#i genuinely hate driving

[trblsvt]

when your friends realize you're actually not the bad driver you claim to be and start asking if they can ride with you. when i say you, i mean me.

#my only personality trait is that i claim im bad at driving #and compared to my friends i am #i genuinely hate driving #it makes me so anxious #and i drove my friends to grad rehearsal which was so far away with tons of traffic #and i think they realized im not as bad #as i claim to be #so i asked my friend if she could pick me up for a party tomorrow #and she was like can you just pick me up at my bfs house #AND WHAT WAS I SUPPOSED TO SAY??? NO.. #CERTAINLY NOT #anyway #im driving my friends to a party tomorrow #correction #i hate driving with other people #if i crash and kill my passengers i dont want that on my mind #if i crash and kill myself then that's another story #anyway if you reached this far down congrats! #minli.txt

[stuckinapril]

I love Tumblr because nothing matters here truly. There are no influencers. Having followers doesn’t mean anything. It’s just a site where people post their sporadic thoughts and rb pretty pictures. Anyone who thinks any of this matters is woefully missing the point

#I joined tumblr for the aesthetics and now I’m here bc it’s the most low pressure social media to be on #Instagram is ppl’s highlight reel but Tumblr is where u see their pure thoughts unobstructed and I adore that #It’s very nice to have people to relate to and is def the main appeal to me but I don’t think there’s much more to it than that genuinely #Monetization on tumblr isn’t a thing and probably won’t be so it feels stupid to put more stake than necessary in it. Like you’re in the #Trenches over tumblr of all things. Embarrassing #I know chronically online people exist bc I have seen them in my or somebody else’s inbox but imagine waking up at 70 one day and the #Realization hitting u like a freight time that u wasted all ur time thinking tumblr. TUMBLR. This dying website. Has enough weight for u to #be sending anon hate or reviewing ppl’s blogs like they’re some kind of product. Brother this is licherally tumblr #I choose to laugh at this behavior than take it seriously bc absolutely no one is driving me crazy on my OWN blog. On tumblr dot com. #I refuse #I will do whatever I want forever etc

[lesbianshepard]

they should invent a driving a car that isn't scary

#m #i hate driving so much i get so nervous and scared #but i need to in order to be a shovelbum #because i need to #y'knw #get places #i miss charleston i miss college i miss being able to walk places #every time i get behind the wheel im like aaaaaaa #and its genuinely like harming my ability to live life #like i cant bring myself to drive without panicking #but i need to drive to get a job to afford doctors so i can get back on my meds #but i need my meds to be able to bring myself to drive #so you can see the problem here

[gayemeralds]

every day fighting for my life because i absolutely hate any concept of shadow training sonic and helping him with his chaos abilities. sonic chaos controlled with a fake emerald after watching him once or twice while hurtling through space at terminal velocity right before the capsule would explode. he was able to establish a super form in sonic two and has been collecting these emeralds in special zones since sonic one. he’s not the guy who fell from space after using his super form in sa2. sa1 when the emeralds and master emerald were acting strange knuckles wanted to ask for sonic’s advice over the matter. i simply do not think sonic needs shadow’s help.

#look at this point i think sonic just actively chooses not to bother with chaos energy #why would he? he already runs fast and fights well #he did all of that before chaos energy #but i think he very much could rival shadow in chaos manipulation if he wanted to #he just doesn’t . #drives me nuts sorry it’s just one of the worst fan tropes i see i HATE IT #Sonic’s genuinely a fast and creative learner even if he did want to explore his chaos energy more i don’t think he’d need shadows help

[wild-flowerhoney]

nico isnt even IN the show and already ppl are freaking about about percico/jasico/whatever again.

give it a rest ffs

#pjo #hoo #genuinely losing drive to do anything when i was writing 14k in two days just last week #being reminded of why i hated this fandom and refused to join it for literal YEARS #“bringing back percico now that annabeth is black” its existed since she was the whitest girl in the whole series what #percico #jasico #valdangelo #solangelo #percabeth #fucking exhausting

