#i kinda tried to. i was 14

[knight-engale]

"you're not traumatized by being raised by parents who were way too young and were raised in shitty families themselves and who never taught you emotional intelligence and isolated you from pretty much all of your non churchgoing peers, you're just a little silly! and you cry whenever you notice any sort of shift in the way someone speaks to you and take it as a personal rejection, whether or not it was intentional, but that's unrelated"

#i know i have it good because my family was never struggling as much as my moms family seemed to #and because my parents were more affectionate and emotionally available than my dads family and parents #but being the oldest child of four and generally the 'good quiet one' with typically decent grades #meant less attention was given to me as opposed to say #the disabled second child or the family baby (at the time) #i genuinely dont remember getting a ton of one on one time with my parents unless i was in trouble #and while i know it did happen #children dont tend to internalize the positive encounters #and it only got worse as i got older and my interests drifted further away from what my parents liked or wanted to hear about #and then they had another kid but not before mom was hospitalized for a month #and dad was working so he wasn't very available so rven thougj i wasnt supposed to play parent #i kinda tried to. i was 14 #and it felt a little like no one was looking out for me #and it still doesn't #i still feel like an outsider and fundamentally unlovable unless im serving some kind of purpose #because if even my own parents dont pay me much mind when im not actively being helpful #why would anyone else?

[lukochi]

Pet the dog --> take a photo

He actually turn to the camera when I was about to took the screenshot

#aaaaaa #my createtion #keep going #but I’m dying #ibispaintx #ibispaint art #cookie run #cookie run kingdom #capsaicin cookie #cake hound #camera #camera screen #blossom #cherry blossom #the fact that I took 14 hours to sketch this is still too much for me to handle #I tried to do perspective but kinda fail #just testing out some highlight tips

[naelmasn]

"If she never discovered the auracite—had never fallen under its influence—would she have lived a normal life? Would she have been a mother to me?"

#my art #ff14 #ffxiv #final fantasy 14 #final fantasy xiv #erichthonios #I've been having the meanest artblock ever leaving me no desire at all to draw #so i tried drawing smth and i kinda gave up with this one bc it's not exactly what i had in mind but oh well #i still like it #hopefully I can get back to drawing more regularly soon

[elvenchain]

I am not immune to midlanders

#this lander is not mid!!! #hes so pretty auuugh #i tried to base a lot of this on his official art rather than his in game model bc. well #his hair looks kinda flat there #first time drawing him but I had a lotta fun! #Final Fantasy XIV #Final Fantasy 14 #FFXIV #Thancred Waters #FF14 #my art

[frankenhoez]

So! SE won't let me pay my FFXIV subscription, I've been trying for the last week or so and nothing worked so... I decided to open art c♡mms for an Europe playtime card since I heard you can buy a pt for someone else! If you're interested please dm me 🫶

[My other c♡mms are also open if you're interested!]

#I was fighting for my life w lodestone lol #This is my last resort so far :V a friend even tried to help me but she's in America so we kinda struggled #Anyways #Final Fantasy XIV #Final Fantasy 14 #Ffxiv #Ffxiv art #My art #Fan art #artists on tumblr

[haunted-xander]

The difference of how Thancred treats Ryne when we first meet them vs in the Eden quest line is SO GOOD

#like in the beginning hes very distant and like #harsh in a very 'focus on the mission' kinda way #like he doesnt outright deny her moments of joy when they have the time for it #but he wont MAKE time for it when theyre busy doing other more important stuff #she doesnt get much time to just be a teen #(which isnt entirely thancreds fault but he couldve done more for her to give her the time she needs for it) #while in the eden quests he still tries to keep her somewhat focused on the mission #but he also lets her deal with gaia the way she wants to #instead of telling her to just ignore it and focus on eden #he even makes a comment like 'just focus on eden... is what i would say in the past' #but now he instead gives her advice on how to talk to gaia personally! #we love some good character development #thancred waters #ryne #ryne waters #final fantasy #final fantasy 14 #final fantasy xiv #ff14 #ffxiv #shadowbringers #xander rambles

[autoboros]

I have never drawn Capn 3 before . Here is Captain with my newest girl

#i had tried to recreate my splat 1 oc in 3 recently based on the vaguest memory i have of em #and i kinda really love her. makes me feel very nostalgic #splatoon #splatoon 3 #captain 3 #agent 3 #not a thought in her eyes. she is like 14 and was born yesterday #this took an unnecessary amount of time to finish #art

[raveartts]

character: *exists*

me: murder au??? MURDER AU? 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

