#i am genuinely sorry if i upset you

[averageludwig]

Rant. Looking up Demoman on Pinterest is such a horrible gamble because I either get to see cute art of him or get violently jumpscared by a George floyd Demoman joke. Because Apparently people find it super fucking funny to spend hours of their life drawing a black character over a murdered black man. I have seen at least 4 versions of it by now.

I dont' like to get serious on this blog. Since its supposed to be a blog to give my favorite guy the attention he deserves but I seriously cant like Demoman without knowledging the actual vile treatment he gets from this fandom, Its exhausting. Being hyperfixated on him for the past year has become super depressing because of the incredibly normalized racism I see towards him.

As a black person, sometimes it feels like you really can't have anything.

#averitext #sorry rant #just so upset #only black character in the franchise #only character I can see myself in for so many reasons #yeah #I genuinely dont care if I keep bringing this topic up #I am gonna keep running my mouth until you people act right #goodnight

[qcomicsy]

Lately I've only been wishing to grab a comic about my favorite character and just have a genuinely good time reading it.

#I can't remember the last time I took a Deadpool comic and genuinely had a good time about it #I hate the direction they took with his character and it's so disrespectful that I don't even talk about I don't even think *any* Deadpool #fan genuinely talk about it because were so tired of his kids characterization we all just collectively decided to ignore whatever hell #marvel through at him #but rant aside #it's just– #I am not sure if comic books are fun anymore I don't even know who I am making content for half of the people on my notes haven't touched #comic book and aren't pretending to do so #people who read the comics tend to be so mean or bitter about it that even if you follow most will be angry about something #comic or fan related and I don't know if I can blame them but following that is draining #and as much as I was trying to be a good sport about it you make a post about comic book characters and #and the overwhelming response is 'I don't read the comics but'– following up by a take about them that doesn't even recognize any core #aspect of their personality that you can't even grasp you can't even recognize them #you can't recognize them on tue cannon you can't recognize them on the fannon #and no matter how engaging you try to make content about the fandom people just–*refuse* to read it. And then– they *refuse* to tag fannon #content as fannon #and *refuse* to leave either #Yes we are all having fun but how can a character tag be so so filled with people who have no idea of who they are #how can a character can be properly loved and take care of and have content that respect them if no one makes any attempt to *know them* #and it's disheartening because *comics* are supposed to be fun *fannon are supposed to be fun* #but for aome reason it's really *really* hard to have fun here anymore #I created this page to share my love for the characters I care about and see more content of people who care about them too #but I can't even *find* people who care about them any more and when I do they're all so angry and upset– And I *cant even blame them* #I just... I don't know why I am doing this anymore or for who I am doing this anymore #sorry to vent but it's been a while since I haven't been had a genuinely good time™ enjoying comics #I don't think even people who write those comics enjoy those comics or care about those characters #Sometimes feels like everyone is projecting on those characters rather than *writing about them*. And I can't find them anymore #fanfics used to be about love petters to characters who you love #nowadays seems like a competition to see who makes more funny words with tropes pre-written since 2007 #vent

[xeemaee]

Just saw someone call dungeon meshi “a show about women” as a way to complain about mlm shipping in the fandom and girl… if this is a show about women to you? you simply need to watch more shows, like stand up! You deserve better female representation than a show where there are two main female characters and one of them is missing for 80-90% of the series! Stand up! You deserve better than this! Go read the locked tomb! Please you deserve better than to see DUNGEON MESHI as a show about women

#like yeah media is mostly male centered and finding good women centered shows is tricky but they exist! and it isn’t dungeon meshi! #like I love dungeon meshi but this is like calling lotr a series about women like you’ve gotta be joking #one of the things that bothers me so much about this discourse is like… why are so upset that people aren’t obsessed with a ship #like there are so many wlw ships I fucking adore and love and they’re complex and interesting and like… sorry if this one isn’t my fave? #the more aggressive people get about their anger towards people who aren’t obsessed with farcille the less interested in farcille I am! #like you guys are ruining this ship i genuinely like for me! #anyway #dungeon meshi

[lunapegasus]

This was a terrible idea. Really, it was. With how many times she’d been rejected it was practically ridiculous that she thought this would go over well. And Amy was well aware of how low her chances were. But she just couldn’t help it. Besides, he was far too reserved to ever ask her out. She had to be the one to do it.

