#i am a MESS(tm)

[gocrazyahhahgostupidahjssjjaah]

✨old men✨

why haven't I drawn them together you ask? well thats an interesting question! :D

......

*throws snowball and runs*

#AHAHHAHAHAH #SO LONG SUCKERS #simon petrikov #winter king #winterkov #<- tagging so people who do not wish to see dont find my blog cuz oh boy #so much winterkov #anyway #the reason i havent drawn them together #definitely isnt because im used to only drawing characters alone in the white void tm #look #keeping things in proportion is hard ok #im getting there #be nice to me smH #<3 #abpf art stuff ig #i am a mess uwy #im not correcting it.

[im-on-your-side-always]

“I was afraid because he saw me for who I really was. Everything about me. And I was afraid I could never be with someone like that.”

#the morning show #tms s3 #cory x bradley #bradley jackson #reese witherspoon #tms spoilers #look at her realising her feelings #my heart is a mess. I am a mess

[judasisgayriot]

(Nathan making his self-loathing EVERYONE else’s problem in the worst way possible.)

#heroesedit #primatech #heroes nbc #heroes #nbc heroes #noah bennet #nathan petrelli #anni edits #am i an angel or a monster #many thoughts about this scene. i broadly think villain!nathan arc is stupid and a mess anyway lol #but this is kind of illuminating. 'ill play whatever role i need to' could describe nathan's entire life #but this time it's self imposed rather than forced on him. like. #adding to the fact there's no way he doesn't know he could be v easily found out #this seems like such self destructive behaviour lol?? #anyway he's such a fkn idiot #and he's WILDLY projecting all his issues with his own power #and how it makes him some kind of Not-Normal Freak(tm) #that he's dragging EVERYONE else into it like 'we'll just get rid of ALL the powers!! problem solved!!' #HOW DID YOU NOT REALISE THIS WOULD BLOW UP IN YOUR FACE #thanks noah for trying to explain to him why this is a Bad Idea like he's five. he aint listening tho lol #the last bit is also like... ok. thanks for acknowledging the multiple mental breakdowns you've been having recently nathan. #still does not make this remotely a way to 'make things right' or like. a way to what #win peter back over?? #'i nearly killed my brother' is an interesting read too #like he hit him a couple of times but he was fine lol. he's not the one who set the place on fire. #does he mean he was willing to just burn to death in there and almost let peter die too?? #i've always interpreted 'it's not what i would've done' as meaning 'i wouldn't have saved ME' yanno #the man is such a complex mess of utter self loathing idk what his thought process even is at this point lol. #anyway stop dragging everyone else into your issues!! get some therapy!! #(also the writing is a whole mess but. anyway sorry for the tag essay as per)

[good-beans]

🌻

#<- she is so eepy and so full of emotions #good ones #like ive been a mess but that makes me sappy adfghh #really feeling the Neurodivergence TM and burnout lately -- ive struggled with so many conversations and tasks and workload #but i am emotional about the people who live in my phone!!! #you guys are so cool and so kind #i love getting little peeks at successes and struggles -- im rooting for you!! #i love seeing so much talent and collaboration and care poured into shared interests #were cheering one another on in our creative endeavors and real life ones #im so grateful for the kind words people have been leaving on my writing ;---; #and i get so excited about all the art and writing you share #i love the sharing of songs and recipies and tips and all kinds of recommendations #its just been so lovely and im so grateful #oh and we pass around little letters saying how much we love each other!!!!! #i got a sweet chain ask (that ill post tomorrow so i remember lol) but that's just such a fun thing! #im getting together my secret santa blog stuff and just remembering how well that went #and just thinking in general of how cool and talented and kind and strong everyone is #anyway im sappy and ily all and hope everyone is chillin rn!!! #goodnight!! 🌙✨️ #rose rambles

[championsandheroes]

So I'm not the only one disappointed in how un-qunari Iron Bull was (esp as a romance option)?? Thank Creators XD And written by guy who made my fave Bioware romance (Garrus) somehow?? Like, the excitement I had and how fast it went down the drain when I realized IB is basically some very horny (pun intended) guy who likes to party after philosophical debates we had with Arishok and Sten was quite a let down ngl, at least for me personally. Sorry for a long rant lol

Yeah... I think Iron Bull is an interesting character, but he isn't what I wanted from a qunari romance. Kinda like how I really liked what a mess Cullen was in DAO and DA2, but I found the romance in DAI underwhelmingly normal and not what I expected it to be.

