#i can't afford to move

[livelaughlovekill]

panic

#landlord wants to move us to a month to month lease and i am #losing my mind panicking #why would they do this if not to kick us out later #i can't afford to move #i. the deal here was so good. i won't be able to afford another place half as nice or big. #how will i do my business without the square footage? i can't afford a more expensive place. we'll never find somewhere this cheap. #this house is perfect. i love it. I've lived here almost 5 years. it's mine. it's perfect. i can't lose it #will i have to quit my business to get more hours at my day job? #can we offer to buy the house? is that feasible? is that even within the realm of possibility? will we have time to find a new place? #i don't want to move i have so much stuff #i hate moving i hate looking at new homes #what did we do wrong #weren't we model tenants? #i can't afford a new safety deposit #will i have to give up my plan of getting a new car? i just reached my savings goals for that #but if we don't get the safety deposit back here i don't know if i can afford a new one #oh god are we going to be homeless #I've taken my anxiety meds and they aren't hitting fast enough #I'm so scared #and I'm so tired. my fatigue is so bad this week. i feel so weak. my brain so fuzzy. how am i supposed to concentrate on anything #i need to answer my emails and i need to write a newsletter and I need to order supplies and yet #I'm back in bed sobbing and i can't think and I'm so scared #got my breathing under control a little but . fuck . #fuck. #fuck! #fuck my stupid baka life

[tchotchkez]

how does any poor trans person in alabama get top surgery?

I'm truly at the point where I'd rather mutilate myself and die that way than continue to be stuck in a place where I'll never be comfortable being alive.

I hate waking up. I hate bathing. I hate seeing myself. I am uncomfortable all the fucking time. I don't find any pleasure in existing physically and I am embarrassed to be alive.

the only times I am able to exist without hating myself are when I've dissociated to the point of my mind separating itself from my body. I don't feel like a living person and I don't want to like this. I want things to change. I want to be ME. I can't live like this anymore.

what the fuck do I DO?

#i fantasize about taking kitchens shears to my chest and cutting myself to pieces every single time I have to be naked #i want to LIVE but not like this #i cannot live like this anymore #my state won't let me move forward #i can't afford to move #please god someone HELP ME #alabama #trans alabama

[mey-rin-is-fabulous]

Apparently me saying that people can just be friends and not everything has to be sexual is me being a brat because things don't go my way

I'm sorry if I am sick and tired of him constantly talking about sex or making comments of a sexual nature and even as a "joke" they're just not funny.

And its a hundred percent okay for him saying he's going to slap or choke me but not okay for me to comment on how maybe he shouldn't say certain things

He was going on about how his friend was texting a neighbour and he's like I told him they should just fk and I was just like people can just hang out not everyone wants to have sex and then it devolved into you don't know what she's like. And it's just it is none of our business.

Why the hell is he so obsessed with the homeless, with drug addicts and with what other people are doing.

#my mom's idiot boyfriend #if anyone should be moving its him #he has a source of income he can leave #i have no income #i can't afford to move #i told him outright that slapping me would count as abuse and he did not like that #oh is someone mad that they can't threaten me and being told they're in the wrong for doing so #he knows if he were to ever lay a hand on me he would be charged #he can pretend he's as good a person as he thinks he is but we both know he isn't #he has issues he does not want to unpack or awknowledge

[leovaldezdefender]

frank is destined to die by his firewood burning out, so what about other methods of death? the logical (and probably canon) answer to this would be that if he dies by something else, then the firewood also spontaneously burns up.

but okay. look. listen. what if. frank could survive anything that would otherwise kill him, but every time he heals it burns his firewood more and more. what if he could shapeshift back lost limbs and organs but at the cost of his life energy, sapping him bit by bit. what if he destroyed himself in the pursuit of duty.

#frank zhang #heroes of olympus #pjo #hoo #riordanverse #trying to stay normal about this. #hypothetically if this was what would happen #without a doubt frank would get EVEN MORE reckless #because he can afford to lose things that other people can't #pulling even more risky moves. willingly taking hits so he can return it tenfold. #taking everything on himself because HE can handle it and others can't. #and what kind of leader doesn't suffer for the people he wants to protect? #and also it'd just be badass. it'd be cool. alright? i admit it it would also be fucking awesome. what about it.

