#i guess that's a thing since this is the second song inspired thing i've posted lmao

[idiopathicsmile]

this is a song inspired by the constant drumbeat of my thoughts when i'm not actively making something, which is basically "you'll never make anything again, you washed-up loser." yes, in the hour since making a post to that effect, i have written and recorded a new song, and yes, i still believe it may be my last. haha brains, amirite?

Lyrics (and chords, I guess, if you feel like playing this; capo to the second fret and go nuts!) under the cut

[C] It's too bad that I'll never write a [Em] song again[D] [C] It's so sad that my creativi[Em]ty has reached an [D]end I've got [C] nothing left to [G] say so pack it [Em] up, put it a [D]way though it's too [C] bad it's too [D] bad

I'll never taste the thrill of making stuff, no longer able I should have based my whole identity on something stable I can only look within the light is getting pretty dim though it's too bad it's too bad

can't [Em] write a line I think you will [G] find I'm really [D] through

And it's [Em] true this time! It wasn't true last [G] time, this time it's [D7] true!

It's too bad – but it's not the worst thing to transpire it's so sad – but at least it's not an earthquake, plague, or fire and I should feel blessed to sit and not have to come up with shit though it's not great hey, hold on, wait—

it's too bad, though I thought I caught a tiny glimpse of wisdom it's so sad that I'll never write a new song after this one and though I love to sing my brain's a pesky finite thing though it's too [C] bad it's too [D] bad it's too [Em] bad

#oh look a tag for my music #writer's block #anxiety cw #getting this out quick and rough bc it's almost 1 am and i should be asleep

[feyascorner]

First off, I just gotta GUSH about how much I literally love your writings and all the little hc and tiny ideas you spit out on your blog~~ so much that you are actually one of the reasons I decided to pick up writing fanfic again and of course (Astarion is a literally, gem to write about)

I would like some advice if that is alright. How exactly do you get into the writing mood? I posted a chapter of a fic I am working on, but I seem to be in a slump right now. This is due to two things: I constantly feel this pressure while writing that it simply isn't as good as the fics I read myself, and I start to question whether or not I am actually doing well expressing the fic itself.

The second is, do you ever start listening to songs and get all these different scenarios you start planning on in your head, but when you try to write it, it just turns out to be bleh or nowhere near what you pictured in your mind? How do you manage to deal with that?

Thank you so much, and also so sorry for literally ranting/venting about this lol I think I just hold you in very high regard :)

Hello friend!! I'm so happy you decided to start writing again! It’s definitely a challenge sometimes w so much time that goes into it but it’s also very satisfying to watch it all come together :)

My writing process is a little more messy than it should be to be honest…i either just start writing for no apparent reason, daydream a lot throughout the day, but I think the most common occurrence is that I play the actual game and it just inspires me since I'm constantly talking to the actual character! It’s totally okay to be in a slump, it happens too often to me too. And as for feeling like your writing isn't good enough, please know that no matter how many fics there are yours is unique as your own. There's nothing like your own writing and it’s all the more reason to post it! And remember that writing is ultimately for your own satisfaction and nobody else’s! If you don't enjoy it there's no point! So try not to second guess yourself (I do this too but there really is no need to worry :)) if it helps I like to make some program read what I wrote out loud! It helps me catch mistakes and it makes me more confident in what I'm putting out so this might help you too <3

And yes I think it’s a universal author thing where you have so many thoughts but it just..doesnt work on paper? It’s the most frustrating thing ever but what I do is write JUST the dialogue first! I've seen this advice on other pages but if I write only the dialogue it’s harder to get stuck somewhere with description or actions. And if you like the way the dialogue came out you can just fill out the rest after :)

There's no need to apologize! I love that people trust me enough to ask for advice because I know how difficult writing can be…youre doing great just by writing a few words! Good luck I hope this helped even a little bit! ❤️

#feyascorner #writing #writerscommunity

[fortheloveofwonderland]

Scarlet, congratulations!

For your song fic blurb, if possible, I would like to request Spencer and Female Reader post prison blurb based on or inspired by the song ‘Hungry Eyes’ by Eric Carmen from Dirty Dancing. Fluffy, please.

Thank you!

🙏

Thank you my love! Hope this was the kind of thing you were after! ❤️

Send me emojis for my milestone celebration and I’ll write you a blurb.

Summary - Spencer’s done a really good job keeping his secret feelings for you hidden. But after prison his poker face just isn’t as good as it used to be and his eyes might betray him.

CW - mentions of prison, other than that just fluff!

Word Count - 1.1k look at me writing something a reasonable length!

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Hungry Eyes

Not my gif

Spencer Reid’s poker face was second to none. Whereas the rest of the team all had their tells, little things that gave them away, Spencer was the master of hiding his feelings from his expression.

You’d tried and failed for years to figure out what the genius was thinking at any given moment but he made it an impossible feat.

It was completely deliberate on his part. If you ever caught the look in his eyes when he saw you walk into a room his secret would be out.

If he didn’t compose himself around you, you would surely be able to tell all the ways that he was in love with you.

So he always controlled his micro expressions around you more so than the others. It was a practiced look, making sure the feelings he held for you didn’t come pouring out of his eyes like waterfalls.

You were his friend and his colleague, it was inappropriate for him to harbour secret feelings for you.

He thought he’d take those feelings for you to his grave. But then he’d been arrested. And maybe after spending three months in a federal facility, his poker face had gotten rusty.

I've been meaning to tell you,

I've got this feelin' that won't subside.

I look at you and I fantasize,

You're mine tonight.

Now, I've got you in my sights.

“I can feel you staring at me.” You spoke without looking up from the case file on your desk.

Spencer felt his cheeks burning as he quickly looked down at his own desk.

“No I wasn’t.” He scoffed, thumbing through the pages of a file he wasn’t reading.

In his peripheral vision, he saw you look over to him across the empty bullpen.

“Spencer, I could see you.” You laughed lightly, sitting back in your chair.

It was late and everyone else had long gone home. You and Spencer often stayed later than anyone else under the pretence of working, but in actuality you just liked spending time together.

He swallowed the lump in his throat caused by your magnificent laugh before looking up again and meeting your gaze.

“It wasn’t intentional. I was thinking about something. I didn’t realise I was looking at you.”

Usually you wouldn’t question it. Normally his expression wouldn’t give anything away so you’d have no reason but to believe him.

But since prison his expressions sometimes faltered slightly.

“You’re lying.” You frowned at him curiously.

“I’m not.” He scratched the side of his head.

“Yes, you are.” You pushed yourself up and slowly headed across the room towards him.

Spencer took a few deep breaths, trying to correct whatever it was that had given him away.

“You’ve been looking at me differently since you got out.” You reached his desk and sat on the edge of it.

With these hungry eyes,

One look at you and I can't disguise.

I've got hungry eyes,

I feel the magic between you and I.

“I’m sure I don’t know what you mean.” He steadied himself, forcing himself to ignore the fact he could smell your perfume now.

“There’s something in your eyes Spencer. It’s…different. I can’t pinpoint it but it’s different from the way you used to look at me.”

Spencer closed his eyes out of instinct and rubbed them with the balls of his hands as though he could erase all the love that was emanating from them.

When he opened them again, you were still looking at him curiously.

“I guess prison just changed me.” He shrugged. He’d do anything for this conversation to be over.

“Of course.” You sighed, sliding back off his desk, feeling foolish. “You just…you look at me the way…never mind.”