[shsl-roomba]

the dr fandom cant handle wlw ships in any other context than background fluff with no depth

i like sakuraoi and tsumioda ect but they always get woobified and mellowed out like did they SEE 1-4??? aoi did not pull all that to get sidelined as a supportive background lesbian in your ishimondo fanfic

and don’t get me wrong. my girls need a break sometimes fluff is great i don’t have a problem with it. but it’s the constant sidelining of wlw ships in favour of het/mlm ships in pretty much any fandom that gets to me.

and how wlw ships are only acceptable in the community when they don’t have any dysfunction or toxicity, and if the ship does have even the slightest hint of the above qualities it is either mellowed out to the point of being unrecognisable or dumped on with thinly veiled misogyny and homophobia and when i say slightest hint i mean the literally slightest hint. like the girls will argue once and the fandom will label the ship toxic while shipping. fucking kuzupeko or something.

wlw ships are seen almost entirely as a way to get female characters out of the way of mlm ships. in het ships the female character is a tool to develop the male character. they show significantly less depth and probably dies to forward the male character’s development (sound familiar?)

in any situation female characters are characterised by their relations to male characters. a female character’s (usually romantic, or at least interpreted as such) relationship with a male character is their defining characteristic. if said female character is in a wlw relationship they are reduced to their most basic traits while male characters are explored and given depth, and exist in the story only to offer support to the male characters.

i haven’t even mentioned how female characters must be in a relationship to be even remotely relevant in a story, but that’s a rant for another time.

grrah the way that female characters mirrors how wlw ships are treated by the community, and that characters/ships that aren’t completely perfect and deemed acceptable by the community are dumped on by the larger dr community while worse ships or characters are welcomed because they happen to contain a male character is gonna be my 13th reason istg.

anyways this rant is getting long but in summary danganronpa fans hate women and they hate wlw relationships that they can’t jerk off to.

#apple chat #danganronpa #sdr2 #thh #ndrv3 #this post is incoherent i know i know #also as an add on #leaving this in the tags because my post is about female characters and wlw relationships exclusively #and what im going to say affects mlm relationships as well #but the despite the amount of queer fans a lot of the dr community esp the ones on reddit view heterosexuality as the “default” #and dump on queer ships simply because they happen to be queer #the dr community’s constant complaining about its queer fans drives me up a wall #yes a lot of them are annoying and i also hate the annoying komahina saiouma shippers who hate anything that isn’t pale twink yaoi BUT #we can dump on annoying dr fans and ships we don’t like without bringing up sexuality i believe in you guys❤️ #oh no the poor straights the shippers made their favourite characters gay💔 damn those homos ruining everything #is what you guys genuinely sound like sometimes #the tone deafness in this community #one day i will round up every dr redditor and set them on fire #I’m so sorry you had to see gay people on your dash as repayment you get one f slur pass use it wisely #i will shit on dr community again another day for now goodbye🫡 #psst btw i have no beef with kmhn and (most) of its fans but a bunch are Like That so yeah #on the other hand fuck saiouma all my homies hate saiouma (well *I* don’t like it but good for you besties) #ok this is getting long enough BYEEE #homophobia tw #misogyny tw

[skunkes]

now im not saying being in a relationship being the only thing that motivates me to improve my life because I want to be as little of a burden on the other person as possible, and also be and give them everything they want, is healthy, but it is the reality of the situation so we have to work with it. and find somebody to take one for the team.