Amy sighed and looked at her dress in the mirror again. It was a medium length white dress covered in a leafy pattern in various green hues and even had a ribbon to match. It was brand new. Which she may or may not have bought for this specific occasion. An arguably unnecessary expense but Amy justified it by telling herself she needed something nice to boost her confidence. 

But… what if it was too nice? If she got rejected then it would have all been a waste and every time she saw the dress again she’d be filled with disappointment and heartache and loneliness and-

She panicked and darted over to her wardrobe and began to frantically look for a possible alternative. How foolish she was to buy such a dress. What if he didn’t even like green!

Amy startled suddenly at the knock on her bedroom door and a young rabbit poked her head inside.

“Amy, aren’t you supposed to be on your date?”

“It’s not a date, Cream. Well, at least not yet. But hopefully, it will be.”

“I’m sure he’ll say yes! I have a feeling this one's gonna work out. And I don’t need any fancy tarot cards to know that!”

“That’s right! I should do a reading and then I’ll-”

“Amy!” Cream shouted, cheeks slightly puffed up in frustration, “You already said you were gonna ask him. You promised me you wouldn’t back out again.”

“I know, I know. You’re right,” Amy sighed and wandered over to her drawer and pulled out her old deck of cards, “These cards have just really helped me out a lot, you know? I’ve had them nearly my whole life. If I hadn’t listened to them and left home then I never would have even met him, or anyone else, or even you.”

Cream quietly wandered over and sat down on the bed next to her friend and waited for her to continue.

“I’d been alone for a really long time, which was why I was traveling the world. I wanted to find a new home, somewhere I belonged… I’d read about Little Planet before, they used to call it Miracle Planet. It sounded like a beautiful place, “a world that defies time itself”, relics that create miracles, I couldn't ask for a more perfect place to call home… But just like everything else, it was temporary.”

Cream frowned as Amy sat down on the bed beside her. The little girl watched as Amy shuffled through her deck before finally pulling out a single card and handing it to her. The image depicted a brave looking knight valiantly standing upright with a single sword in his hands.

“But then I pulled this card,” Amy said, continuing her story, “The Knight of Swords. It represents action and says that if you propel yourself through ambition you’ll be rewarded. That’s when I knew that if I continued to trust my instincts, the same one that brought me there in the first place, then I would finally get to meet my knight in shining armor!”

Cream giggled, “And you did! Even if it was a little messy at first.”

“Heh, a little, but you gotta admit, he really knew how to sweep a girl off her feet.”

The two giggled some more before Cream suddenly sprung up from her feet, “Amy! You’re gonna be late! You need to hurry!”

“Oh Chaos you’re right!” Amy jumped up from the bed and hurried out the door, but when she reached the doorway she paused and looked back towards her friend again. “So, you really think he’s gonna say yes?”

Cream walked over to her and gave her a big smile, “Of course I do, Amy! Things are changing now and so are you. You’ve been the princess in the tower already, now it’s time for you and your knight, your real knight, to have your happily ever after!”

Amy returned the smile, gave her friend a big hug, and fought off the tears she felt forming behind her eyes, “Thanks Cream, you always know just what to say.”

The two waved each other away and Amy took off, and as she closed the front door behind her she couldn’t help but smile.

This was it. She was finally going to ask out the blue hedgehog of her dreams. It was finally time to ask out Metal Sonic.

[idea by @khalewren]

#sub 800 words #sonamy #uh huh that's what it says #that is what this is about #this is a totally normal sonamy fic I prommy I would never lie to you come closer #JUST FUCKING KIDDING. I’M IN MY MISSIONARY ERA AND I'M CONVERTING YOU ALL TO METAMY #you thought this was about sonic? I don’t even know who that is anymore! #I've a s c e n d e d #(to those in the sonamy tag finding this and are possibly genuinely upset then I will say I am sorry for invading your tag however Im just- #-really silly so I think charges should be dropped) #(no hate to y’all of course I hope you’re having a fun and silly day!) #amy rose #metamy #sth #my fics <3

[infinitelytheheartexpands]

all i’m saying is that i have managed to get through this opera bracket rooting and advocating for my faves without threatening to harm myself or others over how people vote/the results.

if i can do it, so can and should you!