You went to walk away but were surprised when Spencer’s hand gently wrapped around your wrist, encapsulating it and keeping you close.

“What were you going to say?” He kept his hand on you even though you weren’t going anywhere.

You looked up into his beautiful hazel eyes and you could have sworn he was looking at you the way you always looked at him.

And it was only then, as he looked down at you that he saw it. He’d spent so long trying to hide his feelings from you that he’d never noticed you doing the same.

He’d been blind to your own emotions, telling himself it was wrong and stupid of him to feel this way and never once considering you might feel it too.

Your eyes held all the things he’d tried so hard to shield from his own. It was like looking at his feelings in a mirror.

I want to hold you so hear me out,

I want to show you what love's all about.

Darling tonight,

Now, I've got you in my sights.

How had he never seen it before?

“It doesn’t matter, Spence. Just forget it ok?” You pulled your arm free of his hold and continued back towards your desk.

He watched you go, knowing it was so or die time. Either he was really going to take these feelings to the grave with him or he was confessing. Right now.

“Y/N,” he hurried after you and you sighed before turning back to face him.

“What?”

There it was again. A brief flash in your eyes told him he was right, told him what he’d been missing all this time.

“You’re right, I do look at you differently. I guess my poker face took a hit while I was in prison. I’ve always wanted to look at you this way though, I just tried to hide it. But I guess there isn’t any way of hiding it any longer.”

“H-hiding what?” You swallowed, hands shaking at your sides.

“How I feel about you. How I’ve always felt about you. How I think you feel about me too…” he chewed on his lip nervously.

With these hungry eyes,

One look at you and I can't disguise.

I've got hungry eyes,

I feel the magic between you and I.

“Took you long enough to realise.” You smiled at him, a soft blush forming on your cheeks.

“Hey, I could say the same to you.” He was edging slowly closer to you.

“My poker face is nowhere as good as yours, Doctor.”

When he reached you, he cautiously cupped your face.

I need you to see,

This love was meant to be.

“My eyes are my tell.” He smiled as he leant in closer. “My eyes will always give away what I’m thinking.”

“I see that.” You whispered. “But right now I think your eyes have said all they're going to say. It’s time for your lips to do the talking.”

Spencer chuckled, drawing you closer to him and finally letting your lips meet in an explosion of pent up longing.

And his lips told you everything his eyes couldn’t.

With my hungry eyes,

I'm dizzy, hungry eyes.

Now, I've got you in my sights,

With my hungry eyes.

#spencer reid #spencer reid fanfic #spencer reid blurb #spencer reid fanfiction #build a blurb #spencer reid x reader #spencer reid x you #criminal minds fanfiction #criminal minds self insert

[sobeautifullyobsessed]

Hi! I've been musing over this for a day or two but I saw you mention you were in a Shakesperian play before and it got me thinking....you and Benedict in whatever Shakespeare play of your choosing I think it'd be so cool!

Also on the same note but an AU with Dr. Strange as a theatre professor and you bond with him over your love of literature and playwriting 🥰

I love this so, sooooooooooooo much and guess what, my brilliant friend...

It's an actual thing!

The One That Got Away

In my early years on tumblr, there used to be a lot of contests by Artists and Writers to promote their blogs. One such that I won was a custom written one-shot. And as what you've described above (me acting in a play by Shakespeare, opposite Benedict) has been a long desired dream, that's what the Author created for me. BC & I performing together in The Taming of the Shrew. Dust to Dust is a fic filled with angst & mutual but unfulfillable longing!😁Please check it out; it's a very quick, wonderful read.

But it gets even better...

I loved this story so much that my mind kept going, I need more...there has to be more to the story. And I began to write. Bits and pieces of Benedict & Virgilia (Vicki) interacting. Pining. Confessing forbidden feelings. A kickass prologue. Until I finally had to broach the topic with the Author--who had felt a pull to continue the story as well

So, she asked for samples of what I'd written, and once satisfied with how I envisioned the story playing out, she gave me her blessing. The One That Got Away is one of my dearest WIPs, and though it's been ages since I've updated, I know exactly how the rest of the story goes (including lots of angst, a forbidden tryst or two, lovers separated by an ocean wide, reconciliation and a happy ending). I even wrote an epilogue already, for a bestie of mine who initially struck up our friendship because she loved the story so much.

Gotta say, it makes me really happy to talk about it, so I must thank you heartily!🥰 I miss those inspired days of writing. So impassioned to get the words on the page that I even wrote one pivitol chapter in a law office where I had to give a deposition about an accident I witnessed at work!

I hope with all my heart that a few new Readers will check it out from seeing this post, and maybe even give it some love. I know many of us refer to something we've written as some of our best stuff--but this is no cliche; I really think it is.

Oh, and your second suggestion...Stephen as a Theatre Professor? Absolutely worth adding to my list of things I'd love to write if I ever get my mojo back for real.

a very excited PS:

I have two songs that encapsulate some of the feels for this fic. Girl Crush by Little Big Town, and Taylor's Wildest Dreams

PPS: a wonderful graphic artist made an amazing 'book cover' for the story; and the OC costume designer for Shrew is based on her

#bakerstreethound #tumblr love #fic writing #a tie that binds #benedict cumberbatch #my beautiful obsession #my constant muse #shakespeare #theatrebatch #shakespearebatch #the taming of the shrew #my wriitng #The One That Got Away #TOTGA

[thesearemymonologues]

This is going to be my first post, so I may as well introduce myself. I'm Fronde, a long time Tumblr user, but not a very active one. I don't really post anything in my main account, I just reblog. I'm a 20-something human and English is my second language.

So, why did I open this blog?

I was reading a Young Adult novel in which the protagonist likes to write her thoughts in some kind of Tumblr-like social media. This reminded me of the many blogs I used to have while I was a teen and how much I miss writing daily. They were private (I only let my friends read them), but it was a nice excuse to ruminate about my dreams, about how I felt about life - the seasons, the books I read, the little things. The novel I was reading these days inspired me to come back to this hobby. I've never written in Tumblr, and I don't know if this will become a habit, but I feel excited to start this and I think that's beautiful enough to give it a try. I think it'll help me sort out my thoughts when they don't let me focus on my tasks and it'll be a good practice to write in English.

I didn't know how to call this blog, but while I was thinking about a handle my mind drifted to Taylor Swift's classic monologue song. So I found it fun to call these my monologues.

As of what you can expect here, I'm not really sure myself. These past blogs I talked about never had a theme other than me musing about anything I was interested in. I may talk about my hobbies, about experiences I like (visiting a new place, like a cafe, a cathedral, an archive), probably about things that aren't ever that important. This is going to be as random as your regular shower thoughts. I do want to try and be more creative with my prose, though I need to read a bit more in English and it'll take some time for me to become more skilled.

To be honest, I'm not really sure how should I tag these posts, or if there's a community of similar blogs. I suppose this isn't really different from a personal blog, but it's more focused on writing my own stuff rather than just reblogging. I guess it'll be a matter of time until I learn my way around here. If anyone wants to interact, be free to do so - I've opened the asks and, even if these are called monologues, it's always nice to know about other people's opinions.

Welcome to my monologues! ❤️‍🩹🎉

As you can see, I'm using Kirchner's 'Marcella' as a profile picture. I feel like Marcella looks a bit sad in the painting, so I'll probably change it in the future. I do think the nostalgic and pensive vibes of Marcella suit this blog, but I wanted to be clear that this is not going to be that emo. Life is weird and confusing, but it's also full of wonders. These years, I prefer to stay on the optimist side of things - it's kind of a form of resistance. It doesn't mean I won't ever write depressive thoughts, since sometimes all I want is to complain shit away just so I get it out of my system, but I'll try to maintain a balance.

