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greensagephase · 3 months

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Hi Alondra!! Thank you for replying back to me on the New Year's fanart!! there's really no pressure replying and I truly appreciate every response 🥹❤️ hearing that you still love the New Year's fanart makes me so happy!! (I promise there is more fanart for NC in the near future!!) I’m glad you took some time off social media for your mental health because that’s very important!! I’ve been quite busy lately too so I’ve been off social media more than usual this past week. I’m also happy that you’ve been sticking to drawing daily for 30 minutes!, and even if you miss a day here and there it’s still great! There are days where I just don’t have the energy to draw, so if you need to take breaks from that too it’s okay! But I really do get excited hearing these updates! Also, omg I’m very happy that you drew Miguel in a way that you liked and you’re feeling more comfortable and confident with drawing!!! Hearing that makes me so excited and i’m rooting for you!!! ❤️

Also, I just have to mention again that I’m really happy you took a little break from social media and writing, sometimes it can be too much and the last thing I’d want is for you to be burnt out from everything! (and I'm happy my little words of encouragement helped you decide to take some days off, I want to make sure you're doing okay too 🥺) you really do so much on here and you deserve the rest! ❤️❤️ Thank you so much for all the support and words of encouragement with my schooling!! (and when you mentioned getting another degree in the future- I might actually consider it!! maybe even study in a subject more for fun!) I’ve been very busy with everything and preparing for the first presentation of my capstone this Monday (the nerves are there but I'll maybe update you on how that goes! 😭) but one thing’s for sure- I still love to take the time to go on here and talk to you when I can!! And I’m so excited to read the next part when it comes out!! (please don’t stress about when you’re going to post it though 🥺) And I also promise that I read all your responses too, often times more than once because they make my day!! They mean so much to me and you don’t have to worry about replying late or anything, I understand! the weather where I live has also been arctic, haha!! (no fr today when I went out I was still shivering with all my layers 😭) and if it's also still cold where you are stay safe and warm too!! I hope you’re doing well and that you’re having an amazing week Alondra!! sending you a warm virtual hug, friend!!! ❤️✨❤️

Here are some little sketches of encouragement with your writing and everything!! a soft smiling Miguel and ok I imagine the 2nd one Miguel is giving look of like he’s proud of you 🥺 but also, he just has that signature smirk too 🤭

@sunsetdoodler thank you for being so understanding and of course, I love talking with you, so I've been trying to reply to everything!! I just got really behind on my responses 😭 but yes, I LOVE the New Year's fanart!!!

Still thinking about it and how cute your OC and Miguel look together, I can't wait to see them again (and omg, more fanart!!! I can't wait to see it but of course, take your time!!!)!! And you being off social media is so understandable with your school!! I hope everything is going well so far!! I'm thinking about you and sending you the best of luck, and hoping everything goes smoothly for you as always!!!! ❤️ Also, thank you for the well wishes on my drawing journey!! I took off yesterday and today because I've been busy doing other things but I'll hopefully be back to it tomorrow, thank you, really!! And yes omg, I've been studying Miguel (I've been studying your fanart and other lovely artists' fanart plus using the amazing drawing references I've seen on here; that's actually how I finally got his hair down haha), and feel like I'm moving forward in drawing him, but it's a working process! 😂

And thank you, omg!!!!! 🥺🥺 I was debating taking a break because I always feel so guilty disappearing from social media even if it's just a day or two, but your words of encouragement to take it easy helped and I decided to do it. I tend to feel a little off after the holidays and just feel overwhelmed by everything, so this little break really helped my mental health, and honestly - it helped my writing! I was lowkey forcing myself to write prior to it, but all is well now, and I feel great now. I've done so much more writing in two days than I did over the span of several days prior to my break, so yay!! About your schooling - of course!!!!! I'm wishing you the best and rooting for you!!! As I said already, I'm always hoping and wishing that everything goes smoothly for you!!! I hope you're taking care of yourself and that these first two weeks have been kind to you so far!!! You should def consider earning another degree for fun if you're interested!! I'd love to hear what you'd like to do if you were to get another one (if you're open to sharing, if not, I understand, so no pressure!!)!! Omg, your first capstone presentation is this Monday!! I'm sending you, and will continue to send you, all the best of luck!!! I know you got this and it'll go great!!!!!! 🥺✨ It'll be one presentation down, and hopefully it will get easier as the semester goes!!!! And thank you for taking time out of your day to come on here and talk to me, it truly means so much to me!!! Please know that I understand life gets crazy, so I totally understand if you can't reply right away or not at all (don't feel pressured to, friend!! I get it!!)!! And I'm happy that my words make your day, yours make my day as well!! I always look forward to reading your responses/asks!!!❤️ And omg @sunsetdoodler I hope you're staying warm and cozy, too!! It has been very cold this week for us (there was even a busted pipe this morning because of how cold it has been this whole week). I hope you stay warm and be safe if you're out on the road driving!!! I hope you're having a fantastic week, too and that you have a great weekend!! Hopefully you get to do some fun cozy things and relax a bit despite your presentation!!! Sending you the warmest virtual hug and the best wishes as always, friend!!!! ❤️✨❤️

And OMG THE SKETCHES!!!! Miguel saying "you got this!" - that's so ENCOURAGING!!! 🥺 And his proud face in the second sketch - stop, now I'm going to imagine that Miguel cheers me on when I write and try to draw him and the second sketch is him watching me while I do my thing,😭😭 THANK YOU, FRIEND!!!! These sketches are so freaking CUTE!!!!! And his signature smirk - everything this man does gets me, I swear!!!! 🤭 (I'd get so distracted if I saw him like this actually) I'm going to have these sketches pulled up whenever I write or draw, for real!!! THANK YOU!!!! ❤️✨🥺

#the sketches are so encouraging for real!! ❤️ ❤️#About to write for a bit and I'm going to have them displayed for inspo and encouragement 🥹#I really do think he'd be so encouraging and just watch proudly from afar like ---yeah - there they are - doing their thing 🥹#these are really important thoughts of course #miguel living rent free in our heads!!#But thank you so much!!!#I hope you're doing great friend and that everything is going smoothly!!!!!#please take care of yourself and have an amazing weekend!!!#also stay warm with this weather!!!!#asked and answered

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captainnameless · 9 months

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omg gp getting sassy when max was being a bit bratty and max apologising after 😭

no pls i love them it’s put thoughts in my head so here you go

GP expects it really, it’s after Max has finished media, they’ve done their little team debrief and he’s sat lounged about with some of the engineers when he sees Max wander in from the corner of his eye.

Max shuffles around a bit, creeps a little closer before backing off and sort of awkwardly leaning into the wall, looking out of place.

GP decides to put him out of his misery, stands up with a vague reason that doesn’t get questioned, walks up to Max and then past him with a quiet. “Follow.”

Max follows like a lost duckling, taking quick little steps to follow GP all the way back to Max’s driver room. Brushing past GP when the door’s held open for him. It closes and locks, leaving the two of them and there silence, Max can’t quiet keep the pout off his face.

“.. I want to say sorry, again.” Max speaks, eventually, digging the toe of one his shoes into the flooring. “I’m sorry.”

GP softens his gaze, makes sure to catch Max’s eyes. “I know, it’s okay.” He says, then smirks a little. “I gave it back to you, a bit. Didn’t I?”

Max doesn’t smile back, pout still present and voice a little shaky when he speaks. “Uh huh, so you’re upset?”

Oh. This is not the time for vague jokey answers, GP notices very quickly, Max’s shoulders curl in on himself to make him look smaller, eyes sad but still focussed on GP.

“Max,” GP reacts instantly, closing the gap between them and putting both his hands on Max’s shoulders, squeezing gently. “I am not upset, you apologized. It’s forgiven and forgotten.”

Some of the tension melts out of Max’s shoulders, but his eyes stay sad while he nods out a tiny. “Okay.”

GP squeezes his shoulders again, doesn’t feel the need to beat around the bush. “Feel like you’re gonna drop?”

Max squeezes his eyes shut, about to shake his head no before he’s blinking them open again, nodding.

“Alright, that’s alright. You did so well today.” GP soothes, gently guiding Max onto the couch, noticing only now that he’s shivering, mostly likely from the wet race suit he’s still got on. “Let’s get you into something warm.”

GP’s crouching down, untying Max’s laces before the shoes easily slip off his feat, having Max stand up briefly to unzip the suit and get it past his hips before allowing him to sit down again.

Max is rubbing at his eyes with closed fists, trying to regulate his breathing while he pliantly allows GP to get the wet clothes off of him. “GP?” He whispers eventually.

“Hmm?” GP looks up from where he’s sat on the floor emptying Max’s backpack out, it appears Daniel has packed it and while GP adores having Daniel back on the grid he could’ve really done with some of Max’s clothes, or RBR gear, instead of the entire new Enchanté collection, but it’ll have to do.

