#i feel ya pal

[formulaonedirection]

This slumber party has everything: twunks, retired f3 drivers, the childhood friends to lovers trope, that guy who goes to Ibiza once and thinks yeah I can DJ, and Tom Bale.

#lando norris #max fewtrell #martin kodric #tom bale #tom in every single one of these 🫥 #i feel ya pal #MARX in the first two gifs MANDO in the last two #max i forgive u for deleting not just this stream but your previous one too. you were deleting evidence. #you should. #martin has an embarrassing cringe crush on max fewtrell hashtag relatable #*mando #nadia's things #thank you people who clip things on twitch i owe u everything

[good-beans]

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#not really a vent - just a quick thought before i sleep but like. #i keep thinking about that post #theres no way ill find it now but the gist was that 'joy is a warning bell to neurodivergent brains' #and how when we feel joy it means we've loosened up and that always leads to a problem -- #whether its getting to be Too Much or saying the wrong thing or even just getting physically loose and clumsy #but it conditions the brain to see joy as something to fear #because relaxing means we're about to fuck something up #and ive been doing so well this year keeping up with and calling people #ive felt more social lately #literally everyone has been so incredibly kind to me and i want to express how grateful i am and how much i love you all #but every time i try to i get so choked up with fear #with each wave of happiness comes one of chest-squeezing fear #im not super upset or anything (its nice to know why its happening) i just wish i knew how to unlearn it ya know 🤷‍♀️ #thats all - time to sleep #its so late -_- #awww its my pals birthday now!! earth day birthday :') too late rn but ill text him when i get up #rose rambles

[the-acid-pear]

actually does anyone know how far into dialtown chapter 3 i am? bc i keep getting like Worried bc i dont want to finish it TOO fast but at the same time im like "what if im just a quarter into the route and im a fucking idiot?"

#luly talks #dialtown liveblog #i mean i imagine im somewhere far into it bc like. i already took down 3 villains one being the lord almighty #but then again there's a lot i havent seen happen (that i got spoiled of casually) #and i did realize You Know I Think Our Pals Might Not Just Let Us COmmit Murder Like That (Just A Thought) #like maybe we'd have Not gone around announcing it to everyone. and sutuff. ya feel me. #also im about to meet bigfoot thats the last datable like am i about 70% in am i not? #i really gotta know............................

[janebonbon]

Once I learn how to use this pipe again it's all over for y'all. I'm smoking everything.

#truly i have received the best gift today #a pipe and a zippo lighter #beautiful! Beautiful damn thing #gonna get herbs and all that in the morning #Im so damn happy to have the feeling of it in my mouth again and im gonna howl it from the rooftops! #hello old pal.... i missed ya #misiu's open mic

[scleracentipede]

y’all I booked in today for a full tattoo sleeve of scarecrow stuff next month aaaa

#teenage dreams coming true baby #and it’s with a tattoo artist I’ve know as a pal for like ?? 7 years I think?? so I’m excited and less nervous then usually about tattoos #she’s very talented her insta is curlyh0rns and I think she’s on Twitter and Facebook too if ya wanna check her stuff out #anyway the autism is autisming and I’m getting a full in special interest sleeve #it’s going to have some different versions of Scarecrow of it as as well! #aaa so excited #and I’m also going to get some tattoos from another friends flash since he started his apprenticeship next month as well #the flash pieces are very scarecrow coded (needle and cowboy boot) #and getting another piercing hopefully a triangle anatomy permitting (and it seems likely) for FREE!! coz apprentice is learning etc #so hyped and feeling very in control of my body this evening #and I have some time off work soon!! #so excited feeling much better #pj talking

[snekdood]

mfs cant even dress. fuckin. wearing basketball shorts and a nondescript t shirt and short ass hair and have the gall to make fun of other people for dressing different. okay background character