#spilled thoughts #journal writing #writers #writeblr #writing #introduction #new blog #my monologues #my ramblings #spilled ink #swiftie

[rrxnjun]

content creator year in review.

thank you so much to toffee @neo-shitty for tagging me in this, i always enjoy talking about my work hhh also thank you for blessing my dash with your works and other posts throughout 2022 🤍

tagging. @shinachiro @kiachiako @cherryeoniis @crispy-chan @daegall @decembermoonskz 🫶

first creation and most recent creation of 2022. my first fic that i posted this year was not a single dandelion (johnny), which i worked on from the end of the year 2021 if i remember correctly. the most recent one is not posted yet -- two people (mark), but the one i did post already was a very spontaneous work called when nobody's watching (renjun).

one of your favorite creations of 2022. i really love my yangyang fics, if i'm being honest, but if i had to choose one, my most favorite would probably be i'm not angry anymore (well, sometimes i am) (yangyang), because it's an idea i've had in my head for months and i think i executed it quite well. also, i really relate to the way i portrayed yangyang in this fic, so it's a personal thing for me haha.

one creation you're really proud of. however weird this is, i'm really proud of just saying (yangyang), even though the plot is silly HAHAHA a few people told me they think the fic is quite funny and i really strived for that, so i am glad i succeeded hihi

a creation that took you forever. just saying (yangyang) took me around 3 months to write, and will we talk? (donghyuck) took me... 6 months?? i started it in january and then got into a very depressive episode where i thought i'll never write again (and i also had finals and stuff LMAO) and then i picked it up in june and finally posted it mid-july,, although the plan for the fic was done last june. so technically, over a year- practically, maybe like 2-3 months of writing HAHA

a creation from 2022 that received the most notes. surprisingly, it was annoying (derogatory) (donghyuck) LMAOO its a halloween fic that I DIDN'T EVEN POST ON HALLOWEEN i posted it like 3 days late TT will we talk? (donghyuck) is a close second though, so i guess hyuck fics just do it for y'all

a creation from 2022 you think deserved more notes. honestly, i think your city gave me asthma (mark) and since i saw vienna (jaemin) deserve a lot more than they got hh, but as angst fics, i'm not really that surprised, since i didn't expect more.

a new fandom you joined and a creation you made for it. none! im a loyal czennie LMAO no fr i did join a few i think but i stick to writing for nct, because its the only fandom i still engage in :)

a creation you made that breaks your heart. your city gave me asthma (mark) is a very personal fic that i wrote after i moved for uni. it's filled with all my homesickness, loneliness and feelings of not fitting in that i still kind of resonate with until now. when nobody's watching (renjun) also breaks my heart because of the concept of renjun's character and how he constantly changes himself up just to fit in, yet, still failing. also, i'm not angry anymore (well, sometimes i am) (yangyang) breaks my heart on another level because of my mentioned relation to yangyang's character, and about how my primary emotion has always been anger.

a 'simple' creation you really love. i'm not bitter anymore (i'm syrupy sweet) (jeno) is a very simple fic with literally 0 plot, but i really do love it with my whole heart. it's just a fluffy redemption arc i wrote for jeno, just glued pieces of ideas i had in my notes that i couldnt fit into a long fic haha

a creation that was inspired by another one. a lot of my fics were inspired by songs, if that counts. but i think sugar and salt: the game of trust (mark) was inspired by multiple dystopian books i've read but i think mainly by squid game and the hungar games i suppose?

a favorite creation made by someone else. over on my fic recs blog @03230 there's an 'absolute favorite' tag you could check out for my favorites, but to mention some -> baby face (donghyuck) by @smileysuh friendly favour (donghyuck) by @hencity romancing (donghyuck) by @jenoloqy and they were roommates (donghyuck) by @tyonfs the lonely hearts club (seungmin) by @neo-shitty

some of your favorite content creators from this year. i honestly haven't read much this year, but here are some people whose works i really enjoyed 🫶 @shinachiro my talented best friend, @neo-shitty @cherryeoniis @daegall @sunpopz @tyonfs @luvdsc (always)

#i talk a lot im so sorry AHAHAH #bar.txt

[teddyshoney]

I posted 546 times in 2022

65 posts created (12%)

481 posts reblogged (88%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@gleefulpoppet

@steph-luvs-klaine

@klainetkm

@jayhawk-writes

@klaineccfanficlibrary

I tagged 377 of my posts in 2022

Only 31% of my posts had no tags

#glee - 138 posts

#sweet sweet boys - 111 posts

#klaine - 107 posts

#blaine anderson - 105 posts

#kurt hummel - 98 posts

#klaine fanfic - 65 posts

#writing friends - 33 posts

#klaine fanart - 32 posts

#sweet sweet boy - 31 posts

#best friend writers - 29 posts

Longest Tag: 132 characters

#with blaine's help kurt grows into this confident boy who knows what he wants and can help blaine through his emotions and struggles

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

So, the @gleeful-paintbox-project prompt got me inspired to write a little ficlet, which got me inspired to leave this open-ended so I can fill other prompts in a similar style. So, here we are with Glee According to Kurt Hummel.

The first ficlet in this...series?...is called Mr. Cellophane, in which Kurt is standing backstage, waiting to audition for the New Directions.

Ficlet below the cut. Or you can read it on AO3 or FF.net.

Kurt Hummel stood backstage behind the curtain, taking deep breaths and trying to calm the butterflies currently stirring up a tornado in his stomach. He thought he was going to be sick.

He could hear the clear, strong voice of Mercedes Jones demanding R-E-S-P-E-C-T, and it added more fear to the lump in his throat. He began to second-guess himself. Am I actually going to do this?

A beat went by, a beat of indecision. I shouldn't do this. It was a silly idea. I thought I could fit in somewhere, but I don't know how important that really is. I'm okay on my own. Right. Right? Am I? He immediately remembered some of the thoughts he had earlier in the hallway outside the counselor's office and shuddered. Maybe I'm not. Am I really going to do this?

He reminded himself that he had to. He could hear his dad's voice in his head, telling him that he wanted him to join a club. The request had come out as a do-this-or-else command, but Kurt had grown to know his father well enough since his mother's death to understand that his dad was looking out for him as best he could. He loved him, no matter how gruff he sounded or misunderstood Kurt felt at times. Kurt loved his dad, too, and appreciated his concern.

It did little to help the butterflies, though. Am I ready for this? I've never sung in front of other people before. What if they make fun of me? What if I sound bad? What if I can't hit that high note? Why didn't I pick a different song? Should I go a little more Top 40?

Then his thoughts shifted gears, moving to the future. He loved watching reality TV, and he had been on a kick recently, watching cast reunions and interviews. Will I make friends like that? he wondered. Will there be people I remember fondly, want to see at class reunions? Will I find someone who actually wants to be friends, who sees me for who I am? The thought Who knows I'm gay? flashed through his head, too, but he shoved that backward. Better to not be too hopeful, he told himself.

Just then, he heard Mercedes sing her final note. Then, there was the sound of Mr. Schuster's voice, saying something to her.

He took another deep breath in through his mouth and closed his eyes, letting it out ever so slowly through his nose. Center yourself. Focus. You can do this. Maybe it will even be fun.

