#i have issues 👍

[chilei-the-hotsauce]

guess who made a meme !!!

#i havent watched it yet #but the vibes are there #i feel the hyperfixation approaching #i feel like i relate to zim ?? #i have issues 👍 #haha tiny mäns #he's so loud haha #im tiny and loud too #yay #✨ p r o j e c t i n g ✨ #invader zim #meme #invader zim meme #am i projecting onto him or is he projecting onto me #chilei found the mentats

[medicaltechnician]

okay grusome shit below. (tw/ thoughts of self harm, hard drug mention)

God this engie shift is terrible. I want to cut my arm off and cut open my veins. I want to gouge my eyes out. Idk why my brain is telling me this is how I connect with my shift. How I go into my world. I sound fucking crazy oh my god. I should try acid or smth to help hallucinate my world. I miss teufort. I miss my lab, my workshop. I come from a fucking au, a goddamn fic. Holy hell my arms burn (its all psychological, i’m fine physically).

What the fuck is this problem? I wish I knew, I wish I knew how to fix it.

#ker talks #kin issues #spiritual kin issues #tw thoughts of self harm #tw drug mention #engineer kin #honestly probably hints of medic kin too #i have issues 👍

[pokeberry5]

girl experiences gender euphoria and is immediately slammed by grief

for @litttlittt <3. this was supposed to be a portrait of caroline hill, but litta mentioned tim looking like janet when dressed as caroline and identity issues and angst and things spiraled

something about tim not knowing if he's his mother's child or bruce's or neither's.

figuring out the looks:

i wanted janet to have that poofy 70s hair

#tim drake #dc #bruce wayne #janet drake #sart #i'm picturing this as transfemme tim hence “he” and also compounding issues about bruce treating him as a daughter #which is exactly the gender validation tim wants and needs but isnt sure he deserves #but this also definitely works for trans tim #she gets to process that she looks like her mom!! and her mom will never get to know her daughter #would she have wanted to know her daughter? even though she showered tim with love when she was around #she barely knew her son #gender idk he's a girl 👍 hope that helps #i went down a rabbit hole looking up vintage dior necklaces -- hopefully something martha wayne wouldve worn #-- but dior necklaces are COMPLICATED #i almost drew pearls but i think that wouldve been too cruel to bruce lol #(a decent amount of my art--even when it's not femme tim--gets tagged 'gender' and i dont know what im going but im glad 👍)

[stormte]

@somerandomdudelmao you’ve inspired me too much

My fingers hurt now

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #storms art #tmnt #uhhh anyway im inhaling these issues as much as i can #which isnt a lot considering i have so much shit to focus on but yeah #👍👍 love the apocalypse series sm lmao

[bishonenspit]

Kaze To Ki No Uta (風と木の詩) on the cover of June Magazine (1987-88)

#kaze to ki no uta #the poem of the wind and the trees #vintage shoujo #keiko takemiya #kazeki #gilbert cocteau #serge battour #my scans #my collection #finally got my scanner up and running 👍so here are these #not sure if these have been scanned at all before but i thought i would anyways #apologies for any creases and scuffs but they are old! and two are just covers lol #note: june ran for longer than the yrs in the description it's just the years the issues are from xox

[croakings]

i apologize for mithrunposting incessantly but honestly if any of you expected better of me you shouldn't have

anyway i get it and some of the failguy jokes are funny. i can tell that nothing i've run into is even malicious. but also it would be really cool and awesome if there were simply less posts calling a disabled person a failure or baby or a dog or whatever for needing accommodation or extra help, especially when like. hey did you know the source material very on purpose did not do anything remotely like that. critical thinking question: could there be some reasons these phrases are not great, potentially

