#i can do this all day ; threads

[acesammy]

what constitutes being a monster in spn is so deeply interesting bc so much of the show is used to argue that monstrosity is not about what you are but what you do. And that you can always be a better person, your monstrous traits aren’t necessarily actually monstrous.

but as the show goes on we learn that this is only true if dean deems you human. So sams monstrous traits must be buried deep and thrown out in order for him to be good. Sams monstrous friends are inherently evil bc dean says so. Deans monstrous friends are fine though, of course.

I’m just eternally wishing for a version of this show where sams abilities are so deeply ingrained in him that he can’t ever get rid of them. And he’s allowed to be a hero regardless. Give me a season 5 where sams eyes randomly go yellow. Or he has to deal with demon traps or he needs to control his emotions bc anger from him can be literally explosive, but regardless of all of this he still shows dean more compassion than dean ever leant to him in season 4. And regardless of all this he still beats the devil.

#Fr the thread they play with abt what makes a monster in s1-4 is my favorite thing about the show bar none #and I always personally just view it as ‘of course Sam is right. It’s about your actions more than anything else’ #despite the fact that the show essentially ends up arguing the opposite #and ends up being like ‘NO. You BURY that shit. You take anything that makes you a freak and you do EVERYTHING you can to get rid of it’ <3 #Anyways. I love this show and it makes me really sad #spn #lea speaks #I’m sure this is incoherent #I’m making a lot of personal posts bc it’s rly late and I’ve had v little sleep and I’ve felt kinda bad all day #my filter is low

[apotelesmaa]

I think tsukasa is a normie sorry. He does not know memes or internet trends he’s too busy scouring the internet for bootleg theatre productions and practicing facial expressions in the mirror. Guy who could tell you everything you need to know about some obscure actor/play from 100 years ago but does not know a single modern celebrity if they’re not involved in acting. He’s adding new poses to his vast repertoire he is not making banger posts online. “Based? Based on what?” Type of guy.

#nene is the most internet poisoned wxs member and she is not sharing that info with tsukasa #rui is also somewhat online but I feel like he’d mostly be on Wikipedia clicking all the links on an article for a soup #<- also the kind of guy to be watching videos on the most obscure topics just for fun #emu is untainted by the sins of modern internet she is just watching funny pet videos online #i do however think rui would teach tsukasa memes so that tsukasa can misuse them on purpose to annoy nene #sliding scale of nene in middleschool getting into heated online discourse vs tsukasa going ‘that’s boring I’m logging off’ #would like to amend that actually I think tsukasa would see a bad take on one of his favorite actors and get into a 5 day long argument #online on some random barely used Internet forum until the mods were like ok we’re locking this thread every1 shut up #mine #project sekai

[myhyperfixationisiforgot]

Barriss-centric story where the 41st and the 501st get paired together for the duration of the war. Barriss gets close with Ahsoka on her (ahsoka's) breaks back at the Temple early in the war, and then eventually goes out and joins the 41st as the war gets worse. She kinda figures that if she can't keep saving people the right way back at the temple, maybe she can at least keep Ahsoka safe. There's pining, there's a teenage love story, there's some 'teetering on the brink of total self destruction as the war slowly degrades her sense of self,' there's a whole lot of 'trying to tell your mom that you are this close to killing yourself and she's just not getting it'.

Meanwhile Luminara is scrambling to deal with this entire situation and the growing sense of dread it inspires. She and Anakin are pretty successful together but holy shit. There is so much wrong with this kid what the actual fuck. Anakin tries to talk to her about Barriss except he offhandedly mentions the chancellor thing in the process and no no no go back what do you mean the chancellor involved you in private senate matters as a teenager.