He opened his eyes just as Mercedes walked by him, and he made himself give her a smile, however unconvincing. Then, he heard Mr. Schuster call out for the next person, and he took one last deep breath before he squared his shoulders and headed out on the stage. I just have to try. If I don't like it, I don't have to join. This doesn't have to define my high school career.

The next thing he knew, he was standing on the "X" in the middle of the stage. His voice came out stronger than he expected when he said, "Hello. I'm Kurt Hummel, and I'll be singing Mr. Cellophane."

46 notes - Posted January 22, 2022

#4

Klaine 3-2-1 Prompt Bang Fic: When You Wish Upon a Star

Author: @teddyshoney

Artist: @teddyshoney

Prompt Provided by: @gleefulpoppet

Pairings: Blaine Anderson/Kurt Hummel

Rating: M

Word Count: 15,459

Characters: Blaine Anderson, Kurt Hummel, Isabelle Wright

Summary: When Kurt leaves California for a fashion show to premiere his line he's been working on for a few years, he never expects to hear a familiar voice or see a familiar face, one that he hadn't thought he'd ever see or hear outside of his head. It all starts with one sentence, and it blossoms far beyond what either Kurt or his mysterious and handsome stranger could ever have imagined.

Genre/Tropes: Strangers to Lovers, Meet Cute, Soulmates

Warnings: None

50 notes - Posted July 23, 2022

#3

Klaine 3-2-1 Prompt Bang Fic: To Serenade an Angel

Author: @teddyshoney

Artist: @teddyshoney

Prompt Provided by: @redheadgleek

Pairing: Blaine Anderson/Kurt Hummel

Rating: T

Word Count: 12,375

Characters: Blaine Anderson, Kurt Hummel, Roderick Meeks, Trent, Nick

Summary: After the death of his father, Kurt receives a letter from a prestigious musical college, inviting him to attend. He decides to attend, and shortly after his arrival, he hears a strange voice beckoning him down a forbidden hallway. Kurt begins a relationship with the voice, unsure why he finds him so intriguing and why his heart beats more rapidly each time he thinks about the voice. Who does the voice belong to? And what does it want with him?

Genre/Tropes: Emotional hurt/comfort, friends to lovers

Warnings: minor character death mentioned; minor mentions of abuse

51 notes - Posted July 13, 2022

#2

This story is now complete! All 14 chapters have been written and posted! Thank you to everyone who has been reading! I appreciate all of you! And thank you very much to @klaine-word-scramble for the challenge! It's been fun!

Title: Words Unwritten; Stories Untold Chapter: 14/14 Words: 58,181 Summary: During his first ever author book signing event, self-published poetry author Blaine Anderson meets famous writer Kurt Hummel during a slightly awkward chance encounter. Blaine considers this to be a self-esteem boost and nothing more until an innocent-looking email turns into a whirlwind summer romance that Blaine is certain he'll never forget. To read it from Chapter 12 (the first new chapter), click HERE! To read it from the beginning, click HERE!

58 notes - Posted October 31, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Klaine 3-2-1 Prompt Bang Fic: Measure for Measure

Author: @teddyshoney

Artist: @datshitrandom

Prompt Provided by: @quizasvivamos

Pairings: Blaine Anderson/Kurt Hummel

Rating: M

Word Count: 16,588

Characters: Kurt, Blaine, Sam, Tina, Mercedes, Mr. Schue, Ms. Pillsbury, Rachel (mentioned), Madame Tibideaux (mentioned)

Summary: Blaine Anderson, the new band and choir director for McKinley High School, immediately feels a connection to Kurt Hummel, the English teacher, during their initial teacher inservice days. He wants to get to know him, and after a conversation with the art teacher, Tina Cohen-Chang, he finds out that Kurt is stand-offish with nearly everyone at school—except his students—and his only real friend is Mercedes. Spurred on by his feelings, Blaine decides to do something brash: give himself five days to win Kurt Hummel. After he learns more about what secret Kurt's been hiding, however, that might prove to be a taller order than he'd originally thought.

Genre/Tropes: Strangers to Friends to Lovers, Pining, Love at First Sight, Drama

Warnings: Sexual content (see fic tags for more information)

Author's Notes: The title Measure for Measure has a double-meaning in this story! If you want to know how, check under the cut. I don't want to spoil it here! Many thanks to @datshitrandom for the gorgeous artwork. You can find another lovely piece below the cut that is also located at the end of the story! Also, a big shoutout to my friends, @jayhawk-writes and @gleefulpoppet for their support and beta skills! ❤️

Read it on AO3.

See the full post

65 notes - Posted May 7, 2022

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[archiveikemen]

Mashiro Kanade Main Story — Chapter 02

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MC: Wah...!

Startled by the sudden voice right next to my ear, I whipped my head around.

Kanade's skin, smooth and fair like a porcelain doll, came into my line of sight.

MC: Um, I didn't call for you.

Henri tried to save me from the awkward situation.

Henri: Good morning, Kanade~

Henri: We were just talking about everyone's jobs.

While I agreed with what Henri said, I couldn't stop staring at Kanade for some reason.

(I've been thinking about this ever since I first met him, but Kanade is really very pretty.)

(And he smells nice.)

(I wonder what kind of fragrance he uses.)

I was admiring him on the inside, tilting my head.

Kanade lifted a corner of his mouth into a smile and removed his hand from the back of my chair.

Kanade: I'm heading out.

Just as he was about to leave the living room, Koki called out to him.

Koki: Are you going to work?

Koki: Kyoichiro isn't here, right? How will you get there on foot?

Kanade: There's someone coming to pick me up.

Kanade: Kyoichiro will pick me up on the way home after work, so there won't be a problem.

Kanade left the living room with a relaxed smile.

The atmosphere seemed to relax.

I suddenly thought of something.

(Kanade's profession... can't be an 'aristocrat', right?)

Keeping that nonsensical thought to myself, I glanced at the clock on the wall...

MC: Oh! It's time for me to go, too. Thank you for breakfast!

I rushed out of the house and made my way to the train station.

On my way there, I thought about my morning at the Sakuragi.

(From today on, I can make music there!)

My heart was bursting with anticipation as I walked the unfamiliar road.

(Ah, right.)

As I hurried to the station, something came to my mind.

(I know about everyone's jobs...)

I thought of what Koki said this morning.

== Flashback Start ==

MC: All of you do things related to music? 'F' and the other guys.

Koki: That's right.

== Flashback End ==

(I wonder what the guys outside of 'F' do related to music.)

Before I even had the time to think about it...

I was already on my way back to the Sakuragi after a busy day at work at the piano school.

Unlike in the morning, I took my time to walk back while thinking about the government-censored songs I played in the classroom.

(I guess those are rather nice songs.)

(But none of them could be used as inspiration for the song I want to make.)

We're allowed to play in government-authorised piano classes.

Of course, we could only play songs that have been approved by the government.

(When I was a child, my father used to secretly play songs for me...)

(I want to listen to them again.)

I looked up at the sky as I walked.

It has been 18 years since the Music Control Act was made... ——

I enjoy songs that have lyrics and melodies that were created freely.

I've only ever heard a handful of them.

(I, too, aspired to have a career in the music industry.)

(Until Haruto played a song I wrote, right in front of me.)

(I've never watched a live band performance in my entire life...)

MC: I definitely don't have enough opportunities to listen to freely created music.

Mumbling to myself, I looked back at the road in front of me.

(I have to work harder if I want to create my own dream song!)

I clenched my fists and gathered my resolve.

A car came from behind and was overtaking me.