“Daddy didn’t get into Q2.” Max’s voice trails off to an even smaller whisper, his bottom lip trembling dangerously.

And oh, that’s, okay. “Darling.” GP soothes, shooting up from the floor with a groan, cursing his aging bones.

“Daniel did very well, he got P6 before that laptime was deleted.” The elder soothes, sitting down next to Max reaching down to snatch up the first hoodie he can reach.

“But it’s not fair.” Max whines, voice slightly muffled when GP pulls the hoodie over his head.

“It isn’t.” GP agrees, wishes he had something more valuable to say before leaning down to fit Max’s leg into some matching joggers, hoping to stop the shivering. He pats his lap once Max is dressed and Max gladly goes, snuggling into his engineers chest with a big sigh, tears still threatening to spill over.

“What’s going on in that head of yours, huh?” GP hums, brushing back some of Max’s hair.

“I thought you’d be mad at me,” Max whispers, hiding his face into GP’s chest, barely audible. “Thought Daddy’d be mad too so I’d be alone.”

GP’s heart stings a little at the confession, wraps his arms a little tighter around Max pressing a kiss to the messy hair. “I’m not mad, I promise.” He hums into the hair. “And neither of us will ever be mad enough to let you be alone. I think Daddy’s gonna be a little disappointed, but never too disappointed to see you.”

Max peaks up at GP with shiny eyes. “Really?”

“Really.” GP nods. “Do you want me to call Daddy?”

Max takes a shaky breath before nodding, but grips GP a little tighter when he does. “Want you to stay too.”

There’s a fuzzy feeling in his chest while he bites back a smile, fishing his phone out of his back-pocket to call Daniel.

- -

It takes 15 minutes for Daniel to arrive, Max is sagged against GP’s chest with an apple juice watching Bluey on GP’s phone when the Australian knocks before slipping into the room.

“Daddy!” Max cheers, earlier tears long forgotten while he pats the space next to them. “Sit.”

Daniel smiles hurrying over to get his hand on Max, peppering his face with kisses. “Hi Buddy.”

Max squirms away from the kisses, before poking at the bulge covered by Daniel’s jacket. “Huh?”

Daniel smirks, does some sort of mysterious hand movement before pulling Max’s plushie out from underneath. “Tada!”

Max snatches it out of Daniel’s hands burying his face into the soft lion. “Thank you.” He mumbles when Daniel finally sits down, Daniel patting GP’s leg when he does.

“For coming.” He adds a little softer.

“Oh, baby,” Daniel hums, scooting up closer. “We’re all right where we wanna be.”

#littlef1adventures #lf1a.minific

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sab-teraa · 2 months

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Tye Talks: A Diary Entry

(22/02/24 || 22:58 pm)

Good evening friends, I hope you are all well and having a lovely Thursday! Just one more day till the weekend! Yay <3

Inspired by the lovely @the-winds-of-destiny-xxx , I've decided to start blogging about my day. Hopefully, I will be able to stay up to date lol.

Work

Ugh, I've been up since 5am prepping myself to deliver my second lecture of the semester. It went well, kinda. The students were super interactive which is great. Application + practicality > regurgitating information. They did super well. Also, we have a new HoD, and while I really liked our previous heads, the new HoD is a breath of fresh air and I really enjoy their approach towards education.

My full-time job is actually soooo … atm. My colleague has resigned which is all cool and I wish her the best.

But, there’s a trend I’ve noticed recently within our organization … and I hope it does not present any problems in the future. Tbh, I think it has presented a problem before … but idk. Anyway, constructive criticism goes a long long way … only if you’re keen and willing to learn …. which this person defo is NOT.

Enough about my colleagues, the CEO presented me with an opportunity but I'm lowkey nervous .. bc I prefer being a private + somewhat anonymous person lol, but I obviously said yes. Let's see how it goes, anything can happen and this whole project might fall through. Especially in this economy.

All in all, I really love my job and the career path I’ve taken. I hope it does not backfire on me later on in life.

Uni

Gosh. Uni is the bane of my existence atm. Tho, i did make a bit of progress on my thesis today. I know exactly what I need to do, but I just don't have the motivation to it. But, I think I've finally got myself together .. so let's see what happens.

Also, I'm so grateful for my thesis supervisor <3 she is so understanding and supportive.

Health

Is this tmi? Maybe? Apologies if so?

But, my nose and throat have been KILLING me recently? Idk if it’s bc of the fan or what … but yup. Thank god for cloves! They’ve helped wayyyy more than anything else I’ve tried lol. Also, my pms is really starting to hit 😭😭 I’ve been in soooo much pain since I got back home.

My mentally, I’m doing okay … there’s obvs moments in the day where I’m like shit?? I’m an adult adult?? Yet my life feels so stagnant 😂 but then I try to keep it moving and not think so much about what I want … and I try to focus on what I do have…. bc I’ve done my best.

Fun and mundane

I finally got to go to my first gym class of the week - I really needed that! The housewives from my class invited me for smoothies afterwards … and they are so fun! Are they my mums age mates? Yes 😂😂 but I loved hanging out with them .. they truly live in their own bubble .. I wanna be exactly like them when I’m older lol.

Oh Oh! And I finally finished the second season of Al Rawabi School for Girls ... flip, it truly broke my heart. What an amazing show.

I really wanted to start the new season of Real Housewives of Durban … but the new Showmax app is truly YUCK! I have the ick 🫠🫠 but, I love the show waaaaay too much, so I’d probs get over it soon lol.

Other than gym and catching up on tv, I made a delicious lasagna for dinner. I'm convinced that my homemade meat sauce and cheese sauce remains undefeated, or maybe that's just me being cocky lol. If I had more space, I would have defo attempted to make the pasta too.

I'm super excited for this weekend bc my friends and I are going to this art and music event and getting food afterwards. I also really wanna buy that duvet set I saw online ... since I'm no longer purchasing an apartment (recession boo boo boo 🍅🍅🍅), I may as well just re-do my current apartment lol. It already looks great, but I've been putting off getting a new duvet set bc I presumed I was gonna buy a bigger bed lol... so I've just been rotating between the two sets I have ... and damn they've seen better days lol.

Relationships

After all he has been through, my brother finally has some great things happening. I am so proud of him. I know he will achieve everything he aspires to <3 This has also done wonders for his self-confidence, he truly needed this, and I hope ... I really hope that it stays on this positive track.

Positive family news aside, idk if anyone saw the post about my uncle? But god damn I'm annoyed af. (Side note: He is my mums cousin btw; but my entire family is close). Anyway, my uncle called my mum to rant … and according to my mum he was sooooo proud of what he said to his wife??? I’m just disgusted. Idk how. His wife could forgive him for this. I’m so glad my mum put him in his place ✋🏽✋🏽✋🏽

I know its not about me and I have no right to speak on other people's relationships, but I hate seeing people put their all into a relationship and even go against their own family to be with someone ... only for their partner to treat them like this. His wife deserves soooooo much better and its sooo heartbreaking that she has to go through. My heart truly breaks for her. I pray everything works out for her.

Conclusion

Anywho … if you made it this far! Thank you for reading my ramblings <3 wishing you a lovely day! Stay safe babes 😘

#tye talks #tbh I don’t think people would read this.#it’s more for me lol

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evansbby · 2 years

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Bestie!!! Oh my fucking god I need to tell you a story

Okay so I moved into a new apartment building and my parents helped me move my stuff and I said my goodbyes to them at the front reception. Once they had left I was making my way back to the lift and this guy at the mailboxes introduces himself and said he saw me moving my stuff in and that he lives in the apartment next to mine. Fuck, bestie he’s sooooo handsome!!!! He looks like Eddie Cibrian, and he looks like he’s in his late thirties so he has that going for him HSNSKQIQJA

So we introduced ourselves and made small talk and then he said he has to go pick his son up from his son’s mom’s. So he’s a DILF TOO 😮!!! And he made a point of saying he’s not together with his son’s mom anymore, here’s hoping he’s single! I get a knock on my door like an hour later and it’s him with a box of cupcakes 🥹 He said he picked some up with his son and wanted to share a box with me as a welcome to the building present 🥹 And we’re going for a walk around the neighbourhood tomorrow 👀 - He asked if I was familiar with the neighbourhood and when I said I wasn’t really he asked if I wanted to walk around with him because it’s quite pretty and he wants me to see how nice it is and feel safer and more comfortable 🥹 I don’t think it’s a date because the d word was not said, but a handsome af older dilf walking me around - as if I was gonna say no.