#* #mithrun #dungeon meshi #people are being weird about laois and falin wrt autism also but this is a separate issue #the downside of rep outside of like Average Action Movie Protagonist #which is to say. rep at all. as we would think of it. #is that you get to see not in-group folks talk about those characters. also. #and sometimes. people have. let us say. unexamined. or unacknowledged. biases. perhaps prejudices. at times. #ANYWAY #DISABLED PEOPLE HOWEVER DISABLED ARE NOT INFANTS OR ANIMALS. THANK YOU. #ALSO JUST FOR THE RECORD NOT THAT IT MAKES A DIFFERENCE TO MY POINT #BUT MITHRUN IS SAID IN THE STORY TO BE FAIRLY SELF SUFFICIENT OUTSIDE OF DUNGEON CRAWLING. #his intelligence and strength stats are both extremely high. hey. hey. hey guys. what about him compels you to portray him #as weak or bumbling or unintelligent. quickly. #edit: #like look. if your whole joke is just ''ooooh he's so fucked up. he's so fucked up he's basically a goofy dog''. think about some things. #talking about/including a character's disability: 👍✅ #exclusively talking about how fucked up it makes them/how fucked up it is to be disabled: 😕❌ #double anyway. fucking. please for the love of god if nothing else. understand that real life disabled people see how you talk about #and portray those with disabilities. and sometimes! it does not feel good. thank you. #this isn't no fun alloweding. just THINK before you say shit PLEASE. #the only character ive seen get called a dog as much as mithrun is fucking laois. which. yk? ykwim here? would u call chilchuck a pursedog. #would that be fucked up‚ maybe. can you tell me why. are you reading me. #ok. i'm done. just. god. negative sims interaction bubble. JUST THINK ABOUT IT THATS ALL. #''its funny to ship mithrun with beautiful people bc he looks so fucked up now haha'' PLEASE CAN ANYONE HEAR ME. #actually i have more to say. rbing this. god. God.

[uncanny-tranny]

Definitely don't knock your device's accessibility options. I was looking through my phone's accessibility settings last night, and wow, it feels like technology has really advanced since I first got a smartphone.

I've even found a setting that raises certain sounds I apparently have trouble hearing, and it feels like I'm experiencing the music I love with a completely different perspective. It's honestly wild because my first smartphone had like... mono audio, and that was as close as you could get to accessibility

#disability #disability advice #like i'm not HoH as far as i know but i do have some differences with hearing #honestly my biggest issue is. i can barely differentiate where sound is coming from. i usually guess when i can't see a sound's origin lmao #which i don't think disables me but it is harder when i'm driving i've found #there have been a few times where i HEAR an ambulance but i have no clue where it's coming from. like none. #and like... you don't even have to be disabled to use those features on *your* device... #...it's just that for many disabled people they will be heavily invested in making their things accessible #so while i'm not unable to use my phone if that hearing booster wasn't in use it still enhances my experience 👍 #also live transcription???? that would NEVER have been an option with my first phone #i feel OLD (ish)

[lolhex12]

we don't talk enough abt akutagawa's cough / lung disease (chronic&terminal) yet it has so much angst potential?? anywayy

after the current arc, atsushi knows akutagawa is actively dying and he's the only one who does bc akutagawa didn't tell anyone else abt it. (altho, in all honesty, the amount this man coughs should at least hint at it. i'm honestly amazed not more ppl in the story are concerned abt it)

so, the next mission they have together, akutagawa coughs and atsushi is now aware what it really means, so he wonders out loud with nonchalance masking his concern: "hey, so like, do you think yosano's ability would help with your cough and all? would it go away then?"

akutagawa, wiping his mouth, slightly annoyed: "how would i now? i'm not well-acquainted with your coworkers, weretiger, therefore it's none of my concern. and even then, i wouldn't trust any ada members with my issues, nor my life."

atsushi finds his words a bit sus bc 'u do trust me tho', but doesn't say it out loud and they leave it at that.

somehow, it becomes a regular thing. every time they have a mission together and atsushi hears his partner cough, he presents more ideas of how they could cure a terminal lung disease, and they vary in absurdity as he runs out of inspiration.

his ideas range from mere "have you tried going to a doctor?" (<- at which akutagawa stares in disbelief: "you either think i'm an idiot, or you are the idiot. which one is it?" and atsushi pouts bc 'ok yeah, fair... but also, rude') to insanities like "maybe witchcraft would help! i could look up witches in the area and see if black magic or something has any luck." (<- at which akutagawa is so done he doesn't even entertain the idea and just keeps walking)

they never follow through with any idea tho, bc akutagawa stubbornly refuses to waste time on trying to find a cure when his time on earth already is very limited.

it should also be noted that each time the cough gets worse; louder, rougher, more persistent and even bloody, which only makes atsushi more and more worried.