#Iron Bull was too well adapted to non-qunari society #I wanted the culture clashes #that was a big part of the appeal #Cullen having Issues (TM) was a large part of what made him interesting #I suppose it says something about me that I found Samson more appealing than Cullen in DAI #both as a character and in appearance #give me the weird #give me the mess #I love a disaster #I love learning about other cultures and other ways of doing things #I want to meet in the middle - not where I am

[quicktimeeventfull]

also sorry to anyone who has tried to speak to me over the past couple days like istg half the time i try to engage in human communication it feels like running face first into a physical wall fhgfhjlgfnh

#ok sorry im done now #i am ill(tm) etc etc etc statistically all will be fine in the end but its a mess rn

[unproduciblesmackdown]

billions(tm): it's incredible how we just provide a little snippet of material designed to be "guy we all want to push down the stairs immediately somehow" and through this amazing acting alchemy it becomes gold. electric. magnificent. we can't get enough so we will just keep writing this loser character and the actor will somehow keep bringing the dazzling transmutation through his ability

actor will roland: [is aware autistic people are real]

#this is at least half humorous in several ways lmao but also like fr... #winston billions #will roland has pretty much said he is aware that autistic people real. and not [ppl's utterly off the walls assumptions abt what Defines #Autism or what an Autistic Person is like and how you would Know] #i don't think that Billions(tm) would be very much better at that than re: say; taylor's being nonbinary (surprisingly alright yet. u kno) #quant kid 2 could've been anyone but writing Winston is like so certainly the common deal of the inadvertently autistic character #drawing from all the autistic people allistic ppl encounter all thee time without being aware & deciding they're annoying / jerks / too #weird to live too pathetic to die / grating nerds / Funnily Odd in a way you deign to merely raise an eyebrow or scrunch your face at.... #so on so forth. ''oh you know Those People we all know who are just Like That'' #and deciding they must be ''just like that'' b/c they're either too arrogantly rude &/or clueless / Unaware to be neurotypically superior #also do not get me wrong lmao big old proponent of Did You Know That? Actors Act. Now You Know #so of course yes will's acting is off the shits i mean here i am am i right. and he is using it when he is acting. #the acting talent Is off the shits. the tiniest moments they give him & he CRUSHES KILLS it really is amazing i'm not waving it off at all #cue twitter randos so betrayed when kelly aucoin is not dollar bill & is like ''yes in my acting job i'm playing this fuckin asshole'' #meanwhile i'm still following the interviewer who a) asked will anything abt billions b) talked abt the immediate striking intro of will's #as quant kid 2 And the immediate draw of / effervescent dynamic between winston & taylor. Someone Who Gets It #anyway it's like will can fathom that actually the people who are Always ''acting wrong'' w/their bad grating vibes no matter what they do #are not always Those People(tm) who We all know & loathe right....thee magic of knowing winston can be someone fully earnest #and of course always actually trying; & having perfectly comprehensible wants & needs. damn how's he doing that #bringing a certain je ne sais quoi to this Insufferable Loser Nerd material! so we don't mess with the process. #i.e. we will only ever let his role get dunked on forever b/c sure can't fathom anything else anyways. our Correct characters could never.. #only tuk; adjacent in wrong nerd loserdom; can be his friend. rian who is correct but zany with it can be his abusive friend

[thequiver]

It really is funny to me that whenever I post about the flaws of the female characters I love I get accused of not liking them

#my dudes I am actively putting together a Dinah cosplay #I love her #she’s just also a hot mess and made of issues (tm)

[niuxita21]

#madre solo hay dos #ana servín #mariana herrera #shitty screencap posts (TM) #*taps microphone* is this thing on? #yeah I finally put on my big girl pants and started season 3 #I wasn't planning to until I knew exactly what the endgame was to avoid any nasty surprises #but it appears I did such a good job at avoiding spoilers that I couldn't seem to find them no matter how hard I tried to run into them #(without actually going actively looking for them that is) #but I finally managed to piece together an approximate idea of what they went with via context clues and deductive reasoning #so we are a go for shitty screencap posts and tag vomit #starting with this masterpiece inspired by what ceci said #I can't believe she is the biggest in-show shipper what a stroke of genius #I am also loving the very much anti-homophobia message that's being weaved throughout #from all the times the actual word 'homophobic' was uttered in a single episode which was pretty cool #to the fact that juan carlos spend half the episode yapping about how AnA iS nOt A lEsBiAnnnnn #but the SECOND ro was like 'I'd rather my mom be a liar than in a relationship with another woman' he jumped to ana's defense #like 'yo that's messed up there's nothing wrong with your mom being gay just with her making shit up to win a lawsuit there's a difference' #and you know what there IS and I think they're toeing that line quite well idk #anyways we'll see I guess but I just had to make this because it tickled me #sorry for the shitty resolution I can never get it right for text posts le sigh

[jochasada]

Disclaimer: I love Kang Seo Joon with all my heart.

