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unstoppable force (desire to write) vs immovable object (tired)

#have not worked on my manuscript in 2 months bc i’ve been working mandatory OT since feb 🙃 #i can feeeeeel the story slipping away from meeeee :’)

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The Cat at Play, 1860-78, Henriëtte Ronner-Knip

#art #saw this at the rijksmuseum a year ago 🥹

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work song

#i have not been normal about this since i first saw it #art

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#i cannot leave an area until i have completely cleared it :’) #also a completionist to a fault and i have 5k hours in the sims 4 because i’m mentally ill #and when i play pvp in destiny all of my inner rage comes out

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By Lore Pemberton

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'Jubilee Procession in a Cornish Village' by George Sherwood Hunter

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#food

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i’ve been on the fence about wanting kids for years but i just spent two days in a house with 5 children from ages 3-13 and man did that solve that dilemma for me real quick

#the answer is no thank you holy shit #look i think kids are awesome and their limitless potential and their curious spirits and boundless creativity are traits to be treasured #but. my god. the tantrums??? the constant screaming whether they’re upset or having fun? the complete lack of thought for other people? #and the energy????? #like i get it i remember being a kid and like. the world revolved around me and my needs and thoughts #i’m just realizing that as an adult i don’t think parenting would suit my ideal lifestyle (nor would it suit my partner’s) #and anyone who deals with kids full-time and manages to keep their kindness and patience for them intact has my admiration tbh #i’ll happily be an auntie (thankfully my brother and his fiancée want kids and will be great parents) but i’m not cut out to be a parent #anyway this weekend has been exhausting AND i’m in texas during the heatwave lmao it’s been a lot #reena.txt

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CLEA DUVALL as GRAHAM BUT I'M A CHEERLEADER (1999)

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fun fact! did you know that you can gain extra ‘forbidden time’ by staying up late in the night? but Watch Out

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Vincent Van Gogh's painting details

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‘how would other people describe you’ why would i know this

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currently having a queer identity crisis on this accursed holiday

#but actually. i’ve realized that like. 95% or more of my attraction to men has been comphet #i thought it wasn’t because i’ve been more or less identifying as bi since i was 11 #so like. i figured if i didn’t like men at all i would’ve figured it out sooner? #it wasn’t until a couple years ago that i resolved to stop dating straight & masculine guys because i feel like i’m performing for them #and my current partner of 2.5 years is amab and socially perceived as a man but he’s bi and sees himself as ‘void of gender’ #which is also the way i see him but not the way most people see him #he does get mistaken for a woman a fair ammount though. which brings us both a lot of joy lol #but anyway. my crisis is that i’ve been feeling more and more detached from the bi label because i feel like it implies attraction to men #and i’ve known for a little while now that i’m almost exclusively attracted to femininity and androgyny #and primarily attracted to women in general #like if i weren’t with my partner i would 100% be out there dating women and maybe? identifying as a lesbian #but i feel like i have no claim to that label especially with my current partner who is not a woman and is much more androgynous than fem #idk. do i keep calling myself bi? it feels like i’ve slipped away from it #i’ve been using queer a lot more lately because umbrella terms are the only thing that seem to make sense to me anymore #i know labels can be super complicated and unhelpful in some cases but i also want to know where my place is in the community ya know? #i feel so confused without a solid label and it’s causing me a lot more stress than it should #(also my partner is such a blessing and said he’d be supportive if i ever felt i needed to leave him to be with women) #(like he said ‘i’d be sad for a while but i’d still be your best friend) and i was just 🥺 #this may be even longer than my last tag novel lmao i just hate the idea of putting this stuff in the body of the post #anyway if any pals/mutuals read all that and have any insight or advice i’d be curious to hear #reena.txt

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Secret Garden Bracelet

This Victorian inspired piece features a vintage violet rhinestone heart in its centre. The bracelet is adorned with verdigris leaves accented with Swarovski crystal droplets in amethyst.  Antique brass pansy charms with a purple enamel finish, with tiny crystal stones nestled in the centres. Finishes with an antique gold bird.

https://www.etsy.com/listing/123057336/secret-garden-charm-bracelet-victorian

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Love JAPAN

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Sergiu Ciochină Captures the Dance of Sunlight and Shadows in Textural, Vivid Oil Paintings

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