hey I’ve been feeling kind of uninspired lately and idrk to fix it.. like I have ideas and WANT to do them but when I open ps I cant do it. I even have ideas written down but nothing comes out when I try to follow through and I give up very quickly 😕
do u have this same problem or could this just be a personal thing ? I did just recently finish a big project that I’m really proud of 🫶🏾 so I could probably just be burned out? But that was weeks ago lmao
june anon - also I saw u answer my rec list so I’ll read that rn
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honestly i 100% get what you mean PAHAHA i feel like i'm constantly surrounded by inspiration and new ideas and it gets me pumped and motivated to begin creating but the moment i sit down and actually try to start, i have no idea what i'm doing whatsoever... then it spirals down a whole rabbit hole of 'my taste in xyz is significantly larger than my actual skill level'
likewise, i went into my summer so mentally prepped and ready to begin designing for yeonjuins a lot more and making silly little kpop edits or even venture off into bigger projects to challenge myself but alas, i felt so burnt out without even beginning. prior, i had finished a major design project in one of my classes (to which i ended up getting a 98% in so it was worth <3) which pretty much pushed my creative abilities all around. i sort of had the mindset that i'd go into summer being able to expand off of it but i didn't even begin to create things until what.... two months into my summer? and school being right around the corner now too? PAHAHHA
a lot of creatives will say this as well but you have to make a lot of shitty things in order to make good things. even if you are feeling uninspired and don't know what to make but you know you want to make things, make it. it'll probably end up shitty, you'll probably hate it and think you wasted your time, but literally, in order to make good shit, you need to make actual shit first LOL
there's a lot of, what i recently learnt was called, 'invisible work' that goes into making things. even with my he he ha ha graphics with yeonjuins that are just based around my silly little kpop boys, i do research, make sure all my references are correct, making sure i pull from the right sources, etc etc. it seems overwhelming at first, but if you just get down to the mindset that you need to just make something, whether it be good or absolutely awful, it's a lot less daunting.
one of my favourite favourite quotes is from this book called 'tiny beautiful things' by cheryl strayed. i cried my heart out to this book, and specifically, this part made me get down on my floor and sob.
“do you know what it is to be humble? [...] i’d finally been able to begin [to write again] because i’d let go of all the grandiose ideas i’d once had about myself and my writing-
so talented! so young!
i’d stopped being grandiose.
i’d lowered myself to the notion that the absolute only thing that mattered was getting that extra beating heart out of my chest. which meant I had to write my book.
my very possibly mediocre book. my very possibly never-going-to-be-published book. my absolutely nowhere-in-league-with-the-writers-i’d-admired-so-much-that-i-practically-memorized-their-sentences book. it was only then, when i humbly surrendered, that i was able to do the work i need to do.” (page 57)
tldr: just make shit. there are so many scrapped versions of my gfxs people don't see and so many scrapped ideas that don't even see the light of day on this site. but i think that's also the beauty of being a creator ! you build resilience. you make shitty things to only then make good things. just be patient with yourself my love, ideas will flow when it all fits together but you need to allow for your ideas to flow first (":
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Is there a 300 page essay about Murderbot's armor (specifically the opaque helmet) as a not-so-subtle metaphor for masking in a clearly neurodivergent character already? Because I need it.
The way Murderbot is unvoluntarily without its opaque armor in All System Red in front of the crew (i.e. unmasking) and appears surprised at its own strong facial expressions and other people's reaction to it? The vulnerability that comes with that and how Murderbot spends pretty much the rest of the book wearing or actively missing its armor which keeps it safe from the mortifying ordeal of being known (yet sometimes other characters suggest it might help for it to not opacify the helmet in order for others to see it as a person and to trust it (and in the end idk if it would have achieved the rewards of being loved by its humans and have had its needs met if it hadn't unmasked in this relatively safe environment sometimes)).
Also there's the whole avoiding-looking-directly-at-people-and-using-drones-instead thing which Murderbot usually hides using the opaque helmet, but whenever it doesn't have that people notice it and many react negatively/confused. I think that's a whole neurodivergent-applicable situation in and of itself? Like damn
And then Mensah encourages Murderbot not to wear armor on Preservation station since it would not need it there, Murderbot is hesitant but ends up not wearing any (like 4 books later when we finally get to that bridge) (going for the comfortable clothes it chose for itself instead, with very strong feelings about the whole being able to make choices thing that I cannot go into further at this point because I would absolutely end up BITING SOMETHING OR SOMEONE).
And I'm not going to advocate for unmasking all the time in any setting because hell no, sometimes it absolutely sucks and people are irritated by Murderbot's now visible quirks and are afraid of what they don't know, but many GET TO KNOW Murderbot better and because there are other people that make sure Murderbot is safe and respected and are willing to get people fired for it if they disrespect it (Pin-Lee my beloved) Murderbot can experiment with this situation without being exiled to some abonded part of a planet and other people are forced to spend enough time around ot to learn to respect it and even like it. I just....... It must be so scary and Murderbot is handling so much at once and in this essay I will
PS sorry this is a disorganized mess but so am I and I have so many Thoughts and even more Emotions and so little patience.