But boy, if you were one of my best friends, I would have told you to get your head out of your ass.

Sleeping outside his ex’s house, eating his food in his restaurant, integrating himself with all of Ji Woo’s loved ones - these behaviours are not normal. In fact, if it was anyone besides Seo Joon doing this, we would call it stalking.

It’s terrifying to see how dependant he is on Ji Woo. It is terrifying knowing how badly his mental health suffered and how his abandonment issues clearly worsened. It is of course not helped by the way Ji Woo left either, so thanks for that bud.

If this was real life, I would want Seo Joon to learn to be himself without Ji Woo. I would want him to realise he can stand on his own two feet and not need anyone. Instead, his unhealthy attachment may be romanticised.

I really hope his abandonment issues aren’t swept under the rug. I feel he is overdue completely exploding on Ji Woo (and according to the trailer we know that will be happening). No one can just take all this pain and do nothing but continue chasing the person who caused. No one - not even Kang Seo Joon.

I want someone to remind him that it is okay to feel these ugly emotions and to show them. Honesty is more than showing people your vulnerability. Honesty is being true to yourself about the hurt and anger you are feeling and communicating that. It is being true about your intentions and it is about knowing what you are worth.

Kang Seo Joon is worth so much more than camping outside his ex’s house, eating his food and forcing a place in his life. Kang Seo Joon is worth an honest and open love. I hope Han Ji Woo will be able to give that to him, but right now, he is too emotionally immature for that. It hurts but Kang Seo Joon needs to walk away with his final words to Ji Woo being:

“What you did to me is the worst thing a lover can do. Don’t use these words and my pain to allow yourself to pity yourself and hate yourself, so that you continue to stay away from me. Use my pain to open your eyes to what I am worth: An explanation. My pain shouldn’t have to do that for you; I should have been worth it from the start. If you can’t say it, then write it. Don’t keep me in a limbo like this, I won’t survive it.”

#i just have so many feelings #i am finally furious #but I am more hurt than anything #Seo joon deserves so much more #ji woo’s explanation better be fucking worth it #i can’t see myself being happy with them #they’re my favourite couple and I just feel so cheated #i feel like there’s so much drama for drama’s sake #i know this is a reality that is possible for who Seo Joon and Ji Woo are #but it is too much now #it hurts more after seeing this kiss than before #ji woo wouldn’t give in like this #this is the equivalent to messing around with someone’s feelings #i can’t believe this #to my star 2: our untold stories #to my star #to my star 2 #tms 2 #tms #han ji woo #jiwoo x seojoon #kang seo joon

[seesgood]

“you’re going to ruin my stone cold bitch reputation” - girl who just cried bc someone said something nice out of the blue

#i actually cry a little every time it’s clear that someone thought of me #outside of moments where we are directly communicating #tonight’s tears were brought to you by patrick #a genuine certified Good Human(tm) #/ tbd. #am i a mess??? yes. #but i could be YOUR mess for the low low price of — oh we’re already mutuals? it’s too late

[earthshiiine]

|| @mehrere-musen, the ficlet I talked about :’)

Show me your teeth, she remembers, thought to implore him, let me know what it is to love a wolf.

How that word makes her stomach sour, even now, lightyears and dimensions away, how it makes the tips of her fingers go numb in retribution of the thought. Love, love, love; she could not and would not love that thing, that creature with sclera of galaxies and fingernails of stone, but she could always acquiesce to urges and moments and excuses.

Show me your fucking teeth, but this time it’s Stephen’s ear she wants to whispered it into, nipping ear lobes with an aggression she’d learn from a man made for war, and tug and tug until he snaps back. This is it, she thinks. This must be the part of her that she’d missed for years-- somewhere between cheating death in her own universe, to becoming a puppet of SHIELD, to finding home in the Sanctum Sanctorum-- she ought to throw it away again.

Eleanor can’t throw it away, because the awful thing that lives inside her wants to pretend she’s home again, that the man that’s currently astride her is the wolf she’d left behind. 

