#i guess screaming in the void is fine

[computerillness]

I hate that the shit that gets traction on this site is either my shitposts or me just being insane about a screengrab of chuck/michael mckean. Guess my art is not marketable. Whatever. It’s just how the internet works

#like that one post having over 6000 notes… i put zero effort into that #chuck only seems to garner attention through shitposts unfortunately #i guess screaming in the void is fine #less eyes on me to be paranoid about #also unrelated but i am starving for chuck content as of late… most of the tag is just me or some unfunny garbage #joey moment.txt

[gecemi09]

Regarding Batman and Responsibility: A Rant

So, whenever there is talk about the age old question of "Should Batman kill Joker?" there is always, and I mean always someone who says something along the lines of: "But it's not Batman's responsibility to kill Joker so it's wrong to put the burden onto him." and on the surface this seems like a reasonable argument. After all, there is a police department in gotham, there is a government, so shouldn't we hold them accountable as well? Well, not exactly.

(Warning: I probably mispelled responsibility and responsible a LOT in this post, please don't begrudge me for it.)

Of course, those institutions ARE responsible for the Joker to some degree but the real question, to me, is: why is Batman considered as "NOT responsible" when he very much is.

People who make this argument usually say: "Well Batman is a volunteer, a vigilante! This is practically none of his bussiness." And true, Bruce isn't required to be a vigilante, he does it entirely out of his own volition. But is that not the whole reason why he IS responsible? I mean, Bruce is the one who CHOSE to take up that responsibilty, he is the one who CHOSES to shoulder that burden. In that sense he isn't that different from a government official/cop/etc. those people do it of their on will too don't they? Bruce, day after day, year after year, choses to fight for Gotham, to protect it and its people; he takes those responsibilities onto himself and yet... stopping Joker somehow, isn't one of them?

In my opinion, it is hypocritical. Bruce is the one who says things like "Gotham is MY city" or "I don't allow metas in Gotham, you need MY permission." or "You can't operate as a vigilante in Gotham without my say-so."(Stephanie Brown, anyone?) he routinely describes his vigilantism as a "war on crime"(which, yikes) and calls it a "crusade" and says it is his "mission" no? He chooses to do these things all on his own, no one forces him to. At a certain point, it's a matter of integrity. He can't pick and choose what exactly constitutes to protecting Gotham and what doesn't. He can't decide that beating up muggers in the streets is extremely important and is his job while improving Arkham isn't. He can't decide that, despite putting Joker in Arkham over and over again knowing he's going to escape, he isn't at least partly responsible for Joker's future victims. He can't keep stopping people from killing Joker(Under the Red Hood, hello!), saving Joker from the death row, putting Joker into a Lazarus Pit, or saving him from natural disasters(because you KNOW he would) and then claim "Oh, but killing Joker isn't my responsibility." He can't willingly claim responsibility for Gotham in every other scenario, EXCEPT for that. That's just having your cake and trying to eat it too. Unless he decided that by saving Joker he is not actually harming Gotham, by allowing Joker to live he is actively NEGLECTING his mission, his duty. And anyway, I thought the whole point of superhero comics was that people with power to better things shoud use those powers to do exactly that. Batman DOES have the power to "better" Gotham, he just isn't using it.

"Killing Joker isn't Batman's responsibility." No, it is. Because protecting Gotham and its people IS his responsibility, as he took it onto himself. If he didn't want to deal with the consequences of such a thing then he shouldn't have become a vigilante in the first place.

Mind you, this doesn't mean he's the ONLY one responsible, far from it, just that he is.

(I genuinely don't remember whether I made a post on this before but I have ranted about this to myself outloud when alone multiple times and if I have to think about this so do you)

[And YES we all know the real reason is because Joker is DC's cashcow, that is not the point of this post...]