#ok least memorable guy in the room #oh? oh what josh? do you play sports? you real good at your sports ball? #you smoke weed after school n shit? listen to rap music? #and thats your entiiiiiiiiiiiiiire personality. lol. lmao. #oh and its mainstream rap too. like wiz khalifa or somethin. and you never listen deeply to the lyrics or what they say #you only listen to it to feel cool while you smoke your weed. #oh and i bet you make having a care a personality too since theres literally absolutely nothing else remarkable about your character #car* #do ya go fishing? maybe like guns? maybe you just got a dog recently. wow. a real step forward for you and your empty ass soulless life #do you ever volunteer for things? do you ever actually. give a fuck about things? #do you have a hobby outside of sports? do you spend literally any time alone introspecting? #do you cope with life by drinking and vaping with your pals to avoid having to ever have a thought or feel an ounce of regret for being a #piece of shit? #crazy how i can read you like the back of my hand tyler josh stevenson #and by golly do you never question the ethicality of owning a lawn either. thats never crossed your mind. because giving af about anything #has never crossed your mind besides yourself #wonder how dissapointed your mom is in you but never tells you outright #she prolly hoped you would become more. stay a nice sweet little boy. but naur #ya didn't. and now you're pinning after celebrities who wear designer brands. because your life is empty and soulless. #too mean? eh. he needs to hear it.

[distantsonata]

when I constantly and annoyingly post about things I love I lose followers but now Tumblr doesn't shove the fucking amount of followers I have down my throat so idc at all! it's a number I'll never see bc I don't care to go through 15 tabs to find it.

#so see ya later fuckos! #I've lost like 5 followers tonight #and I only know that bc I had like. 6 more followers than when I last counted lol #u don't like my thoughts or feelings? honestly? me either pal #welcome to the club

[lith-myathar]

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#im actually being like.... really truthful lately with friends and family about what im going through and how my homelife #ACTUALLY was instead of having it buried under ten layers of my own internal rationalizations #and let me tell I'm getting some weird looks lately because to me it's all very old hat and even kind of funny #graveyard humor is kinda my thing #idk what to tell ya pals it's just ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯ #i don't mean to make you uncomfortable but pls consider that im the person the shirt thing actually happened to #other trauma survivors get it. people who haven't lived with that tend to be kind of shocked or upset #i have to bite my tongue a lot sometimes #*shitty thing i am not retyping all that #a part of me worries it's a new defense mechanism? like floodlighting #it doesn't feel like that though mire just.... honesty #no longer avoiding or omitting things #if someone can't cope with that that really isn't my problem.

[reenaria]

currently having a queer identity crisis on this accursed holiday

#but actually. i’ve realized that like. 95% or more of my attraction to men has been comphet #i thought it wasn’t because i’ve been more or less identifying as bi since i was 11 #so like. i figured if i didn’t like men at all i would’ve figured it out sooner? #it wasn’t until a couple years ago that i resolved to stop dating straight & masculine guys because i feel like i’m performing for them #and my current partner of 2.5 years is amab and socially perceived as a man but he’s bi and sees himself as ‘void of gender’ #which is also the way i see him but not the way most people see him #he does get mistaken for a woman a fair ammount though. which brings us both a lot of joy lol #but anyway. my crisis is that i’ve been feeling more and more detached from the bi label because i feel like it implies attraction to men #and i’ve known for a little while now that i’m almost exclusively attracted to femininity and androgyny #and primarily attracted to women in general #like if i weren’t with my partner i would 100% be out there dating women and maybe? identifying as a lesbian #but i feel like i have no claim to that label especially with my current partner who is not a woman and is much more androgynous than fem #idk. do i keep calling myself bi? it feels like i’ve slipped away from it #i’ve been using queer a lot more lately because umbrella terms are the only thing that seem to make sense to me anymore #i know labels can be super complicated and unhelpful in some cases but i also want to know where my place is in the community ya know? #i feel so confused without a solid label and it’s causing me a lot more stress than it should #(also my partner is such a blessing and said he’d be supportive if i ever felt i needed to leave him to be with women) #(like he said ‘i’d be sad for a while but i’d still be your best friend) and i was just 🥺 #this may be even longer than my last tag novel lmao i just hate the idea of putting this stuff in the body of the post #anyway if any pals/mutuals read all that and have any insight or advice i’d be curious to hear #reena.txt