#raveartts #twelve forever #tw blood #so like #i was being insane #and was thinking like: #reggie. but she stays in endless and she's an adult now and she's gone insane and is killing everyone #but then i remembered you don't like. AGE in endless #so then i thought a second time: #reggie but she's in the real world #and she's 14 #and because 14 year olds are. by default. a little bit insane and edgy #she tries to stay in endless for a week or sth to. cope with the stress of being a teenager #and she's KILLING AND MURDERING AND BITING AND BITING AND KILLING AHHHHHH #like she's already kinda violent in the show. like 'i'm mad i need to go punch something' yk #and she's got this insane brute strength #so uh #edgy teen + insanely strong + stressed with life + world with zero consequences......murder time >:)))))))) #also yes i can and will make any and every blorbo into a murderer #i mean c'mon. reggie's already unhinged just make her a teenager and the blood will spill #this isn't me inflicting my murder obsession on everything this is clearly just how it is :)))))

[silenthillbunni]

📚🎀💕

#hmm there's this librarian working at my local library.... #and i know him from before. i was in a bookclub that he was in charge of when i was like 14 #the books he chose are the reason i started reading again after a slump of like 2 years #he was always really nice and i felt an affinity w him bc he seemed to also be kinda awkward etc skksks #a couple of years later i was supposed to be in another bookclub that he lead but i ended up never going #he was very nice and tried saying hi to me and smalltalk etc for a while after #but since i was at that time really coming into my avoidant personality disorder #i was just weird and non responsive so obviously we just stopped interacting #however... he still works at the library and i've been seing him every time im there lately #he is SO cool and he has really grown into himself more and he is genuinely nice to ppl #also he was wearing a t-shirt today and i saw that he has tattoos @_@ #what im getting is that i think that i have a crush on him again skskksks #i did have a crush on him when i was 14 but it feels more appropriate now that im 25 lol #idk his exact age but he's younger. maybe in his early 30s i'd guess #*not younger that me younger than the librarian stereotype i mean lmao #but yeah my crush on him kinda revived and now im so sad bc i could've known him!!! i could've been able to talk to him #but i messed it up years ago 😔 so now it'd just be strange to strike up a convo. + im not sure he remembers me anymore #sighhhh. everytime i go to the library tho im like.. there he is... so dreamy.. he loves books and reading... #he was also very interesting and he just talks in a way that is compelling and like ugh #UGHHHHHH

[akkivee]

i am obsessed with this concept rn lmao

#this is vee speaking #bat but they’re all the same age and enable each other so they’re kinda *jean ralphio voice* THE WOOOooOoOoooRST lol #THEY ARE CRINGE BUT THEY ARE FREEEEEEEEEEEEE #lol when i started sketching baby hitoya i realised that i had to draw his hair the way i SHOULD be drawing kuukous hair #hitoya and jyushi are THOSE theatre kids and kuukou’s the loner secret nerd that thinks their vibes got the funk lol #i got tired but if i had more stamina you can believe i would have drawn kuukou destroying iyogi #while hitoya tries to stop him from going too far and jyushi is clutching on to amanda for dear life 😭 #it’s unfortunately hidden but jyushi is wearing a half long skirt combination #because i think local bad boy kuukou and fellow edgy teen hitoya would encourage jyushi to reject tradition embrace individuality lol #bat hive mind is real because this concept popped up in my head a few weeks ago and literally the next day i saw fanart of them all 14 LOL #yesterday i saw this concept also ft jakurai the maybe other unofficial nagoya member at 14 and i decided that i should join in as well lol #vee is arting

[autism-corner]

if my calculations are correct this time, we'll need 1300 point with every reset, which means 8 (+ a little bit) dp a day (if youve already watched the free extra's). seems doable.

#last time i tried to calculate for belphies bday i was a day early with reaching the goal and im not sure where the fault was but this... #... should be correct?? i think #this is with the assumption that there'll be 14 battles in part 2. #since i havent yet unlocked all of the key routes #=w= #sillyposting #mmh i wonder if i should post the page i did my calculations on... it'd be kinda fun #oh well

[caffeinatedopossum]

I would probably be suicidal way more of the time if my brain could hold onto a single thought for any amount of time

#guys... what happens when i get the adhd meds i need #i also just something really triggering so thats great 🙃 #not mad about it just very much reacting to jt #i hate reacting to things. i look ridiculous #anyway it was a tiktok about someone od-ing when they were 14 and expecting to die off 14 pills... which is exactly what happened to me #i was 13 though. but still #i keep thinking about how stupid i was and how i shouldve tried harder... #i was crying over it and freaking out and thinking i was gonna die but it wasnt even that dangerous #idk it just kinda makes me feel like an idiot and a wimp whenever i think nack on it now #even though i was literally a child and it traumatized me

[cluescorner]

I want to raise this man from the dead

Crepus Ragnvindr is lucky he’s dead because otherwise he would have to put up with the shenanigans I do with the other sus characters in the game. Like, I already bother Cyrus and Timaeus and the Fatui in Mondstadt a lot trying to figure out wtf those guys know. The last thing Mondstadt needs is another sus NPC present, ESPECIALLY given all the questions I have for him. 

