#i have seasonal affective disorder but it’s summer

[tortoisebore]

tortoiselore nothing makes me want to kay em ess quite like this being the temperature outside rn 😀

#i swear to god #i have seasonal affective disorder but it’s summer #august worst month of the year confirmed #i fuckin hate it here #it’s #boiling hot #like BOILING #my steering wheel is black i almost d*ed trying to drive home #the paint on my car is literally bubbling off #my electric bill is skyrocketing #god help me #that’s an air freshener i got in edinburgh that won’t fit on my rear view mirror #so it just Sits there #tortoiselore

[the-unfortunate-ly]

i miss summer

#these are from a walk i took in summer at like 6 am #apparently i have seasonal affective disorder #which is odd to me because its always been an 'all year round' type thing #and it still is #but wow winter is such a fucking nightmare #it makes everything so much worse #my photography #midwestern gothic #american gothic #dreamcore #liminalcore #liminal space #oddcore #weirdcore #vent #ventcore #liminal photography #nostalgiacore #nostalgic #vintage #midwestern emo #surrealcore #midwest gothic #rural america #film photography #landscape #southern gothic #agoraphobia #sunset #sunrise

[lesbienneanarchiste]

So tired of complaining so just insert one of my many repetitive boring ass posts about how lonely and exhausted and ugly I am here to save all of us the time

#every time i start thinking hey maybe i should like... make an effort to connect w ppl.. and then it goes bad im like ok. killin myself ig #had too much caffeine so instead of being Awake im just so tired im nauseous but i cant even doze off nvm sleep #and as usually the summer depression is kicking in right on time #winter is bad enough but at least most ppl are staying inside doing nothing #summer when everyone is doing fun shit and having friends and otherwise having a half decent or even good time #while im stuck here rotting in the same way I've been rotting my whole life #is worse. I'd take the 'no sun makes brain bad' seasonal affective disorder over the intense misery of summer #disgruntled octopus

[per-the-jellicle-magician]

I wanna draw so bad but in the grand competition for my energy drawing keeps losing to the long reigning champion: crocheting

#I've got so many ideas and my brain's itching to draw #but i just dont know how to prioritise it over crochet when the latter is easier to do when im tired #and im tired a lot since it started getting warmer #plus drawing just takes a ton of my mental energy #probably something about me being amateur‚ not used to it and getting quickly tired cuz all the decision making and stuff #i know it'll probably improve with practice but rn i get tired just looking at my pencils #wanted to start learning digital but yeah nah #is it autistic burnout? is it seasonal affective disorder in summer? is it some possible fatigue problems? who knows not me #im just frustrated with it #also also market season is starting and last year i only did fall ones and after 3rd i was scrambling to make stuff and it was a lot #i wanted to build up a stash of stuff now so i dont have to scramble and wreck my hands with crocheting later #I have a bunch of plans for what i want to crochet to sell but so far ive only had the energy for making the easiest thing i over and over #lucky for me its a quick pattern and i like it a lot‚ it sells and i dont even have to undercharge myself for it #but still #dont have probelms with energy guys it sucks so much #just venting #personal

[kurapikas-fucking-pissed]

i woke up to it being all cold and rainy today life is beautiful again i love when it's cold i love when it's not hot as fuck outside

#nothxh #genuinely think i might have seasonal affective disorder just for the Summer instead #which sucks actually because it's summer 90% of the year where i live #i love you rain i love you cold weather i love you clouds and grey sky #brain still kinda mean but it's fine things r ok

[mercuryislove]

I'm pretty sure I'm suffering so much because the weather is warming up

#it's already too hot to take a walk in the daytime. it's february. i hate spring i hate summer i hate the sun. #i have seasonal affective disorder but for summertime and im not joking

[thethingything]

me at the start of autumn: okay yeah it's almost winter depression time but I'm sure it won't be that bad. I have a daylight lamp and better coping mechanisms and it's not like I'm not used to being awake at night most of the time anyway...

me now, in the middle of winter, getting maybe 3 hours of daylight per day: I have no sense of the passage of time and I think I'm inventing new forms of insanity