#did you know that if the dreaded 2022 hadn't happened i would still not have a car and still not be driving. #it is that serious. i hate that all that shit even happened but i have a car now. #and that was that my experience SUCKED + i was treated badly imagine if it had been GOOD #talkys #i saw a video frm a guy the other day that was like ''i know its not. right to say but i genuinely think my life wld improve if i had a #man.'' literally. #there is no living my life for Me there has to be somebody else. #last sentence is a joke bc despite all this im still firm believer in it wld take one hell of a partner to replace no partner at all. alas

[icewindandboringhorror]

sometimes looking at like Self Help Strategies lists for the symptoms I'm having is always just like:

thing that I already do

thing I have tried 10 times

thing I already do

thing that I don't have the money to do

thing I already do

thing I've been doing since I was 10yrs old to no avail

thing that is impossible given my situation

thing that doesn't apply to me

thing that I already do

thing I have already tried

hrmm, oh wait, maybe finally- OH, yeah.. okay. thing that I already do but it was just phrased slightly differently

thing I have already done

#I think maybe productivity tips help less if the reason you're unproductive is partially like.. physcial health and other extenral things #out of your control. rather than just like having trouble paying attention or spending too much time on tiktok or whatever #all the strategic to do lists in the world are not going to somehow prevent me from waking up with a debilitating migraine or whatever #or having external stressors or lacking resources and connections or other Productivity Essentials etc. #especially many tips involve stuff like 'cut off from social media' since thats the modern day time waster for so many poeple #and it's like.. lol.. i can hardly even maintain a blog even thuogh i actively WANT TO DO SO. 'shut off your smart phone!' already #done babey i fucking hate smart phones i shall never use an app unless i am forced to. 'delete tiktok' yep. already covered. tiktok and #all of those thinsg are my enemies. 'save money by cancelling some of your services' cool. already ahead of you. #who the fuck is out here paying for like 10 different subscription services. pirated videos uploaded to google drive and youtube to mp3 #my beloved. etc. etc. and so on. 'socialize less' .........LOL.. if only you knew.. mr.writer of the article. i can barely muster #talking to friends more than once a month and even less if I'm actively sick (often occurence) etc. etc. ... hewoo #I think maybe instead of generic productivity tips I need more like.. how to refocus and be productive anyway even if you have a headache #or are nauseous or etc. Not that those are always things to ignore. and of course you should let your body rest and etc. But plenty of peop #e have mild physical symptoms and just work through them. Ithink something about the way my body/mind is SOO hyper attuned to all #sensory information just makes it like... constantly 'GRR well I cant focus on WRITING right now because my lef #t ear feels weird and my socks are too itchy and my back has a strange pressure and I'm vaguely warm and my eye feels some ssort of #way it doesnt normally feel and I'm hyperaware of my breathing and also nauseous for no reason' and like half of those things I #think '''normal''' people wouldnt even notice or at least would be able to just live through. but for me it's like.. nealry impossible to i #gnore and soooo distracting always. like 'wahh.. nooo we can't draw or get anything done.. my legs feel slightly heavy or something!!' #like............. ok......... who cares. thats not even a PAIN sensation it's just something weird. but it's just like.. NO. constant #mental alerts about the 'heaviness' of your legs be upon ye. Though Imean like.. yes.. 70% of the time I am in genuine pain #or having some sort of actual ailment with trackable physical symptoms. but sometimes it's just like... we could totally be working right #now and ignoring this silly thing but my brain is fixated on it for no reason uncontrollably. etc. etc. I guess it's the same way that like #most people can go to a grocery store without the whole experience being so overwhelming and so much stuff going on at once #that they have to rest afterwards but like.. in my own HOME doing NOTHING i feel like I should be able to not get overwhelmed lol. ANYWAY #Rolling my bastard little rock up a dumbass hill and so on and so forth

[angiestown]

I love snowy nights in the city ❄*

#my art #everyone here hates the winter but genuinely I love that I live in a city that gets so much snow #probably helps that I don't drive lmao #also I did in fact trace one of my city's bus stop signs for this #idk where that stop is but it definitely isn't in a place with buildings like this since it only has one bus that stops at it lmao #but it was the only really good straight on picture that I could find and then I distorted it to fit the angle #the signs at the busier stops are up higher so all the pictures are from a pretty steep below angle #and I didn't want to freehand a bunch of numbers sorry #and I left the telebus stuff off because I didn't want to fuss with finding the right blue for this lighting

