#i just want to read and watch my dramas

[moondust-on-the-hijabi]

well that was embarrassing

#no father i will not show you my writing bc the last time I asked smth about it in front of you #you proceeded to give me a panic attack for 2 hours. #and they're telling me to learn cooking after thursday #and that i have to start packing stuff for shifting #i hate this part of shifting #what's worse is we don't even know where we're shifting😭😭 #it's either [redacted] or [redacted] one is allllll the way up and the other is so near the equator winter doesn't exist #i just want to read and watch my dramas #bleh if we move to place 1 I can finally be safe from boards and if we go down idt I can change courses :/ but I hate packing #i went ot #moonhalo talks —✧

[redysetdare]

Hey you! yeah you stop! don't type another word! listen - listen I know what you're trying to do. you think you're being helpful by going on someones post and telling them to look at a specific media that has the basic similarity to what their post is asking for. But I'm going to tell you a secret, okay? They probably already know it. People have probably already told them about it. they probably have checked it out. because when you have such limited options it's kind of impossible not to hear about these things...and guess what...guess what - they might not of even liked it. Because if someone is asking for representation they likely want it in a story that they'll enjoy. yeah, not everyone wants to read YA drama/romance books just for the representation, crazy i know. Yeah some of us actually want well written stories about things we actually care about. some of us want characters to be like us while they fight dragons or something.

so stop typing that message about how OP should totally check out X media. maybe, if you really wanna recommend something, maybe just ASK OP is they are looking for suggestions and what kind of stories they like so you know if that's even what they're looking for. trust me, they'll appreciate your input a lot more if you just ask.

#text #this is about people continuously telling me to watch heartstopper or read loveless because of aspec rep #like no i dont think i will because ya coming of age stories are incredibly boring to me #and i shouldn't have to sit through a show about romance to get 1 aspec side character #half the time im not even asking for media. im just expressing my frustrating with the sheer lack of the kind of media i want to see #especially because the only media thats out there at the moment is in genres I don't like #no i dont wanna read about being aspec in the romance genre i already put up with that every day #no i dont want to read about stupid teenage drama for a shred of representation #no i dont want a read a story that's focus is in the real world with real people spelling out an experience that i know all too well #i dont want stories made for an audience that isn't me not because it's bad but because i know im not the target and i can't find enjoyment #it would save so much annoyance if people just i dunno asked me what i liked #“op you would love X” “Op you should read X” i think you should stop assuming that i would like or havent heard of whatever popular media #i think you should stop assuming im looking for recommendations when i complain about a lack of certain stories being told #thanks for being the most unhelpful person in the room

[13eyond13]

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#started reading game of thrones because i was like #the problem i had with the show was that though it was interesting I found it a bit hard to get super attached to any of the characters #so i bet reading it will make that easier because it will be more in depth with them all #but TO MY SURPRISE it feels almost exactly the same as watching the show to me?? #like i have almost the exact same level of feeling and familiarity toward everybody so far and insight into them as characters etc #and maybe that is somewhat because grr martin was a tv writer because dang if he doesnt write a novel exactly like a tv drama #but im feeling a bit disappointed maybe because i really did want it to feel deeper to me instead of basically the same #idk why but the ones i like best so far still are a bit hard for me to love you know #its more like i mildly enjoy a few of the characters and then tolerate or dislike the rest #i kinda like tyrion and littlefinger and jon and sam and arya #oh weirdly i also kinda like king Robert too idk he just feels more like a real person to me than some of the other guys #if anything i think i actually like some of the main characters less in the books than the show like #catelyn and sansa get on my nerves more in the novel than i remember them doing in the show #so far the character that seems the best cast to me is lord varys lol its like he stepped straight off the page onto the screen #all sickly sweet and sneaky and bald and perfumed #p

[dragonji]

I've been just absolutely soaking my brain in wuxia for the past 4 days in preparation for my audiodrama project and honestly its making me want to be an academic about danmei again but I know in my heart that is the devil speaking

#j.txt #I have so much work to do for this drama and like barely 2 weeks to do it. But I want so horridly to write more #essays on masculinity and gender and militant/scholarly values in these genres like Damn ‼️ Can I please just focus on what im actually- #being graded for please !!!!! #Ive been spending so much time reading/watching stuff in the name of 'research' and I knowww I need to get a move on #but qjj and now lotus casebook beckon my name........ #literally think the only actually useful things I did today were make a list of some idioms to use and a chart for the zodiac time system #i havent even started writing my script yet🤡 perfectionist slacker behavior smths wrong w me for real</3