I don’t want to talk to my friends about it because well I just don’t wanna share thots with them - we’re all a group of south asain girlies and as you are south asain yourself, bestie you know that in some south asain friendship groups that type of stuff just isn’t talked about. So I wanted to share it with you as an outlet 🥰 And omg it feels so so so strange because for years I’ve always said I wanted to be single to focus on med school and now so would not be the right time to be involved with anyone because I have my finals coming up in January - and I’m not getting ahead of myself but having daydreams about the hot older dilf next door is surely harmless 👀

Ahhh that’s my hoe adventure of today

- 💙

GIRLIEEE THIS IS SO EXCITING!! The DILF scenario of my dreams!! (Although I’ll be honest, I had to google who eddie cibrian was). 😌😩🫶🏼

Although I’ll be honest, you should deffo be cautious! As you’re living by yourself (i’m guessing) and you’re younger than him! Older men who seem super interested can sometimes be red flags (not always — but be cautious!) whether it’s just for fun or it gets serious, just please do be safe and get to know this dilfy man first!

But bestie honestly it sounds like you’re living in a fanfic!!! Literally the dilf scenario of my dreams!!! Please do tell us how the walk round the nbhd goes! (If you want to) BUT IM SO EXCITED AND HAPPY FOR YOU😭🫶🏼😩😩💘💘💘✨✨✨

#also omg I didn’t know you were south Asian too!!!#💘💘💘😌😌#anon #💙 anon

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luveline · 7 months

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I’m just getting of my lab and it went horribly wrong, not because anything dangerous happened but because in the end I looked like a fool. I also had a presentation for another class this morning and it didn’t go as well as I had hoped. I feel like crying my eyes hahaha. I just saw that someone said you had uploaded a new Remus fic, so I’ll be cozying up in my bed to read it. Reading your work is my coping mechanism for days like today. Tysm for being so lovely and a great writer, ily

God I'm sorry babe, sometimes you have one of those days were everything goes wrong 😭 I really hope it gets better! I do want to say that even if you think you looked like a fool, as soon as everybody went home they probably forgot or aren't thinking about it anymore, and also that I hope you're treating yourself like a friend who had a bad day, please be really sweet and gentle with yourself until you feel better! (and afterward too!!)

#jade's asks #ily

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whimsyjoker · 2 years

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10.19.22

no study pictures today—i was super engrossed in my algebra homework/review in preparation for my exam tomorrow! i didn’t get a good grade on my last algebra exam (i didn’t have much study time + the word problems were confusing 😅) but i’m hoping (fingers crossed!!!!!!! 🤞) tomorrow’s exam goes better. it’s certainly nice to know i’m halfway through the semester.

as for my other two midterms i already did…

i got an 88% on my biology exam and a 96% on my lab practical, which honestly i’m relieved about. i feel like a lot of students on social media idealize the concept of getting perfect grades (like 97+) all the time but honestly… i’m glad to pass with a B. biology is hard 😭 and besides, my overall grade is really good!!

i was able to snag some extra credit points for biology as well… so technically although i got an 88% on the exam it’s being bumped up to 91!! :)

the other exam i recently had was history, which i haven’t gotten the grade back for yet… i honestly think i probably got within B territory on that one too. there’s just so much to remember and every question is free answer, which requires DETAIL (who, what, when, where, why, significance, etc.) and there were a lot of topics on the study/review guide 🤯 my overall grade for history is pretty great too though.

after tomorrow’s algebra exam i just have psychology left, which—despite it being my favorite and the easiest (at least, to me)—i’ll probably put the most pressure on myself over, because i actually did manage to get 100% on my first psychology exam, much to the excitement of me and my professor… but now i have that standard i’ve set for myself as the top student and i reeeallly don’t want to let my professor down because i can tell she thinks highly of me for it 😓 i know it’s not really a big deal but i just love academic validation so much when it’s from nice professors who teach subjects i’m passionate about! and i’m literally majoring in psychology. so.

anyways. i got sidetracked, this is the most i’ve written for any post on here. quite an impressive feat considering i have like. 2-3 followers…. so back to what i was originally going to say. instead of study pictures i am presenting some lovely pictures of things i bought while procrastinating studying (i usually study at my campus after i get off work, but lately i’ve been shopping beforehand to put it off). i got the lamp in the first picture today, and the second picture is from a book i bought on monday. fun fact: i greatly enjoy any book, poem, song, etc. that is about stuff like the inherent goodness in people, the power of optimism, etc. it’s corny but it’s something i value a lot !! :)

alright. anyways. post over. i’ll ramble aimlessly into the void again some other time, hopefully with good news about grades.

#digital diary #digital journal #online diary #online journal #college #academia #dark academia #college student #academia aesthetic #psychology major #community college #studyblr #photography

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domjaehyun · 1 year

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jewel i am hereeeee to give u my feedback on pl4yg1irl is live omgggggg 😭😭😭😭 girl it was so damn good i was tense literally the whole time and YEAH it hurts that both my jaes were heartless n crazy BUT IT WAS soooo good bby so good !!!!!!!!!!! also the use of the angel pet name was chefs kiss like again i know jaemin was craycray but like in the beginning when he WASNT i was just like melting for him at first i was like OH MC IS GOING TO LOVE HIM BC HE TREATS HER DIFFERENT but oh god i was so wrong but eeee it was good !!!!! i also love how you incorporated the therapy session in the end it really made the story feel like it came full circle like you really paid attention to detail <3 thank you for writing such a great fic i always love what you make 💖💖💖💖💖💖 also i know i’ve been away for a few days and i’m sure ppl have sent you the clip of haechan doing pull-ups on the bus lol but i will give u some more presents hopefully you’ve haven’t seen these 🥰 LOVE U LOTS JEWEL i work a night shift tonight so hopefully everything goes well and i’ll talk to you later <3 have a nice day !!!! — 🫧

BUBBLESSSS i have decided to stop holding onto this ask privately JUST so i could let u know how much i appreciate this 😭😭😭 HSJFJSJJFD IM SORRY THEY WERE BOTH CRAZY 😭😭😭 and thank u hehehe i did that on purpose (the angel thing) and JSFJSJHZHD YEAH he starts off charming :/ then he is very much not :/ and omg i was hoping the therapy session scene worked IM GLAD IT DID!!! i’m so happy you liked it thank u so much 😭😭😭 and both of those clips ruined my life in very different ways . i need him real bad 🥹🥹🥹 YOU HAVE A NIGHT SHIFT TODAY IF IM REMEMBERING CORRECTLY (u mentioned u had 2 back to back in a diff ask right??) SO GOOD LUCK!!! i love u too!!!

#answered #anon #🫧

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1d1195 · 20 days

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That’s so real, loving them but not liking them lol I LITERALLY JUST SAID THAT today to my mom today about one of my cousins who I have found memories growing up but I don’t really want to have a relationship with tbh and it goes for the majority of them bc some of them ARE INSANE!! Especially from my mom’s side HAHA why did I think you had a brother?! I feel like you would be such a good big sister for a brother tbh and i obviously have no doubt your amazing for your sister! TELL ME WHY I ALSO THINK MY BROTHER IS MORE OUTGOING THAN ME!! We really are so similar it’s crazy but I love that for us! And you’re so kind Sam😭 my brother is definitely more social and can vibe with people easier and if he feels comfortable with people I would consider him to be more extroverted than I am at least! He’s kinda funny but somethings he says is kinda out of pocket but idk I blame it on him being a teen lol he’s also so musically gifted and definitely more talented than me HAHA BUT overall I think he’s a good kid, of course he has his moments and traits where I simply cannot understand lol

I feel like doing an Ancestry test would give you the answers you may want! I’ve personally never done any but I gifted my dad a 23 and me! The results were kinda wild considering I thought he would have more European blood bc colonization lol but he’s actually like 80% indigenous?!? Which I thought was SO cool!

BESTIE YOU SHOUDL DO IT!! I WOULD READ IF YOU EVER WANT OTHERS TO READ IT!! I genuinely think you’re like cool and I don’t think you give yourself enough credit for that! Also were you a flower crown girly when they were really popular?! Bc I definitely was and I was also a galaxy legging girl which was solely driven for my love for space lol also I love a good deal, so TJMaxx is fave to browse! bet you looked so pretty with it on!!

I love it too, and seeing it in Spanish is just so heartbreakingly beautiful! Idk it may be a controversial opinion or not but i definitely do think if you ever decide into venturing participating in it , you totally could. As long as you do it in a way where you genuinely want to learn the culture and respect it, there’s no harm in it. Respect is probably the most important thing!

Saw my TA today and god I am so down bad😔

Omg it’s crazy we have the same book?! I was so close to picking a fantasy one and idk I felt drawn to it!

I reread the original one shot today and it still hits! I think it was very clear that he was so in love with her by his actions and just the way he talks with her!

Oh bestie I have never been in love so we are in the same boat lol I’m pretty sure it has to due with my own self sabotage tendencies, self esteem, and vulnerability issues lol and you’re not weird at all for feeling like that!