As it passed by, I got a glimpse of the passenger seat...

Kanade: ...

I saw Kanade for a split second.

MC: Ah...

The car continued moving further away, the setting sun reflecting off it.

(Kanade did mention this morning that he'd be coming back in Kyoichiro's car.)

Our eyes met for a brief moment just now and Kanade lifted the edge of his mouth into a small smile.

A memory from yesterday flashed into my mind.

== Flashback Start ==

Kanade: I hope that while you're here, you'll be able to make your dream song.

Kanade: ... Before reality crushes your dreams.

== Flashback End ==

(I wonder if Kanade knows something.)

(Perhaps a tip on how to make my dream song.)

I got excited just thinking about it.

I walked faster up the slope.

When I opened the sliding door in a rush,

Kyoichiro and Kanade, who were in the hallway, looked back at me.

Kyoichiro: What's wrong? You look like you're in a hurry.

MC: U-Ummmmmm...

Kyoichiro: ...?

(Maybe I got too excited.)

I faked a smile and glanced at Kanade...

Kanade: Welcome home.

MC: Huh?

Kanade: Did you run all the way here because you wanted to hear that?

MC: Nn...!

I was probably being poked fun at.

Kanade's 'welcome home' greeting sounded weirdly cheerful, so I answered with a smile.

MC: I'm home~

(When I was living alone, there wasn't anyone to greet me like this, so this is nice.)

(Also, I think it's a rare occurrence for Kanade to say such things.)

I entered through the front door with a spring in my step.

Evan and Otto came bolting down the hallway towards Kyoichiro.

Evan: Woof woof!

Otto: Meow~

It looks like they are competing for Kyoichiro's attention.

Kyoichiro: They're always like this.

Evan was running around and bumped into Kanade.

Kanade: Hm?

Kanade looked down at Evan, who bumped into his leg...

Evan: ... kyyaaaaaaaa!

Evan ran away at top speed the moment their eyes met.

(Even Evan can see the air of authority surrounding Kanade.)

Kanade: What's up with Evan?

Kanade was completely unaware that it was because of his vibes.

MC: I guess it was his animal instincts that made him run away?

MC: He's afraid of you.

Kanade listened with a relaxed expression.

Kanade: Are you also afraid of me?

MC: No... I'm a little intimidated, but not frightened.

Kanade: I see.

Kanade answered casually like he didn't really care.

After that, I walked diagonally behind Kanade as I headed down the hallway.

I remembered what I was think about on the way home earlier.

(I want to know whether Kanade has any tips on making my dream song, but...)

(How should I ask him?)

Kanade suddenly turned around and asked me,

Kanade: Are you a music teacher?

Kanade: What song did you play today?

MC: Well... I taught a class of elementary school students today.

MC: I played some Sonatas and some of Czerny's pieces.

I answered his question immediately, but I suddenly realised.

(Why did he ask?)

(By any chance...)

(Is he trying to say that it's pointless to try to make a 'dream song'?)

I looked at Kanade...

Kanade: Textbooks aren't interesting. But they're good for learning the bare minimum and improving your basics.

Kanade: You can't create anything without knowing the basics.

MC: Huh?

That wasn’t the response I expected, I’m surprised.

Kanade looked at my reaction and laughed as if he found it funny.

He and Kyoichiro left for the soundproof music studio.

(I see… so the songs I’ve heard so far aren’t entirely useless.)

As if Kanade’s words just gave me a little push, I felt my motivation come back.

When I went to the living room,

Koki came out from the kitchen.

Koki: Oh, you’re home.

Koki: Do you want to have dinner with us, MC?

I was invited by Koki to have home cooked dinner.

I sat together with everyone who was gathered at the dining table in the living room.

MC: Do you guys always have meals together like this?

I felt curious, so I asked Kyoichiro, who was sitting next to me.

Kyoichiro: Not always.

Kyoichiro: Koki makes lunch and dinner when he feels like it, and those who want to eat will just gather.

Kyoichiro: But breakfast is for everyone.

I was reminded of this morning upon hearing Kyoichiro mention ‘breakfast’.

MC: Now that I think of it, I heard about everyone’s jobs during breakfast this morning, including yours.

MC: You work as a doctor, right?

Kyoichiro: Yep.

Kyoichiro: Come see me if you’re feeling unwell.

While Kyoichiro said that, he smiled and narrowed his eyes, which looked quite scary when he’s silent.

Eisuke, who was sitting directly in front of me, smiled at me and said

Eisuke: MC, he works in Ophthalmology, you don’t have to go there.

MC: What?

Kyoichiro: Hey.

(Why does it look like there’s always some tension between the two of you?)

Ignoring the fact that Kyoichiro was staring at me, Eisuke continued talking.

Eisuke: When you first came to this place,

Eisuke: I heard that you’re a fan of the great pianist Ritz…

MC: Ah… yes. I’ve always admired him and I’m a really big fan.

I answered feeling slightly embarrassed.

Eisuke looked at Ritsu next to him…

Eisuke: Look, Ritz.

Ritsu: … What?

Eisuke: Are you shy?

Ritsu: … I’m not shy!

Ritsu turned his face away, he was clearly being shy.

(It’s a little too late to be saying this, but… I’m eating together with the pianist I admire and the

members of the band ‘F’.)

As I looked around, I suddenly noticed it.

MC: Where are Gaku and Kanade?

#ikemen live #ikelive main story #ikemen series #cybird ikemen #otome #cybird otome #kanade main story

[tigerpaladin]

Been trying to get back into the swing of things art wise and here's my latest piece! There's a lot that I need to work on, but I'm still super proud of this piece. ^^ I've had a song stuck in my head for since December of 2023 - specifically, "Everything Goes On" by Porter Robinson - and have been planning this piece out since. I swear the first time I heard it I must have kept it on repeat for a week and after that spent the next two month starting my day by listening to that song. This past weekend I went into some sort of fugue state and spent 12 hours on this.

The character is the fursona of one of my dear friends (While they gave me permission to post it, I neglected to ask if they wanted me to tag them, so unless they specify you'll just have to be happy with me being vague. :P). The outfit is a combination of one of the outfits they had designed for them (representing their Homestuck Classpect and the Classpect's Inversion as one) and the general art concepts of the Star Guardians from League of Legends since that's what the song was made for, adding in the star bursts from their outfits and some color changes to accommodate.

As for why I chose my friend's fursona instead of my own? Well...I guess you can say they inspire me, in more ways than one. ^^ I do have a second piece planned inspired by this song, but it will be in a different vein than this. Here's a link to the Lyric Video for the song, enjoy!

#my art #furry #10/10 would snuggle #dhole #anthro #furry art #i pretend to be an artist #star guardian #everything goes on #porter robinson #Youtube

[the-invisible-queer]

7 & 8 + 17 & 18

7. How did you choose which POV to write from?

I've tried everything. First person. Second person. Third person is where I am more comfortable MOST OF THE TIME. Once a decade I'll try out a first person project, but I'm not very comfortable in first person.

I like third person because it makes me feel like the narrator I guess.

8. Do you prefer the beginning, middle, or end of a story?

Depends on the story.

For most romance I write I hate the beginning because as someone who has never been in a relationship I am bad at writing the development of a relationship.

For the Joe fic there will never be an end, but I like writing after the drama and they get back together.

For my Entourage fic, I enjoy developing Ari and my OC's relationship before anything between them happens.

For Amends I HATED writing the last chapter.

So it depends.