so one time, akutagawa's particularly annoyed by atsushi's insane and stupid ideas. he turns to him and point-blank asks: "why do even care so much whether i succumb to my illness or not? surely, my death should only leave you overjoyed to see the world be rid of one more evil."

that makes atsushi think bc 'why? why does he care whether akutagawa lives or dies? he's right, a bad person like a mafioso dying should be a good thing.'

after lengthy contemplation he comes to the conclusion that he simply cannot have his sworn enemy/rival/partner die from something as pathetic as a disease. someone as strong as akutagawa has to die in a more memorable way - not alone, in a bed, coughing, with nothing more to be remembered by. if anything he'd have to die fighting atsushi or something. yeah that's it. that's why. (<- it's not, but they're not quite there yet)

so atsushi tells him as much. akutagawa accepts it bc 'yeah, makes sense. what else could the reason be?'

the whole routine of coughing and brainstorming a solution in vain continues as the ideas get even more insane, the cough even worse and atsushi more concerned than ever.

the next time akutagawa is annoyed enough to pose the question again, atsushi is close to tears from anxiety as he holds up akutagawa who collapsed and can't seem to subdue his cough properly.

atsushi struggles to get out the water bottle and cough drops he'd started carrying around on their missions together. he's so scared bc he's never seen akutagawa look so sick and frail before (but not weak. never weak. akutagawa could never be weak in atsushi's eyes. it's impossible, bc akutagawa being strong is a simple, unchangeable fact, constant in any possible universe).

what would he do if akutagawa actually died there? in his arms? on a mission? which would probably get cancelled. would the pm think atsushi killed him? does he bring back the body or just bury it somewhere? pretend he got killed on the mission and not by his own body that had turned on him years ago and was in reality a long time coming? he couldn't even bear to think abt it.

"why tf do u care so much??" akutagawa yells with a scratchy voice before his cough continue despite his best efforts to stop.

atsushi can barely breathe anymore. "because i don't want you to die, you idiot! we're a team! you're my partner. who will i be left with if you go?" tears stream down his face, mainly from how overwhelming his anxiety feels. or maybe bc he really doesn't want his partner to die? nah, it's the anxiety. definitely the anxiety. (<- #denial)

akutagawa, at first embarrassed how his collapse derailed their mission bc goddammit he's supposed to be a professional and not let his issues interfere with his job, pauses when he sees atsushi crying... for him? because of him? ???

he's very confused bc he's pretty sure his rival/enemy/partner should not be so concerned abt his health and impending death, but something abt atsushi's expression and that whole situation makes him rethink his outlook on life.

that's when akutagawa starts taking his health more seriously and actively looks for possible, feasible ways to cure his disease, even if there's only a small chance it'll actually work. bc seeing atsushi like that made him realize there are a handful of people who care abt him and would mourn him if he died; more than just his sister and higuchi.

it made him realize his life had a bigger impact on others than he'd previously thought, not all of it bad.

#i'm insane. i wrote this at 4am and it should not have gotten this long. i just wanted to note down the idea not write it out #fml #they're both very much idiots btw. they care but cannot come to the conclusion it could possibly be in a romantic way #only enemies bc 'grrr ure evil' and 'grr dazai likes u better' #they do eventually get over it and start dating dw trust me i can see the future😌👍 #bsd #bungou stray dogs #bsd headcanon #headcanon #nakajima atsushi #akutagawa ryunosuke #shin soukoku #sskk #akutagawa x atsushi #i desperately need to see more chronic illness!akutagawa content bc it's such a good angst source #and best part abt it? IT'S CANON. CANON CHARACTER WITH CANON CHRONIC HEALTH ISSUES AND TERMINAL LUNG DISEASE #like cmon it's. right. there. we just gotta grab it and the magic will happen #just watched the new ep. #ngl kinda disappointed to see how akutagwa's confession abt his disease was portrayed as an off-hand comment. it needed more impact imo #then again. it's bones <- disappointed but not surprised

[harpyface]

Fanart for @phospadparadscha's Disco Universe! Featuring weapon ideas :))