#am i the only one who thinks this way?? mutuals pls sned help #like seeing this argument annoys me soo much #apparently bruce has authority on who can do heroing in gotham but killing joker isn't his responsibility?? #this is also @ the people who say fixing arkham isn't bruces responsibiltiy btw #yes it is??? #he is the one beating ppl up and sending them there #his whole thing is “i want to make gotham into a better place” #so yes it is his responsibility #i guess this might be a subjective thing? like depending on how much someone cares about personal integrity lol #personally if you willingly took on a responsibility then there is no excuse for slacking off(for lack of a better term) #anti bruce wayne #anti batman #batman critical #went hard in this one lol #i just hate this argument #its fine if it goes againts bruces moral code thats fine #but dont start the responsibility discusison w me lol #screaming to the void #also slitting jasons throat is his responsibility but killing joker isnt?? be fucking fr dude

[branches-in-a-flood]

Depressionposting

I sometimes wish I had access to a button that would erase all memory and evidence I existed when pressed.

I suppose it's good that my fear of upsetting/disappointing the people I would leave behind keeps me here? In a way?

#screaming into the void #cw: suicidal ideation #i guess? its fine

[itspileofgoodthings]

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#Early morning Maria vent post #my anxiety the last couple days has just been so high it’s like walking a tightrope #and I saw a friend yesterday and talked about a lot of the under the surface stuff #and it was good but it also brought so many things into this sharp clarity #that made me dizzy #and made me hate my own desire to have everything just laid out so clearly and so starkly in words #like why can’t I just leave things to cliches. Leave my own psyche to cliches. There’s a reason they exist!!! #but the hunger to understand and articulate is always so strong but when it’s for the big stuff you can’t really put into words #doing so always just leaves me so raw and vulnerable and wretched afterwards #and gosh it’s just been building and building the last few days #and I’m just so tired and so fraught and so tired! Of my own overthinking and circling round a problem #but never being able to talk myself into a clear understanding of what I want to do #I am just. Wrecked and wretched! #which is dramatic because I will be fine and things will keep going #but it’s five in the morning and I am completely taut with anxiety #and it’s awful and everything is awful and I need to cry and sleep #but clearly it was time for my early morning vent post that will be deleted later #the hallmark of me on vacation I guess #so this is me [ screaming into the void ] #this is me trying to get some of that out #thanks for listening etc.

[goodbye-susan]

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#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #I'm fine now at least just the last 12 hours it's aaaaaaaaaaa #I get anxious screaming into a pillow I think the neighbours would still hear it if I completely went for it #the best opportunity would be middle of nowhere half way between my house and hometown where I'd park the car and just scream scream scream #but that's not very convenient #I'm fine in this exact moment but it's just the same underlying troubles that rear up every so often #sometimes you have to let it out but there is immense anxiety about being *too* negative *too* difficult #because no one wants to be around that all the time #guess if I get something vented like this to tumblr it acts as some exhaust for thoughts and then I can get back to functioning normally #less of a negative person on the outset while releasing the negative feelings that smother me #everyone needs a void for shouting into

[nellectronic]

never would have predicted the toll this is taking on my mental health

#can’t say what this is about because— nope can’t say that either. if I say that it’ll be obvious what it’s about #but yeah I am experiencing things I did not think I would be experiencing #even when— hm. probably shouldn’t say that either. I guess ‘delayed reaction’ describes it well enough #of course I thought everything would be fine at first #I would not have s— oh no I definitely can’t say that. to anyone ever probably #delete later #<- paranoid that I’m not being vague enough which to be fair is probably the case #I think I need to— yeah I can’t say that either #Achievement Unlocked: ***************** ****** #screams into the void

[stardust948]

Prepping for interviews really do feel like you're about to be thrown into the Hunger Games arena.

#this is my 1st in person final round interview #and i'm lowkey freaking out #it'll be fine #it's just the waiting that gets me #ugh #i need to sleep #irl #job interview #work #venting i guess #star screams into the void #the hunger games

[tarabyte3]

Do you ever just

#things are going so well why do you ask 😌 #*screaming into the void* #i'm fine it's just that life is an unrelenting nightmare #and anytime i feel 1 positive emotion the universe has to punch me in the kidneys #but other than that totally fine #tara irl #cw depression #i guess? #is it really depression or does being alive right now just suck?