17. What do you do when writing becomes difficult? (maybe a lack of inspiration or writers block)

I used to spiral and beat myself up when I got writers block. I've deleted all of my work before.

NOW I take hiatuses until inspiration hits. I took that hiatus from Aug til Jan when I hit a block with Strike Zone.

I am learning to be more patient and gentle with myself now.

I follow inspiration where it leads. I don't consider fic abandoned because I will at some point find inspiration again.

I posted the first chapter of Drops of Jupiter Mar 2021 and posted the 7th chapter Jul 2023.

My fixations never leave me completely so I'll never abandon a WIP completely. Which is why I keep EVERYTHING even after a fixation dies out.

18. Do you title you fics before, during or after the writing process? How do you come up with titles?

Again, depends on the fic. I'd been writing Drops of Jupiter for over a decade before I titled it. And I only titled it because I was posting it. And it happened when the Train song came on.

The Joe fic is ancient and has NEVER been titled and probably never will be.

bad idea right? was titled before I even started writing because it was inspired by the Olivia Rodrigo song.

Most of my titles come from song titles or lyrics.

Some Things You Don't Question is from the lyrics of a Savage Garden song.

The title of Strike Zone came from my dad.

SOMETIMES they come from quotes in the fic. Examples being : More Than There Are Clouds in the Sky, Your Captain Freedom?, You're Gonna Love It, Can You Marry Us Over the Phone.

The title of Admit came from a one word prompt list which is what inspired the whole fic.

It always depends on the fic. Depending on who the fic is about depends on where I'll go looking for titles. I usually listen to music.

The Lost Art of Keeping a Secret came from a title of a song on the Entourage soundtrack because that's where I was looking for ideas for the title since it is an Entourage fic

IF I ever title the Joe fic it'll be from a Jonas song or lyric most likely - or someone related like Demi, Miley, Selena, etc.

Music is always the biggest inspiration both for fics and fic titles.

[thisisnotjh]

this corner of the internet

I've been looking for ways to cope with my current situation. Revisiting this space for my thoughts as I navigate this phase in my life is one of the few ideas that I got.

Almost fifteen years ago, I found this corner of the internet. This has provided me comfort and little joys and had been a constant source of inspiration. It was saddening when people seemed to have moved on pretty quickly with technology and left this space. I always find myself longing for the time when logging on here was the best part of my day - creating silly posts, sharing random stories, and meeting strangers that share the same musings. It was a time of less judgement and more themed ingenuity.

Over the past years since, I found myself pulling away from other social media platforms. Like an outsider - slowly just making myself as invisible as possible. I rarely shared anything that showed my real emotions at the time. Always second guessing whether the people who follows me deserved to know this part of my life. Holding back became a thing and perfection crippled my ability to create. Even for myself.

Today, as I take on another 24 hours of life I want to reclaim my small corner in the internet. A space where I can freely ramble on about the most mundane things. A space for my most varied emotions. A space to let myself interact with the universe. A space for one more stranger.

Before I go, here's a song I've been listening to while writing this.

#Spotify #writeblr

[powerofmettatonneo]

YouTube Videos that make you FEEL Things

So I spend an unhealthy amount of time on YT. It is my main source of entertainment, and like any form of art, it often makes me feel emotions. Most of the time, they just make me feel simple things like a dumb Reddit video making me forcibly exhale at a meme. Occasionally, I find a video that makes me feel more complex emotions, like an incredible piece of animation or a really good song. Rarely, however, I find a video that makes me FEEL Things, that reshapes how I view certain aspects of the world, and I want to talk about these videos and explore how they make me feel. I guess this is a new series of mine or something, and to inaugurate it, I'm going to be talking about a video by @patricia-taxxon , one of my main inspirations for doing this.

The video in question is a video essay called "On the Ethics of Boinking Animal People". If the title of the video is off-putting to you, don't worry, it was for me too, although for potentially quite different reasons. I am, myself, a furry, and quite the degenerate one at that. Because of this, I actually avoided the video for around a month after first being recommended it due to concern over how judgemental videos with titles like that tend to be, but I really shouldn't have been. I had watched quite a few videos by Patricia before, and I should've known how different her views on this topic would be after watching her also outstanding video "Art, Furries, God". It was after watching that video for the third time that I finally bit the bullet and watched the main topic of this post when it showed up in the sidebar, and man, it was a downright transcendental experience, especially since I was watching it on Christmas Eve of all days.

Despite the title, I'd characterize most of the video as being about the philosophy of being a furry, with the sexual ethics simply being the framing device and (as the creator herself puts it) clickbait. The first half didn't really make me feel anything other than interest and mild amusement, but the second half absolutely destroyed me. I am autistic, and there is literally an entire section devoted to "the autistic" and how similar the interactions between furry/anthro/non-human/whatever the fuck you call them characters and humans are to autistic and allistic interactions, and like, that's one of the major themes of my writing. What Measure is a Non-Human? (my Pokemon fanfiction) is literally an allegory for the disability rights movement in general and the autism rights movement in particular. Her description of Lieutenant Data from Star Trek felt like a gut punch because that's literally me. However, if that was all, I wouldn't be writing this post right now. This video would fall into the category of "feeling complex emotions" instead of "reshaping how I view certain aspects of the world". That categorization comes from the next segment: Doggy Interlude.

In this section, Patricia talks about what it's like being a dog. To quote directly from the video for context:

"I identify as a dog. I don't care if you're the kind of person who doesn't really go along with role play, calling me a human being is misgendering me."

Now, I do not identify as an animal myself, but as she was describing how she wants to be treated, I finally "got it", so to speak. To quote someone in the comments section:

"I've always tried to be respectful of my friends who identify as nonhumans, but it never really... clicked, for me. I guess it's not something I've experienced. This video honestly helped me understand the idea way better, so thanks!"

The combination of this realization and the description of the sensory aspects of being a furry from earlier in the video broke my fucking brain. I felt emotions in that moment that I don't think I've ever felt before. I made a comment on the video but I guess I used one too many swears because YouTube wouldn't let me post it, so I'll try to paraphrase the relevant parts here: This video makes me want to bite something and shake it so viciously it gives me whiplash (I actually was biting my hand at this point, which is not something I usually do), it makes the fur on my back raise, it makes my ears flatten against my skull and then dramatically pop back up. The shear visceral desire I felt to be able to do those things was simultaneously surprising and overwhelming. I still don't necessarily identify as a non-human, but holy fuck if there was a procedure to turn me into a foxboy I would straight up commit murder to get it.

The final section of the video is titled "Transcendental Furriness", and this had the most straightforward relatability. I also relate to the themes of Nascent, and her description of her fantasy involving meeting Shoukichi is my exact type of ideal romance. The phrase "I'd say the real weirdos are the one who managed to make it through life without being made to feel inhuman in some way shape or form" made me tear up.

All that being said, I highly recommend this video. There are so many parts I agree with that listing them all would be committing plagiarism. This is why I didn't actually address the titular question in my post, because I have nothing I feel that I could add to it. However, I would also like to say that agreeing with most of it doesn't mean I agree with all of it. I found most of the symbolism section to outright contradict my personal aesthetic preferences, but that's simply a harmless difference in opinion. The conflation of "human" and "person" upset me as an advocate for the personhood of certain animals, but I can recognize it as a fairly harmless semantic difference. I don't bring these up as hate or even really as criticisms, but to show that you don't have to completely agree with a piece of art to be profoundly affected by it.

