#i appreciate that you left me alone

[sergle]

You!! Hey you!! Are you looking for a pair of kittens? Do you live In Or Near Oklahoma? Do you wish you could listen to purring all the time? Do you want a cat that looks like an aye-aye?

long story short, we found these two kittens at the bottom of a garbage can!! I don't like to think about how they ended up in there- but we heard them crying while on a walk, and it's very lucky they were so loud! They were scared at first, but now they NEED to be snuggled at all times. Crazy how adaptable kittens are. I'd prefer to rehome them as a pair, but I'd consider adopting them out individually if that's my only option! Please IM me if you're interested in both/either of these babies, or if you have any questions at all!!

#reblogs would of course be appreciated #kittens #cats #sergle.txt #WE'RE DOING IT AGAIN EVERYBODY LAST TIME IT WAS CHALUPA NOW IT'S TWITCH AND CHAT #please please please take these cats from me I swear to god. you will love them. something clicked in their heads and now they LOVE people. #I'm telling you right now that adopting cats as a Set is the best idea. there's no better way to have two cats that Get Along #and you get to watch them play. and bc they keep eachother company they can handle being left alone for chunks of time #Chalupa really needed all hands on deck but I actually think someone who works full-time could have these two no problem #because they keep themselves occupied if you leave them alone but are ecstatic when you're around #source: they are upstairs rn to keep them separate from our Resident Cats and I hear them galloping around all the time while they play.

[prettyiwa]

I am once again thinking about the intimacy and evolution of calling someone by their name and the way terms of endearment grow and come to be.

#I’m sorry but it’s always gonna make me melt #this is about ff.xvi and prince dion and sir terence #it’s consistently formal titles until it’s suddenly “my prince” #and if that alone wasn’t enough to make me bawl #why this throwaway post got notes at all is ?? but I appreciate the tags everyone has left #you all get it #I needn’t elaborate 💜 #x:ix

[icewindandboringhorror]

a quite simple outfit, trying to use the little blue and white apron thing (which is actually a dress I think, that I just leave un-buttoned in the back and added an apron-like tie to lol)

#self #mori kei #jfashion #NOT really but like.. it's.. adjacent I guess.. forgive me .. I may try using tags again though I kind of got out of the habit ghhj #I need to be... Seen to some degree. I want to start selling clothes and sculptures again to recoup the costs of having to euthanize my cat #and stuff . but that won't be very successful if I have like.. 15 people to sell to lol... #the eternal Hermit Conflict where you hate attention and Being Percieved in general yet in todays capitalist society it is nearly #a necessity to have some form of social network or media presence especially in creative fields. etc. etc. ... kicking screaming wailing #sobbing so on and so forth.. tearfully punching the cold mossy stone walls of my evil wizard tower... #I was also thinking of maybe opening a few sculpture commission slots and maybe Tumblr Blazing that post or something #but.. again.... sobbing crying interacting with the general public oughhf ouuch -500 HP #why can't I just be approached by some wealthy 65 year old woman who is nonsensically infatuated with my art for no #reason and gives me like $10.000 a week for food and art supplies and etc. and I can go fuck off into a cabin in the middle of nowhere #in the uk and just be left alone to work on my projects without even needing to build any form of connections or social presence because I' #already set for life and can just get funding and connections whenever lol.. WHICH not to be ungrateful like obviously I still appreciate #anyone who follows and interacts with my posts. I dont mean it in a 'grrr fuck all of you imbeciles I wish I could delete my blog!!!' or #whatever hhjkjk.. I just mean it more in a like.. I am very socially inept and my mental illness gives me severe social issues so any situ #tion where I'm expected to self promote or network or interact with others generally is nightmarish and stressful for many many reasons #and if I could somehow skip that part and just go straight to being a famous author or somethin.. that would be cool. Which I know EVERYONE #hates networking and stuff but I mean like.. on a level most people could not possibly comprehend.. I am not just an 'introvert'. I am like #doctors declare me incapable of functioning in general society very poor mental health prognosis probably should have a caretaker at #some point type Hermit lol.. ANYWAY ghbhj... alas.. I also feel weird about the sculptures in terms of what to charge for them #and always have which is part of why I stopped selling them. If I charged a fair even like $15 an hour many of them would be like #close to $150+. and nobody is going to pay that for a decoration. that doesn't even factor in like.. supplies or time spent communicating/s #etching the concept (if a commission) etc. etc. I thought it'd be better to just auction them then and let people pay what they want inst #d of a set price but etsy doesnt allow auctions and is it weird to just.. link people to an Art Ebay or something lol.. #AAAANYWAY.. the outfit.. I still love these shoes. they're nice and a little Older Style looking. always into pastel florals too lol #(everything is thrifted as usual. excited about the shirt because it's so puffy! it was in the halloween section though ghjhj.. like when i #s october and they make the special aisle in goodwill for 'Costume' clothes even though theyre all just normal stuff I would wear ghg)