[palukoo]

i love watching a semi obscure and often not very good old movie bc uh. woman. and then walking away with niche and in depth queer interpretations of the film and like having a mental conspiracy board and being like do you see it? do you see the vision? but like no. you haven’t even seen the movie lol

#tkb and otzi thanks for seeing my visions lol… #if you want to know what I am vaguing about. there are in fact a lot of things. I was going to make a list but there are a lot and I’m also #like well this is sometimes me thinking about the women (a good and fairly well known film) as a dyke drama (not a wide held or strongly #textually supported take) and sometimes this is me talking about sylvia scarlett (not a good film semi well known) and its many #layers of queerness in terms of both gender and sexuality (some of which are like. textual and some of which I am pacing and explaining to #anyone within hearing distance lol) and SOMETIMES this is me talking about like. fours a crowd (a very meh movie not #well known) and being like hey. polycule! (it’s called fours a crowd lol but other than that not a ton of support for this theory to the #layman who isn’t always grasping at gay little straws) #if you do actually want specifics or elaboration my ask box is always open lmfao #anyways I know this reads as sarcastic but I do genuinely enjoy this. I just also wish that I could have a captive audience that I could #make watch these movies and then explain the vision to and have them yes and me. hire me as a film professor I have no #qualifications for it and probably wouldn’t really do a curriculum anyone is asking for but I #sure would personally have a lot of fun! #my post #ham rambles (hambles) #old hollywood

[dimonds456]

I have a lot of mixed feelings about MatPat.

On the one hand, he definitely has a streak of bigotry. The pyro episode really comes to mind on that one, and his refusal to they/them Kris was also not cool, and there have been a lot of other examples here and there.

But he has been getting better. One of his Livestream hosts uses they/them from what I can tell, and I haven't heard any word that he's misgendered them anywhere.

But also, his theories have just been getting lower and lower quality as his channels kinda turned into something one step below a content farm. His Digital Circus theory, for example, he came up with ON GTLive and then just cleaned it up for the episode.

But he was also hosting all four channels. Each channel will have its own host now.

He made a lot of mistakes, but so does everyone.

Am I defending him? I dont know. Do I forgive him? No. Do I honestly care? ...I don't know.

I'm glad he's stepping away. But I'm also gonna miss him.

Like he said in the goodbye video, he was a lot of peoples childhoods. Mine was one of them. He's definitely not the best person nor was he the best influence, but he did help me realize that being a nerd and being passionate are good things. And his passion helped me want to create.

I'm glad he's leaving, but it also feels like my childhood is going with him. One last step towards that all-encompassing 21 in a few months from now.

I'll miss you, Mat. I hope you can continue to grow as a person and support others more in the future. Teach your son what the world failed to teach you when you were younger.

Also read the tags, please, okay Tumblr? Thanks.

#im scared to post this. i know people on here dont like him and i 100% understand why #but i also fear that people assume he can't grow #i may be wrong as ive been staying away from matpat drama but from what ive seen? #mat makes mistakes. then he listens to people when they tell him he fucked up. and he tries to do better. #people forget that hes a person sometimes. #and like i said i could be wrong. there might be evidence out there that hes an evangelical or something #but i havent seen it. i do know about the homophobia and transphobia from the past #but i also know hes apologized and that stuff hasnt really resurfaced #i want him to do better and continue to grow away from the internet #but if im wrong then im wrong. #just please dont harass me for this post okay? #if hes worse than i think he is you can tell me but please dont be mean about it #ive had enough people yelling at me.over this shit recently. #mat if youre SOMEHOW reading this? thanks. your stuff helped me watch to enrich my stories more #give people something to hunt for #you aided my passion #and i wouldnt be who i am today without you man. #so please. keep growing. keep doing better. and i guess i'll see ya when i see ya. #dimond speaks #not maintagging this cuz i dont wanna get killed lol

[azurityarts]

Are any of your PMD characters in (or planned to be in) a romantic relationship? If so, with whom? If you've already answered this, I apologize.

Daily Doodle #286

idk how to romance lol (long answer below!)

