#i am never not writing flashbacks

[anamelessfool]

I imagine after Primo puts young Copia to bed Nihil wanders in and wakes him up. Sits on the edge of the bed, wide eyed and excited.

"I was reading just now... Did you know that the Blue Whale, the largest animal to ever live on this planet, emits a sound so deep that it is mostly unheard but can travel across the entire Pacific Ocean?"

Copia blinks, bleary eyed but polite.

Nihil continues, his Infernal Eye bright and illuminated in the dark. "And humpback whales--you know humpback whales don't you, boy-- have family songs. Over centuries they teach their family the song, can you believe it? That's just...that's just far out, isn't it?"

Copia glances quickly at his quilt, debating if he should just flop over and ignore the old man.

"These family songs can be linked all the way back to the ancestral portals of Atlantis, code across the centuries, the Akashic records! The Atlanean intrrdimensional knowledge, my boy---"

"Nihil, what are you doing?" Primo is at the open door now, a practiced frown across his face. "You can't just...wake a kid up. We've been over this. They need their sleep."

"Terzo enjoyed it," Nihil says back defensively.

"Actually, he--" Primo catches himself and displays a thin smile. "You know what Dad, I want to hear about whales. Come on, I'll put on a fire and we can talk about the Atlanteans all you want."

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#ghost fandom #ao3 author #ghost scenes from the void #the band ghost #ghost band fic #ghost band headcanons #anamelessfool writes #papa nihil #papa emeritus i #cardinal copia #copia my beloved #i am never not writing flashbacks

[s0fter-sin]

you ever think about how it’s been over a year since we last saw aizawa, mic and their dead high school boyfriend

#bnha manga spoilers #like we finally got an aizawa panel but it was a flashback so it doesnt really count #but horikoshi really threw them into a teleporting abyss then went lol bye #we still dont know where they are or how much of shirakumo is present through kurogiri #also!! the gun!! that just never got mentioned again #mic probably still has it!! which means he could still be the one that has to kill kurogiri to free shirakumo #bc you know aizawa wont be able to do it #and he wont be able to use erasure to get through to him #am i putting off re watching the sports fest arc to figure out how to write mics commentary? maybe so #go beyond plus ultra #coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt #aizawa #eraserhead #present mic #kurogiri #oboro shirakumo #erasermic #erasercloudmic #mha #bnha

[shitouttabuck]

also i must know about the mamma mia au pls 🥺🎶🕺

@rewritetheending asked too! i rewatched both mamma mias with my best friend a couple months ago and was like WAIT A MINUTE YOU KNOW WHAT WOULD SLAP lmao anyway this is exactly what i have saved in my drafts from sometime in august.

the very very loosely based mamma mia au:

where chris’s mum has never really been in the picture in his memory and the diaz family never talks about her because she left / they never knew her. so chris doesn’t ask many questions because no one wants to answer them he’s barely a teenager when he finds eddie’s diary from the year before he was born. and there are three women eddie writes about romantically: s, b, and a idk maybe something at school about parents day and he’s thinking about mothers and writes them all letters to the addresses eddie has scrawled in the back of his diary idk to let them know they live in LA and not texas anymore, in case they ever want to meet. but writes as eddie, not chris and he gets a polite letter back from a, saying she’s with someone else but hopes eddie is happy and doesn’t hear back from s and one day when eddie’s at the corner store the doorbell rings and. a large tall man is on the other side. very confused at the sight of christopher. but taking it in his stride. and he doesn’t come in because chris is all of thirteen and alone at home but. eddie catches sight of this ghost as he’s walking home with a bagful of groceries and eddie and chris talk about shannon because eddie knows she died a little after she left, not long after chris was born. and how much he loved her and she loved them both even if she had to leave. it’s not her fault she wasn’t able to come back. it wasn’t because she didn’t love chris. and it’s good, it’s so good to talk to each other about this, about her. but also—this guy, because b is a guy, kind of just? sticks around? he’s going to leave, eyes big and smile tight when he sees chris, but chris makes him leave his number and eddie—eddie texts him and it’s not that there was a gap in chris’s life, a hole needing a parent or something, but. having another person love you this much, this fast, this completely? like a friend and a dad? without ever needing the biological connection chris’d been counting on to make a convincing case for having a relationship? it’s pretty fucking sweet

have not actually thought about the buck and eddie of it much... just buck falling in love with chris instantly

#i was fully just self-indulgently daydreaming im almost certainly never going to write this #but how fun it would be to write flashbacks with an eddie who’s slutty with his heart and body like just that much less guarded #and writing buck chris...... #fuck how am i tempting myself... nina no #oh my god wait maybe eddie finding out about abby like how donna does about sam’s fiancee except it’s fr a misunderstanding but too late #oh the POSSIBILITIES #jaded in love eddie unlocking that part of himself when buck comes back to him...... #stop it stop it #morgan zahli please nip this in the bud #ask #morgan #zahli

[theinfinitedivides]

'just die now instead. because i cannot watch you break apart piece by piece. so just go and die right now instead. because of you... i think i'm going crazy.'