[ageless-aislynn]

Doctor Who "The Giggle" spoilers

It took 15 years but finally, finally, the awful pain inflicted by DW s4x13 "Journey's End" was healed in my fangirl heart. I'm not even saying that facetiously, my friends. Donna's ending in s4 hurt. The fact that here in the year 2023, Donna not only got her memory back, but she got the Doctor back? And the Doctor finally stopped running? And he found a home, found a family, and it's with Donna?

I can hardly believe it.

It took so very long but they got the happy ending they were denied back in 2008. I can't even tell you how happy I am right now. 🤗💖

#doctor who #doctor who spoilers #dw spoilers #spoilers #okay yeah if you knew me in my dw days then you know i'm a ten x donna shipper #but this ending is just SO much better than how they were left previously #i don't even care that it wasn't left as them in a romantic relationship #he's HAPPY #she's HAPPY #they're together #they have a family #they love each other #that's just so much more than we had previously #her without her memory sent back to how she was when we first met her #him standing in the rain running away alone yet again #and then look at them now #this was a gift i never expected #i honestly thought he'd just regenerate and she's go off with her family and that was as 'happy' as we could expect #but they're together and they're happy and i just appreciate that so very much #my bbs are happy #i'm so glad #i wish i could let 2008!me know that they were actually going to fix it in canon #i would've never believed it #ageless aislynn

[mrpsychokiller]

can yall stop talking about homestuck with me. i thought by now ive already let very clear that i dont want to talk about it anymore can you people please let me live

#i dont care if you like it live your life have fun but i dont and id appreciate if i could just be left alone #i havent posted about it in months i have plenty of other interests now im done i dont care anymore #sorry i dont want to be rude it just makes me really really frustrated #🧃

[cuteniaarts]

Fanny, my sweet, beautiful girl

17.11.2012 – 14.04.2019

#my art #artists on tumblr #I cannot accept that it has been 5 years already #I know covid messed with everyone’s sense of time but it simultaneously feels so much longer and so much shorter than that #exactly five years ago I was holding onto my mom for dear life and sobbing as we watched lilo and stitch together #not the best movie to watch when you’ve just lost your first ever pet you know #and then I cried myself to sleep at the next morning we never mentioned her again #I know it’s because it was way too painful for everyone involved. but I do wish I was allowed to process that grief properly #instead of bottling it up and pretending everything was okay until I was reminded of her #feeling like my heart was being shattered over and over again every single time #well anyway. enough of that. I’ve allowed myself a nice long cry today and got most of it out of my system #and once I was feeling okay I decided to draw her #and I can count the number of times I’ve drawn animals on one hand so.. I’m not too sure about the result #but it felt like to commemorate her in some way. #so yeah. here she is. my dear girl. the best dog in existence. she was always so affectionate and kind #which I didn’t always appreciate bc of how young I was. when you’re a kid it feels like pets will live forever #never barked. never bit anyone. her only crime was chewing on my mlp and lps toys that I left out on the floor #but I’m grateful she did that. it taught me not to leave my toys lying around and to clean up after myself #she really was taken from me way too soon. ideally she could still be alive right now. but I’ve been down the road of guilt and regret #there was nothing I could do. I was a child. I can only hope that she knew she was loved right until the very end #even if I didn’t know how to show it properly. and great. now I’m tearing up again #I suppose it’s unavoidable. April 12th will always be a melancholy day. and maybe that’s not such a bad thing #it’s good to have a day when I can freely remember her and cry if I need to. it’s healthy. it’s better than crying every day #she never liked it much when I cried. always tried to comfort me. that’s the kind of dog she was. I miss her so much #when I move apartments and get a dog of my own I’m getting a spaniel. just like she was #well. maybe a different colour so I don’t end up sobbing every time I look at it. but spaniels really are the perfect breed #I mean. cavaliers especially were bred for love and warmth. that’s just what I need. it will be nice to have someone waiting for me at home #and while I don’t necessarily believe in the afterlife… I do hope that Fanny’s watching over me #spiritually comforting me when I feel all alone in the world. it’s a nice thought for sure #and hopefully she won’t mind me getting another spaniel too much. it will be done in her honour after all. to make up for my past mistakes