I answered a question that was a lil similar to this sometime in March I believe, but I'm glad it was brought up again! I think the older one was just a general question about my PMD characters' dynamics/relationship, so this time I'll laser focus on the ~romance~

Which is unfortunately, as you can see from the doodle, barely developed ^^;; I've never really thought about full-on romance between many of my PMD Heroes and Partners; I've just never quite been that type? Maybe it's been in the back of my mind, but it was never something that I'd explicitly wanted to develop ;;;

In the context of the PMD games, setting a relationship between Hero/Partner isn't super hard since the game pretty much does that for you as a baseline- it's just difficult to put an original or unique twist on the matter, either still as a friendship/platonic relationship, or something beyond that. In the case of the latter, I don't really have any familiarity on the subject; I've never had any experience with a romantic relationship, so I can't exactly draw from many personal experiences to write one ^^;;;

The one time I tried to write a PMD story with an intent for two major characters to fall in love, that bitch got scrapped and rewritten 3 times, and it never got finished LOL

That being said though, there's not really an excuse for me for not writing more (other than a lack of time pfftt)- there's still plenty of media, stories, and people out there that illustrate the ins and outs of romantic relationships more than sufficiently! I suppose I'm just nervous about getting it wrong, which goes for a lot of things I attempt to create or write ><;

TL;DR: I have no clue if my PMD characters are in a romantic relationship despite writing their stories; I have no experience on the subject matter and I've been scared of doing it wrong, so I haven't explored it much.

#pokemon #pkmn #art #doodle #pokemon oc #pmd ocs #oc tag #arcas cubone #silent shinx #brooke oshawott #azuritalks #and it's not like I don't like romance! #don't get me wrong; I get plenty giddy whenever I read or watch sappy/cheesy flirting and rambling #and I'll be clutching my heart when a heartfelt romantic scene is done well #issue is just if it IS done well #romance should add to the story not detract from it #i don't want to shoehorn love triangles and intimacy into a story just for romantic drama and for the sake of having a romance subplot #i want that shit to mean something #tag ramblings #anyways at the end of the day i have no qualifications to talk about this stuff since i don't really know what i'm talking about #and also it's 3 am #ask #anon

[rainbenrry23]

🤔

#i was thinking why do these fucking boys always live in drama? #aren’t they tired? #god it’s exhausting #I don’t really believe a word that oliver boy said #I don’t even think louis’ team bothered to know what happens #who tf wants to sabotage an upcoming band? #your pretty white privileged mouth should know when to shut the fuck up #bullying people online 😭 #istg so dumb it’s making my brain feel ashamed of living on this planet really #why do people embarrass themselves so much 😭 #just go get a real job or read a book or watch a documentary #literally anything else #stupid men and their stupid shit

[waterfall-ambience]

oughhh the fontaine characters :>

#neuvillette furina and lynette especially #i love them they are so fun :> #just to talk about neuvillette for a moment. uh. #you KNOW im not immune to characters who seem intimidating but are quickly revealed to be reasonable and easy to talk to. you know this. #not to sound like a freak but he's got the right balance of power and vulnerability to him. like he's the chief justice and heavily implied #to be the dragon that makes it rain when he cries. he's flawed but is willing to acknowledge that and work on it. instant blorbo. #i love lynette a lot as well. she's genuinely a fun character but also every time she's on screen im just like 'I Know What You Are'. #i was scared that hoyo would make an autistic-coded character actually a robot but nahh we're good. #and furina!! yea :> her design is so pretty and i love how she's such a mess its fun to watch. drama queen!!! #her dynamic with neuvillette was definitely a highlight hahahaha #a bit surprised at how much i ended up liking her (she's silly she's just a little silly!!) considering that fischl gets on my nerves. #though that might be a factor of how furina is unrelenting. she's got the means to be as theatrical as she wants #whereas unfortunately for fischl she reads as much more of a chunni middle schooler and inflicts quite a lot of cringe #genshinposting

[martyrbat]