#tv: my dearest #my dearest #mbc my dearest #namgoong min #nam goong min #kim yoon woo #kdrama #local gay watches My Dearest (and is subsequently f*cked up).txt #local gay watches k-dramas.txt #closest our asses are getting to an actual f*cking confession unless Ryang Eum pulls some sh*t and surprises us by hard launching #the coming out session. holy f*ck i am not normal about this at all bc not MY ass writing a line eerily similar to that in my fic #months before this scene aired. not me getting inside his head like that hello!!!!!! #said what he had to say slammed the door behind him AND like every gay had a flashback of broken/unfulfilled promises by #a straight man we are going through it beloveds #'what is the use of getting married? listening to you sing for the rest of my life is enough for me.' = 'i cannot leave without #my lark. how else would i get this back' the latter being also a line from my fic. either way he is a LIAR!!!!!!!! #and not Ryang Eum tracing the outline of his face bc he still cannot touch him dear God. 'how handsome.' not him #branding himself to get rid of the absolutely f*cked up scar his master left on him bc he will never be anyone's but Jang Hyun's #dear God why #don't even know how he's walking down the hallway at this point i would have thrown myself off something #and now he's f*cking pissed Gil Chae's going to get blows Jang Hyun do you see what you are doing!!!!!!! you are preventing #my frenemies arc Jang Hyun!!!!!!!

[whumpacabra]

help girl (gender neutral) there’s a jansenist monk in my brain being mean to me

#not whump #personal #beans speaks #which is to say I’m fighting the moral ocd allegations and. well. not losing but I’d rather be winning. #obv I try to write abt the topics I do with care/a narrative purpose. idk just like. #the hyper vigilance of ‘am I writing torture apologia? am I writing about real world horrors for entertainment purposes?’ is getting to me #which don’t get me wrong I want to reflect on my writing I want to check myself if my post 9/11 right wing upbringing is showing. #I’ve been working on unlearning a lot of shit for a while and I’m happy to keep doing so. #just that sometimes I stress myself out to the point where (and I know it’s a cop out and not viable) I just want someone to tell me #if and where I fuck up instead of constantly screening everything I write for anything Problematic™ #which like I said. not viable and I need to keep learning to keep unlearning everything I grew up in. but still. #sometimes I’m tired and scared of myself and don’t want to make anything that hurts anyone #and it’s easier to make nothing than to make something that I need to go over with a fine toothed comb #which again - that’s a cop out and I gotta keep making stuff. just. idk. having debates in my head abt how I depict things w critics that #don’t currently exist and maybe never will so I know it’s just a Bad Brain kinda day. #edit: lmao I figured out what triggered me I am literally just in an emotional flashback struggle trauma is so fucking stupid yall

[tarraxahum]

You know it's one thing to rewatch an old hyperfixation comfort movie that shaped so damn much of you as a creator (maybe as a person too, who knows)

It's a whole other thing to suddenly come face to face with a realization that it's been 15 fucking years

#I mean that's only logical - it was indeed several life stages ago #but like. it's always been this given hum in the back of everything I do #that title got me started drawing (I used to hate it). #translating (it's my whole ass job now) #had me do my biggest writing project to date (it sucks narratively 'cause I was a kid spitting out a self-insert but who cares) #opened my eyes to the existence of AMVs and such. #had me do one myself. I'm still doing edits occasionally. #boosted my English learning 'cause everything I wanted to know was in English and we had no fancy #in-built browser translators yet #introduced me to the concept of cosplay (and since then I actually made and wore at least one) #hell I am looking at PoF now and I think I know where my habit of jumping around in time so much comes from #'cause this movie was switching up between flashbacks and reality the whole time (brilliantly so) #like holy fuck the imprint of it all (it wasn't just the movie #I've consumed every iteration there was) #every time I think about it it feels like it's everywhere in me #I am talking about Speed Racer by the way #in case you've never heard me mention my roots