Harry has a spiked bat but instead of nails it has spiked glass (disco ball-esque) which would have been a normal bat for pre-martinaise harry (great for a gym teacher), and uh I actually don't know what to call Kim's weapon, they're like disc blades, and so stick plus little sharp bits equals Black Opal's chainsaw ^_^

more thoughts and praises under the cut <3

My original ideas were a disco ball frag grenade for Harry, maybe something dodgeball like for pre-martinaise, and a compound crossbow for Kim, which would probably just be a pellet crossbow for Black Opal. But then one, I wanted Kim's weapon to be "something strikes quick and hard, with little need for multiple blows" (in the words of phos :3) and generally more aerodynamic than a crossbow (I was definitely thinking ranged weapon). So um throwable halo as a weapon equals the disc blades :) ummm now i'm gonna be completely honest, the disc blades are from deathbringer in wings of fire, they are like circles that are knives??? and i looked at the graphic novel and yeah they are just sharp circles lmao

I think in general I was really excited to draw a chainsaw lmao, I also switched up Black Opal's design a little (aviator jacket, different colors) but I love the blacklight/bowling alley carpet palette that he has.

I haven't actually seen steven universe but this has a bunch of my favorite things so I really like this AU (minerals, disco elysium, crossover aus) and phos's art is so cool <3

#i'm not that great with cartoony styles like steven universe but i've done something similar to this before #i have seen the movie 👍 but in general i love rocks and gems and stuff it is one of my favorite things #found out about druzy quartz through this and was ecstatic lmao #black opals second pair of arms is hard to see but its there #drawing the chainsaw sucked actually but im from qsmpblr so chainsaw aesthetic is awesome #this rlly helped with my lineart slash line weight issues i am trying to improve #whoa two posts in two days who is this maybe even a post tomorrow #corvid creates #disco elysium #steven universe #steven universe crossover #disco elysium au #disco universe #harry du bois #kim kitsuragi

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

me: why do I feel tired and drained like I went for a hike even though I've barely done anything physical today?

me ten minutes later: oh yeah I forgot I'm on my period minor blood loss will probably do that to a gal huh

#hypochondria chronicles #<- new tag babes #tmi #this is an uncommon occurrence for me and I was like oh my gosh I've been having minor stomach issues am I having a heart attack? #and then I realized. I am on day 3 of That Week Of The Month and also it's been a bit Stressy which probably has a bearing on things #so yayyy... y'all get to hear about my tmi on the internet so it's less scary for me. this is my diary 👍 #Lu rambles

[miutonium]

Off-balance 💃

#she fall for him ahaha get it?????? #okay that was not funny and horrible i am going to sleep now #i cried the whole day today lol but i am happy again because of them #also because i realize that I can basically draw this so like i have solved my issue temporarily 👍👍👍 #10/10 recommend making selfship content for myself to cure sadness woaaaghh #asukart #selfship #selfshipping #selfship art #selfship community #selfship talk #self insert oc #self insert art #self insert community #self insert x fictional other #oc x canon #si x fo #professor utonium #ppg professor #selfshipping community

[choiceschatter]

Worst things characters from BOLAS have said or done

#playchoices #blades of light and shadow #bolas 2 #blades 2 #blades of light and shadow 2 #blades mc #nia ellarious #mal volari #imtura tal kaelen #aerin valleros #tyril starfury #bolas kade #princess valax #threep #it’s all true but leaving an abusive home is hard actually #not that I condone what Aerin did ofc #just don’t wanna be flippant abt a real world issue #speaking of which #tyril my beloved does have his elven supremist faults #but he works through them in book 2 #👍 #my stuff

[good-beanswrites]

My last post made me want to spin the ballet au to suit the general cast, keeping Es as the protagonist 🩰

I don't have art for this one but I still got a bit carried away with the details LOL This definitely leans more into a sweet fix-it :3

The story would open with Es waking up in the medical room of Milgram Dance Academy, a very small and isolated school. Es is told they suffered a bad head injury during a performance, resulting in amnesia. Their instructor (Jackalope. Make this work however you wish.) tells them not to worry about it, and to focus on their dancing for now. Es feels a pressing responsibility to stay and rehearse, so they agree.

Jackalope tells them they must understudy several roles while recovering, not ready to jump into things right away. They're grateful, since they're struggling with their identity and expression without their memories.

The first student they are directed to is a shy and lanky dancer by the name of Haruka. They study under him as the role of a graceful, melancholic swan. They watch the choreography in general, and it looks nice enough. Es proceeds to spend several rehearsals with him, talking and bonding and learning he has a bit more going on than meets the eye. They try to offer help as he admits to familial issues, self esteem questions, and comments about sibling jealousy. In turn, he teaches Es to mimic some of his powerful emotions. At the end of their time together, they both perform for their class in full costume and staging. Now, Es understands each move with a deeper understanding than their initial look at the steps.