#youtube #essay #media criticism #patricia taxxon #furry #furry philosophy #autism

[xoteajays]

Oh! I did message you in instant messages. I can't always remember who I message someone. And I know that I send long messages that not everyone likes. So there's also that reason too.

Yeah. The High&Low franchise came out eight years ago. So you wish there was more people who still created content for the H&L fandom.

Which is bizarre to me? Because High&Low was a popular franchise when it came out, but now there seems to be nothing for the fandom. Especially because there are similarities between High&Low, Worst and Tokyo Revengers. Pretty boys who are delinquents. [I've only ever seen the Worst crossover movie with High&Low, not even the original series. So I can't comment much on Worst.]

Chimknj also wrote another High&Low story. Well.. There story would be a one shot, a one chapter story. Not that you have to read it. But it is a smutty story between Rocky and his girlfriend (original character) - during the events of the first movie.

And, I think, there is a person who's under the name FireOfJudgment on here. They have H&L stories, and AIB stories too. But I don't know what characters or ships they write for though. In case you may want to search their work. They might be an option for you.

It's best for me to write notes for ideas to stories, and characters, and who knows what else while being involved in the fandom. Because if I try writing when I'm not in any fandom, then my thoughts and ideas... I became fickle and scattered on what I want to write. It's a problem.

Being in a fandom makes me more focused to write for that fandom. If that makes any sense.

I mean.. The color coordination to my characters was accidental for me. Because I tend to go for a specific appearance for my characters, I was very adamant about using those people for my face claims but I wasn't sure for what fandom - and I probably will use them for a lot of other fandoms too. Most likely. But not sure which other fandoms yet though. Anyway. Anyway.. But one person's favorite color is blue, one is orange, and another is red which eventually became their signature colors. So I unconsciously connected them to their respective gangs, which is kinda funny because their personalities actually seem fitting for those gangs too. And since the High&Low cast of characters have been predominantly men, I wanted more female characters involved in the story. But there have been a few things I've been stick on lately.

i am just hella awful at answering my private messages. i’ll be like ‘ill reply to that in a bit’ and then completely forget.

it’s just weird. like fandoms used to stick around for longer and h&l is still relatively recent. like 2016 wasn’t even a decade ago yet! everybody go watch h&l and feel emotions you didn’t expect about a pretty boy gang show. the song ‘break into the dark’ literally got me F*cked Up, everybody go watch the unofficial music video.

i will absolutely go read a smutty fic, that’s half of what i’ve been reading lately anyway. love me an explicit fic. and rocky has grown on me, do really like that dude.

i used to be really good at writing short original stories, but now i find it a bit harder. need that high school inspired brain back. fanfics do come a bit easier for me, but i also second guess myself a lot and some stuff i don’t end up posting or even finishing. which is a shame bc it’s supposed to be a fun hobby. i definitely need a fandom to obsess over or i just go totally blank in the brain.

im so bad at colour coordinating my ocs, i can rarely ever decide on what colour suits them best. idk if anyone’s noticed how many light blue or pink characters i have ahsjdl. my own h&l oc kinda started as an oya oc and then developed into something more and got switched around a bit, i think i’m mostly happy with where she’s at rn tho. im having a lot of fun with her.

h&l is definitely lacking in the female character department. like even the strawberry milk girls don’t get a whole lot of screen time like i thought they would, which is a shame bc i think they’re cool and i love pink. i think naomi got the most screen time out of all the girls and even that wasnt a whole lot. n-e-way yamato’s mum and the bartender lady are, like, definitely gfs tho, that’s my hc.

#tj answers #writers bc like ‘its not gay!’ and then have no women in sight #there is no bechdel test passing here #long post // #long post anon

[thenighttrain]

okay confession time (we'll not really because I'm doing this on anon) but well how you're feeling in being a fan of her from just her music is what I've always been with her and all the artists I love and despite being a fan since her starting her career I guess I'd be classed as casual because I don't love all her songs and there's other artists whose songs I love more but the difference here has been she's got a bigger community to engage in partly because of her own behaviour and the media so you can share and discuss and revel in excitement (which I was looking forward to a lot with speak now tv) but I've never been completely connected to Taylor the way some fans are but I've always thought she's a good person and unfairly treated and there's even a lot of criticism other swifties have that I don't agree with (not this one about mh that's a simple situation I feel) but I don't analyse in everything she does or what songs are about none of that makes a difference if I like a song more or not but that's a huge part of the fandom and I was always intimidated in interacting the fandom until after folklore era because I thought people were becoming more welcoming at that time but it's always changing and recently the community doesn't feel like a community yknow and so while I have been dissapointed with Taylor it took me a second to step back and sigh and say well how surprised can I be but then the way everyone has discussed it and argued with other people about it it's less how I feel about Taylor and more how I feel about this community that has changed because she's still inspiring creatively and if I see GIFs or videos of hers I think damn vocals or she's cute but I'm not reveling in it all and not feeling excitement or enjoyment in sharing it all because of how it's brought back to the front of my mind that there's privilege which will always have us distanced and I'll wish her well but that's all but this place here has become so mean and it's that idea of maybe Taylor won't say what you're seeing about poc/religious minorities but those people will see it and they will feel uncomfortable so now I'm back to before where I am listening to the music she has that I like whenever I'm in the mood for it and back to keeping my interactions minimal which makes me sad but I'll get used to it because this fandom has made me really uncomfortable and I guess I hope that you can find a way to feel comfortable in yourself here with the people around you and how you post because that's the most important thing here

this is a very healthy mindset to have! you make a really good point about the community - she's really curated that huge, super active fandom, moreso than most artists (even waaay before she blew up during 1989). but as you say, the privilege creates a distance. i'm sorry to hear the fandom has also made you uncomfortable - the last month has been awful, the fandom is so divided and it sucks. and thank you, i feel better now that i've mentally disengaged but it's also not something i can get over super quickly :')

#anonymous #ask

[aliyahblogs]

My Final Assignment: My Manifesto

After reading over the blog entries, I realized that I frequently use the words "motivation" or "inspiration" in them. The main focus of the majority of my blogs is improving and continuing. I gravitate toward topics like these because, in my life, I tend to look for indications that I am doing well and should carry on. I've come to know that I have a lot of self-doubts, and finding new sources of inspiration and motivation helps me understand that I'm doing what I need to be doing and that it's worthwhile. I went back to blog number 4, and I realize this is when I started to draw more attention to inspirational themes. In blog number 4 I stated, “The lovely beaches and waterways that surround us are brought together with the community's values.” This was talking about the “sailing” sculpture I wrote about, even though it does not clearly state that it was inspirational but I remember feeling that way writing about it. I found it to be motivational since having this lovely sculpture in the community demonstrates how pleasurable activities like traveling to the beach brings people together because we all have an appreciation of beaches and the ocean.