[pirateborn]

i love writing roger he rly is just a fun guy to write,

#[ ooc ] ✧〖 bid farewell to weaver’s town 〗 #[ it is once again rye has a real normal one about roger hour #[ when the. larger then life Real #[ when the. incredibly overpowered guy is genuinely just a lil silly but also a lil fucked up but also fun #[ fucked up specifically in a 'will burn the world for those he loves without remorse' kinda way #[ he has his morals but also everything is an adventure n its almost like a game #[ me when i. rotate in the microwave the canonical info we have on roger #[ 'had bring up similar to ace in which he was alone which adds to his fear of losing loved ones' (from garp) #[ 'loves party/flashy things' (from rayleigh) #[ 'never cried' (from shanks) #[ 'incredibly powerful (real)' from oden's flashback / god's valley incident etc. #[ throws roger into the salad spinner fr #[ do think i'd have fun writing luffy for similar reasons of 'silly guy :]' but simply.... holds rogr..... #[ his muse is coming back so its time get back on my roger pirates propaganda train sorry not sorry </3 #[ i wish. i could write a comparison post ab similarities/differences w/ roger n garp bc. main muses shakes them always but i would not #[ have the ability to make it sensical enough beyond -shakes them- when the. selfish vs selfless etc. #[ <- self indulgence at its finest #[ sniff. i am normal ab old gen (lying)

[candyn-gutz]

but anyway. have to remind myself that it's a process

#i've been having more flashbacks as of late and felt like i didnt learn anything and i am back where i started #but then my therapist told me about how her and her mom at least got closure over a friend's passing #by drinking #and celebrating them for some closure #and i never thought about doing something similar myself and i feel it would be nice to #im going to try to write a letter for my mom #idk. yeah

[criminal-sen]

Hahahahaaaaa omfg I'm in such a difficult part of Imperfect rn, it's wild

It is coming along but 'description of Mayuris time in the Maggots Nest/years working under Uraraha that is both narratively coherent and short enough to squeeze into the tail end of this chapter' is a Feat

#well i have to put it Somewhere #either way.. in a much older fic.. i got lost in a flashback and never recovered lol #like. the flashback was supposed to be one chapter but wound up stretching out for like.. 4 or 5? #and by then it was like. wtf was i even doing in present day.. #so im being very careful to stay concise this time around #but i am also the Long Winded Person Who Writes Long Winded Things so yah. is a task

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

haha I just remembered that I inaugurated my new phone's notes app with the intro to something that could definitely be a friend-crush story

#if only I could 1) decide on a POV #and 2) figure out how to goshdang write it #I am not a good enough writer for this #I'm having flashbacks to that time I wanted to write an arrival fic and spent weeks weeping over it but never ended up #writing it bc trying to make it make sense narratively speaking was uh. above my pay grade. #SOME people can gracefully tiptoe around details. I am not those people. #Lu rambles #re: my last reblog

[oathkeeperoxas]

just got my assignment for one 10k exchange, I’m putting together my sign up for a different 10k exchange, and mourning the fact that the third 10k exchange moved from November to March next year... hmm, exchanges my beloved

#these are my only 2 exchanges that I have planned for the rest of the year. #who am I #flashback to 2019 when I did like 40 exchanges in one year LOL #after cod/ywan week is over I'll just have these and the horizon bang to work on... wack #imagine having time for personal projects. I could write anything #(another 200k of codywan coming your way by the end of the year) #okay but for reals I want to try and finish my 2 codywan longfics. then i can enter my phase 2 of codywan #after finishing a LOT of wips that have been haunting me for cod/wan week its just these 2 longfics to tidy up and I will have completed all #my ideas that I originally had for this pairing. this literally never happens to me like what #level up and become more powerful as I enter my unrepentant era #where i post only batshit niche ideas that have an audience of me myself and i #personal

[lightyearns]

||       ENTERING DATA   :   @artificialvoyage​   [  steve rogers  ]

||     THE UNIVERSE IS VAST.     there was a little bit of fear that came with this all,   surely  —  namine feels it in her chest,   in the way her fingers tremble when she sketches over paper,   unsure of what lies ahead.   everything here is a little muddled,   a little  —  less.   she doesn’t control the way she used to.

in a way,   namine’s grateful to not have her abilities so prominently.