We all deserve the love that we desire and while I think people advocate that what the media or literature present is a “fantasy”, I don’t think it’s un achievable! It just looks different for everyone because we all have different definitions and examples of what love is and can be. So many factors go into it, but i remember reading something where the author explained that we all have multiple people in which can love us romantically and platonically yet they all have different “levels” of love. And since there’s so many people/souls And paths that you can take, some achieve platonic love that romantic and vice versa. But all that love was meant for you to experience through multiple lives. IDK if any of that made sense but it’s probably my delusional self trying to find some way of viewing love lol and I think that writting that about the MC was so well done, it felt very therapeutic for the character but I’m glad that it works for you too💗

And you know I’ll be here for you! I love you and love chatting with you! Hope that you have the loveliest weekend!-💜

I think I would have THRIVED with a brother. But my sister is pretty cool. She's very artistic (double it and give it to the next one again) and she helps me with my clothes and makeup almost every time I need it. I'm sure your brother looks up to you and teens are DUMB (I mean that kindly given I spend most of my time with teens) so I'm sure his moments will get better with time 💕 You sound like you really adore him so he'll be fine :)

WOW that's so cool that your dad got results that were different than you expected! You should look into the results more (if you haven't already) it sounds cool! It would probs be really bad but I think i want a dramatic story about my extended family... 👀 probs antagonistic of me but as you can see I love them but don't like them HAHAHAHA I have some suspicions about my dad's siblings and I would LOVE to put some puzzle pieces into place 🕵️‍♀️

I would live in TJMaxx if I could 😂 I was neither a flower crown nor galaxy pants. I was too self-conscious to do either (still am) but I def would have been a flower crown girly FOR SURE.

Part of the problem is I am very emotional and people around me just ARE NOT. I enjoy watching all the TikTok posts about how love is this big romantic thing for a lot of people or maybe just in general and I feel really close to those kinds of posts. Let me see if I can find one... (it's probs going to make it into a story I'll write one day).

I appreciate the love I get but I think I often hold back how much I love people because I'd be viewed as weird. I like to believe I love the way that little picture shows. I feel like I really SEE people and I don't think I've ever been seen (hence the fanfic writing). I love my family, my friends, and my students so much. It's a little exhausting sometimes hahaha You made perfect sense 💕 I don't think you're delusional at all! You're still very young and you've got a great head on your shoulders and heart in your chest. You want to be in love with the right person and there's nothing wrong with that. Your "self-sabotaging" is probs saving you from a heartache that you don't know about. Just make sure that if you think it can go somewhere you try--even if it's like a date or two. I bet you have a good gut instinct and you'll know immediately 💕

HAVE A WONDERFUL RELAXING WEEKEND! Hope you do something fun or get to read your new book! 😊

xoxo

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I hope all of your exams go well love! Math is hard as hell, but I believe in you and I know that you will do good <3

You’re evil for scaring your cousin with a fake snake 😭 snakes are already evil enough just by themselves. But at least you got a good payout, $50 for a prank sounds amazing

I’m always going to check on you whenever you MIA, just to see if things are still going alright <3

Thank you! My morning is going alright so far, I’ve only got one class left today and then I’m done. My dentist appointment got canceled for today so I’m pretty happy about that. I hope you had a good day and have a good night <3

I'm mad tired 😔 like physically and i keep waking up late at night for some reason it's annoying, i was buying ice cream and my aunt offered me money then she just gave me the 50$ 💀 hope you had breakfast already or something to eat! Hope the rest of your day goes well :3

I'd never thought you would check on me when i go inactive for bit, i appreciate it <3 but i promise i'm doing okay! Usually busy with school or i'm just like tired from school, i spent two hours this evening in my english school making a soap opera presentation slideshow with my group, there was a scene where two person bumped into each other and books scattered on the ground but we couldn't find the exact pic so we took it ourselves 😭

#sol.chats #bender 🧡

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Hellsite Nostalgia Tour 2023 Day 237

Our Little World/Xmas Special

“Our Little World”

Plot Description: a teen who’s lost her souls leads Dean to Crowley and a fast-growing Amara. Castiel sees an old acquaintance on TV, stuck in an earthly body

Would I Survive the First Five Minutes??: No one died…that we saw

Yeah, bet that won’t come to bite you in the ass, Crowley. “You’re strong, but I’m stronger” “…for now” how do you ground the Darkness and not think that that’s gonna come back around some day.

Oh good. Misha’s done with whatever he was up to that prevented him from being here.

Did Dean just tell Cas to go touch grass? He’s not wrong. My boy is looking rough, and all he has done is watch TV

Ok. So it took an extra episode for the Lizzie Borden fanatic to die ☹️

Oh. Oh, Cassy. He’s been watching reruns of trash tv to stave off his thoughts and memories 😭

The look, the horrible dawning realization that he’s found Metatron, and Metatron’s working as a camera operator for the news

I know this wallpaper. This is the wallpaper from the Changing Channels episode

We’re back to exorcising demons?? Wellllllllll maybe not

It’s important that a growing teen learn some good cat memes

I’ve been checking out the lamps in hell, and they are really nice. There are a bunch of like art nouveau shades, they’re gorgeous

Omg he’s not even doing it for the news, he’s like a tragedy paparazzi. He might even be orchestrating it

Man, if this old asylum is where Crowley’s been hanging out or has an entrance to hell…it REALLY shows how much wreckage Amara caused in the demon ranks

I’m glad that SOMEONE ELSE has addressed the fact that every time someone mentions (or I type) the Darkness, I feel like we’re talking about the band for a second…I do wish it was someone other than Metatron

I mean, maybe don’t bait Cas into hitting you, Mets

Sure, Crowley, we’ll call what you and Dean had BROmance

Yeah, i guess that when the Darkness said “we’ll always help each other” or something like that, it cuts both ways. It’s not just a threat to Dean. She’ll protect him too…or she’s just mad at Crowley. I dunno

I’ll piece together what the parallels of Cas and Sam’s fights mean at some point, especially since Cas had to be baited into fighting and then really went on the offensive and ends up not killing Metatron while Sam goes in looking for a fight, tries to be a pacifist, and ends up killing a few demons. Cas was also having visions back at the bunker and Sam…well, he’s having them now

The indignity of having to keep your phone charged IS rough, Metatron, I know…

I AM UNCOMFORTABLE WITH THE ENERGY WE’VE BROUGHT INTO HELL TODAY. Amara is very in love with Dean (who on this show isn’t?)

What is the lore in this show?!?! The Darkness is god’s SISTER??? (I can’t believe we’re getting this reveal when I’m so close to season 4 of Sherlock)

Why are you getting visions of the cage, Sammy??

“Xmas Special”

Plot Description: the Doctor and Clara are trapped on an arctic base and their only hope is Santa Claus!

Oh good, I waited til really late to watch another long dw episode

These elves are so mean to her!!

What a brilliant time for the Doctor to show up, seconds after Clara tells the very real Santa that she stopped believing in fairy tales

Is Santa a time lord? His sack of toys is obviously bigger on the inside…

You know what gets me about shows and movies that are meant to be for families that discuss the existence of Santa? And this might be a more recent phenomenon. But aside from the weird mechanics of adults who don’t believe in Santa still somehow finding presents under the tree from Santa on Christmas morning because of course he exists in this universe….but you’re also showing these shows to your like 5 year old who’s just learned through watching that there comes a time you stop believing in Santa even though they’re only now at an age where they can recognize Santa. It’s just weird and I have no idea if that paragraph made sense

Wtf is going on at this arctic base? Why can’t she look or think about these beings in the infirmary??

Ah damn…the Doctor and Clara fucked it up for these people. Whatever they were tying to accomplish, they just BARGE IN

LOW BLOW, DOC! You can’t bring up Danny, and you REALLY can’t insinuate that he’d be cheating on Clara. It’s too soon for her and it’ll pretty much always be too soon for her

Omg they’re really are gonna get saved by Santa…..he just sent an army of toys into this base

I’m usually not a huge fan of how Santa gets depicted in Christmas specials (not in a “this doesn’t fit my headcanon” but more in a “he’s just uninteresting” way) but this one’s at least a little fun and interesting.

I really think he’s a time lord

…I forgot they didn’t know they lied to each other…I forgot they lied to each other at the end of the last episode

I do love that they keep saying Twelve looks like a magician

He’s got a point…it would definitely be offensive, as an extraterrestrial, to find out we have a horror movie called Alien. Then again, we have a lot of horror movies named a lot of things, so…anyway “no wonder you keep getting invaded” is a good reaction

Ah, fuck. The Dream Crab got Clara.

I know this is the Doctor trying to save her, but in this perfect dream world, it’s super jarring to see the hallway walls turn into chalkboards with “DYING!” written all over them

Oh good. The Doctor has come to actually save her….excuse me?? He let himself get taken by the Dream Crabs too??