The following blog, which will discuss the overall subject, will be blog number 7. This article discusses my musical theme, which is songs that encourage and motivate other people and me. Don't Stop Me Now, Lose Yourself, Livin' On A Prayer, Survivor, It's A Great Day To Be Alive, and Juicy were among the songs I chose. This was a great task for me since I enjoy listening to music. I still use these songs as encouragement and inspiration to keep working hard and to develop myself. The aim of each of the songs I've mentioned is to uplift and motivate listeners. The jazz song "Don't Stop Me Now" by Queen was included in my playlist because of the uplifting message of being unstoppable it conveys. "Lose Yourself" is a genuinely upbeat song, it was perfect for my topic. The lyrics therefore only serve to uplift and stimulate listeners. It encourages listeners to live entirely in the present and try to take advantage of the chances that life presents them with. The song "Survivor" was a good fit for the playlist's theme since the performers discuss the criticism they get in the song's first and second verses while comparing it with the current state of affairs. The song "Juicy" was included in my playlist since it was inspired by Notorious Big's belief that success can be achieved regardless of upbringing. The country song "It's A Wonderful Day To Be Alive" by Travis Tritt made him understand that even though individuals may have bad days, they should be thankful for what they have and have hope for better days to come. People should constantly look on the bright side of things and maintain an optimistic view of life, regardless of their background or the obstacles they may face. "Livin' On A Prayer" fits my theme well since it is a working-class motivating song that depicts the economic hardship of the era. The core of the narrative was the fictitious couple Tommy and Gina, who are having financial difficulties. While working on this assignment, I was reminded of times when I used to listen to these songs in the car with my parents, and it brought back memories of how I felt while doing so. I make an effort to comprehend the lyrics and the overall meaning of any music I listen to. By doing this, I've been able to listen to music that just makes me feel better and inspires or motivates me. The eighth blog, "Photographer's Eye," is the last one I'll mention as having discussed my main topic. I discussed in this post how the beauty of sunsets helps my mental health and inspires me. This is one of the ways I am motivated because, for a short period, I feel quiet and peaceful. This gives me the energy to continue and inspires me to be grateful for everything around me. When I don't have that continual reminder to keep going on, I tend to second-guess and overthink things. My blog is, in general, what I would call "Inspirational/Motivational." That, in my opinion, is the ideal way to sum up all of my blog posts in one word and prevent others from encouraging failure-related thinking.

[tellhound]

All of the letters in the fic alphabet 😂 when you've energy

I'm not sorry it took me like a year to answer this 😂😘 but the answers will be under a read more since it's loooooooong

A: How did you come up with the title to [insert fic]? For this one I chose The Weight Of Living because the answer is short. I stole it from Bastille. They have two songs with that same name.

B: Any of your stories inspired by personal experience?

Propably not whole stories, but there's definitely some scenes that have been inspired by personal experiences.

C: What character do you identify with most?

In general I'd probably say Eddie Munson. But if we go based on my own portrayals of the characters I've written about then I'd probably say Jaskier.

D: Is there a song or a playlist to associate with [insert fic]?

For this one I chose Summer evenings (are best spent with you) cause there is one acoustic BTS song (may not have been BTS) I had on repeat while writing it. Unfortunately I can no longer remember what song it actually was.

E: If you wrote a sequel to [insert fic], what would it be about?

I chose 2:37 am for this one. And I guess it would be more of a prequel than a sequel. But I kinda wanna write about the relationship Jaskier had with Valdo up to the point where Valdo decided to leave and what happend for Jaskier to start dating Geralt. I don't wanna say too much in case I do end up writing it, but I can reveal that would be partly inspired by Little Miss Why So by The Amazing Devil

F: Share a snippet from one of your favourite dialogue scenes you've written and explain why you're proud of it.

Taken directly from The fighting is done (and nobody's won)

"We broke up, Eddie." He says and looks over at his ex for the first time since he sat down beside him on the bench. "And I don't know how you feel, but it fucking hurts to still have to see you each and every day when we hang out with all our friends. But it's not like I'm gonna ask you to stop hanging out with us or stop hanging out with them myself. I just need some time to get over us."

I wouldn't exactly say I'm proud of it. I'm way too critical of my own writing to be proud of anything. But this whole scene is the first one in a long time where I didn't feel the need to rewrite it over and over and over again.

G: Do you write your story from start to finish, or do you write the scenes out of order?

Most of the time I write things from start to finish. I've tried writing out of order sometimes when there's scenes or just random descriptions or pieces of dialogue I don't want to forget, but I rarely finish those fics.

H: How would you describe your style?

Messy and boring.

I: Do you have a guilty pleasure in fic (reading or writing)?

I guess that in a way the whump fics I read is a guilty pleasure. And if we're going in to more specifics then I'd say, fevers, fainting, and broken bones.

J: Write or describe an alternative ending to [insert fic].

Let's go with Till Death Do Us Part. And I'm cheating a little bit here because there was originally an alternative ending that I'm now trying to turn into a second part of this fic instead where Jaskier willingly gets captured by the people that are chasing them which in turn would lead Yennefer to get captured too.

K: What's the angstiest idea you've ever come up with?

Probably an unfinished Cabin Pressure fic in which Martin's girlfriend is dead and he decides to commit suicide because he can't live without her. He wasn't going to actually die though, but with where I left it I guess it's kinda up to the reader to decide.

If anyone for any reason want the link to this fic you can ask and I'll give it out, but I'm not gonna link it in the post like I've done with my other fics

L: How many times do you usually revise your fic/chapter before posting?

Either not at all or a million times. There's no in between.

M: Got any premises on the back burner that you'd care to share?

I may have mentioned this before. But I wanna write kind of like my own twist of the soul mate AU where everything is black and white until you meat your soul mate. It would be geraskier and set after the mountain. Where after Jaskier slowly starts seeing things in black and white again he tries to find Geralt in a desperate attempt to save the witcher who is dying.

N: Is there a fic you wish someone else would write (or finish) for you?

Probably the thing I mentioned above. And I've been working on a "secret" Stranger Things fic for months now that I would love if someone could just end for me.

O: How do you begin a story—with the plot, or the characters?

Like when I'm planning or? Sorry I don't fully understand this question? And I do blame that on me not being a native English speaker.

P: Are you what George R. R. Martin would call an "architect" or a "gardener"? (How much do you plan in advance, versus letting the storu unfold as you go?)

I'm definitely a gardener and maybe that's why I never finish anything.

Q: How do you feel about collaborations?

I think it's very fucking neat and fun to do. Would love to collaborate with you in the future, my love.

R: Are there any writers (fanfic or otherwise) you consider an influence?

In a way I would say that most writers who's work I read influence me in different ways.

S: Any fandom tropes you can't resist?

Don't think so?

T: Any fandom tropes you can't stand?

Probably. But none that come to mind right now.

U: Share three two of your favourite fic writers and why you like them so much.

Yes I changed the question, fight me (ง'̀-'́)ง

Tarkovsky now I do think this one kinda speaks for itself my darling 😘 but the stories just have this way to really suck you in and just forget about everything going on around you at the time.

PenAndInkPrincess I have not read every single story this person have written, but is one out of literally 2 people that I'm actually subscribed to. Their stories kinda just itch a really nice spot in my brain whenever I read them.

V: If you could write the sequel (or prequel) to any fic out there not written by yourself, which would you choose?

I read a Supernatural fic once years ago that was basically set after the world had ended, I no longer remember the name of the fic or the author, but it didn't really explain what had happend to bring the apocalypse so I would kinda love to write a prequel about that for it.

W: Do you like more general prompts, or more specific ones?

More general ones. I think it's fun to leave the writer up to how they interpret things.

X: A character you enjoy making suffer.

Jaskier ����

Y: A character you want to protect.

Also Jaskier 😂

Z: Major character death—do you ever write/read it? Is there a character whose death you can't tolerate?

I have written mcd fics a few times in the past and I'm low-key working on a The Witcher fic like that. Used to read it a lot when I was younger, but I've kinda stopped in the past couple years or so just because I don't really wanna read fics without a happy ending these days. I read fics to escape the tragedy that is real life and mcd doesn't exactly give me the right type of escape.

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