He isn’t. He-- he could never be. 

Same skin, but after the shed he’s something entirely different. Stephen is something dangerous, always, though not in the way that carves still-beating hearts from chests, not in the way that sand becomes glass. And that is her undoing, paging through the tome that sang the hymns of Chthon and Set, utilizing the last ounce of her will to not stare so deeply into him that she’d burn a hole. The chip in her brain can do many things, many miraculous things that set her apart from humanity-- and yet she cannot bring herself to command it to deactivate her emotions. Her urges.

Like war drums in her head, stammering to the march of her inevitable death! 

     “Stephen,” at long last, staring into the inky black rendition of Set’s extermination of Bragi’s tribe, “I have to go.”

In true Eleanor Sundén fashion, without waiting for an answer, she’s already turned heel with the tome tucked under her arm. Electricity burns through her veins when he grasps her wrist, stopping her in place with guard immediately up, heart thrumming so violently it might escape her chest. 

     “What’s wrong? You’ve been acting... off lately. If this is too much for you--”

     “It isn’t,” curt, flat, almost offended that he’d think as much in the first place. “And I’m just... tired.”

She tugged at her wrist, eyes closing in frustration when he didn’t let go. Stubborn, just like--

     “Look, I know we’ve had our differences, but this is whole Elder God thing won’t wait, and I need to know I can rely on you.”

As one, as one; where does he begin and where does she end?

She shouldn't want this.

She can’t want this.

And yet, Eleanor had learned to live with long nights and rain. 

Hadn't meant for this, something like grasping at whisper-thin wings and expecting to fly-- delusional, entirely selfish. She’s pathetic when she spins, kisses him there, fistful of his tunic, standing on the tips of her toes because she’s too polite to yank him downward. His lips feel like the edge of night, like static, like a current that threatens to drown all who dare come too near. 

He doesn’t taste like an alter, a knife, or iron; the realization summons a nausea so deep in the pit of her gut that it blurs her vision. Not always mind over matter, she learns.

     “Fuck you,” is all that forms in the wake of her emotional whirlwind, letting go of him and nearly sprinting away to her room, leaving him a gaping fool, a wounded idiot, a man spun further into her web.

#this town is a prison cell with a million people in it; this town is a candy-coated hell (drabbles.) #my name is lee and i am a weirdo(TM) #this is just an excerpt from the whole mess of the fic lmao #the first part deals with kha.n #then it's on to multiverse shenanigans

[glassandmetalwings]

Anxiety is really saying I’m not doing anything tonight, apparently. Not even nice things.

#I'm going in to school for a presentation and tutoring tomorrow #so I'm also going to try to make up a vocab and at least one kanji quiz #but that's all a lot especially since I physically haven't been to school in weeks bc life hates me #so I am a mess(TM) #wings does things

[trainingdummyrabbit]

lying faceup on th floor. yknow maybe i should take a break from artposting,

#i dont wannaaaa but. i sure am taking minecraft poison damage from Mild Stress(tm) WAHAHA #my training in asking 'am i doing this for me or for the idea of a person i dont know.' is starting 2 manifest. hmmrm. #feels bad t do it Now of all times (also completely whiffing starting comms again) but man. Man #as much as i need t do em. i just do Not think doing comms is sustainable for me rn WAHAHAH.... #piktalk #WAVES HANDS AROUND. MESS AND NONSENSE but. mmrm. >^>....

[smajorqna]

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Hello!

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Welcome to the blog i made because i thought of it in class and i need some sort of way to feed my hyperfixation.

Here is a carrd with more info about this mess. (coming soon)

All art belongs to me!! I made it!! Please dont steal or use for ai (sense thats been getting popular recently..). And please ask before reposting and if your too nervous please at least credit me :)

(Press "Read More" below for tldr for the carrd and an ID for each image)

(Last updated: 12/10/22 11:19am CDT)

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And now if you look just below youll see all the tags i use and what they mean :) (more will be added in the future)

#smajorqna - all posts posted on this blog

#4th wall breakthrough - ooc posts

#smajor of rivendell - all answers from c!scott

#hearts the creator tm - all answers/cameos from my persona, hearts

#hello deer anon - all questions from fellow anons! Hello anons :)

#(tw/cw here) - obviously wont say that exactly but if a post talks about anything triggering or anything that needs warning i will put it there and i will put it at the beginning of the post :)

#posts about beloved husband - posts mentioning or even including the one and only codfather (will be also used as flower husbands tag so if you don't wanna see that block it!!!)

