytime I rq something. It's either to descriptive and long (like I basically wrote the damn thing myself) or it's as simple as "can I request something for......." and have nothing to go by lol.

If it's too much or you find it hard writing for an older reader that's okay. Just lmk and I'll send in another request (hopefully one where I dont rant like a crazy person 🙄🤭) Thanks xx.

Sorry again 😬😬

this was inspired by multiple older!reader requests. i changed some things up, so i hope you still enjoy!

𝘀𝗮𝘆 𝗶𝘁

𝗽𝗮𝗶𝗿𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀: vinnie hacker x older!fem!reader

𝘀𝘆𝗻𝗼𝗽𝘀𝗶𝘀: vinnie’s older girlfriend isn’t quite sure that his intentions are pure.

𝘄𝗮𝗿𝗻𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀: fluff and slight angst, age gap (reader is 23 and vinnie is 19), reader is a chemist bc we love a science baddie 💅🏻✨

𝗔/𝗡: i actually tried really hard with this one so sorry for how long it took!

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“he really said that?”

you were seated on the couch with hera and a couple of blankets. seated cris cross applesauce, you held you phone to your ear and listened to your friends reaction to the news you just told her. the movie you were watching was paused and you kept your voice down low, knowing that vinnie was a few rooms down.

“yes, lily! he grabbed him on the shoulder and said ‘props for bagging an older girl’ and then walked into our kitchen like it was nothing! i was right fucking there— sitting on this couch and watching him. i mean… how demeaning is that?!” you looked over to the hallway, making sure that vinnie wasn’t hearing you.

“wow, what a dick.”

“i know! i mean.. what do i do? i- i checked his tiktok page and he has an account with the username ‘ilovehotmoms’ or something along the lines. yeah, he just talks about older women constantly and i had no fucking clue!”

“i don’t even know what to say, y/n. that’s awful.” vinnie balanced against the wall and ducked down, keeping out of your line of view. he tried his best not to let the floorboards creek as he eavesdropped.

“i don’t know, maybe i’m over thinking… like— i just— he knows that i’ve never dated a younger guy before and i thought he didn’t care about my age but now? like, what if it’s all just to impress his friends?”

“yeah.”

“maybe i should just— no. nevermind, that’s stupid.”

“no, say it!”

“fuck, i should have never dated a younger guy and especially a fucking tiktoker! maybe i should just break it off with him..”

“y/n…” lily whined.

“i know, but what if he just sees me as a number? as a notch on his belt? i don’t want to be that! i mean he and i have literally nothing in common. i should have known that it wasn’t real.” you started to get emotional, fighting back the tears that were threatening to fall.

“i don’t want to leave him. i don’t. it’s just…” you dropped the phone and hung your head low, closing your eyes and feeling the tears stream down your face.

“y/n? are you okay?”

“yeah.” you picked the phone back up. “i-i just don’t want to be used. i want to be picked for who i am and i’m just sick of being a second option.”

vinnie’s head hit the wall, making a loud noise. you snapped out of it and looked at the hallway. “vinnie?!”

he skipped quickly down the hallway, careful for you not to hear. “yeah?!”

“what was that?”

“um.. i dropped something.” he pretended to be leaving the room he was in and walked out to the living room. “are you okay?”

“mm? me? no, i’m fine! um, lily i have to call you later.” you hung up the phone and watched vinnie walk over to the dining room; seemingly oblivious to your conversation with lily.

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while putting on your lab coat, your phone began to ring in the pocket of the jacket that was hung on the coat hanger. embarrassed, you apologized to the other people in the lab and quickly grabbed your phone and stood in the hallway.

“hey, what are you doing calling me? are you okay?” you whispered, careful not to get caught.

“i know! i know, i’m sorry. it’s important—“

“y/l/n, no calls in the hall.”

“i know! david i’m sorry, hold on.” you skipped down the stairs and outside, into the parking lot. you didn’t want to be inside anyways, feeling nauseous and it being to noisy in there. “okay, sorry. what’s so important?” you sighed.

“are you okay?”

“yeah, just a little dizzy and my head hurts, but it’s fine. what’s wrong?” you rubbed your head with the back of your hand. you had just gotten there and hadn’t even started experimenting or testing yet.

“what dress size are you?”

“i’m sorry? dress? i- i don’t even wear dresses—“

“i know but i really think that you should, you’d look nice in one. but um… look.”

“look? look at what? you aren’t here—“ you glanced up and saw vinnie waving at you, leaned up against his car. hanging up the phone, you huffed and stomped over. vinnie had been extra sweet to you recently, and you weren’t sure why. it was like he just woke up extra clingy and hasn’t changed back.