#barriss (holding on by a fucking thread): lately i feel like something is really wrong #luminara (with the abuse prevention video from her padawan days running through her head on loop): yeah i know what you mean #luminara definitely cares for bariss a lot there is just so much bad shit going on the all the time #i understand that this is not luminara's vibe but it's the best i can do while i get this written down #barriss offee #luminara unduli #star wars the clone wars #anakin skywalker #ahsoka tano #clone wars au #star wars tcw #4501st au

[satans-knitwear]

leaving the house 😮🫣✨

Treat me ~ Tip me (buy me a cold beverage as positive reinforcement)~ More of me

#not by choice. i am out of thread and have many clothing repairs to make so i must restock. #and i have some wedding flower arrangements to create for the cars this weekend #so i am hunting for craft supplies today i guess #my extended family have gone now so i can finally breathe a bit and do all the stuff ive been meaning to do #satans knitwear #gotta be the sexiest person in the crafts shop and gardening center guys #ootd #i havent worn nice clothes or makeup in many many days. not including lingerie

[ichthyorelationships]

only just processed that luca added the flames to the colander helmet...implicitly b/c of alberto’s “also i added flames” dream vespa design alteration...

#like evidence afterwards that someone was paying real attention even when at the time the other party felt ignored / tuned out....So sweet. #which also my audhd life experiences like. if i learn anyone ever absorbed anything i said it's like oh whoa living large lmao #anyways the point is it only occurred to me the other day lol. like i'd noticed the flames but just didn't piece anything else together #i Love how many like. threads & details you Can piece together like that but are just kind of quietly in the bg otherwise #and fun how everything luca needs for the race is definitely like Somewhere Underwater...colander fell in the sea...bike by the sunken boat #god knows what color situation i fumbled my way into here. so the classic spin of just like Also there's more stripped down versions #who knows if i'll like do more of a full color approach version. they can't stop you. nor stop you from just posting lineart #or stop me from going off the walls w/their tail lengths lol #luca #luberto #lucalberto #😚😚😚 #fish freckles you are everything to me... #eta not me forgetting to save the [solid bg color]less pngs as transparent....i was up all night #didn't help w/the color selecting that i'm bad at anytime lol #ok hopefully now they're actually transparent #smhhh now i've realized i forgot a little line to indicate webbing betwixt alberto's fingers there #not as big a deal as how i ALMOST forgot to include any of their arm/leg fins. i'll fix it if i do the [full coloring] deal lol. imagine it #yet another eta: occurs to me i could've made alberto purpler & the bg blue. well;

[house-of-daena]

well looks im officially on hiatus... haven't really been motivated, reading fics or opening tumblr either so...

ill lurk for now

also i found out my laptop can actually run hsr so i may or may not add it to my roster of fandoms to write for,, in the mean time, ive playing it and having fun so far,,

#» asmo talks #anyways thats all for now #im still... actually sick and i got a few days off of work #but im hanging on a thread to keep it but whatever #not like i can do anything about it #as for hsr #ive grown to like the female characters a lot more actually #surprised myself because im fucking gay as fuck #i looovvveee seele i really want her #march is my sweet little baby honestly #i dont know how this game works build wise honestly #ill have yo look it up some time

[because-its-eurovision]

I fully get the anxiety of feeling like you don’t deserve to go to a show. It comes with the whole competetive fandom stuff.

Honestly, as someone who has performed on a lot of stages with varying kinds of crowds, the most important thing isn’t if you’re the biggest fan or if you know the lyrics or some choreography or bring gifts. The thing that is the most valuable is that you go to the show to have a good time. That’s all the artists are generally looking for. That people enjoy their music, enjoy the show, are excited to be there.

Some people may be disappointed that they don’t get a ticket, sure. But it’s not you taking that ticket away from them. Not everyone can have everything. Sometime people don’t get concert tickets. That is not your fault for buying. It is a thing that happens when everyone has the right to buy concert tickets instead of them being raffeled off or gifted. If the show was just for the biggest fans, tickets would be give out as competition prices, not to the person who buys them.

And there is no right way to enjoy the show. Some superfans never learn lyrics because they don’t particularly care. Some people buy tickets to go see random artists just for the experience. Some people just love to give gifts and find that to be the best way of interacting. Your way of doing it is just as valid as all that. You don’t have to earn any right to be there, that is what the tickets are for.