#cameos - other character cameos featured

#id below read more - will be put for every post with images in it (besides dividers)

#the 17th letter of the alphabet - this post was queued

Heres the tldr of the carrd: (aka a list of things i need to add to it)

This is C!/CHARACTER!!! In no way am i impersonating scott the content creator. I am simply answering questions the way i think his esmp1 character would answer.

Admittedly, i have never watched scotts esmp1 series- i mostly know about his character through clips, fanfics, fanarts, and other fans. I know im such a fake fan /sarc so if i get any lore or canon wrong please tell me and ill do my best to fix it. If i cannot, then oh well to bad so sad.

This will include my personal headcanons so if you haven't heard of whatever even or something from canon, its most likely a headcanon

This will also include flower husbands (c!scott x c!jimmy) so uh yeah dont imply any other ships other than them only because i dont personally ship it (its fine if you do, i have nothing wrong with that :) just keep it out of this blog)

Everything you see on this blog was done on my phone using my finger. So obviously there will be mistakes. So yk use common sense and dont point them out :) its rude.

And lastly, this is literally my first time doing this ever so please be nice, im sensitive

ID for each image/panel:

[Panel 1 (one): (start id) outlined and colorless drawing of empires season 1 (one) character scott looking confused or worried, there's a question mark symbol next to him showing he's confused. He's looking at another character to the right with the same drawing style. Scott's outline/lineart is a dark cyan. To the right of scott there's a character with shortish hair, pointy ears like scotts, with a plain t-shirt. They look feminine-ish and their expression looks happy. Near them is text saying "Me, the creator tm" pointing to them. The character's outline/lineart is a dark magenta-ish, or a really red pink. On the bottom of the screen is a grey box with a smaller box on the top left corner saying "Scott" in a dark cyan. Below is text in the same color saying "So.. Remind me of what to do here..?". (End id)]

[Panel 2 (two): (start id) Same character's and poses as panel 1 (one) with different expressions. Scott's expression is still similar, except this time his mouth is closed. The character's (who's name is Hearts) expression changed to them talking with their eyes closed. They look happy. Below them is the same dialogue box except with a different name and obviously different text. The name now reads "Hearts" and the dialogue says "You're going to answer some questions from people because I'm bored and I need something better to do with my life. :)" in the same color used for Hearts' outline. (End id)]

[Panel 3 (three): (start id) Scott is now center with Hearts gone, leaving a "Bye!" where they were last. Scott then looks to the left with an exhausted look. In the dialogue box it says in the dark cyan outline scott has with scotts name above, "This will be easier said than done..." (End id)]

Also yes ik the original third panel i misspelled "easier" but its too late now im tired

#smajorqna #heres all the other tags -> #4th wall breakthrough #smajor of rivendell #hearts the creator tm #hello deer anon #posts about beloved husband #cameos #id below read more #and heres some other tags for funsies #blog intro #rp blog #ish? Technically?? #my art #divider credits to the people who made them #(i just searched up cyan/winter dividers and saved the ones i liked-) #rp blog intro #ask c!scott #ask blog #i am not tagging scott im too afraid hell see this mess.. #Scott if you see this no you dont continue scrolling #the 17th letter of the alphabet #forgot this one

[sunfyred-a]

angsty question prompts | accepting

【@grndragn​​ sent a raven】:  ❛  who did this to you ?  ❜

he was unsure of what to feel — 𝐇𝐔𝐌𝐈𝐋𝐈𝐀𝐓𝐄𝐃, because of the state in which he’d been discovered, or 𝐑𝐄𝐋𝐈𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐃, because the arrival of his brother meant he could finally walk out of the shady brothel with whatever scraps of dignity he still had left.

he had been robbed, that much was obvious. clad in naught but ripped, soiled smallclothes, sitting in a puddle of his own piss, inebriated beyond his senses.

𝐁𝐄𝐇𝐎𝐋𝐃 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐅𝐔𝐓𝐔𝐑𝐄 𝐊𝐈𝐍𝐆 !

the thought caused a few high-pitched giggles to escape chapped lips, the question it followed making him look up at his brother with ever-tearful eyes despite the hysterical chuckling he seemed unable to stop.

“ the gods. ”

#a typical sunday morning in aegon targaryen's life ig #in which it is once again poor aemond's duty to collect this hot mess and bring it back home #anyway i am sad(tm) #【✧tried and executed】: replied #【✧the blood of the dragon runs thick】: saved #grndragn