Huh…so the only way to kill them is to reject the dream

THEY DID AN INCEPTION?? The Doctor and Clara were in a dream but everyone’s been in a dream since the beginning? Since they all got into the infirmary??

He’s so against any real touchy freely stuff, and I am forever living for that

…nah, there’s still 18 more minutes. How…I don’t like this existential crisis they’re giving me “no one ever knows they’re not dreaming m. Not ever. Not for one second of our lives” don’t do that to my brain. Please

Stop physically reaching out to them!! What is wrong with you people?!

Have we really circled back to Santa’s real?? We spent a bunch of time proving he wasn’t real in the last dream, and he still might not be because this is still another dream but who knows??

This girl has an interesting Christmas itinerary. She’s gonna watch Alien and The Thing From Another World before her dad comes around. Then she’ll watch Miracle on 34th Street before what I can only imagine is a Game of Thrones marathon…and last “forgive Dave???”…which she’s somehow apparently already done that last one

Please tell me this isn’t yet another dream. What??? It’s been 62 years since they’ve seen each other??? It was another dream. When did Steven Moffat watch Inception? Did he wait four years? Because the number of levels of the dream were just too much. And then the tangerine at the end, like the spinning top.

#hellsite nostalgia tour 2023

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singsweetmelodies · 8 months

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Girlllll I’m sooo jealous of you right now🥲 you get all THIS piarles content for your bdayyy!! And all i got for my bday was extra hours at work😭 (I’m kidding, I’m really happy for you and for all of us.. we got to witness this!)

Piarles video, dinner date, drivers parade, pierre podium AND the “Mr. Gasly”😭 (I’m still freaking out about this) and all in the span of 3-4 days!!! We’ve fed well😌 my personal life n work life is shambles but who cares?!! Right?👀 pierre n charles being sickeningly in love in front of the whole world is enough to keep me sane for a few days(actually I lost my sanity after i saw the Mr. Gasly💀)..I was actually waiting for charles to comment on pierre’s post congratulating him… i never expected him to do a whole post starting with that! But yeah no one’s complaining 😌 and that podiumm!!!! Cunt was served!!! He looked FUCKINGG AMAAZINGGG(the hair esp)

Last but not least… that squeezie video😍 i watched it after a horrible day at work… i was soo close to having an emotional breakdown that day, and God I laughed so much watching it.. made my day! I was so so happy by the end I didn’t even realise it was almost 50 minutes!! After the horrendous week I had all this piarles content felt like a reward.. the piarlies keep on winning unlike [redacted]👀 haters will keep on hating😏

(I wanted to unload this somewhere, but yeah can’t do that irl😬)

I hope you are having a great week unlike me!

PS: Hapoy bdayyy 🤗

T❣️

AWWWW HELLO DARLING!! 🥰🥰❤️ this made me laugh so much right before i had to go back to work, ahahahaha, oh my goodness - ilysm 🤣🤣🤭 it's true, i really did have the best lot of piarles birthday presents... #blessed indeed!! ❤️💙 though if it makes you feel any better... my actual BIRTHDAY today was spent almost entirely in the lab, so we're in the same boat with having to work on the bday, at least 🙈 but yeah!! I AM ALSO STILL SO FUCKING INSANE ABOUT THE MR GASLY 😘 don't think i'll ever be over that tbh!!! pretty sure i'm going to need to write a fic about it!!! and same goes for that squeezie video... just wow. WOW. they really said "happy fucking BIRTHDAY miss katie singsweetmelodies" 🤭😌🎉

#asks & answers #anon #lovely anons ❤️#T anon ❣️#THIS WAS SUCH AN INCREDIBLY SWEET ASK AWWWWW 🥰🥰🥰❤️#thank you so so so much love!!!#grinning non-stop about this <333 #ily!!!#(P.S. - a resounding YES about the [redacted] shippers; ahahaha. they WISH they were us. they will never be 🤭😌)#(it's a good fucking life to be a piarlie 🥰 <333)

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Hi again! Sorry it's been a few days, I've been busy trying to get everything together for Christmas while juggling work and studies.

Thank you for the recommendations! I'll definitely want to listen to them. And that's really cool that they include all the members on vocals like that! I put on Deceptive Bends now, and I'm only on the third song but I like the softness of the music, it's something I'd put on on a sunny Sunday or a relaxing Friday night. But that's just the first impression.

Ooh, do you have any favourite songs from Beatles or Zeppelin?

Well, White Christmas (Bing Crosby version) is one that always makes it feel like Christmas for real. Also The Christmas Song and Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas. Holy Night is one that can bring me to tears with the right arrangement (even though I'm not a bit religious). I also always thought that Kenny Rogers and Dolly Parton's "Christmas to Remember" was so very romantic.

What are your plans for the holidays? It's so close now! Me and my partner managed to get a tree today, though forgot to ask to have the bottom of the trunk cut fresh so we're going out for a new try with that tomorrow x) and also to get some presents. Tomorrow we're also gonna try to get the apartment finished decorating. Christmas Eve is the big day here, so there's not much time left, and we would like to have the 23rd to just relax.

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Santa darling, how goes it??

I hope you’re doing well! and no worries, I’ve been busy with work and school myself. I’m just glad this semester is finally over and that I have the rest of this week off work to just take a breather 😮‍💨

Omg! I hope you know you just put a smile on my face knowing you were listening to DB 😭 Please that entire album just screams ✨Eric Stewart supremacy✨ to me 😫 that man literally put his heart and soul into that album and I’m so proud of him for that 😌 Eric plays both guitar and piano and probably other strange instruments on that album and if I’m not mistaken, he was also the mastermind behind producing Bends. I feel like DB was Eric’s way of showcasing his brilliance as a multi-instrumentalist and I think that’s what makes that album extra special to me. I know I’ve probably mentioned this before, but that album was really what made me fall in love with 10cc, but more importantly with Eric. Also as an aside, I don’t know I’ve mentioned this already but I kinda have a thing for multi-instrumentalists lol (i’m talking to you Eric Stewart and John Paul Jones).

As far as Beatles songs, I love Helter Skelter, While My Guitar Gently Weeps, Here, There and Everywhere, Day Tripper and Paperback Writer. My favourite Zep songs are probably Misty Mountain Hop, Black Dog, Stairway, Immigrant Song, When the Levee Breaks, D’yer Mak’er and No Quarter.

And those are some great Christmas classics also! I know this is probably gonna sound silly but I also like The Chipmunk Song by Alvin and the Chipmunks. I think that song is just too stinkin’ cute! 💗

Ah and the holidays, I’m always bad at preparing for them lol I still have to do some Christmas shopping. Not that I have a lot to buy or anything BUT I always get extra generous around this time of year and feel obligated to buy presents for people. Also I’m pretty stoked bc this week, I’m thinking about buying myself a bass guitar for Christmas (thank you, John Paul Jones). And that’s nice that you’re taking some time off for a little R & R, we all need that sometimes ☺️

Wishing you a lovely rest of the week and happy holidays in advance! 🎄

#srs22

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the-travelling-witch · 2 years

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hello holly!! local socially awkward menace here :D

hehe jokes about me aside—hi there bub! how are you doing today?? i hope today has been treating you all the more kindly and lovingly! <3 if you by any chance happen to wake up to this then i hope you managed to rest well and experience the sweetest of dreams, and of course i hope that today treats you kindly <33

remember to eat at the very least twice a day and drink lots and lots of water, okay bubs?? here's a bone crushing virtual hug as another way of saying "hello new moot! i shall crush you with a lot of love bombs from now on because you seem awesome!"

speaking of being awesome—you seem really nice and sweet! i hope we manage to get along and be friends!

okay now, a moment of silence for dramatic effect.

...

HOLLY YOU'RE WRITING SENDS ME??? I SWEAR I'M BOUTTA 😭

i saw one of you're works in my dash the other day! it was titled "admiring them" if i remember correctly and man the way you write heizou has me 🧎🏽‍♀️ /gen

you're writing is an absolute joy to read! i had so much fun reading more of you're works and i can confidently say that i had the time of my life reading them! they were just so <3333

stay safe now bub! remember to take all the time you need for yourself and also take breaks, eat lots and drink lots of water too! it can be hard but i can assure you that you will get there!