And honestly, you’d be surprised by the number of people who have never even heard of an artist or band who just show up for the show because they had a day off and it could be fun. It’s not about deserving to be there. It’s about wanting to go and getting the chance to actually do that.

I don’t know if this little pep talk eases your mind at all, but I hope it does. Learning to let go of the competetive mindset and attitude when it comes to regular life stuff is a chore and a half. I just want you to know that I would love for you to go to the show.

Thank you for reaching out. I really appreciate it ❤

#ik it's mostly in my head #I've always felt like I'm never good enough since early childhood #I think band fandoms have partly always been like this #about going to every show and learning all the lyrics and 'you are wearing their merch so name all the albums' or you are a poser #ig and twitter and maybe tiktok as well have just made it worse because now I can see it all the time #like there were people queuing for Tavastia at 6 am today already #and there are people who travel across the continent for the shows #and I do not have those kinds of possibilities because I can't afford it and I have a day job #which makes be both feel like a bad person because I can't sacrifice everything to be a fan #but also makes me reconsider if I'm too old to be a fan and I'm just embarassing myself by going to any shows at all ever #because clearly band fandoms are only meant for teens and people in their early twenties who can skip school and camp outside the venue #also i made the mistake of going to twitter and saw a thread about 'so what gifts have you guys made for the boys this time?' #and I was so shook because I had no idea that you're supposed to make gifts to give for the artists at EVERY show #and I can't make anything #I have no skills or money #I can't paint or sew or make crafts #so is it like I'm a lesser person because I only paid for the ticket #you see where I'm coming from? #asks

[yaoianime]

Soon im rly gonna do it

#🕸️ #sui mention #< in the tags tho cuz it feels nicer to talk abt this in tags than in the post itself cuz to me posts are like talking normally but tags are #like whispering? talking you can tune out if you want but whispering is rather more voluntary to say it doesnt matter however #every single year passes and i wish i didnt live in each and every one of them i feel disconnected dissatisfied empty disappointed every day #it can be a small part of a day or a bigger but its still there clenching onto me like and never letting go im tired of it theres always a #wall between me and otyer ppl im unsure if i put it there or was it put there by other ppl but its there and even if anyone tries to reach #into it do i understand how even if close are we really far away it makes me understand just how much of an abnormality i am and how much i #cant ever be like them no matter how much i try and climb and crawl until i bleed its exhausting its maddening #almost everything i do is shaped by spite i wear one bracelet for years out of spite i dont smoke out of spite i dont shave my hands not #only because im normal abt body hair but also out of spite the more i know ppl the spiteful i get only way for me to truly like someone is #to keep them at a lenght outside that wall if they get in then theres only two choices for them to dislike me or even hate my entire being #or me to shove them back out without ever letting them get in #coworkers say im a nice kind person but im not its all just a facade to make my life easier and to suit myself im hateful but i dont believe #its entirely my fault after all they will to my face make fun of. laugh at. and hate everything of me they would see in other ppl that dont #hide it deep within like i do and then it rly hits me how different abnormal foul disgusting and unnatural i am #im hit with his every talk that goes on too long every word that keeps going every touch every expression every comment made on my behalf #its exhausting to live this way i fear im near my limit i havent reached it but who knows when i will #i sometimes dream of doing it and leaving behind a note wishing nothing but painful suffering to everyone i ever knew irl but i dont want to #do that to my best friends and my dog but who knows how long its left before the thread breaks #thats all like comment and subscribe if you personally would do me a favor by taking me out back and shooting me

[bravevolunteer]

michael's physical fate mirroring his emotional trauma is so perfectly engineered to make me fucking insane and that choice was not intentional at AAAALLLL