Next, they’re sent to meet the bubbly girl playing Juliet and begin the process anew. This continues to make a total of ten roles. Some of the dancers take the sessions kindly, while others are brash, secretive, or just confusing.

After rehearsing with Kotoko and learning to understand her determination and confidence, Es is sent back to Haruka, who has moved onto a new show and new role. They’re shocked to discover that their words to each dancer – always well-intentioned – had caused some issues backstage. Now, there are rivalries and changes in stage presence. While experiencing stress (that Es has inadvertently caused,) some were distracted in rehearsal and got injured. Es must take on the interpersonal issues as well as the choreography challenges.

I don’t have all the roles down and was trying to stick to well-known shows anyway, but I think I’d want Muu to be the Sugar Plum Fairy, Kazui to be Albrecht from Giselle, and Amane to be Clara. I wanted to keep them traditionally gendered to prove there are plenty of roles for men, but I can’t help but have Odette/Odile thoughts for T1 Mikoto ;-;

Like the other post, I'm equally tempted to have the dancers performing ballet adaptations of the mvs 👀 I want to see. Bee tutu. Doctor coat costume. Marching band tutu. AKAA mismatched look. The backgrounds. The music. The choreo. So many cool possibilities...

As a sweet au, it all ends with everyone better for having met one another. Es is cast in a solo performance, combining everything they've learned both emotionally and technically from the others. They feel satisfied with their sense of identity, and shine onstage ✨️✨️✨️

#milgram #es #plus the whole cast lol #ballet aus my beloved!!!! #is jackalope human? does he teach ballet on his lil bunny paws? you decide 👍 #oh albrecht is the guy giselle falls in love with but when his true identity is revealed she dies/kills herself of heartbreak ;--; jsyk ;-- #if anyone has any casting ideas lmk 👀 these were off the top of my head but i can definitely look for fitting roles for everyone #unlike the other au i dont picture any murder equivalents here -- they still have their flaws and everything but no ones gotten hurt #both these aus require a school full of other dancers but im picturing the milgram cast as es' specific class they spend all his time with #and since the other students are the audience i guess that means you all are part of my au 😌 welcome to dance school 😌 #you could probably combine 05/06 or 06/07 as romeo and juliet while going through their respective lovers issues #when amane plays clara i want fuuta as her drosselmeyer :3 (both for sweet reasons and. eyepatch.) #i had the bulk of this jotted down for so long - its nice to finish the art and clean up the phrasing to post! #dropping this while i reboot my brain from my trip... i shall return soon ;-;

[mikesbasementbeets]

it’s a little frustrating sometimes to watch people try to “debunk” gay mike evidence by quibbling over things that are. kind of beside the point? like arguing that mike’s consistently negative (or even neutral, if you want the benefit of the doubt) reactions to girls aren’t “disgust” therefore they don’t mean anything. but like 1. yeah i agree, cates gate isn’t about mike being “disgusted.” mike’s face when el kisses him isn’t “disgusted.” mike’s reaction to el, to max, to girls in general doesn’t really read to me as “disgust” either. so 2. what DOES it read to you as? incredulity? confusion? discomfort? those…. still aren’t positive reactions.

the point is that mike actively and blatantly Does Not react positively toward el kissing him. and he also Doesn’t react positively to dustin’s description of a girl being “hotter than phoebe cates.” he asks “is she cute?” with maybe preemptive incredulity (in line with will's question "girls go to science camp?") over a girl who goes to science camp being cute, or perhaps just a neutrally curious state over dustin's new girlfriend, but then dustin doesn’t say “she’s hotter than phoebe cates.” he says, “think phoebe cates. only hotter.” that’s a prescriptive statement. you want to know if she’s cute, mike? think about phoebe cates, and then imagine someone hotter than that. and mike’s expression doesn’t improve in the slightest. think about someone hotter than phoebe cates, dustin tells mike. and mike? remains confused and entirely unintrigued. no, he’s not disgusted, but the point is not his negative reaction, it’s a complete lack of any sort of positive reaction. if he’s listening to dustin, he should have, in that moment, thought of phoebe cates. and his reaction?

nothing.