[jessiesjaded]

:)

#Okay this is just a little disclaimer post but!! #I'm in a very bad headspace lately and years of being overly nice and kind to people who dont treat me the same #has finally stacked up Too high and I'm Actually putting myself first #so if you're rude to me or do something that I otherwise don't appreciate- I'm going to unfollow and maybe block you #even if we're mutuals #like I really do love and appreciate you guys Truly from the bottom of my heart #but some of you have made me feel shitty and im not doin it anymore #so yeah feel free to do the same back to me at any time if I ever make you feel bad #or you get sick of my posts or anything #you dont owe allegiance to someone who makes you feel shitty even if you were pals once #Ya :)

[vulpixelates]

a friend told my wife and i today "thank you for loving me in a way that helps me love myself" and i can't stop thinking about it and tearing up

i love friends, i love friendship, i love comradery between lesbians and the soft, warming romance of sharing yourself with others even when it's hard or scary

#i am so grateful for all my pals #every single one of them makes the world a bit less scary #even ones i've lost touch w make me feel safer ya know #like omg there's an old friend out there alive and well #idk maybe that's silly #i'm just all up in my feelings today

[ambreiiigns]

I'M WATCHING TERRIFIER IT'S ONLY ONE HOUR AND 24 MINUTES!!!!!! LET'S FUCKING GOOOO BABYYY THAT'S THE SHIIIIT

#this might sound like. i'm bored w long movies. THAT'S NOT IT I CAN TAKE A LONG MOVIE #IT'S JUST THAT AS WE ALL KNOW 90 MINUTES IS THE PERFECT SLASHER MOVY LENGTH!! SO I'M ALWAYS THRILLED WHEN I GET A MOVY THAT'S 90 MINS!! #YAAAASSS BAYBAYYYYYY #it was up between possession and terrifier the other night i wanted terrifier more i think but some pals voted possession instead #which is good bc terrifier is now Two Movies so it's a bit more commitment and it would have taken longer yk. whatever. possession slayed #but i am very excited to get to this!!! yas #purge next. purge added to my list. i wasn't feeling it bc i've already seen some of them some time ago #and i don't feel like it's worth to commit to the whole franchise #but. god forgive me i'm accidentally rewatching rick and morty i watched the purge episode and it made me wanna watch the puuurge sorryyyy #oh nay

[unproduciblesmackdown]

remembering a fun marble hornets trans wrights element throwback where i managed to show up for one of their first convention features & while this was ofc already [serious "hmm...Not Cis: me??"] occasions i wasn't yet out or anything like well time to suffer being known & perceived thusly....while i Was out by the same occasion the next year like well here i am again, different name, binder, no plans to give anyone any rundown about this thing, hope it goes smoothly anyways and/or i'm effectively giving a reintroduction anyhow even though i May have been up to more memorable things that last time....no conversations needed to be had, i think i had the impression i was recalled as the same person but it was an entirely chill time, just this as like an early and pretty unique Occasion of like, here's people who know me from In Person (and ig Kind of online, i also don't recall ever like distinctly linking said in person appearance to onlineness lol. it just may also have not been an unsolveable mystery or a mystery at all. but mostly in person, and that's the element i was focusing on anyways) and my showing up transly in person with a whole other name this time as the major difference really lol. like well hope this goes swimmingly....And It Did. and at some point not eons later ya boy tim with some cringe comp sincerety like oh let me make this post somewhere about how an epic element of being a known internet creator is meeting new & various people including explicitly the [mh fans are like exclusively The Gays. and then some unfiction posters] factor & i'm like lol well you're welcome. just doing my part. but fr that was neat like i'm glad to get chill indirect & direct trans validation from internet horror series contributors in that immediate period of coming out & having to sweat it like damn wasn't at this point last time around