👍👍

#im bout to be whiny before getting nauseated at being kimda vulnerable and end up deleting this but just #shoutout to my friend (who was the only person i ever shared my writing with for over a year) #just telling me they've always just skimmed my fics AND infodumps because they dont care. like has read at most a handful of me talking & #usually skips any rare audio message that i sent when SUPER excited and made up drama to have an excuse to change topics #again. for over a year. #then getting guilt trippy when i was hurt by it until i apologize instead which !! lmao fuck ok ! #its just... very hmpth :/ bc it eas already a shitty night and week of nonstop migraine. and then this #and taking into account im someone who NEVER blocks any of my friends tags or doesnt read and invest myself in their interests #even if i dont like it; i love seeing people (even strangers) excited and talking about what they like so of course im going to #at least watch them talk on it and/or actually research into it because i want to be able to understand their happiness! #and because its whats important to them !! i dont expect the same and im not shaming anyone for not doing the same its fine I guess #but to tell me? and to say they dont read my writing or give a single shit about me talking about something #when i always put 100% into their interests? am i that shitty of a writer and that obnoxious to listen to lmao #like i feel shitty for even being hurt over it and even venting because you guys arent here for that and its mean to force it on ur dash #and i dont want to be too whiny but also. jfc man #ill stay silly starting tomorrow and post about batmans balls or whatever. sorry for the vent just. bleh. #that ‘december please bro please im begging just a break please man’ post but its me throughout this February too apparently

[heretherebedork]

I'll be honest, I'm with you on War of Y. I remember writing a post here actually before it aired about how I was worried it was going to embolden real life shipping. I guess I'm glad that I think it def didn't do that, but I'm not just vibing with it at all. In any way.

The show is way darker than I expected, and like, you know I can get behind that potentially. But I just feel like it's leaving me oddly emotionally empty.

I don't need my BL's to have prompted message all the time. Sometimes I just want to watch codependent babies navigate their relationships *cough couch* DSN.

But when you're dealing with this kinda Meta BL - especially one that is simultaneously trying to highlight the darker side of the industry while also using and promoting established BL pairs who use the techniques the show is critiqung...I need something. I need some overall message or takeaway.

Or I need it to be just a messy ass soap opera that goes full BL and is just about actors falling in love with a hint of "hey guys maybe we shouldn't go prying into these people private lives".

But the show is way too dark and framed with very nuanced and realistic emotional traumas for me to enjoy it like that. But also...it's not really doing much at the same time? Like it's dumping me with these traumatic storylines and then yeeting to the next one? And I'm...just not having a bop.

I'm only even tangentially still around because I really want to see First and Toru paired together again. But I'm kind of anticipating I'm going to be let down. :(.

I think the biggest problem with War of Y is that it's trying to be deep, realistic, dark, romantic, funny, have a message, show us about real people, condemn shipping but also show that it's plausible... it's trying to be about the problems with making BL shows while also being a BL show and it's not as smart as it thinks it is and it's not as deep as it thinks it is.

Honestly, I think the problem is that Cheewin thinks he's much deeper and more dramatic than he is.

But, eh.

I am... yeah, War of Y is a show that I am watching and I don't hate it but I don't like it except sometimes I do like it and sometimes I just genuinely don't care at all.

None of the characters get to feel well-rounded to me. They might start out well-rounded but the need for the show to be About a Message always ends up stealing that from them for the sake of the Message.

And, on a muuuuch more personal note... this whole theme of 'hopeful but not happy endings' is definitely grating on me. They're rarely quite hopeful enough or they don't feel like they fit the rest of the episodes and it's just... the show is so focused on Being a Message that the rest seems to fall to the wayside.

I dunno. I'm gonna keep watching but it is definitely not the easiest show for me to watch. And not like VV or FUTS where I had something to rage about. This one just... isn't working on a more fundamental level.

#war of y #war of y the series #thai bl #bl drama #thai drama #thai series #bl series #thaibl #this show is just rough #i still gotta watch episode 10 #though i kinda don't want to #the last episode of each set seems to be my least favorite #i say having seen one and read about the next one

[illogicalvulcans]

every once in a while i see a post and i’m just like. well. glad i mostly chill in my own little personal corner of the internet and didn’t smash into whatever iceberg of Drama lurking beneath the surface that the post is referring to

#sorry to vague blog but like. thank u to everyone i follow for being level minded reasonable people #i have reached the point of adulthood where i am So tired of fandom drama #and like. yeah sometimes the drama is so wild you can’t help but watch from the sidelines with a bucket of popcorn #but I don’t want to devote energy to the kind of vitriol that sometimes gets spewed around #bc of disagreements on the internet with ppl I have literally never met in my life #i would much rather just watch/read/play something that doesn’t make me angry #and block/ignore whatever post is upsetting me #illogical rambles