— much love, yoi.

hiii!! i’m socially awkward too, so let’s just be socially awkward together :D

first of all, i’m really sorry it took me so long to answer this; i saw this first thing yesterday morning and it absolutely made my day but because of today’s presentation i was in high-crisis mode and just stared at my laptop/ notes all day and had several breakdowns; so i didn’t want to answer your sweet message in that state ♡

well, self-care and somewhat normal sleeping schedules if you can call them that start again today, my first way of celebrating will be doing the dishes and cleaning the house because they do stack up when you neglect them :))

hugs are always appreciated!! thank you so much, you seem absolutely amazing too and i hope i can get to know you better ૮꒰⸝⸝> ̫ <⸝⸝꒱ა

ahhh, i’m so happy you liked that one, i was really unsure about it; i kind of took a shot in the dark with heizou but i just wrote him how i thought he might be because i hadn’t seen him in game at that point, i’m glad it worked out >///<

also it’s easy to write him that way because he has me 🧎🏼‍♀️

thank you so much!! it really really means a lot to me!! now that i have more time again, i look forward to taking a proper look around your blog too!! ଘ(੭˃ᴗ˂)੭

same goes for you, take care of yourself and stay safe and i hope to see more of you in the future ♡

#coffee & tea break #my regulars ♡#letter from: the gorgeous yoi ❀#i’m still kind of out of it from the presentation #so my apologies if i don’t express myself as well as i normally do #but this really did make my day #so i didn’t want to have it sit in my inbox any longer <33

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keimisan · 3 years

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WHY ARE YOU LITERALLY ONE OF THE CUTEST PEOPLE ON THIS APP SMDMFKS. will mal be the death of me? quite possibly. stay tuned.

i’m doing fairly well. i’m about to knock out for about ten hours, which is something i’ve been looking forward to since monday😭 how are you?

AND SNDMFKS YOU THINK THAT FITS ME THATS ACTUALLY SUCH A HUGE COMPLIMENT🥺 i’m currently taking a screenshot of your response and saving it to a private folder in my phone bc you’re so sweet and ily and skDNFKDKA i’m just—

forget me, what about you? every time i hop on your blog i thank the lord HIMSELF <3 deadass cannot imagine not being able to freely hop into your inbox whenever and not even think twice about it.

i'm smiling so big i hope no one sees me because they're definitely gonna think i'm in love JWKDJSHSS.

I MIGHT BE THE CUTEST BUT YOU'RE SWEETEST <3333333 😤😤 well i'm quite happy today because yayyyy vacationnnn finalllyyyyyyyyy :D

akdjwhdejhd its not much omg if i begin to write about you its going to take a hundred document pages and more and i might not even finish because i like to add images that express my ❤️ in my presentations and I HAVE A LOT OF THEM FOR YOU.

t-the last paragraph, i-i'm 😳😳 literally so honoured, thank you so much for thinking so highly of me omg sjbdsjbfjs. passing positive vibes bae, i hope your day goes the bestest and that you get to treat yourself to some desert becuse we all need that little joy. SENDING VIRUTAL FLOWER BOUQUET 💐

ily

#💌mal.mails #sxlver sweet #i should have a tag for you #the angel 😇

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@loveletterstoledger 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🤧🤧🤧🤧💖💖💖💖

So you know all those comments here and there about cooking you up something and working on something for you which I’ve made over the last month or so (I can't remember how long it's been since I started working on this😩😅)? Well, this is the result of all the secrecy!!!!!!🤭🤭🤭 I hope that you enjoy the things I’ve put together for you, my love, I worked so hard on all of this and I’m so excited to finally get it posted for you!!! I had a literal list of what I wanted to do for you and what I wanted to make and I got started on this so early!!!! I hope that you have a lovely day (one as lovely as you or I’ll challenge the universe🔪) today and that you get the things you want!!! I’m sending you so much love, lots of cuddles and everything good in the world!

Enjoy, my dearest sister!💕💕💕💕(And if not, that’s more than okay too!!! Let me know and I’m MORE than happy to make something else for you! I love you so much and I’m sending you the biggest, squishiest hug!!!!! If you’re not grunting, I’m not hugging you hard enough.🥺❤️) I love you so much and I’m just so grateful to and for you. I don’t know where I’d be without you to pull me through.😭💕

EDIT: I am SO SORRY I posted this before it was done!! It was a COMPLETE ACCIDENT!! I was extremely worried I'd actually deleted this WITH NO BACK UPS right before it was ready and I was fully prepared to stay up aaaaaall night - yes, with work tomorrow - just to redo everything I could remember. I'm so sorry, honey, and I'm very glad you only read the first thing in here before I got to you!😩I feel awful omg darling I'm so sorry😩 but anyway, please please enjoy. I'm so happy with what I made here hhhhh it's taken me so long but I channeled so much of my love for you into here and I hope you can feel it!!💖

A beginning note from me to kick all of this off!🥳🎉🎁

Now, to dive straight into the good stuff (the big presents)!! Enjoy, beloved!💖

Teach me how to value myself // Terry & Rose // word count: 2, 826.

Summary: You're overworked, stressed, tired, and feeling like you're barely trying or doing what you're supposed to be. Terry sees everything that goes on in his casinos and with his daughter. Who says he can't have it all? Who says you can't? A daddy protecting his daughter from herself.

Even total strangers to you knew as soon as they saw you that you were Terry Benedict’s daughter. It was unmistakable, especially to those strangers who also knew Terry, even if it was only from a photograph. He was a very private man; the nameless familiar stranger in the casino's crowd, yet somehow did everyone know his business. Perhaps the familial resemblance was in your eyes, or perhaps in the determined set of your shoulders… maybe it was in the way you clutched a clipboard to your chest when you walked through the casino each morning greeting the staff members you saw by name, your smart-casual dress chosen by your daddy swishing elegantly against your legs and your heels clicking on the polished tiles. Maybe it was your smile or the way you held yourself as you checked people’s names against the list which one of Terry’s bodyguard’s gave you so you could accurately update the security guards during the handover between shifts.

Whatever the defining characteristic which you possessed was, all that mattered was that when people - even total strangers - looked at you, they knew that Terry was your daddy.

There was just no mistaking the familial link when it came to the way you look and the way you presented yourself - for always were you being watched in one of the three casinos you worked in - but when it came to your personality, that was when the real resemblance became shockingly clear. Oh, but you embodied Terry in so many ways that it was dizzying to anyone who stopped to really think about it.

Out of the hundreds of people who worked in or visited the classy and beloved casinos, however, only one of them never had to think about all the ways in which you were Terry's daughter, and that was the man himself.

Every time he looked at you, your daddy saw the entire world. You were worth more to him than all of his casinos, the contents of his vaults (yes, even that one), his wealth, assets, stocks, and every other pie he had a finger in combined. You were the most precious, most meaningful jewel in the entire world and there was nothing Terry wouldn't guard or protect you from when it came down to it.

It did more times than he wanted to admit even to himself; life was harsh and unrelenting and the world itself, that big bad scary place which Terry so longed to shield you from just as much as he wanted to encourage you to find your own way along its winding and increasingly confusing paths (such was the dichotomy of parenthood), was crueler still. It never let up, even when it had you on your knees begging for a break.

For the most part did Terry allow you to live your own life, to do your own thing as and when you wanted to. He wasn't a backseat father at all; he was involved in everything, but he trusted that he had raised you so well that you could hold your own. Terry stepped in when he was asked to, or intervened if something was going too far. He was there when you needed guidance, he was there when you needed a kick up the behind to get yourself together, he was there when you needed someone to crawl into bed with and cuddle at the end of a day which seemed like it would never end, he was there through every rise and fall of your life, every triumph and challenge, every doctor, dentist and hair appointment.

Not a single moment of your life was unseen by your daddy; he saw it all.

The good, the beautiful, the bad, the unaesthetic (never ugly), and everything in between. Such a broad spectrum which evolved as you did gave Terry plenty to consider about himself and who he wanted to be as your daddy. It was the most important role he would ever fulfil, an honour and a wish he had never expected to be granted but oh, how you were and you would always be his everything. Within his only daughter, the light of his life, had Terry found himself.

This particular truth of his identity and his life came especially in handy when you lost your way trying to find it all. What it was, you were still unsure, but Terry knew that you were trying to navigate your way through your new life the same way new visitors to one of his casinos tried to make their way through the foyer to find the gambling machines. As it happened, this particular set of patrons was usually inebriated and raucous and therefore the area they were looking for was right at the back of the foyer; near the exits so that security could escort anyone out if they were acting too inappropriately. Nothing but the best in Terry Benedict's casinos was allowed through those grand doors because he didn't fool around with what was his.

He had worked hard to build his empire and he worked just as hard to maintain it, too, as taking something or someone for granted was a sure fire way to begin to ruin what was there; the beginning of the end, so to speak.

Just as you were the one person in his life whom he would drop anything and everything for at the first hint that something wasn't right, you were also the one part of his life, the one part of him, which he wouldn't compromise on. The casino's management could be passed over to one of his most trusted staff members in a pinch and he would relieve them of their reluctant but necessary duties at his closest convenience, but no one in the world could look after you the way Terry did. He reveled in that small truth, though not was it to be underestimated or dismissed.