[cronchywaters]

howdy! umm... are you still okay with kin and/or fictive edits involving wtcd characters? i just noticed recently that it looks like the offical wtcd blog was deleted(?) and wasnt sure if that meant you weren't ok with it anymore!! i really would hste to assume and cross any boundaries. hopefully this question isn't upsetting at all!! thank you!! have a good day or night!!

hi! fictives are fine, i know people can't exactly control that, which is something i was really ignorant about when i first made wtcd. i lumped kinning in with fictives which is stupid and that's not how it works, and i do want to apologize for that. as for kins, yeah, go ahead, i honestly don't really care. as for edits of the two i would rather they not happen anymore. i don't want to erase my past exactly but after one of the worst mental breakdowns of my life happened the other night (don't ask please, i'm fine now) i made the wtcd blog private on impulse. i honestly just want to forget it ever even happened at this point. my writing for it was awful and my bigotry even worse. the instagram account is staying up only so myself and other people can see my mistakes and learn from them, but overall i really would just rather move on.

as a general statement, please don't contact me about wtcd anymore. honestly even if the messages are nice or just simple questions like this i really don't want to deal with it anymore. it does nothing but remind me of how shitty people have treated me for years and while i acknowledge my mistakes i honest to god just want to let it die. you're allowed to like it, i can't stop anyone from doing that, but please just leave me alone.

#i appreciate you being very nice about your question anon /genuine #this question didn't upset me at all but i do want to just leave wtcd behind as a whole #ik ive said this before but this probably will be the last ask i answer relating to wtcd #i really don't want it to be the only thing people associate with me anymore and i need to be left alone about it in order to let myself + #+ move on #again i'm still very sorry for how i wrote it and everyday i feel i'm getting better #that's all i suppose #anonymous #shut the up soda

[apoptoses]

thank you to everyone who left me comments tonight, i really appreciate it and i'll get to them soon ♥ today was really awful but your kind words mean a lot

#it's so hard taking care of a person who doesn't appreciate you at all #and whose care requires you to drop everything and give up your entire day #i lost my ability to make physical things due to the stress of this in january #and with the strain i've been under the past week i'm scared of losing the ability to think straight to write #when writing is all i have left #even though i've been feeling very alone in the wilderness with that lately too #i don't have a lot of myself to give for other people right now #so i feel bad looking for people to enthuse with me over the thing i want to think about #and worried that if i do reach out am i just being tolerated #which is such an awful cycle because it leads to feeling like you can't talk to anyone #i'm just so sad honestly #i hope tomorrow will a kinder day

[hella1975]

it's interesting how when i read the words 'christmas break' i see time off uni to be with family in the holiday season but when my lecturers read it they see 'time to study for four in-person exams in january covering everything we've done in the semester'

#i just think that's interesting. like what does 'break' mean in their language. do they have christmas #furious about this if you cant tell #i have so. much. content to cover in 20 days and im working at the pub again #my first shift back is tonight and im lowkey bricking it #bc i know i always joke that im gonna have forgotten how to waitress but waitressing is like riding a bike #it's just that my place has lots of tiny specific things we HAVE to do on shift and i just KNOW ive forgotten it all #im gonna make so many mistakes this shift while i find my footing again which should be fine #but they hired SO MANY NEW PEOPLE when all the student crowd left for term time #and the people im on shift with this evening are either people i dont know or people i actively dislike #like only TWO GIRLS im friends with are working tonight this is the worst crowd to be shambolic with #they do not appreciate the shenanigans #so on top of all the shifts ive picked up im also supposed to be revising for exams in january #mind im the only course i know that have in person exams let alone FOUR OF THEM RIGHT AFTER XMAS #economics wants me dead i swear to god #me and the school of business are in a fistfight except im crying and bloody on the ground #hella goes to uni

[nightmarecountry]

“You left me.” / from dream. uhoh.

The Dreaming has gone dark. Great stormclouds gather, shrouding the palace in gloom and pelting rain. Thunder shudders the foundations. The only light is from the electricity that forks through the sky at seemingly random intervals, no correlation between it and the dreaded thunder.

Here and there, parts of the realm are set ablaze in the strikes, and all things great and small run for shelter. Fire; lightning; rain. The Dreaming waits for the storm to pass, and trembles.