#love writing a character with barely any/absolutely terrible source material with the rawest fucking concepts and symbolic threads ever. #it doesn't make me lose my mind at all #michael who has his insides hollowed out who is LITERALLY piloted around like a puppet only to be abandoned a shell of who he once was. #doomed to live on as something awful to stay hidden in shadows to despise looking in the mirror the sheer dissociation and dissonance that #comes with it. it is such a good symbolic mirror to how grief trauma and abuse has effected him how he can't look in the mirror without #seeing william. FEELING used after being beckoned to the warehouse under the promise of doing good and being of use and maybe even approved #of or loved only to have the last shred of a possible life taken from him. whatever william Intended in bringing michael to SL can you #imagine how emotionally devastating grappling with it was on TOP of literally fucking rotting. no wonder he finally decided on revenge. #this has been ping ponging around my brain all day and i could just let it keep spiraling sorry #⁂ ･ﾟ: i was looking for a job‚ and then i found a job‚ and heaven knows i’m miserable now ➛ ooc

[bravewolfvesperia]

/ raven @altosk and alexei @cataclysmus hogging each other 🤝 yuri and flynn @mistralxsoul hogging each other

#{ bravewolf mun } #/ it's actually just so funny watching u two do exactly what we've been doing........ #im like i swear i'll get to everyone. when yuri stops staring at flynn. which isn't happening on xyz day. #sometimes guild members want to hog a commandant all for themselves.......... #sometimes the threads just make themselves and you can only be strung along........ /

[imabiscuitinthousandworlds]

*walking with a friend and a guy my friends befriended (he seems okay? weird humour but cool ig) talking abt falling out of windows*

me: there's actually a word for throwing someone out of a window in english. defenestration

guy, quite weirded out (i think from his voice, his face is like. he's literally twice as tall as me i ain't looking that far up): why? do you just know that??

me: .... Reasons. (chronically on tumblr and weirdly informed abt strange topics)

#a biscuit's rambles #hes not yet desentisised to me saying random weird ass shit ranging from mildly concerning to 'what kind of illegal sites are you on' #and its soooooo funny #i randomly offered them sugar and he looked So wonderfully confused (i am known for randomly handing out sugar packets among my friends) #thus started a contest (well its been 2 days so far) of carries the most random shit in their pockets #so far im winning with my embroidery thread and tealight (which i did not pocket specifically to have something weird in my pocket) #its very funny. its absolutely hilarious. he has no idea what im like and is so utterly unprepared #maybe i do like him (was unsure up until uhhh yesterday when we first properly talked) #(idk he has a sense of humour i kinda. Do Not Like and ive no idea where he came from so i was like. i dont personally need to get to know #him. like good for my friends buuuut. also hes like 2m tall that is freaky as fuck. BUt he seems a chill dude so maybeeeee) #(first impressions and all of that jazz. u dont gotta like everyone. but u might. lmao) #no but for real if im standing anywhere close to him i literally have to tilt my head back as far as can go to look at his face. its weird #no hate to him or tall people i just come from a long line of small people and moderately sized friends this seems Wrong lmao

[thehallstara]

i just like. wish ppl would realize how bad things are for most diaspora jews atm and like. take that into account wrt how they talk abt stuff

#s.txt #every day i see another dozen posts that make me want to cry and further avoid social media #like. i'm sorry i need white gentiles to realize that part of their job here is working to make the diaspora safe for jews!!! #do you know how much harder it is to convince my family that israel isn't the solution when houses in my neighbourhood are getting shot at #and vandalized for having mezuzahs??? which we also had up until they were ripped off by someone a few years back??? #and like those are very necessary convos to have and i'm gonna keep having them and doing what i can and everything #but then i come on here and see shit like all zionists deserve to die no matter and it's just like. yall just want to see jews dead actuall #a free palestine is imperative i believe this to the depths of my soul #and things are also very scary right now!!! these are two things that can and are coexisting rn!! #sorry for the essay lmao #and yeah i'm not really on here besides my queue atm bc most of my energy rn is going towards irl convos+stuff and that's good frankly #sorry coming back bc i remembered the thread i saw from a white gentile leftist last week #that referred to israelis as pests that need to be eradicated #in those exact words and like sorry that's just straight up antisemitic rhetoric in so many ways like pls listen to yourself

[running-in-the-dark]

I think I mentioned that I was looking into getting a better sewing machine? well, it arrived today 🙈 that happened much faster than planned. I found the model I was looking at at a (relatively) local sewing machine store, for 30% off because it had been in the shop window, so the plastic has yellowed.