[tardis--dreams]

I wish i could skip forward to December 23 already

#i cannot stand my own whining but god i hate my life rn lol #i mean it's all my fault but i don't see myself improving in this environment #i should just try to ignore myself for the next 3 weeks #i can start packing up and throwing away stuff i won't need here anymore and maybe I'll feel less stifled #idk #just get through it i guess #this weekend I'll be away one last time and then there's only 2 weekends left #then it's essentially only 2 more weeks because the last week doesn't even count #finals start in 2 weeks already so i should be occupied #i still haven't even started my paper i already asked for an extension for and should hand in in November #instead of October #i just need to start focusing on anything but food intake and exercise and my body and I'll be fine #the days only seem to go by so slow suddenly because i'm literally not doing anything but hate my current state #so tomorrow I'll work on my paper and go running or take a walk and I'll book my bus tickets for the weekend #I'll find some enjoyment in occupying my mind with anything but myself #(sounds wrong. but i guess my problem really is that I'm focusing too much on how i dislike everything about me and need to change it #while the solution would be to simply not care and live my sad little life) #void screams #(((affirmation: i will not cry myself to sleep tonight ♡ i will face another day without a mental breakdown over how Wrong i am ♡))

[manasurge]

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#hm #might delete later #I still don't know what to do rn #idk what else to do but scream into the tumblr void bc I have no other outlet to deal with this #i'm just sitting here in silence bc my head feels like it's full and empty at the same time #erugh i was hoping lying down and then having something to eat would help; but it's not #idk what's wrong with me rn; this is very frustrating #my day is almost ending and i'm depressed I haven't done anything enjoyable yet; again very frustrating #bad combo of moody/depressed/imposter syndrome is duking it out in my head rn and I'm just... staring with my eyes glazed over #I'm getting ear blasted with my tinnitus; so I guess that's something #I was fine a couple days ago; what the hell #grrr

[mementoasts]

i love october i love art challenges i love not partaking in any art challenges

#the best i've ever done was like.... 7 years ago....... i did notebook drawings for like 15 days and then i gave up skfhsjdhk #there's just no way my ass can draw anything for a month straight now 😭😭😭 #i know even just a few days is perfectly fine but it's been a while since i've done even that.... #idk smthn abt october and the pressure to get involved with these things makes it SO hard for me to pick up my tablet and do it xD #i guess i'll just keep doin my thang and draw whatever #the void screaming

[outer-edges]

there's that tiktok of that stupid man going around like 'oh, what if everyone is fake and i'm the only real person', and i know that everyone is dunking on him for being fucking stupid by posing that question, and that whole thing really is a completely different philosophical can of worms that needs to be unpacked. but like.

idk. sometimes, i legitimately think the opposite. like, no, i am the fake person. everyone else here is real. everyone else has rich inner lives and they're vibrant and they have friends and family and empathy and passion and interests and all that shit i yearn for (and have gotten really good at feigning) but don't actually have.

i just have like...like this stark anhedonia.

i'm the fake person. i'm completely empty. everyone else is real. i'm kind of just here.

and i truly do mean this in like the most neutral way possible. this is something i've more or less made my peace with. but sometimes i wish it wasn't something i had to make peace with, ya know? sometimes i wish i wasn't fundamentally separated from people and could just like connect. sometimes i wish i wasn't so empty. ya know?