#opera #opera tag #opera bracket #but seriously. do some of y’all realize how you sound #i’m sorry but as someone who has dealt with her share of mental health issues it’s not only not funny but also genuinely hurtful #this is absolutely ridiculous. #and once again: for the love of everything holy no one is a better or worse person solely based on what operas they prefer/think are better #everyone pls just calm the FUCK down. #these are real humans behind the urls! and we all love opera! and that should be a good thing! #sorry everyone i am genuinely upset about this

[orcelito]

Opening the local bubble tea store absolutely livid and shaking in rage and upset bc my bitch ass boss is too concerned about us sitting on the job to order the tea bags I requested Two Fucking Weeks Ago (it only takes like 4 or 5 days to ship) and so we're out and I had to hand wash the 1 reusable bag to make black tea and I have to strain the free floating tea leaves from the cold brew and I just KNOWWWW he's going to have something more to bitch about because he always does

Last straw on the camel's back, etc etc, I want to put in my two weeks notice by the end of this week. That's a goal for myself.

#speculation nation #i currently dont have a job lined up but im going to start applying Today #because i cant take this anymore. i cant fucking take this anymore. #i feel like im about to shatter from the strain of hos chokehold #8 years total under his thumb and for What? he doesnt appreciate me. he doesnt value me. #he's an asshole this place sucks and it makes me so sad because i really do care about the people here #but i cant. i cant fucking do it anymore. #im really glad im alone on shift rn bc ha ha ha. ill put up the mask for customers but i am #genuinely shaking rn. im so upset. #this being after he complained Again about people sitting on the job during the meeting last night like #shut UPPPP I DONT CAAAARE #YOU TRY WORKING WITH CHRONIC PAIN AND FATIGUE AND A JOB THAT DOESNT GIVE GENUINE BREAKS #'oh if you need to take a break then do it but just dont sit down on the job“ #WHEN DO YOU THINK I COULD TAKE MY BREAK? IM WORKING ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!+ #and when im.not working alone im working with trainees so i still cant leave the store unattended #im sick of him.im so sick of him and im THIIIIIIIIIS close to just breaking down here and now #i hate him i hate him i hate him i hate him i HATE HIM #negative/ #sorry for the vent i just feel like.im about to blow up and everyone's busy so ic cant. vent properly #im not even done opening bc im too busy freaking out and pacing and being angry #and hes gonna watch me sitting here thru the cameras and be like Ho Hum Look at you immediately doing what i said not to #like fucking STOP!!!! WATCHING US!!!!!!! YOU FUCKING CREEP!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #IM SO SICK OF HIM WATCHING US THROUGH THE CAMERAS. HE HAS NO TRUST IN ME DOING MY JOB #0 value for me as a person or employee 0 value for my to this day dedication to this company #i want to send my heel through those front windows. watch them shatter. wreck the whole place #because fuck this place and fuck him #i wontttt bc i dont wanna go to jail lol but the temptation is there. i fucking hate his guts. #im going to put in my 2 weeks by the end of this week. im going to start applying to places Today. just fucking watch me.

[slimslamflimflam]

“think of the children!” no. you aren’t. the people in power couldn’t give two shits about the children. the people in power look away when it comes to genuine concerns about children the second it impedes upon their lifestyle, their beliefs.

and you know what it is that bothers them so? children wanting safety. children not wanting to live in fear of being murdered. children who want to be loved and accepted for who they are. children who are raised to be those kids you hear others complain about on social media because nobody was there to teach them better. they don’t know better because they quite literally can’t.

oh but it’s for the kids, right? protect the kids, right? turn a blind eye to death and discrimination and neglect, right? that’s how we’ll protect them, right?

#i’ve been stewing on this for so fucking long it is exhausting the state of this stupid fucking piece of shit government and how much worse #it gets day by day. i am so sick of people with superficial titles shoving religion into places it shouldn’t be INSISTING they are #protecting what matters and yet in the face of such examples they couldn’t care less. i am tired of people like them using these moral #arguments as a GUISE to enact whatever they want just because they’re upset over some tiny thing. #no one could give two fucks you saw two men kissing on the internet and got personally offended. no one could give a singular #flying FUCK you’re upset people want to ban things that harm so much more than they do good. if you’re going to be such a genuine #piece of shit awful person do it without a safety net. fucking cowards and snakes. #jesus christ man. sorry for the tangent but this kind of shit never fails to irritate me.

[deancoded-deangirl]

i bring a “traumatized child pretending to be an adult” kinda vibe that people really don’t like

#me feeling the slightest insecurity: oh hey sorry i bothered you #didn’t mean to #and I really truly genuinely feel like I’ve started apologizing so much lately #for existing #if i really need to vent and am so upset ill literally throw it in my Snapchat or hit up like… two people lol #and even then! I’m still apologizing!