[beaft]

I'm so sorry about your job. Losing out to automation really fucking sucks. I know it doesn't help much now but fairly soon a lot of those companies will be finding out that AI is not a good enough replacement for humans and so those roles will be opening up again. I hope you find something to bridge the gap soon. Just remember that you're waay better at what you do than any AI and hopefully when those companies come crawling back you can demand a wage increase from them.

thank you for your kind words, they're truly appreciated. i'm trying really hard to stay positive and remind myself that things won't be like this forever, but it's just... difficult. the last time my life felt hopeful and like it was actually going somewhere was pre-pandemic, when i was studying for my master's degree - then covid hit and after that everything has just been going steadily downhill.

i hope you're right, and that things will improve; this is just one of those days where believing that feels like holding on to a cliff edge with my fingertips. praying that i will be able to make some sort of change, any change, before the year is out

#i was having such a wonderful time doing my degree in a city i loved meeting new people every day going on little adventures #until suddenly it was lockdown and i had to move back in with my parents and i never saw half my coursemates again #lots of them were from overseas so they flew back and i didn't even get to say goodbye #now i'm stuck working retail unable to find anything better despite 2 years of desperate job-hunting #i can't move out because even with the places i can afford landlords won't rent to you if you're below the minimum income bracket #it just feels really really bleak lol

[jokeboy]

this was going to be the first year I got a tax refund since 2020 and as a present to me the government took all (and I do mean all) $2500 of it. I am so fucking upset LOL

#I was going to pay off my big cc with it #and then pay off my one small one... :) with this next paycheck #and then I would have been debt free... #:) and I need to buy a $700 object. which I now cannot afford #I need to move in November. which I now can't afford #heheheheheheheheeheheheheheheheheeheheheheheh

[shima-draws]

Back pain is back. HELP

#GIRL I can't afford another 5 months of PT!!!!! #Shima speaks #Idk why it suddenly started acting up again #I probably haven't been moving as much as I should #I will do stretches when I get home...can't let this beat me a second time... #I'm in a lotttt of pain rn tho. Ahaha. Tee hee hee

[sncwonthebeach]

Love, LOVE, the Watcher guys– OBVIOUSLY. However, I fear this is not the move. Locking content behind a paywall? See ya, good luck boys I hope it works well.

#shane madej #we are watcher #watcher network #ryan bergara #ghost files #all hail the watcher #dish granted #steven lim #puppet history #too many spirits #i will always adore and support them #but this move is wild #I can't even afford Netflix #pls say sike #as if we need another streaming service too #in this economy? #i woke up to this news too #the fuck?

[stellanix]

relationships of dependence should not exist. when someone is mostly or entirely dependent on a specific other person or group of people for their basic needs, that's a situation that can very easily lead to abuse. different kinds of abuse thrive in our society, and that won't change until everyone can have freedom of movement, access to information, and their basic needs (food, clothing, housing, etc) met without having to spend money

if only people who can work can afford these things, anyone who can't work - like children, elderly people, or disabled people - are left disproportionately at risk. and even those who can work are often abused by their employers

basically, y'know, abolish capitalism and all other social structures based on coercive power

#tbh i don't think calling out individual bad people is a viable solution to the problem of abuse #at best it warns others of specific harmful people #but it also gives people (including abusers) a cudgel to use against those they dislike #cuz y'know DARVO is a thing #this is a systemic issue that needs systemic solutions #assholes will be assholes but it's a lot more likely to spiral into abuse when you're stuck with them because you can't afford to move out

[weepylucifer]

what in the world is steban even doing in martinaise tbh?? he clearly has family elsewhere who love and support him, and he seems to be struggling to get by on his own in martinaise (since he's being threatened with eviction bc he can't pay his rent) and it's not a convenient place to live either, like i can't imagine he has a shorter commute to college from the ass-end of revachol where no one goes. so why tf is he there? you know i can construct a miasma of abstruse headcanons around this

#posts by me #you can't tell me he has nowhere else to go he literally could just live with his mom #and i also won't believe a place like revachol (west) has move-out-at-18-or-else-culture #like... who can afford it?? #titus said no one comes to martinaise who isn't running from something but what would a sheltered kid like steban even be escaping from #nothing has ever even HAPPENED to him

[strongintherealgay]

I'm gonna scream. I had to put off dinner because the only clean clothes I have are my pajamas (got mystery trash juice on my work clothes and needed to walk home so those were done) and I can't do my goddamn laundry bc my neighbor is literally hogging the laundry room. She's on her third or fourth load of laundry since my coming home three hours ago. And it's not even all hers. I'm gonna scream if I can't get a single load in before quiet hours in the building. What the fuck, Donna?