[chadsuke]

Books Read in 2023:

Who Made Me a Princess Season 1 by Plutus & Spoon (2017)

Who Made Me a Princess Season 2 by Plutus & Spoon (2019)

My Love Mix-Up! Vol. 1 by Wataru Hinekure (2019)

My Love Mix-Up! Vol. 2 by Wataru Hinekure (2020)

My Love Mix-Up! Vol. 3 by Wataru Hinekure (2020)

My Love Mix-Up! Vol. 4 by Wataru Hinekure (2020)

My Love Mix-Up! Vol. 5 by Wataru Hinekure (2021)

Not-Sew-Wicked Stepmom Season 1 by Yir (2021)

Not-Sew-Wicked Stepmom Season 2 by Yir (2021)

[ID: Covers of the aforementioned books. End ID.]

#2023media #gigi.txt #having a lot of fun with wmmap!!!! i love the characters #its a good time and honestly i might look into picking up the novel after i finish the manhwa #the translation team shifted so the current translation i have is. rough. which is why i haven't finished yet #my love mix up is SO FUNNNNNNNNNN its so cute and keeps making me laugh and wah wah #i definitely need to read the rest AND watch the drama #not sew wicked stepmom was unexpectedly serious. #like the stepmom is cringe in a funny way but the male lead actually has a great deal of trauma from csa/rape #and i was genuinely surprised and pleased to see it addressed seriously #i also just. love family-based isekais those are much better than the ones that are straight up romance #i want fambly i want love i want GOOD PARENTS AND SIBLINGS AND YEAH #anyway its based off of snow white and its very good #im reading a lot of comics lately lmao

[kiwichaeng]

When I was 8 I fell on the road outside my school and skinned my elbow and my mother yelled at me for crying and said that other kids get hurt worse and don't cry. I was so confused and in so much pain.

Anyway I had to be taken to the ER.

Can we stop telling little kids that they're pain is invalid and they're overreacting. The other thing that sticks out to me from that day is the ER doctor being so gentle with me and giving me candy.

Maybe the wound wasn't "too bad" but I was eight. I was a child.

#our driver picked up my doctor aunt before us so she took me to the er in her hospital #i dont like talking to my mother much these days because somehow it always turns into about her #I'd ask her if she wants to watch a movie with me and suddenly she's talking about the drama and the plot twist in it #i dont mind it i love people telling me about their interests. but sometimes #sometimes i just want my mother to sit with me and watch a movie or read the book i keep on screaming about #this is just one instance and like...i feel so bad talking like this about her. she did so much for me #and how can i forget since she's always saying how i ruined her life by being born 😊 #not my words 🙂 #she always yells at me whenever i get hurt and i can be very dramatic when I get hurt so I do deserve it #but i just take care of myself when i get hurt #i wish she wouldn't scream at me every time i got hurt or cried. #i miss my aunt #vent #are y'all sick of me yet? #evie's random shit

[vaguelyhauntedcornfield]

so many shows are being released for franchises I kinda like that im getting burnt out on watching shows/on the franchises PLS one or two a year is more than enough omg

#i can't keep up wwith this much tv #i havent watched the second season of the witcher yet #i stopped watching marvel showws #i havent seen arcane or the neil geiman show that just came out yet #i havent seen the lotr show #im probably not going to watch andor or will only see it thru my parents putting it on #and none of this is bc i dont want to see the shows or i hate them or whatever #IT'S JUST TOO MUCH #I CANT KEEP UP WITH THIS #I CAN PICK LIKE 2 OR 3 SHOWS TO WORK MY WAY THRU THATS IT #my brain cant hold onto that much info for multi season shows ok #like k dramas are ok bc they're one season usually #but these things???? #theyre getting RENEWED #i finish a show and immediately another one is out #i just want some time to breathe and maybe read a book omg #it's like so much that i just dont pay attention to what's being released anymore and im not watching things id probably otherwise enjoy #it feels like theyre repeating the downfall of network tv idk but like speedrunning it #like rn im watching bleach and loosely following mando and ofmd and waiting for their new seasons #and there are a few more i watch like bridgerton that im not that invested in #but like tv in general im just getting so hit in the face by that i dont want to watch