The connection which the two of you shared defied explanation or articulation; after all, if it is really love, can it be described in such a way that one feels adequate about their chosen words? Terry didn't trust anyone else with your physical and emotional care other than himself (much to their admittedly justifiable chagrin, that also included Linus and Rusty despite how often they went above and beyond for you in their own ways) and he made sure that when he looked after you, he looked after you. Terry somehow always knew what you needed when you needed it, and he also knew how to give you those things which you had a craving for, even if you didn't know what that soul deep ache was crying out for.

Terry was a master at what he did and he used his wealth of life experience to support and help you in the best way he could, especially during times like this, in which you didn't even know how to help yourself.

But your daddy knew. Your daddy always knew.

Your life was written into and defined by lists; lists of what you wanted to complete today, lists of what you wanted to finish yesterday, lists of lists you had to make just so that you didn't forget anything... your thoughts whirled through your mind like a hurricane, casting destruction in their wake, making your hands and lips tremble alike with nerves and fear of not finishing even one thing on your lists. You worked so hard that it often made it difficult for you to get out of bed, because once your back left the mattress, you had to hit the ground running and it was exhausting.

On this day, it was barely one in the afternoon but you had been running after yourself since well before nine, trying to complete yesterday's work while also trying to do today's. In your daddy's hotel, someone is always watching, and one of the primary targets of observation was you. (Terry had wanted to cuff Linus on the back of the head for describing you in that way, and perhaps he had when your back was turned, but only in a joking manner, for your daddy had a reluctant but very apparent soft spot for Linus.)

As such, your movements had been monitored all day and Terry had his staff instructed to alert him of any behavioural abnormalities; you were just as dedicated, just as hard working and relentless in your duties and responsibilities as Terry was. So much of him resided in you, and so he was well aware of how you became when there was too much to do and not enough time in the day to do it. It was a way of life, unfortunately, and one he had accepted so very long ago that you hadn't even been born yet, but that didn't mean he would allow you to neglect yourself and your needs in the same way that he expected himself to. It was a contradiction and one you raised with him often, but you were both so alike that in taking care of each other were you also taking care of yourselves.

You and Linus loved to refer to Terry as 'The Ice King of the Bellagio' because that was how he presented himself - and, indeed, the stares Terry gave Linus whenever the poor man opened his mouth to speak would put him six feet under if looks could kill (and if anyone could accomplish such a feat, Linus would put his money on Terry) - but that couldn't have been farther from the truth when it came to you, and that Dad Smile of his which you loved so much was reserved only for you. It was one he gave you when he wanted to say something affectionate but wouldn't for the staff and patrons surrounding him, but so well did the both of you know each other that that one small gesture told you everything you needed to know; that he loved you, always, and that he was proud of you... always.

One of the staff on observation duty had noticed that you hadn't eaten since breakfast (which you had eaten on the go and washed down with coffee you later regretted due to the massive stomach ache it gave you) and they had sent Terry a message by way of noting this concern, and Terry had then called for lunch to be brought up to his office while he worked on signing off some paperwork. Conveniently, you had to be the co-signer for this large stack of papers and so after a short text conversation between you had you arrived at his office. You were confused by his request, for you had already done some paperwork yesterday (though not as much as you had wanted to, harsh was the workload but harder still were you on yourself) but you couldn't - wouldn't - say no to him.

"What's this I hear about you working through lunch?" Terry's eyebrow raise seemed to pin you into place, his dark eyes examining you. His hair was slicked back and not a strand of it was out of place, his suit impeccable and his brogues well polished. He was as busy as you were, if not more so, and yet he held it with the grace of a man who lived and loved his passion. He was in control in the empire of his own making and the power radiated off him. If you were anyone else, you would have been intimidated. But you weren't. You were you and you had only ever wanted your daddy to love you and to be proud of you.

In moments like this, that shone through so clearly, so strongly, that it made you breathless to realise that even on your worst of days, Terry couldn't be more proud of you if he tried, and he often did. You were so very fortunate to have him, just as he was to have you.

You winced under the intensity of his gaze and shifted your weight from foot to foot, resisting the urge to look down at them and instead looking at a small piece of lint on your father's shoulder. How long had that been there? You wanted to brush it off, but that would be perceived as deflecting and he wouldn't appreciate that; bringing you back to task quicker than you would be able to complete your own. You hadn't been eating well recently, nor had you been sleeping decently, and it felt like you were running an uphill battle to get everything done in time. You felt like you were being less than your best self, less than the daughter you knew you could be, but you couldn't help it. You had crumbled, but Terry was there to help you to hold yourself together long enough for the strength you derived from his love for you and for the life you both worked so very hard for to glue you back together.

You said nothing in response for just a beat too long and Terry sighed as he undid his blazer as he sat down behind his desk, gesturing with one elegant hand to the almost overfilled tray in front of his keyboard. "I'm your daddy, and I'll provide for you where others can't or won't. If that includes you," He fitted you with a heavy look, one of warning and of concern in equal measures, "then so be it. Have lunch with me so we can sign this paperwork off." His lips twitched in barely suppressed amusement and you realised that the paperwork he was referring to was low priority; he had simply used it as an 'excuse' (not that he ever needed one, of course, but appearances were important) to get you to come to the office. Would you eat for you? Maybe not. Would you put lunch aside to do paperwork? Terry wasn't sure if that was a maybe too or a yes, but either way, he knew how to gamble, and this table was red hot with all the odds stacked in his favour.

All of the food was safe for you to eat, only the very best chefs which Los Angeles had to offer were hired to work in his kitchens (and from those only a very select few had the privilege of cooking for his daughter), and there was more than enough for the two of you. Terry picked at his food, glancing up at you every now and then to make sure that you were eating as well while you both signed papers, passing sheaths of paper stapled together back and forth so that everything was filled out at the same time and nothing was forgotten.

Terry didn't lecture you more than he already had; a warning was a warning but whether or not you listened to him was up to you. He was the very same way and he understood how the pressures of one's work could sink below the surface and cause such a tension in oneself that needs were neglected. He would never allow that to happen to you, and so Terry had stepped up and protected you in the most immediately obvious way. There was much to complete, but you were handling everything the best way that you could and that was all Terry would ever ask of you.

When you were done eating, Terry sat back and held one arm out at his side. His fingers wiggled once and you were on him immediately, sitting both beside him and slightly on his lap due to how narrow the seat was, not that that deterred you as you swung your legs up to rest across his lap. Your feet dangled over the armrest opposite you, and his arm curled around your shoulder. You leaned against him and Terry felt your entire body relax into his own. With a quiet sigh, he allowed himself just a few moments of respite as he pressed a kiss to your forehead.

What kind of daddy would he be to you if he told you to do something but then didn't do the same himself? That was no example to set, but then, you had always followed in his footsteps. He had to be better for you, he decided, but first he had to help you to help yourself.

A second kiss was pressed to the crown of your head, your blonde hair a stark contrast to his own, and Terry began to wonder if he could cancel the meeting immediately after lunch... he had a daughter to cuddle, so the world could - would - wait.

There was nothing he wouldn't do for you, and he meant it. If anyone tried to get in between the two of you in any kind of way, Terry would kill them and then he would get to work on ruining them.

Plant the seeds of tomorrow // Rose x Her Grimms // word count: 2, 356.

Summary: You, Jakob and Will dream of the quiet domestic life. One where fairy tales stay on the pages they're printed, one in which you are each loved and cared for, one in which you have a small cottage, a garden, and so much love that none of you know what to do with yourselves except... enjoy it.

You hated the winter months.

Almost half of the year was dark and dreary. The days were short, the nights were long, the workload was slightly kinder to you than it was in the summer months, but it wasn't by much. In the forests which you and the brothers often explored, the tree branches hung low overhead, like fingers were their ends; blackened, thickened by the cold but brittle, too, and if you were unlucky would some parts of the branches snap off against the crown of your head as you walked.

In the winter, very little grew. No flowers bloomed and even weeds stayed below the surface of the rock hard earthy ground. Trees didn't blossom or produce fruits, their fallen leaves decaying around the roots, brown mush on what was once vibrant green grass. Vegetables didn't take where they were planted, and the only life which existed in those months was that which was already there. Nothing more and nothing less than that simple truth dared to exist in the winter; the conditions were too harsh, too unbearable even for the most stubborn of plants. Jakob had once pondered aloud that perhaps death is not always death. Sometimes it is simply the beginning of an end... or the end of a beginning.

What it is or isn't is irrelevant, you think. You still hated the winter months; it made your mood as cold as the climate, it made you think of decay and all things wrong with the world. It prevented you from doing some of the things you wanted to do and it seemed as if life was more of a drudgery than it was when the sun was high in the sky. More than what the winter did to you, though, oh, more than that, you longed to get started on something which you had decided to begin just for yourself. You had dreams borne of a gentle summer evening breeze, your green fingers itching to begin your own garden, where you could grow what you wanted, when you wanted, and no one could tell you otherwise. You wanted to experiment with nature, to give the gardens of your mind a chance to really blossom outside that beautiful, vast and limitless expanse.