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hi sameera! you make the most beautiful gifs with such unique coloring, and i was wondering if you could give some tips on how you color them?
hey, and thank you so much ❤️ i have talked a bit about my giffing/coloring process and shared some tips/tricks in the past (you can find those under my resources and ps help tags!). and there are some amazing tutorials out there if you're new to giffing or need some guidance - meg (@redbelles) posted one recently that is really detailed and similar to my own process; you can find it here.
when i'm making/coloring a gif, i generally focus on 4 things: high quality footage, sharpening, coloring that enhances a gif's natural colors/tones, and practice/patience. i'm going to go into slightly more detail on each of these:
high quality footage - 2160p/4k whenever possible, 1080p if 4k isn't available. this isn't extremely important/necessary, but personally i love giffing 4k and find it emphasizes the details of a gif and its coloring and keeps it crisper.
sharpening - i've been experimenting with my sharpening settings, and i've only recently settled on something newer that's more to my liking - i've linked it here, and you can find my older settings in the aforementioned resources/ps help tags on my blog. just like hq footage, sharpening makes a big difference as well - so long as your gif isn't too sharp or too blurry.
the coloring itself - i really love vibrant gifs, and my coloring process has changed a lot recently. right now, i focus on using settings like curves, channel mixer, levels, vibrance/saturation, and selective color to edit the hues/tones of a gif (particularly when working with skin tones) and make the colors pop without oversaturating. i've been giffing for so long to the point where i can use settings like channel mixer intuitively, but it took a lot of practice; kate (@zoyanazyalensky) has posted a really great tutorial on how to use the channel mixer adjustment layer here if you need it! using layers like that really makes a difference and saves a lot of time with color correcting, and it just makes the gif look better overall.
it's also important to try to color each individual gif from scratch instead of relying on a psd and copying and pasting the same setting values on each gif; you can use the same settings/adjustment layers, but make sure to tweak it accordingly for each scene you're coloring.
practice/patience - gifmaking and coloring is subjective depending on the creator, so experimentation is always beneficial and practice really makes a difference! my own coloring process has changed/improved signficantly just in the past few months, let alone in the past 7-ish years that i've been giffing, and i'm always learning something new whenever i open photoshop or scroll through others' creations on tumblr (ntm that as technology/software evolves, gifs and coloring will naturally evolve with it). so make sure that you're not too hard on yourself, and don't be afraid to try different methods - go for the style that you enjoy most or that looks best to you, because that's ultimately what's most important!
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Okay aluminium hat on, it's hypothyzing time:
So on the newest picture you can see Julians (my buam *sigh*) arm tattoos better and there is this big A
Which brought me back to this big ass omega sign on bmth skirt guy's arm.
Now we can't know if there's a connection between them but they are on opposite arms and have the same style (though Julian's tattoos are all in that blackline style), also alpha and omega are the first and the last letter of the greek alphabet, maybe Julian was born first? And they wanted matching tattoos?
There was also this christian stuff I found while searching and them having grown up in Bavaria it's entirely possible they're christian so idk, maybe the connection is there and not with each other. But I want to believe they love each other so much they wanted twin tattoos.
Now onto your opinion🎤
Should have sent that one with the last ask. (They also both have snake tattoos. And I still need to know what is written on bmth skirt guys throat)
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Thank you for the mic 🎤, the aluminium hats are on 🤡👽🤖
Ah, you're embracing the Bua name, maybe you'll come around to liking Bavaria after all eventually, if only for the concerts and your Buam 😌 also love "bmth skirt guy", you're right, bmth should put a swooshy skirt in their merch, I'd buy it. Or your buam; I have enough shirts I don't wear but I could use a longer skirt. They could put the dancing skeleton on there at the bottom. pspsp Laura's Buam, who's responsible for merch, I have suggestions.
Your Bua has some very nice tattoos there 👀 is that a lightswitch though? Because, not to project here, but that reminds me so much of that artwork about ADHD that goes "utterly obsessed - uninterested" or something like that. The gameboy 🥰 Zelda Minish Cap my dear.
I like your idea with the matching tattoos as the first and last letter of the greek alphabet! Now I don't know a lot about them, or anything, really, but they did seem like they're pretty close, what with their bickering on stage, and a lot of siblings get matching tattoos. And I like that idea better than something about the bible or whatever that was. I don't know about you, especially because I don't know how catholics and protestants are split up in Germany, and I'm from one of the more conservative/traditional areas of Austria, so I know quite a few people my age who were altar boys/girls, and I don't think even any of them would get a religion-themed tattoo. I'm sure there are people our age who would get a tattoo like that, but probably not that many. Then again I can't speak for Bavaria, but I still like the matching twin tattoos idea better.
"But I want to believe they love each other so much they wanted twin tattoos."
I see. It's not just your buam making me cry anymore, you've joined them!
So our questions for after the next concert: A breakdown of all their tattoos but especially the letters and the writing on BMTH shirt's neck, and if and where he found vegan cheese that melts and tastes good. And if they have pets and if yes, can we please see them, it's part of the targeted marketing, and what about a long colourful swooshy skirt as merch 🐱🐶🦝
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