Like, were you a harbinger or just a shady dude? Was it Dottore who gave you the delusion directly? Did you know that Kaeya was from Khaenri’ah and if not what did you think was going on? What was your relationship with the Knights, did you idolize them as much as your son or did you realize that they were as susceptible to corruption as anyone else as you grew old? And why did you let your son join the organization if you knew how effed up it was? ON THAT NOTE WHY TF WAS DILUC ALLOWED TO BECOME A CAPTAIN AT THE AGE OF 14?? SIR I GENERALLY THINK YOU WERE PROBABLY A DECENT DAD WHO TRIED HIS BEST BUT LIKE WTF IS UP WITH THAT DECISION SPECIFICALLY??? 

#crepus ragnvindr #caps cw #IDK #this man fascinates me and there are so many questions I have that only he can answer #BUT HE CANT ANSWER THEM BECAUSE HES DEAD AF #also apparently people are like divided on Crepus #it's either like 'oh he was a perfect father and that's why Diluc likes him' or 'he was the worst ever' #but like I think it's more likely that it's somewhere in the middle #like he's not perfect or even great imo #but he tried his best for his sons and probably genuinely loved them both #I think that he would have supported Diluc even if he didn't choose to become a knight and that he didn't DIRECTLY pressure Diluc into it #it was probably more like a 'hey wow I really wanted to be xyz when I was your age and I'm going to talk about all the good aspects of it' #kinda like how most parents do when they like their career and when you're a kid you think your parents are right about everything #and you're like OH WOW MY DAD WANTED TO BE A BASKETBALL PLAYER AND HE THINKS ITS A GOOD IDEA SO I SHOULD BE ONE #when in reality they want you to go about your life in your own way but they still influence you #I would be lying if I said that my decision to go to college/do certain things with my life wasn't influenced by my parents #but it was still my choice to make #OR AT LEAST THAT'S PROBABLY THE WAY I WOULD THINK IF DILUC WASN'T FUCKING 14 WHEN HE BECAME A CAPTAIN #SERIOUSLY I HAVE SO MANY QUESTIONS #WHY WAS THIS BABY WHO IS YOUNGER THAN MY BROTHERS ALLOWED TO BE A CAPTAIN #WHO APPROVED THIS #Mondstadt is a fascinating place #Literally just say 'hey Diluc was the captain when he was 17' and I'd be like 'ok he was a bit of a prodigy' #'but I'm not concerned or anything' NO HE WAS 14 YEARS OLD THAT IS TOO YOUNG TO BE A CAPTAIN OF ANYTHING #LET ALONE THE POLICE/ARMY/GOVERNING BODY OF AN ENTIRE NATION #So yeah #I 100% get why people don't like Crepus for that ALONE #and also like no this guy was clearly not a saint #you don't wind up with an early delusion that was probably even RARER to receive than it is now #unless you were into some shady shit

[running-in-the-dark]

ugh I hate those days where I just have no energy to do anything

like, I'm not unmotivated, I just really have no energy. I'm not tired (well. I'm always tired. but not any more than usual), I feel physically weak. it's gotten worse so at this point I'm curled up in my armchair & can't get up

#I can't even do anything fun #I tried cleaning my glasses and they felt so heavy that I could barely lift them #I'm just so exhausted #I've been feeling kinda bleh all day and now it's just... ugh I wish I could just go to bed & sleep for like 14 hours but I'm not sleepy 😭 #can't really think either so everything feels weird. #personal

[moron-hassaikai-and-more]

Setsuno: *cracks his knuckles*

Chrono: my god, why are your bones so loud?

Setsuno: my love. My darling. You ain’t seen nothing yet. *turns his torso so his back cracks incredibly loud* OH SHI- *falls down* OH MY GOD- *larger than average pain*

#mha incorrect quotes #hari kurono #mha #chrono #toya setsuno #incorrect bnha quotes #i tried to do the torso twist thing last night cos I thought it might help my stupid back pain #and it kinda did. #but it also hurt my hip for some reason?? #I’m 14 I’m not old why are my bones giving out already #1:08 PM July 21st

[despite-everything]

something very comical going on with my gender rn

#back when i was like 14 i tried to be butch and it just wasnt me so it didnt like... work. its was costumey #but now 8 years later i just looked in the mirror #and i have crazy short hair and am wearing cut off cargo shorts that go to my knee #with a plain sports bra and some sandals #just with basic studs and hoops in my piercings #and ive never looked more dykey in my life #its actually kinda fucking great #(im dressed like this cause ive been lifting so im in gym clothes... with sandals now though) #but like. theres something kinda freeing about it #and i never planned for this is just happened #tree talks