#personal #thoughts #🍬 post #seasonal affective disorder #our sleep schedule seems to shift a bit towards sleeping at around 5am and waking up at around lunchtime in the winter #which does give us a little bit of daylight #but good god it's dark for most of the time we're awake #and it's not even like summer nights where there's a hint of light for most of it so the light level still changes constantly #which at least lets us judge the time a bit better and not get too disoriented #in winter it's just like... yeah it's dark... how far into the night is it? I have no idea... it's just dark #yeah summer tends to suck for other reasons but at least I can tell the earth is actually turning

[icewindandboringhorror]

i can tell summer has been very hot and annoying to me this year because just seeing snow in the sims is enough to be deeply emotionally moving 

#like it doesn't even look that nice. its just a plain default house with pixelly trees and stuff but literally even seeing reminders #of snow and winter it's just like aAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA i feel like i could cry ghhj #It's like a transcendent experience just to gaze upon digital snow #I feel like I have the opposite of that seasonal affective disorder thing where people get depressed in the winter and are so happy #to see summer and warm weather. for me it's like the second it starts to get warm I am filled with nothing but dread and miserable until #it's finally fall again and ESPECIALLY winter. my only complaint is that I hate being out at night or driving in the dark #or going anywhere and doing anything if it's not daylight. so in the winter when it starts to get dark at like 4pm its super limiting #IF it were reversed where winter had the longest daylight and summer had the shortest then winter would legitimately be the absolute perfect #season in every way. Short days is it's only solitary flaw #Just like longer days/more daylight is summers ONLY positive #I'm sure this is also different for people with central heating and air but for those of us with either zero ac or a tiny little #dinky window ac thats hard to install and uninstall every year and doesnt actually get the whole house and etc. etc. etc. #then it's just like.. idk how I'm supposed to enjoy constant headaches and being drenched in sweat #and unable to sleep half the time because it's 85F INSIDE OF MY ROOM when tryong to get comfortable and being basically unable #to go outside because you feel like you're going to pass out and you have to keep like 5 layers of heat/light blocking curtains up #just to try and reduce it a little so it's just like 2-3 months sitting in a steaming dark box sweating and miserable #And then people are like 'thats why we go on vacation! it's my favorite season because I get to travel away from the heat and go to the rive #r or the coast!' and it's like.. okay.. if it was REALLY a good season then you wouldnt have to travel just to get away from it like hghb #that argument just makes it look bad? 'Summer is good because I can enjoy spending my time escaping the conditions of summer!' #ANYWAY.. i hope cooler weather will finally arrive soon. there are STILL days in the mid-high 80s here... why was is like #87 degrees this afternoon on fucking September 25th .... w h y #I know climate changes is affecting the entire everywhere but it seems to be heating up so quickly on the west coast #If I cant get to the uk or canada or at least back to the northeast US in the next few years I am going to become an evil villain #idk how much longer I can take this before I transform into a rabid beaste #ANYWAY.. as always.. my mood is craving the cold.. craving snow.. I love being cold so much. I used to sneak into the walk in cooler at #daycare when I was a kid legit like cold has just always been so comforting for me. I am not built to be even moderately warm ever at all lo #l... It is so draining and the longer that summer goes on the more intense it is until I'm like crying at sims pictures ghjbj

[hillbillyoracle]

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#realized last year #that I might have seasonal affective disorder #but for summer #and the last couple weeks #i've been in denial about how depressed #I've been lately #completely forgeting #last years realization #all SAD info is for winter though #not sure how to lessen it now

[jinglejanglemornings]

i take back every bad thing i've ever said about this life, God is alive, magic is afoot, and all the mysteries of the universe can be contained in a long early morning oregon walk and townes van zandt's self titled album

#5:30 am summer walks are divine but only ever happen when i'm not sleeping well #which happens a lot in the summer #i think i have seasonal affective disorder #lol

[nytfythfhtyf]

i dont wanna go in public or get a job bc people literally just act exactly like my severe social anxiety tells me they will and my life already sucks enough rn