#lot of highlights that first time around at said expo.... #loved being present for this like. Season One Dvd Live Commentary as this like late event put on some non ground floor room.... #like it wasn't Huge but an impressive number of ppl showed up waiting outside & then the space was pretty packed #& it was just a fun and spontaneous time lol #also like going ''hmm autistic: me??'' as seriously & framed thusly consideration came years later #& relatively recent posting from ya boy tim (twitter) abt like adhd / autistic: me?? are throwbacks lmao like #hey pal as a [yes to both: me] party i can say that like anyone who's chosen to have multiple relatively extensive exchanges w/myself.... #it's kind of its own ''hmm. you sure you're nt'' occasion lol #i would be Unsurprised thusly just like i'm Unsurprised abt the [practically no one is cis/het] factor.... #anyways i have no idea what's going on w/the fact mh has these organic like popularity resurgences especially including Now apparently #but who tf is ever tuned in? cool when people are having fun and being themselves. #sort of distantly interesting to see what material people come up with in organic novel [entire new groups of ppl / popularity wave] #and mh i guess does that more often than maybe other things do #as they say it's a) just There online for perusal b) accessible in other ways. there's handy playlists & it's basically a few movies. #and c) there's always some hot new online homemade horror material & people can get into That & then into others ig. like mh sitting there #it's a like ''huh. i guess'' surprise even when mutuals / followers from Completely Different Things i indirectly find also watch/ed mh #like well. i don't really have a frame of reference for all this stuff lmao. i Guess it's unsurprising but to me feels like a weird overlap #just wasn't that niche? Isn't that niche? if you're like. Online to a sufficient degree. strongly narrative; a drama; shelved w/queer media #and that following along while it released was fun but now the advantage is: Not having to do that. it all just sits there #my fucking pet peeve as things Were released & people were like. oh plotlines progressed in this thing? smh filler #there were moments when people are walking to a location? filler. there were moments when it wasn't just sloober standing there? filler. #like would you shut tf up lmfao....crash courses in ''even when an online fanbase is small. ya don't wanna talk to Everyone'' #which for me was part of a learning process like i don't wanna talk to practically Anyone thanks lmao. but the posts could be fun at least #let's have some appreciation along the lines of uhh smthing talking abt season one first house visit entry and how like #yeah it's fun how In Essence yes nothing happens but it's the creation of a very suspenseful experience anyways like thank you #having to explain things like Pacing [if Action & Intensity were Nonstop they'd stop being Effective or at all Interesting] #cue explaining this re: even Drama also like. deh's Drama is served by the interludes for ppl ''interrupting'' w/ ''lol? &/or tf?'' moments #mh the musical...

[ninjaliike]

just got tickets for the d23 exclusive oogie boogie bash night and i’m so excited ahsdkjfdsfd 

#*yells in disney adult* #for those who are not complete disney dorks like me: it's a really fun halloween party!! and i've wanted to go since it started lol #FIRST TIME! #also gonna be my first D23 convention which is also gonna be amazing as;dlkfdf #been waiting to go since i joined in like 2019 #AND i'm going to disneyland for 2 days which'll be my reunion with my fave park since 2019 #september can't get here fast enough!! i need my little dose of happy! #PLUS a lot of my pals i've met through disney accounts on insta or like their small shops that i love to spend $$ supporting #are gonna be there so i'll get to meet some of my online pals in person for the first time and i'm just!! excited!! #idk i needed this happy news today and something to get excited about yknoW! #( other than the rest of S4 coming out frIDAY - which reminds me i gotta rewatch the first part of S4 again before that! ) #hope you're all having a great week so far!! sending lots of ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ #and feel free to come yell at me on discord or in my IMs if ya ever want! #☆ main — ( OOC. )

[adminleonsrestingplace]

So as many of you might have noticed, I don't really do a lot of Dangan//ronpa things anymore and it's not even a preferred fandom in my sources anymore either even though I say I still enjoy it-

And yes I do still enjoy it! I love the characters (mostofthem) and the plots! But I'm gonna be real the fandom is so tiring lmao