[nicosraf]

what the fuck is your problem

Right now, it's that I don't have potatoes to put in my estrellita soup !!

#i genuinely am not sure what this could be about but! #i wish you no ill anon so sorry if i upset u somehow ! #mine #ask

[toasteaa]

Coming back to my empty blog, dusting off the cobwebs, and then going feral all over it again is a very me thing to do. I should take more of these breaks and do stuff for me again

#toast talks #I've been giving a lot of my ocs faces while I was gone and doodling a lot more than usual #and it feels good! Like genuinely good! #It's definitely a testament to how social media can affect you if you're not in a good place #and I'm really glad I stepped away for awhile and am deciding to have a healthier relationship with it overall #I'm genuinely sorry to anyone I may have bothered or upset or pushed away when I was spiraling and I hope you're all doing well! #I'll still be a little rarely seen on here but I'm around! Just vibing at my own pace

[prentissluvr]

tw long rant and swearing!

hey!! if you don't like something i wrote! shut the fuck up and move on!! thanks bye!! no hate is tolerated on this blog :)))

i don't care if you don't like the way i characterized someone in my story!! shut up and get a better hobby than hating on something someone has spent hours creating and pouring love into and accusing them of hating one of their favorite characters because you think that the fic they wrote FOR FUN and NOT FOR YOU is bad characterization/makes the character flawed in a way that you don't like because you have a poor understanding of what makes fanfiction fanfiction (and also humans human tbh lol). sure, they're maybe more flawed than in the actual show, but THATS THE FUCKING POINT OF FANFICTION!!! IS THAT ITS NOT A REAL PART OF THE SHOW!!! AND ITS WRITTEN!!! FOR FUNNNNN!!!!! AND NOT FUCKING FOR YOU AND YOUR FUCK ASS OPINIONS SPECIFICALLY!!!!!!!! and if you think it sucks, i don't care!! you are entitled to your opinion!!!! hate it so so so much but get the fuck over yourself if you think that telling me it's horrible and unrealistic and somehow creating a bad wrap FOR MY FAVORITE CHARACTER IN THIS SHOW is somehow a meaningful usage of your time or gonna get me to delete the fic or stop liking it or stop promoting my own hard work !!!! i'm proud of the things i write and nothing will ever change that. i hope you know what a shitty shitty shitty (and embarrassing) thing it is to do to leave a whole paragraph of hate under someone's hard work just because they interpret a fictional fucking character in a way that you don't like. genuinely genuinely get the fuck over yourself and find a better way to spend your time than caring more about fictional characters than real life people.

#and yeah! honestly i'm upset right now #i do care because its my fic my baby my hard work #and its really hurtful to have someone tell me its stupid unrealistic and somehow a harmful representation of one of my fav characters ever #but also i don't care if people don't like what i write or how i interpret/represent a character!!! #having different opinions and stances on things is so valid and okay #but for you to spell it all out in such a judgmental condescending and hateful way in a reblog of my fic is such a hurtful thing to do #and its very upsetting to see #but it does show very clearly to me that you have no understanding of how to act appropriately or what it takes to write #or how to act maturely and kindly when you come across something of genuinely so little consequence that you don't agree with #that's one of the craziest things about that #is that fanfiction is like meaningless LMAO #and for you to read a fucking fanfiction that you don't like???? #and then take the time to explain to the well meaning and hard working author who is just writing for fun and to find friends #why you hate it so much is actually ridiculous #and i am so willing to bet you have zero friends on this website!! #thats kinda mean! but there's so many hateful opinions on your blog that clearly showcase how limited your critical thinking skills are <33 #also i'm speaking into the void the person who did this got blocked the second i read what they said LOL #but yeah! i'm not cool with people saying such hateful stuff to me so don't try it again <33 #next time i might not be so kind as to keep someone anonymous if this happens again #but at least i'm choosing to be 1000 times more mature than you by not engaging directly and without exposing your sorry ass #. >> ria says shit !