[papertowness]

cameron pisses me off like girl i don’t fucking CARE

#i hate that she’s genuinely right sometimes but she’s just so fucking annoying about it #like girl you can be right without being insanely irritating #she’s also such a hypocrite it drives me absolutely insane #however if a man said she didn’t like her i would swing #house #house md #allison cameron #lgbtq #lgbt

[deermook]

House is bpd coded i will not be elaborating v

#i WILL be elaborating actually I like to lie #just like. the way that the second he senses abandonment its like a switch flips in him #like ok. cuddy is going to abandon me time to display genuinely concerning behavior #in an attempt to eother drive her away or gove her no choice but to stay out of worry for what he’ll do #unstable relationships marked by dependence and manipulation #relationships few and far between but very intense^ #extreme defense mechanisms to stop from being hurt by extreme tides of feelings #(acting like an asshole and never letting anybody in ever at any time) #dangerous reckless or sexually promiscuous behavior #drug addiction is also common in ppl with bpd but i donnt know if that one actually counts coz u know. his leg #idk hes like. textbook to me maybe im reading too luch into it coz im bpd amd i love house #house can have a little autism/bpd combination as a treat #ugh it really is hatecrimes MD 💔 god hates him #greg house #house md

[sysig]

Giving nicknames, testing boundaries (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #Max Vyer #Dexter Favin #How /did/ Max come to like him so much in just two years? I have my theories :3 #More Teen Max!! Nothing has changed I just continue to love him lol #Two years is a pretty quick turnaround for such a stubborn kid - though I guess for a child two years can be a long time haha #Went from just hating Dex's guts of trying to drive him away and make him quit and hating being kept on a short leash #Does make me wonder how much of him kissing him was an impulse - I mean obviously lol but how much was genuine attraction! #Certainly seemed like a lot :0 Even upon being rejected he couldn't give it up! Still took him another several years to act again tho haha #I mean - in the text lol who knows what they got up to in the time skips hehe ♪ #AnyWay lol - them getting used to each other of slowly working into tolerating each other #Max said something in one of his wake-ups that as I read it implied Dexter was something of a polyglot?? Which - love that ♪ #If not conversationally-fluent then at tourist-fluent y'know I think that's great <3 #Which got me thinking about other languages and insults and curses haha #I like the idea of Dex only really strong-arming Max about Actual deviant behaviour - something that puts himself or others at risk #Harmless little things like any teen would do - like name-calling! Haha - just get a kind of neutral ''Huh'' #As well as interest <3 Not an outright dismissal not a lecture but at least the appearance of investment! #Considering Max's home life I can't imagine he had all that many people genuinely (or fake) interested in his shenanigans #All about suppressing the symptoms more than rooting out the cause it's amazing what just showing a little interest can do #I also just think it's cute of Max getting away with something silly and harmless but totally biting and mean! <in his mind haha #Silly lad <3

[roseworth]

this book is so bad it’s pissing me off

#not even talking about a comic book rn. it’s dante’s inferno #had to put it down to take a break to pace around my apartment because its so bad it’s genuinely upsetting #there’s nothing to like about it why is this a classic novel #maybe i’m just reading a bad translation but it’s not even well written #the part that’s getting to me rn is the hoarders and wasters in canto vii #‘ooo their punishment is to roll weights at each other!!! 👻👹’ #first of all how is that a punishment second of all what does that have to do with hoarding or wasting #and i even looked up a bunch of analyses online to see if i was missing something #and none of them explain it. is it me? am i the problem here? #anyways sorry for the rant it’s just driving me crazy. cant stand this book #why do people like this book #if i write a book where i do nothing but walk through hell and say the people i hate are getting tortured do i become a classic author too

[stop-breaking-my-heart-dragonage]

So you know this party banter between Aveline and Carver?

Aveline: I don't like some of the people you've been associating with, Carver. Carver: Talk to my brother/sister. He/She's the one in charge.