In short, you wanted your dreams of having your own garden to come to life, but such a thing couldn't come to fruition until the climate took a turn for the warmth and the ground softened, with the earth inevitably opening up to the seeds you would plant.

The brothers Grimm had not had an easy life, this was a well known fact to all who knew them, who really knew them. They had been born into severe poverty with scarcely enough food to last them, their sister and beloved mother one day to the next, their clothes little more than holed scraps of cloth, moth-eaten and dust-ridden. Despite this, they had been raised in love, raised with love, and the golden of their hearts had warmed their sister and mother more thoroughly than any roaring fire in their small fireplace had ever been able to.

Fifteen years after the passing of their sister and what was likely a decade after the passing of their mother - the exact date had always mystified them, so grief-stricken had they been that such menial things as checking the date with the sundial had slipped their minds - had brought them to you.

Oh, darling, if only you could see yourself the way the brothers Grimm did.

You were everything they had been looking for. That soul-deep ache within them put there by a life of a cruel reality, of a forced frugality but also a life of fairy tales, magic and enchanted forests was soothed by your very existence. You never needed to do or to be anything more than what you were in any given moment; whomever you were. Plans and people change but they loved you all the same, just as you loved them with a heart so large that Jakob liked to think it could safely surround a village and still have some wriggle room.

Only some months after the three of you had met had you managed to scrounge up enough money to buy a cottage on the very edge of the forest - and you had been wise enough to know that you did not want to know where the brothers had found the money. You knew what they got up to but that didn't mean that you approved of their methods. Still, watching them plan and practice their schemes was entertaining, as embarrassing as the brothers could be sometimes.

At the front of the cottage was a small patch of land which had come with the property, and you wanted more than anything to use it to cultivate a garden of yours and the brothers' favourite plants, and vegetables such as potatoes and bell peppers. You wanted the garden to represent the love which the three of you shared, to represent how there was always a new day, there was always growth happening below the surface of the earth (below your own surface), even if it was raining down hard, a torrential downpour of all those thoughts which haunted you late at night and kept you from your shared bed.

You hated the winter for the way it made you wait for the things you most wanted, but the brothers Grimm were excited for you to be able to plant the seeds of tomorrow.

Will was not as patient as you and Jakob were.

It was almost endearing in the way that he expressed his impatience; almost pouting at the ground, his strong boots scuffing at the dirt and feet lightly stomping as if to test the sturdiness of the ground. Jakob would huff in amusement every time and say, "patience is a virtue, brother. Might I suggest trying to learn it? I know it doesn't come naturally to you." Will's near-pout would turn into a scowl in a silent retort, and it made you laugh, which brightened up the brothers' beautiful visages and in turn create more joy than any of you knew how to express.

Time passed, as always it must, and soon it became time for you to begin to purchase seeds at the village market. You and Jakob had done much research in the winter months, preparing to start on your garden at the earliest sign of a warmer climate, and you already had a good grasp on the kinds of plants and vegetation you wanted to grow. There were pages of his journal dedicated to monitoring the growth of the seeds from the day of plantation; empty graphs on blank pages existed weeks before you began to buy pots and other equipment, including that which would protect your garden from the plentiful wildlife, such as rabbits and squirrels. You loved such creatures, but you loved cauliflower more... especially when Will worked on hacking it into cauliflower rice for you. He grumbled, it was true, but the gleam in his eye and the wicked smirk around the corner of his lips as he made you a good food which you loved expressed the very opposite of the words he gave voice to.

You and Jakob were clever enough and familiar enough with Will's teasing antics to know what he was really saying, and so you responded only to the things he didn't say. So much of what existed between the brothers and you didn't need to be communicated so clearly; you all just knew each other. It had taken you time to figure Will out when you had first met, but conversations with Jakob and quiet time spent observing Will had helped you to work him out, and once you had fallen in love, well... Jakob had followed you and his treasured brother, as always he would, and that had been it for all three of you. Never would you look back once you took that first step into a new life with them.

It was like you had loved the brothers before you had met them or known their names, just as they had with you, their darling Rose.

Jakob clutched his journal close to his chest as the three of you navigated your way through the dirt road lined on either side with market stalls, vendors selling food from... questionable sources (and Will quickly steered Jakob away from a vendor claiming to sell beans; they had been stung like that once before, fuck you very much).

Will was on a mission, only looking at things on stalls which he knew to be on the list carefully written, scratched out, re-written and then scratched out again by Jakob so that he could write the very same things even smaller than they had been previously, so that the page was more ink than paper. Such had bled through the thin pages and ink had settled into bed atop Jakob's fingers, leaking into callouses caused by a life of hard work and rope burn from schemes turned awry. "What say you to sunflower seeds, Rose?"

You smiled in true joy, not just as being able to make your dreams come to life, but in spending time with the brothers in the same moment. The love you shared was truly one for the ages, and it was more potent, powerful and ethereal than any bean or potion. "They sound wonderful."

Will nodded absently, then met you with a blinding smile as he scooped up a small sack of the seeds and passed over some currency. If you weren't there, he would have haggled with the vendor for a lower price, but as it was, he handed the money over while biting down on his tongue. He didn't want to spoil any part of this for you, selfless could he be in ways he wouldn't have considered until someone pointed them out to him.

Jakob had grabbed some potatoes, bell pepper seeds, and some other small potted plants which had already sprouted. "Excuse me?"

"Yeah?"

Jakob held up one of the pots by way of emphasis as he addressed the vendor, "Might I ask how tall this seedling is?"

The vendor looked at Jakob as if he had just grown three extra heads and shrugged carelessly. He held a filthy hand out, "money or put it back, sir. I ain't got all day."

Will rolled his eyes and shouldered past Jakob to give the stall handler the asked for price - once more biting his tongue as he ignored Jakob's cries of, "ouch, Will!" and then handed you the potted seedling. Oh, but the smile you gave him... it was brighter than the sun and warmed him through all the same.

"So that's half of the list we have now..." Jakob trailed behind you and Will, now walking ahead, as he scratched out acquired items and stared over the top of his glasses as if he was trying to measure out the seedling with just his gaze. He scribbled down 1cm tall and then crossed it out, and beside it he wrote, 1.5cm tall.

"Jakob, come on!" Will's irritated call ripped Jakob from his thoughtful work and the younger brother rolled his eyes as he sped up just a little, his shoulders turning this way and that to avoid shouldering anyone on either side of him. Will had no trouble walking through people when he got like this, but Jakob was a bit different to his elder brother. Still, at the core of them, they were most loving towards one another. They were all the other person had for so much of their lives, and they had opened ranks just enough to find a true love and connection with you, as well, and they had everything they had ever wanted and more with you.

Weeks passed again and you were able to finally begin to plant seeds. Jakob had ascertained that the purchased sprouted seedling Will had found for you was in fact three cm tall, and he had ripped out that entire page and started his graphs anew so that the pages were legible rather than a torn mess of ink and violent scribbles borne of thoughts discarded just as quickly as Jakob could record them.

"When do you think they grow?" Will's fingers were surprising gentle as he stroked along one of the tiny fresh green leaves.

Jakob signed and rolled his eyes as he cracked open his journal, not even needing to glance at the page as he said, "It's only been a few weeks, Will, give it time. We've spoken about this."

"Yes," Will bit out, "But I want to know how much it has grown."

Jakob sighed. It was a long suffering sound which made you giggle as you turned back to look at the cottage you shared, and the brothers shared a discreet glance; they acted up like this sometimes just to make you laugh. It was a most precious sound, rarer than a unicorn (even if they heard you laugh for the majority of the day, they held this belief, so much did they treasure every sound you were capable of making because it came from you), and they wanted to sink into its refrains and hear it forevermore.

"A watched pot never boils, Will," You smiled, swiping a hand across your forehead to remove the tickling of errant hair strands, and the brothers chuckled to see a smear of dirt left behind by your touch. It was in quiet and calm moments of domesticity like this that the men realised that you were the rarest, most wonderful woman they would ever known, and the love they held for you and the love you held for them was similar to the plants in your garden in some ways, but different in others.

It was nurtured, carefully cultivated and encouraged to grow, but never did it wilter, wither or decay. If your garden was evidence of the magic of nature, then the love you three shared was evidence of the magic of humanity.

Some smaller items which I hope you enjoy just as much as the big ones!🥺✨

Jason ~ 🌺💗

A letter from my husband

Things/people I associate with you🥺😭💕

A small final note from me to sign this gift off with😊💗🌸

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