#why would i want to get over my social anxiety when people literally act like that #i have the opposite of seasonal affective disorder where i get suicidal in the summer bc its hot and cannot dress comfortably if i have to #go outside #i say things

[coldhands-sunkeneyes]

No offense but this isn’t the summer I turned pretty. This is the summer I rotted away in my room and developed an anxiety problem

#i fucking hate it here #I’m alone with my thoughts and my thoughts got HANDS #I really am living summertime sadness at this point #maybe I have reverse seasonal affective disorder idk #the summer i turned pretty #the girls that get it get it

[emoangel44]

i cant believe its december 2mrw...

#ive been in a fit of a funk lately... hopefully the snow and christmas lights will save me #it is my favourite time of year Xp. tbh maybe i have like opposite seasonal affective disorder bc im always completely miserable in the #summer with no energy. anyways CHRISTMAS!!!! XD #raxz.txt

[laurelwinchester]

man i hate summer

#instead of tanking in the winter like most people who have seasonal affective disorder my mental health tends to tank in the summer #because i just like to be difficult i guess #not to mention my numerous chronic illnesses that tend to flare in the summer #and wow wow wow these past couple summers have sucked #anyway this super fun post brought to you by tonight's sudden anxiety attack that decided to come out of nowhere? #autumn cannot come soon enough #personal

[hobisexually]

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#You know what’s weird? #in a way I am more steady in myself than I have ever been. I see my worth rather than pretend I see my worth but actually don’t #I see where all my shit stems from in a way I never used to. I talk about it in a communicative way I was never able to before #like all of it is lining Up and somehow? I also feel worse? #I don’t know if it’s because I’m just more aware now and also more capable of changing my habits or whatever or if it’s just less repressed #but like. been having seasonal affective disorder since I was eight probably and even before but then you didn’t know #and I didn’t put the pieces together until. what. 2014? 2015? I didn’t know it had a name #and id always count it a good winter if I hadn’t disassociated at all. that was the goal. #now 2022 is over and the months where id disassociate are also over (it always gets easier for me come January) #and I made it through without disassociating! that’s a huge win right! right? but ….. #and somehow it felt like? SUCH a rough winter? and I handled it well but everything feels so heavy #and I know it’s not worse than prior years. I do. but it doesn’t FEEL like that #perhaps that’s because of everhthing that happened in December and my falling out with my dad and my owning up to how deep my trauma runs #instead of passing it off as ‘haha yeah some things were rough and winter sucks BUT I AM SO CHIPPER AND GOOD AND UPBEAT HA!’ #but honestly looking at it just. is a lot. and logistically I know I genuinely am the best version of myself currently #but 2014 me was funner thinner and wilder and she was also COMPLETELY unhinged and I know I shouldn’t want that version of me back #but I’m constantly comparing current me to her?????? as if she was the ultimate goal #I know when March comes and we’re back at the summer clock I’ll have forgotten how heavy I felt now #but whew…………….. whew it’s a lot #also completely being honest with yourself about jn how many areas your anxiety is Fucking debilitating sometimes #really sucks. it sucks. I feel so raw and vulnerable and I want to stop fixing things and just live #OH THAT TOO my roommate is Living It Up and I used to be able to keep up with her when we were in uni and now I can’t and that just #makes it feel even more like i regressed. I hate it. and again I Know myself now in a way I didn’t then and that’s worth so much #but ugh!!! ugh. and also I HATE that it feels like all I’ve done since November is complain but it’s been. Well. extraordinarily rough #I haven’t even told the internet any of it and even my friends know the minimum but. sigh. SIGH. #just sucks to see where your everything comes from. you know?

[spacecowboybriony]

Gosh it’s so nice to have a sunny day, warm enough to not need a jacket, to go out for lunch and have a day off work.

And I tidied my room, rearranged my nail polish, and I’m feeling good.

#last week was awful mentally so it’s nice to have a good day #I much prefer spring and summer to winter #that seasonal affective disorder is not fun