I wasn't sure how I felt about that (the website only said it was a floor model or something similar, then someone from the store called and told me the specifics and asked if that was still okay), but honestly? I never ever would have paid the full price, it was just too much, I couldn't justify that. but this reduced price was only a little more than the ones I had been looking at before (that were not great quality and probably wouldn't last very long).

I am very particular about things like this but I'm trying to make myself accept that it really is not that bad. it actually looks kinda cool. I just have to get my brain to accept that it's not a flaw, it's just a completely superficial and insignificant thing that doesn't affect its function at all. it's good that this machine that works perfectly won't end up in a landfill just because it doesn't look brand new.

I only got to try it a little bit today because I wasn't feeling well but damn, the difference to my old machine is huge!! it's so much more fun and easy to use - I love having the needle threader and that it can automatically cut the yarn when you're done. and with the start/stop button it's actually really fun to wind bobbins!! I always hated that on my old machine.

I skimmed through the manual earlier (and put page markers in it so that I can easily find anything later) - it did seem somewhat overwhelming at first. I've never used or even seen (irl) a computerised sewing machine, so of course it did! but it already felt much more familiar after just using it a little bit today. I love it 🥰

(also, I think the fact that it doesn't look perfect and brand new actually helps - I'm not afraid to use it in case I 'ruin' it!)

#I really hope I'll use it a lot #I didn't use my old one much because it was just such a hassle. #mainly little things that didn't work right #and something as simple as the way you have to thread it not being labeled clearly on the machine itself #I've got memory issues and found that very annoying (and in the end I drew the instructions on with sharpie because it got so frustrating) #I've also bought a.. probably stupid amount of little sewing things that I've wanted for years. #and an iron (got the old one second hand for 5€ and it will not stop dripping). and a set of thread (I only had thread that was old and/or #really bad quality. I can only get about 5 colours locally AND it's pretty expensive. so a set made sense... 😬) #it's the same thing every time. I get (more) into a hobby. I buy every fucking thing. I do it all day every day until it stops being the #most interesting thing on earth. and then I pick it up again like once a year but always feel guilty for not doing it enough #annnnyway #I'm very excited about all of it right now #I'm hoping it'll last a while #I mean. I've been interested in sewing for over a decade. I just never had enough money to really get into it the way I'd like #so. I don't think it'll ever completely go away at least #I've bought a bunch of vintage sewing patterns on ebay and I'm really excited to try them #I'm thinking I'll do some baby clothes first - I don't know any babies at the moment but baby clothes are small and also very adorable #so even if I mess up they'd still look cute 😂 #and I wouldn't have wasted too much fabric haha #personal

[aeterna---amantes]

|| The feeling of being able to post 💙Connor💙 and not feeling guilty about it oh my fucking gods I'll only look at the bright side of this situation like thank fuck i am allowed to feel happy

HHHHIIIIIIIMMMMM 💙💙💙

#asgard to earth 💚 (ooc) #|| tfw you don't realise how toxic someone was until they've chosen to vanish from your life #|| Sad thing is that they play the victim as if I hadn't went through panic and anxiety attacks/sleepless nights/migraine periods #|| This person single-handedly managed to kill ALL of my muses for ALL existing threads in the span of a few days and it went on for MONTHS #|| And I *didn't want them to leave*. I was clinging to them because I still thought of them as a friend and I thought we could fix it. 😩 #|| They left though. Blocked me without a word. And it took me two days to feel actual *relief* instead of sadness. I was that involved. #|| But I'm healing and that's beautiful!!!! I'm finally free from guilt!!!!! I can do whatever the fuck I want!!!!!!!!!!! Gods I missed thi #|| All the people who looked at my ''journey'' kept telling me to break contact because they're slowly killing all the happiness I have- #|| And I couldn't do it but at the same time they were all RIGHT. I'm so sorry fam. I'll listen to y'all better the next time okay? #|| And thanks for standing behind me ALWAYS. ALWAYS asking me what's up if I gave even a LITTLE hint. There're so many of you who NOTICED!! #|| And I'm so glad to call you my best friends!!! You mean the world to me! 💚 I'm very very lucky that you're always here for me. 💚 #personal #i am free 👻 #chaos is back online 🐍