“what are you doing here?!” smiling, you quickly kissed him and hoped none of the chemists saw. “i didn’t even think that you knew how to get here.”

“i know, i know. but i just had to show you something.” his demeanor was anxious, as if he was excited about something. you gulped.

“what?”

he held out his hand and revealed two tickets to the movie premiere for Eternals, a movie that he knew you were excited to see. your mouth made an ‘o’ shape and you grabbed them from his hand.

“VINNIE?!” jumping up on him, you kissed him passionately and laughed. “what is this for?!”

“i pictured us watching it together, so we might as well go on the red carpet together too!”

“oh my god, vinnie— what am i going to wear?! how did you do this?!”

“well a cast member was following me so i sent him a dm and don’t worry about it, i got a dress made for you.”

your heart began to race and you found yourself continuously pacing your eyes back and forth over his demeanor; scared that he might be joking.

“i don’t even know what to say..”

“don’t say anything!” his hand was gripped on your arm and you felt the butterflies flutter throughout your body. “just get back in there and do your stuff. i’ll talk to you about it when you’re done.”

“really?”

“yes, now go!” he pushed you softly towards the building. you ran off before looking back at him.

“i love you!”

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“my feet are killing me!” ripping off the heels you wore, you sat down on the chair and watched vinnie undress. still in the gown from the eternals premier, you began to go through the reality withdrawals.

“i can’t believe i met angelina jolie.”

“i can’t believe you look that stunning.” he remarked.

“okay, seriously.” you dropped the shoes on the ground and looked up at him who was now in a plain black t shirt. “what is with you?”

“what do you mean?”

“i mean you’ve been totally dependent on me recently! like all clingy and buying me stuff— which is cute and sweet but it’s just extra and not you.” he stiffened, not sure what to say but knowing exactly what he didn’t want to say.

“okay— i…i heard you on the phone with lily.”

“okay? and?” confused as to what he was talking about. he just looked at you solemnly and it suddenly clicked. “oh.”

“i didn’t want you to leave me, okay? i know that we have our differences and i’m sorry for what people may say about you, but i love you and it’s not because of your age, okay?”

“how do you know that, though?” your voice cracked and you became visually upset. “i mean.. you met me KNOWING that i was older than you and single. that didn’t have anything to do with your perception of me?”

“of course not!” he jolted his arms out in a ‘duh’ manner and approached you. “y/n, i couldn’t care less about how old you are, okay? i’d love you all the same, even if you were my age.” you smiled and looked up at him softly. “did you really think about leaving me?”

“of course not! i was just upset, babe.” you reached out to comb through his hair as the two of you smiled at one another.

“so we are okay?”

“yes, vinnie. we are okay.” you pressed your lips against his and grinned. “can we just chill for the night?”

“oh, i uh.. i have to stream.”

“oh.” your voice dropped slightly.

“but i can cancel it if you wan—“

“NO! no, i want you to do it! it’s fine, i’ll just watch tv.” grabbing the remote, you flipped through the channels. vinnie continued looking at her.

“you knowwww… you can always join if you want to..”

a chuckle escaped your lips, “yeah, okay.” vinnie noted the sarcasm in your voice.

“no, i’m serious!”

pausing the tv, you looked up at him. “vinnie, you’re fans don’t care about me— they probably would be bored just by looking at me.”

“mmhmm, okay!” vinnie spoke, equally as sarcastic as you were.

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“y/n!”

you were seated on the couch, now in your pajamas when you heard vinnie call out your name. “yeah?”

“the chat wants to talk to you!”

what did he just say?

you felt your lips curve upwards and you quickly skipped over to the gaming room. inching your way in, you saw that you were in the frame. “here she is!”

thank god i still have makeup and hair from earlier!

not knowing what to do, you just waved awkwardly.

“come here, use this stool.” you sat beside him, the stool making you appear taller than he was. “okay, what did you guys want to ask her?”

comments started rushing and y/n didn’t know where to look. “it seems that they want to know about your job, so how about you tell them, babe.”

“okay, um… i’m actually a chemist! so it’s probably really boring to you guys..” you read through the numerous comments, most of them being nicer than you expected.

“they want to know! right chat? yeah, tell them!” he grabbed hera and put her on his lap, petting her.

“well basically i’m a chemical engineer so i use chemical reactions and properties to create different materials!” you nodded.

“they want to know if you can help them with their chemistry homework.”

you bursted out laughing. vinnie looked at you in awe of how happy you seemed and everything felt warm inside you two. “yes,”

“i can definitely help you guys with chemistry homework.”

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