In the cavernous throne room, empty of all save himself and his lord, the Corinthian waits, too. Unlike his fellow dreamkin, however, the threat to his safety is immediate and personal. He is on one knee, head bowed, teeth clenched to keep them from chattering. He has been holding this position for some time, waiting for Dream to pass judgment. It is exactly as he knew it would be, when it comes: short, to the point, and no less excruciating for it. It is not so much what he says as how he says it.

You left me.

His voice is like glass: sharp, cold, fragile. Something breakable and wounded in the clipped nature of it. It isn't just the Corinthian's disobedience that disappoints him: it has hurt him. It has damaged his trust by leaving when it gave its word that it would never stray, never leave his side. Time and time again it proves itself little better than its predecessor. The same hunger. The same curiousity. The same inability to heel when it is told to, to stop straining at the leash, slipping the collar.

It stares hard at the cool, smooth floor, listening to the deep roll of thunder beyond the palace walls.

"I came back to you."

If he were mortal, his body would ache from holding this position so long. If he focuses, he can feel tension in his muscles, his jaws; he can feel a dull pressure where his weight rests on his knee. Rather than making him feel grounded, it makes him feel less real. Like he's not really here; like he left something of himself behind in the Waking on his little excursion.

"I did not mean to... leave you for long, lord shaper. I intended to return long before anyone might notice my absence."

He knows, he knows that he is making it worse. What else can he do? He cannot grovel; he will not plead or beg as his predecessor might have. He can only explain, and make promises he cannot keep, and hope that Dream's mercy prevails over his hurt.

All around them, the rain makes the windows tremble.

#ic. #v: the remake #ohsunshine #ohsunshine: dream #[ rue do you ever think about how your extremely traumatised-ass dream would feel if corinth2 left him alone too long. ] #[ what if something had happened. what if he hadn't had his emotional support guard dog there. ] #[ yes yes he's powerful enough to dispatch any threat by himself but corinth2 is a SECURITY BLANKET-- ] #dissociation tw #[ sort of. ] #[ anyway as ALWAYS i appreciate you indulging me with your very retired/archived dream muse... i'm kissing your forehead ]

[starburstgalexies]

Me eating the cybedonari feast in the windblume: delicious

Me savoring the aecyno crumbs in the windblume: also delicious. Love is love :)

#look i just cant get over how the cardback was a huge thing for c.yno and his first thought was to share it with the traveler #the way i see it: a.e left his three boyfriends alone to bond and the three boyfriends were appreciative of the sentiment #but not terribly of the practice #especially general mahamatra 'i didn't see the traveler in 4 days and i miss them' c.yno like #'i haven't seen you in ages and it's nit like we (the trio) spent every moment together. come at least play cards with me tonight' #ales of alex #alex impacted

[todayisafridaynight]

how long did it take you to like Daigo and Mine? I had a delayed response to the former. I’d played through all the games, nothing. Then one day I was just thinking of how he was yet another example of goth disaster who grows into Fine Young Man (my first was Gaara) and all of a sudden I got struck with the blorbo truck.

bestie. i have no idea LMAOOOO I REALLY COULDN'T TELL YOU

i know with mine at least it took me beating Y3 first and then thinking about his character more and then doing a replay of Y3 and rewatching his scenes. plus then i found all the currently available RGGO stories for him and that p much solidified my adoration for him

with daigo, i think it was just kind of like a gradual thing? my memory of my initial feelings when playin these games are mostly faded (pardon like. Y7 stuff that game and my feelings for it have been branded into my brain 5ever) but i remember as the games went on, i just got happier the more i saw daigo on screen (kind of like how i get when i see date in that 'omg it's my old friend daigo that's my boy :)') to the point where i instantly knew the 'masked figure' in y5 was him just from his sideburns (tho tbf i think we all saw the twist coming from a mile away, but it's the way i saw his sideburns and instantly went 'oh bitch i know those anywhere')