(but. this is also just to say... i don’t even think it's fair to call most of mike’s facial reactions “proof” of his sexuality in any argument… i think they’re fun little easter eggs that add an extra visual element to his gay characterization. but. it’s not WHY people think he’s gay. it's funny to point out BECAUSE he's gay)

[edit: AND this is not even to mention the direct line drawn to this in season four via stobin's discussion of fast times, linking phoebe cates to 'people who like boobies.' #notmikewheeler]

#y’all want gay to mean nothing less than ‘disgusted by women’ and pretend that’s not homophobic #‘he’s kissed a girl without throwing up so he can’t be gay check mate’ maybe check your homophobia 👍 #this was inspired by a bylr confession anon that i shouldn’t have seen bc i have that blog blocked but it showed up anyway. this is why #(i know i called this proof uh. two years ago but it's not 'proof' i recognize that. also not going on another tangent but. there is no One #irrefutable gay mike proof and that's also the entire point. you can point out specific things out of context and say hey i think this #points in this direction. but if you pull EVERYTHNG together and analyze IN FULL then the entire narrative only makes sense from a gay mike #perspective. imo. 'well i think this one is a reach' ok fine but if you see it all together and your only argument is 'idk it's just not #that deep' i mean. fine i guess but the burden of proof is on you then. the issue is then that no one who is against gay mike is willing #(or. um. able.) to put together a COMPREHENSIVE analysis that supports bi mke as a Full narrative without brushing a bunch of stuff aside #as 'eh idk i don't think that means anything' and instead fall back to 'it's just a headcanon i don't have to prove anything to you' #but refuse to recognize that gay mike is not actually a headcanon it's a theory. backed by analysis. we are not the same.) #idk. got annoyed might delete later 😗✌️ #beets posts

[ixorahh]

that one steven meme on twitter but with your two comfort characters u know the one

original:

#something something characters with daddy issues #also gay as fuck and muscular build 👍 #jojo's bizarre adventure #jjba #jjba fanart #jolyne cujoh #the sims 2 #ts2 #ts2 fanart #tank grunt #ixoras art stuff #i think were gonna have to kill this guy steven

[20001541]

We know that the Father of the Shigaraki Twins was simply a random guy looking for quick pleasure with a prostitute, however this makes me wonder, was AFO ever curious about him?, like during a good time of the AFO's life he could be alive out there, without knowing anything, it's strange to think about it, that when AFO started his empire, his father could still be alive

I think as a kid he would be curious as he starts to learn how to read books and consumes other media and see's people talk about their parents it makes him wonder about his own like where are they now why did they abandon them as time passed I think he wouldn't really care anymore, the man just used his mother for one thing and left. why should he waste his time thinking about a man who doesn't even know he exists, yoichi is all he needs. (assuming he saw his mother's memories in his dreams via vestige shenanigans)

but I do agree with you anon, it is strange to think afo's father might've been out there living his life, completely unaware of the hell his children were going through and the impact they later had on society.

his role in the story begins and ends at the conception of the twins and we're told nothing else, obviously the author doesn't want us to pay any attention to him but I still think about who he could've been. with how big afo's presence was back in the day I'm sure he heard of him, wonder what he thought. was he one of the ones who hated people with quirks and saw them as a disease, or was he sympathetic to them? could've been one of the ones who developed one later on too. would he had even cared if he knew he had children? who knows.

I was thinking of a scenario the other day where one day an older man approaches afo (who's in his late twenties at this time) and seeks his help out. he makes a deal to work for afo temporarily in exchange for afo's aid. afo later uses a quirk on the man that can find the relatives of whoever it's used on (as a liability in case this deal goes south) only to find that the quirk marks him as a relative of this man which causes afo to further investigate and he finds out that this man is his father.

it's not fleshed out well and not even sure how to characterize the father or afo's feelings towards him. he stopped caring as he grew older about a father who was faceless and nameless to him. but now that he is alive and breathing in front of him, that changes some things. I think afo would keep him around out of curiosity, not really sure what his fate is later on.

#interesting ask! came at a good time too bc I'm not having a good time right now and it helped distract me #in general I think he would feel neutral towards the man #I hc a41 to have hardcore mommy issues that he's in denial of though 👍