“  what do you see ?  ”    there is no place to dock,   yet.   nothing for lightyears.   they go so fast when you’re up here,   she’s heard,   but right now,   all namine sees when she looks at the stars is static.    “  when you look out there  ?  ”

#artificialvoyage #artificialvoyage : steve rogers. #re : i had a flashback of something that never existed. / writing. #namine really said hello would you like to give me a dose of heavy existential crisis at 8 am #so sorry for her shjdkfhkjdshf

[stevesnailbat]

:/

#isdlfjddjdjejddjd i am feeeling very bad today <3333333 #sry i am definitely deleting later <3 i just need 2 yell #this is going 2 be me ranting about relationships so. ignore ! #relationship with my abus*r< #i literally got the worst flashback of my life today in the middle of class and have been inconsolable since </3 #i just want 2 cry .. #at this point therapy isn’t enough i literally need to physically fight a specific person #but also like. why do i sometimes feel like i want them back when they were the worst #when u never got closure after 7 years but they’re doing perfectly fine #literally feel genvy towards them too which. fucking sucks. why do i want what they have #godddddddd i hate this i hate them i hate myself #like how am i still feeling the effects of what a 16 yr old did to me. how does that happen #but also. how is a 16 yr old that awful of a person to leave THAT much damage #i think i need to just. write it out or something but i also don’t have the energy to comfort myself #anyways. im normal

[toastedsmoreo]

Ok I’ve been following JJK so far, convincing myself that every character choice and fight detail was weird but not a deal breaker for me, but…..WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT!?

#jjk spoilers #that twist was so so SO poorly written that I am convinced gege had no plan and is making shit up as he goes #you mean to tell me Yuta did ALL THAT in the span of a single fight??? #that the foreshadowing in Gojo’s flashbacks was for nothing???? #that kenjaku ate up all that fucking screen time for a fucking power up?????? #was yuta never meant to be his own person? #was gojo never meant to be his own person? #this doesn’t feel like an earned tragedy or natural consequence of the characters actions like what happened with megumi #this feels like gege sat down at his desk one day and thought “what’s the edgiest thing I can do to ruin two fan favorite characters? #it genuinely feels like gege hates the people who read this manga #like yeah I get it we’re annoying but #my brother in Christ we liked the manga because it was mostly WELL WRITTEN #and had characters we cared about! #and a core message of how life is worth living!!!! #I’m…genuinely upset at how bad the writing tanked in this one moment. #it reveals gege as someone who only cares about these characters for their cool shonen powers #it retroactively makes every other character death worse #like dud nobara really die off to show the escalating stakes of the world of jujutsu? #or did he kill her off because her powers were lame and her hair was hard to draw? #I’m mildly curious to see how this ends but #I’m done #my canon now ya edgelord cat

[guidingthulite]

i have to make a point to mention ena's shoujo mangas otherwise is it really a chapter of my fic

#I WROTE 3000 WORDS TODAY #WHICH IS GOOD. BECAUSE I WROTE #AND IT'S ALSO BAD. BECAUSE I NEED TO WAKE UP EARLY AND IT'S CURRENTLY 5 AM #seems like i either write at ass o clock or i don't write #you guys don't probably know this but everytime i spend like a lot without writing #and then i start writing again #i start by writing some extra info and / or flashback that has nothing to do with the current plot #'but alma guidingthulite what's this chapter about' yeah <3 #i was also thinking about opening comissions i'm working on the announcement post #my words now cost money baybeeee #i also wrote a tiny bit of my parunverse fic which i have mentioned like once or twice in my sideblog #inspiration struck today for some reason. jpseka tiering probably #i'm top 3000 currently which ouch bc i'm normally top 3000 effortlessly on global jebrgjr #but whatever. sometimes you need some humbling. i guess #also i'm never writing rui again he plays a (kind of) big part in the bit i just wrote and i think he's super ooc auguaghaughugua #rui i love you and all but i'm sorry. i'm so sorry #the bit this quote is from is based on real events except instead of ena it's me. you'll understand when you read it in like #a year <3 #i've been annoying my brother about these shoujo mangas i've been reading. sadly he's not interested #BUT HE'S A SUPER SAPPY GUY. HIS FAVORITE ANIME IS KOMI CAN'T COMMUNICATE. #HE JUST WON'T TAKE MY RECS BECAUSE HE'S THAT KIND OF GUY. HE THEN WATCHES THEM AND LIKES IT BUT IT'S NEVER BECAUSE I REC THEM TO HIM #homophobia (he's actually bi)

[kitsunabi]

Tfw you have too much lore at your hands but there is no way to actually put this into the story

#living la vida valerie #it’s about Bailu and how’s she’s absolutely gotten the short end of the stick of the elder position hand off #this story is literally comprised of 2 flashbacks juxtaposed against each other #Bailu is present day there’s zero chance I can bring her condition up (I did manage to write Kafka and SW in I am proud of myself for this) #df you really made a mess for everyone to clean up you disaster gay #I dread starting on the second half since that means I’ll need to comb thru IL leaks #if you want to be happy step1: never read the character lore #I need to sleep I’ve already hit 3k