If you're on the rivalry path with Aveline, she says:

Aveline: Who says I don't mean him/her too? This city's full of people who are dead set on ending badly. I don't want to see you end up the same way.

I just- Aveline, you- you're so- hhhhnnnngggggg

I always rival Aveline when I play a mage, and if you think Edgar Aristide Hawke, who practically raised Carver and Bethany after Malcolm died and Leandra became a distant mother in her grief, wouldn't stop dead in his tracks at Aveline heavily implying he's a bad influence on his brother and Carver shouldn't hang around him so much since apparently Ed's someone set on ending badly...? Absolutely not.

This is another case of me wishing Hawke had the option to jump in during party banter with different options, because Ed would've chewed Aveline out for that.

Oh, and then there's:

Carver: Would asking you to stop spying on me help in the least? Aveline: No.

Aveline...................stop it.

#da2 #dragon age 2 #carver hawke #aveline vallen #da2 hawke #edgar hawke #listen all of aveline and carver's party banter and their relationship and the fact that they're pretty much foils DRIVES ME CRAZY #in a good way but then i get party banter like this and i stop everything i'm doing just to scream #like ed and aveline are on fairly good terms in act 1 i mean the rivalry is there but it's not too bad it's more like they just butt heads #but after leandra's death the friendship just rots and deteriorates like by the end of act 3 ed is genuinely surprised aveline #didn't turn on him and side with the templars but i guess even aveline knows what's actually right #or maybe she just doesn't want to face ed in a fight sksksks hell ed AND carver in a fight so it's easier to side with him and the mages #but anyway aveline saying that when ed's in earshot is bold but also the fact that carver doesn't actually acknowledge it #like he doesn't agree or disagree he just changes the subject to be like 'can you stop spying on me PLEASE' #like he already has no privacy while living with gamlen and now he has no privacy when he's by himself because apparently aveline's spying #also i always max out carver's friendship so he and ed are on good terms they're the brothers hawke and carver loves him #even if he doesn't outright say it you know that's what he's really saying in the last straw #when he says that he's proud to call hawke brother/sister and that's gone unsaid for too long like............ screaming sobbing throwing u #like the carver and hawke dynamic on his friendship path is sooo good that i hear aveline say that and i'm immediately ready to throw hands #btw if you're on aveline's friendship path she says 'maybe but i know you get around' instead which...........gets around where aveline??? #aveline my list of beef with you grows with every playthrough i hate you but also i love you but also i want to throw you in the ocean #until you get your head out of your ass like this is a case of her being a FASCINATING character but as a person? while i'm playing ed? ugh #my lady warrior hawke adored aveline but ed is ready to fight her 24/7 sksksk

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

i will not do something drastic to my hair while in sensory hell i will not do something drastic to my hair while in sensory hell i will not do something drastic to my hair while in sensory hell (daily affirmations)

#me when my hair isn’t buzzed to exactly 1/4 on an inch at all times #i was genuinely about to buzz my entire head earlier before i realized that i don’t hate my mohawk i hate the length of my undercut #and it is driving me mad but i don’t have the time to do it yet so i’m falling back on the age old trick of going the fuck to sleep so i #don’t spend the rest of my day trying to write an essay while tugging at my hair in frustration #i need to get a better schedule at trimming it but i start to get upset w how it feels like every 2 weeks minimum which is ahhhhhhh but it #must be done else i’ll lose my mind and start attacking people in a blind rage

[dormiloncito]

it's so over

#for a change i haven't been able to sleep at all tonight and i need to be up in about 3 hours #i even took some sleeping pills which i was happily not taking anymore bc i genuinely didn't need them #and now i'm bummed because not even that has helped #i'm thinking about skipping class today but i'd rather eat concrete and also i need to meet with someone after classes and #🙁 #is nothing easy #i don't even know why i'm here posting about it i think i needed to let it out i'm lowkey going insane i hate not being able to sleep #i'm far more worried about falling asleep while driving than skipping class at this point. god.