Yea yea all fandoms have bad sides trust me I know I'm in the Genshin fandom rn and they can be tiring too- Also I'm almost 24 I've had many much fandom experience before-

But when such a large part of said fandom is filled of "this person has different opinions/headcanons/ships than me so therefore they're *insert some sort of phobic here*" or "I'm gonna just insult this person when they have very valid points and act like I won" it becomes so fucking tiring to just sit back and watch, especially when you're an adult who really doesn't care to argue with kids- (no offense btw to y'all I just don't like the idea of being almost in my mid 20s and arguing with a 13/14 year old shehhw)

So yea might do a kaito sprite edit this weekend but honestly don't expect me to do much for the dr fandom in the future:/

On another note I have been getting back into kingdom hearts so maybe I'll make some phone wallpapers for it or something uwu

#admin leon speaks #tried to censor a bit but if this still shows up in search lmk so i can edit #i dont wanna put negativity in the search results ya know #but yea even though genshin is also a tiring fandom sometimes #i still feel less anxiety towards this fandom than the dr fandom #to my dr moots this isnt about you dw #infact i cant name any names even if i wanted to #i mean thats a lie i can probably name like 1 person if i wanted to #but in other words i wasnt in a situation that prompted this #a friend buddy pal recently got into an argument about a ship but thats #still only somewhat in the back of my mind while writing this #mostly just felt the need to get it out there #cause i know people still follow me hoping for some dr crumbs #which i MIGHT give you this weekend #keyword being might #but i dont wanna lead yall along with the false promises of dr content #cause i honestly do not like this fandom anymore and havent for a good year or two now #i still love the games and the characters and my fave ships #i still love my friends and moots who are still in the fandom #i still love you guys who made me like like a big sprite editor on here!!! #but i do not love the vibes that this fandom has

[lilowoof]

OUGH, these feelings of loneliness have been so strong lately.... going from having someone to talk to here n there to just radio silence kinda hurts, ngl X'D

I've done this song n dance before and IDM waking up to no messages or not having ppl close to me to chat to but still! Having a taste of closeness with ppl, only for it to be ripped out of my hands, by my choice, or theirs, or both just...... It hurts!

Thankfully I do have some great pals whom I can reach out to if needed so it's not like I am 100% alone XDD I guess I'm just trying to readjust to the current situation. And I know that I have the power to reach out to ppl and also to check out events in town to meet ppl! It's hard for me to do those things but I have the power to, gotta give myself grace and take things one step at a time, as I usually do!

I just wish it didn't hurt so badly haha!! (also this is not an invitation for ppl to dm me (unless u really want to for some reason). I just like writing down my thoughts so I can dissect them better and of course not bottle things up, etc etc)

#don't get me wrong: most of the time I adore just being in my own head and alone! #but when I wanna talk to someone about stuff that is happening.....good or bad. and having no one #THAT's when it hurts the most #doesnt help that this year was kinda just like yay more ppl to hang with- oh they either dropped me as a friend #or prefer to hang with others who are better players (for salmon at least). AH WELL #I really want to go back to the dating apps just so I can TRY to meet ppl even if it doesnt work. AND MEETUP TOO I gotta get on that #tho I do need to reach out to ppl privately to play fish game with since I tend to just wait for ppl to come to me and #thats not the way to go.... if only I was a god tier player so more ppl would reach out LSDGKNSDHG JKJK IM happy with those that do poke me #and of course chatting with ppl in servers helps too but it sucks when they arent avail or what I say gets ignored :') #BUT YE. while I AM sad over all of this.... I do have the power to make the change so hopefully the executive dysfunction allows for it #I want to think about how much I wanna live #not about how much I want to fade away and die. ya need some good ppl in life and since I dont have that in the fam. I need the friends :D #actually all of this stemmed from the realization I had on priv that I basically have no family to lean on. like. at all. no connection #or trust #and to not have any pals that can fill that role too!!! YEAH IT SUCKS! but I will try to mitigate the pain. work is easing up so I have tim #hahaha I kinda feel better typing this all out! that was the goal after all