[awkwardtuatara]

thinking about finarfin time loop/generally how elves might percieve a time loop fic possibility again

#I don't talk about this one because it's really hard to do a good time loop with a character as generally undefined as he is #but I think elvish time loops would be interesting bc canonically they experience time differently? #so it's like. would they just loop over until some event happens that they can't stop. #and because the ages of the world are somewhat predefined? maybe that's a set point #a loop for a decade versus a day and you'll never know if you got through #and yet so much can happen in a day #it would be more of an investigation of how paradoxically fast and slow time is experienced #and Finarfin in particular because you're putting a side character into a position centred around him somehow #but also where he feels there's little he can do #put him through the horrors more etc. #what would all that cumulative experience do to him. does he reawaken and the feanturi just feel it #does vaire try to keep track of how tangled the threads of time are #anyway the whole “you do something so big and bold and brash and it changes nothing in the end” thing is perfect for him #that's what he feels like every day #finarfin #tolkien

[hyaciiintho]

🌸｡*ﾟ+. THIS IS A TEST POST !! This is not an actual inbox call, I just wanted to test and see how the graphic would look posted to tumblr ;; ;; Might use this when doing inbox calls and then a copy/paste text body.

With that being said-- how do people feel about a "permanent" inbox call post? Just for my own reassurance so I don't feel like I'm bothering people but don't wanna like... constantly make a new inbox call post. Basically just a list of people commenting below a post, one that maybe specifies whether people prefer random IC interactions or want asks leaning more to IC questions/ooc headcanons stuff?

I know it's silly because if we're mutuals, we shouldn't be afraid to reach out to each other, BUT !! I also know some people do not like random asks, so... it would just be for the sake of... "You have permission to send random things whenever you feel like it" but of course it's not like I'm expecting you to answer things immediately after I send them either.

But yeah, just a thought! If it seems too silly I'll just keep making individual posts each time ♡ c':

#MUN SPEAKING 🌸 ᴬ ʷᵉᵃᵛᵉʳ ᵒᶠ ᵗᵃˡᵉˢ; ᴾᵃⁱⁿᵗᵉʳ ᵒᶠ ˢᵗᵃʳˢ #Starting to think I'm gonna just be living off inbox calls I swear gdfshjk starting replies has just been so hard for me. But I mean. #C'est la vie. Es lo que es. One day I'll finally get myself to start and then steamroll through them like a boulder rolling downhill :'D #And y'all will get pelted with activity so hard it'll be OVER for y'all. But until then. I'm just gonna keep trying other things to like #keep interactions and activity flowing in other ways even if I'm stagnant in replies ;; ;; #I'LL DO THOSE MEME STUFF AND THREAD REPLIES SOON I PROMISE I JUST-- I'm going Through It™️ and trying to GET Through It™️ first gfdhjk #Life is just curb-stomping me in the face constantly and it's like “Gurl can I catch a break please????” But she says ✨No✨ each time fdsjkd #If anything those art memes will be done soon for sure. I'll just do them on my PC instead of my ipad dgfhsjk so they'll be... #... considerably better c': and maybe that'll make up for the long wait on... literally everything dfhskj #It's also been super hot and without AC I don't wanna turn on my PC or other electronics and like... :'D y'know #boil myself alive with all the heat pumping out of my tower and my screens radiating heat sdjhkdg #I RAMBLED IN TAGS AGAIN LEMME STFU AND GO BACK TO STARING AT MY LAPTOP SCREEN VACANTLY BYE HAVE A GOOD DAY Y'ALL