#tristan liveblogs life #not to mention it's paid laundry so she's spent at least $12 this evening #did she know i was planning to do my laundry or something? she always does her laundry at the worst time for me specifically #i hate this fucking building i want to move so bad but bc i live in affordable housing i can't really save up to move somewhere else

[scintillyyy]

when it's written that way because it's a patented chuck dixon -ism but it unintentionally creates a really interesting potential narrative for the character-

#still thinking of steph and class and knowing that dixon made her lower middle class on account of he's a classist #but how placing her in that nebulous position of between the have and the have nots #where they're too poor for comfort or stability and too rich for benefits #lends a lot to steph's anger at her situation #her desire to fit it and move up and separate herself from her origins #her showcase '95 story where she has a veneration of what she feels must be the comfort of the true middle class #and her veneration of her coach who she insists can't be anything like her mom #her anger and shame at her mom coming to her gymnastics meet because she doesn't like seeing that part of her life #interact with the better life she's trying to carve for herself #her activities as spoiler being so linked to her desire to throw away the legacy her father left her #that for everyone to say she's not good enough or shouldn't do it is for them to say #you are already where you belong and that thought terrifies her #a steph who grew up hearing sarcastic remarks about those welfare recipients who can afford nicer food than them #while her mom works and gets no help and and struggles for it #a steph who internalizes that no one is going to help her and if she wants it she has to work for and take it #which leads to some bitterness when she sees everyone else such as tim and cass receive the help and support she's always denied #but also only motivates her to keep going harder. if no one will help you you have to help yourself. #what ugly biases might she potentially have as a result of this upbringing #it's like i hate it it's such a conservative story of bootstraps #but i love it because gives such potentially interesting things to play with in steph's arc

[buffysummers]

I was gonna make a post earlier about how life hasn't actually sucked lately and that things have been going surprisingly well for me but then like an hour later I discovered I have to move out of my house ASAP which means I will probably have to move out of state bc I can't afford to live here anymore

#i'm so stressed and depressed #literally can't even afford to live where I have lived my whole life bc EVERYONE is fucking moving here #and driving the cost of living up SO much but guess what ISN'T increasing? wages #anyway feel free to ignore this i'm just trying not to have a meltdown rn

[autumngravity]

Why not just make it be like people do with Patreon and have the videos up exclusively for like a week and then put them up for free on YT. Hell YT has memberships why not have new stuff be members only for a week and then have it be free? There are better options for doing this.

Its always better to give people the option to pay. Those who have the ability can and will. People who can't will spread the word by showing people the free stuff which will draw more people in.

#watcher #disappointed #upset for the people who can't afford it #I'm still going to support them because while a really bad move this isn't horrible but they could've done this in a better way #I haven't watched the vid just going off what other people are saying #i'm not mad just disappointed

[lorephobic]

idk how to even like. put this pain into words and i would normally vent about this shit on twitter, but the person its about follows me on there so like. anybody have skills for coping with the crushing realization that the person u love most in this world and have built ur life around sees ur current situation together as a temporary hurdle that's preventing them from their truest and happiest self which. is separate from u entirely? anyone know how to deal with this?

#live with my best friend in the whole entire world who. honest to god makes me the happiest person alive. #like im always waxing poetic about her in the tags on posts about platonic love #and i talk about her like she put the stars in the skies because for real it feels like she did for me #she is. the most important person in my life #and every day i feel grateful just to come home and sit with her #like honest to god i cannot imagine a future that is better than this #if i have a bad day i get to come home and my best friend in the world will make me laugh #what more could i ever ask for #but tonight we talked and she made it abundantly clear that. even if i do everything right #even if i'm the perfect roommate and the best friend i can be #in just over a year #when she's making enough money for it #she plans on moving into a place of her own #which like. makes sense for her. of course we were going to get to this point. #but i just. don't know what i'm going to do. #and it kills me that we're on different pages because for some reason i thought this was a long term thing #i thought we were going to move into a house together #i was just telling my coworker this week that we need to move into our forever home soon which was partially a joke #but also. even if i was making a million dollars a year. #i would still want to be here. with her. #or somewhere else. with her. #like it's so hard to imagine a future without her. it breaks my heart and scares the shit out of me. #and i know i can't afford it here. and i can't move in with strangers. and i'm working my dream job but i'm scared that i'm going to have t #give it all up and move back east because. i can't do this alone. and she's all i have. and all i ever wanted. #and she's leaving. #she doesn't want to be with me. #sry this is so fucking. ugh. idk. i just don't know what to do. #for real might just drop everything and move to chicago if it comes down to it ksdkfljdfs #its what sufjan would have wanted #fucked up terrible no good week

[shootingstarpilot]

fucking hell.

#this is honestly the best kind of problem to have #but i got a job offer at PEARL HARBOR #and i have to give them my decision tomorrow #the question is if i want to uproot my entire life for the second time in six months #and can i AFFORD to #i want to work at pearl harbor so so bad #let me do exhibit design for a park that sees 1.8 MILLION VISITORS A YEAR #who are there for the HISTORY #b u t #i don't wanna move to hawaii LOL #i recoil from the logistics #literally just moved from west virginia to UTAH in september #do i want to move from utah to HAWAII for a four-year position #and sell off everything that can't fit in two suitcases