#...YA KNOW? #bringing irl catchphrase onto this website now yep #i don't get like this on here really #but like screaming into the notion-page-void i've created gets old after a while #so i'm going to scream into this differently shaped tumblr-void which might make me feel a little better #even if it's to the same effect as the empty notion page #mattie gets personal #idk. new tag i guess? #i don't forsee this happening often i am too cringed out by myself to allow myself to dwell for too long #just deeply embarrassed that i have irrational feelings #bc my life is fine #objectively and truly #so rlly aint any reason for all this #none of this makes sense but wtever #what are those lines from sylvia that make me sob? #'i'm hollow' #'there's nothing behind my eyes' #'i'm a negative of a person' #'it's as if i've never thought anything wrote anything or felt anything' #yeah. #....yeah.......

[lucifersincentivetosleep]

You know, I still remember how excited I was when I got to mc's first in game chance to have demonus and instead of it being "lol the human got drunk on demon liquor guess we have to babysit" like I was kinda dreading it'd be; we get to use the dialogue choice that implies it just doesn't effect humans. Like not to get super personal but when you have a medical condition that can get quickly and exponentially worse by consuming any alcohol it gets really tiring to have people other you for not drinking.

So when all the brothers just shrugged off MC being immune to demonus it just felt really nice. And it opened up the implication that maybe demonus is different enough from human world liquor that even I could have it! And I really like the idea of being able to go out platonically with the bros and have some drinks, or ask Lucifer what his favorite demonus is on a date and try it out with him.

#screaming into my personal void #incentive's thots #ruby eyes and words like knives #I'm just rambling to myself #but being a man who can't drink for whatever reason almost always ends with mockery(in my experince) #so its.. really validating? i guess?? to have it just be seen as completely normal and fine to not drink or be immume #im not making sense but no o e reads the tags so its fine #I'm in the mood to praise what I like about the game just ignore me

[onlythebravest]

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#tw sick parent figure + tw sick parent when i was younger (sick-sick) #seriously don't read this it's just me rambling #i just write it here bc i don't want to bother people by saying the same thing over and over and over #bc it's nothing new to be said. i just need to get it out yet another time #i hope this drowns in all the louis posts so i can just send this into the void 😂 #i've been home for less than 24 hours and i already don't want to be here. it already sucks #i guess in a way it's good bc now i can help but it really sucks and idk how to handle everything #and on top of that my therapist continues to be sick so i don't even have someone to talk to about all of this and it just sits in my head #he is already back at the hospital which makes me just remember all the times my mom went in and out of the hospital when i was younger #well good thing here is that they have something that they now can treat even if they don't know it that's actual cause of not #but doesn't help with all my thoughts about how bad shit is and how it reminds me of my mom and how i can't handle any of this #and am instead rambling in some tags in a tumblr post #i wish i could just shut down all the emotions until he's all better and we don't have to worry anymore and everything is fine again #bc this sucks #i don't want to do this anymore #and i'm sure it's barely begun #bc why would it be easily treatable? that would be a miracle and i don't believe in miracles #life sucks and i really wish it didn't #if you’re down here then that’s impressive bc I wouldn’t be able to read this since it’s just a block of text without any real sentences 😂 #and yeah this is just me screaming into the void #don't worry about it i'll be fine

[genshxn]

before anyone asks the harbingers are 100000000% gonna get added to the harem some fucking how.

#—screaming into the void #isekai series #THOSE MFERS ARE SO FINE #BUT I KNOW NEAR JACKSHIT ARGHHHH #PREMATURE CHARACTER ASSASSINATION HERE WE GO I GUESS LMAO

[saltybiowarefantears]

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#about to commit some ding dang murderin if i'm not careful #seriously because of some miscommunication and office fuckups (happens i get it) but then CONTINUED ones i can't get help until february #i just hate that when offices make a mistake like this it's the patients that suffer for it like 'oops my bad we'll fix it. come back later #when later means in six months... ok! that's fine! how about i break a knee cap and you can't walk for a few months 'oops my bad!' #these are people's lives. i've had to put all my shit on hold because of this. did you know it's my 10 year wedding anniversary soon? #guess what i can't really go anywhere or do anything to celebrate? but no... oops my bad #medical vent #salty vent #delete later #sorry i just really really needed to scream into the void for a moment