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#i messaged my other old highschool classmate on insta and said i saw her in my neighborhood
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#just a little diary dump:
#i've contacted my school therapist again. asked for help regarding anxiety abt schoolwork since i dont get any other treatment
#she said she can help me go thru if there are other options since neither psychiatric nor healthcare center will help me
#+ she said that she and i can talk abt my anxiety regarding school etc. so in two weeks i'll see her
#school starts next week. 4days a week rip... lol thats much for me. a bum. a cellar dweller. i've decided that im gnna go to all my classes
#and always work while im there since its harder for me to do it at home. and i will also talk more w my teacher nd ask them for help
#then im looking into an online therapy service. it miiight be possible for me to do that. but then i have to contact them and focus on only
#1 or 2 issues. in my experience it just doesnt work to go to them and be like everythings bad :(( they wont help u then. i have to narrow it
#down for them. nd i'll think i will talk 2 them abt my extreme feelings of loneliness and also my procrastination behavior
#but yeah i have no idea if it's possibly bc idk if i can get financial aid for that service. im still in contact w the healthcare center so
#i hope she will come to some sort of conclusion nd not just leave my high nd dry (she sent another referral to the persobality disorder -
#clinic. even if they rejected the first one. so i'll see)
#hmmm yeah. the situation w my sisters is sooooo rough. i hate it. they make me feel so so bad
#and the housing situation is roughhhh. it's impossible to get an apartment lol.
#so i need to find a way to shut it off and try to not let it bother me
#just focus on finishing upper secondary school. nd i've been thinking abt taking out a loan for it and take german/french/spanish classes
#instead of doing what im doing now when im actually poor and stressed bc they can choose to cut me off anytime
#im meeting my highschool friend on tuesday. she asked if i wanted to hang out for a bit c:
#im a bit anxious but like yeah.. it's nice to get out and talk to someone besides my family. which is just my mom lol
#i messaged my other old highschool classmate on insta and said i saw her in my neighborhood
#she replied but i had lowkeyyy hoped for more... like maybe being able to befriend her T-T but she didnt seem so interested in talking to me
#which is ok ofc. it just made me a bit sad bc idk how to make friends and i thought she was rlly nice. but oh well
#im rlly sad atm. maybe heartbreak prob. even more sad bc it was my stupid fault but yeah
#im still grateful for all that it gave me. nd how i got to experience feelings of warmth nd love nd appreciation i didnt know i could feel
#so even if im just contantly heavily sad bc i keep being like oh. i wanna ask this. say that. wonder what theyre up to. etc etc. i just have
#to... be sad and just keep going forward
#hope and try to not fuck everything else up. even if it feels like... what do all the other things matter when what i rlly rlly wanted got
#ruined..... thats life tho. i know. im just so bad at handling life :((
#i feel so broken and confused and i hate that i didnt get to be normal and healthy
#im so illequipped at dealing w myself nd my emotions nd there seems to be no professional help for me
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