i did think he was dripped the fuck out in Y2 tho

#snap chats #i didnt beat chapter five of y7 btw #i accidentally started following a speedrun guide and i ran around for like forty minutes trying to find an odd stone #then i realized i needed the foreman job but i didnt have enough charisma and THAT was going to be a hassle #so im just calling it a night #but yeah no with daigo like ??? and honestly mine- and like. Every Character I Love #there's never an Aha moment where im instantly smitten or something #it takes some time for me to think about them to really like them #i think aoki was the closest to instantly liking but that was more due to personal things ig #jo took a hot minute tho. i think the eyeball scene was what got the ball rolling tho now that i think bout it 💀 #but yeah it just takes me a minute to think about a character for me to realize how much i love them #except ichiban. ichiban was instantaneous but like thats just his effect on people that's like saying the sky is blue #back on topic tho i really love daigo despite it kinda not seeming like it #like Obviously i draw him a lot but i dont really talk about him a lot you know #he's somewhat of a simpler character compared to my other faves but he's still fascinating to me and i love his character so much #i love how quiet he is and how he's a right contrast to his father #and i love how it's evident kiryu's left a mark on him in games like Y4 and Y5 where he feels like he has to do things alone #i cant explain it all rn- mostly cause ima run out of tags- but i love his character for what it is #RGG might not give him any love. like. at all. but i will. i'll love him #and even if the fandom mostly sleeps on or bullies him i appreciate the other guys who also go 'omg daigo our boy' when he's in a scene #well that ends my ramble for tonight i think ima just watch some youtube before i have to wake up to death tomorrow

[tenitchyfingers]

so anyway people are always criticizing anyone who's interested in true crime but I feel like cyber sleuths should get a healthy dose of bullying too because like yeah ok you may think people who read and listen to content about true crime cases are insane (arguing the point is not in my best interest) but the fuckholes who'll harass people and push them into suicide because they think they know something they clearly don't and like they can do a better job than the people who investigate professionally? yeah no those guys are the actual psychos

and yes this is about the Elisa Lam documentary on Netflix

#i'm actually kinda really pissed #because that metalhead's music is butt hair and i'd never willingly listen to it in my entire life #but it'd be one thing if a couple folks wrote to him and told him that his music is ass and then left #which is legitimate #boy believe me i cringed so hard at this dude's music it's so low quality #and i'm saying this as someone who appreciates metal including some good death metal #but it's a different thing when hordes of strangers come at you and accuse you of murder with NO evidence whatsoever #and holy shit this guy almost killed himself from the pressure and stress #bottom line: she didn't take her meds which she was supposed to take after she decided to travel to a whole other country alone #and she kept not taking her meds for days and that's how she ended up drowning in a hotel's water tank #that's all it is #and the folks who harassed this innocent guy never even said they were sorry - the fucking cowards #'but they had good intentions!' no they didn't - all they wanted was to be under the spotlight and that's all it is #people who have any actual good intentions will try helping and not broadcast it to the whole internet #and if the detectives and professionals tell them they're not necessary they'll sit the fuck down and shut up #/vent #btw yo remember when that case happened and everyone went insane phewwwww i'm so glad it's over

[watcher-ofthe-sky]

The whiplash I get whenever I interact with FT fandom on tumblr vs on twitter. Which is to say you all are the real ones.

#like I /know/ it for a fact that if I post the things I do on here #people are either gonna leave me alone if they don't agree with it or they would expand on it with a good thought out view point #bad apples exist here too sure but you all took the reading comprehension and left twitter people with nothing #anyway I appreciate you and it's always nice to come here ^^ #sky speaks

[annabelle--cane]

I know what people are getting at when they say not to do this but I do actually appreciate knowing if someone's mental illness is at work when they give me an apology? like I don't think it's wrong to say "sorry for ghosting you, I had a paranoid episode and could barely look at my phone for two months" or "sorry for missing this event, I was really depressed and couldn't get out of bed" or "sorry I acted really weird and left quickly the other day, something triggered me and I couldn't figure out how to cool down until I was alone" because those are full and complete answers that would be less accurate if the symptom were edited out. I know what those things mean and I would actually prefer to know if my friend messed something up for reasons not entirely within their control rather than have them attempt to take responsibility for things they already actively try to avoid doing.

#marina marvels at life

[taylorswift]

It’s here. It’s yours, it’s mine, it’s ours. It’s an album I wrote alone about the whims, fantasies, heartaches, dramas and tragedies I lived out as a young woman between 18 and 20. I remember making tracklist after tracklist, obsessing over the right way to tell the story. I had to be ruthless with my choices, and I left behind some songs I am still unfailingly proud of now. Therefore, you have 6 From The Vault tracks! I recorded this album when I was 32 (and still growing up, now) and the memories it brought back filled me with nostalgia and appreciation. For life, for you, for the fact that I get to reclaim my work. Thank you a million times, for the memories that break our fall. 💥🐉🏰  Speak Now (MY VERSION!) is out now. 

http://taylor.lnk.to/SpeakNowTaylorsVersion

PC: Beth Garrabrant