[peppermintmochafem]

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#Um she told me she's in love with me and if anything happens to know I'm hot and she wants me #And then went into a lot of detail just repeating over and over the things she wants / fantasies about me incoherently #Which I'm sure means nothing right #I know this is complicated for her she hates being attracted to me but it is hard to have her be like this is bad when she says she wants m #I don't know what to do #personal #tbdeleted #Triggering for me yikes #messy messy messy #Honestly think she is just grieving so its latching onto me as a woman she can love in a safe way #And I am glad I can be that I guess like obviously she needs that and I want to keep her safe #But I know I can't and she even said it #Like I know she will go home and then be gone forever #I think I am already grieving her in a way #And she has hurt many people I love dearly #Hurt them in deeply upsetting triggering ways that aren't okay and don't make me feel safe #She really lacks understanding of consent and that hurts people but I know she does want me and i think if I tried to stop her I could #I shouldn't be in situations where I am unsure of that though but at the same time it's like if something happens it happens #Idk how much of this is my own issues and thinking I'm not deserving of safe respectful sex and intimacy and my own guilt for everything #And how much of it is her own issues and guilt and grief #But I know I can be safe and loving for her #And I do know there is genuine love there no matter what other factors there are #Anyways sorry if you read all that I am giving you the biggest forehead kisses #I just think about how different it might have been if I had *** **** *** ** *** *** ****** ** ***** #I thought I couldn't cope if I had but how can I cope that I didnt #I should have *** *** *** when I could have #This is unrelated but its all tangled up and it's just been bad trauma day already #If I had **** * ****** **** if I had *** *** if I had **** ***** or #Anyways **** ***** ****** **

[that-was-anticlimactic]

one of the worst feelings in the world is that of not being able to do what you love; whether it be due to exhaustion or creative block,,, sitting there with free time, knowing you could do it, but then your mind says "not right now, i won't work for you",,,

#i am SO UPSET #i just wanna write!!! #but the block has been SO BAD lately i wanna CRY #i genuinely miss it so much #it's like a piece of me is missing #i have ideas and i have wips but i cannot get myself to actually write and i hate it #it sucks knowing that you have the time to do something you love but not the brainpower or energy #or your brain just won't let you #UGH #sorry for complaining i just miss writing SO MUCH

[twyz]

why do you draw glenda so fem?? they’re definitely the more masc one (at least in the show) and it’s kinda weird to make a canonically nonbinary character hyperfem just because of their name or because they were born female or whatever else…

Hi there!! I promise you I don't do this with any malicious intent in mind. I have my own storyline apart from the show and this design was made before I knew what they looked like in the show

Given thats not a good excuse, knowing what they canonically look like so I would like to apologize for that!

I didn't make them hyperfem with the intention of totally getting rid of the fact that they're nb, as I myself am nb and present as fem

I do realize how shady that looks regardless of my storyline, and I'm sorry if I genuinely upset you, anon. I will try to have them present more masculine, or at least more accurately to the show, in the future

#twyz #again i am so sorry if this has genuinely made you or others for that matter upset #thank you for coming to me with this concern as i never know how my work could be interpreted by others #if it comes off as wrong I'll do everything in my power to prevent it from being wrong #important. #chucky #charles lee ray #bride of chucky #tiffany valentine #childs play #chucky series #cult of chucky #asks #ask box #txt

[daz4i]

if someone else told me they have even one of my traumas I'd be like that's awful I'm so sorry you went through this and I'd genuinely mean it too. but when it's me it's not that serious I'm just being dramatic and whiny i gotta get over myself already. as one does

#mostly bc that's how it feels ppl in my life treat it. idk. not allowed to use it as a reason for why i can't do things etc #it's been so loooong since why am i still hung up on it. everyone has trauma and they just power through it. etc #can you tell i have a lot of unchecked rage inside me. #i *am* genuinely upset abt how hung up i am on this shit tho. it really has been so long. what's my excuse. yknow? #vent #i guess! idk!!! #sorry abt all the posts like that today!!!! i am not doing well!!!!!! rip!!!!!!

[lottieratworld]

man ive been fucking up real bad lately

#i had to leave 1 server bc of falling out with a regular there that i honestly thought was rly nice but always irritated with me #and now my dumb ass vented abt some inconsequential shit like 2 hours after the server owners very long vent making them upset #we're mutuals so if you see this im genuinely sorry #and also my girlfriends dealing with fucking bullshit from her parents with no meds or weed and miserable and i havent been able to #do shit besides send a bit of money. im worried #idk what to do i rly have to sleep my head hurts its like 2:40 in the morning #fuck. man. #why am i dumb as fuck #i really wish i wasnt like this